Chapter 28 Chapter Twenty Eight

Time flies, winter is coming. This autumn is very long and very bleak.One after another, the yellow wind blows down the leaves, kills the flowers, dries up the grass, and dries up the earth. Many sad things happened this autumn, which made the already bleak autumn even more bleak. Lu Bo left. No one expected that Lu Bo, whose life was filled with suffering and misfortune, would leave the world in this way.During those days, Deng Chaolu's thinking was chaotic, he couldn't figure out what happened or what was going on, and he obeyed people's orders mechanically and numbly, doing this and that as they said.

Lu Bo was buried in Longfengxia, where the reservoir was built, at the foot of the barren mountain, sleeping the old secretary and the landlord Wudou.The place where Qin Yu and the others buried Lu Bo was next to the landlord Wu Dou.After Lubo died, two things happened.One is that Luoba led people to besiege the city government and demanded that the government severely punish the murderer.Naropa and the others changed the murderer into a murderer. There were almost 1,200 people who went with Naropa that day, including workers from the Zamu River water management department, and farmers from Xiying Township and Nanying Township. In short, there were a lot of people, and the streets of Gushui City were filled with blackness.Whoever sees that battle is afraid of it.

Wu Tianliang was not there, and it was the mayor who came out to stop the situation.But the mayor failed to stop the situation in the end, and it was Chuya who dragged Deng Chaolu to the scene. Chuya cried and begged Luoba, everyone, go back and stop making trouble. Let the dead go in peace.Of course Luoba didn't listen, and until now, no leader of the Qilian Group has come forward to make amends to the deceased, not even a single apology, but they are reasonable enough to believe that Lu Bo took the villagers to steal.Especially the boss, Mr. Tian, ​​who has not revealed his face until now, and went abroad for inspection.Deng Chaolu's eyes were swollen that day, he was swollen from crying for Lu Bo, and his heart was also swollen.Lu Bo left, but before he left, he unexpectedly failed to take a look at her, and did not say the last word to her.

He's gone, gone.Deng Chaolu had these words in his mind all day long, with a dazed expression and a haggard face, turning a blind eye to everything that happened around him.Later, it was Chuya who begged her: "Xiaolu, just say something, they all listen to you, there is no need to make such a fuss, it is very unnecessary, I can't bear others to disturb him, let him go quietly." Her performance confused everyone, she was a different person from the previous Chu Ya.When people were grateful for her affection for Lu Bo, they also wondered what changed her and made her suddenly have such a sincere friendship for her former partner.During the days when Lu Bo passed away, Chu Ya was almost busy organizing everything, running back and forth, and handling all chores.Once she was free, she immediately entered another state, sitting quietly on the stone chair in the mortuary, her eyes were dark gray, and the inside was vast and covered with fog-like things.

It is history, it is the past, it is the life of a generation. It is suffering, and the indissoluble bond formed in the suffering, the feeling of no regret. Deng Chaolu understood.Although she was in a trance and in a state of uncertainty, she understood, really understood.She listened to what Chuya said, and at this moment she had to be obedient, walked up, and said to the emotional Luoba: "Let everyone go back, everyone has worked hard enough, I am here to thank you, thank you." Loba bowed.This bow frightened Luoba, and in Luoba's heart, Deng Chaolu was holy, an angel, the moon, and the most beautiful woman on the grassland.

"Two lives, that's it?" Luoba seemed very hesitant. During this time, he kept running for Lu Bo and the old party secretary Zhang Xingru, but his running was ineffective.It was only then that Naropa realized that human hearts are not all precious stones. In this world, many people's hearts are made of wolffang stone. "Go back to Luoba, don't make a fuss, don't want to say anything, people are gone, what's the use of talking? I just want Uncle Lu to be buried as soon as possible, and let him go to heaven." Let him go to heaven!Naropa suddenly shouted at the crowd, then waved his hands, and turned around resolutely, those "stupid waves" and "hands-on-the-walls" actually listened to him.While the city government officials were panicked and overwhelmed, the crowd gradually dispersed, and the turmoil subsided just like that.

On the day of the funeral, many people came.Except for Lu Bo's former friends and colleagues, the Mao-Tibet Plateau and Zamu River had the most people coming.Everyone lined up spontaneously and followed behind the coffin.The hearse departed from the provincial capital, along the river, along the mountains, and headed towards Longfeng Gorge.When he arrived at the Mao-Tibet Plateau, Naropa let go of his voice, imitating his father, and began to "call the mountain".His voice was high and low, with regular ups and downs, deep and majestic, with a unique sadness.Floating in the mountains, it is particularly powerful.Those authentic "Bawo" and authentic "Benbo" followed his example and shouted in unison.

The earth immediately entered another state, as if the entire mountain range was whirling with a sound, a power. When the hearse approached Longfeng Gorge, he saw a man standing on the reservoir dam holding white mountain flowers in his hands.The pale autumn sun shone on him, making his old age a little more tragic. That was Qin Jizhou.This old man, who had been missing for three months, appeared in this way at this moment. The funeral procession saw him, and so did Chuya.After Lu Bo's death, the couple who had been arguing for a lifetime showed a series of surprises one after another, as if Lu Bo's death had awakened them, more like Lu Bo's departure had given them some kind of thorough understanding.Actually no, Deng Chaolu only found out after a long time that people of their generation kept many things in their hearts and didn't show it.What they show is often the opposite of them, but their real heart is in another place.

It's raining.The Qilian Mountains, which had been dry for a long time, actually started to rain that day.In the drizzle, Deng Chaolu saw that her teacher's mother, Chuya, walked over and hugged her mentor like an old tree.Two people with gray hair, holding back tears, walked behind Lu Bo.After Lu Bo was buried and the others retreated, Deng Chaolu saw that Qin Jizhou, who had always been proud, was the first to bend down, knelt on the ground, and lit the paper money. The rain hit the paper money and it was not easy to light it. Qin Jizhou took off his clothes, Hold it like an umbrella and strike a match.He looked at the new tomb and said: "Old Road, you are here, you are walking in front of me again. Well, you go there first, wait for me, wait for me, I have a lot of debts to you Do it, do it, do it, do it.”

It rained heavily, crackling.The people who haven’t seen the rain for a long time are a little excited, which is not in harmony with the atmosphere of the funeral, but it’s okay. In the sound of the pattering rain, the teacher’s mother Chu Ya also knelt down. On the husband, burst into tears. The cry was so loud that it shook the whole mountain and field.In grief, Deng Chaolu turned her eyes away. In the drizzle, the mountains, the sky, and the earth were changing.The mountain, which was withered and yellow by the autumn wind, suddenly became fresh at that moment, and the mountain and the sky formed a line, extending into the distance.The dam built by the previous generations looked at her in a different attitude, and also at the people who came to mourn.

Suddenly, Deng Chaolu saw the water, the rolling Longshui River, surging with turbulent waves.Those who struggled in the waves were her mother, her teacher's wife, her mentor Qin Jizhou, and the landlord Wudou.But she couldn't see Uncle Lu, really couldn't.Deng Chaolu panicked and called out Lu Bo's name. It's still raining.In the rain, teacher Chu Ya and mentor Qin Jizhou still stood silently in front of Lu Bo's grave, refusing to leave.The rain wet their hair and their clothes. Qin Yu offered an umbrella, but his father silently rejected it.The two stood as a statue, so stubborn and willful. Lu Bo's death dealt a fatal blow to Deng Chaolu.Although the mother woke up within a few days after Lu Bo left, her heart was never clear again.The rain that fell on Longfeng Gorge completely drenched her heart. Deng Jiaying seemed to have sensed it. After sleeping in the hospital bed for so many days, the first thing she said when she woke up was to ask, "Where's Uncle Lu, why can't you see him?" Deng Chaolu turned his face away, not daring to face his mother.Every day I wished for my mother to wake up, but when my mother really woke up, she didn't dare to look at her. Deng Jiaying seemed to have slept for a long time, rubbed her eyes, and asked again: "Lu, where is this? How long have I been sleeping? Why have I been dreaming? I dreamed about your Uncle Lu. He fell into the river." , Wudou failed to catch him this time, quickly, call him, I want to see him." Deng Chaolu couldn't bear it anymore. For so many nights, she stayed by her mother's side, calling her mother and Uncle Lu at the same time.So many nights, she looked at her mother, who seemed to be asleep and refused to wake up, and said over and over again, Mom, Uncle Lu is gone, he went to the foot of Iron Cabinet Mountain, and slept in the place where you built the reservoir back then.She had made up her mind that even if her mother woke up, she would never mention Uncle Lu's matter.But this time, the embankment in her heart seemed to be blown away by a huge force, she couldn't resist it, and the tears kept falling like dropped beads.Under her mother's repeated questioning, she finally choked up her throat, and while calling her mother, she said, "Uncle, he...Uncle, he..." "What happened to you, Uncle Lu?!" Deng Jiaying, who had just woken up, seemed to realize something, stood up suddenly, and grabbed Deng Chaolu's shoulder, "Say, what happened to you, Uncle Lu?!" "Mom, Uncle Lu is gone!" Deng Chaolu finally gritted his teeth, as if exhausting all his strength, and said the sentence that shouldn't be said. Deng Jiaying was discharged from the hospital decisively. No one could stop her, and whoever stopped her would risk her life.Crazy, really crazy.After lying on the hospital bed for nearly a month, she started a surge, which was more difficult to stop than a healthy person.Lubo is gone, Lubo is gone!This voice came out again and again, making her manic and restless.How could she care about her own illness? No matter how the hospital objected, she would not listen. She insisted on going her own way, as if staying in the hospital for one more day would bring the end of the world. Deng Chaolu did not stop this time.Life can teach people a lot. Suffering makes people mature and makes people know all about life.Deng Chaolu knew that her mother's time in this world was running out, and she couldn't hide this from herself.During the time in the hospital, she communicated with many doctors, and secretly took her mother's medical records to other hospitals for consultation. In the middle, she asked the Frenchman Paul to pass the medical records to France for further diagnosis.There is hardly a hospital, and there is not a doctor who does not sigh at my mother's illness, and everyone answers her by shaking their heads.After losing Uncle Lu, Deng Chaolu took life and death less seriously and was less afraid than before.People always have to leave. No one can stay in this world forever. Uncle Lu will, mother will, and she will too in the future.So, while you are alive, let your mother do something she wants to do.She said to her mother: "Let's go, Mom, my daughter listens to you, we are not doing useless work here, we go out, no matter where we go, even if it is the end of the world, my daughter will accompany you." Deng Jiaying hugged her daughter, the pain in her heart could dry up her life's tears, but she was so happy, so content, and so sweet! Oh, Longfeng Gorge.Oh, Lubo.People are still walking on the road, but Deng Jiaying's heart has already flown to Longfeng Gorge. At the end of autumn, Longfeng Gorge is full of chills. The late autumn rain did not bring vitality to the canyon. On the contrary, the canyon after the rain was more desolate and empty.The leaves of the trees have already fallen in the autumn wind, leaving only dry and yellow branches. On the flat ground on both sides of the valley, the grass has turned withered, and the river is covered with chaotic rocks like trapped animals.There used to be a cement factory downstream, but it closed down at some point, leaving only dilapidated factory buildings and a few tall chimneys.Among the rubble like ruins, a few stray dogs pricked up their ears vigilantly, for fear that other animals would suddenly invade the home they thought they had.The sun hanging high in the blue sky also seemed to have collapsed, pouring down a feeble light.There were clouds, moving slowly from the top of Iron Cabinet Mountain, trying to cover the sun, but they couldn't. The wind blows and it disperses. Two old cows were swinging at the foot of the mountain. They were very thin and obviously couldn't eat delicious grass, but they couldn't bear to give up this open land.In their memory, this area was once beautiful with fertile water and grass. Qin Jizhou and Chu Ya didn't leave. After Lu Bo was buried, everyone else went back to where they should go. Qin Jizhou didn't leave. He agreed with the old Zhangtou of the reservoir management office, and the old Zhangtou vacated two rooms for him, one for him. One for sleeping and one for office.What kind of business did he do? He was buried in a pile of yellowed materials all day long, and suddenly said that he wanted to find out the truth about the explosion of rocks when he went up the mountain, and then he said that he wanted to find out the reason for his dizziness.The group of young people in the warehouse management office thought he was crazy and suffered from senile delusions, but the old man thought he was not crazy, so he provided convenience for him and let him toss about on his own. "I'm old, and I can still struggle for a few days. Let him fulfill his unfulfilled wish. People can't leave with regrets." The old Zhangtou said to those employees who were curious about Qin Jizhou while patting the dirt on his body. Chuya has completely changed. In this eventful autumn, Chuya has undergone the biggest change.In people's memories before, Chu Ya was unruly, unreasonable, fierce, and domineering.Especially the relationship with Qin Jizhou, almost a lifetime of tension, very tense, never possible to ease.When her husband Qin Jizhou left the scientific research institute, Chu Ya was in no hurry when he was scurrying around the river basin like a ghost.She told others that she was too lazy to argue with him anymore, after arguing all her life, what was the point of arguing, why not just let him have a fight as much as he wants.Her in-laws, Wu Tianliang, who thought they knew her well, approached her specifically for this matter, and asked her to treat Lao Qin better for the sake of being a husband and wife for most of her life. "We are all people who have come from suffering. Now that we are finally able to enjoy some blessings, let's not toss about, let's take care of each other and live the rest of the day well. No matter how bad it is, we have to think about the children. In a flash, They are all married and start a business, think of us as parents, and have not set an example for them, so be honest and don't make trouble for them." Wu Tianliang's words are true, who can say otherwise, their generation really did not set an example for the children, and it is really unreasonable to add chaos.After hearing this, Chuya didn't appreciate it. She was not a person who appreciated it in her bones. Her rigid face once again showed the arrogance of her youth, and she replied lukewarmly to Wu Tianliang: "I can't be a role model, and I won't add to the chaos." , But in this life, there are many things that people don’t understand, more confused, less sober, Lao Qin wants to grasp the tail of the years and understand the things he doesn’t understand, I understand him in this regard.” "Understand him?" Wu Tianliang felt that Chuya was incredible, a woman who never thought of her husband in memory, a woman who was always centered on herself, would understand a man? Chuya saw Wu Tianliang's thoughts, and smiled: "Old Wu, don't be angry if you say something that shouldn't be said, and don't compare me with your Yulan, it's incomparable, there's no comparison, let's see Look like, but just like, but there is a difference between us as human beings, and you don’t understand the difference.” "Don't understand?" Wu Tianliang was confused by these words. In his eyes, Chu Ya and Miao Yulan were just like the same mold.Treat work like, treat friends like, treat your own husband, more like.But Chu Ya suddenly said that it didn't look like it, and Wu Tianliang couldn't understand why it wasn't like it. "Forget it, it's useless to talk about it. Tell me, how long do you have to work in the secretary's position? Do you not give yourself any time?" Chu Ya's words contained some kind of metaphor, but unfortunately Wu Tianliang didn't understand. Wu Tianliang was still like when he was young, he liked to be straightforward in everything, and his words were straightforward, even though he had been an official for many years, he had also told lies for many years , but this kind of metaphor is very strong, I still can't understand it. It doesn't matter if you don't understand, Chu Ya didn't expect anyone to understand.Most of the time, Chu Ya talks to herself, and she hides from herself.This uncomplicated woman suddenly became complicated and unfathomable in the past autumn.Qin Jizhou disappeared, and she was too lazy to ask, let alone look for it, as if there was no such person in the world.The daughter-in-law Wu Ruohan caused such a big incident, her in-laws, Miao Yulan, would come to her every now and then, first trying to please her with a friendly face, and trying to put Wu Ruohan's affairs aside peacefully.Seeing that her favor was not as easy as before, and it seemed that this matter would not be easily let go, Miao Yulan had no choice but to turn her face, and changed her tone to criticize Qin Yu.After denouncing and denouncing her, she still had a cold face and completely lost the enthusiasm and acquaintance she had before.Miao Yulan knew that the decades of friendship between them were gone. Later, Miao Yulan had to tear her face apart and ran in front of her to make a scene.Being noisy is always a woman's ability. When a woman encounters a problem that cannot be solved but must be solved, the best and most stupid way is to make noise.Miao Yulan quarreled and quarreled, scolding many things that should not be scolded, very vicious.She tore up a lot of the past that shouldn't be torn apart, and almost opened a bottle that she and Chu Ya had guarded together for so many years, letting out many mysterious and dark secrets inside.Even so, Chuya took forbearance.This time, Chu Ya's endurance was really super strong, so strong that Miao Yulan couldn't imagine it, and she couldn't even imagine it herself.Miao Yulan resorted to 18 kinds of martial arts, but still failed to win Chuya a word about Wu Ruohan, Miao Yulan collapsed: "I'm stupid, I always thought that I had a heart-to-heart relationship with you, the closest friend in the world." Yes, I just found out today that we have never had a heart-to-heart relationship at all, cheating, it's all cheating!" Is it really cheating?For many days, Chu Ya was thinking about this question, but she couldn't get the answer, and Chu Ya couldn't get the answer to many things.She also asked herself more than once, is this life with Qin Jizhou worth it for her?Was she wrong or right about her son Qin Yu's marriage? Thinking of the end, Chuya thought of one person: Deng Jiaying! Chu Ya finally understood that in this life, she lived in the shadow of this person, all her efforts, all her quarrels, all her calculations, worries, fears, and hatreds were all for this person!The silent Chuya is actually painful, which is more uncomfortable than death... Until one day, with great confusion and pain, she quietly went up the mountain.She wanted to see Lu Bo, and she had this idea very early on. Chu Ya felt that only Lu Bo could open up so many knots in her heart, and only Lu Bo could have the answer to so many secrets.But she didn't dare to take action, it's difficult, every time she thinks about the past and what happened in those years, Chuya hesitates and dare not move forward.She tried to dial Lu Bo's phone many nights, dialed half, or even two or three numbers, but dared not dial any more.Ashamed of him, people can't do bad things, and if they do it, they will never be able to be justified for the rest of their lives.But during those days, Chu Ya didn't want to hesitate any more. If she hesitated again, she would lose her chance in this life. She had to see him, even if he splashed tea on her face, rejected her, even drove her down the mountain , she wants to see you too! In the office and bedroom at the Zamu River Water Pipe Department, Chu Ya finally saw Lu Bo, who was old, old.Unexpectedly, Lu Bo greeted her like an old friend, and kept saying, how can you come here in person on this far mountain road, make a phone call, and just go down the mountain?These words made Chu Ya warm, and the burden was unloaded at once.She stared at Lu Bo, and Lu Bo also stared at her, their eyes met, then avoided, touched again, and avoided again, and repeated this for a long time before Lu Bo said: "Sit down, I really don't care. Come to think of it, you can still come." Sometimes, the wall in our hearts is assumed by ourselves. We always think that it cannot be pushed down or removed, but in fact we are blocked by ourselves.The heart is as heavy as the wall is thick.All the walls in the world can be removed, it depends on whether we move with our heart or with our hands. On this day, Chu Ya completely let go of some things, thanks to Lu Bo, who made her let go calmly.The room was full of tolerance and peace, Lu Bo was like a yellow sponge, able to suck up all the misfortunes and embarrassments, and then squeezed out clear water, allowing Chuya to see transparency and cleanliness.Yes, the biggest root cause of our tiring and miserable lives is that our hearts are not clean.By clearing the mind of impurities and garbage, we gain the innocence of a child.Chuya laughed that night, even though she was talking about a very serious matter, she still smiled happily.This smile has been away from her for decades, decades. That night, on the mountain where the chill was already coming, Chu Ya had a long talk with Lu Bo all night amidst the rushing sound of the Zamu River.They walked out of the house, stepped on the grass that was about to dry up, bathed in the night wind, and walked along the Zamu River.Along that river, they seemed to have walked their lives all over again. What they couldn't see clearly in the past was illuminated by the moonlight that night.Things that had shells in the past were broken by the autumn wind that night.The pimples and dead pimples that could not be untied in the past were also washed away by the river water that night.And the solid wall erected high in Chuya's heart was eventually pushed down by Lu Bo. Yes, there is a wall in Chuya's heart. The wall blocks her sight and confines her thoughts. In her decades of life, she only sees darkness and cannot see a little sunshine. This is what Lubo said.After Lu Bo finished telling the story of the past and then Deng Jiaying, he finally said to her: "You are narrow-minded, but you can't even talk about it. At least you are more broad-minded than Miao Yulan. You can't talk about selfishness, either. You are not a selfish person. Living today, you should also know what is wrong in this life, and you can’t get along with yourself. A poisonous weed has been planted in your heart long ago, and others can pull it out. You can’t pull it out, and you will die Irrigate and fertilize it, let it grow fiercely. You are being bullied by it, don’t you know?” People are afraid that they won't wake up. Once they wake up, they will become different. It's a pity that this day came too late. Lu Bo had an accident a few days after meeting her. How could Chu Ya not be in a hurry when she heard the news?Reminiscent of her urgency a few days ago, Chu Ya even thought, could this be God's will, a kind of foreknowledge? Chu Ya didn't dare to think about it. Chuya didn't leave the reservoir or Tieguishan because she had eased her relationship with Qin Jizhou. It wasn't so fast. Three feet of ice is hard to freeze and even harder to thaw. It really takes time to melt.She is for Lu Bo, a person who just stopped hating in his heart, a tolerant and relentless person, who just performed spiritual healing for her, but bid farewell to her forever.How could Chuya accept this cruel reality, her heart had been awakened by Lu Bo, after decades of cold ice was touched by his weather-beaten hands, she felt warm, but the person who warmed her and tolerated her didn't say hello Go ahead of her. Longfeng Gorge at the end of autumn echoes endless repentance, as well as the remembrance of the living for the dead.Chu Ya, who never dared to face the past, finally had the strength to face her own past. Those days and nights in Longfeng Gorge jumped out over and over again, resurrecting her and hurting her.She saw her young self, her confused self.I also saw the love growing on the dam, and they who suspected and hurt each other in love. Lubo was right. "The three of you, if you don't meet together, you might be good people, and you won't live such a hard life. The fault is that you met, and..." Lu Bo didn't finish the rest of the sentence, but Chu Ya I understand, how can I not understand, how many absurd things happened in those absurd years, under this mountain and in front of this dam when they were young. What's even more absurd is that apart from Deng Jiaying, she and Miao Yulan actually regarded hatred as a treasure, kept it in their arms for a lifetime, and then terribly sowed the seeds of hatred in the hearts of the children, allowing them to continue the absurdity. How can people be confused for such a long time, how can they stay dark in a well for a lifetime? Chu Ya finally admitted that the reason why she wanted her son Qin Yu to marry Wu Ruohan, whom she didn't like, was to get revenge on Deng Jiaying and Qin Jizhou, so stupid, so stupid.She killed her son, and also her family.Her heart turned out to be so dark and sinister.For the first time, Chuya discovered that under the mother's love, there is also a lot of dirt hidden.Miao Yulan came to her door, it wasn't that she didn't want to talk, what else could she say?A slap on her face hurts her.During Miao Yulan's hysterical abuse and sarcasm, what Chu Ya thought was how to make up for this matter, how to forgive the crimes committed against her son! Chu Ya, who is in her fifties, stays in Longfeng Gorge and refuses to leave. Whether she is chasing Sibo or avoiding herself, even she can't tell. What people are most afraid of is facing themselves, especially their own conscience. Qin Jizhou was willing to face it. In the past two months, Qin Jizhou traveled to many places, almost all the places where he sweated when he was young.Standing on the dams, he asked himself first, not why the water here is less, no, or dry, he is constantly whipping, what did I do, what did I say, why did I do that?After asking and asking, Qin Jizhou made himself cry, with tears running down his face.Desolate tears hit the old face, causing sharp pain.It turned out that from then on, he ruined his life. Ruined! In the rest of the time, Qin Jizhou will do one thing, repair the river!He is treating himself like a river, clearing away the silt and taking away the pebbles.He wanted the river to return to its original appearance, and the water in the river was clear, transparent, and flowing happily, but there was too much silt, and he couldn't clean it.He originally wanted to invite Lu Bo, two people who have been fighting for a lifetime, fight again, and the fight will come to an end, and the fight will lead to a clear understanding.Without thinking, Lu Bo left without waiting for him. This old right, he actually left!Qin Jizhou hated and regretted in his heart, and felt that his energy was much less.But after the severe pain passed, Qin Jizhou understood a lot.He said to Chuya: "People always have to leave. Look, Wudou and the others have slept for how many years, and the old secretary has slept for how many years. In a few years, we will all sleep here, sleep here." Chu Ya was unmoved.Regardless of whether Qin Jizhou was laughing at herself in desperation or relieved after seeing it through, she always showed one word: cold.Chu Ya didn't say anything to Qin Jizhou, but Qin Jizhou wanted to tell her about the past and ask her something she didn't know before. No, Chu Ya, she kept silent, as if she wanted to completely imprison the past in her heart. One person chews and enjoys alone, but every time she thinks deeply, she can't help but grab Qin Jizhou's arm very firmly, for fear that if he lets go, Qin Jizhou will leave him. Chu Ya was still afraid in her heart.Fear of this word is quite torturous. These days, Chuya has put herself in the freezer, no matter what she thinks or sees, she always chills, trembles, and trembles uncontrollably.This woman who had been proud all her life finally lowered her head to see how the stone hit the sole of her foot, and how the wild thorn pierced the bottom of her trousers and pierced into her flesh.The once domineering posture was blown away by the mountain wind overnight.It wasn't until Deng Jiaying and Deng Chaolu came to the gorge that her withered face came alive.