Chapter 5 Chapter Four

When returning to Qingdao, Gu Haiyang still didn't bring the bag of peanuts with him after all. It looked like an abandoned little grieving woman, curled up in a gray body in the corner. The city is lurking in the depths of winter, and people wrap their clothes tightly and rush towards the warm direction. Except for the sound of traffic, there will be a sudden sound in front of a certain building facing the sun and sheltering from the wind: Collect wine bottles and newspapers—— ! The voice dragged its long lazy tail in the wind, making the whole city less silent. Since Gu Haiyang moved, they seldom wandered on the street. Xiao Xiao went to the bookstore to buy a cookbook, and after get off work, he went to the supermarket to buy vegetables. In a fire, Gu Haiyang's old bicycle tires were burnt into two shriveled, twisted worms. They were black and hideous, and there was no room for repair. He simply became a bus squeezer. You can take a taxi, or pay in installments to buy a car and drive it. Xiao Xiao also mentioned that he refused, saying that taking the bus is very good. It is lively and can exercise while chasing the car, saving you from going to the gym Why should I give up this beautiful thing that kills two birds with one stone to buy a car and come back to serve me?

Xiao Xiao knew what he was thinking, so he didn't try to refute it. They had nothing to do when they were free. The two of them sat on the bed, spread out the passbook, and quickly calculated in their heads how many square meters they could buy. Then they were happy for the color of the restaurant and bedroom. They quarreled endlessly, mostly because Xiao Xiao wanted to paint a certain color, while Gu Haiyang wanted another color. These quarrels were trivial and warm. The appearance of wanting to beat the other party, and then, the soft light in someone's eyes lost its light, the two lips gradually moved closer, and the wild tenderness bloomed into a flexible flower on the bed.

Or, while watching TV, Xiao Xiaobian gradually felt a burning spot on his face, which was getting hotter and hotter, so he quietly turned his head and caught Gu Haiyang's eyes: Watch TV, watch what I do ? Gu Haiyang leaned over with a greedy face: Little fairy, how can you watch TV better than you. He often feels that Xiao Xiao is very strange, for example, now, this demure little girl in the living room, the wild and soft goblin on the bed, and the snail girl who is concentrating on the kitchen, how could they be the same person? When in the kitchen, he likes to stand behind Xiao Xiao, wrap her waist around her from behind, and watch her use her verdant fingers to put the vegetables in a seductive posture. Her concentration makes him want to jump into the chopping board On the bed, he tamely let him manipulate; tangled on the bed, in the trance of passionate ups and downs, he often fantasized that time would slip away quietly like this, and they had already aged beautifully in her panting like orchid. In the living room, he just wanted to be a warm old dog, curled up there to warm her cold feet.

When he was thinking like this, his eyes were a little dull, like an old man in the sunset, waiting for Xiao Xiao to wake him up with a voice and a movement. He didn't know what other people's love was like, but he knew that he was so looking forward to holding her hand and getting old overnight. When he sent Xiao Xiao home in the middle of the night, every time he watched her disappear into the depths of the stairs, there would be an inexplicable terror soaking in his heart. It was only the stairs of three floors that made him feel so sad. Fear, this kind of fear will not disappear until seeing her again.

Even if love is smooth sailing, you will still worry about gains and losses. Everyone who loves deeply will be like this. Dong Dong is like a sluggish old man, leading his imagination, and crawling into the deepest point little by little. My mother arrived in Qingdao at the beginning of the twelfth month of the lunar calendar. She was trapped in the car by her own things, her thin face was printed on the glass, and the falling hair was pressed into her thin forehead by the glass. At this time, Gu Haiyang and Xiao Xiao were jumping up and down at the exit because they couldn't meet their mother.

When they found the mother, the mother was already standing under the car, and she was staggering, trying to hang the fat bags on her shoulders. Gu Haiyang called "Mother" from a distance, then ran over, hung the bag on his shoulder and walked out without a word. After hailing a taxi and stuffing things into the trunk, Xiao Xiao quietly took out a piece of facial tissue from his bag and stuffed it for him: Wipe his eyes. The helpless mother at the train station made Gu Haiyang feel sad. For this trip, she must have stayed up for several nights, rushing to prepare delicious food for him. How did she know that those delicacies changed with the changes in the living environment? Things have changed in my taste buds.

However, the memories of all mothers in the world are stubborn and somewhat paranoid. They never think about what kind of rich life their children have had. They only remember something that their children loved when they were children, thinking that they are like loyal love. , firmly occupying the taste buds of the children. If you love your mother, you have to eat the dishes she cooked. Nothing makes a mother happier than this.Gu Haiyang had said this to Xiao Xiaoru several times. Carrying big and small bags upstairs, Xiao Xiao made tea for Gu Haiyang's mother and then went to work in the kitchen. Gu Haiyang's mother couldn't sit still, and checked from room to room until the food was served. After eating, seeing Xiao Xiao squatting on the ground to wipe the floor, he clicked his tongue and said: The floor of the people in the city is cleaner than the kang in the country.

Gu Haiyang asked his mother to rest for a while, saying that Xiao Xiao's parents invited them to dinner at night. Mother walked around in each room, her hands trembling as if she was about to do something, but the room was so tidy that she couldn't find anything to do. The first time she entered the city, she was like a child in a maze, not knowing what to do. Which way is more appropriate to go, the unique propositions in the country can't be used here, so I have to go to the bedroom to sleep. Xiao Xiao tidied up, and saw Gu Haiyang sitting on the edge of the bed intently looking at his sleeping mother, so he walked over quietly, closed the curtains, and led him outside: "Go to the mall to buy some clothes for my mother."

Gu Haiyang turned his head and looked at his mother on the bed. The cuffs of the dark red sweater were frayed to the point of being worn out, and his mother sewed it stiffly and awkwardly. This sweater seemed to have existed since he could remember. Only when I am willing to wear it. When she came back from the shopping mall, her mother had already woken up. Seeing that there was no one at home, she lay down at the window and looked down at a loss. When she saw Gu Haiyang and Xiao Xiao coming back from afar, she waved her hand and called Haiyang, but there were too many cars on the street. Now, it was the off-duty season again, and the hustle and bustle of the street drowned out her voice. Seeing that Gu Haiyang didn't hear her, she felt a little lost, so she brushed her hair and went to open the door for them.

The fashionable clothes made my mother uncomfortable, but the happiness was overflowing from the corners of her mouth. On the way to Xiao Xiao’s house, she asked Gu Haiyang carefully more than once: I’m already old, how can I wear such colorful clothes? Won't make people laugh? Gu Haiyang pointed to an old lady who was shopping for vegetables and said: Look at her, she is much older than you. The old lady has silver hair and is wearing a fiery red cotton coat, which contrasts vividly with the green vegetables in her hand. The mother smiles, but she still feels a little uncomfortable. Concepts need to be Time to get used to it.

When they entered, Xiao Xiao's family had already set up meals. Gu Haiyang's mother took the things from her son and brought them to Xiao Xiao's mother, and said with a smile: "Dear family, this is a special product I brought from the countryside. Don't dislike it." Xiao Xiao's mother took the things and handed them to her husband, and pulled Gu Haiyang's mother to sit down. The greetings from the two mothers made Gu Haiyang and Xiao Xiao giggle with their mouths covered. The word praises the other party's child, and the implication is that my family married the best in the world and my family married unparalleled in the world. Seeing Xiao Xiao's father sitting aside and giggling, Gu Haiyang's mother slowly became popular: It would be great if my old man could see this day. Seeing this, Xiao Xiao's mother winked at Xiao Xiao, and Xiao Xiao comprehended everyone to have dinner. After the meal, everyone was talking around the coffee table. Gu Haiyang’s mother suddenly took out a handkerchief from the pocket of the padded jacket, opened it layer by layer, and handed it to Xiao Xiao’s mother: According to the custom of the hometown, before the son gets married, the parents have to go to the woman’s house to give the bride price Well, I'm in the country and I don't know what you want to give away in the city. After thinking about it for a long time, I still give money. You can buy whatever you like. Xiao Xiao's mother was startled all of a sudden, she looked at Xiao Xiao and Gu Haiyang at a loss: what's going on? Gu Haiyang was also stunned. He didn't expect his mother to suddenly take out money to give him a betrothal gift. Before that, she had neither asked him nor showed any hints. At this time, her heart was sore and her throat hurt. There was an unfamiliar name written on the money on it, he knew it, and he gave it to his mother when he was visiting relatives. Those small bills must have been saved by his mother selling eggs or selling surplus grain on weekdays. Xiao Xiao flirted with Gu Haiyang, and Gu Haiyang rushed forward and gathered up his mother's handkerchief: There are no such rules as in the countryside here. My mother was very stubborn and refused to take the handkerchief. Instead, she put it on the coffee table at once, and the scattered banknotes were scattered. The old banknotes were like leaves that had fallen for a long time. They had been washed by too much wind and rain, and scattered on the coffee table. . Xiao Xiao's mother picked up one, spread it out in the palm of her hand, and looked at it. The other ones were neatly arranged, wrapped them up, and put them in front of Gu Haiyang's mother: In-laws, Qingdao is really not happy to give betrothal gifts. You put them away and keep them. Use it yourself. When the opportunity is right, we will arrange the marriage of the children, and we will have a house. Just add some things. There is no need to spend money. Mother opened her hands full of cracks and calluses, holding a handkerchief like a hedgehog, and smiled brightly. Xiao Xiao remembered that she often had such an expression when she was a child. Mostly, she longed for something, and her mother always Refused, one day when the mother came back from get off work, she would pull it out of the bag like a trick, and hold it up in front of her eyes. At that time, her expression was like this. Gu Haiyang's house in Qingdao has always been a concern for his mother. In the countryside, parents with sons are tired of working hard. Without a house, no girl is willing to be their daughter-in-law.She turned her head and looked at her son beautifully: I didn't tell my mother when I had the house, and I was still worried all day long. Gu Haiyang suddenly didn't know what to say, but Xiao Xiao's mother said with a smile: "It's not that the children don't tell you, the house was divided by my unit two years ago, and no one lives there, so let the children get married in that house." up. This sentence made the mother stunned for a moment. She was still immersed in the pride of her son owning a house, and she was about to tell her in-laws that her child had been doing things well since he was a child, and he didn't like to make publicity. After hearing such a sentence, she felt awkward in her heart, and before the smile could be removed from her face, she smiled awkwardly, unable to speak, one doubt after another floated in her heart. Afterwards, her words became less and less, she stared at her son or Xiao Xiao with roving eyes, Xiao Xiao’s mother would ask questions from time to time, and her answers were often inconsistent, and she always remembered that the question was not about this after the words had been spoken. , She wanted to take the initiative to speak and make the atmosphere more harmonious and natural, but she still couldn't find the most appropriate words. She knew that she should be more humble and express some gratitude to her in-laws. However, she felt that when she said these words, she would burst into tears. She felt wronged, never felt wronged. In the countryside, a man married in his mother-in-law's house has nothing to celebrate even if he gets married. That's because My family was unable to marry him a wife, so I was recruited, and I was married back by a childless family like a woman. She couldn't figure it out, how could an outstanding son be reduced to the point of being recruited? Her melancholy has not escaped her son's eyes. No one knows her better than him. She has cultivated his sensitive and proud self-esteem. She never allows anyone to help them with a gesture of pity, and give them sympathy. Tired and bent, she straightened her chest and expressed to others with this gesture: Although he has no father and I have no husband, we live a very good life, not as pitiful as you imagine. Gu Haiyang looked at the watch on the wall, and said to Xiao Xiao's mother: Auntie, it's getting late, we should go back.Then, she bent down to help her mother, and Xiao Xiao's mother got up and said, "That's right, your mother has been in the car for so long today, so go back to rest earlier, and your uncle and I will visit you another day." This is a community where cars are not allowed to pass through. On winter nights in the north, even the homeless wandering in the city find a shelter from the wind to avoid the cold. Those who should go home go home early and don’t want to go home. The people who live here also find a warm place to cat, and they don’t hang around in the north windy street. The full moon hangs in the sky, and the street is filled with calm, empty calm. After coming out of Xiao Xiao’s house, my mother used the She walked in front of Gu Haiyang at a speed that didn't match her age, and she walked ahead silently with clapping hands, as if she was going somewhere in a hurry. Gu Haiyang knew that his mother was suffering, but he couldn't figure out what exactly made her feel so sad, so he could only hurriedly follow behind his mother. Her body was slightly bent, and she was staggering here and there when she walked. Gu Haiyang called mother, his mother paused, then continued to walk forward with his head down, Gu Haiyang caught up and grabbed his mother's arm: mother, we're at the station. At this time, he saw the old tears in the wrinkles on his mother's face. She moved her body and pulled her arm out of Gu Haiyang's hand: Haiyang, the only child in the family is Xiao Xiao? Gu Haiyang nodded: Mother, what's wrong? Mother's tears rolled down: The house you live in belongs to his family?Is it because you are part of their family after you get married? Gu Haiyang froze for a moment, and understood the reason for his mother's distress: Mom, where are you going? Qingdao's housing prices are too high, we're only temporarily living in that house, and when I'm better off, I'll buy a house and move out. Gu Haiyang knew that his mother had lived in the countryside for more than 50 years, and the view that getting married in the woman’s house was entrenched was deeply rooted, and mother’s heart could not be relieved by just a few words. In Qingdao, it’s not unusual to get married and live in the woman’s house , and there is no such thing as matrilineal marriage, but the mother does not understand it this way. In her opinion, it is a humiliating thing for a son to marry and live in the woman's house. , as a man, it is unfair for Xiao Xiao to bear these grievances, and he should be the one who bears the responsibility. He silently took his mother's hand and said that the station was here. Until he got off the car, his mother didn't say a word to him. After returning home, she walked around the room a few times before going to sleep in the room. In the middle of the night, he heard suppressed crying from his mother's room: old man, I no way…… Gu Haiyang let out a long sigh, couldn't sleep, knocked on his mother's door and said: Mother, if you think it's inappropriate to get married in this house, I'll go out and rent the house. The crying in the room stopped abruptly. In the morning, when Gu Haiyang woke up, his mother had already cooked breakfast in the kitchen, cooked his favorite corn and vegetable porridge, and heated up the pancakes and eggs she brought. The kitchen was filled with a simple and friendly fragrance. Mother handed him the porridge: I didn't mean that, besides, would the in-laws agree? She looked at Gu Haiyang cautiously, and bursts of sadness hit Gu Haiyang. Her mother's eyes were filled with bloodshot eyes. She probably didn't sleep last night. He looked at himself with stern eyes, replaced by timidity, as if he had done something wrong to the child, lest he would be blamed. Gu Haiyang knew that because of the difference in concept, he and his mother could not talk about this matter. It makes sense, otherwise, she would think that it was his son's excuse for his comfort. This house was originally borrowed for me. How can there be such a good thing in the world, and they will build a house even if they give me the daughter they have raised so hard to be their wife?Xiao Xiao is not too ugly to marry.Gu Haiyang cracked open the egg, wrapped it in a pancake and handed it to his mother. After all, the mother is a simple person in her heart. Based on her trust in her son, she didn't try to scrutinize the truth of the words. She opened her mouth, took a bite of the pancake, pulled it off with great effort, and said with a smile: I am too old to bite the pancake. up. It was the weekend, after breakfast, Xiao Xiao came and encouraged Gu Haiyang to take his mother to the underwater world to play. The animals in the sea, the mother has never seen a live one in her life, and she agreed excitedly. Walking on the street, she was very satisfied with her son and future daughter-in-law. She looked at Xiao Xiao from time to time and smiled contentedly. After visiting the underwater world, I found a restaurant specializing in seafood near Lu Xun Park, Xiao Xiao pushed the menu to Gu Haiyang's mother: Auntie, just order whatever you want, today's lunch is my treat. Gu Haiyang's mother didn't know a few words, so she pushed the recipe to Xiao Xiao: I eat everything the same, you order. Xiao Xiao refused, saying that she must order food when he came to Qingdao once in a while, but his mother couldn't help it, so he had to look through the menu. Looking at the two cheapest dishes, said: this, and this. The proprietress of the restaurant is a fat, middle-aged woman. She looked at the two dishes, laughed and said, "You ordered a bowl of rice and a bowl of clear water noodles. Auntie, your son's leader has already spoken, so don't eat it." save for them. This sentence made my mother's face turn purple, as if she was afraid of being burned, she threw the recipe on the table: I said I don't know how to order. When Xiao Xiao was embarrassed by what the proprietress said, she quickly made a rescue and said: Who said that auntie can't order, I like rice the most, and Haiyang's favorite is clear water noodles. As he spoke, he flipped through the recipes, ordered iron plate squid, spicy clams, radish and vermicelli shrimp, and asked Gu Haiyang if he would like to drink beer. Gu Haiyang shook his head. During his poor growth, he never cultivated Interest in alcohol and tobacco. The mother looked at Gu Haiyang, Gu Haiyang was puzzled, and asked casually: Mom, do you want anything else? Mother nodded vigorously twice: order a bar, how can you call a man if you don't drink some wine. Xiao Xiao made a funny face at Gu Haiyang, waved to the proprietress and said: Let's drink some beer. How could Gu Haiyang know that the inadvertent words of the proprietress hit her mother's heart ailment, even people who met for the first time could see the status of her son in the eyes of her daughter-in-law, which made her feel deeply She began to thump, since she was a teenager, in her eyes, her son has been an upright man, the spiritual God who supports her whole life, how can this thin daughter-in-law put on a leadership posture in front of him? ? The dishes were served one after another. Xiao Xiao saw that his mother could not peel the shells of the pipa shrimp, and his hand was pierced by the sharp edge of the shell, so he put the peeled shrimp meat on the receiving plate in front of her mother. Peel it and eat it yourself. The proprietress who came over to serve the food saw it, and said hilariously: Your son found you a good daughter-in-law. The mother replied solemnly: Yes, the fortune teller has long said that my son is blessed. There was only one table of guests in the whole restaurant, the proprietress was flustered, she mopped a chair and sat down at the adjacent table, she took out some melon seeds from the pocket of her apron and scattered them on the table, there was a sound of crushing, and the fragrance of melon seeds permeated all around Come, the little melon seeds are flying between her fat fingers, and soon, the melon seeds on the table are piled up into a small pile. From time to time, I ask my mother where her hometown is and how her son came to Qingdao. No matter how big or small, the proprietress put her eyes on Gu Haiyang and Xiao Xiao, tsk-tsk and exclaimed: You are still lucky, your son is promising, and you are well-behaved if you find a daughter-in-law. Now, the life of an old man in the city with a son is hard , worked hard to bring up his son, and lost his son when he married his daughter-in-law. The mother held a pipa shrimp and stared wide-eyed: How could you marry a wife and lose your son? I went to my mother-in-law’s house. Today’s sons would rather go to the mother-in-law’s house to cook in the kitchen than give their parents the face to go home for a meal. Raising a son is worse than raising a daughter. When the daughter grows up, she can bring her home A son-in-law who is more filial than a son comes, and the son will be nothing when he grows up.The proprietress picked up the melon seeds on the table: Well, now I am very envious of those who have daughters. The mother looked straight at the proprietress, and when the proprietress got up, she rubbed the chair back, and the floor tiles made a harsh sound when the chair leg gnawed on the floor tiles, and the mother's hand trembled, and the pipa shrimp fell to the ground, and she was about to reach out I went to pick it up, but was pulled by Xiao Xiao: I dropped it on the ground, it was dirty, so I don’t want it. It's not dirty, the floor here is cleaner than the dining table in my hometown.The mother was still stubborn to pick it up. The Pekingese dog that had been following the proprietress's feet was faster than her. It rushed over and snatched it in its mouth. Throwing it away, my mother clicked her tongue twice, saying that it was a pity for the fat shrimp, and then grinningly picked up the rice in the bowl without adding any vegetables. Xiao Xiao picked up the clams and shrimp and put them in her rice bowl. She raised her eyes and smiled, and continued to eat, silently. The proprietress is playing games with her mobile phone at the counter, and she hates it when she loses!If you win, you will let out a huff, very heroic in Liangshan. After Xiao Xiao paid the bill, he and Gu Haiyang took his mother to Badaguan to have a look, but it was still winter, the century-old buildings and the French sycamore trees that had fallen off their leaves made the whole Badaguan look gray, lifeless and boring. Occasionally, a section of rich dark green flashes on the side of the street. It is an intermittent wall of winter flowers. Badaguan will not be lively until the end of April. Come out and feel the spring city family. The mother was very preoccupied, not absent-mindedly responding to Gu Haiyang and Xiao Xiao who were explaining next to her. When it was dark, he went home. When passing by the vegetable market, Xiao Xiao said he wanted to buy some food, and asked Gu Haiyang to take his mother home first. Gu Haiyang knew that Xiao Xiao was weak, and his feet would definitely be too much to bear after walking this day, so he went Let Xiao Xiao go back first, and he will go shopping. Mother was very straightforward, and pulled Xiao Xiao over: Let Haiyang go, our mother and I will go home first. Xiao Xiao was really tired, and he didn't bother to grab it with Gu Haiyang, so he accepted her. After entering the door, he changed into his slippers and wanted to pour some water, but the thermos was empty, so he went to the kitchen to boil water, which hadn't been filled yet. I heard my mother whispering in the living room: Xiao Xiao. She ran out, looked at her mother and asked what's the matter, the mother smiled and patted the sofa: "Mother and I are talking." Xiao Xiao sat the water on the stove and passed it. His mother pinched his other hand with one hand, and looked embarrassed to say something. At the end, she asked in an understatement tone: "Xiao Xiao, you are the only one of your parents." child? Xiao Xiao could tell that it took her a lot of effort to ask. She wanted Xiao Xiao to sound like her voice was peaceful and natural, but she couldn't learn how to modify the voice into a natural state. Before she spoke, She also moistened dry lips with the tip of her tongue. Yes, many of us are only children at our age.Xiao Xiao took an apple and lowered her head to peel it, thinking that she was just chatting about family affairs and asking casually, so she didn't think much about it. Hmm... Mother was careless: In our countryside, a family with only one daughter would recruit a son-in-law to continue the incense if conditions permit, and after giving birth the child would follow the daughter's family name.After finishing speaking, he looked at Xiao Xiao anxiously: "It's a big deal that the incense burns out." Xiao Xiao was stunned for a moment, then laughed, and suddenly understood what her mother was referring to, not just chatting about family affairs for no reason, and handing over the peeled apples: There are too many families without sons in the city, everyone She is an only child, so whoever is willing to recruit them, besides, the children live alone after marriage, so it doesn't matter whether they recruit a son-in-law or not. The mother held the apple to her mouth, took a small bite, and looked at Xiao Xiao with whether she believed it or not. Finally, she said in a very small voice: In the countryside, if a son is recruited as a son-in-law, he will be looked down upon by others. of. Xiao Xiao neatly slid the apple peel into the trash bag, and said with a smile: "Fortunately, our family was not born in the country, otherwise, my mother would definitely have to find out who has a spare son to recruit for me, hey." Just as they were talking, Gu Haiyang came back with big and small bags of vegetables, Xiao Xiao took them, and went to the kitchen to cook. His mother was a restless person, so she insisted on coming in to help, so Gu Haiyang had to let her, and the family of three crowded together. In the big kitchen, it looked a little messy, but the smell of cooking was very lively, and Gu Haiyang felt a sense of happiness and satisfaction spontaneously from the bottom of his heart. After dinner, Gu Haiyang sent Xiao Xiao back. Mother made a cup of tea and waited for him, and when she heard footsteps on the stairs, she opened the door early, pulled him and said: Haiyang, you have to tell mother that Xiao Xiao’s family is really not recruiting? Gu Haiyang couldn't help but smile bitterly, spread his hands and said: Mother, how can you believe that their family is not a prostitute?That's a rural custom. In the city, anyone who wants to talk about recruiting a wife will not be laughed to death. The mother muttered weakly: Look, you live in their house, and you don’t need a dowry when you get married. No matter how I think about it, I feel like a prostitute. Gu Haiyang couldn't explain it anymore, so he had to show his mother the bankbook: The house I rented had a fire a while ago and I couldn't live in it, so I just lived here temporarily. If I save enough, I will buy a house and move. I will not be the kind of worthless man who relies on the support of the woman's family. Mother fumbled for the passbook, and silently took out a handkerchief from the pocket of the cotton-padded jacket: I have saved 15,000 yuan this year, and you can use it as a supplement to buy a house. Gu Haiyang picked up the handkerchief, put it back into his mother's pocket with a tigerish face, without a word: Mother, if you don't want your son's conscience to be disturbed, then take the money back. Seeing Gu Haiyang like this, his mother knew that he was angry, so she said disgruntledly: Mother wants you to stand up straight at your mother-in-law's house. Gu Haiyang said: Mother, don't worry, Xiao Xiao and her parents are not the kind of philistines who watch people order dishes, you still don't believe your son's vision? Hearing what he said, my mother smiled complacently. On the third day, the mother clamored to go back to the countryside to prepare for the new year. Gu Haiyang knew that he couldn't stay, so he sent her to the car. In the car, the mother looked at him and stopped talking several times. She imagined that her son in the distance was living a brilliant and wonderful life, but this time when she entered the city, she suddenly felt that a brilliant dream was shattered by the reality bit by bit, and hers was uttered by the neighbors. The praised son couldn't even afford a house to live and live. After returning, how would she tell the villagers who came to inquire about the news?If they knew that Haiyang got married in the mother-in-law's house, what would they think about his son? Thinking of this, sad tears welled up in her eyes. She didn't dare to raise her head to let her son standing under the car see. Several times, she wanted to tell him that she had stuffed the 15,000 yuan in her son's pocket. It was in the drawer of the bedside table, but he didn’t dare to say it. If he did, Gu Haiyang would definitely get angry and cry. I remember when he was in his sophomore year, when he learned from the villagers that she was going to help people in a nearby farm in the hot summer. When he hoeed and suffered from heat stroke several times, he got very angry at her and threatened her by quitting school so that she would not secretly go to work on the farm. The next morning, he got up very late, his eyes were red like rabbits, and his pillow was exposed to the sun all day Still wet. The car started slowly. Through the window, she saw her son, walking slowly with the car, and then turned into running. She smiled and waved her hand, signaling him to go back. The son didn't seem to see him, chasing after him. The car ran faster, as if it was still saying something to her, she tilted her head, trying to listen, but there was a DVD in the car, there were noisy human voices, and through the glass, she couldn't hear anything. Unable to hear, she suddenly felt that her son who was far away in a foreign land made her very helpless and powerless. Even when his father passed away, she never felt such powerlessness. The son stopped, folded his hands together, put them on the side of his face, tilted his head, and her tears welled up. She knew that his son wanted to tell her to close her eyes and sleep for a while if she was tired. When Haiyang was a child, she was doing needlework under the lamp while beckoning her son to sleep well. Watching the long-distance bus gradually disappear into the rolling traffic, Gu Haiyang stood on the side of the street for a while, and slowly swayed back. This was the first time for a mother in her 50s to go so far away from home, and it was also the first time Entering the big city, I don’t know if my mother can bear the turbulence of these ten hours, and I don’t know whether this trip will bring joy or disappointment to my mother. These years of life have made her persevere, and she has almost never shed tears in front of others. , and never complained about anything. He knows that other people's ideals may be very grand, such as what kind of wealth to become an eye-catching person, and these ideals may change with the changes of time and environment, but his ideals have not changed since he was ten years old , simple and simple, is to let his mother live a good life, not to worry about money or to worry about food, so he studied hard and learned financial management by entering university. A thick stack of sample banknotes, with straight eyes, what a real money, he has never seen so much money, he counted 5 times in a row, and he counted different numbers 5 times, because his His heart was flying, holding the stack of banknotes, looking at the sunshine outside the classroom, thinking, there will always be a day when he will hand over this stack of banknotes, no, a stack thicker than this, to his mother, then What kind of expression will my mother have at that time? At that time, will my mother think it is in a dream? After arriving in Qingdao, he thought about taking his mother out, but it was not because he was incapable. After thinking about it, he let it go. He didn't want his mother to live in a rented house. , He often thinks that after another two years, when he has his own house, he can pick up his mother, point to the brand new house, and proudly say to his mother: Mom, this is our home. A few days later, when Xiao Xiao was looking for something, she saw the square handkerchief in the drawer of the bedside table. She held it and looked at it for a while, then ran to Gu Haiyang, who was watching TV, and threw it on the coffee table: What do you mean? Can I ask for your mother's money? Gu Haiyang froze for a moment, then asked: Where did you find it? Nightstand drawers, don't you know? Gu Haiyang nodded, opened the handkerchief, and wrapped it again. You can take it back during the Spring Festival. Your mother has suffered so much to save this money.Xiao Xiao said softly, Gu Haiyang pinched her fingers, thinking of his mother's embarrassment several times in the car, his eyes became moist.