Chapter 18 Chapter 17 Are you his opium incense?

Naturally, Beck was unwilling to be the defeated pawn, so she fabricated this lie in time. Sometimes, lies are the crutches of love. After a long time, Bei Ke still remembered the first time he saw Du Wei. The rain outside the window, like Ruo Duo's tears, made the glass look like a piece of melting ice, transparent and deserted.Du Wei stood at the door, wiped the rain from her forehead, and looked at her quietly. After looking at each other for a while, she suddenly smiled, very bright, like a ray of sunlight leaking from a very cloudy sky. Perhaps, the first feeling between people is the most important. From the first moment of meeting, Bei Ke was not regarded as her patient by Du Wei.As for Du Wei, it wasn't true either. She smiled slightly and pulled a chair over by herself, and said, "Can I have a glass of water?"

Later, Du Wei silently put down the water glass and said in a low voice, "When I get nervous, I keep drinking water." When psychological patients see Becker for the first time, they are more nervous than doctors with physical pathology, because when they face psychologists, they have to cut themselves open. Open body is more panic. Du Wei looked straight at Bei Ke: "I don't have a mental illness, I just want someone to share my secret with." Becker leaned forward slightly, looking at her with a warm smile. When facing patients, she must put away all her pride, and use such body posture and expression to give these people who are suffering from spiritual torture a sense of intimacy and credibility.The profession of a psychiatrist is generally like this. He misses other people's mental garbage recycling bins very much. All day long, other people's hidden psychological diseases make his own state of mind narrow.

Du Wei's confidant is about a man, she loves him, he also loves her, and their love is destined to be a secret, although it is very beautiful, because that man has a wife, he will not Divorce also loves her very much. He always withdraws from the lingering in the middle of the night, regardless of the lingering pain in her tender lingering. He likes to kiss her fingertips, and he likes to bite her ear and call her little girl. The goblin, she knows better than anyone else that she can't break into his life in the sun, otherwise, there is only one ending, and he pulls away. She loves so much that the thought of separation makes her heart go crazy, and she has no choice but to fight back.

Du Wei said to Bei Ke: "I don't need your psychological guidance. I just need someone to listen to and release the painful depression. What's the point of being happy if there is no third person to know about a love?" Bei Ke listened peacefully. The smile on her face was just a decorative expression. To be honest, she had always looked down upon women who interfered in other people's love. In her opinion, such women , It's not so much about stealing love as about stealing pain, stealing the pain between myself and another pair of men and women. Love is a game of jumping numbers. In the beginning, passion always overwhelms reason, and the final choice is often still reason. Passion is just the moment when the curtain call is forgotten.

Du Wei's voice, like pattering rain, sprinkled in the air, and the outside of the window gradually darkened into a blur of dark blue. A heartbroken love story that had nothing to do with her unfolded clearly and brightly in Bei Ke's heart. Du Wei suddenly stopped and said, "Can I have a cigarette?" Becker chuckled and pointed to the smoke-free clinic sign on the wall: "However, you can make an exception." Du Wei took out a cigarette from her bag, and her lighting posture was a little clumsy, like a child playing with matches for the first time, a little cute and timid.

After only one sip, Du Wei was so choked that she coughed desperately. The light blue blood vessels burst out on her graceful neck. Soon, tears came down, and Beck took the cigarette between her fingers. down. Du Wei said embarrassingly: "I don't know how to smoke, but today I want to smoke, because I don't want to fall in love with him, but I can't control my heart." Bei Ke's heart trembled, Du Wei felt the pain in her heart, probably, she could feel some of it, as a woman in the world, which man has never met love but can't get it?Who has never tried that difficulty in his youth?

Du Wei wiped her tears with facial tissue for a long time, perhaps, some tears, even without the smoke of cigarettes, she would still shed, those tears kept in her heart, trying to find a proper outlet. During the entire process of the patient's confession and the end of the confession, psychological induction was not implemented. In Beike's professional experience, it was the only time. She knew that Du Wei did not need other people's psychological induction. She just needed a perfect and tight gap. Release dark secrets in your heart. After a long time, Bei Ke still remembered the way Du Wei left. She walked in the pattering rain, and the broken water droplets stained the old dust on the street and fell on her snow-white trousers. The slender back is slightly bent in the cold autumn rain, which makes people feel pity. I don't know if the man she loves will feel distressed after seeing it?

Bei Ke felt disappointed, and at night, he suddenly wanted to talk, so he dragged Jiang Zhong off the computer game and said, "Let's talk." Jiang Zhong was having a great time killing online, and he said impatiently, "What are you talking about, you must say it first." Bei Ke said, let's talk about feelings. "Why did you suddenly think of this?" As he spoke, he squeezed her fingers ambiguously, and went back to the Internet, throwing the longing Beke aside. Bei Ke smiled, married for a few years, why did he forget Jiang Zhong's personality, this man is strict and reserved, and rarely speaks touching words of love, when in love, everyone wonders how articulate and slim he is How could Bei Ke fall in love with Jiang Zhong, who rarely speaks a word? Even a love sentence needs to be taught for a long time to speak decently, and his profession is a criminal police officer who is rarely favored by white-collar women.

But Bei Ke knows that marriage is for a lifetime. Most suave men are opium that women are addicted to, burning and hurting themselves in a trance. The love of the heart, Bei is not willing to want. If men and women can be each other's opium, then she would rather be a man's opium herself. When it comes to family, she is a selfish person, she is unwilling, she pays without getting anything in return. Over the years, she ate the breakfast Jiang Zhong prepared for her and made things difficult for him to her heart's content, but she didn't remember even a little bit of his hobbies. In the longing in his eyes, he suddenly remembered that a certain day was his birthday, and a certain day was his wedding anniversary. She always looked at him guiltily in a sudden realization, but he definitely didn't mean to mind, but just kindly Smiling, touched her delicate face and said, "Are you busy."

Thinking of this, Bei Ke suddenly felt a little guilty, but he didn't know where to find a gap to make up for. Probably, once a person’s secret is revealed to someone, there is no taboo. Du Wei often comes here, she said that what she wants is just to talk, she is like a person who is tortured by the secret and is about to go crazy, It needs to be dumped from time to time, and does not require any psychotherapy. Beck's sympathy for her at the beginning gradually turned into liking, and then slowly, they became friends, the kind of mutual honesty. Later, Beck said to Du Wei: "From the beginning, I have always loved her. You are not treated like a patient."

Du Wei's smile was silent. Sometimes, Beck also talked about her marriage, which was a bit repentant.Du Wei listened quietly, sometimes, Leng Ding said: "Do you believe that he loves you 100%?" Bei Ke was stunned. Seriously, she had no way of knowing what Jiang Zhong was thinking. She never asked, and Jiang Zhong was naturally dumb. She was only willing to deduce from various details of life. He loved her. How deep is it, so I dare not think deeply. In this age of desire and inner loneliness, how much true love can stand scrutiny? Seeing her lose her mind, Du Wei shook her hand in front of her: "I'm joking, nothing can show that a man loves you more than his willingness to give you a marriage." Bei Ke was stunned, and Du Wei began to laugh and talk about the various romances between her and her boyfriend. For example, if she knew that he was coming, she would put perfume on her body, wear sexy pajamas and hide in the closet or any hiding place, Let him look around anxiously in the room, until he heard his giggling before finding him. In the end, Du Wei said sadly: "They all say that people who love each other have a good heart, but he can't find me." This made Bei Ke think of Jiang Zhonghao even more. With his true qualities as a criminal policeman, he can find himself in any corner of the city.But in a house, the so-called "can't find it" is just a kind of love attitude that doesn't show anything.He hinted at Du Wei in this way, but in fact he didn't love her. Bei Ke looked at Du Wei, and suddenly felt sorry for her. A married man who can't give her any future is not worthy of her burning himself carelessly. It's just that Du Wei's eyes were full of secret happiness, so she still didn't say these words. She even helped Du Wei think of many clever strategies to quietly force another woman to withdraw from the marriage. Du Wei always listened to I had to giggle and giggle before finally saying, "He's going to kill me." Once, Du Wei asked Bei Ke: "Do you think it's ridiculous that I fall in love with someone else's husband and have to go out of my way to show it to you?" "Emotional matters, how many philosophers' heads have been exhausted, and no one can figure it out." Du Wei grabbed her hand abruptly and said, "Beike, I like you." Bei Ke was stunned, and it took him a long time to recover and said: "I like you too." "I suddenly felt that my behavior was a bit despicable." Becker touched the back of her hand with a smile and said, "Why do you look like a child?" That day, when Du Wei left, Bei Ke saw a crystal drop of water slipping from the corner of her eye, and she suddenly began to sweat worriedly for this thin and emotional woman. There is a case that requires Jiang Zhong to go to Hong Kong to investigate and collect evidence. Living alone, Bei Ke is a bit desolate, so he asks Du Wei to accompany him. In a discussing tone, Du Wei agrees very readily. After eating the fruit, Becker jumped into the bedroom, threw his body on the large and soft water bed, and called Du Wei to chat with him, but Du Wei refused to come in at first, and couldn't stand Becker calling over and over again, so she went in and dragged A cushion sat on the carpet, lazily responding to Beck's words, Beck felt that something was wrong, leaned on the edge of the bed to look, and saw that Beck's face was already dripping with tears. Bei Ke jumped down and asked what was wrong. Du Wei said that she felt hurt and wondered if she could have such a comfortable warmth, and when she would be able to flaunt her happiness unscrupulously. Bei Ke had nothing to comfort her, and took her to play DV on the terrace. Later, no matter how Bei Ke begged, Du Wei refused to come. Back in Jiang Zhong, Bei Ke went to pick up the plane at the airport, this was the first time in several years, Jiang Zhong Wei Wei stood up at the exit, until Bei Ke got into his arms and acted like a baby, he didn't believe it was true. In the evening, when Jiang Zhong was taking a bath, Bei Ke packed his suitcase, and in his shirt pocket, he took out a beautiful string of colorful gold necklaces. On the thin chain was a water-red rose, which was Xie Ruilin. For products, only one piece of a style is produced. Bei Ke was so beautiful in his heart, he made a gesture on his chest, put it back quickly, and closed the box, probably because he wanted to give himself a surprise, and it's better not to spoil his interest in advance. Then, watching Jiang Zhong come out of the bathroom with eyes full of tenderness, and being embraced by him on the bed with eyes full of tenderness, until he looked forward to turning the night into morning with tenderness in his heart, Jiang Zhong didn't say a word about the necklace. Bei Ke's heart began to flutter and flutter, and he saw Du Wei two days later. The moment Du Wei entered the door, Bei Ke's heart was shocked, and after that, it became cold. Bei Ke clearly saw a water-red rose blooming on Du Wei's neck, which perfectly matched her fair and delicate skin. In an instant, Bei Ke's heart was falling to the ground quickly, unable to reach the bottom. Until Du Wei said hi. Only then did she settle down, tried to calm herself down, got up, poured water for Du Wei, and then, some vague past and future life passed through the bottom of her heart as clearly as a mirror, and suddenly, she smiled, coldly. Bei Ke finally understood Du Wei, and what kind of taste was mixed with her tears by the water bed. When handing it to Du Weishui, Bei Ke made a sudden discovery, dragged the necklace around her neck and said, "What a coincidence, my husband brought this necklace back to Hong Kong, but unfortunately, it doesn't match my skin color. I let him monopolize it to others, so did Jiang Zhong resell it to him so cleverly?" Du Wei was stunned for a long time, and then said in a low voice: "So that's how it is. He also said that he specially entrusted someone to bring it back for me from Hong Kong." Bei Ke just laughed, laughing or how her husband presented the necklace to her, but she refused to appreciate that the color did not match her skin, made him very boring, and criticized herself for not buying it back for her. An inappropriate gift. Bei Ke babbled a lot about Jiang Zhong's kindness to him, and then said to Du Wei, who was as white as paper, "You said, he is so kind to me, but I treat him like this, isn't it a bit unkind?" Du Wei smiled sadly, answered the wrong question and said, "It turns out that men's words are so untrustworthy." Beck said with a fake smile: "It doesn't matter whether he asked someone to buy it for you, as long as he is willing to give it to you, as long as you like it." Du Wei sat for a long time, hesitated to speak again and again, and finally left the clinic feeling unwell. Bei Keyi was by the window, saw Du Wei on the street, pulled off the necklace from her neck, and threw it into the trash can by the side of the road without looking at it. Flow down. She finally understood that if, this time, she made up this lie without cruelty, Du Wei would finally reveal a shocking secret to her calmly, and let her, speechless, slowly withdraw from this... Pile marriage. This is the purpose of Leng Duo confiding to her. In fact, Du Wei is more suitable to be an excellent psychiatrist than herself, because she knows how to anesthetize a heart and gradually lose the ability to struggle.Naturally, Beck was unwilling to be that defeated pawn. It was night, and Bei Ke asked Jiang Zhong to help copy the DV to the computer. Bei Ke couldn't see Jiang Zhong's face facing the computer, only saw that when he turned on the DV player, his body froze for a long time, motionless. Becker said in a sweet voice: "This is a good friend I just met. She loves a married man and often comes to the clinic to complain about her depression. Heh, I gave her a lot of ways to destroy the man's marriage." Give it to her." Without looking back, Jiang Zhong said, "You, you... When will you grow up?" Becker put his arms around his neck from behind and said, "Honey, why are you sweating?" Jiang Zhong wiped his forehead, and said in a low voice, "The heating is too high." Bei Ke stuck to his face and said: "My dear, I am so happy to have you. You don't know how much I love you." Jiang Zhong let her hug him stiffly, and then lightly bit her hand. Du Wei never came to Bei Ke again, Bei Ke called her once, Du Wei's tone was very light: "It's you, thank you for letting me out of the swamp, after all you are a psychiatrist." Then, it was deducted, as if I answered a call from the wrong number. Bei Ke suddenly felt cold-hearted, and the pleasure of defeating his rival was nothing at all. One night after a long time, she turned around abruptly, broke Jiang Zhong, who was soundly asleep, and said, "If you have done anything wrong, please don't confess to me." What did Jiang Zhong say in a daze. Becker cried uncontrollably. She knew that some love truths should never be clarified. At least, she could deceive herself and say: This is just the imagination of a suspicious wife. Over the years, she has untied a knot in her heart that was tied to her heart, so how could she ignore herself?In the name of working hard for their career, they also earned some false reputations in the circle, but these, in the ordinary life, are nothing but mirages, far worse than a warm hug, which makes happiness more solid. The next day, Jiang Zhong watched in astonishment as Bei Ke wiped the kitchen clean and neatly packed all kinds of cooking ingredients into the cupboard: "Honey, it's still far away from the Spring Festival." Bei Ke smiled sweetly: "From now on, I want to make our home as warm and vibrant as New Year's Eve."