Chapter 7 6. Yu Xiaoman's Love and Friendship

The first snow of this winter fell quietly at night.Thus, in the fluttering snowflakes, the city is wrapped in a silver world.The snow was not falling thickly, and in some places, you could see the gray-blue road surface when you stepped on it.But the roof of the building, streets, trees, flowers and plants are all soaked in the atmosphere of the snow scene, appearing white and pure.This first snow made the temperature drop sharply, and the air became fresh and bitter. Passers-by on the road all wore wool caps and leather gloves. The women wore colorful coats, and even turned up their collars to prevent the cold Snowflakes poured into his neck.People put on leather boots and walked carefully on the melting snow; the car drove very slowly, and the wheels rubbed against the snow, making a dull sound.

Xiao Man was caught off guard by this snowy day.Therefore, she neither prepared winter clothes nor winter shoes for herself.In March, she came to Baiyun City wearing a sweater and single shoes, and she only carried a few summer and autumn clothes worn by students.Ever since Wang Liang held her in his arms on that sandstorm night, she has been obsessed with wandering in the late autumn and cannot extricate herself.Reminiscing about Wang Liang's affectionate kisses became her homework.Whether walking alone on the street or doing housework alone in the kitchen, just think of Wang Liang, think of him hugging her tightly in the dark, and then move his moist lips to her face, forehead, and lips... ...her heart was drunk.But after that weekend, Wang Liang suddenly disappeared. I don't know if he was avoiding her on purpose, or he really went somewhere. Anyway, every time she called Baiyun University, the answer she got was: Wang Liang was not there.Ask further: Do you know he has gone?The person who answered the phone replied: I don't know.Several times, she had the idea of ​​going to Baiyun University to find Wang Liang, but every time she wanted to implement it, she hesitated again.If Wang Liang was really not there, it would be meaningless for her to go looking for him; if Wang Liang was at school and he just didn't want to see her again, her presence would be even more meaningless.She had an intuition that Wang Liang was avoiding her, otherwise, no matter how important the matter was, he wouldn't have to just walk away without trying to inform her.In a sense, Wang Liang did not have any reason with her, and there was no need for Wang Liang to greet her when he went.But those weekend gatherings, those passionate kisses, how can we explain them?Could it be that all of this has no emotional component, a boy can kiss a girl in a state of zero emotion?But after the kiss, why was Wang Liang afraid to meet her again?He felt guilty and regretted it?Or feel embarrassed?While Yu Xiaoman was reminiscing about those sweet kisses, she was also obsessed with these incomprehensible troubles.Her naive little head couldn't explain such a complicated emotional problem in any case.She once took the risk to ask Ah Hui for advice on this question. Sure enough, Ah Hui heard that a big boy kissed a girl younger than him and then disappeared. is that you?Ahui's ridicule made Yu Xiaoman flush with embarrassment. Although she repeatedly claimed that she watched it from TV, Ahui asked her the name of the TV series.Yu Xiaoman had no choice but to make up a nonsense.However, the well-informed Ah Hui finally gave her some advice: "If that big boy slips away after kissing a little girl, then the boy is definitely not a good guy. He is deceiving the girl's feelings. If it were me, I would hate him for the rest of my life." Yu Xiaoman wanted to defend Wang Liang, so she said: "He just kissed her, and the girl didn't lose anything, what kind of deceit is this!" Ah Hui But don't think so: "Why is there no loss? Can a girl be kissed by a man casually? Tell you Xiaoman, I don't know much about love. But except for the man who is engaged to me, other men can kiss me. If he does this, I will definitely make him compensate for the loss." Yu Xiaoman was still unwilling to smear Wang Liang's kiss on her.Reluctantly, he added: "Maybe the boy who kissed the girl was also out of affection and love!" Ah Hui immediately took the bait and said: "If there is really affection and love, then he should be engaged to the girl, why did he slip away?" Huh? He is simply a hooligan." Hearing what Ah Hui said, Yu Xiaoman felt mixed feelings as if she had knocked over a bottle of five ignorance.Wang Liang is not such a person, Wang Liang kissed me because of love.She retorted loudly in her heart.

However, weekend after weekend passed, but there was no sign of Wang Liang in this family.He seemed to have never appeared in Yu Xiaoman's life, leaving no trace.In order to solve this mystery, Yu Xiaoman mentioned Wang Liang obliquely in a letter to her good friend Wang Bo, and wrote carefully: Since I found the job of nanny, I have no time to contact your brother. He is about to graduate!Hope to tell.But Wang Bo said in his reply: "My brother should graduate next year. However, he is currently preparing his graduation thesis. He is very busy with homework and rarely writes letters to his family." Did he go to school or somewhere else? Did he write a letter to his family, but there was still no news for a long time.It was Wang Bo's ambiguous letter that gave Yu Xiaoman the courage to look for Wang Liang.She thought, she must find Wang Liang and ask him the reason for his sudden disappearance.She wanted to tell Wang Liang that she didn't blame him for the kiss, and she wouldn't force him to get engaged to her like Ah Hui said. She just wanted to let him know that before he graduated, this place would always be his home. All weekend, she was looking forward to his arrival.

After countless times of hesitation, Yu Xiaoman finally set foot on the road to Baiyun University in the early morning of this snowy weekend—the weather was gloomy, and the dark clouds were piled up very thick, hanging low, as if they were about to press down like.There were still snowflakes floating in the air, and gusts of cold wind blew from a distance, swept up the snow on the ground, threw it fiercely at people's cheeks, and then passed away in a hurry.In the cold weather of this midwinter, the noisy city in the past suddenly became solemn and quiet.All the noise is buried in the ice and snow, pedestrians just try their best to keep their necks on the road, and even the sound of car horns becomes pale and weak.

Yu Xiaoman, who was among the pedestrians, looked very special.She was wearing a thin brick-red nylon jacket with a shallow shawl neckline, which made her neck look thin and long; the torn cuffs were at least three inches shorter than her arm. She had no choice but to Let a gray sweater that was also frayed and torn at the edge stick out his head.This jacket, which should have been retired long ago, was narrow and small on her body. As long as she moved her body, the elasticated skirt would jump up to her waist.Therefore, she walked all the way, and kept pulling down the hem of the disobedient clothes with her hands.She didn't wear woolen trousers on her legs. This morning, when she took out the old fleece trousers she brought from home and put them on her legs, she accidentally broke the long trouser leg line, so she pulled it out angrily. Throw it under the bed.She had no choice but to put on a pair of old-fashioned skinny leg elastic pants on the outside of the spring and autumn pants.This pair of trousers is a disposal product that my mother bought at a market stall the year before last.Nowadays, wide and fat-leg pants are popular in the whole city. Therefore, when the tall and thin Yu Xiaoman wore this eccentric outfit and put on a pair of shallow brown leather shoes that Liu Liping gave her in summer, she appeared in the cold wind. On the street, almost everyone who passed by her couldn't help stretching out their necks shrunk in their coats, and looked at her in surprise.A group of male middle school students who didn't know where to go wandered up to her, and even sang "You are like that fire..."

Yu Xiaoman just walked quickly, she didn't feel how cold it was, and she couldn't feel the strange eyes shot at her.Her body and mind were immersed in a kind of trance dream.The distance from home to the bus station was not too long, but she had several dreams. After a while, she saw herself standing at the gate of Baiyun University, and Wang Liang ran towards her excitedly.Just like the last time I saw him, he was not wearing a hat, his short black hair was bouncing up and down in the wind, and his bright black eyes were shining with joy; after a while, she saw herself standing alone on the job-hunting little boy. In the square, except for the flying dust, there was no one around; for a while, she felt that she was nestled in Wang Liang's arms, and she was crying, the tears flowed quickly and quickly, heartbroken, Wang Liang hugged her tightly, Whisper in her ear, Xiaoman, I will never leave you again, in this life, I only love you...

A double-decker bus with a picture of Master Kong's instant noodle advertisement slowly passed by Yu Xiaoman, and the strong smell of gasoline woke her up from her dream.She rubbed her eyes, and hurriedly retreated to the pavement lined with tiles. The bus stop was full of people waiting for the bus.The combination of snow and bad road conditions has become the reason for the bus to be delayed.People stomped their feet and watched in dismay as more and more passengers filled the station.Finally, a No. 14 car drove over, but the inside of the car was already filled with darkness.As soon as the doors opened, people rushed up like crazy.At first, Yu Xiaoman was also caught in the crowd, but she was pushed and hugged three times, and was left behind again.The bus drove away, and someone reluctantly waved to the approaching taxi, took a taxi and left.Yu Xiaoman saw that the number of passengers on the station had not decreased, and couldn't help feeling anxious.

In this world, no matter what people do, there are certain reasons.This moment, while she was waiting for the car, might become the reason why she couldn't see Wang Liang.She imagined that Wang Liang, who had already had breakfast, was about to put on his cotton coat and prepare to go out.It's just a matter of being one step earlier and one step later.If she had arrived there when Wang Liang appeared at the campus gate, they would spend the weekend happily together again tonight; and become indefinitely distant. Yu Xiaoman involuntarily put her right hand, which was already purple with cold, into the pocket of her jacket, and her fingertips soon touched the hundred-yuan bill rolled into a paper tube.This is what she was going to buy for Wang Liang's dinner on the way back.She stroked the paper tube with her finger, then withdrew her hand.She was reluctant to use this money to take a ride. It was not Yao Xiuhua's meal expenses, but her own hard-earned money.Yu Xiaoman took out her right hand from her pocket and shook it vigorously, as if trying to get rid of her troubles.She still couldn't feel how cold it was.On the contrary, my heart was always burning with intense anxiety.She stepped out of the crowd waiting for the bus, stretched her neck and looked at the disappearing bus, her feet moved involuntarily.She walked forward quickly, calculating in her mind how many stops it would take to get to Baiyun University.

With a sound of "Ga--", a red car stopped behind Yu Xiaoman.She thought they were just parking at random, so she ignored them and continued walking.But just a few steps forward, someone stopped her from behind: "Yu Xiaoman! Xiaoman!" It's Jiang Meiduo.Jiang Meiduo, who was wearing a light gray cloak-style cashmere coat and a small plaid cashmere scarf of the same color, held the open car door with one hand, stood under the car, and waved to Yu Xiaoman. At that moment, if there was a crack in the ground, Yu Xiaoman would definitely get in without hesitation.But there are no cracks on the ground, the newly paved road is flat, and the potholes that were there before have also been filled, not to mention it is still covered with a layer of snow.After failing to find the crack, Yu Xiaoman had no choice but to turn around and face Jiang Meiduo.

"Where are you going?" Jiang Meiduo asked. "I——want to go to the supermarket to buy something." The blushing Yu Xiaoman said casually. "Get in the car, I'll take you there! Coincidentally, I also want to buy some food." Jiang Meiduo said. Yu Xiaoman really wanted to refuse, but she couldn't find a reason to refuse; she wanted to run away, but her legs seemed to be nailed and she couldn't lift them up.It seemed that she had no choice but to bite the bullet and walk over. "Why do you wear so little? You don't even have gloves on, you will freeze." Jiang Meiduo opened the back door of the car for her, looked her up and down and said.

"I'm not afraid of the cold." Yu Xiaoman said stupidly. After she sat down, Jiang Meiduo started the car. "Do you often go to the supermarket?" After the car drove for a while, Jiang Meiduo asked without words. "No." Yu Xiaoman only replied with one word. "How is your aunt's illness? I heard that her nerves are not normal." Jiang Meiduo still asked intentionally or unintentionally. Hearing her question, Yu Xiaoman was not only puzzled.In Jinyu Villa, no one has ever asked her about the hostess' illness. Even Tian Jie, who knows everything, seems to know nothing about it. How could Jiang Meiduo, who has never been in contact with others, know Is her mistress mentally abnormal?In order not to cause Jiang Meiduo's misunderstanding, although she was a little absent-minded, she still corrected her and said: "She is suffering from obesity." "Obesity? It's hard to cure! Her body must be huge, how can you take care of it by yourself?" Yu Xiaoman didn't answer. At this moment, Yu Xiaoman really wished she could get under the car.Right now, the person she fears the most is Jiang Meiduo. That night, she hurriedly knocked on the door of Jiang Meiduo's house, borrowed Jiang Meiduo 5,000 yuan, and vowed to return it to her in the morning.However, more than a month has passed since that night, but she, Yu Xiaoman, has not returned any money to Jiang Meiduo. Who is to blame?Can you blame her for being untrustworthy in Xiaoman's words? Yes, it was not Yu Xiaoman's fault that caused such consequences.She believed in Ah Hui too much, and sympathized with Ah Hui too much. When she picked up Ah Hui from the police station, she didn't even mention the five thousand yuan. I forgot.She didn't think about paying back the money until dawn that night.But lying in bed, she was not in a hurry, she thought Ah Hui would remember this and send the money over after she got up.Because Ah Hui said so on the phone.Ah Hui worked as a nanny at Liu Liping's house for three or four years, and must have saved a lot of money. It is not difficult for Ah Hui to pay off the five thousand yuan debt.Besides, one should be trustworthy in life. Since she promised to pay back the money early in the morning, even if she didn't have that much money, Ah Hui would find a way to get it together.So, that morning, when Yu Xiaoman was lying in bed thinking of the five thousand yuan in debt, she felt calm and calm, not in a hurry or panic.Sure enough, when she was getting dressed and washing up in the bathroom, the doorbell rang.Ah Hui is really a man of his word, to come so early.She felt a burst of relief.With the comb in hand, he ran downstairs and opened the door without even asking. An angry Liu Liping stood outside the door.In Yu Xiaoman's impression, Liu Liping has never been so angry like today, her almond eyes are always smiling, her eyes are wide open, her brows are raised high, her mouth is tightly pursed, and her nose is breathing hard.She looked just like those jealous and crazy women who came to catch third parties on TV. Yu Xiaoman couldn't help feeling flustered. The appearance of Liu Liping made Yu Xiaoman suddenly remember what Wang Jingfang said before leaving last night.She thought, the time has finally come, no need to ask, Liu Liping came to fire her by order. "Sister Liu—" she called out uneasily.She wanted to explain a few words about her behavior in front of Wang Jing last night, but seeing the expression on Liu Liping's face, she knew that the person who came was not kind, and the kind person would not come.Liu Liping, who was always amiable on weekdays, was now as aggressive as if she had taken gunpowder. Seeing that, it was impossible for her to stay with Yu Xiaoman any longer.People, sometimes they are so ungrateful, in just a few days, Liu Liping still thanked Yu Xiaoman for everything she did for Yao Xiuhua, asked her to study high school textbooks, and sent her to school.In an instant, her contribution to Xiaoman disappeared, and she even became the family's enemy.Facing Liu Liping's icy face, Yu Xiaoman gritted her teeth and didn't plan to say anything more.In the face of other people's high pressure, her stubborn temper immediately took effect.She simply made up her mind and was ready to be kicked out.Right now, what she regrets the most is that she didn't tidy up her things after returning from the police station last night.That way, before Liu Liping could speak, she could pack her luggage and walk out without looking back.However, Liu Liping said something else: "Ah Hui didn't come to your place, did she?" Liu Liping asked as soon as she walked in the door. "No!" "So she ran away. She ran away last night." Listening to Liu Liping's words, Yu Xiaoman only felt dizzy, her eyes went black for a while, if her body was not leaning against the door frame, her weak legs would almost collapse on the ground. "She... ran away last night." Yu Xiaoman looked at Liu Liping in horror, and repeated Liu Liping's words in her mouth, her voice trembling violently. Angrily, Liu Liping sat down on the chair in front of the dining table, and her face became even more ugly: "It can only be last night. Last night I accompanied the client and stayed in the hotel. Just now your brother Qian called my mobile phone and said that Ah Hui I didn’t know where I went last night, and I came back very late. This morning, when he went downstairs, he saw that Ah Hui’s door was wide open, but no one was there. He opened the closet in her room and saw that it was completely empty, even the bed. The pillow towel was also taken away. I asked your Brother Qian to check quickly, and there was something missing in the house. Alas, this Ah Hui is really heartless. When she was working at the Risheng snack bar opposite my house, what kind of hardship did she suffer? Ah, sleeping in the kitchen of the snack bar in summer, not to mention the heat caused by mosquito bites and insect bites, prickly heat all over my face and neck; in winter, my hands are covered with frostbite, swollen like a big steamed bun I saw how pitiful she was. I took her home to be a nanny after suffering so much at such a young age. I didn’t expect her to repay her kindness and slip away without saying hello. What do you think is going on with her! These In 2009, your brother Qian and I have always treated her as our own family, and we didn’t treat her badly in any way. How could she just leave? Let the neighbors know, and think that we did something wrong to her... ..." Liu Liping kept talking, getting more and more excited as she talked. But Yu Xiaoman didn't listen to a word of her words.She just asked herself over and over again in her heart: Why did Ah Hui leave without saying goodbye?Is it to avoid the five thousand yuan debt?Did she cheat on me?While asking herself like this, Yu Xiaoman still didn't want to believe that Ah Hui would do such an immoral thing.She excused Ah Hui, guessing that Ah Hui left because she found out that Brother Qian had no choice but to find out that she had been taken to the police station. She imagined that Ah Hui would come to her door to pay back the money in the next few days.Therefore, when Liu Liping asked her if she had met Ah Hui recently, she lied again. "I haven't seen her for a long time." "Why did you say she left without saying goodbye?" Liu Liping frowned, with a puzzled look on her face. "Could it be that something happened to her family?" Yu Xiaoman hesitated and said. "What could happen to her family? She has no home at all. Her father died hundreds of years ago, her mother couldn't live in poverty, and ran away with others, leaving her and her sister, both of whom worked outside for several years. I haven’t seen any letters from her sister. It seems that she and her sister have also lost contact.” "Once, I seem to have heard Ah Hui mention that she has a father." "She said her father was still alive?" "It didn't say whether it was dead or alive. Anyway, she said that her father couldn't earn much money for a year's work. It seemed that her father was still alive." "Did she really say that? But when we first met, she cried and told me that her father died before she was one year old, and she didn't even remember what his father looked like." Liu Liping thought about it I thought, and then said, "Do you think Ah Hui will make up stories for me to make me sympathize with her? If she told me all lies, then she must have returned to her hometown in Anhui. This deserves a thousand dollars Yes, I am still worried that she will be wandering outside and be fooled by bad guys!" "Sister Liu, do you know where Ahui's hometown is?" Hearing that Ahui has returned to her hometown, Yu Xiaoman was disappointed at first, but then thought that with the address of Ahui's hometown, she could contact her, and she felt overwhelmed. It was a burst of joy. "I don't know where her hometown is! She only told me that it is in the suburbs of Hefei. The suburbs of Hefei are big." Listening to Liu Liping's words, Yu Xiaoman felt as if she had fallen into an ice cellar, and her body felt chills.But she still had a glimmer of hope and asked: "Sister Liu, do you think Ah Hui will come back?" "Who knows? It's hard to say. It stands to reason that if she left because of some urgent business, she should come back and tell me clearly. But if she committed some crimes outside, she escaped, which is another matter." Liu Liping Sitting blankly for a moment, she added, "Could it be that she stole your brother Qian's money and slipped away because she was afraid of being caught? Ah Hui recently bought a pair of brand-name jeans. Could the money be stolen? You Brother Qian is an idiot, he misplaced his wallet, and Ah Hui took a wad of money from it, but he didn't know. It often happened in the city that the nanny stole the owner's money and then left. A few years ago, there was a singer The house was stolen by the nanny, and there was a lot of trouble. I have long found that Ah Hui likes to be greedy for petty gains. I asked her to buy vegetables, and she put the three or two yuan left in her pocket. It has developed to the point of stealing. Of course, this matter is still uncertain, but since she slipped away by herself, there must be a reason." "Yes, there must be a reason." Inspired by Liu Liping, Yu Xiaoman suddenly understood the real reason for Ahui's departure: Ahui deceived her.On the night of borrowing the debt, he left and hid back to his hometown, so that Yu Xiaoman could not pursue it.On the contrary, Yu Xiaoman was left with a debt of 5,000 yuan for no reason... "Why is Ah Hui so dishonest?" Yu Xiaoman couldn't help but said to herself. Liu Liping didn't understand Yu Xiaoman's meaning, so she continued according to her own thoughts: "Hey, people are separated from each other, and they don't know what to do! Xiaoman, if Ah Hui calls you, you must ask her address And the phone number, I have something to say to her. I'm not done with her." "I'm afraid she won't contact me anymore." Yu Xiaoman said with deep despair.She couldn't tell Liu Liping the truth, but where could she get the five thousand dollars? Liu Liping left in a huff, she didn't mention what happened last night at all, maybe Wang Jingfang didn't have time to tell her, maybe she was confused by Ah Hui's anger, and she forgot about it. Right now, Yu Xiaoman can't even think about being fired anymore.The five thousand yuan debt was like a mountain on her back, making her breathless.She had to believe in fate. She thought it was fate playing tricks on her, making her unable to stay away from poverty in this life. No matter where she fled, no matter how hard she tried to escape its entanglement, it was in vain.She couldn't escape, just like her dead parents, the heavy hat was hanging on her head, and if she wasn't paying attention, it would fall off and hold her tight. Yu Xiaoman wanted to cry but sat down on the sofa in a daze.She didn't know which year and which month she would be able to save enough 5,000 yuan.Maybe Liu Liping really kicked her out of this house this morning, and she still has a reason to comfort herself, explaining to the angel Jiang Meiduo in her heart.It's a pity that she still stays at this home, and everything is still the same as yesterday, without any change.In this way, she cannot escape moral condemnation.Yes, she was deceived by Ah Hui, but on the other hand, didn't she also deceive Jiang Meiduo?No matter what reason she has, if she has less than five thousand yuan, she is a liar... For several days, Yu Xiaoman struggled in this pain of self-blame and hopelessness.She thought of all the ways she should think of, but none of them worked.She thought about paying Liu Liping an advance fee for the babysitter, but she was afraid that Liu Liping would get to the bottom of it.What's more, it's still unknown how long I can work in Wang Jingfang's house.Right now, Liu Liping is devastated by Ah Hui's affairs, once there is a result, she will turn around and settle the score with her.She wanted to go over and explain to Jiang Meiduo, but felt that her reasons were not sufficient.Did you say I was lied to?What's the reason?First, people will not believe it, and second, they will say, you deserve it right after being cheated, and you will always have to pay back the money.She also thought about borrowing the money that Teacher Tang asked her to transfer to Wu Jing, and returning it to Jiang Meiduo first, and then Wu Jing could think of a way, at least for a while.But when she saw Wu Jing with the heavy envelope containing the money, she completely shattered the idea of ​​borrowing money. Originally, Yu Xiaoman had made up her mind not to take care of Mr. Tang's business anymore.This selfish and miserly woman broke her heart greatly.However, when Teacher Tang came to the door again and babbled to her about missing her daughter with snot and tears, her heart softened again. She immediately took the envelope containing the money and promised that Teacher Tang would give it to Wu immediately. Jing.Looking at Teacher Tang's smiling face, she completely forgot about Teacher Tang's refusal to lend money to her, and her whole body and mind were immersed in an inexplicable joy.It was only when Teacher Tang repeatedly told her that the envelope contained 10,000 yuan and that she must not lose it, did she faintly feel a kind of distrust and damage to her personality.But she still couldn't refuse Teacher Tang's commission. That morning, when Yu Xiaoman put the heavy envelope that Teacher Tang gave her into her underwear pocket, and was about to go to No. 5 Heping Road, she really had a fantasy in her heart.Although she and Wu Jing only met once, but since they are about the same age and can still get along well, she believes that she can tell Wu Jing about Ah Hui, and Wu Jing will not only understand her, but also accept her. "I've been lied to" explanation.Therefore, it might not be impossible to lend her money. However, Wu Jing's attitude towards the ten thousand yuan shattered Yu Xiaoman's dream at once. "You take it back to her. I will never ask her for a penny again." In the cold rented room, Wu Jing said coldly after hearing Yu Xiaoman's explanation of her coming, even pulled Yu Xiaoman's hand prevented her from taking the money out of her underwear pocket. "This will make your mother very sad. She loves you very much, really, every time you are mentioned, she will cry endlessly." Yu Xiaoman said. Wu Jing showed a cold expression that was not commensurate with her age: "Has she ever thought about my feelings? Xiaoman, I don't know how to explain it to you. Perhaps, you always think that I am a stubborn You are an unreasonable girl. But if you understand the other side of your life and the background of my actions, your opinion of me will change.” Wu Jing pulled her to sit on a brand new velvet chair, Said slowly. "No matter what's wrong with your mother, you can bear it enough for her to move out of the house. Now, you refuse to use her money. Isn't it too much?" "Is this too much? I admit that before graduating from college, I always liked to ask her for money, no matter how much I wanted, I didn't blush. At that time, I lived a luxurious and comfortable life on campus. Because I just knew that I My father is a well-known entrepreneur who earns a lot of money a year. After graduating from university, she said she would send me abroad so that I would not have to look for a job, but only review English at home. So, every aspect of this family is meticulous Exposed to me. How long have you been in Jinyu Garden?" Wu Jing suddenly stopped talking and asked Yu Xiaoman. "Almost a year." "Have you met my father?" "Your father? How many times have you met?" "I'm afraid you can only meet a few times. Even I, the number of times I can meet him in a year is limited." Even though Yu Xiaoman had heard Sister Tian tell about the love affairs of the shriveled old man, she still couldn't help asking, "Why is that?" "It's been several years. In fact, when I was in college, my father seldom came home, but I was kept in the dark. During the winter and summer vacations, she always gave me money to travel around. I stayed home In a few days, she lied to me and said that your father went to another place for a meeting, or your father went abroad for inspection. I never doubted this. Until I graduated from university, I always thought my father was great. He is proud, proud of him. However, what did this father who made me feel "no honor" actually do? Under her connivance, my father became an out-and-out whore, in the hotel Living a dissolute and shameless life, hanging out with escort girls all day..." Wu Jing carefully changed every word that should be called "mother" into "she".Perhaps in her mind, that woman named Tang Shuyuan was no longer worthy of being her mother.She paused for a moment, as if remembering, but also as if trying to swallow the bitter fruit.A heavy lingering shadow hung over her narrow, thin face.As if unbearable, her head fell limply to her chest. Yu Xiaoman stared at Wu Jing's drooping neck and curved back for a long time, feeling a faint pain in her heart. "As for her, as early as the beginning of the incident, her heart was as clear as a mirror." Wu Jing raised her head and continued, "In the beginning, my father was only having an affair with his beautiful female subordinate. My aunt heard about it. After the incident, Zeng found her and begged her to have a good talk with her father and bring him back. But she refused. She said that she couldn't care so much, as long as her father didn't divorce her, she didn't care about anything. At that time, if she could Assuming the responsibility of being a wife and pulling her father, he might rein in the precipice, but she let it go, and she didn't even care about her husband doing such things outside. She only cared about her father's money, As long as her father pays her salary on time every month, she will be content. Her husband can stay away from home, and he can bring the so-called female secretary to various occasions that she should attend, and he can hang out with prostitutes. ... This is my mother, my mother who can sell her self-esteem and personality for money. What annoys me even more is that she still deceives herself, showing off her father's rights and her own wealth in front of relatives and friends... You Do you know what a shame this is for me? When I learned all about it, I felt ashamed and even thought of committing suicide... I knelt down in front of her and begged her to divorce her father. I cried to She said: Mom, break up with him. He doesn't love you a long time ago, and he has no feelings for you a long time ago. Apart from creating scandals and bringing shame to us, how can he be a husband and a father at all? Look? At least, we gotta get out of this house, out of this city, and live in a place where people won't recognize us? I'll get a good job, plus your pension, we can support ourselves...I cry I begged her for a long time, but she was indifferent. She said to me coldly: You want me to give up this beautiful big house, give up his money, give up a comfortable life, and go out with you to live a poor life? Are you not Talk nonsense! How much money can you earn? What kind of personality and dignity are empty and vanity things, but the house and money are real. You can live in a slum and sing high-profile, I can't! There are only a few decades in life, so one should pursue real things... For money, she has become cold and heartless, and she is not like a woman at all. My grandma came to her from thousands of miles away from the countryside to ask her for living expenses. But she kicked grandma out of the house... I was desperate, my heart was completely cold. If there is no one who loves me and uses his strong hands to support my heart that is on the verge of collapse, I might not be able to live Today. In fact, I made a lot of determination to move out of the house. Home is the place where you live, and every thread there has an inseparable affection with you. It is true that a person wants to go out of the house It takes courage. But in order to get rid of the shame of being with the shadow, I still took this step." Speaking of this, Wu Jing's delicate face showed a resolute expression. "But it's too hard for you to live in such a dilapidated place." Yu Xiaoman looked at her sympathetically. "It's a bit bitter, but it's only temporary, and everything will be fine. You see, it's much better now than when you first came here." Wu Jing's face brightened, "The broken sofa is replaced by I bought a suede chair, bought a new desk, and installed a telephone. I bought these with the money from selling paintings. The walls were also painted, and my boyfriend and I painted them together. We were busy all day, After finishing the work, he looked at me and I looked at him. He called me 'white-haired girl', and I called him 'grandpa with white beard'. I can't straighten my back from laughing." When Wu Jing said this, she couldn't help laughing.She looks very beautiful when she smiles, just like a delicate little flower, Huo Di blooms in front of you, making you be moved by that beauty. "Do you feel like this—happy?" Yu Xiaoman asked with a little curiosity. "Of course I can't talk about happiness, but after moving out of that house, my heart has always been very peaceful." Wu Jing smiled lightly, "If you live in a beautiful family, it is difficult to understand what I do. You love you父母吗？”吴婧问于小蔓。 在吴婧的坦诚面前，于小蔓不得不讲真话了：“爱过，也恨过。”她咬了咬嘴唇说。 "What now?" “没有现在了他们都死了。” “对不起，也许我不该问这些。” “你尽管问好了。我不想对你隐瞒什么。我父亲是在挖煤时，瓦斯爆炸，被埋进了矿井里……我母亲是自杀的……为此，我一直恨她。”于小蔓的声音有些颤抖，但说出这些后，她还是觉得心中轻松了许多。她终于可以对着另一个人倾诉自己始终压在心底的隐秘了。 “为什么……”吴婧忍了忍，最终还是问了一句。 “我想是因为贫穷。为了那总也还不清的债务。但主要原因还是因为我，她和我之间怎么也无法沟通，在父亲死后，我们这对本该相依为命的母女从来没有真正坐下来谈一谈，彼此的心里都在怨恨着对方。我怨恨母亲，是因为她没有阻止父亲去挖煤，当时，村里有不少人报了名，但大多数人在家人的劝说下，放弃了这种冒险的念头。可我母亲听说下煤窑能挣到钱，便举双手赞成。就这样，父亲一去不回……是她让我失去了父亲。还有一个原因是，我从她那里要不到补课费，使我在学校丢尽了脸；母亲则认为是我上了初中后，不停地向家里要钱，才使得她继续债台高筑，让她颜面全失。那天，我因为三个月没交补课费，被学校勒令停课，我回家同母亲吵了起来……”于小蔓断断续续地说着，泪水先是在她的脸上打转，继而便淌了下来。 吴婧轻轻地把右手放在于小蔓的肩上，满怀同情地望着她：“这太悲惨了。你家里还有别的亲人吗？” 于小蔓摇了摇头。 “你就是为这才出来做保姆的？” "Ok!" “你出来多长时间了？” “快一年了。” “那，你打算以后怎么办呢？就这样一直做下去吗？” “我不知道。我也不敢往前去想。我家男主人的表妹说等以后会送我去念书。可这梦真是太遥远了。” “其实，我第一次见到你，就发现你很聪明，你身上透着一股灵气，你真的应该去学校念书。” 听着吴婧的话，于小蔓的心像针扎一般难受。 “别泄气。先做几年保姆，攒些钱，就去念书。小蔓，我真希望你成为另一种人。一个人没有文化知识，再聪明，视野也是有限的。尤其在城市里，你会处处碰壁，会感到无助，感到自悲，会觉得自己很傻。有时，别人也会把你当傻子看。”吴婧站起身，来到写字台前，拿起上面的一张报纸说，“近些日子，报纸上一直在报道这方面的消息。这些民工大多没念过几年书，就出来打工，结果呢，连一点法律常识都不懂，于是，工头们就把他们当傻子，不签劳动合同或是签一些假合同，欺骗他们。到头来辛辛苦苦地干了一年，竟拿不到一分钱。”吴婧想了想，又说，“如果你现在想念书的话，也可以报名上电大或是夜大。有许多外地到城里打工的年轻人，都通过这种途径来充实自己。” 于小蔓的眼睛霍地亮了：“那需要很多钱吧？” “不太多。大概一学期几百元钱就够了。” "I……" “你如果想上电大的话，我可以帮你联系。我有一个高中的同学在电大当老师。”吴婧在讲这些话时，完全忘记了自己的烦恼，只是用热切的目光看着于小蔓。 “我……”在吴婧热切的注视下，于小蔓进入了两难的境地。一方面，她想念书，想成为像吴婧一样的自尊自立能掌握自己命运的人；而另一方面，她又不得不考虑自己的经济情况。现在，她已欠下五千块钱的债，如果搭上了电大的车子，她又该上哩去弄这么多钱呢？但她又不想让吴婧失望，于是，她说：“等我回去跟主人商量一下，再给你回话，行吗？” “行！我把我的电话号码写给你，你可以随时跟我联系。不过，千万别把这个号码告诉她。”吴婧趴在写字台上，匆匆把电话号码写在一张小纸条上，交给了于小蔓。 “谢谢你！”于小蔓在接过纸条时，由衷地说，“只是，我不能把主人家的电话告诉你。因为……” “我理解你的难处。小蔓，要说谢，应该是我谢你。可我不想说感谢的话，因为我已把你当成好朋友了。”吴婧的脸上露出开心的笑容。 于小蔓也忘情地笑了。她觉得和吴婧在一起，眼前就像打开了一扇窗子，让她看到了生活中的亮色。但一走出门，她马上又想到了那五千元的欠债，于是，心里复又沉甸甸的。 “你好像有什么心事？”江梅朵问。 此时，于小蔓正坐在江梅朵家雅致而又温馨的客厅的长沙发上，怀里抱着个手绣的鼓鼓囊囊的大金鱼靠垫，身上披着一件柔软的米黄色毛线外套，脚上趿着一双肥大而又舒适的长毛绒拖鞋。这是她走进门后，江梅朵送给她的行头。江梅朵说她的衣着这样单薄，看着真让人心疼。 于小蔓顺从地接受了江梅朵的礼物。自坐进宝马车里后，她就像一个小布娃娃一样，听任江梅朵的摆布。 她下了这么大决心去白云大学找王亮，结果，又半途而返。在百盛超市门口，她跟在江梅朵身后走向超市时，心里曾盘算着编个什么理由脱身。她实在没有去超市的必要，口袋里的一百块钱就这么随便地花掉了，王亮来时，她拿什么招待他呢？她深知超市的魔力，只要你走近琳琅满目的货架，就无法拒绝那些物美价廉的商品的诱惑……然而，仿佛江梅朵对她施了魔法，她挖空心思地想了半天，脑袋里却是一片空白，人却已不知不觉地进了超市。没有办法，她只好提着篮子在货架之间转悠着消磨时间，最后，将一支价格低廉的牙膏和一支牙刷放进了篮子里。等她来到出口时，提着大包小包的江梅朵已在那里等她了。 还好，江梅朵并没有对她买的那点可怜的物品说三道四，或者追问她在这样一个天寒地冻的天气里，步行到超市的动机。 于小蔓帮江梅朵把东西放到车上后，就顺理成章地上了车。江梅朵直接把车子开到了10号别墅门口，她便又理所应当地帮着江梅朵把东西提进了厨房。当她站在那个像是从没用过的洁净的德国进口整体厨房里，闻着一阵阵扑鼻而来的烤蛋糕的香味，强忍着饥肠辘辘，看着自己寒酸的衣裤，不知所措时，江梅朵已从卧室里走出来，手里拿着毛衣和拖鞋，笑吟吟地走向她。 “来，穿上吧！送给你的，都是新的。你穿得太少了，这么冷的天，就不怕冻病吗？”江梅朵柔声细语地说着，就帮她披上了毛衣。于小蔓看了看江梅朵放在自己面前的拖鞋，有些犹豫。她的寒酸的衣着和欠对方的债务，都告诉她应该马上逃离这儿。尽管，她是那么渴望和天使江梅朵多呆一会儿。 “快把拖鞋换上。去吧，到客厅里坐下，咱们一起吃烤蛋酥。”江梅朵这样说着的时候，正手拿拖盘，用长柄不锈钢夹从烤箱里一个一个取出圆圆的金黄的烤蛋酥。 “我想，我该回家了！”于小蔓轻声说。 “等吃完烤蛋酥再走吧！至少你得尝尝周阿姨的手艺。周阿姨是我请来的钟点工，她真是个心灵手巧的女人，不管多么精细的点心，一学就会，做两次就能做得很好。”在自己家里，江梅朵显得热情而健谈。 此时的于小蔓已是身不由己。她再也没有勇气说出回家两个字了。 她坐在江梅朵布置得古朴而又典雅的客厅里，惊奇地看着通向二楼的扶手带有花纹铺着蓝色地毯的环形楼梯，看着挂在墙上的一方方带有异国情调的手绣挂毯和各种木刻，看着雕花的高大书橱内摆放的奇形怪状的水晶花瓶和玉雕及陶罐，看着沙发上紧挨在一起的由动物组成的手绣靠垫，看着窗前摆着的一盆盆造型别致的名贵花草，看着随手扔在波斯地毯上的外国画报，觉得就像是走进了一个小型民间艺术博物馆。她的目光不管落到什么地方，都有着令她心醉神迷的从没见过的艺术品。所有这一切，看上去是那么散淡闲适地凑在了一起，却又分明透着一股难以掩饰的奢侈。这样的艺术氛围，只有江梅朵能营造出来，也只有江梅朵才配置身其中。 “喜欢吗？”江梅朵边问，边将放着热气腾腾的果汁和烤蛋酥的拖盘摆到于小蔓面前的用深棕色大木雕做成的茶几上。 “喜欢。”于小蔓赶紧把目光收回来。自卑使她不敢在这些价格昂贵的民间艺术品上流连。这让她再次感到了自己的卑微和寒酸。是的，这个客厅里摆设的任何一件物品，都很难用钱去衡量它的价值，因为它们来自世界各地，天南地北，而且全是些在市面上从未见过的艺术品。但于小蔓知道每一件都价格不菲，也许远远地超过了五千块钱……她觉得自己坐在这儿，就跟一个叫花子住进了宫殿里一样不伦不类。面对着这样一些奇异的珍品，又像叫花子很难捧起皇宫里的金碗吃饭一样，她不知道该如何去谈那五千块钱的欠款。一方面是高贵典雅，另一方面却是贫穷寒酸。这水火不相容的两端又怎么能搅和在一起呢。于小蔓觉得既无奈，又为难。从道义上讲，今天她必须把欠款的事对江梅朵说清楚，她不应该继续采取蒙混和逃避的方式。而这样的氛围，她又怎么能说出口呢？然而，踌躇间，于小蔓还是感到了羞愧，感到了深深的内疚。她的两手死死地抱紧怀里的靠枕，似乎这是一块遮羞布，一堵挡风的墙。她情不自禁地低下头，把脸埋在松软的靠枕里，恨不能把整个身子都缩进去。 这一切大概江梅朵全看在了眼里，于是，她关切地问这个看上去垂头丧气的女孩有什么心事。 于小蔓吞吞吐吐了半天，还是说出了她一直不敢面对的事情。不过，在讲到阿慧借钱的原由时，她做了一些删改，她说阿慧是因为家里有病人急等用钱，才向她张口的。她还说阿慧肯定会还钱的，只是早一天晚一天的事。她吃力地编着漏洞百出的故事，只编得满脸赤红，呼吸急促。但她还是不愿讲出阿慧借钱的真相，不想把阿慧为逃债已出走的事告诉江梅朵。在江梅朵这样全身上下都透着高贵的女人的面前，她拼尽全力想把那件耻辱的事情编得很美好。 在于小蔓吃力地编着故事的当儿，江梅朵却没有认真听她讲述。对于小蔓的故事，她好像有些心不在焉。一会儿，她走进厨房拿来一盒纸巾，摆在于小蔓面前的茶几上；一会儿，她又进了另一个房间，打开了里面的音响，于是，已故歌星邓丽君那带着几分哀婉的歌声开始在客厅里低回。此时的江梅朵与其说是在听于小蔓的讲述，不如说是在听邓丽君的歌。她把一块雪白的小山羊皮垫放到地毯上，很随意地坐到于小蔓的对面，头微微朝一边偏着，脸上依然带着天使般美丽的笑容，神情却是很专注地在听着音乐。 如果是在其他场合，如果于小蔓讲的不是这样一个难以启齿的故事，对方的走神会令她感到难堪的。然而，此时此刻，这个惟一的听众的糟糕表现却让她觉得轻松，仿佛真的有一块遮羞布遮住了自己的脸。这给了她讲下去的勇气和编完故事的信心。 “噢，是这么回事呀！你完全没有必要把那点钱放在心上，我又不等钱用，你可以转告你的朋友，她什么时候还我钱都行。”等于小蔓讲完故事之后，江梅朵才把目光转向她，微笑着，用轻柔的语调说。 听着江梅朵的话，于小蔓觉得肩头像是卸下了千斤的重担，又仿佛有人搬开了一直压在她心头的一块石头。她把头从靠枕上移开，慢慢地抬了起来。继而，又长长地舒出了一口气。 “谢谢你，江梅朵！我替阿慧谢谢你！”于小蔓由衷地说。 “我们别再谈那点钱了，好吗？来，咱们一起把盘子里的东西吃光喝光！” 江梅朵并没有过分地客气，就像对待自己的家人一样，她递给于小蔓一杯果汁，自己则拿起另一杯，有滋有味地喝起来。 也许是因了饥饿的缘故，也许是江梅朵的“宽限”让于小蔓不再感到拘谨，她开始大口地喝着新鲜的橙汁，狼吞虎咽地吃着烤蛋酥，这娇小的又香又甜的点心让她爱不释手，眼看着盘子里的烤蛋酥在一点点地减少，渐渐地露出了盘底，她这才恋恋不舍地缩回了伸向盘子的手。 “干嘛不吃光呢？”江梅朵笑了起来，“看到你吃点心的样子，让我想起我自己。刚出校会儿，我见了好吃的点心，就这样一副贪吃的模样。”江梅朵说着，又把盘子往于小蔓的跟前推了推。待于小蔓吃光了盘子里的最后一个烤蛋酥后，江梅朵便也坐到了沙发上，和她挨得很近。 “你很漂亮，小蔓，如果你能把自己打扮得时尚一些，就更漂亮了。”江梅朵用手抚摸着于小蔓脑后的小刷子说。 于小蔓简直有点不敢相信自己的耳朵了。迄今为止，除刘丽萍外，还从未有人说过她漂亮。而在她自己的眼里，那个叫于小蔓的女孩不仅丑陋，而且土气寒酸，永远和漂亮也沾不上边。可江梅朵这是第二次这么夸奖她了。 “你不觉得自己长得漂亮吗？”江梅朵见于小蔓不吱声，就又反问了一句。 于小蔓赶紧摇摇头，脸也腾地羞红了。 江梅朵被她的稚气逗得咯咯笑起来。江梅朵开心地笑时，就像一朵开放的玫瑰，生动而又妩媚，光洁的皮肤熠熠生辉，黑亮的眼睛闪着光波，牙齿像一粒粒跳动的珍珠，美丽得让人心醉。 “你在看什么呢？”江梅朵见于小蔓的眼睛直直地盯着自己，就好奇地问。 “我在看你笑。你笑的时候就像天使。不，你不笑的时候也像天使。我从没见过像你这么美丽的女人。” 江梅朵又一次被于小蔓逗笑了。她把右手搭到于小蔓的肩头，亲呢地拍了两下：“你这小家伙嘴可真甜啊！对了，你今年多大啦？”于小蔓在江梅朵的笑声中变得越发放松了，她越来越觉得就像是在自己的家里，坐在自己的姐姐身边，那般自由自在，那般天真无邪。可以任性，也可以撒娇。因此，对于江梅朵的问话，她歪着头，脸上是一副神神秘秘的表情：“猜猜看？” “十六？” "wrong." "Seventeen." "more or less!" “怎么叫差不多呢？” “因为再过二十一天，是我十七岁的生日！” “你算得这么精确！” “我打五岁时起，就记得自己的生日了。上学前，每到这一天，父亲都会送给我一个他亲手刻的木头小鸟或是金鱼、花篮什么的。我父亲的手很巧，在村里是有名的能工巧匠，他刻的那些小动物就跟真的一样。我上学以后，生日这天，父亲就会送我铅笔盒或是我喜欢的其他学习用具。我父亲很穷，但他从来没有忘记过我的生日，他是世界上最好的父亲……”于小蔓说不下去了，喉头哽咽着，眼里注满了泪水。 “你想家啦？”江梅朵用右手搂紧了于小蔓的肩膀。 “我已没有家了。” "how……" 眼泪从于小蔓的脸上淌了下来，江梅朵抽出一张纸巾，为她擦拭于净。 于小蔓忍不住哭了起来：“我父母都去世了。”过了一会儿，她笼统地说。她不想讲得太详细，总觉得在这样一个可以用圣洁来形容的女人面前，讲阿慧的卑鄙，讲母亲的残忍，简直就是一种亵渎。 “你为什么要千里迢迢地来白云市呢？你在这里有亲戚吗？”当江梅朵提出这一疑问时，于小蔓才给她讲了自己与王波的友谊，以及与王亮的交往。她甚至把自己为找不到王亮而苦恼的事，也一古脑儿倒给了江梅朵。 “你爱王亮吗？” “不！”于小蔓泪眼迷离地摇了摇头。 “可我觉得你是爱他的，否则，你就不会这样苦恼了。” “也许是吧。可我配不上他。” “你是指文化程度方面？” “一切。所有的方面，王亮都是出类拔萃的。我和他比，差得太远了。我看他时，就像看天上的月亮，而我算什么呢？恐怕连一颗星星都不是。” “爱情则是另一回事。爱情是不讲对等的。不过，对爱情你可别太认真了。太认真了，你就会受到伤害。人在情窦初开的时候，都有过为情所累的时光。那时候，你会为某个男孩神魂颠倒，要死要活。可当你走过来时，再回头想想那段日子，就会觉得很可笑，很荒唐。真的，尤其当你看到你所爱过的人已和另一个女人走到了一起，看到他也很平庸，碌碌无为，过着和所有普通人一样的生活时，你就会对自己曾经有过的痴情哑然失笑。”江梅朵那动听的声音就像是从天上飘来的仙乐，令人沉醉其中。 “你也有过这样的经历吗？”于小蔓被江梅朵的话深深地吸引着，情不自禁地问道。 “有过。当然有过。在我念大学二年级时，爱上了班里的一个男孩。” “他长得一定很帅。” “其实，他长得很普通。可以说，比普通还普通，现在想起来就想笑，我怎么会爱上这样一个人呢？他个子高高的，人很瘦，瘦得可以用皮包骨头来形容。他最显著的特点就是皮肤白皙，脸上的棱角分明。不过，我让他迷住的却是他脸上架着的那副上千度的眼镜，还有他那孤傲的离群索居的性格和郁郁寡欢的神情。情窦初开的女孩子有时是很傻的。当她沉溺于爱情时，往往是想象多于现实，幻想多于理想。可以说，我简直是把他在心里又重塑了一遍，让他成为了另一个人，另一个十全十美的完全附和我的要求的人。因此，我像着了魔似的爱上了他，觉得他很有风度，很斯文，很有书生气。到后来，甚至到了神魂颠倒的地步，无论是上课还是下课，无论是在阅览室还是食堂里，我的眼睛都在追逐他。那年的期末考试我考得一塌糊涂，是全系惟一一个两门不及格的女生……”江梅朵那双美丽的眼睛久久地凝视着窗外，思绪已飞得很远很远。稍顷，她才回过神来，用手将飘向前额的一绺长发向脑后理了理，像是要把那长长的思绪拉回来。她把目光重新移到于小蔓的脸上，不无羞涩地对她淡淡一笑。 “他也爱你吗？”于小蔓这才急不可待地问。 “当时，他究竟爱不爱我，我半点也不知道，因为在学校时，他从没向我表达过感情。” “那么，他知道你爱他吗？” “知道。当我实在受不了爱情的煎熬时，便给他写信，把那一封封追求他的信偷偷放进他偶尔敞开的课桌里。” “他从没给你回过信，或是向你表达爱或是不爱？” “没有。他就像一根木头似的对此无动于衷。甚至对我不理不睬，即使在校园外面偶尔碰上了，只有我们两个人时，他也装作视而不见，像遇见了一个陌生人一样，与我擦肩而过。” "and after?" “后来我还是费劲地从这泥潭里拔出了脚。而他，却和另一个女人结了婚。” “那女人是你们的同学？” “不是。她是一个与大学无关的女人。” "How did you know?" “是他告诉我的。” “是他告诉你的？” “他来找过我。就在不久前，这个无耻的男人找到我家里来了，告诉我他曾经多么多么地爱我。还说，当时在学校里他所以没有把心里的话说出来，是因为感到自己配不上我这个外国语学院的高才生……上帝，你听他都说了些什么呀！不错，如今他是成了美国公民，有了一张绿卡，可这算什么呢？这样他就可以配上我了吗？他甚至对我指手画脚，指责我所从事的职业……”江梅朵生气了，那目光柔和的黑眼睛里，开始闪着愤怒的光波，嗓音也在不知不觉中提高了八度，“我和他吵了一架，并把他的箱子扔出了门外。” “这件事我听说过，我还以为他是你的丈夫。”于小蔓插话说。 “丈夫，他在我面前摆出的那副样子，还真像我的丈夫。可我没有丈夫，我从来就不知道那种叫丈夫的东西是何物！”江梅朵依然余怒未息地说。 “是呀，这人也真无聊，他现在来找你，告诉你这些，又有什么意义呢？” 江梅朵冷笑了一声：“其实，他来找我的真正目的，是来教训我，羞辱我的。” “他来教训你？羞辱你？”于小蔓不解地望着江梅朵。 “是的，他认为我所从事的职业不高尚，不神圣，甚至还可以说是下贱的，卑俗的。” “他有什么权力这样做？”于小蔓也被惹火了，开始感到忿忿不平。 “大概是美国总统给了他这份权力。”江梅朵笑了起来，“每一个拿到美国绿卡的中国人，回过头来，都要对自己的祖宗指手画脚一番。他们自以为是一等公民，是上等人。可在我的眼里，他们才真正地下贱，比大街上的乞丐还要下贱。大街上的乞丐是在自己家门口讨饭，而他们呢，却像哈巴狗一样，跪在美国人面前摇尾乞怜。我在电视台做英语节目主持时，那个常到电视台客串角色的留学生尼克曾恳求我嫁给他，跟他回美国，可我拒绝了。我去哪儿干什么呢？我一不是专家，二不是学者，美国没有我发展的天地。我从不后悔自己的选择。假如当时我随他去了，结局会是什么样子？我敢肯定贫穷会像影子一样地追随着我。于是，我毫不犹豫地选择了高立明。” “高立明？高立明是谁呀？” “一个台商。一个很有钱的台商。自从在一次宴会上与我相识之后，他就开始追我，就像我的影子一样，与我寸步不离。他不要求我嫁给他，因为他在台湾有妻子和儿女。而我，也不想成为他的什么人。我们只是同居，也可以说是比较短暂的同居，在他来白云做生意时，我们就住在一起，离开后，我们又都是自由的。他为我买了金玉花园这幢别墅，为我买了宝马车……高是个真正的好男人，他长得一点都不帅，也没什么风度，是那种典型的瘦小而又精干的南方小老头，我认识他时，他已是五十多岁了。可他爱我，有良心，不管是对我还是对他自己的妻儿，这就足够了。如今，他因身体的缘故，已早早地退休了，白云方面的生意全交给了别人打理。我们已有好几年没见面了，这以后，我又遇到了很多男人，他们中间有帅哥，有款爷，有对我一见钟情想入非非的，也有对我慷慨解囊一掷千金的，可我还是常常想起他……一个富翁，一个舍得为漂亮女人花钱不计回报的富翁，这一切听起来，真像一个美丽的童话，不是吗？”江梅朵像是深深地陶醉在幸福的海洋中，嘴里娓娓地倾诉着，脸上洋溢着甜美的笑容。 而听完她这番“爱的表白”后的于小蔓，却已是五官移位，惊得目瞪口呆了。她怎么也不敢相信，眼前的“天使”竟会这样对待神圣的爱情，会像电视剧中演的那些女人一样，靠和有钱人同居生活。于是，她便以为江梅朵是在编故事逗自己乐，便用一种迷惑不解的目光久久地瞪着江梅朵，想从她的脸上看出破绽。 “你在看什么呢？”江梅朵好奇地把脸凑近于小蔓，微笑着问她。 “你所说的这些，都是真的吗？” “我干吗要骗你呢？” “我不相信你会这样对待爱情。” “爱情，爱情是什么？我说过我在你这个年纪时，也把它看得很神圣。可实际上，它一钱不值。真正值钱的东西是女人的漂亮，漂亮女人所得到的爱情是有价值的，这样的爱情会使她幸福，享受豪华的生活。现代人来到这个世界上，除了金钱