Chapter 3 third chapter

Because of the pork ribs, braised pork and battered bread, they escorted me in the rebel organization. After this incident, the rebel organization did not do anything to me, and kicked me out of the rebel organization.I became a free and unfettered faction, spending all day at home working as a child, while my dad was locked up in a cowshed.When delivering food to my dad, I complained that my dad betrayed me out of nothing, cheated me, and my dad laughed and said: "Your students will make a fuss for a while. If you don't leave that organization, that organization will have internal strife." If there is trouble, you have to fight. They are the children of the common people. It is not good for anyone to hurt anyone. How much is that commander worth? Let others take that commander as Kong Rong's pear, Lei Feng puts others before himself."

The loss of being expelled from the revolutionary team was filled by Ye Shengnan. We began to get together intentionally or unintentionally, and let the braised pig's feet talk. We have convenient conditions. We all live in the family courtyard of the municipal government. Their house is in our building. superior.Her father became a revolutionary rebel, and her mother's stealing of cabbage was over, but my father became a monster and was imprisoned in a cowshed. This is the only topic we need to carefully avoid. I would be angry and embarrass her too.The adults all looked down on her father, saying that her father sold himself to seek refuge, betrayed others, and was of bad character.I was influenced by adults and looked down on her father, but I respected her.We sat in the shadow of the building and thought wildly. Not far in front of us was the team of mules and horses that farmers came to the city for transportation. From time to time, the sound of neighing and snorting of horses came over, and the smell of smoke and horse dung from the villagers’ firewood. Blending in with the surrounding night, form a weird romance with us.None of us spoke, as if we had nothing to say, we just sat there blankly.People in our time were all numb. A man and a woman just sat there like this, without sweet words or intimacy, and they were still very timid in their hearts, for fear of being found out as hooligans.

"Chairman Mao called on young intellectuals to go to the mountains and go to the countryside to receive re-education from the poor and lower-middle peasants. I heard that we are also going to organize going to the countryside here." This is something everyone knows, and I chatted with her out of words. this matter. She asked me: "Can you get off?" I said: "Definitely, my dad is a capitalist roader now, who will I not?" She said, "I have to go too." I analyzed for her: "You don't have to, your father is now a member of the temporary revolutionary leading group, how can you go to the countryside."

She said firmly: "If you step down, I will go down." My heart was getting hot, and I wanted to do something to show it, but I didn't know what to do, so I said, "Then let's go down together and fight together in the vast rural world." She was more generous than me, took my hand and said like an oath: "Okay, we must walk together on Chairman Mao's revolutionary line for the rest of our lives." It didn't take long before all of us Red Guards who had been vigorously at the beginning of the "Cultural Revolution" were all driven to the countryside. At the beginning of the "Cultural Revolution", we were responsible for educating others to destroy the four olds and establish the four new. Now, in turn, we have to accept the education of old peasants who can't read a few characters and are older than the four olds. Looking back after many years, we have to admit that the proletarian Class Command has a real sense of humor.

Braised pig's trotters became the commander of the old and new Red Guards. After a few days of prestige, the braised pork, battered bread, ribs and others broke away from him, and soon led the troops to split from his combat team and resumed the old Red Guards.He himself has not been able to be majestic for a few days, he has become an educated youth just like us, and merged into the torrent of educated youths going to the mountains and the countryside. Retracting back into the water, we are all back to the same starting point. The place where we went to the countryside was called Yegoupo, more than 100 kilometers away from home.Most of the villages around us are called by such creepy-sounding names, such as Yelanggou, Shigubazi, Dead Man's Valley, Yuanhuntan and so on.According to local farmers, apart from sand, the land here is saline-alkali, and 800 serious farmers cannot survive by farming.During the Tang and Song Dynasties, in order to resist the invasion of the Turks and Uighurs, guards were set up all over the area. The soldiers and their families on the border are the distant ancestors of these farmers.During the Ming and Qing dynasties, the Yabulai Salt Lake on the edge of the Tengger Desert in the west was discovered, and a large number of blind people flocked here to become salt smugglers. .After liberation, the leaders of the salt lords were suppressed, the salt farms became state-owned enterprises, and the work of smuggling salt could not be done. These talents gradually became obedient citizens. A decent farmer.There are reasons for these place names. For example, Wild Dog Slope is because after a fort named Qing soldiers broke through, all the people were killed, and the dogs survived. These dogs slowly bred and ran around in groups. famous.The Valley of the Dead is when a pack team passed by there, and suddenly found hundreds of corpses thrown in the valley. The corpses were all stripped, including men, women, and children. No one could tell where these people came from. Who was killed, so this place is called the Valley of the Dead.By analogy, there is a horrible history behind every horrible place name.

When engaging in agricultural cooperatives, the higher-ups specially sent scholars from the Northwest Normal University to help, and changed the place names into acceptable words: Yegoupo is called Ye Jie Production Team, Yelanggou is called Yelang Brigade, and Shigubazi is called The Shigu Production Team and Yuan Fen Brigade are called Yuanfen Brigade.The most ridiculous thing is that the Valley of the Dead has been called a poet production team, but there are not many people in that production team who can read and write, let alone poetry.The local educated youth missed their hometown and chanted "Moonlight above the bed, suspected to be frost on the ground. Raise your head to look at the bright moon, and bow your head to think of your hometown."The accountant of the production team with the highest level of education insisted: Chairman Mao's poems are good.The educated youth told him that it was written by Li Bai, and he insisted that it was Chairman Mao's poems. He also wanted to report to the commune to trace Li Bai's home address and family status to see why he was so bold to plagiarize Chairman Mao's works.

The superiors and the scholars sent by the superiors are busy for nothing. The common people here still call the Yexie brigade Yegoupo, the Yelang brigade Yelanggou, the Shigu brigade Shigubazi, and the poet brigade has no poets, so they continue to use it. The name of the Valley of the Dead.After the reform and opening up, the people’s communes, production brigades, and production teams were all abolished. The people here simply restored the place names. Unexpectedly, these weird and scary place names gradually spread, and a large number of curious people flocked to them. It turned out to be a lucrative tourist attraction. Resources can earn a lot of RMB every year, and sometimes US dollars.The local people said that the ancestors are still powerful, and they can make money by naming the village.

We live in earthen houses vacated by farmers. There is no electric light, no heating, no glass on the windows, and the window paper handed down by our ancestors is pasted.No matter the weather, the house is always dark.There is no bed in the room, and the sleeping furniture is a large kang made of adobe that occupies most of the room.In summer, it was easy, but in winter, it was difficult for us to pass the homework on kang. Either the fire was too hot and the bedding was scorched, or the fire went out as soon as we fell asleep, and we all huddled in the cold bedding as "children's heads".Our landlord's surname is Zhang, and his parents are over fifty years old. They are honest and kind. They always make something delicious at home and let us share it.The kind wrinkles on the hostess' face often remind me of grandma, so I have a special affection for her, and she also takes special care of me.Their son is about the same size as us, much smarter than his parents, and can read a few words. Whenever we do heavy work, he will show a gloating smile and ask us: "Have you eaten this steamed bun?" Ye Shengnan is good, when the captain assigns work, as long as he and Ye Shengnan are assigned together, he is like a ignited sky-drilling monkey, so excited that he wants to jump into the sky.Pulling manure into the field, he pretended to let Ye Shengnan hide in a place sheltered from the wind to be lazy, and let Ye Shengnan sit on the manure cart when delivering manure to the field, and he drove the donkey ahead, singing coquettish songs with his throat open : "Brother Ga drives the donkey, hey, the donkey donkey wears tweed, sister Ga puts on powder, hey, I'm in a hurry to get married..." His expression is full of complacent fantasies about sending the bride back to her natal home.Of course I wouldn't believe that Ye Shengnan could appreciate his virtues, but his virtues always made me feel both ridiculous and hateful, and I hated him very much.

Every day the bell in the village directs us to work.Early in the morning, we felt as if we had just fallen asleep, but the bell at the head of the village had already called us to go to work.We wanted to stay in bed for a while longer, so the team leader chased him to the yard and knocked on the window frame patiently with sticks, boards, whips and other things that could make noise, and kept talking non-stop. Calling us: "Go to work, go to work, go to work... If you are late, you will be deducted from work points, if you are late, you will be deducted from work points, if you are late, you will be deducted from work points..." Until we put on our clothes, open the door and come out, He picked up the farm tools and staggered to the head of the village before he started to dispatch work.Later we found out that in order not to delay working hours, he called us half an hour in advance every day.The captain looked about forty-five, and had already given birth to four dirty little babies. When he officially told us that he was only thirty years old, the female classmates all exclaimed. We used to call him Uncle Captain. He always smiled and agreed.

When we left home, we educated youths were divided into groups in advance, and it was decided who would go to which production team.When we arrived at the place, no one seriously enforced this rule. We freely combined and rearranged, and whoever was familiar with whom and who had a good relationship with whom would join the educated youth spot of a production team.Of course Ye Shengnan had to be with me no matter what, even though my mother repeatedly told me not to be with Ye Shengnan before leaving.If you want others to not know, unless you do nothing.My mother found out that our relationship between the two of us was closer than ordinary revolutionary comrades, and she clearly expressed her firm opposition. The reason was that Ye Shengnan's father was a rebel, and he was a rebel cadre at the department level.Together with us were spare ribs, battered bread, braised pork, Xi Xiaojuan, Wu Mengna, and Meng Wenli, who happened to be four men and four women. People in the village said that this was a pre-match match, and let us settle down here forever.Xi Xiaojuan, Wu Mengna, and Meng Wenli are good friends of Ye Shengnan. They have nothing to do with pork ribs, battered bread, or braised pork. These buddies are here for me.

My mother came here to visit me twice, and brought me spicy oil, stir-fried mustard greens, and precious pork dumplings.At that time, each person had two catties of bone-in meat per month, and the supply was based on a ticket. She gave me a large jar of meat dumplings. The meat was picked out and made for me.Seeing our miserable life and difficult living conditions, she said: "This is good. It will be good for you to exercise in a difficult environment." But her face was sad, bitterness and heartache were written on her face. brows.My mother came, and Ye Shengnan surrounded the front and back, served tea and poured water to show her hospitality, trying to make a good impression. My mother was also very good to her, and she had to share some of the food she brought.Ye Shengnan and I were very happy, my mother didn't hold me accountable for my serious mistake of not following her instructions, joining an educated youth spot with Ye Shengnan, and living in the same yard.This seems to be a good sign, it means that she has acquiesced in my association with Ye Shengnan.However, when I sent her to the side of the road to wait for the car, my mother warned me seriously: "I must not let the girl of the Ye family enter my house. You have to be more self-respectful and don't cause trouble for me. Don't embarrass the Yang family, I will never be in-laws with the Ye family, and you don't want to think about it, why would your father sit at the same table with someone like Ye Ruifang?" My mother's tone and expression when she said this convinced me that the troubles in my relationship with Ye Shengnan were more difficult than the veteran cadres' surviving the "Cultural Revolution".Clouds piled up thicker and thicker in my heart, and I was really worried about our relationship.Ye Ruifang also came to see Ye Shengnan. When he came, I didn’t pay much attention to him, and he didn’t pay attention to me. He only brought things for Ye Shengnan. The purpose of his visit was to mobilize Ye Shengnan to write a red heart to the commune and dedicate it to the party. , A letter of determination to never return to the city, an open letter.After he left, Ye Shengnan contributed all the fried fruits, candied cakes, steamed stuffed buns, mustard mustard in red oil, braised pork knuckles, etc. that his father sent, and invited everyone to eat together.I didn't want to eat the things his father brought, but I couldn't resist Ye Shengnan's persuasion, and the food made by her father was really tempting, so I persuaded myself: Give Ye Shengnan a share of everything my mother brought, and her father I would be a fool not to eat what was delivered, so I ate it. After eating and drinking, Ye Shengnan gave me winks, knowing that she wanted to meet me alone, so I followed her and climbed to the haystack behind the production team's cattle pen to whisper.The cattle feeder is a five-guarantee household in the team, who is deaf and dumb, so it is impossible to find someone on the haystack.Hiding on the haystack and looking down, we can see the people below, but the people below cannot see us.The haystack is soft and warm, but smoking is not allowed, for fear of setting the haystack on fire.It was the first quarter moon at night, the moonlight was very bright, I couldn't see the stars, but I could see Ye Shengnan's eyelashes clearly.There was singing in the distance, it was Xi Xiaojuan and Wu Mengna singing "Remembering the Father and Mother in the Distance". This was one of the popular educated youth songs at that time. I don't know who wrote it, but I just thought it was very nice, and I wanted to make people die when I sang it. tears.After a while, someone played the harmonica again, and the harmonica player should be Ribs. This guy started to stick to Xiaojuan. "What are you going to do in the future?" Ye Shengnan's eyelashes fluttered with the opening and closing of her eyelids. The round eyeballs are like two ripe purple grapes, making people want to suck them out and swallow them. to go. I resisted the urge to catch her eyeballs, and tried to bring my attention back to her question: "What did you say? Say it again." Ye Shengnan was a little annoyed, pouted and said, "What are you thinking? You didn't listen to me at all." Her mouth pouted like a local Li Guangxing, it was so red, I had the urge to eat Li Guangxing again.Li Guangxi apricot is a local specialty. It is said that it was planted by Li Guangxi when he conquered the Huns. When it matures, it is as big as a child's fist.I really wanted to smack Li Guangxing on her mouth like I was eating Li Guangxing, but I was afraid that she would reject me, or even conclude that I was a hooligan, and my consciousness was wandering between impulsiveness and timidity.At the time when heaven and man were fighting, she noticed that my eyes were wrong, and stabbed me with a fist: "Are you thinking of something bad?" I quickly said, "No, I'm recalling what you just said." "Well, what do you plan to do in the future?" This time I understood it, but I couldn't answer it. Is it useful for what I plan to do in the future?So I really didn't really think about the question of what I would do in the future. "What are you doing? What else can you do? Take root in the countryside and make revolution." She got up from the haystack with a whimper: "Really? If you are really willing to take root in the countryside and make a revolution for the rest of your life, I will accompany you for the rest of your life. Tomorrow we will write a letter of determination to take root in the commune." I lazily said: "I can't do without rooting, can people let me go back to the city?" She was immediately disappointed and said, "Deep in your heart, you still don't want to take root in the countryside." I said, "Do you really want to stay on this wild dog slope for the rest of your life? Are you afraid that you will become a wild dog too?" Ye Shengnan said seriously: "What are you talking about? The poor and lower-middle peasants here have lived here for generations. Have they all become wild dogs?" I said, "I'm just kidding." "This kind of joke is not funny at all. To put it lightly, you are unwilling to accept re-education from poor and lower-middle peasants. To put it seriously, you are slandering poor and lower-middle peasants. Which side do you stand on?" The people of our time were very good at putting on the line, speaking to others as well as to themselves, they could talk about the international situation, the future of mankind, the struggle between the two lines, the struggle between the two classes, anti-imperialism and anti-revisionism, etc. The major issues of right and wrong are connected.Going online is too casual and convenient, so that people are a little numb and fooled by Gang and Xian. I didn't think there was anything wrong with her talking to me in this tone, so I didn't bother with her.I suddenly thought of her father, and asked her: "Did your father ask you to write the letter of determination to take root?" She said: "Of course my father supports me to take root in the countryside. The director of the commune's revolutionary committee told my father that as long as I am willing to take root in the countryside, he will transfer me to a commune primary school as a private teacher." As soon as I heard it, I knew that her father was giving her the back door, and said disdainfully: "To be honest, being a farmer in Yegoupo is considered to be a real root, and being a teacher in a commune is also considered to be a root, so everyone is willing to take root." She said: "If you are willing to take root, I will not go to the commune and be a farmer here honestly." These words moved me, I am not afraid of rooting, besides, it is up to me whether or not to root, people really want you to stick, you have to stick, if you don’t want to stick, you have to stick, if you don’t let you stick, you can’t stick if you want live.I don't want to go to the countryside, but what if I don't come?However, I am absolutely unwilling to write a letter of determination to show my dedication and loyalty and take root in the countryside forever. Since the beginning of the "Cultural Revolution", I have written too many letters of determination to express my loyalty and heart. Even eating meat every day has a time when I get tired of it. "Are you unwilling to be with me?" It is more serious for her to ask such a question. Now is the time when I am most willing to be with her. I quickly confessed: "I am willing to be with you for the rest of my life. If you are really rooted, of course I will be rooted too." She immediately became happy and said, "Then you and I will write a letter of determination to take root." I had to tell the truth: "I think rooting is rooting. Why bother to write a letter of determination? If you don't write it, can you not be rooted? Can you really guarantee rooting for a lifetime if you write it? Xing Yanzi has never seen anyone write a letter of determination to take root." , don’t they still take root in the countryside?” Ye Shengnan stared at it for a while, then blinked her eyes and said quietly: "You and I write a letter of determination to root in the countryside for the rest of our lives, so it's not enough for us to express our determination to each other? Besides, your family doesn't agree with us. , my dad also firmly disagrees, there is only one way for us to be together in the future." She said that her dad didn't agree with our affairs either. I was taken aback and asked, "Your dad also knows about our affairs? Why doesn't he agree?" "My dad said, you're the son of a capitalist roader, five black people, and he won't let me associate with you." "Similarly, my parents don't agree with me getting in touch with you. They all said that your father sold himself to join the rebels. Your father was the first to jump out and write posters for my father. He exposed and criticized my father at the conference. Can my father not hate you?" him." Ye Shengnan bit her lower lip with her fine white teeth, her eyes straightened, and she said after a while: "I'll ask you something today, would you like to take root in the countryside with me? Yes, just write a letter of determination with me, If you don’t want to, I won’t force you either.” If I don't write this letter of determination, the relationship between us will turn yellow like a dead leaf in the autumn wind.I was really reluctant to break up with her because of a letter of determination, and I convinced myself in my heart: take the letter of determination to take root in the countryside as a token of our mutual affection.I said, "I'll write it, and tomorrow we'll finish it and send it to the commune together." She was excited, and suddenly touched my cheek lightly with her lips, and I was suddenly dizzy. Maybe readers will not believe it, but this is indeed the first flesh-to-body contact between us.I wanted to kiss her in turn, but she avoided it, so I didn't dare to touch her again. The letter of determination to take root in the countryside was sent to the commune with drums and gongs. Not long after, the commune really wanted to transfer Ye Shengnan to the commune to work as a private teacher. Ye Shengnan kept his promise to me and resolutely did not become a teacher. She was at ease farming with me in the village.At that time, I was solidly prepared to be a farmer for the rest of my life with Ye Shengnan in this unsightly village.Like the landlord Lao Zhang and the team leader, we will guard the two acres of private land together. With the bell of the production team leader, we will work at sunrise and rest at sunset, reproducing a bunch of dirty dolls with snot in their clothes and snot.She would wear a dirty and greasy apron all day long, cook in front of the pot, feed the pigs in front of the pigsty, and the dirty dolls and chickens, ducks and dogs would run back and forth under her feet.In winter, she would squat in front of the stove pit of the heated kang, fill the cold stove with a handful of firewood, pour a shovel of coal shavings, and then puff up her cheeks and blow hard to keep us warm...I will be on my shoulders Carrying a manure basket all the time, wherever he goes, he scoops up any animal excrement and throws it into the manure basket behind him. If he returns home one day and doesn’t pour a basket or two of manure into his pen, he will It will feel empty and uncomfortable like a businessman who has not opened a business.I imagined my future life, enjoyed the tragic feeling of dedication, and realized that my love affair with Ye Shengnan was like the scenery of this winter countryside, desolate and plain. My mother came to the educated youth spot again, and this time she didn't bring me anything.My mother ignored Ye Shengnan who was soaking her in water, this was unprecedented in the past.Seeing the grievance Ye Shengnan barely held back, I was very dissatisfied with my mother, and I spoke harshly.My mother didn't care about my attitude, and she informed me with an ultimatum: "I heard that you have decided to take root in the countryside, and your father and I support you." I was stunned. Judging from her expression, she didn't seem to support me, but she clearly said so. "However, if you want to take root, you don't need to take root in this place. It's not like you don't have roots. I've already contacted you. Go back to your hometown and take root." I was stunned, I didn't expect her and my dad to do this, I immediately refused: "I won't go back, I am an educated youth assigned here, and I will take root here." My mother said: "It's not up to you, I've already done the household registration procedures for you, pack up your things and come with me today." Only then did I understand why she ran here without any food this time, and there was Xiao Ma driving the jeep for her.Xiaoma used to be my dad's driver, and he drove my dad around in a jeep. The "Cultural Revolution" was raging, and my dad was still locked in the cowshed. He dared to drive my mom to It is enough to show loyalty to come to visit me in the countryside.In the past, when my mother came to see me, she always took a bus that looked like an old cow or a broken cart, or took a hitchhiker pulling coal. Often after getting off the bus, it turned into human-shaped coal. After the "Cultural Revolution", my family has not enjoyed the special car treatment for a long time. I asked her how she got Xiaoma's car out, and my mother snorted and said, "You think your father is nothing if he sits in the cowshed. Is it? The eyes of the masses are discerning, and they know the good and the bad. This is called the mass foundation, and this is called prestige. The revolutionary masses are not as shabby as you, who pick all the melons and raisins in the basket." She smoothly Pulled me in to teach me a lesson, and seeing Xiao Ma secretly laughing, I quickly said: "Thank you, Uncle Xiao Ma." My own, I told your mother, don’t worry about looking for me when you use a car in the future, my family has been workers for three generations, I’m afraid of being a dick.” My mother was confident, so she showed me the residence permit and relocation certificate: "Look, the relocation permit is ready. This is not only my opinion, but also your father's opinion. I was afraid that you would not be able to bear the hardships in the countryside. I was afraid of delaying your future, so your grandfather tried many times to take one of you back to set up a family, but I didn't agree. Since you are willing to take root in the countryside, you might as well do it thoroughly and go back to your old roots." At this time, Ye Shengnan had already escaped, but I knew she was still guarding the door, and she could hear us clearly inside the room.I said firmly, "I won't go back. I'm an educated youth sent to the countryside. What's the point of going back to my hometown?" My mother said: "Don't take the educated youth who went to the countryside as a signboard. The educated youth who returned to the countryside also responded to Chairman Mao's call. Besides, don't follow other people's nonsense. They wrote the letter of determination to take root for political capital. You didn't read the newspaper. Both Ye Ruifang and Ye Shengnan reported that he actively responded to the call and personally went to the countryside to mobilize his daughter to take root in the countryside and receive a lifetime of re-education from the poor and lower-middle peasants. Driven by his daughter, Yang Wei and others also took the initiative I wrote a letter of determination, determined to take root in the countryside and never return to the city, you can read it for yourself.” Then, my mother threw a newspaper in front of me. I picked up the newspaper and took a look, and sure enough, Ye Shengnan's father's revolutionary deeds were published on the first page, and the content was exactly the same as what my mother told.At this time, Ye Shengnan suddenly rushed in from the door, snatched the newspaper from me and read it.After a few glances, she blushed and said to my mother: "Auntie, I assure Chairman Mao that this matter has nothing to do with me. I don't know why my father is in the newspaper. I really want to take root in the countryside. " My mother stared at Ye Shengnan for a while, then sighed and said: "You are also a good boy. Auntie doesn't hate you. But you also know, whether to kiss or not, class division, which side to stand on, depends on the route. Our family Yang Wei His father is a person in power who takes the capitalist road, and he is still unrepentant. Your father is a revolutionary rebel. Our two families are not the same. As the saying goes, we are not a family. If we don’t enter a family, we cannot enter a family. .” After reading the newspaper and listening to my mother, Ye Shengnan nodded and left without saying anything.Seeing her desolate expression, I couldn't bear it, and wished I could chase her out and be with her, but my mother was here, so I didn't dare to do that. My mother said: "Your Uncle Pony and I came here specially for your business today. If you say something, should you go or not?" Of course I said no, Uncle Xiao Ma also advised me: "You go back to your hometown and forget it. This place is yellowish yellow, there is not even a green color, and a worker only costs five cents. At the end of the year, you can't even get back the food. Go back to your hometown and see." Look, what is it like, when the time comes, you won't even want to come back." At that time, I had already become a lion in Cangzhou, determined to spend this life with Ye Shengnan, even in this impoverished and backward Yegoupo, I was willing, and it was absolutely impossible to change my mind with a few words from my mother.I stubbornly kept silent, and my attitude had already told my mother that I would not return to my hometown to take root in the countryside.My mother said: "Don't go all the way to the end, and don't turn back until you touch the south wall. I will transfer your account and see if you can go." Not long after, the team informed me that my household registration had been transferred and that the team would no longer give me rations. Even if I worked all day, it would be for nothing, and no one would give me work points. Without the grain household relationship, I still persist in fighting in Yegoupo, and I have to persist for Ye Shengnan. Fortunately, we are educated youths, after all, we are not local farmers. Even if the team does not give me work points, my classmates will not let me I was hungry and we lived a semi-military quasi-communist life.My mother never came to see me again. I was very depressed during that time, and I didn't know what the result would be if I was so stiff. At this time, the braised pig's trotters broke into our lives again. After two or three years of being sent to the countryside, "stringing spots" became popular among our educated youths.The endless hard work, the bleak future and the helplessness of reality gradually solidified into decadent, undisciplined and disappointed emotions that permeated the educated youth.The educated youths gradually grew impatient with the life of facing the land and turning their backs to the sky, waving the whip after the cow's buttocks.The educated youths began to be passive and sabotage their work. At the beginning, they hoped that it would be windy and rainy. If it was windy and rainy, they would not be able to go to work and play poker and talk nonsense in the house, waiting to eat.Later, it developed to the point that even the clear sky was unwilling to work in the fields, and they tried every means to find excuses not to work.Later, they simply strung together, running from one educated youth spot to another educated youth spot, from one production team to that production team, and some educated youths even visited various educated youth spots for more than half a year.Sometimes we also catch up with our companions to visit other educated youth sites, and other educated youths also come to our site. The stewed pig's trotters came to our order, which surprised me.We have always been enemies, and then he usurped my position as commander of the Red Guards in a coup, and turned my dad into a capitalist roader. Although my dad has been liberated and returned to work, I will never be able to resolve it. I hate him in my heart.Now that he can take the initiative to come to our educated youth spot, I understand it as a proactive gesture of reconciliation.Now that we are friends and guests, and we are all educated youths now, it is unavoidable that we feel sorry for each other. We don’t mention the past, as if it never happened, so as to avoid embarrassment and many unclear explanations for both parties. Explanation.He was stronger and darker than before.He said that I was also stronger and darker than before.When he saw Ye Shengnan just now, he looked a bit cautious, he rubbed his hands back and forth, he didn't know where to put them, the battered bread stabbed me in the back, the ribs looked at me and then at him, and the braised pork said sarcastically: "Really Unexpectedly, what kind of wind brought Commander Lu here." At the same time, he looked at Ye Shengnan and then at him, making a very meaningful expression. I already knew at this time that since elementary school, when I was still a silly child, that kid with stewed pig's trotters knew how to love Ye Shengnan, and ate my white vinegar for no reason, which caused him and me a lot of trouble .He almost changed my name to Mule, and he almost made me crippled. Ye Shengnan's attitude towards him was very magnanimous and generous. After saying hello to the stewed pig's trotters and the educated youth who came with him, Ye Shengnan left them to eat stewed mutton. The boys sat together playing poker and waiting for the mutton.Ye Shengnan and the other girls began to clean up the mutton, lit the fire and cleaned the pot, and prepared to stew a large pot of mutton beautifully, so as to improve the lives of ourselves and the braised pig's feet.The sheep were stolen by some of our boys from Yelanggou, twenty miles away, and they were just killed this morning. The braised pig's trotters either have special food, or have a particularly good nose, and they came here to order at this time . After going to the countryside for two years, we gradually became rogues. The coarse grains with thin soup and little water scraped our intestines thin, so we started to steal chickens and dogs from other production teams. We never stole from our own team. We strictly abide by the principle that rabbits do not eat nests Biancao's "way of thieves", other educated youths also abide by this unwritten "way of thieves", so we would go to other production teams to steal chickens and dogs, and other educated youths would come to our team to steal chickens and dogs. We also joined the peasants in catching thieves.Similarly, if we went to another production team to steal chickens and dogs, the educated youths of that team would join the peasants in shouting to catch the thieves. In accordance with the custom of the male master outside the house and the female master inside, we male educated youths are responsible for stealing chickens and dogs to make non-staple food, and female educated youths are responsible for picking up our trophies and turning raw food into cooked food.When Ye Shengnan and the other girls were enthusiastically washing meat and boiling water, the big yellow dog of the landlord's old Zhang's family suddenly jumped out from the side, picked up a fat leg of lamb and ran away.The girls turned pale with fright, and started yelling and shouting. Under the leadership of Ye Shengnan, they chased after the big yellow dog's buttocks, trying to snatch our leg of lamb back from the big yellow dog's mouth.A few of us boys heard the girl screaming, thought that something bad happened, hurriedly dropped the poker cards in hand, followed the girl and chased out of the educated youth spot, the scene outside made us laugh so hard that we couldn't help but laugh. I can't stand up.I saw the big yellow dog running ahead with a leg of lamb in its mouth, and Ye Shengnan, Xi Xiaojuan, Wu Mengna, and Meng Wenli followed behind the big yellow dog's ass and desperately chased after it.People are definitely not as fast as dogs, and women are not as fast as dogs. Wu Mengna is weaker and can no longer run. She squatted on the ground and gasped for breath, like a fish that has just been caught on the shore.The big yellow dog ran away, and Ye Shengnan, Xi Xiaojuan, and Meng Wenli stamped their feet in disappointment and cursed. When the big yellow dog saw that they couldn't catch up anymore, it stopped in protest and ate on the spot.The few girls had no choice but to walk back dejectedly, so they had to take advantage of the big yellow dog of the old Zhang family. Seeing that some of our male educated youths not only did not help them grab the leg of lamb, but were still laughing outside the courtyard of the educated youth spot, Ye Shengnan and the other girls immediately turned all their anger on us for losing a leg of lamb and failing to chase after them. Scolding, as if we are big yellow dogs.Meng Wenli's name is Wen Jing, but her personality is not quiet at all. She was so angry with the scolding that she kicked Rib Rib's skinny butt hard.Ribs is in a period of unrequited love for Meng Wenli, so not only is Meng Wenli kicking him, he is not angry, but he is also very happy, covering his buttocks and laughing, as if Meng Wenli kissed him instead of kicking him mouth. In fact, the big yellow dog of the landlord’s old Zhang’s family has a good relationship with us. When we are bored, we always want to train him to be an educated youth guard who can obey orders, solve cases, and dedicate himself heroically. We have really worked hard on him. .But that dog is worthless, just like its owner, he has a strong peasant consciousness. He is content with the status quo and has no enthusiasm for learning. After a few years, not only can he not even learn to stand upright, but he has become more and more slippery.表面上憨厚老实，实际上非常狡黠，心里明镜似的知道我们是外来户，平常对我们挺好，见了我们尾巴摇得像货郎的拨浪鼓那么活泛，一有机会就占我们的小便宜，今天从叶笙楠她们手里抢跑一条羊腿就是最鲜明的例证。 卤猪蹄见我们为失去一条肥美的羊腿而懊恼，当时就信誓旦旦地承诺：“过几天你们到我们知青点来，我请你们吃狗肉，喝烧酒。” 叶笙楠说：“我们不吃狗肉，也不喝烧酒，你们要是富裕，给我们弄些清油就成了，我们油吃完了，队里不给了，说我们太费油。” 卤猪蹄马上拍腔子：“没问题，狗肉也要吃，清油也要给，到时候我让人来请你们。” 羊肉炖好了，狼多肉少，我们那种人又不知道装文明谦让，一哄而上，如狼似虎地抢食，一只羊哪里够我们十几个人吃？如果那条羊腿没有被大黄狗抢走，我们还能吃个痛快，少了一条羊腿就等于五分之一的好肉没了，我们边吃边诅咒大黄狗，信誓旦旦地要让那条姓张的大黄狗受到应有的惩罚。送走了卤猪蹄他们，我们把大黄狗叫过来，每人扇了它一记耳光，大黄狗倒也知道自己做错了，夹着尾巴让我们抽它，丝毫也没有为自己的过错狡辩、逃避。它这样反倒让我们有些不好意思，不过就是一条羊腿吗，值得对我们的老朋友这样摧残吗？扇过耳光，我们又有些不忍，把吃剩下的残羹骨头全都给了大黄狗。大黄狗唿哨一声，叫过来一大群村里的男狗女狗就在我们的知青点开始聚餐，逗得我们哈哈大笑。叶笙楠说，大黄狗如果是个人，肯定会混得很好，没皮没脸还有心计又会收买人心。 过了几天，卤猪蹄他们果然派了一个六八届的小知青来请我们吃狗肉，喝烧酒。还说给我们准备了二十斤菜籽油，让我们吃完饭带回来。我们那个时候已经无聊到了一部《地道战》可以跑几十里看几十遍的地步，咬着放映队的屁股转遍了附近农村。我们倒不是特别想吃狗肉，而是不愿放过任何可以打发光阴的机会。于是我们四男四女跟着小知青拔腿就走。他们的知青点在诗人大队第五生产队，离我们那里有三十里地，沿途都是一望无际的大戈壁，只有到了村落附近才能看到房子和白杨、沙枣、红柳这一类适宜干旱地带生长的植物。正是初冬季节，树木没了叶子，草丛没了颜色，到处都是灰蒙蒙黄沙沙的。那天是阴天，铅灰色的云层像铅块一样沉甸甸地压在我们的脑袋顶上，让人觉得胸腔都被压扁，喘不上气来。 偷鸡摸狗在我们知青中间蔚然成风。我们偷鸡的手法说来上不了场面：将缝衣针弯曲了做成钓钩，上面穿上小块的肉或者蚂蚱，缝衣针的后面扯上长长的线。我那时才发现鸡实际上是肉食动物，只要看到肉丁、蚂蚱甚至牛虱，都会奋不顾身地扑过去一口吞下。这时候事情就非常简单了，我们要做的就是拽着线绳把鸡领回家，然后再杀之食之。摸狗的手法也比较简单：把狗逗弄得暴跳如雷就开始步步后撤，引到距离它主人稍远的地方，然后用事先准备好的麻袋张开口子猛然迎头套到狗头上，摸准狗脖子的部位，将绳子用力扎住，狗便咿咿呀呀地吼不出声了，随便它在麻袋里怎么挣扎，就像背孩子一样背起来便走，回到地方把狗连麻袋吊起来，再把麻袋口从狗头上剥落下来，露出的狗嘴肯定大张着喘息吼叫，这时候舀上一瓢凉水，对着狗嘴猛然灌下去，狗立刻就岔了气，腿脚蹬跶几下就一命呜呼了，然后就开始剥皮烹调…… 说实话，我们的偷鸡摸狗，与其说为了饱口腹之欲，不如说是一种百无聊赖的恶作剧，一种发泄过剩精力的精神刺激。有时候丢了家禽家畜的农民追踪到了知青点，我们就老老实实地赔钱了事，虽然常常挨骂，农民也越来越讨厌我们，可是我们跟农民之间的矛盾却没有发展到不可调和的地步。 卤猪蹄办事挺周到，他们不但炖了狗肉，怕有的人不吃狗肉还专门炖了几只鸡。他们的狗和鸡肯定不是花钱买的，大家都心知肚明，所以谁也不跟他们客气，张罗着就准备开吃。几个女的在厨房忙活，我们这些男的则学了当地农民的习惯，安坐在炕上等着入席。当地农民的大男子主义举世少见，夫妻二人在地里干同样的活，收工后男的往炕上一坐抽着烟等饭吃，女的则下厨匆匆忙忙生火和面做饭，饭做好了双手给男人端上来，如果家里有客人，女人则不能上桌吃饭，站在一旁，男人和客人吃一碗她盛一碗，直到客人跟男人吃饱了，女人把残汤剩饭撤下去以后，才轮到她在厨房吃饭，家家如此，习以为常。结果连我们知青都沾染了这个毛病，女知青做饭，男知青吃饭，稍微有所不同的就是，女知青做饭就不用上工，女农民既要做饭还要上工。我曾问叶笙楠，如果我们真的在农村永远扎下去了，成了家，是不是入乡随俗，跟当地农民一样搞男尊女卑，她说要是那样她宁可永不成家。 “杨伟，杨伟，你过来一下！”叶笙楠在厨房喊我。我以为叶笙楠叫我过去帮忙，怕卤猪蹄他们笑话我，磨蹭着干答应不动地方。见叫不动我，叶笙楠过来挑起门帘脸色很不好看：“卤猪蹄，你老实说，你们这狗肉是从哪弄来的？” 卤猪蹄想蒙混过关：“是到野地里套的野狗，不信你问她们。”他说的她们是指他们知青点的女知青。那时候不知是有意还是巧合，每个知青点的男女比例基本上都是一比一搭配起来的，从这个迹象考察，当时的无产阶级司令部很可能真的打定主意，要让我们这些知青永远成为地地道道的农民在广阔天地里传宗接代。 叶笙楠对我说：“杨伟，你们几个过来看看，我觉得这条狗眼熟得很。” 我跟糊面包、排骨、红烧肉爬下炕来到厨房，一张狗皮摊在地上，黄色皮毛上腿部和腰部有黑色杂毛，我心里一惊，这不是房东老张家的大黄狗吗？我拎起狗尾巴看了看，尾巴尖上有一撮白毛，没错，确实是房东老张家的那条大黄狗。无辜的大黄狗啊，虽然你做狗不够厚道，可终究也算我们的一个异种朋友，陪伴着我们度过了那么多无聊的岁月，今天你却被人谋杀，并且还要拿你的血肉之躯犒劳我们，这不是对你的残忍，而是对我们明目张胆的欺辱。怒火冲到了我的脑门子上，俗话说打狗还要看主人，卤猪蹄这家伙把我们房东的狗给杀了，竟然还敢邀请我们来吃狗肉，这简直是肆无忌惮的侮辱跟挑衅。吴梦娜蹲到狗皮跟前哭了起来，这条狗最大的毛病就是馋嘴势利眼，谁给它吃的它就跟在谁的屁股后面摇尾巴。吴梦娜经常当我们的厨子，残汤剩饭就给它，所以它跟吴梦娜的关系最好。我们无聊的时候就竭力想把它训练成一只有用之才，逼着它作各种战术动作，登高越障、匍匐前进、搜寻跟踪等等。虽然它太笨，又太馋，没有多大长进，我们却也在训练它的过程里得到了许多乐趣。 “你他妈这是什么意思？”我握了拳头逼了上去。 卤猪蹄蒙了，不知所措地退了一步，满面尴尬地解释：“这家伙抢了咱们的羊腿，咱们就吃它的肉，管它呢，不就是一条狗嘛。” 排骨端了炖着狗肉的锅到院子里将锅里的肉跟汤全部倒在地上：“我让你吃个狗屁！” 糊面包卷了地上的狗皮：“走吧，再待在这儿有什么意思。” 卤猪蹄确实犯规了，可能他并不知道我们跟大黄狗的哥们儿关系，但是他也绝对不应该到我们知青点套了我们房东的狗再请我们割炙分羹，这种做法隐含着对我们的蔑视和欺辱。我们朝门外走，卤猪蹄拦挡着我们：“各位，就算我做错了，对不起了还不行吗？不吃狗肉咱们吃点别的，还有清油你们也不要了？总不能就这样饿着肚子往回走呀……” 吴梦娜推了他一把：“滚开！今后再不准你到我们点上来。” 他拦住我装出无辜的样子：“哥们儿，你说说，我确实是好心好意。那天我见这条狗把羊腿都抢了，勒了它也是替你们出气呀。” 我说：“卤猪蹄啊卤猪蹄，我不知道你心里是怎么想的，反过来你要是我们，遇到这种事儿你会怎么样？从小咱俩就坐不到一条板凳上，我现在明白了，不是我不好，你小子确实不是东西。让开了，吴梦娜刚才已经说过了，今后你少到我们点上来，再来了别怪我们对你冷淡。” 叶笙楠在一旁拉了我一把，不屑地瞪了他一眼：“走吧，跟这种人啰嗦啥。” 叶笙楠的一句话让卤猪蹄的脸霎时变成了一张黄裱纸，他像受到了重重的锤击，整个人委顿了下去，我觉得他的泪水在眼睛后面凝聚。叶笙楠一句话对他的打击竟然如此沉重是我没有想到的，那一刻我甚至有些同情他，我甚至想劝说同伴们留下来，可是我什么也没有做，我跟同伴们一起离开了他们的知青点，尽管天已经快黑了，尽管我们都饿着肚子。 回到野狗坡后，我们谁也没有再提起这件事情，怕老张家的人发现狗丢了产生不必要的怀疑引发不必要的麻烦。我们把黄狗的皮埋葬到了村外的沙枣树林里，吴梦娜还垒起了一个小小的土堆。老张一家大小到处找他们家的大黄狗，他们家跟这条大黄狗有很深的感情，我们看着他们一家人村里村外地寻找，听着他们家人苍老、稚嫩的唤狗声交替回响，心里都不是滋味，却只能保持沉默。谁也说不清楚埋葬到村外沙枣林里的狗皮是怎么被他们发现的，谁也没有想到他们竟然会愤怒到把这件事情报告给公社的地步，公社的治安员恰恰又是老张的外甥，于是这件事情就成了大黄狗谋杀案，公社开始针对我们点的知青开展调查。 所谓调查其实就是先抓起来再审问，我们点的八个知青都被关到了公社的专政队里。在带队干部的过问下，公社治安员对我们知青还算客气，没有对我们刑讯逼供，可是整天被关在不见天日的黑屋子里也已经够受的了。我们四个男的被分别关押起来，四个女知青被关在一起，她们竟然用卓亚反抗法西斯的精神鼓励自己对抗公社专政队的审问，坚决不交待大黄狗谋杀案的凶手，她们对这件事情知道得清清楚楚，她们却打定主意不出卖自己的知青战友，尽管这个知青战友并不是什么好东西。我们也一样，面对无法过关的两难选择：要么老实交待，成为出卖知青的卑鄙小人，要么把事情承揽过来，接受谁也说不清严重到什么程度的后果。我们打定主意对抗到底，叶笙楠她们白天晚上都在我对面的号子里面唱《绣红旗》、《红梅赞》，还唱《抬头望见北斗星》、《愿天下劳苦大众都解放》、《砍头不要紧，只要主义真》……关了三天，她们唱了三天，越唱意志越坚强，我的意志却让她们唱垮了，一听到她们的歌声我就想哭。为了能让她们早点结束这自己营造出来的悲壮和别人强加的悲惨，我主动承认黄狗是我谋杀的，我想，他们还不至于让我给一条狗抵命。他们还要追究谁跟我一起杀害了大黄狗，以便完成一桩既有主犯又有胁从的完整案例，我没有满足他们争取圆满的愿望，坚持这件谋杀案是我一人所为。他们让我详细交待谋杀过程，套狗的技术细节我已经非常纯熟，于是把以往套狗的经验照搬到大黄狗身上。 既然大黄狗谋杀案的主犯已经交待，其他人也就从公社的专政队放了出去。我却被继续关押了起来，上面确定我的罪名是破坏知识青年上山下乡。我问他们：我杀的是老张家的大黄狗，狗又不是知识青年，凭什么说我是破坏知识青年上山下乡？他们说我给知识青年上山下乡的政策抹了黑，就是破坏知识青年上山下乡。接着就开始拉着我四处巡回批斗，如今回想起来，我对他们这种小题大做开始理解了，我们在颓废、无聊、绝望状态下的胡作非为确实给当地农民造成了许多大大小小的麻烦，农民已经难以承受我们接受教育了。如果这种现象不及时制止，确实会给毛主席的知识青年上山下乡政策造成根本性的危害，因为许多地方的农民不但拒绝再接收知识青年，就是对已经下来的知青也恨不得立即撵回去。在这种大背景下，我成了杀给猴看的鸡，成了普遍性问题的典型人物。最让我担心的倒不是批斗，而是批斗之后将会怎样处理我。因破坏知识青年上山下乡的罪名被判刑、枪毙的案例当时比比皆是。枪毙我不怕，我就怕枪毙的时候太疼，我跟野狼沟的农民打架时脑袋上挨过一砖头，脑袋上起了拳头大一个包，确实挺疼，我想子弹的威力比砖头更大，打在脑袋上肯定更疼。 批斗了半个多月，我的处理决定终于下来了，让我万万没有想到的是，公社经过调查发现我并不是当地的知青，我的户口早已经转回了老家陕西。于是公社作出了一个睿智的决定，把我遣送回老家去，他们认为我既然能祸害人，就应该让我回去祸害老家人，也算对本地农民所受祸害的一种补偿。于是，我在两名民兵的押送下回到了老家。 我走的那天，我们知青点跟附近知青点的知青们都来送我，大家都挤上来说些依依惜别的话。叶笙楠哭成了泪人，别的人也都做出情绪低沉心情伤感的样子。我注意看了一下，卤猪蹄没有来，这个狗日的真不够意思，我在心里骂他。我英勇献身保护了他，他居然不知道过来送我一程。叶笙楠嘱咐我到了一定给她来信，如果那边情况可以，她也过去，这是对我最大的安慰。老张家那个暗恋叶笙楠的儿子也兴高采烈地来送我，他特意买了一挂鞭炮，在我上车的时候点燃了，噼里啪啦的爆竹声中，我离开了野狗坡，那情景让我想起了毛主席诗词《七律·送瘟神》中的句子：“借问瘟君欲何往，纸船明烛照天烧。”天气晴朗，万里无云，阳光把灰蒙蒙的土地照射得精神焕发。看来，我的离去连老天爷都觉得是一件值得庆贺的好事。