Chapter 17 Chapter Seventeen

Sun Mei has completely changed, just like some people grow gray hair overnight in the face of a huge disaster.After Sun Mei experienced being abandoned for the second time, she changed completely. First of all, her heart. After encountering Zhao Jianhua's rejection in Chenzhou Night, she developed great hatred for all men.This kind of hatred made her no longer believe in love and men.If she had been violent, she believed she would have turned into a demon who vendettas men, as depicted in some movies.It's just that she is a woman and a mother, she can't do this, she has to live, especially to complete the task of raising her son.

After the change of heart, it was a complete change of her whole being.Before that, as a strong woman, she had been trying to maintain a cultivated image, and tried her best to find various ways to prolong her youth so as to maintain her fading beauty.And when all her dreams about men were shattered, she suddenly felt that she no longer wanted to be so tired.At noon on the day she came back from Chenzhou, she fell asleep.I lay down and slept until the next afternoon.Although this period is not completely sleep state.She found herself so sad that she never wanted to get out of bed, go out, or even go to work.All the time, she was thinking about how to get revenge on men, Fan Zhengzhang, Zhao Jianhua, all men.In this way, she didn't get up until she was too hungry to lie down.Only then did she realize that she didn't know what to eat.She sat on the bed and thought for an hour, and then went to an extremely luxurious hotel.She ordered five big dishes there, and she ate until her stomach was full, just like when her son was full when he was a child, and she didn't go home until she could no longer fit anything.

This was an unexpected discovery. After she returned home, she found that she was much calmer and almost freed from the pain in Chenzhou.Especially that night, after she watched TV for an hour and lay down, she fell asleep quickly, and didn't even have a dream, and fell asleep until the next day's work time.After waking up, not only can she go to work as usual, but she doesn't bother with the trip to Chenzhou all day long.After thinking about it again and again without any other answer, she attributed the reason for her improved mood to that sumptuous dinner. Since then, she has been obsessed with eating and drinking.In addition to eating and drinking in restaurants by herself, she also treats guests frequently.Not only did she eat a lot in hotels outside, but she often bought a lot of snacks and drinks when she came home, and sat on the sofa to eat and drink like crazy.With this unrestrained diet, Sun Mei found that her slender figure rapidly swelled up in this crazy self-abuse, just like a raised bread, and quickly became unrecognizable.The first time she surprised acquaintances was about three months later on the street, a friend suddenly asked her loudly, was it Sun Mei? Why did she suddenly become like this after not seeing her for several months?That day, after returning home from the street, she took off her clothes, looked in the mirror, inspected the bucket-like figure for the first time, and laughed for a minute until her face was filled with tears.Then, she told herself, I don't need to please any man, why bother my stomach?Life is short, I want to eat, eat all kinds of delicious food, enjoy all kinds of delicious food in the world, and I will never need those damn men to look at me.

After finding a way to "cure" her heartache - eating and drinking, she also found a substitute for losing a man - a car.Soon, on a whim, she spent more than 100,000 yuan to find an expert to help her buy a white Bora car.The sedan pretty much broke her pockets.Yes, the man is lost. The huge thing of the car can be said to make up for some kind of vacancy in the empty mind, at least temporarily diverting attention.When she got into this beautiful car for the first time, she suddenly found herself as happy and safe as a newly married woman.It's just that the groom is not a man, but this huge, steel-hard car.On many lonely weekends, painful moments, and late nights of loneliness and insomnia, she would drive her beloved car into strange streets, suburbs, and even cities, from strange crowds, strange scenery, strange streets and roads Confused and hesitant.She didn't know where she should drive, who she was going to, let alone who she was running for. Life and the meaning of life had become less important to her. She felt that the only reason for her to live was to raise her son.So, besides doing her duty to her son every day, all she could do was eat and sleep.It's just that she can't fall asleep most of the time, so after eating, driving has become one of the important parts of her life.Only in the car does she feel safe, she feels calm, she feels comfortable.This small space has almost become the best place and means for her to relieve her pain and loneliness.

From the initial driving twice a week, it developed into three times, four times, and even all nights of the week. She likes this life of browsing the streets.In order to ensure her son's regular life and safety at night, she simply took her mother home to accompany her son.At this time, she found that she suddenly returned to the feeling she had when she was a girl: free and unrestrained, but there was an inexplicable emptiness and loss in her heart.This kind of aimless wandering, until she happened to see a leader of her unit who has always been praised as a gentleman and a young woman coming out of a certain hotel late at night in an ambiguous gesture, she discovered that there is still this kind of wandering. Unspeakable joy.Since then, she has been out of control and has become obsessed with shuttling and wandering on nearby roads such as streets, hotels, coffee houses, bars, and even parks.Every night when she feels restless or can't sleep, she sneaks out of the house and drives around these places.In less than a month, after going back and forth countless times, she found that she knew all the streets in the whole city, including the hotels and various entertainment places along the streets.Along with this unexpected harvest, she also discovered new privacy: one was a female middle school classmate of hers who came out of a bar with a man in the middle of the night and rented a car together, and the other was a woman in the building where she lived—— The wife of Fan Zhengzhang's colleague had a fling with a man in the street late at night.

This world is too unreal. When the stories in the middle of the night stimulated Sun Mei again and again, she felt a strong sense of illusion about this world.Why are things always so beautiful under the sun, and so many people become different under the night.Sun Mei remembered that her male leader was almost equated with a gentleman. She remembered that her middle school female classmate had a perfect marriage and was so happy that people were jealous. Fan Zhengzhang's colleague's wife was even more recognized. A famous lady and a good wife and mother.She really didn't understand why such unbelievable stories happened to them in such a late night.In the end, the people under the sun are real, or the people under the cover of night show their true colors.At this point, she had to admit that people would never know each other, just like when she had lived with Fan Zhengzhang for so long and thought she knew Fan Zhengzhang well, she suddenly realized that she actually didn't know Fan Zhengzhang at all.As for Zhao Jianhua, when they were crazily happy together, she clearly felt the real emotion from Zhao Jianhua's expression and behavior, but now everything has become a passing cloud.You may never try to understand the human world, and you may never trust people too much.This was Sun Mei's feeling during this time.

During this extremely boring wandering, she has always hoped to meet Fan Zhengzhang and Ruan Rong on a certain street late at night. She has almost prepared several battle plans, one of which is to take advantage of When they are not paying attention, run the car into them.But day by day, all expectations finally came to nothing, not to mention meeting the two of them together, not even one of them alone.When early winter came, she began to slowly shift her position to the suburbs, because she had no patience for waiting for Fan Zhengzhang, and she was tired of watching the joys and sorrows under the night of the city. After her driving skills became more and more proficient, she began to be fascinated. in drag racing.On the road at the junction of urban and rural areas in the middle of the night, set the speed at 140 or even 150 mph, watch the dark scenery around you pass by like a shadow, and listen to the rustling sound of tire pressure The eardrum will be immersed in some kind of converter that controls the operation of time and space, and the pleasure produced by the body and mind makes her taste a kind of happiness and stimulation that she has never had before.

When she is tired from racing, or when the mood is not suitable for racing, if she still does not want to go home, sometimes she will still "go back to the old business" and go to those places where singing and dancing are in search of new surprises and gains.The so-called hard work pays off, and in the middle of the night when the temperature was cooling down for the first time, she finally made a discovery that was different from the past.Because this time it is no longer someone who has nothing to do with her, but the privacy of people who are directly related to her family that she is quite concerned about.What particularly frightened her was that it was neither Fan Zhengzhang, nor Ruan Rong, nor Fan Zhengwen, but Fan Zhengwen's daughter - Yan Yan.

That night, the temperature had just dropped, and there were flying snowflakes sandwiched in the fine cold rain, which kept falling on the windshield.Sun Mei had no choice but to turn on the wipers to wipe away the water stains on the glass over and over again.Unable to drag the car, after browsing a busy street for about half an hour without finding anything interesting, she drifted to that less busy street again.On this street about 800 meters long, there are two large hotels, three small coffee houses and a bar scattered here and there.When Sun Mei passed a small coffee shop, she was once again subconsciously attracted by the billboard of the coffee shop as in the past. On it, there was a fashionable girl contemplating daydreaming next to a cup of coffee, and the word "coffee" in the coffee shop Artistic fonts are used to make the two characters look like cups and characters.This made Sun Mei want to go in for a drink every time she passed by.It's just that she never fulfilled this desire.

The car approached and started to drive away. At this moment, the glass door of the coffee house opened, and a young man and woman were walking down the two steps in front of the door with their heads down.Sun Mei glanced a few more times as usual.I saw that the boy was tall and strong, but the girl was tall and thin, which was a good match in terms of figure.Sun Mei couldn't help but give such an evaluation to the boy and girl in her heart.At this time, the car had already passed by, but the girl's last move remained in Sun Mei's eyes.When the girl finished going down two steps, she raised her hand and wiped a strand of hair that had fallen from her forehead behind her ear.With this movement and this moment of raising her head, Sun Mei shivered, and quickly stopped the car on the side of the road.

It is strict!Sun Mei opened the car door, poked her head out, and through the falling drizzle and snowflakes under the neon lights, tried to distinguish the figure walking with her back facing her.The girl was leaning on the young man's shoulder, tightly held by the young man's hand, and was walking along several closed shops along the street.Sun Mei hurriedly turned the car around and followed slowly.From the backs of the two, Sun Mei could feel the close relationship between the two, because they completely ignored the drizzle and snowflakes drifting by in the sky, and even ignored all the pedestrians and vehicles on the side of the road, just whispering.In front of it is a large exhibition hall. The huge building is covered with a hazy and mysterious veil in the night, quietly entrenched outside the bustling night market.The man and woman obviously felt the cold, they suddenly tightened their necks and ran towards the huge building, and they were hidden behind a giant column in the blink of an eye. Sun Mei drove the car to the sidewalk, drove towards the exhibition hall from another direction, and then approached the tightly hidden column.At about 200 meters away, Sun Mei stopped the car.Through the blurred car window, during the interval between the windshield wipers shaking back and forth, she finally saw a picture of kissing that was intoxicating.What surprised Sun Mei the most was that she saw the boy's hand moving and caressing inside the girl's clothes. When Sun Mei called, Fan Zhengwen was very busy with the project.On the one hand, she is eager to know the staff who investigate the engineering accident, but she cannot contact them directly.Fortunately, Wan Changqing's secretary has hinted at the relevant city leaders in private.Therefore, the city leaders also set the tone in handling this matter, and instructed the subordinates to follow the principle of protecting cadres to avoid the situation from escalating.Now that the tone above has been set, the work below will naturally be prudent.At the same time, the leaders of the newspaper office have also controlled the situation to the smallest extent and the lightest degree.Fan Zhengwen continued to use money and connections from behind the scenes to open up various links.For Fan Zhengwen, this was too difficult to grasp.You can't pay too much attention, but you must pay special attention.Otherwise, it may be self-defeating.Originally, no one would have thought of her role in this accident, if she was not careful, she might be caught by someone else.This made her like a wolf in a cage, unable to get out or fight.As time passed day by day, with the efforts of her and her younger brother, the situation began to change for the better day by day.Therefore, when she received Sun Mei's call, although she was taken aback, because all her thoughts were focused on the future, she mentioned the strict matter to Sun Mei. After thinking twice, she decided to postpone it and wait for the project Once the incident has passed, allow enough time to plan and deal with it. While the top was working hard to resolve the engineering accident, Bian Chenglong, who was active below, found the contractor after a lot of searching and hard work.The reason why Bian Chenglong worked so hard was because after his crimes were exposed, he was indeed terrified.Up to now, he is a sinner in front of Fan Zhengzhang, and even more so in front of Jiang Deshi.Therefore, in view of Jiang Deshi's cruelty, he decided to take refuge in Fan Zhengzhang.The second reason is that the contractor did undertake the project through his hands.Only he has the conditions to find the contractor, and he knows this very well.Especially for Ruan Rong's sake, he is willing to do anything for Ruan Rong.This may be the special psychology of his toad wanting to eat swan meat.After the contractor was brought back to Huayang, Fan Zhengzhang made an appointment with the man and reached an agreement with the man according to the original plan.Brother Fan Zhengzhang, Ruan Rong and Bian Chenglong jointly contributed 130,000 yuan, of which 80,000 yuan was used to compensate the family members of the deceased, 20,000 yuan was used to treat the injured, and the other 30,000 yuan was used to compensate the loss of the unit. In addition, Fan Zhengzhang paid him an additional 10,000 yuan to bear all the problems, and together weaved a set of lies that could explain the past.For example, the incoming materials were not carefully checked and accepted, and the construction operations were not standardized. As for the price tag when he contracted the project, he had to say according to the original amount.In order to reassure him, Fan Zhengzhang specifically told him that he had already taken care of everything above, as long as he did what Fan Zhengzhang said, everything would be fine. Ever since the accident, the contractor had been scared out of his wits.Not to mention that the project has not yet earned money, the casualties of the accident need a lot of money.If he hides from now on, he doesn't know when the days of hiding like this will stop.Therefore, he has been terrified by this matter these days.When Bian Chenglong found him and told Fan Zhengzhang what he meant, he never believed it.Yes, who would be willing to be taken advantage of and pay the money for him!But when Fan Zhengzhang and Ruan Rong told him the plan in detail, the shrewd contractor finally understood.There is no love and hate for no reason in this world, and there is no investment for no reason.Just like this couple is willing to help him pay off his debts now, it is because they received kickbacks in this project, and because they want to protect Wusha, they use money to protect officials.Thinking of this, he suddenly felt relieved.It's a two-kill thing.They paid to protect the officials, and he contributed to protect his personal freedom and his own money.So such a plan was implemented without anyone noticing it. After the sister and brother worked up and down, the discipline inspection and inspection departments finally came to a conclusion after going through a cutscene: that is, the contractor did not carefully check and accept the purchases, the construction operation was not standardized, there was a lack of safety measures, and the supervision of the unit was not effective, etc.In the end, the newspaper office deducted fines from the project supervisors, and the contractor compensated the newspaper office for 30,000 yuan in losses.As for the tricks in each link, it was written off as if it never existed.As for the losses in the project other than the compensation of 30,000 yuan, only the leaders of the newspaper office and relevant personnel knew about it. Things are finally taking a breather.It was only when the boulder was removed from Fan Zhengwen's heart that Fan Zhengwen felt that the fragile part of his heart was aching.It was caused by the conflict with her daughter Yan Yan.Ever since Yan Yan disappeared one night last summer, Fan Zhengwen felt that the distance between him and his daughter had gone very far.Although she worked hard and fawned many times, she found that Yan Yan's attitude towards her was either cold or distant.She knew that the photo was to blame.Although she knew that Yan Yan already suspected what she did to Ouyang Xu, she didn't know how to explain this matter to Yan Yan.Regarding Ouyang Xu's matter, she has a serious psychological obstacle, like an ugly scar that has been covered up with great difficulty, she can't convince herself to uncover it again, especially to let her most beloved and caring daughter see it.This is an unspeakable event, an event where the daughter hates her if she says it, but makes her hate her if she doesn't.Therefore, time passed like this day by day, but she became more and more like a person who made mistakes in front of her daughter, always avoiding facing it.When Sun Mei told her about her daughter's relationship in a voice that was falling from the sky, she knew that there was no way to escape. She chose this important conversation on a weekend afternoon.For this conversation, she worked until eleven o'clock in the evening on Friday to deal with everything, and all the entertainment on the weekend was pushed aside.Early on Saturday morning, after dinner, she asked her daughter to go shopping with her daughter, but her daughter rejected her, so she went to the mall alone as planned to buy a beautiful coat and a pair of brand-name sneakers for her daughter.In order to please her daughter, so that the following conversation would not appear blunt, she deliberately chose lunch at a seafood city that her daughter loves most. It was a small private room for four people. Fan Zhengwen was sitting in it, waiting for his daughter who arrived late, while reviewing the contents of the conversation.For this conversation, Fan Zhengwen can be said to have gone through repeated scrutiny, especially the night before, when she almost stayed up all night and made several sets of plans. It was not until dawn that she went through repeated screening before making a final decision.She also prepared differently for her daughter's upcoming reaction. At almost twelve noon, Yan Yan finally appeared.She was wearing a bright red down jacket and a pair of dark blue jeans, looking pure and lively.At this time, Fan Zhengwen discovered that his daughter had grown into a big girl at some point, youthful, beautiful, mature and lovely, fresh and beautiful like peach blossoms in full bloom in spring.Looking at her daughter's calm and indifferent face, she suddenly felt an indescribable guilt: she was indeed too negligent to her daughter.At first, Yan Yan still had an indifferent expression on his face, just like what Fan Zhengwen was used to.But a few seconds later, a smile appeared on Yan Yan's face.Because the pair of shoes that Fan Zhengwen bought attracted all her attention.It was a pair of snow-white Nike sneakers with two or three lake-blue curves. The whole pair of shoes was fashionable, energetic, and of noble quality.Fan Zhengwen remembered that Yan Yan once mentioned that someone in the class wore a pair of 500 yuan white Nike sneakers, which were extremely beautiful.So in the morning, Fan Zhengwen gritted his teeth and bought it.It seems this trick is working.Yan Yan jumped over in two steps, held the shoes in front of his chest with both hands, put on an excited expression, and asked expectantly: Is it mine? Fan Zhengwen nodded with a smile, very satisfied with his idea. Is it very expensive?Yan Yan opened his eyes wide, staring at Fan Zhengwen's face and asked joyfully. Fan Zhengwen nodded again with a smile, then turned around and brought another white casual cotton jacket.After Yan Yan saw it, he rushed to the front again, stretched out his hand to pick up the sign hanging on the clothes, and said happily again, ah!It is an international brand! Everything went according to Fan Zhengwen's plan, and Fan Zhengwen couldn't help feeling confident when he saw his daughter's happy face.yes!A daughter is always a child in front of her mother!How could they keep hating each other? The effect of the two things was obviously very effective. Until sitting in front of Fan Zhengwen, Yan Yan still couldn't hide his inner joy. While chewing the vegetables, he kept asking Fan Zhengwen about the price of the clothes and the purchase information. Condition.After the two hot dishes were served, Yan Yan finally expressed her long-lost enthusiasm and intimacy to her mother while eating the white and tender fish without thorns that Fan Zhengwen had picked for her: Mom, thank you! When the time was right, Fan Zhengwen was waiting for these words.She quickly seized the opportunity, with a guilty look on her face, and began to put her plan into practice: Yan Yan, in fact, the moment my mother saw you entering the door today, she felt extremely sad. This sentence obviously aroused Yan Yan's curiosity, "Why?" She opened her eyes wide, looked at Fan Zhengwen, and waited for the next sentence with a bewildered expression. Fan Zhengwen spoke slowly, mist had already formed in his eyes, which made the following conversation seem sensational: Yan Yan, the moment you first entered the door, your mother suddenly discovered that you had grown into a big girl, but she didn't feel it during this process.Mom is too neglectful of you, mom is too incompetent.Speaking of this, Fan Zhengwen suddenly remembered that due to his busy work, he rarely even had the chance to eat with his daughter, so his eyes became moist. It's nothing, Yan Yan's voice is a little deep, obviously Fan Zhengwen's topic touched on Yan Yan's sore spot.She withdrew her gaze from Fan Zhengwen's face, lowered her eyes and began to rummage through the plate.Fan Zhengwen picked up a larger piece of fish, picked out the spines, put it in a strict bowl, and said softly: Yan Yan, my mother realized this problem today, and I formally apologize to you, and hope you forgive me! Yan Yan still lowered his head and concentrated on eating fish, as if he didn't hear Fan Zhengwen's words.At this moment, Fan Zhengwen's heart was starting to get hairy, and she couldn't judge whether her daughter's reaction was a good sign or a bad sign.But in any case, now that it has started, she is going to try to keep the conversation going, and it is best to touch on the most sensitive issues.So she went on in a guilty tone: Mom knows that I have done a lot of mistakes in the past, and maybe there are still some things that I have done very badly, so I have been working hard to correct and make up for it. Of course, I hope you can forgive me and help my mother to correct it together, okay?When Fan Zhengwen said this, she told her daughter clearly that what she did to Ouyang Xu was a mistake, and she hoped her daughter would forgive her. Yan Yan was noncommittal, still pawing back and forth on the plate in silence. Fan Zhengwen suddenly felt passive, so he said to his daughter in a low voice: Yan Yan, mother needs you very much, I hope we are not only mother and daughter, but also friends.Today, my mother just wants to open up with you and talk about things we usually don't have time to talk about.If you have any opinion on mom, I hope you can tell mom directly, okay? Yan Yan finally raised her head in Fan Zhengwen's expectant eyes. To Fan Zhengwen's surprise, Yan Yan's face had changed into an expression that was so cold that it was about to freeze again. What he said made Fan Zhengwen feel even more uncomfortable.Yan Yan said: Mom, let me answer your last question first, that is, I have no opinion on you.As for what you said we usually don't have time to talk about, I can tell you what the problem is. Fan Zhengwen's heart felt tense, so he could only bite the bullet and listen to his daughter. Yan Yan coughed a few times, as if choking on food, Fan Zhengwen stretched out his hand to her back like his daughter was when she was young, and was about to pat her twice, but Yan Yan stopped her without hesitation: Mom, in fact, you don't need to cover up. The problem you don't have time to talk to me is not the problem of my relationship? Fan Zhengwen's heart seemed to have been hit hard, and she felt her heart start to bleed.The matter has developed beyond Fan Zhengwen's expectations. Originally, she wanted to raise this sensitive issue tactfully, but before she could reach this stage, Yan Yan said it mercilessly. She didn't even care about Fan Zhengwen. With a gray earthy color on his face, he said coldly: Mom, today I received a call from you asking me to have dinner at a restaurant, so I understand what the meal is about.Including those two clothes made me firmer in my mind.It's just that I've been holding a fluke, hoping that you treat me like this only out of maternal love, and it's just for this pure purpose.Now I understand that all I get from you is always being busy, and these unexpected things are always sugar-coated.So, you are disappointed, I am even more disappointed.I can tell you frankly that I am in love, I need care, I need someone to love me, someone to love me.What you can't give me, I can get elsewhere.Fortunately, there are other loves in this world besides maternal love.So I'm not alone now, and I don't need you.And you don't need me, you just need to be an official. In front of her daughter, Fan Zhengwen was caught off guard. She failed completely, and the situation was completely out of control.She didn't know if she should be sad, or angry, maybe both.She was frustrated that her initial preparations and plans had suddenly come to naught, and she was in pain because of her daughter's unfeeling confession. A propaganda minister who had been doing propaganda work for many years was at a loss in front of his puppy love daughter.The most distressing thing was that she could not beat or scold her, nor did she dare to get angry.The matter of killing Ouyang Xu finally became the knot that she could not face her daughter normally in her whole life, and it also became the reason why she was unable to exercise her parental rights in front of her daughter. Yan Yan didn't care about Fan Zhengwen's reaction at all. She was chewing while talking. At the same time, the chopsticks in her hand kept looking for the plate, and her eyes followed the chopsticks to keep staring at the food on the table. plate.After the long confession above, she happened to pick up a walnut-sized conch, put on a disposable glove, picked up a bamboo skewer, picked out the conch meat and ate it.Until now, Fan Zhengwen hadn't cleared her mind, and she didn't know how to continue the planned conversation.But Yan Yan wiped his mouth unexpectedly, stood up, then went straight to his coat, and said hello while saying: Mom, thank you for your lunch, I won't waste your time.I also made an appointment with my boyfriend to watch a movie. You...you... Facing the sudden end of the conversation, Fan Zhengwen suddenly became incoherent. She wanted to get angry, but she didn't dare to say it, and she obviously couldn't turn around with a calming tone.She stood up subconsciously, walked to the door, and tried to stop her daughter. Mom, you don't have to give them away. If you don't object, I'll also take the new pair of shoes and the new coat.Without waiting for Fan Zhengwen's reaction, Yan Yan quickly got out of the door with his things in hand. The dark red wooden door was closed.Two minutes later, two lines of clear tears flowed from Fan Zhengwen's eyes standing behind the door. In the evening, an unprecedented war finally broke out in Fan Zhengwen's house. In the afternoon, Fan Zhengwen returned home from the hotel and thought about it all afternoon, but he couldn't think of a better way.Until it was almost dark, she never summoned up the courage to "struggle" with her daughter.She felt that she had too many shortcomings in front of her daughter, and she was afraid of hearing her daughter's merciless "revelation".But since the serious matter of the daughter's puppy love has been exposed, it must be resolved while the iron is hot.Finally, after much deliberation, she moved her younger brother Fan Zhengzhang here. Fan Zhengzhang was in the city and rushed over after dinner.Since Yan Yan left Fan Zhengwen at noon, he didn't go home until after eight o'clock in the evening.She had already put on Fan Zhengwen's new coat and new shoes, and when she stepped into the living room, she looked very happy.When she saw her uncle on the sofa on the west side of the living room, a mocking expression immediately appeared on her face, and she said to Fan Zhengwen: Mommy is calling for help!Then he looked at Fan Zhengzhang and called uncle in a half-cold manner. Fan Zhengwen was no longer as panicked as she was at noon, her expression was calm, and she said in a low voice like a minister in the office, "It's not about rescue, Yan Yan, we just want to communicate with you frankly. Let's communicate!Yan Yan took off his coat, put on slippers, sat down in the middle of the sofa, and focused his eyes on the Fan Zhengwen siblings opposite him as if watching the excitement. Fan Zhengzhang felt heavy in his heart when he saw the series of actions, speech and behavior of Yan Yan entering the door and sitting down.He sensed that this conversation was going to be an extremely difficult process, and after months of not seeing each other, the teenage girl had turned into a problem child.For such a child and such a conversation, he was as inexperienced and unsure as Fan Zhengwen. He even regretted not making some preparations in advance, such as consulting with experts and so on.But now that he is already sitting together, he can only bite the bullet and proceed: Yan Yan, since you are an upright child, let's not go around the bush, let's get straight to the point! Well, Yan Yan answered cleanly with an indifferent look. I heard you're dating? yes. Why do you want to fall in love, you are a student? It's true that I'm a student, but I'm lonely! Do you need to fall in love when you are lonely?There are plenty of kids of busy parents who feel lonely just like you do, but many of them aren't dealing with loneliness in relationships. Every child has a different way of solving loneliness. My way is to fall in love.Yan Yan speaks eloquently, saying without any hesitation, since I fell in love, I am not alone anymore, and I feel happier than ever before. Don't you feel ashamed?Seeing his daughter's indifference, Fan Zhengwen forgot to abide by Fan Zhengzhang's agreement to keep her silent during the conversation, and blurted out. What's the shame?Yan Yan's self-esteem was stimulated, and the tone of his voice immediately rose.I didn't steal, and I didn't rob, what's the shame? You...Fan Zhengwen's lips turned purple with anger, and he said in a heavier tone: Shame on you! You are a shame!Yan Yan suddenly turned his face, and shouted loudly at Fan Zhengwen, you think it's not shameful to look like a dog, do you think I don't know what you did?If you think it's embarrassing for me to be in a relationship, I'm still a single girl after all, and I haven't done anything outside of moral constraints.How about you?You are a married woman, you have no relationship with your superiors, and now it is rumored that you are relying on provincial leaders, do you think I will not lose face for you? Fan Zhengwen's face was distorted, she stood up and approached Yan Yan, Yan Yan seemed to be ready to fight, stood up abruptly, and confronted Fan Zhengwen leaning like two roosters.A struggle seems to have begun. Seeing that the situation was not good, Fan Zhengzhang hurriedly pulled Fan Zhengwen into the bedroom, and then came over and reprimanded Yan Yan in an elder tone, saying, why do you say that about your mother? Yan Yan didn't buy her uncle's account anymore, she shouted loudly, as if she wanted Fan Zhengwen in the bedroom to hear, what's wrong with her when I say that, don't you know what she did?Now that you have done it, don't be afraid of people talking about it! Sure enough, Fan Zhengwen rushed out again, and Fan Zhengzhang pushed Fan Zhengwen back again.Returning to Yan Yan, Fan Zhengzhang finally couldn't bear it anymore, and said to Yan Yan loudly and severely: Yan Yan, you have to apologize to your mother, it's too shameful.Falling in love is already wrong, and disrespecting my mother like this is even more wrong, it is simply intolerable. I will not apologize. must apologize. Impossible, why should I listen to you. Because I am your elder. You... Yan Yan sneered, swallowed back the next words, just said, I don't think I should listen to you. Fan Zhengzhang was furious at being challenged to the dignity of his elders. He said loudly to Yan Yan, I never thought you would become like this! Yan Yan stared, obviously Fan Zhengzhang's words aroused Yan Yan's anger again, she shouted loudly, what has become of me, am I just in love, aren't you all talking?Anyway, I haven't influenced others yet, and I haven't fooled around with others behind my back, and I haven't been written on my body! "Dang Clang" and "Clatter" two times in succession scared everyone in the room to silence.Fan Zhengwen was standing in the center of the living room, tears were streaming down his livid face like two streams, and on the ground in front of her was a piece of white vase glass shards shining colorfully under the light. Time froze in an instant like a frozen river, and the three people were in a still state like a frozen picture, and the room was as quiet as a vacuum.One second, two seconds, one minute, two minutes passed, and Yan Yan was the first to react. She stepped out from the sofa and rushed to the closet next to the living room door. She was ready to get dressed and go out.Fan Zhengzhang finally understood the seriousness of the matter, and also remembered his original plan - never get angry or get angry.He quickly walked to Yan Yan's side, tried his best to suppress the excitement in his heart, and pretended to be calm and said to Yan Yan: Yan Yan, you can't go out, our conversation is not over yet? Yan Yan didn't speak, didn't look up, and continued to look for clothes in the closet. 范正章再一次对严严诚恳地说，严严，我希望我们能够重新坐下来谈话，刚才我们都太激动了，应该说这个发怒的源头是你妈妈，希望你看在我的面子上原谅你妈妈这一次。你妈妈不容易，你应该知道的。而你呢，说话实在太伤人了，你难道不觉得吗？如果你觉得我说得还算公平，希望你能重新坐下来。 也许是范正章的提醒，让严严感到自己的话太伤妈妈和舅舅了，也许是被舅舅的诚恳和拳拳之心打动了，严严终于扭过头来，用盛满泪水的眼睛向舅舅表示了默许。 重新坐回沙发，三个人之间的上空已经笼罩上一层悲伤和沉重的气氛，严严也不再像刚才那样剑拔弩张了。范正纹一边难过地想着严严的变化，一边判断着女儿得到有关范正章婚外恋情消息的出处。范正章慢慢喝了一杯茶水，用以平静情绪。五分钟后，他终于能够找回最初的感觉了，他轻柔而缓慢地说，严严，我们重新我们的谈话好吗？ 严严既不像最初的无所谓态度，也不像后来的满身是刺，而换上一副诚恳的样子答道：好吧！ 你知道这个年纪谈恋爱的坏处吗？范正章以一副长辈的声调，语重心长地问道。 知道，严严低沉地答道，她像背老师的教导一样，说，早恋会影响学业，而且由于判断不清，认人不准，容易上当受骗，影响身心健康。 你学习成绩是不是下降了？ 是，但是不太多。 你了解那个男孩吗？ 基本了解，严严抬头看了舅舅一眼说，反正我也没打算结婚，因此谈不上上当受骗，更谈不上影响身心健康。 到此时范正章发现又进了死胡同，不知再如何进行下去。他扭身看了一眼范正纹，看见范正纹的脸上已经由最初的一脸哀容变成绝望。看来接下来的谈话仍然需要他出面进行，他知道这样的谈话一定要掌握住分寸，控制情绪，尤其不能再发生争吵。他喝了一口茶水，平静了一下情绪，表现出一副欣赏的样子说： 严严，从刚才我们争吵后的和解，我发现你仍是个懂事的孩子。这一点，从你很小我就发现了你的这个优点，高兴的是你这个优点现在仍然没有改变。从刚才的谈话里，舅舅觉得你不但是一个光明磊落的孩子，而且是一个绝顶聪明的孩子。凭这些，你应该有好的前途。再加上你妈妈通过这么多年的艰辛奋斗，为你换来的生活环境和社会背景，如果你能利用好，你将是一个不可估量的女孩。可现在你的早恋很可能使你将来的所有美好前景彻底改变，你将来的事业，将来的社会地位，甚至将来的家庭，都有可能从此完全改变。难道你不可惜？ 不可惜！严严的脸上已经换上一副坚定的样子，似乎她早已想好了这些后果。 Why?范正章与范正纹同时将全部精力集中在严严的脸上。 严严站了起来，到厨房冰箱里取了一罐可乐，一面喝着重又走了进来，看来严严已经彻底从刚才的争吵中走了出来。虽然如此，她在走进客厅的一刻，范正章还是从严严极力掩饰的表情里发现了一丝难以察觉的忧郁。他知道这个女孩心里装了太多的东西，她也许需要时间调整，或者适应。对于严严曾经出走的原因，范正纹早已经告诉了范正章，因此范正章同样不愿意太难为这个承受太多痛苦的女孩。他沉默地等着严严接下来的话。 严严咕咚咕咚喝了两口，重又坐到了原位置，然后清了清嗓子说： Two reasons.第一个原因是我不稀罕你们所谓的事业有成，更不稀罕什么社会地位和荣华富贵。我希望将来是一个普通的老百姓，没有什么辉煌事业，以及人人羡慕的社会地位，仅仅像姥爷姥姥，以及许许多多街头百姓们那样普普通通地生活就行了。 范正纹再一次按捺不住，压抑着心中的无奈问道，能过好日子，为什么要过清贫的日子？ 严严斜了妈妈一眼说，我过得差不多锦衣玉食了吧，许多同学对我羡慕得不得了，其实谁也不知道我心里的痛苦。还有阳阳，你们也不知道吧，他心里苦着呢？他曾经告诉我他不希望爸爸当场长。因为自从舅舅当了场长以后，他就见不到爸爸了，他觉得家里也开始不快乐了。所以我不希望我的孩子重复我和小阳阳这样的生活。我只要一份较为固定的工作和收入，一个爱我的丈夫，一个和美的家庭，然后给孩子一个温暖的家庭就够了。我想这比什么都重要。我不稀罕你们所说的东西。 范正纹与范正章恍然大悟，看来范正章的事情，两个孩子早已通过气了。尤其是范正章，听说儿子阳阳心里也很苦，他感到心被抽得一紧一紧的。范正纹张嘴刚想说什么，被范正章递来的眼神制止了。只听范正章耐心地对着严严继续问道，第二个原因呢？ 严严一副凝重的表情，显然她是认真的：如果说第一个原因是为未来做打算的话，那么这第二个原因就是为眼下做打算了。第二个原因，说俗了就是我渴望温暖和关怀。而这种渴望已经超出了我为未来打算的欲望。你们谁都不会切身理解一个处在孤独中的孩子的想法的。我曾经想自杀。 范正纹姐弟的脸色同时变得发白，他们一下子意识到严严这个想法的源头——严严发现欧阳旭死亡的真正原因。他俩紧张地坐在沙发上，一动不动，屏息静听着严严接下来的话。 你们一定明白我为什么这样难过。那个夜晚我真不知道是应该自己杀死自己，还是应该去杀死别人。最后我谁都没杀死，我只是在网上找了一个新寄托，一个吸引我注意力的网友。从他那里，我才从死亡的边缘走了回来，也才从对你们的痛恨中解脱出来。因此，我想，能够救我于深渊的人或事，肯定不应该被否定。如果让你们选择，你们希望我死呢，还是希望我谈恋爱呢？ 范正纹姐弟如坠迷雾大梦，面对严严提出的问题，俩人面面相觑。