Chapter 6 Chapter Six Marriage Proposal as a Kind of Malice

4 small dishes of cold dishes are elbow flower in sauce, mixed shrimp, sesame spinach stalks and hot and sour bamboo shoots. Jujube paste mung bean paste.This is a three-person recipe that combines Sichuan and Shandong, with meat and vegetables.Cantonese are not good at eating meat. Meimei stayed in the south for 6 days, so she must not be able to eat this kind of dish with thick oil and red sauce. However, only the two of them had dinner tonight, Mr. Zhu went to the airport to pick up Meimei, and went back with an excuse.It was already in Xiangchuan's expectation that she would do this, but when preparing the materials, he still prepared the amount for three people, because the world is unpredictable, and anything can happen now, let alone Mr. Zhu staying to eat on purpose this meal?

The stir-fry had just come out of the spoon, and the ribs were still simmering in the casserole. Meimei came down from upstairs, wearing a long dress that he had never seen before. "How about taking a look?" She put the wedding dress on her head and walked around the restaurant door, posing as a model. Xiang Chuan nodded and said: "Yes, the fabric is not less used, and it can be bundled with 5 mops." "I mean, is this wedding dress pretty enough to wear on the wedding day?" Meimei must have been used to his ramblings, so she didn't care. He had to pour another ladle of cold water: "It's enough for 15 people to watch for half a month."

Normally, Meimei should get angry at this time, but not today, she still asked with a good temper: "If you wear this wedding dress and walk on the red carpet, it shouldn't embarrass you, right?" "I'm sure I won't be able to walk the red carpet today." Xiangchuan served the ribs to the table.He has to stop Meimei from talking, today is not the right time to talk about marriage. "Why?" Meimei was very alert. "Because it's not the right time." "Why is it wrong?" "Because the sun has already set, even if you want to get married, you have to talk about it tomorrow morning."

"But I want to get married now." "According to local customs, only widows get married in the afternoon." Kagawa's last words finally had an effect, Mei Meifei also ran upstairs to change clothes. As the saying goes, when soldiers come to fight back, when water comes to hide, he thought that with his nonsense, he finally resolved Meimei's attempt to propose marriage again. Looking back on this matter in the future, he can only admit that he is inexperienced, and his understanding of Meimei is not deep enough.In fact, he has long known that Meimei has a temper that will never give up until she achieves her goals. He has already learned how powerful she is from the beginning of acquaintance, but he is too confident in his own methods, and he believes too much that he can use witty and changeable wrists to cook. So much so that it ignores Meimei's ingenuity and her strong self-esteem.

It is precisely because of this inappropriate self-confidence and indifference that he had to face Meimei's repeated marriage proposals during the 9 months of cohabitation. The first marriage proposal happened two months ago, that day happened to be the winter solstice, and it was snowing heavily, Meimei rushed back from the office early, and forced him to go out for a walk in the snow. "Be obedient, huh? Dress warmly, put on gloves, and a hat..." Meimei helped him to dress herself for the first time, muttering words in the tone of a grandmother. "It's okay to take a walk on the street, but don't be so scary, okay?" Xiangchuan thought she had seen through her trick at the time, because once Meimei wanted him to do something he didn't want to do, she would only use two attitudes— —The judge's and the grandmother's.

Most of the small buildings in the old British Concession have been renovated in the past two years, and now the roof tiles are covered by heavy snow, showing some old charm.The snow on the ground has accumulated more than two inches thick, and it makes a creaking sound when stepped on it.Meimei held his arm and stuck close to his side, but her figure was almost as tall as his, so her lawyer-athlete gait made Kagawa a little overwhelmed. On weekdays, no matter when the house is on fire, or after a meal to digest food, he always takes one step at a time. At this time, the fast rhythm of Meimei's feet disrupted his pace, and at the same time spoiled his mood. .

"Aha, the air is so sweet." Meimei seemed to have discovered a new continent. "The air will be better at night." He barely kept up with Meimei, feeling like a heavy piece of luggage, while Meimei was a passenger catching a train. "It would be very romantic to have a wedding in the snow," she said. "The bride has to put on a pair of cotton trousers under the wedding dress." He said in his heart, Meimei is not a romantic person, she is even tired of the petty bourgeois sentiments that are popular nowadays, if she changes her normal routine today, something extraordinary will definitely happen.

"It's just that when walking on the snow, the bride's wedding dress can't be white. Say, light blue, okay?" "If you go to a funeral and don't have black clothes, you can get by with blue ones." "The bride wears a wedding dress the color of aquamarine, and the groom doesn't look good in a black dress. It's better to wear a red tuxedo." "There are clothes like this for rent at the circus." "To match the groom's red dress, the bride should dye her hair a reddish amber." "That's like a tropical fruit, called Big Cousin Rambutan." He knew that he shouldn't speak like this. , because he was afraid of what she might soon ask.

"A light blue wedding dress with a ruby ​​necklace and earrings." "As the saying goes: red with blue, even dogs hate it." "Large snowflakes fell on the head and shoulders." "Like the catcher in the rye." "The band plays the Wedding March." "The musician's fingers have been frozen for a long time, and what he pulls out may not necessarily be an ugly tune." "I hold flowers and walk towards you step by step." "Don't fall in halfway." Xiangchuan couldn't help but hate his face today, which was the villain's behavior he hated the most in his life. However, in front of Meimei, he couldn't show his gentlemanly demeanor, because he was always in the Passive, manipulated position.

"Just stand there and smile at me..." Meimei pushed the wedding to a climax. Xiangchuan stopped in front of the old Prince Qing's Mansion.He had to put a stop to this imaginary wedding, because he found it a dangerous sign that Meimei was deaf to the nonsense he had been babbling today. Meimei also stopped, turned around and smiled at him: "Then, we will get married." He could only talk about it from left to right: "Having hallucinations in a snowy day is not a good sign, it means that you are probably frozen." He stretched out his arms and hugged Meimei in his arms to keep her warm, intending to take the opportunity to block her words, but suddenly remembered that this Prince Qing's mansion was originally the mansion of the great eunuch Xiao Dezhang, and we talked about marriage in front of it , but it is very unlucky.

At this moment, Meimei's warm breath blew into his ears, and said, "Let's get married!" No matter what Meimei thinks in her heart, Kagawa feels that it is very unwise for her to choose this moment, this place, and this way to propose marriage. There are three reasons for this: First of all, for any normal person, a surprise marriage proposal will most likely not succeed, especially Chinese people, who are particularly sensitive to this.Westerners often perform this kind of surprise attack in their literary works, but they don't explain the cultural roots inside, because they are written for their own people, and they are all within the understandable range.Once Chinese young people misunderstand their approach and use it, they will probably suffer a loss, because, for the Han culture, not to mention marriage proposals, even if it is a dinner party, a surprise invitation is also an invitation. category of rituals.Kagawa himself would never do such a stupid thing, and would never allow others to be so rude to him. Secondly, if climatic factors can barely be counted as a necessary condition for a marriage proposal, then whether it is the amorous season of warm spring and blossoming flowers, or the harvest season of fruitful fruits, it should be regarded as a pleasant moment. When people are in a good mood, Always happy to help others.What's more, even in the hot and sweaty summer, there are often coincidences where the head is dizzy and the impulse is agreed, not to mention the season when the secretion of personality hormones is strong.The only thing you should not do is to propose marriage in the cold wind and heavy snow, unless it is a parting of life or death, or the rest of your life, otherwise it will be difficult to achieve.Although Xiangchuan himself doesn't appreciate flowers before the moon, he must not get married in winter because he is afraid of the cold. In addition, among the three reasons he had just thought of, only the third reason did not have much analyzable value, because it was his own reason-he did not want to get married. So he said: "Marriage is a luxury for me." "Huh?" Meimei put her head on his shoulder, her voice blurred. "Even if my love for you often makes my heart sting and wander in the middle of the night, I still have no ability to get married." "why?" "Because, ever since I met you, I've only been in a daze." In the end, he still led the topic on a wrong path. At this point, he has a clear understanding of himself, he knows that he does not have the courage to directly reject Meimei, just like he did not have the courage to directly reject other women over the years. Meimei wasn't too angry at the time, she just kicked him hard on the calf. The moment Meimei walked out of the airport, the first thing she saw was not Kagawa, but Zhu-kun.She found that Mr. Zhu didn't stare at the exit like the others, but his eyes were scattered, his shoulders, neck and limbs were all listless. They hugged, laughed, and danced lightly, like a pair of little girls reunited after a long absence, but Meimei still felt the weakness in Mr. Zhu, and completely lost the introverted spirit of a monk. "Have you been tired these days?" Meimei put her luggage aside, and Gu Zi talked to Mr. Zhu. "I know, don't look at Xiangxiang just playing on his own every day, he is very tiring." Mr. Zhu smiled mechanically: "No, he plays well by himself, and his cooking skills are also good." "What did I give you to eat? He always said that I have no taste in food. What do you find?" "It's just chicken, duck, fish, vegetables and fruits, very delicious." It is inconvenient for Meimei to delve deeper at this time, so she can only say: "Every dish of his has a name." Mr. Zhu stopped laughing suddenly: "After eating several meals, it's enough to bother people. How can I ask for the name of the dish?" Meimei really wanted to ask Mr. Zhu what happened during the two nights when she disappeared for no reason, because once anything in the world deviates from its normal track, it will probably not be a good thing. But Mr. Zhu left so quickly that day that she had no time to react, so she called Mr. Zhu the next day and asked her to have lunch with her. "I talked to him about getting married again yesterday." In the first sentence of the meeting, she informed her girlfriend of the latest progress of the matter. "Oh? Congratulations!" Mr. Zhu didn't look surprised at all. "He won't agree so quickly." "How could it be? He loves you so much." "It's not about love. I suspect he doesn't want to get married at all." Meimei sighed unconsciously. The attempt at dinner yesterday was only part of her plan - to test Kagawa's initial reaction.On this issue, she had done a solid analysis of Kagawa, the results of which were stored in the same filing cabinet as her legal files. She believes that the reasons for Kagawa's refusal to get married are not very complicated. They mainly focus on two aspects, one is psychological and the other is personality. From a psychological point of view, even based on the superficial analysis of psychological theories she has mastered, she can recognize that the reason for his refusal to marry is obviously not the result of childhood trauma, such as the bad marriage relationship of his parents?Or get irritated by seeing something you shouldn't?Judging from the current situation, his refusal to marry is not like a mental illness, but more like a strong self-suggestion. How did he hint at himself?And what does it imply?This is a question that Meimei has always wanted to figure out. "Do you think there is anything wrong with Kagawa?" Meimei wanted Zhu Jun to provide her with materials from the perspective of a bystander. Mr. Zhu thought for a while, and said: "Apart from being a little self-centered, there is nothing wrong with him. However, who is not self-centered now? This is hardly a shortcoming." She hurriedly asked: "How do you say this?" "Xagawa's self-centeredness is not the kind that is aggressive and hurts others. He doesn't seem to care about things outside of him. The only thing he cares about is his own little world. To be more precise, it is A world of fun." Mr. Zhu's words were similar to teaching plans, dry and without emotion. Meimei said: "Isn't his so-called fun just eating, drinking and having fun? After I get married, he will not be less, only more abundant." "But what he cares about is not the behavior itself, his attention is actually focused on the mood of having fun, and this is the most difficult part of him to grasp." Meimei asked: "Everyone wants to be in a good mood, but where does his good mood come from?" "Freedom, tolerance and kindness." Mr. Zhu nodded. It seems that I asked Yu Blind, Meimei thought to herself.She doesn't think Mr. Zhu's conclusion has any reference value. They have only been in touch for a few days, so it is impossible to have a real understanding.There is also a reason why Mr. Zhu provided such a conclusion to her. After all, she is a kind girl who has never seen ugliness in the world and will not lie. Therefore, she can only persuade her to treat Kagawa patiently in this way. , Be patient with the matter of marriage. To deal with Kagawa, patience alone can only lead to failure. Who in the world is more patient than him?He lived a retirement-like life at a young age. His entire life experience required patience just like he waited for daylilies to bloom. In this world, few people could beat him in terms of patience. At this point, Meimei has just learned a lesson.Last night in Kagawa's bedroom, although Xiao Biesheng was newlyweds, Meimei's attention was on her great determination and grand ambitions - this time she would succeed in proposing marriage no matter what. It wasn't because she was pregnant or any other problem, but the separation for a few days gave her a chance to think calmly.She couldn't live with Xiangchuan in such an unclear way anymore, because she found that she really fell in love with this lazy man who was almost useless in the eyes of laborers. "I'm not at home, am I lonely?" Meimei immediately realized that this topic was not good, it was too mundane, too childlike, and Kagawa had already declared that there is nothing more sinful in the world than vulgarity. Xiang Chuan's answer today was not as witty as in the past, he just said lazily: "You are not at home, the house has suddenly become quite deserted." "Isn't Mr. Zhu coming to accompany you?" "She only comes here for a short time every day, which is completely different from the mistress at home." "Then it's been hard work for you these days!" "Life is unsatisfactory, nine times out of ten. However, when you come back, everything will be as usual." "From now on, I will be at home every day, to accompany you well." Xiangchuan was taken aback when he heard this, and asked, "Aren't you going out to file a lawsuit?" "It depends on what you plan to do. When we get married, I will do whatever you ask me to do. If you don't let me go to court, I will be a housewife and will never disobey your orders." "The word order is too serious. Besides, I am not a person who can give orders. Only obeying orders is my specialty." Meimei heard the complaints in his words, and said: "You don't have to worry, I can swear now: From now on, if I give orders to Comrade Li Xiangchuan, or speak in an orderly tone, let me even Losing 20 lawsuits, plus menopause 10 years earlier, no, losing 30 lawsuits in a row, and menopause coming 5 years earlier." "It's not that serious." Xiangchuan immediately hugged her tightly. "The orders you give me every day have become the 'march' in my life. Without them, my steps will be messed up." Meimei felt great happiness all of a sudden, and said: "Then I won't give orders anymore. After getting married, I will only let you give orders." "What can I order you?" "Have a baby! I have a good relationship in the Public Security Bureau, and I can get the fertility quota. Next year, the year after, I can have three babies in a little more than two years. At that time, there will be no more children in this building. It's chilled out." Kagawa said with a smile: "If every birth is twins, there will be 6 children who will quarrel." "God bless, let me at least have twins." Meimei was also very happy. Kagawa continued: "If there is a boy..." "Let him play golf, at least until the PGA Tour." "If there was a girl...." "Let her be a lawyer and be invincible all over the world." "How can I be a lawyer? Girls should be gentle and virtuous, and it's not bad to be a gourmet or garden designer." Kagawa was dissatisfied. "What kind of gardener?" Meimei immediately followed suit. "Let her design Japanese-style dry landscape gardens instead of learning Chinese gardens. Chinese gardens are too complicated and tiring." "Let her design a manor for you on the mountain, where we first met?" "To build a four-square mansion with a corridor style, no, it's better to have a corridor on three sides and one side to see the scenery. The dry landscape school needs a lot of space. If one side is vacant, she can borrow the natural landscape of the distant mountains and near the water." Meimei also came to the spirit: "Build it into a stone castle, with stone foundations, stone walls, plus stone tables and stone benches." But Xiangchuan shook his head: "It's not good to be all stones. As long as the foundation is stone, the buildings above are all wooden structures." "I'm afraid it won't be strong?" "It will be strong. We can buy Japanese cedar wood, the kind they use for tea houses. Now it's our turn to use small Japanese wood. They have used up so much of our forest for chopsticks all these years. !" Meimei said: "I have been to Japan, and their corridors with wooden floors are indeed very comfortable." "Put a goldfish pot under the eaves, and the water will flow into the fish pot when it rains. It's just that what plants to plant in the yard is a big problem." "There is nothing difficult in the world." Meimei was afraid that he would vent his anger because of a little difficulty. "Our place is cold in winter, so we can only grow hardy plants." "A bamboo forest should be needed?" Meimei continued to encourage him. "It should extend from the back of the house to the courtyard. It should not be too dense, but sparse and elegant." "Isn't the ginkgo tree nice?" "It's best to choose a site where there are already one or two ginkgo trees there. It doesn't need to be too big, and the age of the tree is more than a hundred years old." "Plant a few more canna plants in the yard." "That thing is too gaudy, it doesn't matter if you don't grow it." Meimei deliberately exclaimed: "I almost forgot, you must remember that a wooden stake must be nailed outside the door." Kagawa was puzzled and asked, "What are you doing?" "The donkey that tied you to your day and night is called a donkey!" Meimei clapped her hands and laughed. Although the two talked until midnight that night, and the talk was very lively, but Kagawa finally did not agree to her marriage proposal. "Why doesn't he want to marry me?" Meimei seldom has no idea like today. Mr. Zhu looked at Meimei, but didn't know what to say. She hoped that it was not because of her that Kagawa rejected Meimei's marriage proposal. Meimei then said to herself: "Could he be dissatisfied with me? No way? How can there be such a good wife like me in the world?" Mr. Zhu felt that if Kagawa's refusal this time had something to do with her, it was only because Meimei had inadvertently chosen the most inappropriate timing.An old-fashioned person as elegant and sensitive as Kagawa would never talk to Meimei the next day after having that wrong sex with her. Thinking of this, she said: "He may not be ready, or he still has some fears about marriage." "That's right!" Meimei seemed to realize suddenly. "He is just afraid, afraid that I will have the power to manage his life, and also afraid of taking on the inescapable responsibility of marriage." "So, you should give him some time to think calmly and come to the right conclusion." Mr. Zhu knew that this was nonsense, and Meimei was not a person who had the patience to wait for a long time. In fact, Mr. Zhu originally thought that it would not take a long time to mature for a marriage proposal. If two people are destined to marry each other, let alone a marriage proposal, the first hint of one of them should receive an enthusiastic response. Once the formal proposal is made, it will be a A happy comedy.She doesn't believe in the kind of marriage proposal that has gone through hardships and repeated many times. The result is at best an ordinary life, and it will never be a blissful ecstasy. She has also rejected several marriage proposals in the past. It's not that she doesn't want to get married, but that she feels that like Kagawa, she is also full of inexplicable fear of marriage. It also made her more afraid. However, things are not absolute. Shortly after this conversation with Meimei, William James III's marriage proposal to her showed some flattering features.That guy was such a monster, Zhu Jun couldn't help laughing whenever he thought about it afterwards, even though she would never marry him. It was the day after the Lantern Festival. Meimei held a small party in the small building in Kagawa. There were about twenty participants, which seemed very lively. William was obviously waiting there very early, and when he saw Mr. Zhu coming in, he danced briskly, turned to her side like the wind, and took the scarf and coat for her with his own hands. In the past month, William launched a fierce offensive against her, and even chased her to her school and home, begging for nothing to show his love to her.Mr. Zhu doesn't have any bad feelings towards him, and it's also very interesting to talk about it together. As for love and marriage, there is no need for it. William carefully shook off the snowflakes that fell on her coat, and said, "'On the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, the snow lights up the lights', that's absolutely true." His pure local dialect is fine if the locals speak it. But in his mouth, it was a breathtaking miracle. Mr. Zhu said: "You have made some progress in speaking this common saying." William hurriedly said: "Last time you said that I didn't use proverbs and common sayings in a proper way. I started learning immediately when I got home." "Really?" She looked around and didn't find Xiangchuan, but found that there were only two types of guests in the room—an antique dealer and a lawyer, and the two parties seemed to hit it off, and the conversation was very lively. William led her to the study and sat down, stretched out his hand to stop the guests who came to greet her, and said in the mouth: "I plan to spend 6 months studying the common sayings carefully by topic, and now I will show you the old man I just finished. A special topic on insects." "Wow!" Mr. Zhu was very afraid of being left out in Xiangchuan's home, but she couldn't help but see the current life in this small building for herself, so William's appearance just eliminated her worries. "Give me an ear sound, I'm about to start." He waited until Mr. Zhu nodded, and then he put on the air of a big actor, and said loudly: "Shik Lang wears flowers—smelly; Eating zongzi - stinky mouth sticking to teeth..." William's voice was originally loud and clear, but now he had the energy in his dantian, and his voice shook the roof tiles even more.The guests were all attracted, gathered around him, and laughed. "Shit Kelang drills noodle vats - no distinction is made between black and white, smelly and smelly; Shit Kelang drills dyeing vats - lustful and desperate; Shit Kelang drills honey vats - sweet and tasteless; Shit Kelang drills ashtrays - fake Baogong "Exploring the Yin Mountain"; Shi Kelang drilled into a medicine vat—pretending to be Dali Pill..." William said more than 60 sentences in one breath, and everyone around him laughed and shouted that their stomach hurts. Finally, William bowed to Mr. Zhu and sighed: "I don't recite well, but this poem is very well written. I wonder which great poet the author is?" When everyone heard this, more than half of them fell to the ground laughing. He added: "It's just a concept that I still don't understand. The protagonist in the poem is that Mr. Shi Kelang. Is he a man or a woman?" Mr. Zhu really felt very happy. William's pursuit of her without any intention and only seeking happiness left her without any burden. Even if she knew she would not accept his love, there was no psychological barrier.This is the biggest difference between Western culture and Chinese culture. Westerners hold parties on holidays, and they can invite their ex-wife, ex-wife’s children, ex-wife’s husband, and ex-wife’s husband’s ex-wife and their children. The hostess can also invite ex-husband and ex-husband’s wife , In addition, the children of the ex-husband and wife's ex-husband were invited to the home, and it was actually enjoyable and harmonious.She believes that there are many reasons for this, but one of the main reasons can be found from William, that is, Westerners pay more attention to friendship, and at the same time, they are a little heartless in the relationship between the sexes. After William's performance, before the people around him laughed so hard that they couldn't stand upright, he suddenly knelt down to her on one knee, and a beautiful crystal bottle appeared in his hand like a magic trick, and said in his mouth: "My goddess, my living Bodhisattva, my good wife who is inseparable in this life, in front of the big guys, I bow down under your pomegranate skirt, and offer you this bottle of Suhe sesame oil, which symbolizes chastity and fertility, just like we did in Jerusalem Like the sesame oil offered by the temple, please let your blessings bathe my life, and let your love warm my 'cooling and cooling' heart...." The people who had just recovered from their stress suddenly burst into tears again from laughter. William's closing remarks pushed this dramatic scene to its climax. He said: "My wife, just follow me!" At the party that night, everyone was very happy, or almost everyone. When William's marriage proposal was politely rejected, Kagawa also sang a poem.He obviously didn't sing it to anyone, the poem was just for himself.This poem happened to be heard by Mr. Zhu, which is reasonable, because she was standing beside him at that time. Although Mr. Zhu is good at ancient Chinese, she has never heard this poem before. The only thing related to the scene at that time is the word "Su Hexiang" in it.He recited: "Suhexiang pills have musk fragrance, wood ding has smoked the land and the air has the same fragrance; rhinoceros ice and atractylodes atractylodes have agarwood, and the clothes are tasted with cinnabar." When reciting this "Soup Song", Xiangchuan had no intention at first, but it was the Suhe sesame oil that William dedicated to Mr. Zhu, which reminded him of this "song formula".This was originally the prescription of "Su Hexiang Wan" in "Taiping Huimin Hejiju Prescription" in Song Dynasty. , Cyperus, musk, benzoin paste, sandalwood and honey are made into pills, and then wrapped with a layer of cinnabar powder as a coat. After all, ancient people's repair and medicine are different, and they use good things.This was his emotion at the time, and he was not at all unhappy because William knelt down to propose to Mr. Zhu. However, when he recalled the matter afterwards, he found that although he recited this soup song at that time, it could not be considered malicious, at least it should be regarded as a malicious stunt, because "Su Hexiang Pills" is to treat evil in the viscera (commonly known as nausea). ) and Pediatric Kejiu (children stunned by strangers) drugs. It is wrong to have malicious intentions, and he began to criticize himself again. Even if there is malicious intention in the subconscious, people's life will lose the peace and happiness it should have.No, the loss will never be just peace and happiness. Malicious behavior will not only hurt oneself, but also shatter some of the most beautiful things deep in the other party's heart. In reality, a marriage proposal itself is a somewhat malicious act.Of course, Kagawa wasn't quite sure about his argument, but privately that didn't prevent him from thinking this way.In fact, there is a very superficial reason there, which can explain the problem very well.What is the purpose of proposing?Simply put, we can fully understand that this is to satisfy personal desires, to occupy part of the other party's substantive content, and at the same time, to transfer part of the burden and responsibility from ourselves to the other party's shoulders.Accepting the other party's proposal means giving up on yourself.Just think, if a person dares to give up even himself, what else would he not dare to give up?Therefore, it is difficult for those who dare to propose marriage to claim to be kind people, and those who dare to agree to the proposal will inevitably be labeled as cruel or stupid. Kagawa lived to be in her thirties, and the only time she proposed in her life was when she graduated from college. The other party was her classmate, who is now an expert on oriental cultural relics at the Boston Museum. He should say to that classmate: "Life abroad can only be a joke to me. I am a person who cannot live without Chinese culture." She discussed with him softly: "Many of our Chinese cultural relics are abroad. Going out to study will be an eye-opener, won't it?" "Now it is different from the past. I work in domestic museums and have many opportunities to go abroad." "You can come back after you finish your studies." "However, this trip will take three to five years, and I may miss the opportunity to excavate Qin Shihuang's Mausoleum." Xiangchuan knew that the other party would also understand that this was just an excuse, because Qin Shihuang's Mausoleum will never be excavated within 100 years. "Then what should I do?" Her study abroad procedures and scholarship have been completed, and she is only waiting for Kagawa's decision. "There is a way." "you say." "You cancel the formalities for studying abroad, let's get married." He originally intended to marry this petite girl from Suzhou, but it was not at that time, but he planned to wait a year or two before mentioning the matter.Since the girl is leaving today, getting married is an excellent reason to keep her here. "We can still get married when we go abroad." She seemed a little puzzled, and at the same time, she seemed to have discovered something, and her tone had changed at this time. He had no choice but to explain: "The marriage I'm talking about and the marriage you want are two different things." "how to say?" "I don't want my wife to be a strong woman, or an academic madman. Now you are very sick academically, and you don't know what it will be like when you go abroad. That kind of marriage is not what I want." He This is the truth. "You want a wife who is by your side all day, and everything is centered around you, don't you?" "Of course." "You have instilled these ideas in me for two years, and today I finally figured it out." "So, let's get married." He was full of confidence in himself at the time, and the two years of hard work were not for nothing. "Go to hell with you!" This was the last sentence the girl said to him, and there was no further news from that girl. Even today, Kagawa still thinks that he has done nothing wrong. His marriage proposal is grand and generous, and he also took care of the emotions of both parties.If there was anything wrong, it was a matter of time, and he was too young at the time to have discovered the truth that "proposing marriage is like a kind of malice". That Suzhou girl was amazing. She might not have thought of this level of content until now, but she rejected him straight away and eliminated the malice of the marriage proposal invisible. It can be said that she was very clever.He could no longer remember the girl's appearance today, the only thing he could remember was that she wore a day lily yellow dress on the day they broke up. He never seriously considered the profound effect it had on him, but he never proposed to anyone else, let alone accepted anyone's marriage proposal to him.To borrow the words of William James III: "If you know it's right, just walk around it, why bother to bump your head!" He didn't dislike William's proposal comedy just performed.Mr. Zhu lived alone, and it was not a bad thing for someone to show love to her. Besides, she would not really agree to William's marriage. Marriage was also a "dilemma" for her. Just before that accidental sex, they sat on the top step of the second floor and had a close conversation about marriage. He said: "In my understanding, love and marriage are not necessarily related. Marriage should be a peaceful, comfortable, and slightly tired state of life. All problems are material. In personal relationships, there is only simple pleasure on the spiritual level, not deep pain." At this time, he must not put forward such immature theories as "marriage proposal is like a kind of malice". Firstly, it is in danger of being refuted by a thoughtful theorist like Mr. Zhu, and secondly, he is also afraid of frightening this The girlfriend of a lover I met for the first time. Mr. Zhu asked: "However, there are many young people who get married early. What's the matter?" He said with a smile: "Ignorance is fearless. They don't understand what marriage is, so they have nothing to be afraid of. Divorce is not a problem for them if they don't like it afterwards." Zhu Jun said teasingly: "Aren't you a young man?" "No, I just started working after graduation, so I have retired. What I have is the mentality of an old man." He spoke the truth, but every time he said this on weekdays, he was often met with People look sideways. Mr. Zhu asked reluctantly: "You are only in your thirties. Even if you have retired since you started elementary school at the age of 7, you are still a young man. Don't you think that marriage is also a social responsibility for young people? " It seems that no one in the world really understands his retirement thoughts, and Mr. Zhu's words are just a rebuttal from her standpoint.他轻叹一声，道：“婚我是一定要结的，儿女也是一定要生的，这是我对家族的责任，我总不能让我家的一脉单传，到了我这里就断绝吧！” “那么，你打算什么时候结婚？” “也许是明天，也许是10年之后，谁能知道呢？”这又是真心话，他发现今晚是个口吐真言的日子。 竹君的回答却出人意料：“我根本不相信你说的这些话。你该不是故意用这些话来博取同情吧？尽管我的同情心已经被搅动了起来。” 这个话题谈到此处，香川只好沉默了。这倒不是竹君对他的不理解引动了他的不快，恰恰相反，他这番谎言一般的真情告白居然引动了竹君的同情心，这件事本身便令人感动。 “其实，我也实在想象不出，你嫁人之后会是什么样子。”他决定把话题转移到竹君身上，以免他的感动让他做出不恰当的举动。 尽管那件不恰当的事最终还是发生了。 竹君的两次失踪，便像是插在美美心中的两根刺，虽然她暂时不会把香川拒绝她的求婚与这件事联系在一起，但她却不能对身边的这种异常现象不闻不问，因为，能给人造成最深刻伤害的，只能是你最亲近的人。 这两个人，一个是她最亲近的情人，一个是她最忠实的朋友，换个角度来讲，如果说这个世界上有什么人可以轻易伤害她，甚至毁灭她，就只有这两个人，因为，其他人对她的伤害都只能是物质性的，可治愈的和可逆的。 对于竹君关于自由、宽容和善良的劝解，她并不以为意，那是竹君赢得男人的方式，对她并不适用，她现在最关心的，是弄清楚竹君失踪的那两晚都在干些什么，是否与香川有关联。如果在这件事上出现了失误，她就会像那个带着“两头狼”、一只羊和一颗白菜过河的农夫一样，一头狼她有解决办法，两头狼就会让她陷入一个怪圈中不能自拔。 “那天真好玩，我打手机找你，却是香川接的，吓了我一跳。”美美小心地寻找事件的切入点。 竹君羞赧地笑了笑。 她接着道：“像你这么细心的人，怎么会把手机丢在我们家里？是不是香川跟你说了什么疯话，把你吓着啦？” 不想竹君语出惊人：“那天我没有丢下手机，你来电话的时候，我就在旁边。” “难怪我给你家中打电话也没有人接。”美美知道自己的眉毛必定倒竖起来，忙将手放到额头上摸来摸去，做出困惑之状。 竹君道：“这是我的主意，怕你远在南方，有什么误会一时也难以解释。” “我们是这么多年的姐妹，哪里会有误会？”美美终于让自己的表情平静下来，却又陷入了表里不一的痛苦之中。 关于那一晚的事，竹君的讲述平静，详实，美美认为有极大的可信度，如果能将解衣拔火罐这样的细节都讲了出来，这应该具有相当大的说服力。 于是，等到她求证过几处她认为模糊，或是竹君不小心遗漏的内容之后，她自认为对那一晚发生的一切已经了解得清清楚楚。特别是竹君对香川溢于言表的钦佩之情，和她对拥有这样出色情人的美美不自觉的倾羡之意，既证实了香川在她面前曾经施展过他的真实魅力，也证实了事情并没有发展到灾难的程度。 对于美美来讲，她的关注其实主要集中在香川身上，集中在香川是否对她忠贞不二？以及他在外来诱惑之下会做出什么反应？所以，她与竹君分手后，便立刻赶回家中，在香川身上审问竹君讲述的所有内容。 “你知道我这个人的心有多软，别说是我情人的女友病了，就算是在路上遇到个女病人，我也会心疼不已。”香川似乎并没有意识到她在审讯，而是将注意力都集中在那盆即将开花的萱草上，顺嘴搭腔地回答她的问话。 美美问：“听说你还给她唱戏啦？你可没给我唱过。” “怎么会呢？在水库里我给你唱过《风雨归舟》。”他突然从花盆前转过头来，道。“对不起，我忘记了，你说过根本就没有什么水库，也没有船和大鱼。抱歉。” “你唱的是什么戏？” “还能唱什么？无非是大鼓、单弦之类的，反正你也不爱听。” “你那么有耐心哄着她玩，为什么就没哄过我呢？”美美相信自己并没有醋意。 “如果我也那样哄着你玩，你会认为我对你不尊重，是老不正经，而不会认为那只是无伤大雅的闺中玩笑。”香川将头一点一点的，像是在挑逗那刚刚长成一寸长短的花蕾。 “我同样也是女人，与竹君需要的是同样的东西。” “不，你大不一样。你是干大事的女人，家庭琐事和言不及义的笑话对你大不相宜。” “如果我告诉你，我也是个普通的女人，也喜欢琐事和玩笑呢？” 香川的目光终于离开了他的宝贝萱草，转到她的脸上，内中满是震惊，道：“南来北往的各路大仙，如果当真如此，被爱的人就有福了，他终于得到了可以表达爱意的权利。” 美美道：“我原本就爱你，我也不害怕讲出来，这你应该比我还清楚。” “哈里路亚，我明白了，你爱我，谢谢你。”他的目光又回到了萱草的花蕾上。 香川含义不清的反应，让美美一时间又糊涂了，她爱他难道不对么？当初为了争论到底是谁先爱上谁，他们两个可是曾经拳脚相向，闹得双方鼻青脸肿。 那场争论是他们同居之前，发生在美美的公寓里。 香川道：“我方才说的是，我在初见之下，便爱上了你的脚髁。” 美美当时很有控制局面的把握，道：“你不用避实就虚，我让你交代的是，你是在什么时间，什么地点爱上的我？” 香川举起双手：“我坦白。我是在刚出门的时候，只看到了你的一个背影，便爱上了你。” “那人不是我。” “那就是你，穿着萱草黄色的衣裙，戴着同样颜色的宽檐帽。” “我们现在要弄清楚的是，从山里我们两个相遇开始，你是在什么时候爱上的我？”美美并不想发怒，但香川的闪转腾挪却又让她不由得怒火中烧。 香川将手指放到下巴上，坐在矮沙发里的样子很不舒服，想了半晌，方道：“我想起来了，是在我们吃鱼的时候。” “吃鱼的时候，在山下县城里？”美美发觉自己对信息的捕捉不得要领。 在她的记忆中，那天在县城招待所中并没有发生什么要紧的事。当时香川发高烧，在医院里昏睡了一天两夜，醒来后他们搬进了招待所，只住了一天，第二天便回到城里来了。 “我出院的那天早上，你弄来了一盆鱼汤，是宋公明在江州吃的那种醋椒鱼汤，有健脾发汗的功效。”香川用手托住下颔，眼睛里空荡荡的只有回忆。“那是一只大瓦盆，大得完全可以在里边给小学生洗澡，盆里装着一条大鲤鱼，至少也得有六七斤重，头和尾巴都露在盆外边。这盆，这鱼，再加上满满的一盆浓浓的奶白色鱼汤，应该有30斤重。第二天临出门，我听服务员说，你是端着这盆醋椒鱼汤，穿过了整个县城，一路小跑地回到招待所。” “也不算太重嘛，我只是怕汤凉了。”美美嘴上虽说得轻巧，泪水却涌了出来，难为他还记得这些。 “据说，大清早的饭店都不开门，你是打了饭店老板两个嘴巴，又给了人家500元钱，这才弄来的鱼汤。” “你怎么会知道这些？”一个男人能牢牢地记住你为他做的小事，并能从中发掘出动人的关节之处，这本身便令人感动。美美咬住嘴唇，害怕哭出声来。 “可笑的是，你只端来了那只大瓦盆，既没拿筷子，也没有汤勺，我只能用手抓鱼肉吃，用茶杯舀汤喝。” 最容易引人感动的常常是细节，香川对细节真切的记忆，让美美不再压抑自己，抱住他大哭起来。 美美认为，香川这个人最可恨之处就在于，你总是无法弄清他的真实心意，也难以预测他的下一步行动，这也难怪她日后要对他采取高压政策和全面控制的手段。 就在她感动得死去活来的时候，香川却说了句大煞风景的话：“不过，像你这种对日常生活一窍不通的女人，即使是在那种情况下，也很难让我产生爱情。” 于是，这才发生了那场“斗殴”，这也是双方相识之后多次武力交锋中，香川第一次，也是最后一次动手。他只推了她一把，让她撞在门把手上，把屁股撞得青肿了一大块。 也正因为如此，她才有理由第二天便搬进了香川的小楼，开始了她幸福的同居生活。 “说实话，你对竹君感觉怎么样？”美美锲而不舍地要将香川与竹君第一晚的所有细枝末节，包括心眼儿里的小活动都弄得一清二楚。 香川第三次从萱草上转过头来，道：“那是个好女人，温柔，贤淑，对食物有品味，而且没有坏脾气。” "do you like her?" "a little bit." “多大一点儿？” 香川坐正身子，对她道：“这个不好比喻，但是，如果不是先遇到了你，与我同居的可能会是她。” 美美并没有发火，而是笑嘻嘻地问道：“那么，我把她找来，咱们三个人一起过怎么样？” “那样不道德，也是对我们三个人共同的污辱。” “要不，我离开，让她来与你同住？” “那样也不好，因为，我至今仍然热烈地爱着你，就像我第一次见到你的脚髁时一样，那是在溪流边，你洗脚的那一刻。” “既然这样，我们结婚吧？” “那样我就更为难了。我怎么可以把你这么有前途的大律师拴在身边？拴在一个全无用处的懒汉身上？有现在的生活我已经大喜过望，如果你能跟我在一起坚持到一年，那必定是我家祖坟上冒了青烟；如果我们的关系能维持得再久些，我家祖坟上的青烟肯定会像原子弹爆炸一样壮观。” 美美觉得，不论发生多么棘手的事，不论是他的工作，还是他的生活，包括她刚刚的求婚，香川总是有办法把它消解掉，至少能将它模糊掉，让它在生活中隐藏起来，不再产生刺激作用。 但是，所有这一切并没有让她产生畏难情绪，她也绝不会放弃与这个男人结婚的念头。一个能有滋有味地哄着自己玩，不干扰别人，也不需要别人的男人，正是一个女强人最理想的丈夫。 也正因为有了这个想法，那天夜里，美美睡得非常塌实，只是在早上睡醒之前的浅层意识里，有个讨厌的念头一闪而过，但是，也只是一闪而过罢了，并没有进入记忆。 那个念头是：香川的这番话如此圆熟动听，该不是她与竹君分手后，这两个人在电话中串通好的供词？