Chapter 12 Chapter Twelve

The lights in the ward were dim, and the strong smell of Lysol made me want to vomit, but I couldn't vomit.The other two patients in the same room were already asleep, but Deng Jiaying couldn't fall asleep anyway. This is the second ward of the Provincial Cancer Hospital.A week ago, Deng Jiaying was transferred from the Provincial First People's Hospital.On the day she fell ill, Miao Yulan and Chu Ya were enthusiastically arranging the wedding for their children, but Deng Jiaying locked herself at home for more than ten days.That romantic turmoil completely knocked her down, Deng Jiaying not only felt ashamed, but destroyed, the feeling of the world falling into despair.Deng Jiaying felt that she had already died once, but unfortunately Lu Bo pulled her back from death again and forced her to go to the hospital.In the end, Lu Bo knew nothing.

Can't hide it from him.Why can't you hide anything from him? She begged Lu Bo bitterly, let me go, I can't stand the smell of the hospital, I want to go out, I don't want to be a patient.Lu Bo didn't say anything. In fact, his mind was already blank. When a lot of diagnostic certificates were in front of him, how could Lu Bo sort himself out? There was only one thought in his mind, it's over, it's over.So he ran upstairs and downstairs without any direction, shouting at the doctors and nurses at the top of his voice.His madness surprised the doctors and nurses, as well as the patients in the same ward.Everyone regarded him as Deng Jiaying's husband, and the middle-aged woman in the 23rd bed on the left was already complaining about Deng Jiaying, saying, "Your husband is really good at calling, and the building will collapse if you call again."These words obviously contained dissatisfaction.None of the people living here are satisfied with others. They can't bear their own pain, so how can they have the strength to bear the pain of others.

This pain can only be borne by Deng Jiaying herself. Later, she begged Lu Bo with a bitter face, please don't tell others, I beg you, please don't tell others, especially Xiaolu. Lu Bo finally came to his senses, and nodded in agreement with tears in his eyes. At this time, Deng Jiaying could no longer have other fantasies, and could only obediently follow the doctor's instructions and "actively" treat her.The doctor told her to take chemotherapy first to control the condition, and then surgery.Her breast was going to be cut off, and there was no better way than this. The doctor said that if the disease could not be controlled, the other one would also be cut off.

Cut it, cut it.Deng Jiaying closed her eyes in pain.At this time, she didn't have the concept of breasts in her mind. The pair of babies who had accompanied her all her life suddenly brought such a heavy burden to her, making her at a loss as to what to do.She can only ask herself pitifully, how many days are left in my life, can I last until the day Xiaolu gets married? The word "marriage" stimulated her again. Although Lu Bo kept silent about the marriage of the two children of the Wu family and the Qin family, Deng Jiaying still strongly felt what was going on around her. At this moment, her daughter was going through a crisis just like her. torture.

Maybe this is fate? Suddenly, she attributed this to fate.The past events from more than 30 years ago are rolling in, and it can no longer be stopped. With a bang, her memories that have been dusty for many years are washed away. Youth, dreams, and love rush towards her... More than 30 years ago, Deng Jiaying finished high school in Longshan County. If it weren't for the unprecedented movement, it is very likely that she would have gone to college.Deng Jiaying always wanted to go to university, and didn't want to nest in the valley called Dengjiashan, but fate played tricks on her.Along with her, Miao Yulan, a classmate, went back to her hometown to become an educated youth.She was eighteen that year, and Miao Yulan was nineteen years older than her.Her father was the secretary of the Dengjiashan brigade, and Miao Yulan did not show weakness. Her uncle was the director of the commune's revolutionary committee at the time.

During the time when she returned to her hometown, Deng Jiaying was always worried about her future, and she was doing nothing all day long, feeling very anxious.There is much to be done in the vast world, but she can't find a place to do much.Miao Yulan was in a hurry, and she took part in sports as soon as she returned to her hometown. The two of them in school couldn't tell each other apart, and they were very tight in every aspect.As soon as she returned to her hometown, Miao Yulan's advantages became apparent. In the autumn of that year, Longfengxia suddenly wanted to build a reservoir. This was the call from the higher-ups, saying that they wanted to build water conservancy and change the rivers and mountains.It seemed that overnight, thousands of people from the five brigades of the two communes gathered in the gorge five kilometers away from Dengjiashan.On the construction site, red flags were waving, and slogans were so loud that they were posted everywhere.The eight characters "Water conservancy is the lifeblood of agriculture" were erected with stones on the halfway up Longshou Mountain overnight.For that big battle, Deng Jiaying didn't feel a little bit at first, feeling that she was involved in it abruptly.You can't help yourself when you get involved, and neither can anyone else.Before I figured out why the reservoir was built and what to do with the reservoir, I was already passionately involved in it.Thinking about it later, Deng Jiaying felt that people are actually monsters, who like to be driven away by some kind of force, and prefer to chase waves in a swarm.

Yes, waves. Deng Jiaying's mind was full of the scenes of the reservoir being built that year. She saw batch after batch of people, including the landlord Wudou, the rich peasant Liu Erhan, and several experts from the Water Conservancy Bureau who had just been labeled as rightists and underwent labor reform. , among them was the young Lubo.There is also the half-blind militia battalion commander who dangled around the construction site with a gun all day long and was uncomfortable when he picked up the handle of the gun and hit people.By the way, the half-blind man is the son of Uncle Miao Yulan. The half-blind man and his father helped Miao Yulan a lot to become the captain of the Iron Girl.There was also Wu Tianliang, a technician sent by the city, and Liu Zhenshan, then secretary of the Longshan County Party Committee.The faces poured out kindly, blurring her vision at once.Finally, a person clearly appeared in the line of sight, that person was refreshing and transparent, so different from the people in the mountains.But in a brutal, savage, almost domineering way, he took away her girl's heart mercilessly.

Qin Jizhou, you thief, thief, stole my heart! Deng Jiaying began to cry. Qin Jizhou must have been in his twenties that year, so young and handsome, tall and big, with a young and strong body, standing on the reservoir construction site, he could be recognized at a glance.Everyone else was ashamed, but this young teacher from the provincial capital was clean-dressed and full of heroic spirit.What Deng Jiaying remembers most deeply is that Qin Jizhou always wears a white shirt, no matter whether it is winter or summer, the collar is always washed white.That whiteness can reach people's hearts, and can suppress all the colors in the world.

So, in Deng Jiaying's heart, there was only that kind of color left.That touch of white abruptly filled her girl's heart. Which girl is not pregnant?Meeting such a unique and outstanding man, can Deng Jiaying control her heart? I can't help but have more. Qin Jizhou was a talented student at Tsinghua University, and was assigned to Northern University after graduation.At that time Qin Jizhou was young, crazy, full of passion and full of vigor.Coincidentally, in such an era again, Qin Jizhou was like a fish in water, and his heart was extremely excited.Young and energetic, he no longer wants to stay in the campus peacefully. He wants to come to a wider world and do something vigorously.The Longfengxia Reservoir has fulfilled him, and the Shiyang River has fulfilled him.

Shooting was the biggest thing that year.Deng Jiaying's father, Deng Yuansen, was in charge of blasting the mountain that year, and took rocks from Longshou Mountain.But in that year, Longshou Mountain seemed to be trying to compete, and the blasting failed repeatedly. It was either a dumb gun or a dead gun. Within a month of entering the construction site, five people were killed on the mountain, all of them were gunners. Deng Yuansen found Liu Zhenshan, secretary of the county party committee, and said, "No way, if the bombing continues like this, the stone will not roll down, but my people will disappear one by one."Liu Zhenshan murmured, the five lives had already made this native Longshan hesitant, they were all his township party members, and they were raised by his father and mother anyway, he couldn't go on like this, he had to think of a way to adjust.Liu Zhenshan raised his head, and for the first time set his eyes on the mountain in front of him with melancholy.That mountain is very much like a giant dragon, coming from afar, suddenly jumping up above his head, just like a giant dragon suddenly raised its head.The dragon head was so realistic that even a non-superstitious person like him believed it at this time.There are many strange rocks on the mountain, and strange stones appear one after another. At the longan and the dragon's mouth, several towering stone pillars are strangely erected, which are said to be formed by the accumulation of thousands of years of dragon tears.When it was decided to build this reservoir, many people in the county opposed it, saying that the Longfeng Gorge must not be moved, and it would hurt the dragon's veins.Once the dragon's veins are injured, the entire canyon will be over.As the secretary of the county party committee, Liu Zhenshan certainly didn't believe this, nor would he allow others to believe it.But there is a lack of stones in the river, and there is no means of transportation to transport them from other places to the gorge, and the policy does not allow it.At that time, who dared to say the word "difficult", let alone said that there was no way to solve it.There are people who have everything, man will conquer the sky.However, there are not many people who can shoot cannons in the mountains, and the county lacks professional gunners.Two years ago when we built a reservoir in another canyon, we killed many people who knew how to fire cannons. This time, except for two professional gunners, those who were transferred to the construction site of Longfengxia Reservoir were all learning now and doing it for a few days. He was sent to the mountain.I thought that the stone would not stump the revolutionary masses, but I didn't expect it to become a stumbling block and a stumbling block.

what to do?Liu Zhenshan was troubled in his heart.The general battle on the construction site has already started, and there is no way to stop, and the Gushui District Committee has clearly stipulated the time to build a dam within half a year to stop the rushing river, and then go to another construction site. The task assigned by the prefectural committee to the county that year was to build three reservoirs a year, three. Just when Liu Zhenshan didn't know what to say, Qin Jizhou's voice asking for a fight came from behind him: "I'll go, I don't believe that I can't blow up a stone!" This was said very easily, Liu Zhenshan turned to look at Qin Jizhou, and said nothing.Qin Jizhou added: "I suspect it's not a technical problem, but an ideological problem. How can there be so many technologies in blasting mountains and removing rocks?" Deng Yuansen on the side was not used to hearing it, and glared angrily at this little intellectual from the provincial capital, and said, "Go away, what nonsense are you adding!" These words choked Qin Jizhou.Qin Jizhou was welcomed by the people of Longshan with drums and gongs, and the leaders of the prefectural committee even dressed him in red and flowers.As the first college graduate in the provincial capital to give up his comfortable life and dedicate himself to the vast countryside, his deeds were widely publicized that year.The newspapers reported at length, and the radio broadcast his news every day.When he arrived at the Longfengxia construction site, he was even more highly regarded.Ma Yongqian, director of the County Revolutionary Committee and commander-in-chief of the Longfengxia Reservoir, admired him very much, set him up as a banner, and entrusted him with a heavy responsibility to be in charge of the technical work of the dam. Wu Tianliang, a technician in the county, also had to listen to him.After being choked, Qin Jizhou was of course not happy. No one could extinguish his revolutionary passion, so he went up the mountain without saying a word. At this time, a yellow flag was lit on the mountain. The yellow flag was a signal, telling the mountain that it was going to fire again. .Deng Yuansen rushed over a few steps and grabbed him: "Do you want to die? If you want to die, I can't bear the responsibility." He yelled at the people behind him, and Qin Jizhou was forcibly taken to the side of the dam. This matter greatly stimulated Qin Jizhou, and then he handed a report to Ma Yongqian.Before dark that day, a red list was posted on the construction site, appealing to all the poor, lower-middle peasants and young commune members in the construction site, asking everyone to actively sign up, go to the mountains, and go to places where they are most needed. Some people scolded this trick as bad, but more people were called and encouraged. Miao Yulan was the first to register. At that time, she was competing with Deng Jiaying for the captain of the Iron Girls team.Wu Tianliang also signed up, but he had to report. Anyone who did not report his thoughts would have problems.Immediately afterwards, all the young men and women reported, and even the four types of elements under control on the construction site rushed to the front of the red list. Deng Jiaying remembered very clearly that there were only two people on the construction site who didn't report that year, one was Wudou, the landlord of their village, and the other was a weird middle-aged man.The other was Lu Bo, who was an old rightist at the time, a reactionary academic authority, and a person who wore a high hat. Time seems to have returned to the late autumn of 1970. The grass on the mountain has withered and yellowed, and the iron cabinet mountain in the south of the construction site has been covered with fallen leaves, and the mountain has become another color.On the opposite side of the mountain, thousands of people gathered together, and a special mobilization meeting was being held. Just as Ma Yongqian finished speaking, Qin Jizhou jumped onto the stage.He waved his arms, first took the lead in shouting a few slogans, and then talked about firing cannons.He said that firing cannons is like removing dust. Chairman Mao said that if the broom does not fall, the dust will not escape by itself.The same is true for firing cannons. If the gunner does not go up, the stone will not fall by itself.As long as we have the belief that we will win, no difficulty can frighten us. There were cheers from the audience.Those men and women on the construction site that year, as long as they were young, wanted to hear Qin Jizhou speak, and all wanted to see Qin Jizhou throw his arms and shout slogans.Deng Jiaying huddled in the crowd. She could have stood in a more conspicuous place, such as Miao Yulan's place, or a little further, under the platform.But she chose to hide.She was afraid of Qin Jizhou's aggressive gaze, and even more afraid of the excited expression on his face.But if I don't see you for a day, it's like three autumns, my heart is full of ants, I can't help but feel uncomfortable.At that time, Deng Jiaying didn't know that she fell in love with this white shirt man. When she realized it, he was already very important and weighty in her heart. Deng Jiaying's face flushed with shame. Qin Jizhou pushed the mobilization meeting to a climax that night. He is a person who can incite others, and he is also a person who can ignite others.In the eyes of Deng Jiaying and the others, Qin Jizhou is not only someone who has seen the world, but also a man of knowledge.And, and he really upset the girls— Qin Jizhou spoke so impassionedly that the venue was almost boiling when the half-blind man jumped onto the stage and bumped him with his elbow.The half-blind man was a bit petty, how could he hit Qin Jizhou with his elbow, what was he, and what was Qin Jizhou?But Qin Jizhou jumped off the stage very cooperatively, followed by Deng Jiaying saw a terrible scene. Lu Bo and the landlord Wudou had their arms tied behind their backs, cards were hung around their necks, and their names were marked with black crosses.Criticism began.Some people rushed to the stage and began to expose and criticize, and some people jumped on it, saying that they wanted to stop the wheel of history and destroy the great socialist construction movement.Deng Jiaying took a deep breath, fortunately she signed up, otherwise... Not everyone who has signed up can go to the mountain. It is one thing to start it, but it is another thing to let someone go.The headquarters made a strict selection of those who went up the mountain to blast rocks. Of course Deng Jiaying and Miao Yulan were not included in the selection. They were iron girls and women. Women are not allowed to go up the mountain. This is a folk custom.Although the Four Olds were abolished, the folk customs were strictly followed.Qin Jizhou couldn't go up the mountain either, although he asked again and again, but no one really dared to let him go up the mountain.Deng Yuansen couldn't afford to let a radical young man from the provincial capital take risks, and neither could Liu Zhenshan.As for Ma Yongqian, the director of the Revolutionary Committee, Qin Jizhou was not allowed to make any mistakes. Qin Jizhou was a trump card in his hand, so how could he be willing to let him take risks?Unfortunately, the three gunners who were sent up later had an accident again. This time it was not a squib, but a problem with the blasting direction. The waist, the other was blown up three feet high, fell down and turned into meat sauce. The enthusiasm suddenly cooled down, and the whole construction site was once again shrouded in shadows. The enthusiasm of the previous days seemed to have turned into a killer, and people suddenly looked at the mountain and stopped.At this moment, Wu Tianliang, who is in charge of technology, suddenly proposed a plan to let Lu Bo go up the mountain! Lu Bo's opinion on Wu Tianliang probably started at that time, and the misunderstanding has not been eliminated until now.