Chapter 30 Chapter Thirty

When Qin Jizhou and Deng Jiaying were very entangled in discussing the river, in another room, the teacher's mother, Chu Ya, held Deng Chaolu's hand and wiped away tears while talking. This scene is indeed beyond the imagination of many people. Most people think that it is impossible for Master Chu Ya and Deng Chaolu to sit together and talk like a mother and daughter. It was hard for the two enemies, including them, to imagine such a scene.It wasn't difficult for Deng Chaolu, he never regarded his wife as an enemy, and he was still looking forward to it in his heart, but it was Chu Ya who had the difficulty.

But this time, Chu Ya is not difficult, really not difficult. The biggest difficulty in life is to see yourself clearly.Chu Ya never realized this problem before. She thought she was smart and could see everything clearly, but one day she suddenly realized that she was the stupidest and most confused woman in the world.Yes, I'm so stupid, so confused, why am I so confused.For several nights, Chuya became like Mrs. Xianglin, repeating this sentence over and over again.She pinches her own thigh, beats her own chest, and even tears her own hair.She used one kind of pain to vent another kind of pain, and used one kind of dissatisfaction to tear up another kind of dissatisfaction.The reason is that she finally saw herself clearly, a selfish, hypocritical, inflated by all kinds of interests, and an extremely worldly woman.Chuya used to give the word secular to others, proudly and condescendingly.She likes to send these two words to any woman she doesn't like, or who she doesn't like.After sending it off, he turned his head proudly, ignored it and left.But this time, Chu Ya painfully gave these two words to herself.

You are the stupidest and most worldly woman! People are not afraid of being misunderstood by others. Others can only mislead you for a while, but not for the rest of your life. The one who can truly mislead you for the rest of your life is yourself!Chu Ya has figured it out thoroughly. In fact, it is not that difficult to think clearly. The key is whether you dare to think about it, whether you dare to tear yourself apart, put yourself under the mirror, and look at it layer by layer.Chuya still has courage in this regard, and life has brought her to this point. A woman who lived with a sense of superiority all her life finally found that she did not have superiority at all. She lived her whole life in speculation, jealousy and hatred. .Such a life, she actually lived most of her life, and lived it happily, thinking that she was very strong.Suddenly one day, the virtual building collapsed, and Chuya discovered that she, who looked like a flower, was wrapped in a cage and a layer of emptiness. The messy ruins told her that the essence of life was tragic. Phase, is the numbness of self-deception.

Chu Ya doesn't want this kind of numbness, she needs to wake up and fully understand. "Lu, don't blame Auntie, Auntie has been confused for most of her life, and she realized it was too late. Auntie regrets, Auntie shouldn't treat you like this, shouldn't treat your mother like this, shouldn't." Chu Ya said , firmly grasping Deng Chaolu's hand, and weeping again.Her tears made Deng Chaolu flustered, but they were more happy and joyful.Over the years, Deng Chaolu has always been timid and fearful in front of his wife, like a child who is dependent on others, without confidence or self-confidence, naturally there is no equality at all.The teacher's kindness to her and the teacher's mother's harshness and bitterness to her made her form two views of the world, one is warm and touching, and the other is cold and humid, either wind or snow.Now, the teacher's wife is holding her hand so tightly and so hard, a strong love surges inside.Although Deng Chaolu didn't know what happened to her teacher's life, she clearly felt the changes in her teacher's wife. She was inspired, moved, and inspired by this change, and a stronger desire rose in her heart. Leaning in the arms of the teacher's mother.The teacher's wife stretched out her hand and stroked her face gently.Deng Chaolu shuddered for a while. When the teacher's wife touched her face, she clearly felt a kind of tremor. The slight trembling and the fear and anxiety revealed between her fingers made her instantly understand many things. It turned out that the teacher's wife was also longing for it... …

Who said no? Outsiders regard Chu Ya as a tigress, Chu Ya knows this very well.From the day he married Qin Jizhou, people have been talking behind his back, saying that Qin Jizhou has a good life now, and marrying a strong woman, there is no way for him to survive.Chu Ya just laughed at the time, thinking it was fun, but later found it was not fun. It is really not that easy for a woman to control a man, but it is easy to control a man. In a word, Qin Jizhou obeyed.But take care of yourself, it's difficult.It's hard to control a man who has other women in his heart.In Chuya's life, she has spent all her time managing it. The word "Tigress" has allowed her to play it to the fullest. She wants to be as plump as she wants, but only now did she realize that men are not controlled, men are warmed up. of.She has never done this warm word in her life.

Not doing it doesn't mean not having it in your heart, which woman in the world doesn't have this warm word in her heart, yes!Women are born to warm people, to warm loved ones, to warm loved ones, to warm family members, to warm children, and even to warm the world.Until now, Chuya has used up all the ruthlessness and splash in her body, but she found that she has not been ruthless at all. She really has not been ruthless to anyone, but only to herself, so ruthless that her life has changed and changed. , One night when I opened myself, I found that what was left inside was all warm.

warm well. "Lu, are you willing to forgive Auntie? Auntie doesn't ask for anything else, but please don't hold grudges. Auntie is sorry for you, I'm sorry. Auntie's heart hurts more than being stabbed with a knife." She hugged The arms holding Deng Chaolu tightened even tighter, and the fingernails seemed to be embedded in Deng Chaolu's flesh. "Master, don't say that, teacher, these things don't exist, they really don't exist." Deng Chaolu couldn't control herself anymore, she threw herself into her arms, and burst into tears. It is said that it is better to tie enemies than to dissolve them, but it means that you have never met anyone who wants to resolve them, and besides, there are so many hatreds in the world.Some hatred is planted by people forcefully, they must let it take root and sprout in their hearts, and must let it grow a tree of hatred.Once the human heart is oppressed by hatred, it is like the field being oppressed by weeds, or the river being occupied by chaotic stones. We must find a way to get rid of those hatreds, pull out the weeds and remove the stones, so that the hearts of the people can be sprinkled with sunshine and flow in. Qingquan.Chu Ya was determined to remove those rocks. Deng Chaolu didn't have rocks in her heart, but someone else used the shadow of rocks to suppress her heart.Now, the two of them are working together to remove the dark stone that weighs on their hearts.

In the following days, Longfeng Gorge presented a different scene.Deng Chaolu walks with his wife every day. The wife talks very much, talking about youth from childhood, and then from youth to the present.Deng Chaolu discovered that what the teacher's wife loves to talk about most is the days when the Longfengxia reservoir was built. "You really don't know how innocent people were at that time, as pure as the water in this reservoir. My mother and I fell in love with the atmosphere when we first went to the gorge." Or: "The people at that time Why are people so powerful, they can blow up a mountain and remove stones when they are hungry. This dam, this mountain, I dare not think about it now."

I dare not think about it.Whenever the teacher's wife was excited, ripples would appear in Deng Chaolu's heart.Scenes from childhood flashed out, as if just yesterday, my mother took her hand and walked across the dam, the lawn, and the grove.She still remembers the scene of her mother standing with her at the head of the dam, looking at the road in the distance, waiting for Uncle Lu to come to the library to see them, and also remembers the scene of Uncle Wu coming to the dam to inspect the work in a black car with smoke behind his buttocks , and the way my mother blushed, arguing with Uncle Wu.

The topic about Lu Bo gradually faded away.It's not that they are cruel and unfeeling, it's better not to mention sadness once.The four of them tacitly agreed and tried their best to avoid some things.Qin Jizhou was no longer so pedantic and stubborn.I don't know if Chu Ya told him, or he discovered it himself during the conversation with Deng Jiaying.In short, he became anxious and humble, spending Chuya and Deng Chaolu every day, fearing their influence, he was eager to discuss plans with Deng Jiaying to discuss countermeasures.Deng Jiaying's face showed relief, finally, at the last moment of her life, she was able to talk seriously to this man.Regarding watershed governance, they proposed a total of 16 articles and wrote about 200 pages. The theme is a water-saving society.Deng Jiaying took out almost everything she had learned and thought all her life, and the investigation materials she asked the deputy director Mao Yingsheng to bring later weighed dozens of catties.In order to come up with the report as soon as possible, she stubbornly kept Mao Yingsheng. Mao Yingsheng was worried about working in the office, saying that I will stay here with you, what should I do in the office?Deng Jiaying said angrily: "Cold salad!"

Mao Yingsheng knew that Deng Jiaying didn't dare to procrastinate and could not procrastinate. He had to submit the plan for building a water-saving society and a series of supporting measures to the province before his death.Several times, he wanted to stop Deng Jiaying, but he couldn't fight like this, he had to go back to the hospital.But when he saw Deng Jiaying's unstoppable eyes, he swallowed his words secretly.He finally couldn't bear it that day, and took advantage of the time when he went out for a walk with Qin Jizhou, and said, "I can't do this anymore, she is risking her life, it's cruel to do this." Qin Jizhou's steps suddenly stopped, as if I was shocked, but stood silently for a while, then suddenly turned around and asked Mao Yingsheng: "What do you think people are doing all their lives?" Mao Yingsheng stammered. Well, what he's worried about now is Deng Jiaying's illness.He had been to the hospital when he came here, and both the dean and the attending doctor said that Deng Jiaying could no longer work at all, no! "Then let me ask you again, are you an intellectual?" This question is easy to answer, Mao Yingsheng thought for a while and said: "Well, I dare not in front of your boss, but in the city, I am a small intellectual." "Never mind! Since it is, let me ask you again, what is the most important thing for an intellectual?" "Character." Mao Yingsheng did not hesitate. After answering, he puffed up his chest, a bit proud. "Wrong!" Qin Jizhou interrupted Mao Yingsheng unexpectedly, and said solemnly, "Truth, do you understand? There is only one thing for intellectuals to do in their lives, to seek the truth!" "Truth?" Now it was Mao Yingsheng's turn to be surprised.Based on Mao Yingsheng's experience and environment, he couldn't understand Qin Jizhou's words, and Qin Jizhou didn't let him understand the meaning. After speaking, he left Mao Yingsheng and went forward on his own, not far away. Suddenly stopped, turned around and said to Mao Yingsheng: "You think I don't know her situation, and don't know how to cherish life? You are wrong! Now is not the time to talk about this. You know better than me what she is going to do. We Let her be fulfilled. My old Qintou has never done a single right thing in his life, and this time I will do one!" As soon as the words fell to the ground, the shocked Mao Yingsheng didn't dare to say anything, and could only listen to him obediently.Immediately, there was an atmosphere on the reservoir, a very urgent atmosphere, and everyone was tacitly fighting for time and speed. Later, Deng Chaolu also participated, and it was her mentor Qin Jizhou who asked her to participate. "You can't hang around all day, just open some knots, no need to waste time on it, get involved right away, this project is your responsibility." "I'm in charge?" Deng Chaolu showed an expression of disbelief. The tutor has never asked her to take charge of any project. According to the tutor, the project is not something anyone can or dare to take responsibility for. First, be a good student and assistant. Only in the future will it be possible to stand alone.Deng Chaolu has worked in the research institute of Northern University for many years, and has experienced many projects. Those projects were either in charge of Qin Jizhou himself, or were led by the deputy director Zhang Yan. The tradition in the institute is that young people are rarely responsible for major projects. This is very different from the research center where Miao Yulan works.Deng Chaolu never expected that her mentor would let her take over the project so quickly, she was really flattered.But the instructor went on to say: "Don't be too happy too early. It's not a chance for you to become famous, but to let you experience the difficulties of doing projects. Remember one sentence, scientific research is not written on paper, but implemented in social practice. " Then he patted her on the shoulder and said in a very warm and touching tone: "We are old, it's time for you to take on the burden, let it go, take your mother's pen, and write down her unfulfilled wish Draw it." What else could Deng Chaolu say?Originally, she was still hesitant to stay in the gorge.My mother came out of grief. Although she was suffering from illnesses and was in danger of collapsing at any time, what could be more effective than making her work happier at this time?Watching her mother busy, Deng Chaolu had a deeper understanding of life and being alive.The teacher's wife was also encouraging her: "Xiao Lu, don't be polite, let alone be humble, you are all from your own family, why hesitate. You have been his student for several years, this time, let them serve you." The teacher's wife said After finishing, she was busy preparing food, and now she is also working as a cook.It's hard to imagine that the most revolutionary young woman on the reservoir and the female leader that people look up to can roll up their sleeves today and go into the kitchen to cook for them. Longfeng Gorge in early winter is filled with a strong heat.This place that had produced miracles in the first place was once again giving birth to miracles.Can a water-saving society really become a magical solution to the ecology of river basins? Deng Chaolu was completely involved. At the beginning, she was a little unconfident, and always asked her mother and mentor for advice. Qin Jizhou scolded her several times, but she was relieved and freed.Deng Chaolu never thought about what it takes to be in charge of a project, and only when she took over did she realize that her mentor's words were correct.People can't overestimate themselves, can't put everything in hypothetical, in enthusiasm.However, one cannot always be in the supporting role, one day you will be pushed to the leading role.So, what are you still hesitating about, just let it go.Once she let go, Deng Chaolu realized that her preparations were sufficient, solid, and able to withstand beatings.She has dared to argue with her mother and mentor, dared to overthrow their ideas, and spoke out her point of view with confidence.Fortunately, neither the mentor nor the mother underestimated her, especially the mother, who was willing to play a supporting role. They turned Longfeng Gorge into another battlefield, and the warehouse management office into a new scientific research center.The teacher's wife, Chu Ya, also walked out of the constant confession, appreciating the scene calmly.On this day, Chuya stood outside the window, looking at Deng Chaolu for a long time, watching so carefully and kindly, not letting go of a single detail.The early winter sun hit her body, making her body appear golden in the sun, her hair was neatly tied up with a beautiful knot at the back, and there was a rare smile on her face.Looking at it, a strange thought popped out, such a good child, I can't let her go to someone else, I have to... Chu Ya startled herself.She thought of her son Qin Yu, her son's sweet marriage with Wu Ruohan, and the secret about Deng Chaolu. Yes, secret. On the day when Miao Yulan chased after the reservoir, Deng Chaolu and the others had just come to an end. They analyzed the figures of the groundwater level drop in the entire river basin for nearly fifty years, and analyzed the various measures the government had taken in these years on river basin governance and soil and water conservation. The measures and the results obtained have also been studied one by one, analyzing and comparing the population growth in the basin, economic development model, crop cultivation, planting technology, farmland irrigation, agricultural and water conservancy facilities renovation, etc., and then compared with water consumption. Quantitative improvement for vertical comparison.He also made a professional analysis of the climate change of the river basin and the speed of glaciers disappearing in the past two decades, and used a series of data to confirm his point of view, that is, one-sided governance will only speed up the speed of the river basin's demise, because governance rebounds once, and the rebound is destructive. Far greater than constructive governance.Moreover, the short-term effect will not only cause policy incoherence, but also cause incoherence in ecological construction, which is fatal.In order to completely change the current situation, there is only one way, which is to make big efforts at the policy level, resolutely abandon the clumsy practice of treating the head and the foot, show the courage and courage to fight a protracted war, and regard river basin governance as a long-term and long-term goal. And systematic engineering. The plan basically took shape, and Deng Jiaying couldn't support it. During this time, she always stayed up late and worked overtime. She knew Qin Jizhou's good intentions, and she was more considerate of difficulties that others could not understand.Qin Jizhou is fully aware of his own problems. In the past few months in the river basin, his reflection has come to an end. He has a clear idea of ​​what is right and wrong about what he has insisted on all his life, but he just refuses to say it.Everyone has a face, not to mention Qin Jizhou, who lived under the halo when he was young, the person everyone looked up to, who was respected and promoted all his life, how could he bow his head so quickly?Deng Jiaying didn't force him, so who didn't miss it?Wrong, after waking up, you can continue to stand up straight and move forward. This is a tough guy.With the work these days, Deng Jiaying felt that Qin Jizhou was intentionally perfecting his daughter.Because Qin Jizhou had previously opposed and resisted many of the points of view in this co-authored project and report, he did not expect that this time he was completely supportive, especially the newer and bolder theories put forward by his daughter Deng Chaolu. They all doubted and hesitated to write it in, but Qin Jizhou resolutely stood by his daughter, without any hesitation, and encouraged her to say: "We can't always use authority to suppress people. What is authority? It's corruption, it's bureaucracy. Scientific research is not In terms of seniority, it is not about relying on the old to sell the old, but scientific research is to seek innovation and truth, and to dare to tell the truth." After speaking, he sighed and said: "We have told too many lies, and the lies have harmed us all our lives and the river basin. The next time, let's tell the truth." This time telling the truth, the plan was completely different immediately, and Deng Jiaying was excited and excited when he saw it.After working for a lifetime, this time I had a good time, and this time I got to the bottom of it.Moreover, Qin Jizhou clearly contributed many of his mature views and rethinking of the river basin to his daughter Deng Chaolu.His intention is very clear, to be a ladder, to give this important opportunity to Xiaolu! As an intellectual, Deng Jiaying couldn't accept this, but as a mother, there was another excitement in her heart.With Qin Jizhou like this, how could she dare to hold back?She became more and more desperate, wishing to give her daughter all that she had accumulated and learned in her life in a few days. She collapsed. Qin Jizhou insisted on letting her go to the hospital, the car was hailed, Deng Jiaying shook her head and said, "Don't let me leave, just let me stay by your side, I can't move, it's good to see you busy." Qin Jizhou looked at her insistence, I couldn't bear it anymore, and said to Deng Chaolu, "You try to persuade her, but I can't persuade her. In this life, she has never heard a word of advice from me." After saying this, Deng Jiaying almost shed tears again. Deng Chaolu decided not to persuade her mother anymore, not because she didn't feel sorry for her mother, but because she knew that her mother's life was very limited. She had fantasies, but fantasies could not save her mother.Fantasy didn't save Lu Bo, and it couldn't save his mother either, so he might as well rely on his mother.Now Deng Chaolu can only take a step back and think about it. This step is difficult and painful, but she can only retreat, because she can't convince her mother at all. "Let her sleep, don't go anywhere, I want to finish this work in front of her." Deng Jiaying listened with relief on his face. Unexpectedly, on the second day, Miao Yulan came to kill him.