Chapter 9 Chapter nine

After we came back from our hometown, my mother really did not break her promise, and she did what she said. Through some improper means, she gave us a one-bedroom apartment. The building is an old building. There is neither a kitchen nor a toilet in the room. It was painted white, with new beds, new quilts, and new hi-characters. High and low cabinets, folding chairs, and other high-end furniture of that era were also prepared.In those days, there was such a ready-made house to get married, and you really had to be a little privileged and dare to use the privilege to get it.Ye Shengnan and I never expected to have such a good new house, we were overjoyed and extremely grateful to my mother, Ye Shengnan called my mother one by one, making my mother happy all day long.

The enthusiasm of newlyweds is gradually solidified into a day-to-day routine.She eats and sleeps after get off work every day, quarrels over trivial matters, and rejoices over trivial gains. She goes back to her mother’s house once a week, and we eat lunch at work, and dinner at my house.That night before going to bed, Ye Shengnan undid her braids and looked at her beautifully in the mirror, and suddenly asked me, "Do you think I've permed my hair to look good?" Hair perming was once considered a bourgeois way of life, and the four old things were completely abolished. Women seem to have forgotten about perming their heads.Now women are starting to perm their heads one after another, tidying up the straight hair inherited from their ancestors like Xinjiang fine wool sheep. Regardless of their age, fat or thin face, or whether they are married or not, women embrace it like crazy. Go to the barber shop to perm your hair.I couldn't imagine what it would be like for Ye Shengnan to perm her head, but I saw that the two-year-old daughter-in-law Xiao Linzi and my mother had their heads permed. Maybe the barber shop they went to was not good enough, and it seemed that each of them had an old crow on their heads. In the nest, once I even dreamed that a group of chirping birds hatched on the heads of their mother-in-law and daughter-in-law at the same time.I told Ye Shengnan's mother about the dream, and her mother said that maybe your family will have someone to import again, and sure enough, Ye Shengnan announced with shyness and pride that she was pregnant soon.

I said to my mother: "Mom, your hair looks too complicated." My mother said triumphantly: "Before the 'Cultural Revolution' your mother always had this kind of hair, have you forgotten?" I really can't remember what hairstyle my mother wore before the "Cultural Revolution". It is difficult for me to adapt to the changes. My mother went on to say: "Your father doesn't care, why do you care?" Maybe my dad didn't want to take care of it, maybe he couldn't take care of it, and it's more likely that he didn't have the time and thought to take care of his wife's hair.My dad is too busy now, making investigations, implementing policies, and resuming production... My dad is just the opposite of Ye Shengnan's dad. When her dad is busy, my dad is idle, and when my dad is busy, her dad is idle. up.

"Do you think I perm my head?" Ye Shengnan asked me stubbornly. I am noncommittal, and I know that if she doesn't want a perm, she won't go into the barber shop if I force her. If she wants a perm, it's useless even if I object.I have more and more personal feelings about her character of believing that cow dung is a big cake, and not giving it a real big cake. When sending wedding candies to relatives, friends and colleagues, she suddenly proposed to send wedding candies to Teacher Hu, of course I refused.In Teacher Hu's mind, I am an out-and-out poor student. When the "Cultural Revolution" first started, I criticized Teacher Hu and asked her to reflect on her problems on all fours. How can I have the nerve to meet her face to face now?I think Mr. Hu will also be embarrassed to see me.But she insisted on going: "Teacher Hu is the teacher who has taught us the longest time, we can't be so ungrateful. Besides, when the 'Cultural Revolution' started, students criticized teachers nationwide, and you were not alone. After such a long time Now, Teacher Hu will never hold grudges against you."

No matter what she says, I won't go if you kill me.She went alone to deliver wedding candy to Mr. Hu, and took away the last two boxes of peony cigarettes I treasured.When she came back, she said that Teacher Hu asked her to tell me not to care about the past, that the whole society was suffering from a mental illness, and we ignorant middle school students should not be responsible for any faults.Teacher Hu also said that she would never hold grudges against me. If she resented me for those things, she would not be worthy of being a teacher.I don't know whether the words she conveyed are true or false, but these words moved me, and I still can't face Teacher Hu.I still felt sorry for the two boxes of Peony cigarettes, and couldn't help complaining to her: "Ms. Hu is a woman, and she doesn't smoke. Isn't it a waste of energy to light up the lamp during the day if you bring her Xiyan?"

Ye Shengnan said, "I gave it to Mr. Hu and his wife." This is unexpected news. I never thought that Teacher Hu would have a lover: "What? Teacher Hu, she has a lover? When did she have a lover?" Ye Shengnan told me: "At the beginning of the 'Cultural Revolution', you punished others, but there were also people who sympathized with them. The vice principal of the city's No. 2 Middle School was punished with her. For six years, both children are running around." I said that Mr. Hu really had to thank me, if we didn't criticize her, who would love her from pity and marry her as his wife, and he must still be an old girl now.Ye Shengnan was vague about my statement: "That's hard to say."

After playing with her hair enough, Ye Shengnan turned around and asked me: "Did you hear what I said? Why did you ignore me?" I reluctantly responded to her: "It's such a thing to perm your head. If you want to be permed, you can perm it, and if you don't want it, then don't perm it." Ye Shengnan said: "I'm not asking you to let me perm my head, I'm asking you if my perm looks good or not." I said, "How do I know if you look good or not if you haven't burned it?" She said that I will burn it tomorrow for you to see.I am already sleepy. I am very tired at work now. I have been transferred to the maintenance team. There is a huge amount of maintenance to restore the production equipment. The above time is very tight. We often work day and night, rolling all over the body, I really regret it I was transferred to the maintenance team to specialize in equipment maintenance. As the saying goes, people over 30 don't learn art. I am just 30 years old this year, and I have to work and learn technology, which is uncomfortable.

"I'm asleep." After saying that, I climbed onto the bed. When we came back from a trip and got married, big red happy characters were pasted on the windows and doors. When we entered the house, there were new beds, tables, chairs, and bedding. It was a rarity at the time, Ye Shengnan packed it up, we fried the peanuts and ate them, but the jujubes were not fried, so wash them and eat them as snacks.When we eat at home, we don't need to start a party, so we don't need the kitchen. We just go back here every day to sleep. My younger sister graduated from high school and caught up with the last train to go to the countryside. At that time, the young people who did not pay attention to education received re-education from the poor and lower-middle peasants, and no one seriously pursued whether they would go to the countryside.After going to the countryside twice, she went home to stay, happy to be at home, and came to our place to hang out with Ye Shengnan when she had nothing to do.

After meeting Teacher Hu, the younger sister came to visit, Ye Shengnan asked the younger sister: "Do you still want to go to school?" The little girl said: "It's useless to think about it. Workers, peasants and soldiers students are not my turn, and I am not interested. I have graduated from high school again. How can I go to school?" Ye Shengnan said: "Teacher Hu told me that the college entrance examination will resume soon, so let me review my homework as soon as possible. I have already collected all the textbooks for junior and senior high schools. If you want to enter the university, you can review with me."

The little girl asked dubiously: "Is it possible? The ten-year 'Cultural Revolution' has been criticizing the old education system. How can we take exams and go to school again? Wouldn't that be restoration?" Ye Shengnan said: "What do you think about all day? You don't even look at the current situation. Who has the final say now? Deng Xiaoping, it is said that when Deng Xiaoping came to power for the second time, he proposed to restore the college entrance examination system. Yes. Now he has the final say, the college entrance examination system must be restored. This is what Teacher Hu said, and she can’t say that it will be restored within two years. If we wait for the college entrance examination to officially resume, it will be too late to review.”

I was helping my little sister repair her bicycle, and seeing Ye Shengnan actively bewitching her, I couldn't help but want to argue with her: "Everything is said by Teacher Hu, who do you think she is? Is it a fortune teller or a member of the Politburo Standing Committee? Let's talk , even if the college entrance examination is resumed, my little girl can still give it a try. You are almost a fucking college student, and you still want to go to college? Stop dreaming. Be a good working class outside, and be a good husband and parent at home. This is the serious thing you should do for the rest of your life. Don't forget, you still have a mouthful in your stomach, so do you want to breastfeed while you are in class?" "You don't have to give birth to the child, it's more important to go to school." She said casually. "It's okay if you want that function, let the child stay in the stomach until you graduate from college before coming out." "That's not necessary, you can do abortion." She was still careless, but I was shocked: "How dare you! I warn you, don't be fooled!" The little girl said from the side: "Brother, why are you nervous? Sister Sheng Nan just said that. It really can't be done after giving birth and let our mother take it. Sister Sheng Nan can still go to college." Because she grew up in the same upstairs room, after she got married, the younger sister still called Ye Shengnan Sister Shengnan instead of sister-in-law.But I know that my little sister’s plan is unrealistic. First, my mother has to go to work, and she is still the chef for three meals a day. Her job is already very heavy. Besides, Xiao Linzi, a second-year-old, is about to give birth in a month or two. The second-year student said to my mother with a playful smile many times: "Mom, do you want to bring my baby?" The older my mother is, the more she pays attention to reflecting her value. It seems that controlling the kitchen is the most important thing in her life, and it is also where her life value lies.She always picks and chooses the food cooked by others, and it is also true that the food cooked by her is the best.However, after others have finished cooking, she still babbles that she is useless now, that people don’t like the food she cooks, etc. It seems that others cook for her just to usurp power, and it seems that if she doesn’t cook, she won’t eat it. Doing housework, others would think her too much.Er Cheng asked her to take care of the baby, and she had a chance to reflect her status and value in this family. She always agreed in a hurry, and said flatteringly, "Are you at ease when Mom brings you a baby?" Er Qi took the opportunity to flatter her She: "We were all brought up by you. Who dares to say that you don't worry about it? It will be even more remarkable if you bring up your grandson." Get up." She didn't even know her surname, she smiled like a dipper, and the wrinkles on her face were squeezed into two large characters: proud. Sometimes I expose the second-year-old's tricks to my face: "Mom, the second-year-old wants to hire an old nanny who doesn't spend money." My mother immediately said: "I have been a free old nanny all my life, and I am not hired on a second salary. Hurry up and have a baby, and my mother will take care of it when you have a baby, and my mother will take care of the third girl when she has a baby." My dad said: "You still think you are young, you can't even take a baby, let them send them to the nursery." My mother would quickly say: "One sheep is also herded, and a group of sheep is also herded. The more dolls, the better." My dad said, "Do you take the doll to herd sheep? Nowadays, dolls are so expensive that I dare not give them to others." So Ye Shengnan and my younger sister planned to let my mother take care of my children. I thought it was unreliable. My mother was motivated. However, if she went to work to earn wages, and then went home to cook and take care of the children, I guess 80% Will really bring the kids into a flock of sheep.My biggest yearning now is that Ye Shengnan will honestly give birth to the child in her stomach, and then she will do whatever she likes, but not to waste the fruits of our hard work in order to go to college. Ye Shengnan seemed determined to take the college entrance examination. It seemed that the college entrance examination would resume tomorrow. She began to actively review her homework. The younger sister also joined in the fun and kept in close contact with her. She made a study plan today and looked for review materials tomorrow. Teacher Hu also went to Teacher Hu's place. Work harder. "Hey, tell me, can I really not have this child first?" I was almost falling asleep, and she shook me and asked me again.I was disturbed by her so that I couldn't sleep, and I was annoyed. Seeing her serious appearance, I didn't dare to take it lightly, and said to her solemnly: "I tell you, if you dare to do this child, I will..." She immediately stopped me and asked, "What do you want? Tell me, what do you want?" I want to say that if you dare not want the child, I will not want you, but I am afraid that she will make her anxious. She really made the child. According to her personality, this possibility is very high, so I held back and did not continue. . Ye Shengnan said stubbornly: "The child is mine, I want it if I want it, and don't want it if I don't want it." Sure enough, she started having trouble again.After I got married, I discovered that Ye Shengnan's psychological abnormality in protecting women's rights had reached a pathological level.It is a basic and normal position for husband and wife to work together. When I was working hard, she suddenly pushed me away and asked, "Why am I always on the bottom and you are on top?" At that time, how could I have the heart to explain to her? , Besides, I can't explain this matter clearly with my knowledge of sex.Since I was a child, no one told me what is going on between men and women. When I was young, I also thought about the mysterious question of why men and women can have children when they get married. After thinking about it, I guessed that men and women Getting married and having children is because of eating wedding candy.Later, when I learned that some people gave birth without eating candy, I started to feel confused, and I was confused for a long time.When I was a little older, I got my sexual knowledge from the hooligan jingles that my playmates and classmates learned from somewhere.After going to the countryside and working, I accumulated some knowledge about sex bit by bit from the mouths of the educated youth and the masters in the factory. sexual knowledge. At that time, I didn't have the time or the ability to explain to Ye Shengnan why the man was on top and the woman was on the bottom, so I just said casually: "It's so convenient." Then I turned over and wanted to continue to finish our homework.But Ye Shengnan pushed me down again, like a woman from a good family fighting a rapist, and then flipped onto me: "I don't believe that women can't be on top." Saying that, she rode on me, and then So she jumped up and down triumphantly, her posture, movement, and expression looked like the Queen of England riding a thoroughbred ocean horse to inspect her people, and also like the actresses of their Red Trumpet Mao Zedong Thought Literary and Art Propaganda Team performing the revolutionary song and dance "Splendid Horse" Mercedes-Benz Protects the Frontier".But she couldn't last long after all, and after a while she began to pant, not the panting of impulsive excitement, but the panting of climbing ten floors with a bag of noodles. I saw that she couldn't straighten up anymore, so I advised her: "You are tired, let me do it." I was completely kind, but she took it as a mockery of me, she moved harder and harder, and I felt a sneer on her face.I saved my effort, so I calmly let her torment me. Later, she leaned on my body and said to me, "Don't just think about being comfortable, it's up to you." After finishing speaking, she came down irresponsibly.I had to go up and continue to finish the homework she didn't finish. Since then, every time she has to go up for a gallop, it seems that only in this way can she get equality and her psychology can be balanced.I later learned that this change in body position is just one of various postures. There is no rule in this regard, and everything varies from person to person, as long as the two feel good.However, I really can't stand her expression when she was on the top. She exaggeratedly showed her sense of superiority, and at the same time tried hard to look like she was working hard. She expressed it with this mixed and weird look While she has equal rights, she also tries to make me grateful, as if she is working so hard to make me comfortable.I gradually became tired of this kind of game of being ridden under and saying thank you. I gradually became afraid of seeing her almost hideous expression, and I gradually became indifferent to such things.So she said that I was tired of playing and didn't love her anymore, and even suspected that I had a new love, forcing me to repeat to her that I didn't have a new love, I didn't get tired of her, and I still loved her like when I wasn't married, etc. It even gave me goosebumps when I heard it. She lay down for a while and suddenly asked me: "Tell me, if you have a field with wheat planted, whose wheat is it?" Without thinking, I replied, "Of course it's mine." "That's right." Her big tendons seemed to be tightened suddenly, and she sat up suddenly, "The ground is mine, and the things growing on the ground are naturally mine. Of course, I can do whatever I want." It turned out that she was still trying to destroy the child in her belly, which I absolutely cannot tolerate, and I roared angrily: "The earth is your seed but mine is mine!" She didn't get annoyed, and chuckled: "Why did your seeds come to my field? Now that they are in my field, they are mine." I didn't have the heart to engage in this kind of meaningless debate with her, so I warned her flatly: "If you dare to do something reckless, I'm welcome. Don't forget that I am Yang Wei." She squinted at me, turned over and went to sleep, that look was full of contempt and challenge.My heart is cold, I know, she is going to go her own way again, just like she did before. I began to suspect that some relatives of Mr. Hu's family were the central leaders, at least the staff around the central leaders, so she could always accurately judge the direction of the country's situation.Sure enough, as she said, the college entrance examination was officially resumed at the end of this year.All the country's propaganda machines hyped up the news, and Ye Shengnan was triumphant, as if she had already passed the exam.Teacher Hu took the trouble to come to our house to deliver college entrance examination review outlines to her former favorite students and provide on-site tutoring.This made me very embarrassed, because I was a poor student when I was a student for her, and I once asked her to reflect on her problems on all fours. "Aren't you going to take the college entrance examination?" Teacher Hu asked me as if I was still her student. I don't have this plan, because I haven't picked up a book for so many years. I don't have confidence and ability, but I have a stable job and a stable income, so I don't need to make that effort. "I can't, I have almost forgotten everything I have learned." I answered Teacher Hu like this. "Oh, how many people have been abandoned by the 'Cultural Revolution'." Teacher Hu looked at me and shook his head and sighed. The look in his eyes was like that of a worker facing a piece of waste. Leaving, wandering downstairs to smoke, and giving up the house to their teachers and students as a position to attack colleges and universities. Ye Shengnan worked harder to review her homework, but I was always worried that she would go her own way and destroy the child in her belly.When eating this day, my mother asked her if she wanted to eat sour or spicy, and she said that she wanted to eat both sour and spicy.My mother said excitedly: "Could it be twins?" Her logic is: a sour child and a spicy woman, since Ye Shengnan wants to eat both sour and spicy, it is naturally twins with a boy and a girl. I told my mom, "She's not going to have kids." My mother was so shocked that she almost threw the bowl in her hand on the ground, and asked: "What's wrong? Why don't the good children want it anymore?" Ye Shengnan hastily denied: "Don't listen to his nonsense, it's nothing." I said, "Don't you want to go to college?" Ye Shengnan didn't say anything, my mother understood, she put down the bowl of rice in her hand and didn't eat: "Isn't this nonsense? Is it important that your own flesh and blood are not as important as going to college? Let me tell you, you don't care about the unborn baby." Be responsible, at least be responsible to yourself. You are almost 30 now, and the bones have not been opened. If you do this doll again, it will not be easy for you to give birth in the future, and it will be very dangerous to give birth again. People The second child is younger than you and has a baby, and your eldest is not young, if you drag it on until you are old and then bring a granulation doll, when will you be able to support the eldest?" From beginning to end, my dad didn't express his position or interrupt, and dealt with the noodles in his bowl seriously.Ye Shengnan was noncommittal about my mother's intervention, giggling and looking reckless.