Chapter 15 Chapter fifteen

On the way to the printing factory, Ruan Rong purposely grumbled to Bian Chenglong who was driving ahead with a frowning expression: Tell me, why is Fan Zhengzhang's sister so stupid? Bian Chenglong didn't know what happened between the two, which led Ruan Rong to such a conclusion, so he asked curiously: Sister Ruan, have you dealt with her before? Hey, don't mention it, Ruan Rong said angrily, it is said that Huayang Newspaper is working on a hotel project, I wanted to get it off, and I asked Fan Zhengzhang to lead the line, but I didn't expect that his sister not only ignored it, but also let me touch it. A nose of ashes.

According to his sister's position, taking on this small project can be said to be a trivial matter, why is it so difficult? I don't know, maybe all officials are virtuous?The official position is important, I guess I am afraid of accidents.Seeing that Bian Chenglong became interested, Ruan Rong deliberately continued to tease his attention and said, I really can't swallow this breath, and I must win this project. If it doesn't work, I will try it in the province.But the price may be high. Sure enough, Bian Chenglong has already taken the bait. He heard that Ruan Rong is going to try it in the province, and the price will be even higher.He immediately thought of whether to let him earn this part of the price.Once he had this idea, he quickly began to calculate the dangers of doing this in his mind: firstly, this project is not a big project, secondly, this project is something that Fan Zhengwen can easily do, and thirdly, the higher the position of Fan Zhengwen The more reluctant to expose the past.All three aspects bode well for the safety of this matter.That being the case, why not earn the money?Thinking of this, his small eyes suddenly became extremely bright, as if some energy had been injected suddenly.

The car was moving forward steadily, and there was a song that Ruan Rong liked to listen to on the CD in the car - Faye Wong's.Although this song can touch Ruan Rong's heart every time, but at this time her mood is all focused on Bian Chenglong's movements and reactions.A minute passed, Bian Chenglong finally spoke while Ruan Rong was waiting nervously: How about I try, Bian Chenglong said something, but suddenly stopped, as if there was something left to say. When Ruan Rong heard the joke, she deliberately showed a surprised look and said, do you know her? Don't worry about what channel I used, Bian Chenglong suppressed the excitement in his heart, and said in a low voice, for Sister Ruan, I want to give it a try.

Of course Ruan Rong knew Bian Chenglong's tricks, so she deliberately pretended to be extremely excited and said, if you can really do it, I will give you at least 50,000 yuan as a reward. In order not to touch Fan Zhengzhang, and of course not to lose this cash cow for the time being, Ruan Rong specifically told Bian Chenglong that no matter what channel you go through, there is one thing that must be guaranteed, and Fan Zhengzhang should not let Fan Zhengzhang know about it. Bian Chenglong hesitated for a while, and finally agreed that there is no problem. It was a dark and stormy night, and all the scenes looked like the background of violence or murder.Bian Chenglong was at home, looking at and looking at the photos left at that time, thinking and thinking, and finally at about twelve o'clock, he concocted a second blackmail letter to Fan Zhengwen:

Minister Fan: Hi!We are already old acquaintances.I have been watching your development in the dark for so many years, and never thought of disturbing you.But today, for the sake of my friend, I have to trouble you again.Because this friend once helped me, in order to repay the favor, I broke my promise to you once, I hope you understand.Looking for you this time is different from the first time, I just hope you raise your hand and give my friend a bite of food.To put it bluntly, it was the project of Huayang Newspaper.But don't worry, my friend doesn't know about our relationship.

Another thing to note is that Fan Zhengzhang should not let Fan Zhengzhang know about this, otherwise the consequences will be at your own risk. old acquaintance Three days later, in the middle of the night, Fan Zhengwen was in the study like a lion in a cage, furious.And on her writing desk, the letter was lying quietly ignorantly along with a photo of Fan Zhengwen and Ouyang Xu at the last moment. It was very late at night, and Fan Zhengwen was still walking.She went from the front of the house to the end of the house, and from the end of the house to the top of the house, repeating it over and over again, nothing changed.Year after year, she thought that nightmare had disappeared with the passage of time, as if time never came back again.But today, when she bursts into the wind like a spring lilac blooming again, that ghostly creature reappears.How terrible!For so many years, as he said, he has been watching her in the dark, even like the black figure under his feet now, which changes in size, disappears and appears, following him non-stop.What to do?What should she do?At this moment, she felt so helpless and vulnerable.If there is a shoulder and a chest, let her rest, what would it feel like?

She picked up the phone and wanted to find Fan Zhengzhang, but suddenly remembered what the letter said, so she put it down again.She picked up the phone again, thinking of Wan Changqing, suddenly didn't know how to tell him, what to say, so she had to put it down again.The room was surprisingly quiet, except for occasional whispers from the daughter's bedroom.Only then did she realize that no one in this world could save herself, and she could only rely on herself.She stood at the window, gently opened the window, took a deep breath into the dark night and said, I can deal with it, I am Fan Zhengwen.

After taking a few tablets of Valium, Fan Zhengwen slept until 7:30, the hourly worker had already made breakfast on time, and his daughter had already left for school.The bright sunlight scattered and flowed like gold outside the window, and the light that shone into the room gave Fan Zhengwen a kind of warmth and new hope for a moment.She sat on the bed, thinking about what happened last night, and she was no longer afraid.Now that such a life, such a job, and such an environment have been chosen, there is nothing to be afraid of.Regardless of the thorns or muddy road ahead, we must go on.There is nothing to choose from, and nothing to back down from.

Two hours later, Fan Zhengwen, who was sitting in the office, had called Ruan Rong.Hearing Ruan Rong's pretended polite and polite voice, Fan Zhengwen's heart was filled with hatred.Even so, she was able to suppress her hatred, and said in her usual tone, calmly and calmly: Ruan Rong, I didn't expect you to have such a hobby? What hobby?Ruan Rong understood that Fan Zhengwen was referring to the voyeurism and taking pictures, and it was obvious that Fan Zhengwen had already attributed this matter to her.Since Bian Chenglong was instigated to do this, it is naturally difficult to choose her suspicion.But no matter what, she didn't want to admit it, so she had to try her best to show her innocence:

What are my hobbies?I do not understand what you are saying? What I'm talking about, you know best.Fan Zhengwen's tone no longer concealed her disgust, I don't want to make any detours with you, I just want to tell you that I admit defeat. After saying this, Fan Zhengwen hung up the phone with a "click".Looking at the black phone on the desk, she gritted her teeth again, and snapped a fountain pen in her hand into two pieces. A stream of black and red blood quickly flowed from Fan Zhengwen's palm, and almost at the same time, a throbbing pain flashed from Fan Zhengwen's palm, and spread to her heart in an instant.

When Fan Zhengzhang was struggling with the divorce, a strange phone call suddenly came into Fan Zhengzhang's office. She kept saying that she wanted to expose the behavior of a certain cadre in the dairy factory who was guarding and stealing.This surprised Fan Zhengzhang. When she asked who the other party was, who she was exposing, and what evidence she had, she didn't say anything, only that she must see Fan Zhengzhang himself. One evening two days later, Fan Zhengzhang met a beautiful woman in her thirties in a small restaurant near the farm.She seemed to have experience with more secret appointments, for the booth in the small restaurant she had chosen was private, quiet, and not easily seen. At first the woman hesitated, but under Fan Zhengzhang's repeated urging, the woman shyly put forward two conditions: First, in order to avoid retaliation, she asked the factory to keep her secret.Second, she hopes that the factory will give her a certain reward.Fan Zhengzhang agreed to the first one without hesitation, and after thinking about the latter one, he also agreed with all his heart. The thing turned out to be like this, the woman finally uncovered a loophole that Fan Zhengzhang had never thought of: in the process of selling milk, due to various factors, some of the milk was still not sold before the expiry date.According to industry regulations, this part of milk is required to be destroyed when the shelf life is reached.In Fan Zhengzhang's dairy factory, such situations are not too many.Basically, when half of the warranty period is over, the goods are quickly sold out with various promotional methods, or they are given away for free, or given away with the goods, or sold at a reduced price.The large-scale publicity campaign that was carried out in the previous paragraph is such a free promotion.In this operation, Jiang Deshi took advantage of this cover to sell some of the unexpired dairy products to a dealer—Yang Yanhua at the price of dairy products that were about to expire.As soon as this dealer was mentioned, the woman suddenly swears.Only then did Fan Zhengzhang know that it was also a woman, a woman who had an ambiguous relationship with Jiang Deshi. Fan Zhengzhang was surprised and asked, how do you know? The woman was angry again, her face was flushed, and she said angrily: Jiang Deshi said to get me a batch every month, but in the end he couldn't get it, so he didn't give it to me.When I inquired about it later, I found out that he gave Yang Yanhua everything he got.This smelly and shameless woman somehow seduced Jiang Deshi, a bastard. Fan Tianzhang was suddenly disgusted!I don't know if it's the disgusting woman's words, or the disgusting Jiang Deshi's behavior, anyway, he really wants to end this conversation quickly.So he wrote down the woman's name, Wang Hong, and her phone number, and then Yang Yanhua's address, and broke up with her. The night road is very dark, this is a moonless night.Fan Zhengzhang suddenly felt restless when he was driving alone and approaching the farm.He turned the car around and drove out of the brightly lit bustling area again, into a field that was getting darker and quieter.He got out of the car and sat on the ground, looking at the dark and quiet countryside, feeling extremely tired.What's wrong with me?Since when did I become so tired?Accusations from family members, family infidelity, dissatisfaction from lovers, betrayal from subordinates, warnings from superiors, all of these suddenly came rushing forward like a promise. Could it be that the honor of these ten outstanding young people should not be won as it should be?Do you have to use these hardships to offset it? The phone rang suddenly, and in the silent night, it was so loud that it made one's heart palpitate.Looking at this familiar number—Ruan Rong's number, for the first time, he didn't have a strong passion for responding.He just sat there, letting the bell ring loudly in the open field. The spring breeze blew from a distance, brushed over his body, and then blew away from a distance. Occasionally, some flying insects passed by him with subtle chirping, and then disappeared in an unknown place.Only the nasty bell was ringing persistently and endlessly beside him, like cicadas chirping in hot summer, mosquitoes in summer night, flies beside garbage, what else, he couldn't remember anymore.So he took out his mobile phone from his body and shouted loudly into the mobile phone: I just don't answer it, I'm mad at you.Then use all your strength to throw it far away. Fuck you, call it! The sound was far away, but it didn't stop completely. It took almost half an hour to call stop.It wasn't until Fan Zhengzhang sat up that his butt was cold that he felt that he should leave.Yes, he can't stop, no matter how difficult it is, he has to go on.Thinking of this, he took a deep breath at the boundless crops in front of him, and then stood up. He stepped into the soft wheat field, looking for the phone according to the memory just now.Yes, everything should be back, and he should be back in his seat. He had a restless night.Jiang Deshi's question made him feel headache and trouble all night. In the second half of the night, he finally set the tone to deal with this scheming guy: Although you have helped me, although you know many things about me, although you are my confidant, but don't even think about passing this level easily because of your crime.Fan Zhengzhang decided to punish this kid and let him improve his memory. When Jiang Deshi came in, he didn't know what happened, let alone Fan Zhengzhang knew about his bad behavior. He still said with a hippie smile: Head, so stern, what happened? Fan Zhengzhang already had prejudices against Jiang Deshi. Although Jiang Deshi had done a lot for him in the past few years, and his views on Jiang Deshi had changed a lot, Fan Zhengzhang still had doubts about Jiang Deshi's personal quality.Today, in the face of Jiang Deshi's speculative practice, Fan Zhengzhang was even more furious, so when he saw Jiang Deshi, he mercilessly asked straight to the point: Jiang Deshi, what do you think about Yang Yanhua? Without any mental preparation, Jiang Deshi froze in place.After being surprised, his mind began to spin rapidly, hoping to find out what Fan Zhengzhang knew.Did he know about his style of work, or his problems with dairy products?If it's the former, at most he'll be scolded and nothing serious will happen. Doesn't Fan Zhengzhang still have Ruan Rong?If it's the latter, it's serious.Conversely, since Fan Zhengzhang is so angry, it seems that the latter is more likely?Thinking of this, Jiang Deshi softened all of a sudden.He thought of the jealousy between Yang Yanhua and Wang Hong, and Wang Hong's warning to him.He understood it all at once.Now that everything is under Fan Zhengzhang's control, it seems that it is better not to quibble, but to confess it frankly! What Jiang Deshi said was basically the same as what Wang Hong said.After confessing, Jiang Deshi said pitifully to Fan Zhengzhang, head, what are you going to do with me?I'm the one you brought along, if I'm done, who will run errands for you here, and who will relieve your worries!Head, I beg you, you must save me!After saying this, Jiang Deshi stretched out his hand and slapped himself on the cheek, saying incessantly, "Damn me, I'm ungrateful for profit, I'm sorry for your cultivation of me." Not to mention, Fan Zhengzhang hated his standard slave look so much, he frowned and blocked Jiang Deshi's words angrily.In Fan Zhengzhang's understanding, he felt that the more villainous he is, the more likely he is to do anything.In order not to offend this villain, and for him to keep the secrets of the past for him, he decided to let him go this time.But punishment is indispensable, and he must be let to bleed and cut his flesh, until his heart aches and his memory grows.So, he said in a low voice, okay, okay, shut up, it can be saved now, and no one else knows except me. When Jiang Deshi heard this, he immediately put on a relaxed demeanor, and said happily: "Boss, tell me, what can I do to make it up." Fan Zhengzhang glared at him and said, do you still expect the factory to come forward to settle things for you?It's up to you now.Save money and avoid disaster! Jiang Deshi said gratefully, head, you not only helped me and promoted me, but now you saved me again.If you have anything to do in the future, as long as I, Jiang Deshi, can come in handy, I will die. Fan Zhengzhang didn't quite believe Jiang Deshi's words in his heart. His promises may be sincere now, but if something happens, it will definitely be a different situation.So I just said lightly, well, there is no need to express your determination, I just hope that you will stop doing such trivial things in the future. Looking at Jiang Deshi's thin and tall back, Fan Zhengzhang felt a very bad feeling in his heart for some reason.This is an increasingly dangerous villain, Fan Zhengzhang's mind is getting stronger and stronger.If this continues, I will be destroyed by this kid one day.This thought tormented Fan Zhengzhang from the morning until the night of that day.Until he was about to fall asleep at night, Fan Zhengzhang finally made up his mind that he must find some reason, or take some means, to drive Jiang Deshi away, so as to avoid endless troubles. A week later, Fan Zhengzhang handed Wang Hong's phone number to Zhang Xiaoyan, director of the office, and said that he wanted to report something two days before the call.Ask her to find out exactly what to report.Ten minutes later, Zhang Xiaoyan, the director of the office, reported that the caller was a woman. She said it was just a joke and there was nothing to report. In fact, the night before, Jiang Deshi was already like an eggplant beaten by frost, and told Fan Zhengzhang with a sigh that he had spent four months' wages for this matter, a total of 9,380 yuan! Since Fan Zhengzhang filed for divorce, Sun Mei's pain has not increased much, just like when a wound on her body hurts too much, even if there is another knife or two, she will not feel anything.Before this, Sun Mei never dared to imagine how she would spend such a day.And now she finds that everything is not so complicated.Fan Zhengzhang never came back, like most of the past, and the two divorce papers he left behind had already disappeared with the disposal of garbage.At this time, marriage to Sun Mei was still like the half-brightness of the sun at dusk.She believes that everything she does has or is working.Although Fan Zhengwen said that the conversation between her and Fan Zhengzhang was not ideal, the news from the old father was that Fan Zhengzhang had surrendered, and Sun Zhanshan replied that he had also talked with Fan Zhengzhang. Because, tell Sun Mei not to worry, things won't go so bad. Regardless of whether it was that bad or not, Sun Mei was no longer afraid of anything.She thought of everything, even the worst.She has even bought a bottle of dichlorvos.To prevent Zhengzhang from attacking from the side.In other words, if Fan Zhengzhang is not facing her directly now, but is on the road to court prosecution.Sun Mei was going to drink Dichlorvos on the spot in court, as long as the court sentenced her to a divorce. Ten days passed and nothing happened, a month, two months passed and still nothing happened.There was no news of Fan Zhengzhang, and the court did not find him. Sun Mei repeated the old days as before: children—work—housework, and nothing else.The temperature outside is getting hotter day by day, and all the plants have reached their luxuriant and peak period.As the temperature rises, thousands of flowers bloom as brightly and brightly as a bonfire by the river on a midsummer night.Whenever she was suffering from insomnia in the middle of the night, Sun Mei would sit on the balcony and, by the moonlight, look at the potted flowers under her feet that were as gorgeous as girls in costumes. It has been more than two months, and there is no news from Zhao Jianhua.Five days after they were caught by Fan Zhengzhang, Sun Mei only received one greeting call from Zhao Jianhua.Judging from the voice, Zhao Jianhua was really frightened. After asking about the basic situation of Sun Mei and Fan Zhengzhang, he hung up the phone.He was depressed, his voice was hoarse, and he seemed to be traumatized.Since then, like a flying yellow crane, he has never been heard from again.Before that, in Sun Mei's eyes, Zhao Jianhua had always been a strong and brave man, but such an accident frightened him like a woman, even worse than a woman—Sun Mei could be calm and composed.Maybe in the face of disaster or pain, men are more vulnerable!Maybe Zhao Jianhua needs more time to forget slowly than Sun Mei!After all, this is an unspeakable event, an event that people will never let go of.After Sun Mei gradually broke free from this matter and stopped being entangled, Sun Mei's heart was rekindled for Zhao Jianhua.Especially in the night of insomnia, when the lust in the body is sprouting.Therefore, she couldn't judge whether her feeling for Zhao Jianhua was emotion or lust.Whatever it is, whenever she gets confused, Sun Mei comforts herself and says, what the hell is it?Live it day by day! In addition to thinking about Zhao Jianhua, the one thing Sun Mei wanted to know the most in these relatively stable days was what Fan Zhengzhang was doing now.Now that he is no longer arguing for a divorce, but he doesn't go home either, what does he do in his spare time, especially on weekends?Did you go to Ruan Rong again?Whenever she thinks of Ruan Rong, it not only makes Sun Mei extremely disgusted, but also makes Sun Mei hate it unbearably, as if killing her is not enough to calm her heart.Therefore, since she started to have severe insomnia again, she planned to meet Ruan Rong to see what kind of woman she was and what methods she could use to completely change Fan Zhengzhang.But how to meet and how to ask her out are all big problems.Night after night passed, Sun Mei thought about countless meeting plans, and rejected them countless times.Until the end of the summer, she didn't come up with any better and more satisfying plan. The opportunity came while she was planning the event.It's the end of summer vacation.Since Sun Mei asked her children to learn swimming in a swimming training class during the holidays, Sun Mei would send her children to the swimming pool for class on time at 4:30 every afternoon.On this day, Sun Mei didn't plan to go to work after sending the children out.One is that the work is not too busy, and the other is that it is time to get off work soon after arriving at the unit. In addition, due to the hot weather, Sun Mei has a slack habit of going to work, so Sun Mei decided to go to the supermarket to buy some necessities. Sun Mei flipped through her bag to check the shopping cards on her body, and found that apart from the card in a supermarket far away, the shopping card near the children's swimming pool had very little money left.These shopping cards were given by Fan Zhengzhang's subordinates or people who asked for them after he became the field manager. Sun Mei and her son can spend a long time on these things every year.Although he has been indifferent to Sun Mei for a long time, in order to maintain the normal life of the family, Fan Zhengzhang still gives most of the various gift certificates and shopping coupons he gets to Sun Mei for consumption every year.Twenty minutes later, Sun Mei had arrived at the supermarket by bicycle. Since it's not a weekend, and the supermarket is relatively remote, especially since it's not the end of working hours, the supermarket looks much deserted than usual, which makes Sun Mei's shopping more comfortable and calm.Pushing a small shopping cart, she strolled leisurely looking, thinking about what she needed to buy.After reaching the lingerie aisle, she stopped and began to search in detail for what she liked.Occasionally, someone came by, or stood down, looked through the goods, and then left.Another figure came from behind, talking on the phone while walking.At first Sun Mei didn't care about the people who came, let alone what she was talking about.But when the woman said Fan Zhengzhang's name, Sun Mei's attention was immediately attracted.The woman said: Where am I choosing underwear for you?Zhengzhang, but I forgot your waistline. ... Sun Mei was holding a bra in her hand, and stood there dumbfounded, her whole posture was like a model standing nearby, motionless.The woman is still happily talking and laughing: Hate, talk about the waistline. ... OK, OK, I'm punished.It was obvious that the woman was flirting with the person on the phone. Her coquettish voice and coquettish appearance reminded Sun Mei that the words on Fan Zhengzhang's back were Ruan Rong. Ruan Rong had already pushed a full cart away from the shelf, but Sun Mei was still standing there thinking.When she woke up, the woman had already gone out of her sight.She hurriedly threw the bra in her car into the basket on the car and rushed to the cash register.Fortunately, the woman bought too much and hadn't paid the full amount yet.Sun Mei quickly walked to another cash register and paid the money.Almost at the same time, they pushed their carts towards the exit.The woman was on the phone again, and it seemed that someone was coming to help her get something. Something even more unexpected happened.Sun Mei originally wanted to follow Ruan Rong and see where she lived, so that she could catch Fan Zhengzhang in bed with her, so as to silence Fan Zhengzhang and find a balance.Therefore, she hurriedly overtook Ruan Rong, walked out of the door, pushed her bicycle, and was about to take a taxi to pull her bicycle.However, when she had just pushed the bicycle, paid the fare, walked to the sidewalk, waved to the taxi, and looked backward at Ruan Rong's whereabouts, a familiar car came from the parking lot.Sun Mei, who was full of thoughts of stalking, barely understood at first who this car was coming to pick up.At that moment, when she saw Fan Zhengzhang's car, her mind was confused for a moment, and she returned to the scene when Fan Zhengzhang first had a car and when Fan Zhengzhang picked her up after she went shopping. Soon Sun Mei woke up, and this process may only take a few seconds, or even a second.Because she saw Fan Zhengzhang - her husband got out of the car.And the direction that this man happily walked over was not towards her, but towards the woman named Ruan Rong. Sun Mei hadn't seen Fan Zhengzhang for several months. To be exact, they had never met since Fan Zhengzhang "caught rape" in bed.But today, in such a scene, Fan Zhengzhang appeared in front of Sun Mei with a face full of brilliance, especially the brilliance on his face was not directed at Sun Mei, but at another woman whom Sun Mei had hated for many years, Sun Mei. A volcanic anger surged in Mei's heart for a moment.A taxi had come towards her and opened the door to her.At this time, Sun Mei had already forgotten that she had called a taxi, let alone the plan to follow her just now.The only thought in her mind was to rush over and fight to the death with this happy couple. Sun Mei pushed her bicycle and began to run wildly among the pedestrians. Due to the crowds of people coming and going on the sidewalk, Sun Mei's running stumbled, and she kept bumping into pedestrians, causing dissatisfaction along the way.A man and a woman in the distance were each carrying a bunch of colorful things, talking and laughing as they walked towards the rear of the car, not knowing what was about to happen.Sun Mei rushed over, to be precise, it was Sun Mei's bicycle that hit Ruan Rong's ass. "Ouch!" Ruan Rong screamed and sat on the ground, and Sun Mei's bicycle was overturned beside Ruan Rong like a spinning wheel, the front wheels were spinning rapidly upwards. Sun Mei and Fan Zhengzhang face to face.Silence, one second, two seconds, ten seconds passed, and the silence was still like an indifferent boulder between the two of them.Until Ruan Rong's cry broke the gap in the silent emotion.At this point, Fan Zhengzhang and Sun Mei realized that the silence between them had been replaced by great hatred, as if the stone had suddenly melted.From each other's eyes, the hatred is like two huge floods crossing and passing between them within a distance of less than three meters, and the waves swelled one after the other, quickly converging and condensing into an incomparably sharp stream The sword of hatred. Some pedestrians stopped and stood nearby to watch the battle.Ruan Rong also stood up and began to understand what was happening right now.At this time, Fan Zhengzhang has already realized the situation he is facing now, and wants to quickly end the battle that has not yet started.But just when he pulled Ruan Rong around and prepared to flee, Sun Mei rushed forward shamelessly, stretched out her hands and grabbed Fan Zhengzhang by the back of the neck with one hand, and grabbed Ruan Rong's waist with the other. long hair. Ruan Rong screamed again, and because her hair was pulled, she had to stiffen her body, not daring to move.Fan Zhengzhang was ashamed and indignant, he turned around and broke Sun Mei away, and then pushed Sun Mei hard with his palm.During this process, Sun Mei had to loosen Ruan Rong's hair due to her unstable standing, but she fell to the ground like a giant spider under Fan Zhengzhang's palm. The car started, and Fan Zhengzhang and his lover ran away quickly when Sun Mei was lying on the ground.Sun Mei was lying on the ground, a moment of severe dizziness grasped Sun Mei deeply.The crowd of onlookers was spinning, the high buildings were falling, the sky was collapsing, the ground was sinking, and everything was spinning rapidly.Everything is so illusory and fuzzy, everything is so crazy and insane.In Sun Mei's mind, something seems to be twisting and gathering with the rotation of the outside world, and it is twisting and gathering like a snowball, expanding and expanding, gathering and twisting, expanding and expanding, and accompanied by high-speed rotation and growth , almost to the point of breaking Sun Mei's mind, bursting, collapsing, and splitting.let me die!The only thought in Sun Mei's mind at that moment was to let me die!Perhaps death is like this, this high-speed rotation may be the feeling when people pass through some kind of passage after death!When Sun Mei thought this way, she was no longer in pain. Sun Mei didn't die, she didn't know that someone helped her up until she sat up and saw the faces with various expressions around her soberly.All kinds of daily necessities she bought were scattered on the ground, including the bag of bras lying quietly not far away.Someone picked up things for her, and someone put her bicycle upright.An old lady kept persuading her with wet eyes, son, look away, this kind of thing is happening everywhere now, just bear it if you can. Can you bear it?There were no tears in Sun Mei's eyes. Seeing the old lady's expression, she thought she would cry. She touched her face, but there were no tears. She touched her eyes again, but there were still no tears.At this time, she suddenly realized that she was very funny, especially when she saw the heartbroken eyes of the old lady, she made a "cluck and cluck" sound like a hen that had just laid eggs: she was laughing!She startled herself and everyone around her. The old lady thought she was crazy, and hurriedly persuaded someone to send her home.A young woman with a child quickly stepped back into the distance with a look of horror on her face, which made Sun Mei laugh even more, and laughed loudly: Hahaha-- During this burst of laughter, Sun Mei stood up, her whole body was shaking from laughing, and she couldn't stand steadily.Amidst this quivering laughter, she picked up her things, got on her bike, and left under the gaping eyes of the crowd. She didn't go home and forgot to pick up the child, but went straight to the train station.It wasn't until she got on the train that she suddenly thought of the child in the swimming pool.So she called her sister and explained about the child.Three hours later, Sun Mei came to the streets of Chenzhou again. The city is so strange, and the wind in late summer has turned cool.Standing on the brightly lit street, Sun Mei once again tasted the mood when she first came to Chenzhou: helplessness, fragility, grievance, pain, resentment, hatred, etc. A pile of bad emotions piled up like a tall mountain pressing down on her. Her heart made her breathless.She didn't know why she chose this place again this time. Could it be that this is a healing place for her, a safe haven for her? Standing in the wind, she took out her mobile phone and started dialing the familiar number.It has been several months, and Zhao Jianhua has disappeared like a gopher escaping into the ground.Sun Mei didn't know if he still liked her, if he still missed her like she missed him, if in the dead of night, he remembered the time they spent together like she did.The phone is connected, and this answer will be answered promptly.For a moment, huge fluctuations and hopes arose in Sun Mei's heart.She believed that he was waiting for her and was thinking of her all the time. Just because of Sun Mei's love with him, just because of what he said and promised when they got together, she could believe that that man was thinking about her. The other party finally heard a reply, hello! Sun Mei burst into tears, tears streaming down her face, like a river breaking its embankment, as if she was about to shed all the tears she had held back in the afternoon.This is that man, a man who Sun Mei is willing to rely on when she is injured, a man who can comfort and care for Sun Mei when she is in pain.When Sun Mei lived on a strange street again in the middle of the night, it was this man who answered her every call, and it was this man who was willing to give her a warm heart and a safe arm.Sun Mei felt how grateful she was to Zhao Jianhua! On the phone, she was asking "Who, please speak", and Sun Mei, who was in tears, was so excited that she couldn't make a sound. She said intermittently, I—I——Sun Mei. Sun Mei? It's me, Sun Mei suddenly cried into the phone, Jianhua, where are you? What Jianhua, Sun Mei, I don't know, did you make a mistake?The voice on the phone suddenly became unfamiliar. Sun Mei's crying stopped abruptly, because not only did she hear that the person on the phone said she didn't know her, but she also realized that this strange voice was indeed not Zhao Jianhua. Isn't your mobile phone number 130××××××××. Yes, but I don't know you! Sun Mei was suddenly dumbfounded. The phone number is the same, but the person is different. What's going on?She wiped away her tears and had to soberly judge what went wrong. After she figured it out, she tried to calmly ask: What time is your mobile phone number on? It's been more than a month! Everything is self-explanatory, after turning off the phone, Sun Mei really collapsed standing on the street.She couldn't believe it was true—Zhao Jianhua had changed his cell phone number without notifying her.What does this mean?The only thing is that Zhao Jianhua has ended this story. I don't believe it, I don't believe it. Could it be that so much passion and so deep yearning are really so short-lived and so fragile?I don't believe it, I don't believe anything I say.Is this world really so cruel, is this emotion really so illusory?Am I being fooled by myself again?Or cheated by a man?I don't believe, I don't believe, I don't believe that fate is really so cruel? The night was getting deeper and deeper, and a gust of cool wind was blowing from nowhere, making Sun Mei feel extremely chilled.When she realized it, she realized that her clothes were all wet from the rain.She didn't know when it rained, nor how long it had been raining, but she knew that she had walked for five hours since she got off the bus, because the clock next to a bus stop ahead was pointing to four o'clock in the morning. The street before dawn seemed empty and deserted, as lonely as Sun Mei's shadow. Only then did Sun Mei feel that this world might have been like this; loneliness, loneliness, maybe this is the real appearance of the human world.尽管人是群居动物，尽管人离不开群体，但人永远都无法走到人的心里去，不管你觉得如何亲近，如何相爱，一切都是表面现象。在时间、在变故、在迁移、在变化的面前，人与人之间的情感永远都是最脆弱，最不可靠的东西，不要相信它了吧？孙梅哭着安慰自己说，也许是人太复杂了，也许是社会太复杂了，也许是人太文明了，也许是社会变化太快了！总之，一切都不要相信，除了相信自己。 但是，我不甘心啊！在太阳从黑暗的东方露出第一缕模糊的晨曦时，孙梅终于对着自己的影子说了一句话：我要找他求证。这句话就像太阳光辉刚刚带来的希冀，在孙梅的心里又产生了一刹那的光亮。正是这一丝光亮，孙梅虚弱的身上一瞬间产生了某种神秘的力量。 雨不知何时停了，孙梅的衣服在太阳的照耀下已经重新干了。她找到一个公园，洗了洗脸，然后走向一个公用电话亭。她一定要找到赵建华，一定要面见他，听他亲口说出他怎么啦？他已经决定怎么啦？ 单位电话很顺利地打通了。赵建华听到孙梅的声音，在停顿了一秒钟后，很理智很平静地说了一句：我非常忙，孙梅，你有什么事，我们回头再谈好吗？ 孙梅的心一下子变得冰凉。她想，好在她已经想了一夜，好在她已经有了各种准备，在被范正章抛弃以后，再一次经历抛弃，似乎已经不太难受了。于是她觉得自己能够压抑住一切正在泛滥的痛苦，强装平静地说： 不耽误你多长时间，我只想要一个明白的答案，我们是否算是彻底结束了？ 孙梅，你说我们还能怎样？我们其实什么都没做成吧！可你老公手机上的证据，随时都可能毁掉我。你说我冤不冤！孙梅，我不敢再冒险了！ Know it!孙梅的心“啪嗒”一声掉到了硬邦邦的水泥地上，就像玻璃杯摔碎一样，将疼痛撞得四处飞溅。她捂着胸口，轻得像蚊子的叫声，只说了一句“再见”便迅速挂了电话。 眼泪不争气地流了满脸，冲掉了孙梅刚刚拍上去的一层粉底。本以为赵建华会过来见她一面呢，为此还特意化了妆。原来事情这样简单，这样干脆，这样不拖泥带水！ 不是已经被抛弃过一次，第二次便不痛了吗？为什么心里仍然如此痛？如此难过？孙梅趴在IP公用电话上久久没有抬起头来，只有一耸一耸的肩膀和没有规律抖动的头发，让人知道这个女人正在哭泣。她似乎已经不在乎行人对她的注目了。