Chapter 5 fourth quarter
For the next three days, I slept on the rented recliner, and my waist was almost broken. When Lao Yang pulled out the tube and was able to move around, I slept on the No. 13 hospital bed, feeling light and light, without any troubles. up.It is soft and textured, snow-white, can adjust the angle, and has a faint potion smell.The sun shines in from the window and falls on my face. At this time, I will think of the former factory doctor sister. My nostalgia for her has faded with the passage of time, and it will only reappear on such occasions. , so familiar that it no longer fills my brain, but just surrounds my pupils, like sunlight seen through my eyelids.I fell asleep all of a sudden.
Later, I was woken up by the nurse, and she said, "Bed thirteen, take medicine."
"I'm not."
"I know you're not. Bed thirteen is called Yang Chi." The nurse said, "Don't lie down, come down."
"I slept well."
"Family members cannot lie on hospital beds. This is the rule."
When I saw that Lao Yang was no longer there, I didn't know where he had gone. "Anyway, it's a waste of an empty bed if I don't lie on it. Just let me sleep for a while."
"When you visit the prison, can you go in and lie down?"
She was half-truthful, serious and smiling, kind of teasing me.I said that if I slept on that recliner again, I should go directly to the orthopedic ward to register.Throwing off the quilt and planning to jump down, the nurse covered her eyes with an ouch.I was very ashamed, and when I turned my head, I saw my shorts on the hot water bottle beside the bed.I fell asleep so badly, and lost my vigilance again, I forgot that Yang Chi is a very vindictive person.
After I put on my pants, I ran to the balcony to smoke a cigarette, and then looked for Lao Yang all over the world.The nurse came again and said to me, "Yang Chi is next door." I rushed into Ward No. 5, and greeted the nurse, "Come with me, I'm going to take off his pants, just like the summer vacation when I was a boy." , I'm going to draw a Libra on his needle-pocketed ass for you to see!The nurse was overjoyed, leaned against the door frame and said, "Remind you that this is a women's ward."
Lao Yang stood in front of the hospital bed, turned his head and put his index finger in front of his pouting lips.hush.The expression is very serious.
He points to the hospital bed.Only then did I see a small child lying on the bed, wrapped in a quilt, already asleep.I looked at Lao Yang, and thought this could not be the child of you and Senior Sister Shaoxing, right?Since this is a women's ward, I judge the gender of the child to be female. I'm not good at children, so I can't tell.A burly nurse aunt next to her said, "She is one and a half years old."
"It's nice." I said sarcastically.
"This is an orphan. Sent from the orphanage."
"Oh."
I lowered my head again, looking at the child curiously.The auntie of the nurse told me while eating melon seeds that the child had no father or mother (isn’t this nonsense?), and that the reason for being sent to the hospital was because of illness (or nonsense). Out).The child turned over, and I straightened up suddenly, feeling a little flustered.The nurse behind said: "It doesn't matter, one-and-a-half-year-old children are the most fun." At this time, Lao Yang ran back to his ward, brought some apples, and handed them to the nurse aunt.The nurse came in with a tray, hung a bottle of medicine on the iron shelf next to the bed, and then inserted a needle into the child's forehead.The child woke up and cried briefly, and the scene was a bit cruel.I step back.Yang Chi said to the nurse's aunt: "Later, you can peel the apple for her to eat." The nurse said approvingly: "University student, you are very caring." When he walked to the door, he turned around and gave Yang Chi a smile: " You are in good condition and can be discharged from the hospital the day after tomorrow."
"I will come back to see you." Lao Yang said.
While the child was fetching water, Lao Yang and I went back to Ward No. 6 to chat. He was restless, and when the child next door cried, he ran over to take a look.Back and forth several times.Later, I heard him quarreling with the auntie of the nurse: "Why do you eat my apple?" The auntie of the nurse said: "I just peeled off a piece and tasted whether it is sweet or not. You are a college student and you are too crooked." Lao Yang said: "My apples are all sweet. If you want to eat them, I'll give you some more." The nurse aunt said, "Oh, intellectuals are annoying."
At this time, some patients walked over to watch the excitement, and the auntie of the nurse continued to introduce the situation. The child was picked up last year, and he was not disabled or sick. He just threw it on the road without leaving a note.Why did a healthy child throw it away?This is very puzzling.The spectators speculated that she was a child from the countryside, where sons are preferred to girls. In order to avoid family planning fines, they probably threw the girl away or gave it away—the safest thing is to throw it away.An old man said, this is all good, there used to be infanticide, and they were just thrown into the well.Another old man said that although the countryside is backward, it is not that stupid. If you throw it into a well, how can you drink the well water? In fact, it is usually buried alive.Some people retorted that this is Shanghai, not a rural area, and the time and space are all fucking wrong. How could the child be so white and be from a rural area? It must be an illegitimate child.I was stopped in the outer circle by this group of watching patients and their family members, and I heard the child crying loudly.Lao Yang said: "It's all gone." At the same time, dinner was served, and people left one after another.
After a while, the nurse came to remove the needle from the child.This time the child didn't cry, and looked extraordinarily lovable.Lao Yang and I watched by the bed, and the child stretched out his hands to me.I'm a little scared, I'm naturally afraid of children.Lao Yang next to her stretched out a finger to her, and the child held his finger.The nurse patted the child and said to Lao Yang, "I really want to adopt her home." Lao Yang asked me to extend my hand too, but I refused, thinking that it was meaningless to be held by a one-and-a-half-year-old orphan. , you can't really give her anything.But Lao Yang didn't think so, he thought it was a miracle, no child had ever liked him.Later, the nurse aunt said, don't be too self-righteous, this is a child's stress response, normal children will have this, if not, it is cerebral palsy.
Lao Yang and the nurse had a good time entering Hong Kong.The nurse tickled the soles of the child's feet, and the child giggled.The nurse turned around and said to Lao Yang, "You can try it too." Lao Yang also scratched, and the child still smiled happily.The nurse next to her said that this was still a stress reaction, and it didn't mean she liked Lao Yang.No matter how good-tempered the nurse was, she now had a stern face and said, "Yes, I know this is a stress reaction, and I also have this kind of stress reaction. Are you annoying!"
Yang Chi's affection for orphans comes from his childhood.When he was five years old, his father went to Nanjing to study, and his mother happened to be ill, so he lived in a neighbor's house for about half a year.The past six months were quite scary. The neighbors gave him tofu every day, because tofu was cheaper, and if they offered meat, they would give him fat meat. It was cold, and he vomited whenever he saw tofu and fat meat in his life.At that time, when he went to kindergarten, the neighbors didn't pick him up and gave him a lunch, which he carried to report every day.This is worse than an orphan.There is also a middle school near the kindergarten. The middle school students met Lao Yang in the morning and put his lunch box on the tree without a second thought. As a result, when Lao Yang grew up, he could climb trees and walls faster than monkeys.Five years old is the beginning of his memory, the beginning is that he has no parents, he listens to a neurotic neighbor telling him ghost stories every night, climbs a tree in the morning to get a lunch box, and is beaten by his classmates before school. Caused him to lack a sense of security deep in his heart. In high school, Lao Yang fell in love with a girl in the same class. Her parents were from Zhibian and could not come back in Xinjiang.Soon she had a relationship with Lao Yang, and she had an affair at home at the age of sixteen. Later, the girl was admitted to a university in Nanjing, broke up with Lao Yang, and never saw her again.First love has a magnifying effect. It is said that the girl often said that she was an orphan when she was in love, which made him feel guilty deep in his heart.Adding two and two together, it becomes what it is now. I once told Lao Yang one thing.Around 1993, a person died in the saccharification factory where I worked. He owed a huge amount of debt, and the father paid off the debt, so he couldn't run away, and his son was only ten years old.With the special approval of the factory leader, the child was collecting donations in the factory, holding a cardboard box, and standing at the entrance of the cafeteria at noon every day.When you meet a kind-hearted person, throw some change or meal tickets into his cardboard box.The child never looked up, and every time I walked by, I saw a whirl on his head. I never dropped a dime into that cardboard box. "Lack of empathy?" "No. I sympathize with him, but I can't pull out change or a meal ticket and throw it in a cardboard box, it doesn't help, it just makes my sympathy as disgusting as the meal ticket." "You, I know. Your attention is on yourself. You look like a workman, but you're not. You're a poet. Right? A poet." "You're actually an American, damn it."
In the evening, Lao Yang went out again to buy all kinds of snacks and fruits, and put them on the child's bedside, winning a lot of compliments.Only the nurse aunt said that children may not be able to eat these things.Lao Yang didn't care, he was tired from running, went back to the hospital bed and fell asleep, and warned me not to try to take off his shorts. I went to the pharmacy alone to find Lu Xiaojuan. Lu Xiaojuan was on the night shift that day and hadn't started her job yet. She was sitting in the lounge, taking the last bit of rice from the aluminum lunch box into her mouth.I teased and said, "Xiaojuan, you have to work three shifts to be a doctor?" "Serve the people." Lu Xiaojuan put down her lunch box, "By the way, did you suffer from neurasthenia when you were working the third shift?" "Yes, I want to sleep every day." "If you want to sleep every day, that's not neurasthenia. If you can't sleep every day, that's it!" "Then I wouldn't have a nervous breakdown, and I'd be asleep on the stove then." "You're so lucky. I'm fucking nervous right now." We walked to the outpatient department to talk, and there was a smell of disinfectant outside.This smell is like perfume to some people, and it is also a kind of stress response.I can't, I love the smell of gasoline.We sat on rows of plastic chairs, shaking our legs while talking.I suddenly discovered the commonality in the family DNA, that is, shaking legs, sitting there shaking together, she shook her right leg, and I shook my left leg.My master said before that men are poor and women are cheap.This is a matter of experience.Leg shaking is an unconscious movement, it is beyond experience and reason, and it is completely out of the control of the brain.The two of us shook like crazy and felt happy, and finally a pregnant woman next to me couldn't take it anymore. She said, "Can you two stop shaking? If you shake again, my baby will fall down." We were so scared that we all stood up, He ran away in a hurry. "Take me out to play," I said, "It's so boring." "You should go back and take care of Yang Chi." "He doesn't need me to take care of him anymore, he has recovered." Xiaojuan thought for a while and said, "Then I'll go see Yang Chi too, I haven't seen him for a long time." When we walked to the ward, we heard Yang Chi screaming in the corridor. I walked in to see that the beautiful nurse was stabbing a silver needle into his buttocks. There were already many needle holes in his snow-white buttocks.Lao Yang turned around and said to the nurse, "Tomorrow, I'll give you an injection in your butt too." The nurse pulled out the needle, raised her chin, smiled provocatively, and left.I walked over and picked up the quilt and piled it on his exposed parts, and then called Lu Xiaojuan to come in. Lao Yang talked to us on his stomach. My nose is fine, I’m about to graduate, I haven’t found a job yet, I was an intern in a chemical plant, I had a fight with a worker master, and I failed two courses, one of which is called pipeline fluid thermodynamics, who the hell can understand what happened What's the matter, I didn't pass the English test, and found that I was not a chemical talent at all, but I studied international trade part-time in school, with excellent grades, and it was obvious that I was a business genius. Lu Xiaojuan listened coldly, feeling that he was too long-winded, and finally waited until he finished speaking. "Replenish your body well." Lu Xiaojuan finally urged, "Where is the supplement I asked Lu Xiaolu to buy for you?" "Where are the supplements?" Lao Yang asked. "I gave him three hundred yuan." Lu Xiaojuan stood up and said, "Lu Xiaolu, you can settle the bill with Yang Chi yourself, I don't care." "You actually gave Mi my money." Lao Yang shouted. "Two hundred of them are mine." I, a bankrupt young man, also shouted. Now it's Lao Yang's turn to scold me for not being human.For the sake of the orphan, he took out the medical money to buy snacks, while I pretended that I had a mental disorder with three hundred yuan in my pocket, and I couldn't give a little cheap, shit, and poetic sympathy.The more I listened, the bigger my head became.Lu Xiaojuan said, "Where are there orphans?" Lao Yang held her buttocks and led her to the next ward.Lu Xiaojuan walked up to the child, and the nurse aunt dutifully introduced her again. Xiaojuan let out a gentle sigh, reached out and picked up the child, then turned to me and said, "You are a scumbag, Lao Yang is a good person. " I was so ashamed that I ran downstairs to smoke and let the family of three be happy together.After a while, Lu Xiaojuan came out and said to me: "I'm going to work, come and play with me at night." I said, "Are you going in the middle of the night?" Lu Xiaojuan said: "Don't come in the middle of the night, my face will be swollen and it won't look good."
That night I took Lao Yang to pay a return visit to Lu Xiaojuan.At ten o'clock, she changed guard with her colleagues and sat in the break room. It was a bit cold in the spring night. She put on a dark blue cotton coat, similar to the female workers in the factory.The emergency room outside was very lively. Countless people who received injections had a tube growing on the back of their hand, like some kind of fish in the deep sea.After a while, the ambulance brought the bleeding man, followed by the police car.Lu Xiaojuan sighed and said, "Tonight is very lively." "What about before?" "It's often very deserted." Lu Xiaojuan said, "It's so lively during the day, and I feel annoying. There is no one at night, and I feel boring. Dispensing and distributing medicines is just such a small thing. You can't make mistakes. If you make mistakes, you will die. If you die, I will Go to jail." A hospital rest room is not much better than a factory locker room, with a row of cabinets and a row of shoes on the floor.Doctors are obsessed with cleanliness. The shoes within eight hours are special, and they don't wear them home.There are a few white coats hanging on the wall, and there is a bench against the wall, which is where the pharmacist on duty naps.No pillows or quilts, only a blue cotton coat. "The cotton coat is too shabby." Lao Yang said regretfully. "It was stolen if it wasn't shabby. There are many thieves in the hospital." Lu Xiaojuan said. "Let's leave without disturbing your sleep." Lao Yang said. "I can't sleep anyway." Lu Xiaojuan said, "Don't smoke here, this is a hospital." "If you can't sleep all the time, you will get sick, right?" "You'll get depression, mental illness." "can you?" "Yes." Lu Xiaojuan stood up and said, "Go out with me for a walk." It was colder outside, and she walked ahead in her overcoat, pointing to a taxi and saying, "Don't park in the ambulance lane." Then she took us to the dark open space in front of the clinic, and stopped there. , took a breath.The grand scene of the emergency room seemed to recede suddenly, those people gathered in the bright place, and the light drew a dividing line on the ground.Some dark red car taillights flickered. Lu Xiaojuan reached out for a cigarette, took two puffs and threw it away. "I thought doctors didn't smoke," Lao Yang said. "Take a few puffs to relieve boredom, not really." Lu Xiaojuan said. We stood for a while, and Lao Yang suddenly said, "I want to adopt that orphan, do you think it's okay?" Lu Xiaojuan said: "The procedures for adopting orphans are very complicated. Someone in our department adopts a child in an orphanage. The conditions are harsh. They must be at least 35 years old, have a proper job, and one of the couple is infertile. Orphans must be returned to the orphanage. Orphans belong to the state.” Lao Yang said: "I've asked, and I can 'adopt' the child without any restrictions. I will pay for the child's living expenses. On weekends, I can also visit the child and play with her." Lu Xiaojuan said: "That would be a good way. But you are like this - the people in the orphanage will only let the children play with you unless their brains are shot. It is better to find a serious job first. You stay is it in Shanghai?" "I don't know." Lao Yang said, "That's what I said, you don't have to take it seriously." Lu Xiaojuan lit another cigarette and said, "Hey, you are a good person, Yang Chi." We chatted for a while, about work, about what to look out for with nasal polyps, about depression.Later Lu Xiaojuan said that she was going to change shifts.Let's go back together.Lao Yang said, "I will probably be discharged from the hospital tomorrow." "Tomorrow and the day after tomorrow I will sleep at home and take sleeping pills, so you won't need to look for me when you leave the hospital." Lu Xiaojuan said. She went into the lounge and closed the door.Lao Yang and I stood silently among the crowd in the emergency department. After a while, we saw her come out wearing a white coat with her hands in her pockets. in the pharmacy. On the way back to the ward, I said to Lao Yang: "My sister is very poor. After graduating from college, she couldn't find a job. Her father spent 5,000 yuan and bribed the dean to get her into the hospital. It looks very beautiful. , In fact, it’s three shifts, sitting in the pharmacy for a lifetime. It’s impossible to be the director of the pharmacy department. She doesn’t want to do it anymore, but a person who studies medicine, what can he do if he doesn’t become a doctor? She is no better than you, you study chemistry Engineering, if you can’t be an engineer, you can still be the chairman of the labor union.” Lao Yang said: "You are really out of date. I am still feeling sorry for her, you actually said that I am the chairman of the labor union, damn it." I said, "Don't be sad, you should worry about yourself first." In the corridor of the ward, we saw the strong nurse auntie eating, and she was the only one who was still there when everyone was asleep.Lao Yang was very alert, and asked, "Are you eating the snacks I bought?" The nurse aunt said disdainfully, "Eat, I'm hungry in the middle of the night." I said angrily, "Is this also a stress reaction? Eat anything when you’re hungry?” The auntie nurse said, “Don’t get me wrong, this is puffed food, not suitable for children.” I said, “Then you can’t eat it either.” The nurse came out to see the situation and told us not to make noise, which affected the patient's rest.Yang Chi and I were not in a good mood, and the more we talked, the more angry we became. When we walked into Ward No. 5, we saw that the whole package of snacks had been unpacked, and we had eaten them in pieces.The child sleeps sideways with half of his head outside the bed.This aunt is too irresponsible, her mouth is hard and greedy.Lao Yang snatched the snacks from her hand, the auntie was more violent than me, she made a feint, which caught Lao Yang, and then let out a loud chicken crow, as if from a Bruce Lee movie.Lao Yang rushed forward and hit his aunt's elbow hammer with his nose. I saw Yang Chi covered his nose and straightened his body and swayed for a while, the nurse covered her mouth and screamed, and the nurse's auntie was still covering the snacks in her hand.Suddenly, nosebleeds gushed out from Lao Yang's fingers.
Yang Chi's affection for orphans comes from his childhood.When he was five years old, his father went to Nanjing to study, and his mother happened to be ill, so he lived in a neighbor's house for about half a year.The past six months were quite scary. The neighbors gave him tofu every day, because tofu was cheaper, and if they offered meat, they would give him fat meat. It was cold, and he vomited whenever he saw tofu and fat meat in his life.At that time, when he went to kindergarten, the neighbors didn't pick him up and gave him a lunch, which he carried to report every day.This is worse than an orphan.There is also a middle school near the kindergarten. The middle school students met Lao Yang in the morning and put his lunch box on the tree without a second thought. As a result, when Lao Yang grew up, he could climb trees and walls faster than monkeys.Five years old is the beginning of his memory, the beginning is that he has no parents, he listens to a neurotic neighbor telling him ghost stories every night, climbs a tree in the morning to get a lunch box, and is beaten by his classmates before school. Caused him to lack a sense of security deep in his heart. In high school, Lao Yang fell in love with a girl in the same class. Her parents were from Zhibian and could not come back in Xinjiang.Soon she had a relationship with Lao Yang, and she had an affair at home at the age of sixteen. Later, the girl was admitted to a university in Nanjing, broke up with Lao Yang, and never saw her again.First love has a magnifying effect. It is said that the girl often said that she was an orphan when she was in love, which made him feel guilty deep in his heart.Adding two and two together, it becomes what it is now. I once told Lao Yang one thing.Around 1993, a person died in the saccharification factory where I worked. He owed a huge amount of debt, and the father paid off the debt, so he couldn't run away, and his son was only ten years old.With the special approval of the factory leader, the child was collecting donations in the factory, holding a cardboard box, and standing at the entrance of the cafeteria at noon every day.When you meet a kind-hearted person, throw some change or meal tickets into his cardboard box.The child never looked up, and every time I walked by, I saw a whirl on his head. I never dropped a dime into that cardboard box. "Lack of empathy?" "No. I sympathize with him, but I can't pull out change or a meal ticket and throw it in a cardboard box, it doesn't help, it just makes my sympathy as disgusting as the meal ticket." "You, I know. Your attention is on yourself. You look like a workman, but you're not. You're a poet. Right? A poet." "You're actually an American, damn it."
In the evening, Lao Yang went out again to buy all kinds of snacks and fruits, and put them on the child's bedside, winning a lot of compliments.Only the nurse aunt said that children may not be able to eat these things.Lao Yang didn't care, he was tired from running, went back to the hospital bed and fell asleep, and warned me not to try to take off his shorts. I went to the pharmacy alone to find Lu Xiaojuan. Lu Xiaojuan was on the night shift that day and hadn't started her job yet. She was sitting in the lounge, taking the last bit of rice from the aluminum lunch box into her mouth.I teased and said, "Xiaojuan, you have to work three shifts to be a doctor?" "Serve the people." Lu Xiaojuan put down her lunch box, "By the way, did you suffer from neurasthenia when you were working the third shift?" "Yes, I want to sleep every day." "If you want to sleep every day, that's not neurasthenia. If you can't sleep every day, that's it!" "Then I wouldn't have a nervous breakdown, and I'd be asleep on the stove then." "You're so lucky. I'm fucking nervous right now." We walked to the outpatient department to talk, and there was a smell of disinfectant outside.This smell is like perfume to some people, and it is also a kind of stress response.I can't, I love the smell of gasoline.We sat on rows of plastic chairs, shaking our legs while talking.I suddenly discovered the commonality in the family DNA, that is, shaking legs, sitting there shaking together, she shook her right leg, and I shook my left leg.My master said before that men are poor and women are cheap.This is a matter of experience.Leg shaking is an unconscious movement, it is beyond experience and reason, and it is completely out of the control of the brain.The two of us shook like crazy and felt happy, and finally a pregnant woman next to me couldn't take it anymore. She said, "Can you two stop shaking? If you shake again, my baby will fall down." We were so scared that we all stood up, He ran away in a hurry. "Take me out to play," I said, "It's so boring." "You should go back and take care of Yang Chi." "He doesn't need me to take care of him anymore, he has recovered." Xiaojuan thought for a while and said, "Then I'll go see Yang Chi too, I haven't seen him for a long time." When we walked to the ward, we heard Yang Chi screaming in the corridor. I walked in to see that the beautiful nurse was stabbing a silver needle into his buttocks. There were already many needle holes in his snow-white buttocks.Lao Yang turned around and said to the nurse, "Tomorrow, I'll give you an injection in your butt too." The nurse pulled out the needle, raised her chin, smiled provocatively, and left.I walked over and picked up the quilt and piled it on his exposed parts, and then called Lu Xiaojuan to come in. Lao Yang talked to us on his stomach. My nose is fine, I’m about to graduate, I haven’t found a job yet, I was an intern in a chemical plant, I had a fight with a worker master, and I failed two courses, one of which is called pipeline fluid thermodynamics, who the hell can understand what happened What's the matter, I didn't pass the English test, and found that I was not a chemical talent at all, but I studied international trade part-time in school, with excellent grades, and it was obvious that I was a business genius. Lu Xiaojuan listened coldly, feeling that he was too long-winded, and finally waited until he finished speaking. "Replenish your body well." Lu Xiaojuan finally urged, "Where is the supplement I asked Lu Xiaolu to buy for you?" "Where are the supplements?" Lao Yang asked. "I gave him three hundred yuan." Lu Xiaojuan stood up and said, "Lu Xiaolu, you can settle the bill with Yang Chi yourself, I don't care." "You actually gave Mi my money." Lao Yang shouted. "Two hundred of them are mine." I, a bankrupt young man, also shouted. Now it's Lao Yang's turn to scold me for not being human.For the sake of the orphan, he took out the medical money to buy snacks, while I pretended that I had a mental disorder with three hundred yuan in my pocket, and I couldn't give a little cheap, shit, and poetic sympathy.The more I listened, the bigger my head became.Lu Xiaojuan said, "Where are there orphans?" Lao Yang held her buttocks and led her to the next ward.Lu Xiaojuan walked up to the child, and the nurse aunt dutifully introduced her again. Xiaojuan let out a gentle sigh, reached out and picked up the child, then turned to me and said, "You are a scumbag, Lao Yang is a good person. " I was so ashamed that I ran downstairs to smoke and let the family of three be happy together.After a while, Lu Xiaojuan came out and said to me: "I'm going to work, come and play with me at night." I said, "Are you going in the middle of the night?" Lu Xiaojuan said: "Don't come in the middle of the night, my face will be swollen and it won't look good."
That night I took Lao Yang to pay a return visit to Lu Xiaojuan.At ten o'clock, she changed guard with her colleagues and sat in the break room. It was a bit cold in the spring night. She put on a dark blue cotton coat, similar to the female workers in the factory.The emergency room outside was very lively. Countless people who received injections had a tube growing on the back of their hand, like some kind of fish in the deep sea.After a while, the ambulance brought the bleeding man, followed by the police car.Lu Xiaojuan sighed and said, "Tonight is very lively." "What about before?" "It's often very deserted." Lu Xiaojuan said, "It's so lively during the day, and I feel annoying. There is no one at night, and I feel boring. Dispensing and distributing medicines is just such a small thing. You can't make mistakes. If you make mistakes, you will die. If you die, I will Go to jail." A hospital rest room is not much better than a factory locker room, with a row of cabinets and a row of shoes on the floor.Doctors are obsessed with cleanliness. The shoes within eight hours are special, and they don't wear them home.There are a few white coats hanging on the wall, and there is a bench against the wall, which is where the pharmacist on duty naps.No pillows or quilts, only a blue cotton coat. "The cotton coat is too shabby." Lao Yang said regretfully. "It was stolen if it wasn't shabby. There are many thieves in the hospital." Lu Xiaojuan said. "Let's leave without disturbing your sleep." Lao Yang said. "I can't sleep anyway." Lu Xiaojuan said, "Don't smoke here, this is a hospital." "If you can't sleep all the time, you will get sick, right?" "You'll get depression, mental illness." "can you?" "Yes." Lu Xiaojuan stood up and said, "Go out with me for a walk." It was colder outside, and she walked ahead in her overcoat, pointing to a taxi and saying, "Don't park in the ambulance lane." Then she took us to the dark open space in front of the clinic, and stopped there. , took a breath.The grand scene of the emergency room seemed to recede suddenly, those people gathered in the bright place, and the light drew a dividing line on the ground.Some dark red car taillights flickered. Lu Xiaojuan reached out for a cigarette, took two puffs and threw it away. "I thought doctors didn't smoke," Lao Yang said. "Take a few puffs to relieve boredom, not really." Lu Xiaojuan said. We stood for a while, and Lao Yang suddenly said, "I want to adopt that orphan, do you think it's okay?" Lu Xiaojuan said: "The procedures for adopting orphans are very complicated. Someone in our department adopts a child in an orphanage. The conditions are harsh. They must be at least 35 years old, have a proper job, and one of the couple is infertile. Orphans must be returned to the orphanage. Orphans belong to the state.” Lao Yang said: "I've asked, and I can 'adopt' the child without any restrictions. I will pay for the child's living expenses. On weekends, I can also visit the child and play with her." Lu Xiaojuan said: "That would be a good way. But you are like this - the people in the orphanage will only let the children play with you unless their brains are shot. It is better to find a serious job first. You stay is it in Shanghai?" "I don't know." Lao Yang said, "That's what I said, you don't have to take it seriously." Lu Xiaojuan lit another cigarette and said, "Hey, you are a good person, Yang Chi." We chatted for a while, about work, about what to look out for with nasal polyps, about depression.Later Lu Xiaojuan said that she was going to change shifts.Let's go back together.Lao Yang said, "I will probably be discharged from the hospital tomorrow." "Tomorrow and the day after tomorrow I will sleep at home and take sleeping pills, so you won't need to look for me when you leave the hospital." Lu Xiaojuan said. She went into the lounge and closed the door.Lao Yang and I stood silently among the crowd in the emergency department. After a while, we saw her come out wearing a white coat with her hands in her pockets. in the pharmacy. On the way back to the ward, I said to Lao Yang: "My sister is very poor. After graduating from college, she couldn't find a job. Her father spent 5,000 yuan and bribed the dean to get her into the hospital. It looks very beautiful. , In fact, it’s three shifts, sitting in the pharmacy for a lifetime. It’s impossible to be the director of the pharmacy department. She doesn’t want to do it anymore, but a person who studies medicine, what can he do if he doesn’t become a doctor? She is no better than you, you study chemistry Engineering, if you can’t be an engineer, you can still be the chairman of the labor union.” Lao Yang said: "You are really out of date. I am still feeling sorry for her, you actually said that I am the chairman of the labor union, damn it." I said, "Don't be sad, you should worry about yourself first." In the corridor of the ward, we saw the strong nurse auntie eating, and she was the only one who was still there when everyone was asleep.Lao Yang was very alert, and asked, "Are you eating the snacks I bought?" The nurse aunt said disdainfully, "Eat, I'm hungry in the middle of the night." I said angrily, "Is this also a stress reaction? Eat anything when you’re hungry?” The auntie nurse said, “Don’t get me wrong, this is puffed food, not suitable for children.” I said, “Then you can’t eat it either.” The nurse came out to see the situation and told us not to make noise, which affected the patient's rest.Yang Chi and I were not in a good mood, and the more we talked, the more angry we became. When we walked into Ward No. 5, we saw that the whole package of snacks had been unpacked, and we had eaten them in pieces.The child sleeps sideways with half of his head outside the bed.This aunt is too irresponsible, her mouth is hard and greedy.Lao Yang snatched the snacks from her hand, the auntie was more violent than me, she made a feint, which caught Lao Yang, and then let out a loud chicken crow, as if from a Bruce Lee movie.Lao Yang rushed forward and hit his aunt's elbow hammer with his nose. I saw Yang Chi covered his nose and straightened his body and swayed for a while, the nurse covered her mouth and screamed, and the nurse's auntie was still covering the snacks in her hand.Suddenly, nosebleeds gushed out from Lao Yang's fingers.