Chapter 15 Chapter Fifteen Women Who Are Afraid of the Dark Don't Go Home
It was already the end of the year when Wen Yan returned to Tangshan, and the Spring Festival was coming.The parts of her body that should be good have completely recovered, but there are still things that are not good. Her kidneys have been injured a bit, and she has not yet reached the point of kidney replacement. The doctor told her that she can only take care of her slowly.In any case, I finally did not spend the Spring Festival in the Northland Ice City.It's so cold there now that Wenyan can hardly bear it.In fact, what is unbearable is the longing for relatives.Wenyan didn't know anything about Hai Guang and Wenxiu, let alone how she was going to live this year?She was pregnant and walked slowly on the small streets. Looking around the small streets where she lived, the narrow streets were uneven, and the densely packed simple houses were all shrouded in mist.It was already evening, and the winter sun was deserted and clean.The uneven ruins are illuminated in a strange way, the quiet streets are empty, and Wenyan wanders alone. She is both strange and excited.Is this the old street?
Wen Yan went into a cold freeze, and the package in her hand trembled.Wen Yan was wearing a light green military coat with a fox fur scarf around her shoulders.When she came down from Tangshan Railway Station, the sky was gloomy, and it was raining. The early winter rain was falling gently, like rain but not rain, like fog but not fog, which made her even more confused and in a trance.The buildings of the former bank residences have disappeared, and the hospital has become a simple one.That terrible moment destroyed all the good things, unconsciously, silently, leaving her only sadness.She likes this small street from the bottom of her heart, but she doesn't know when it will return to its original state?
"No, this place will never be the same again!" Wen Yan thought sadly.Maybe it's not a side street?Wen Yan discerned suspiciously, and saw a pedestrian approaching not far away.Wen Yan asked softly, "Brother, is this the Bank Street in Lunan District?"
The pedestrian nodded and looked at the unfamiliar Wenyan.Wen Yan wanted to ask about Wen Xiu's situation, but that person left in a hurry.Wen Yan stared blankly and walked, feeling like a wandering lonely soul.What about Haiguang?Is he dead or alive?Wen Yan fantasizes that he is still alive, so she will live with the person she loves, and give birth to this child for him, and then the two will rely on each other, and the fantasy will have wings, and love will have a perfect fruit.In the hospital in Harbin, Wenyan built a blueprint for her future life more than once!
The simple houses in the small street are exactly the same, and it is almost impossible to identify whose house it belongs to.Wen Yan thought: If you can't find Wenxiu, you can find Aunt He, and if you can't find Aunt He, go to the newspaper office to find Hai Guang.At this time, she saw another person approaching, that person was old Wei from the bank, whom Wenyan knew, and when Wenyan approached him to ask about Wenxiu and Aunt He, old Wei was taken aback.Old Wei stared blankly in shock: "You are Wen Yan? You are not—" Wen Yan said that she was rescued by the People's Liberation Army at the burial ground and had just returned from being transferred from Harbin.After Lao Wei calmed down, he carried the package for her and led her timidly to Wenxiu's simple room.The melodious sound of the piano came from the simple room.
"Wenxiu, Wenxiu!" Old Wei shouted, "Your sister is back!"
Wenxiu and Haiguang bathe the children.The little girl's naked body was soaking in the water basin.Wenxiu had just finished washing the younger sister, and the younger sister and the children were disobedient, so Wenxiu took out the accordion and played it to coax the children to play.Because of the children's taunts and the sound of the zither, she didn't hear Old Wei's cry.
Hai Guang brought the boiled water over, and when he heard Wei's shout, he stepped out and looked, and was stunned when he saw Wen Yan!how could be?In front of him is the Wenyan whom he misses?
"Hai Guang!" Wen Yan screamed, and the bucket in her hand slipped down.
"Wen Yan?" Hai Guang couldn't believe his ears, let alone his eyes.God, is this true?When he saw Wen Yan died, he wrapped her body up with his own hands and escorted her to the burial ground in "Triangle Land". She must have died, right?
"This is a happy event! Why don't you let Wenyan into the house soon?" Old Wei shouted anxiously.
"Wenyan!" Hai Guang burst into ecstasy, thinking, the world is so fucking messed up now!Wen Yan is still alive, looking closely, she is still as beautiful, her face is thinner, and the luster on her forehead is brighter than before.He rushed forward and hugged Wenyan tightly, tears streaming down his face, "Are you still alive? Alive?"
"Alive, alive!" Wen Yan hugged Hai Guang's neck tightly, shrugged her round shoulders, and cried loudly.
Hai Guang turned to call Wenxiu, telling her the good news quickly.Wenxiu played the accordion, she was as happy as a child, and she was singing with the children happily.
Wenxiu ran out crazily, saw Wenyan, the accordion stopped suddenly, and she was stunned. "Sister, is it really you?" The children sang to themselves, and they stopped singing when they realized that the accordion had stopped playing. They found Wenyan.Old Wei stood there motionless. After a while, he wiped the corners of his eyes and quietly went to find Aunt He.
Wen Yan shook off Hai Guang, hugged Wen Xiu tightly, and choked up excitedly: "Little sister, little sister! In Harbin Hospital, do you know how much I miss you?"
Wenxiu laughed while crying, and took her sister's hand into the room.The little girl walked over gropingly, calling sweetly: "Aunt Wenyan? Aunt Wenyan!"
Hai Guang put Wen Yan's package away and suddenly felt a headache.When I get too excited, I get a headache.He saw Wenyan leaning over and holding the little sister's hand, calling her name softly, and then hugging the little girl.Wen Yan's physical strength was clearly failing, and her body shook slightly after hugging the little girl.
Hai Guang took the little girl over.The younger sister and the children avoided it knowingly.
Hai Guang started to cook and asked Wen Xiu to talk with Wen Yan.Wen Yan told Wenxiu and Hai Guang about her crawling out of the corpse pit, and the words made people's hearts tense up and down, making Hai Guang feel like she was floating around like a ghost.When Hae-kwang hears her voice, it feels real.But he complained about Wen Yan in his heart, why didn't he give him a message?Is it to give him a surprise?This joke is really too big!Wen Yan was obviously still in the excitement of meeting her relatives, and when everything calmed down, Wen Yan would blame him and Wen Xiu just like Hai Guang did.That is to say, Wenyan wrote so many letters to them, why didn't she reply to any of them?
"Wen Xiu, how are you?" Wen Yan asked quietly, "Where is Tang Sheng?"
Wenxiu lowered her eyes and didn't speak for a long time. Whenever Tang Sheng was mentioned, her heart would collapse, and a bottomless black hole would collapse.Wen Yan sensed a terrible signal from her eyes.Hai Guang sighed: "Tang Sheng is gone, he died for Wenxiu, and his father is gone too."
Wen Yan looked up at Wen Xiu, and reached out to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes.She looked at Wenxiu as if she didn't want to see: "Wenxiu, don't be sad, so many people are gone, you are alive? My sister is alive, I am very content! When I am recuperating in the Northeast, I can't hear you. A little news, I'm in a hurry!"
"Sister!" Wenxiu threw herself into Wenyan's arms again, muttering, "Sister, is it really you?"
"It's sister, it's sister, it's really sister." Wen Yan smiled.
Wen Xiu stroked Wen Yan's face: "Sister, am I dreaming?"
Wen Yan said: "It's not a dream, it's real, it's true, you think about my sister hard."
Wenxiu said: "Sister, we miss you, we miss you even more..."
Wen Yan said: "I think we are the ones with big fate."
Wenxiu burst into tears: "We are finally reunited again."
"Yes, we are reunited!" Hai Guang's heart was bleeding.
At dinner time, Aunt He came back.For the past few days, Aunt He has been worrying about this matter, but she didn't expect Wen Yan to come back so quickly.The old man was happy for Wen Yan's survival, but also embarrassed about his future marriage.Wenyan saw the big red happy letter in the simple room, and was taken aback sensitively. At first, she didn't think about other things. Haiguang took care of Wenxiu to make her happy, and Haiguang felt sorry for Wenxiu during the earthquake.This complaint is something that Wenyan will always keep in mind.Night fell quietly, the family had dinner, and Aunt He wanted to find some time to talk to Wen Yan. The old man facilitated the marriage, so she wanted to take all the responsibilities to avoid any misunderstanding among the young people.But after dinner, Wen Yan wanted to talk to Hai Guang the most. When Hai Guang's eyes met Wen Yan's, Wen Yan saw that his eyes were bloodshot, and there was a temporary hesitation in his tired expression. Haggard, this is a short-term symptom.What's the story behind this appearance?In fact, this story is tantamount to the collapse of heaven and earth for Wenyan.Haiguang knows Wenyan's character. He is strong, ambitious, and especially values emotions. He is eager to build a warm home with Haiguang.When Wenxiu and Tang Sheng were getting married, Wenyan had planned what kind of family she and Haiguang would form.This is what Wen Yan thinks, time is boundless, youth is limited, what a woman needs in the end is a stable home, not a gorgeous and exciting "love".She bravely set foot on the land of Tangshan with Haiguang's child in her arms, and vaguely smelled the breath of her forming a family with Haiguang.But now she clearly felt some terrible signal.
Hai Guang walked over slowly and calmly, as if he had a lot to say, but didn't know how to open his mouth for a while, Wen Yan's body trembled slightly.Wen Yan's lips trembled: "Hai Guang, just say what you have to say! I can bear it!" Hai Guang didn't want to say too much, but her concerned eyes and patient listening made his heart move, he had to know How did Wenyan survive, and how was she rescued by soldiers and sent to the ice city of Harbin in the Northland?When Wen Yan sat alone with Hai Guang, these issues were no longer important to her.Wenyan's eyes were moist: "Wenyan, you, are you... okay?" Hai Guang hadn't heard such a voice for a long time, and the word "good" made him feel sore and helpless.He nodded mechanically, and said: "Okay, okay, okay." Wen Yan looked at him with good eyes: "Hai Guang, you've lost weight." Hai Guang nodded again: "Yes, you've lost weight too. It's gone!" Wen Yan wanted to throw herself into Hai Guang's arms, but she held back and said lightly, "Tell me about you and Wen Xiu, tell me!" She smiled lightly, very forcefully.
Hai Guang sat sullenly, his hands bruised his knees, and he didn't speak for a long time.
The room was so quiet that one could hear breathing.Wen Yan looked at Hai Guang in front of her eyes, and the first word she wanted to say was "Miss you!" This sentence means that when she misses her lover so much, she goes to sleep, wakes up after forgetting it, and has another emotional journey. pull in.But she felt that Hai Guang's eyes were not kissing anymore, did she forget her?Life itself is forgettable, life after a catastrophe is even more forgettable, and life is life without forgetting, and so is love.But this is exactly what Wenyan cannot accept!She felt uncomfortable all over.Wen Yan's eyelashes began to tremble, and she looked at him blankly: "Aren't you even interested in talking to me?" Unforeseen, he complained why Wen Yanwu didn't send him a message, so that he would definitely look at her, and the embarrassing situation in front of him would not happen, his eyes looked at the ground shyly.Wenyan's eyes were full of tears, which couldn't flow down anyway: "You can do it, I will understand even if you don't say anything! I understand!" Hai Guang seemed to have all the blood on his face, even his eyes were red: "Wen Yan, you just came back today. We are tired from the journey, and we have plenty of time to talk!" Wen Yan's tall breasts heaved violently, and she could no longer speak.
Hai Guang felt that Wen Yan had acquiesced to his request, so he obediently went out to boil water.
Wen Yan sat blankly by herself, looking around the house blankly, and saw the big red happy character on the mud wall of the simple house, and the blood on her head gushed out again.Wenxiu and Haiguang must be married!This ending was something she was worried about. Women's nerves are often very sensitive, especially when dealing with their loved ones.When she didn't receive a reply, she made many guesses about Hai Guang.The whole process was exactly as she had foreseen in her dream. If Tang Sheng died and Hai Guang and Wen Yan lived, would they become a couple?That's exactly what it looks like.Aunt He coaxed the children to sleep. Wenxiu saw Hai Guang go out to boil water, so she walked in quietly: "Sister, are you tired? Go to bed and rest, this is our home."
"Our home?" Wen Yan looked miserable and spoke in a low tone, "Wenxiu, come here! My sister has something to ask you!"
Wenxiu came over and stood silently.
"Wenxiu, this house belongs to your Haiguang?" Wenyan turned her head to look at the big red happy words on the wall and said.
Wenxiu looked at her sister in surprise.
"You have to tell me the truth!" Wen Yan's tone became more serious.
"En!" Wenxiu nodded.
"What day did you do it?"
"Sister!" Wenxiu's voice trembled.
"Answer me!" Wen Yan roared loudly.
"A few days! Sis! Why don't you—" Wenxiu's eyes turned red.
"My God!" Wen Yan was in a daze, she didn't know what kind of magic was driving her, she raised her arm in an instant, and slapped Wen Xiu hard!
Wenxiu was taken aback, and looked at her sister in astonishment.
Wen Yan suppressed her tears, trembling as if possessed by an evil spirit: "I didn't expect you guys to be so fast..."
Wenxiu cried and stood still: "Hit it! Hit it!"
Wen Yan's hands softened, and she was also surprised by her actions just now.Because strange thoughts flashed in her mind, you can get married, but you can't lie to me, I miss you so much in a far away place, and you don't reply to your letters, what kind of relatives are these?What kind of lover is this?
"Hit it!" Wenxiu slammed into Wenyan, clutching her hands, crying sadly.
Wen Yan stood still with her cold face up.
Wenxiu's ferocious attack was embraced by Hai Guang who broke in.
Wenxiu broke free from him, stumbled and leaned on the wall, crying very sadly.Hai Guang has been boiling water by the stove outside. I don't know why the two sisters got into a fight as soon as they met, but from the expressions of the two, it seems that it has something to do with him.When he walked up to Wenyan, he felt the tremendous pressure from the woman for no reason.Spiritual exile, emotional betrayal?Does Wenyan see him as a betrayal?All the troubles in a love relationship are due to each other's constant desire to possess each other in one way or another.What a messy possession is this?Let it explode, sooner or later it will explode!Hai Guang's heart trembled, his head was bleeding heavily, and he asked sharply, "Why?"
"I really want to ask you!" Wen Yan was speechless.
Wenxiu ran out crying.
"Do you think we are sorry for you? Huh?" Hai Guang asked.
Wen Yan got up to pick up the package, her body shook, and she almost fell to the ground.Hai Guang grabbed her arm and saw Wen Yan's face turn pale in an instant.He said emotionally, "Wen Yan, listen to me!"
Wen Yan closed her eyes and took a breath for a while, her complexion slowly recovered under the light.She didn't even look at Hai Guang, and said weakly, "I'm going, I'm going!"
"Where are you going? This is our home, and your home!" Hai Guang shouted eagerly.
Wen Yan wanted to slap him too, but she really didn't have any strength left.She shook her head slowly and said, "This is your home, not mine!" Tears streamed down my face after speaking.
Hai Guang was excited: "I am your lover, Wenxiu is your sister, why don't you listen to our voices? Can't you leave after I explain?"
"I don't want to hear it, what else can I explain! I feel disgusted when I see you!" Wen Yan wiped her eyes as she said.
Hai Guang held back: "Okay, whatever you say is fine, we all take a step back, can you go tomorrow?"
"Stop it!" Wen Yan raised her face and looked at him, eyes full of resentment.Her eyes were like a powerful slap in the face, hitting him suddenly, making him feel at a loss.Wen Yan went out with the package, but Hai Guang didn't dare to reach out to snatch it, to stop him. There was something about Wen Yan that made him frightened and uneasy.Who is he in Wen Yan's eyes?
Wen Yan walked a few steps, Hai Guang still chased after her, hugged her tightly and begged, "It's so late, where are you going? I can't let you go!"
Wen Yan was ruthless, she turned around fiercely, and threw Hai Guang away, the package fell into Hai Guang's hands, and Wen Yan suddenly ran out the door alone.
Hai Guang chased him out: "Wen Yan..."
Wen Yan ran without looking back.Hai Guang was bumping into Aunt He, Aunt He patted her limp legs, and called Wen Yan's name, but when she didn't see Wen Yan's reaction, she cried, "It's all my fault!"Aunt He collapsed on the ground.Hai Guang couldn't care about Aunt He anymore, he chased after the shadow in the darkness.
It was bleakly dark.Wen Yan walked hurriedly through the side street, stumbling on her feet.Wen Yan saw the dark ruins. The ruins that had just been cleared were messy and hidden under the night, exuding a decaying atmosphere.The night wind made her tremble.She suddenly felt a terrible headache, the excitement of seeing relatives was over, and then pain and depression, and a sadness that she had never felt before, as if some part of her body was dying.
Hai Guang chased after him and shouted, "Wen Yan."
Wen Yan ignored him and continued walking.
Hai Guang continued to shout, "Wen Yan, listen to me."
Wen Yan heard Hai Guang's footsteps getting closer, but her heart was getting farther and farther away from him, to the point of being a stranger.Later, when Hai Guang really caught up, she asked coldly, who are you?who are you to meWhy should I listen to you?Hai Guang was so depressed that he begged Wen Yan not to be so capricious.Wen Yan still didn't look back, let alone glance at him, she simply calculated where she was going.is it dead?Or run away?Hai Guang wants to kneel down to Wen Yan, but Wen Yan is determined, you can kneel, anyway, she doesn't believe in love anymore!I remember that when they were dating, Hai Guang chased her, Wen Yan showed him a calm and melancholy face, and was called "cold beauty" by Hai Guang's newspaper colleagues. Why did the "cold beauty" agree to him so easily?She couldn't remember at all, anyway, she fell in love with him, causing He Liang of Seismic Station to taste the pain of failure.He Liang is dead, will he know the ending before him?No, if Wen Yan hadn't been woken up by the rain, she wouldn't be able to see the end of love either.It is a pity that Wenyan saw love, and also saw the unlucky ending of love, and heard the loneliness in the outer layer of memory.Is there anything more cruel than this in the world?
Hai Guang said where are you going?
Wen Yan didn't answer, because she really didn't know where to go.I thought to myself: what do you want from me?What right do you have to control me?Get out of here!I don't need your hypocritical concern.Where to go is my own business!
Wen Yan continued to walk forward, and Hai Guang followed silently.
After walking for a while, Hai Guang heard the sound of the train whistle, and suddenly his heart tightened, and he hurriedly stopped.I can't follow anymore, if you follow her in such a hurry, she will be forced to commit suicide by lying on the track.Hai Guang shouted: "Wen Yan, I won't be with you anymore, don't run away, come back!"
Hai Guang stopped in his tracks, Wen Yan turned his head to look, the man in the darkness was very vague, standing by the roadside like a tree stump.Wen Yan staggered to the side of the old locust tree that was in the wrong row. She cried loudly while lying on the rough trunk. The sound of crying echoed in the night sky next to the lotus pit. Her body slowly fell to the ground in the moonlight: "God, why am I still alive? Why am I still alive?"
Hai Guang didn't catch up and made her cry.He waited anxiously, his heart was breaking little by little, and tears welled up in his eyes.
The two confronted each other.
The passing train passed rapidly, bringing gusts of cool wind, and Wen Yan's cries were drowned out by the sound of the train.Wen Yan stopped crying, her tears dried up.She raised her head and looked at the bright windows of the train, remembering the scene when she came back by train.Looking at the scenery outside the window, she imagined the happy moment when she met Hai Guang a thousand times and ten thousand times. It must be a romantic evening, and the heavy romance will make people faint.It is love that makes her stand up from the pile of dead bodies. Love is fire, and fire is always hot and bright. Whether the sparks are burning in the temple or on the deserted beach, the same brilliance jumps in the flames.But when she got home, she didn't see the light, and there was darkness everywhere, so dark that it was terrifying, everything was over, it was over!Go to hell and leave a space for my sister, she doesn't want to see two people's tears in one person's eyes!The sky can't help her, and the earth can't keep her!
Wen Yan frantically ran towards the train track.
Haiguang was in a hurry, and chased after him desperately, shouting while chasing: "Wenyan, you have to listen to me to speak clearly, and then, you go to die, I will accompany you, and we will die together!" Run onto the train track, there are no trains at this time.She stood blankly, looking at every star in the sky, the stars fell down like raindrops, and she slammed into a cold.Seeing Hai Guang catching up, she ran along the bright white rails, and a frightening situation appeared!A truck galloped towards Wenyan, approaching Wenyan meter by meter, Hai Guang glanced forward, the blinding white light made him unable to open his eyes, he opened his mouth and shouted wildly: "Wenyan, give me Stop! The earthquake killed so many people, isn’t it easy to want to die?” Wen Yan’s heart trembled when she heard Hai Guang’s voice, her legs gave way, and she fell on the cold rails. The train seemed to see the train ahead. The figure disappeared, honking like crazy, at this time, Hai Guang caught up, and at the moment when the train was about to run over Wen Yan, Hai Guang rushed over and hugged Wen Yan tightly, rolled hard, and the two of them rolled onto the railway. In the trees beside.
Wen Yan's forehead was seeping blood, and she passed out.
Hai Guang hugged Wen Yan tightly, shook her shoulder vigorously and shouted.He pointed his mouth at her pale lips and gave artificial respiration mouth after mouth.Wen Yan woke up, exhaled a long breath, and then slowly opened her eyes. The first thing she saw was Hai Guang's face, with countless bright stars shining above her head.Seeing Wenyan wake up, Hai Guang was surprised: "Wen Yan, are you awake?" Wen Yan moaned, and closed her eyes again: "You let me die." Hai Guang said firmly: "We won't let you Die." Wen Yan closed her eyes again in pain.
The moonlight spread out to its heart's content, illuminating the railway tracks, small trees and paths very clearly.Not far from the railway is the lotus pit, what a familiar water lake!Wen Yan's father was buried by the lake, and there was also a small grave that Hai Guang erected for Wen Yan next to his father's grave. Some of Wen Yan's clothes were buried in the grave.Hai Guang also planted rows of hulin trees next to the tomb. Haiguang pointed to the hulin trees next to the tombstone, and said emotionally, "Wen Yan, look—" Wen Yan slowly opened her eyes and looked over.The lush Hulin swayed in the breeze.Wen Yan's eyes were red: "Hu Linshu?" Hai Guang nodded and said, "This is the agreement you proposed. I will plant a hundred Hu Lin trees on your father's grave for you."
The severe winter here is cold and strange. It is not very cold tonight, and there seem to be many mysterious and unpredictable stories hidden in the dark.Wen Yan struggled in Hai Guang's arms, and Hai Guang understood her intentions.He struggled to help her stand up, and helped her step by step towards the lotus pit father's cemetery.Wen Yan found that there was an extra grave on one side of her father's grave, she couldn't help being surprised, and couldn't help turning her head to look at Hai Guang.Hai Guang pointed to the tombstone, but didn't answer, because he didn't want to talk anymore.Wenyan squatted down slowly, reached out to caress the marble tombstone, and saw the words "Yang Wenyan's Tomb" through the moonlight. Wenyan's heart trembled, and her eyes blurred again. The death of her father and her tombstone seemed to be the same. About the events in her previous life, she murmured calmly: "I'm dead, I'm dead, I'm dead! Is this the monument you erected, or the hulin tree you planted for me?" Hai Guang stretched out his hand tremblingly and stroked Hulin trees, Hulin trees are like some swaying clouds, with a dark rhythm.Wen Yan likes Hu Linshu the most, and her father said that her mother gave birth to her under the Hu Linshu when she was working.Father also likes Hu Linshu as much as his sisters.When his father died, Hai Guang once promised Wen Yan that he would plant the old man's grave full of Hulin trees, Hai Guang did it, he really did it.Wen Yan burst into tears: "Hu Lin—" Hai Guang choked up, "I planted Hu Lin by calling your name. When I called the last tree, I closed my eyes and lay down, knowing nothing. At that time, how much I wanted to lie here with you!" Wen Yan looked at him excitedly, and when he heard from his mouth that he could not die or live at that time, there was a rush of heat in his heart , she yelled "Hai Guang" and threw herself into his arms.Hai Guang hugged her tightly, clearly feeling her body trembling.He said that he was unconscious at the time, and it was Wenxiu who carried me home.Wen Yan choked and said, "Wenxiu, her?" Hai Guang frowned and said, "Do you know? Do you know how miserable Wen Xiu is?" thing.
Hai Guang said excitedly: "I'm all for Wenxiu! You're dead, I'm in so much pain, who knows if you live again?" Hai Guang patted himself on the head vigorously, "Let's not talk about that, you know? Wenxiu lost her beloved Tang Sheng, and it was so painful! She committed suicide. She carried Tang Sheng's ashes to travel to Beidaihe to get married. She passed out on the beach. I found her! Sent to the hospital for rescue for a day, she Just woke up! Fate is so cruel to Wenxiu, do you know that Wenxiu is not a normal person, she was badly injured, her spine was cracked by the earthquake, and the doctor diagnosed that she was in danger of being paralyzed! Wenxiu is facing another A new physical and mental blow, she is too fragile, how could I leave her when Wenxiu was in the most pain? Let me tell you, Wenxiu took a few children and wanted to never marry, but her body couldn't bear it! Do it! Cooking and washing some clothes are very difficult! Let alone let her return to the stage! We don't have any news about you. At this moment, Aunt He arranged for you to come together with Wenxiu, but in my heart, what I never gave up on you for a moment! Do you know the pain in my heart?" Wenyan's eyes turned red, and she asked in a dull voice, "Hai Guang! Haven't you seen the letter I wrote to you?" Hai Guang was stunned: "A letter? What? Letter? We really didn’t see it! If I saw it, can I not go to Harbin to see you? You love me, I love you, how can this change?” His voice was loud, noble, excited and full of desolation.Wen Yan slumped down with guilt all over her face, tears streaming from her eyes: "Stop it, stop it!"
The wind was very tight and strong, and it made Wenyan's long black hair flutter.Hai Guang hugged her body tightly, and he suddenly felt that her body became lighter against the early winter moonlight, like a piece of white goose feather fluttering in the cold wind.Hai Guang said, let's go back!Wen Yan still didn't move, still looking uneasy.She stroked her grave, feeling an indescribable loss and desolation in her heart.Weeds grew on the grave, shaking in the cold wind.The cold wind made her shiver all over, and Hai Guang felt her trembling.
A crow flew out from the grave of his father beside him, like the independent soul of an old man, and swept into the cold sky.If Wen Yan doesn't leave, Hai Guang wonders what drastic things she will do?Wen Yan leaned against Hu Linshu quietly, her forehead was bright in the moonlight, but her eyes were extremely dry, and she lost the spirit of the past.Hai Guang urged again: "Wen Yan, let's go, I've finished what I need to say. You will be frozen to death!"
"You're finished, you haven't listened to me yet! Do you know how I survived to this day?" Wen Yan feels that she is living in the world now, and she is full of gratitude to everyone, except Hai Guang. She didn't appreciate what he did to her and her sister.Seeing Hai Guang's face wrinkle, she expressed her apology, but he may be right today, and she may be able to forgive him, but how will she face her sister?Hai Guang seemed to see her intentions, saying that he did not ask for her forgiveness.Wen Yan said with a sullen face: "What you said just now is true, but you are actually defending yourself." Hai Guang was stunned: "Am I justifying?" In the past, Hai Guang and He Liang competed for Wen Yan , I wish I could give her all the good things in the world, so that she could have a smile on her face. Wen Yan laughed, but Hai Guang never looked for heaven illusoryly.He just wants to find a good day to get married. A happy marriage is the world, and a bad marriage is hell. He only wants to have a happy marriage in the future. Who would have thought that fate would play a deadly joke on him.
The sky is completely dark, is it like this when a person dies?Wen Yan thinks that's the case, right?The wind blew past his face, and his face was cold for a while.Wen Yan looked at Hai Guang, knowing that any expectations in each other's hearts had been disillusioned.She asked him what on earth was he thinking?Hai Guangyuan opened his eyes, opened his mouth halfway and said, "I ask you to face the reality, just like we face this earthquake." Wen Yan nodded helplessly and said, "Yes, a big earthquake changed everything. I can’t find anything.” Hai Guang said, “We’ve all changed.” Wen Yan smiled bitterly and said, “You’ve become my sister’s husband. I’ve become an outsider. Really?" Hai Guang's heart seemed to be stabbed, and he said heavily: "Don't say that, at least you still have our lives, if we all die, don't you feel lonely? So that's just the surface, We can't go back to the past, it refers to things in form." Wen Yan listened quietly: "Do you dare to say that your emotions haven't changed?" Hai Guang's resolute face flashed a light: "If it's just referring to you I can say that my emotions haven’t changed.” Wen Yan shook her head gently: “I don’t understand what you mean, so what has changed?” Hai Guang said: “I’m sorry for He Liang, I’m sorry for Wen Xiu, of course I'm sorry for you too, I'm nervous, tired, and scared." Wen Yan froze for a moment: "For me?"
Hai Guang sighed and said, "I'm afraid of you too."
"For me, what are you afraid of? Don't you already have my sister?" Wen Yan showed no expression on her face, "I can imagine that you have put in extraordinary efforts to win my sister's heart! I can see that you all endure hardships gone."
Hai Guang said: "We are all suffering. Don't talk about the suffering in your heart!"
Wen Yan didn't speak, she looked at Hu Linshu in the dark.
Hai Guang felt extremely desolate in his heart.
The hulin trees are hazy, and the black spots are like the black eyes of Wen Yan, clear as eyes.The night gave Wenyan black eyes, and she wanted to use them to find the light.In the pattern of love, you have always been a fan of the parties.Emotions cannot be concealed, because the occurrence and disappearance of emotions are fundamentally for people to see.Wenyan's thoughts finally came out of the strange circle, and she finally puffed her chest out and said, "Hai Guang, as a sister, I am grateful to you, because after I died, you were so kind to my sister. I will also be grateful to you. Just now, I was too restless, so don't hate me..."
"Wen Yan, where did you say you went?"
"I'm going to say that!" Wen Yan seemed to have regained her previous self-willedness, "If I don't say that, you won't be satisfied, and you will be wronged!"
"Are you mocking me?" Hai Guang said, but he was relieved, and his heart was relieved.
Wen Yan said: "Don't interrupt me, let me continue, okay?"
Hai Guang asked her to speak out all the words accumulated in her heart in the wind.Wen Yan's narration was not as organized as before the earthquake, as if her nerves had been strongly stimulated, and her tone was a little disordered: "I'm alive, I'm alive. When I was recuperating in other places, I missed you so much, I thought about you like crazy. Desperately writing to you. The better people treat me, the more I miss you, Wenxiu, this small street, and Tangshan. I have never experienced such a lonely feeling. When I came back On the train, I kept thinking about how surprised you would be when I suddenly appeared in front of you, and how you would say crazy things. But when I came back, I became an outsider, and you became my brother-in-law, My brother-in-law and I were talking about longing, emotion... I really don’t know what it’s like, you said, wouldn’t I be living as if I were dying?”
"I declare again that neither Wenxiu nor I have received your letter. Where did you send the letter?"
"Your newspaper office, and our small street."
"That's weird, the mail was delivered after the earthquake!" Hai Guang frowned suspiciously, "Okay, I'll report back to the agency to check."
Wen Yan shook her head lightly: "It's not necessary now."
"In such an extraordinary period, it's just like a war. It's normal to lose letters!" Hai Guang rubbed his frozen cheeks, "Wenyan, let's think about Wenxiu... think for her. Let's resolve everything La!"
Wen Yan said apologetically: "As a sister, I should be happy for her. In her situation, it should be the best thing for someone like you to take care of her and help her. But as a sister, I shouldn't beat her. I have never hit her since I was a child, what happened to me today? I feel sorry for her!"
海光说：“文燕，姐姐打妹妹一下，不算什么，俗话说亲姐妹没有隔夜的仇，我最关心的，是你要挺住。唐山那么多人都死了，老天夜让咱活着，咱就好好地活！跟我回去吧，其实，现在的文秀和何大妈不定多着急呢！”
文燕咬了咬牙说：“我是又死过一回了，我应该知道怎样活。咱回去吧。”文燕站立起来的时候，身体有着极大的不适，险些跌到在地，不仅仅是由于寒冷。冰凉的手脚已经被海光的胸膛暖热了，文燕弯着腰吐了几声。要是在正常的情况下，她会把自己怀孕的喜讯告诉海光的，现在已经没这个必要了，孩子的去留她还没有相好呢！海光问她怎么了？文燕没有说什么，吃力地站起来，跺了跺脚，甩了他的搀扶自己走在夜路上。
人生在爱中的等待是最多的。生命的蜡烛慢慢地燃烧着，越烧越短，可是最后化作灰烬的不是情感，而是一去不返的年华。没有人知道，这个风雨飘摇的家庭海将要发生什么变化。文秀和何大妈等待着海光把文燕找回来，文燕也同样想念妹妹。在姐姐跑失的时光里，文秀想出去追找，都被何大妈拦住了，她红肿着眼睛，何大妈给她洗了好几遍的脸。她捧着姐姐的包裹，又将它哭湿了好大一片。海光和文燕回来的时候，已经是半夜了，他们听见何大妈劝着问秀，还不断地谴责着自己的草率，骂自己是老糊涂了。文秀没有责怪何大妈，越是没责怪，何大妈就越显得愧疚，连连叹息着：“地震哪，唉，地震呀……”等到海光和文燕走进简易房里的时候，何大妈才止住叹息。
文燕怔怔地看着妹妹，文秀上前扑进文燕的怀里。海光和何大妈静静地看着，都是会心一笑。在夜里，文燕和文秀睡在一个房间里，她们要有很多的话要说，两人一直说到了天亮。姐妹的情感交织里，往往普遍走不出一个误区，应该恨时不恨，应该爱时没有了爱。漂泊了很久的文燕安慰着妹妹，让她好好跟着海光生活，姐姐祝福你们。文秀说姐姐还活着，这比什么都让她高兴和欣慰，这个家的女主人应该是姐姐，我要离开这里。文燕不让她这样选择，因为她已经看出这个家庭的温馨与和谐。文秀说出自己对海光姐夫的感激之情，可她没有找到爱。一个没有爱的家庭还有什么维持的必要呢？爱一个人，就是心疼一个人！爱得深了，潜在的父性和母性必然参加进来。姐姐与海光的爱就是刻骨铭心的爱！文燕轻轻摇着头，她否认自己与海光的爱，她甚至对文秀撒谎说，当时她是爱何亮的，只是何亮太专横了，以致把她盲目地推到了海光身边。文燕记得那时的自己很风光，很温柔，追她的男人很多，她的人缘和姿色成了她的麻烦，有了海光充当保护伞，有效地避免了过早地引人注目和四面树敌。这也就是她与海光晚于文秀结婚的原因。
文秀恍然明白了什么，可在这个时刻，她不敢相信姐姐说的是真话，她想了想说：“你别这样说了，我从眼神里看出来，你爱他！还是说我们吧，我和海光的婚姻是何大妈给捏合的，谈不上爱。姐夫人很好，冲他对我的样子，就值得姐姐一生去爱他！我们的感情纯熟相互帮助，只停留在呵护上，没有深入到心窝里，所以是不能持久的！”文燕感动地说：“文秀，你别说了，我还是希望你们能够走下去！你和海光的家就是姐姐的家，我明天就去到医院上班，我会常来看你们的！”文秀又啜啜地哭了。文燕伸手轻轻擦拭着妹妹的眼泪，感觉到女人除了自己的躯壳需要一个家外，心灵也是需要一个“家”的。这个家虽说不能安放她的躯体了，安置一个“灵魂”还是满好的。回家后的生活虽说不尽人意，看见海光和文秀都活着，对于文燕来说应该是甜蜜的，虽然这种甜蜜浸透着苦涩，那温热的小房子还是给她带来说不出来的安慰。
夜已深沉，海光翻来覆去睡不着觉，在闭眼睛的一刹那，他忽然坐直了身子，把灯拉亮了。他就怔怔地望着那盏普通的灯。他想听对面姐俩的说话，一副倾听的姿势，实际上是听不见的。海光静静地坐着，望着满天的星星，吸了一只烟，烟头烧着手指了，他灵醒地哆嗦了一下把烟头掐灭。
海光披上一件棉大衣独自走出去了。
冷风阵阵，海光迎着风慢慢走动着。不时扭头看见文秀房间的灯一直亮着，窗子里看不见一个人影。他的感觉如此新鲜又如此激情，浑身有着无尽的热力，文燕回来了！这种感觉就来源于此吧？
“总算是回来了！唐生不会回来吧？”海光心里竟然冒出了这样的念头。海光突然想哭，他想找个没有人的地方，像文燕一样大声地哭一场。
夜晚荷花坑显得很神秘，他就想走到那里大声哭一场，文燕承受不住了，他一个男人也有挺不住的时候。这个时候又不能在房间里哭，那样会惊动她们姐妹。他朝那个窗口望了望，就离开了简易房，走到一片刚刚清理过的废墟上，蹲在地上，双手抱住脑袋，耸动着宽厚的脊背，渐渐地，这抖动变成了抽搐，变成剧烈的颤抖，随之传出海光努力压抑但依然不可遏制的呜咽，滚烫的泪水从他的手指缝里往外泄着。这是一个钢铁般充满韧性的男人的哭声。眼泪不用擦就被刺骨的冷风吹干了。
文燕和文秀都没能听到这哭声。
天亮以后，何大妈和海光做熟了早饭。吃过早饭后，海光、文燕、文秀和何大妈商量了一下，决定再搭建一个简易房供文燕居住。文燕没有答应，她让海光用自行车驮着她的行李包裹到医院去，她想好了，她要住在医院宿舍里。海光、何大妈和文秀拦不住她，文秀就想立马离开这里，可是她不能采取过激的行动了，免得这个家经受新的惊吓和伤害。其实文秀自己也是很脆弱的了。等海光和姐姐走后，何大妈去居委会了，文秀开始在她的新房里收拾自己的东西。想来想去，她还是要离开，让姐姐与海光走到一起来，因为这是有道理的，她心里一直没有忘记唐生，她与海光本来就是临时组合的“伴儿”，除了感激没有爱情，那样为什么不成全一对情投意合的情侣呢？姐姐幸福了，比她文秀幸福更让她高兴啊！她记得，姐姐和海光从谈恋爱开始，之间似乎总有流云和雾霭，不时地奔奔磕磕，阻阻隔隔。他们有太多的原因和太多的理由结婚，可是又有不少的原因和理由使她们擦肩而过。
文秀突然决定自己应该离开这个家了！
文秀收拾东西的时候，碰到了那个笔记本，忽然从笔记本里飘然落下那半张火车票。忽悠悠地漂落在地，那是她和唐生的火车票，她捡起这半张票，呆呆地看着，嘴里喃喃着：“唐生，你个东西，姐姐从埋尸场里活回来了，你呢？你为什么不回来？啊？你说你会回来的，你会回来接我的！”说着说着她就泪流满面了。少顷，她擦了擦眼睛，然后仔细地重新夹进笔记本中珍藏起来。这是要伴随她一生的东西。过了一会儿，她把枕巾、床单缓缓抻平。从一只被砸坏的箱子里找出一个人造革皮包，这是当年演出时的奖品。她把自己用的牙刷、毛巾等一切随身用具装进一只网兜，然后，她坐在床上，默对镜子看自己忧郁的脸，过了一会儿，她把目光移到墙上的照片上，这是她与海光的合影。海光微笑着，他温和的眼光中竟然有那么多坚韧的魅力。她跟海光就没有一点感情吗？显然不是，震后的日子里，如果没有海光文秀也许就不会坚强地活到今天。渐渐地，她爱上海光了，这样的男人是值得她文秀去爱的。可是海光是姐姐的，只要姐姐活着，他就一定是姐姐的！
文秀又缓缓地落下泪来，脸上的表情异常地疲惫和沉重。当她把车票塞进笔记本的时候，又回到了原先的想法：一生谁也不嫁了！她就是属于唐生的！永远陪伴着唐生，永远守候着那个亡灵！对自己对别人都是一个完好的交待。
过了一会儿，文秀提起盛着洗漱用具的网兜要走，但是她已经提不动这些东西，咕咚一声掉在地上。她愣了，急忙弯腰捡着掉在地上的东西。她低头捡东西的时候，忽然看见一双粗糙焦黑的手，帮助她捡着东西。
文秀惊讶地抬起头，看见黑子蹲在地上给她捡着东西！她惊讶地问：“二猛，二猛！你个死东西，这些天你跑哪儿去啦？”
“文秀，你好吗？”黑子一见到文秀眼里就砰地放光。他脸上的疤痕淡了许多，齐刷刷的平头，眼睛也有了神采。他说：“文秀，我跟一个朋友做小工去了！”
“在哪儿做小工？累吗？”文秀关切地问。
黑子憨厚地一笑：“邯郸建筑公司支援咱建设新唐山了，我和一个叫眼镜的朋友跟着人家做活儿！我挣了钱哩！”
“你挣钱干啥用？”文秀问。
“给小妹治眼睛！”黑子说。
文秀心里热了：“你的心真好！素云姐要是知道，她会多高兴啊！”
“文秀，给你！”黑子把一个纸包递给她。
文秀看见是一个水泥袋纸裹的东西，慢慢接过来打开一看，是一叠钱，急忙又给了裹了起来，还给了黑子：“你自己拿着，我不能收！”
“你拿着，给小妹治眼睛的时候用啊！”黑子推了一下，不接这个纸包，“我可跟你说啊，老子这钱可不是偷来抢来的，是干干净净的血汗钱！”
文秀还是硬把这个纸包塞给了黑子，瞪了他一眼说：“谁说你抢银行啦？难得你有这份心，我替小妹谢谢你，钱是你挣的，你拿着吧。我姐姐回来了，等她安顿下来，我们就给小妹医治眼睛！”
“文秀，你这大包小裹的，要去哪儿啊？”黑子吃惊地问。
“去哪儿呢？”文秀被黑子问愣了，表情麻木得像个蜡人。她却实还不知道自己要去哪里，只是觉得这个家不能再呆了。如果说有点朦胧的去向，似乎还就是歌舞团，但不知歌舞团能不能收留她这样的残疾人，实在不行就只有离开唐山了。她无奈地说：“二猛，我的命多苦啊，屋漏偏遭连阴雨，你说我该怎么办？”
“到底出啥事儿啦？”黑子瞪圆了眼睛。
文秀两只大眼睛直勾勾地盯着他，很伤感地讲完这一切。
“哦操！”黑子吸了一口凉气，一时没能说出话来。他摸了摸鼻子，又擦了擦嘴，灵活地眨着小眼睛，“其实我知道你和海光结婚，那天何大妈告诉了我，我来参加你们的婚礼，可我看见你疯跑着，明显给婚礼搅了！其实我是朝你要小妹来的，见你心情不好，我就豆干饭闷着没说！后来你们结婚也没办啥仪式，我就回工地了。你姐姐回来可是谁也想不到的！我真的想不到，死而复生，可喜可贺啊！不过，你就很难办了，你离开家吧，海光和你姐姐未必心里好受，不离开吧，姐姐和姐夫又难团圆！我到是有一个办法，能做个两全其美！就看你肯不肯了！”
“你有什么办法？”文秀问了一句。
黑子故意不答，用手将人造革书包系好，提书包的时候他的手碰着了文秀手，他像触电一般，马上缩了回来。他呆呆地看着问秀，嘿嘿地笑，神一阵鬼一阵的，让文秀很是着急：“二猛，你到是说呀！”
黑子想了想，红了脸说：“你就搬到我那里去吧，把小妹也带上。”
“这，这怎么行呢？”文秀使劲地摇着头，好像没有这样的思想准备，“二猛，你救过我我感激你，可你别打我的主意啊！”
黑子说：“我没有别的意思，人正不怕影子歪，你是好人，我也不是坏人啊！再说了，我并没有强求你跟我结婚！我不配娶你，我只是想得到小妹！这样也能有幸照顾你，我二猛一辈子汽车轧罗锅儿死也值了！”
“这怎么行呢？”文秀脸色苍白，冬天了，她的脸颊却流出汗水。额前的黑发被汗水半边脸庞上，使她的神态和形象显得不确定、很模糊，说话的声音都有些颤了，“你为了得到小妹，并不在乎我。”
“我不明白你的意思。”黑子唏嘘着很为难，眼光很毒，牙齿不知不觉地咬了起来，“你让我在乎你，你这样的美人我二猛哪敢有非分之想？那就回有人说我赖蛤蟆想吃天鹅肉啦！我好生伺候你和小妹，就这点奢望！”
“你平白无故，为什么对我这么好？还不是为了小妹！”文秀担忧地说，“如果小妹的眼睛治好了，小妹跟你亲了，跟你好了，你会不会卸磨杀驴？把我给扔到大街上？”
黑子啪啪地拍着胸脯说：“我刘二猛对天发誓，只要我有一口气，就要对你好，要是对你有一点不忠，雷劈我，天杀我！让我死无葬身之地！”他给了她一个真实的承诺以期弥补自己的过错。
“二猛！”文秀被感动了，不出声地哭，泪如泉涌。
黑子急切地说：“我到要问问你，你带着包裹往哪去？”
文秀说不出来要去的地方，部队歌舞团解散了，全是没谱的事情。
“这不就结了？我知道你舍不得小妹，带着小妹走，将来你多一个闺女，老了也有养老送终的人了！”黑子停顿了一下说，“我也了却了一桩心愿。我这命是素云给的，对素云得有个交待啊！我今天烧香算是找着庙门了，我们之间致于咋个说法，你拿主意！我二猛不逼你，你也够难的了！”
文秀想了想说：“你不准碰我一下，我们是假夫妻。”
黑子点着头：“那是，那是，那是。”
文秀脸上露出了一丝笑意，可是眼神是直的。震后她所受到的刺激，对于她的心灵来说是重大的，使她的心灵产生了前所未有的混乱。混乱中总算找到了个委曲求全的办法，黑子要离开的时候，文秀让黑子把自己的东西都带上，黑子比文秀竟然冷静得多，他让文秀等待姐姐和海光回来，一切都要商量妥了再办。这又不是私奔，唐山市本来地方就不大，找一个人还不容易？文秀真就听了黑子的劝告，等待着海光和姐姐的回来。中午十一点了，黑子被眼镜给叫走了，黑子说他明天再过来听她的回话。黑子一走，文秀海是没能等到海光，其实这个上午海光够忙的，他把文燕送到了医院，他陪着文燕跟医院的领导谈了谈，看见文燕回来了，医院的人都给吓了一跳，如果没有海光作证真没人敢跟她说话。看着文燕那里消停了，他骑车去市委“抗震纪念馆”筹备处了，那里还有许多照片要扩洗。他还想把文燕的一些好看的照片洗出来给她看。可是走进暗室的时候，他心慌意乱的，什么也不想干，脑子里一片茫然。
文秀和何大妈把午饭做熟了，海光和文燕都没有回来。到了晚上，海光和文燕回来的时候，文秀把自己的想法说了，但没有把自己带小妹去黑子那里说透，含含糊糊，其实有黑子的承诺，文秀想溜得彻底，说话都有了一些底气。及时没露出黑子，可还是没有赢得海光、文燕和何大妈的支持，甚至是极为强烈的反对。海光久久不说话，瘦削的脸憋得通红，又慢慢地变青，依然一声没吭，他的心情很乱，他不知道该怎么办，他只能有一个妻子，眼下文秀是他的合法妻子，而文燕是个局外人。如果文燕躲了，文秀不会安心跟他过日子，他也真的丢不下文燕，如果文秀走了，那么他还会惦念着她的生活，自己和文燕会永远生活在恶梦里。苍天，怎么办啊？海光极力地挽留文秀，说文秀不能走！这声音像一声雷，响在每个人的头顶，可是话音散去的时候，自己感觉没有多大的说服力，隐隐从心底泛起说不清的苦涩和留恋。
妹妹的心清澈见底，文燕让海光和何大妈先出去，她要跟文秀好好谈谈。何大妈轻轻走出去了，海光依旧没有动。文燕不知道文秀背后的黑子，但她已经决定把海光留给妹妹，她恨恨地问：“文秀，这是干什么？”文秀表情淡然：“姐，这是你的新房，这，这，一切都是你的。”文燕说：“秀儿，我不明白。我们昨天晚上不是说好了吗？”文秀的声音极为尖利，像是用纸擦玻璃的声音：“姐，海光是你的，是你的，只要你活着，他就是你的，我让出来是对的，因为我并不爱他，而你爱他。”海光惊颤地看着问秀，什么都说不出来。文燕气得颤抖了：“傻妹妹，海光是个大活人，有思想，有意识，有情感。他不是件衣裳，说脱就脱，就穿就穿的。既然你们是法定的了，你要他对你好，姐姐认了，姐姐看着你们幸福就够了！”海光终于忍不住了：“文秀，姐姐说得对，我不是个东西！这话，虽然有些别扭，可还是得说。现在我要问你一句，你那么急着要走，你到底去哪儿？”文秀愣了愣，没有直接回答这个问题，她是想先谈通一个问题，可是这个问题是最艰难的。文秀哽咽了，把脸扭向文燕：“姐，事情就是这个样儿，这不怨海光，他爱你，想你，这我知道。她要我，也只因为我是你的妹妹，长得像你，他要照顾我，他把我当你那样爱着，如今，我的姐姐回来了，我高兴，又害怕，我怕因为他又失去了我的姐姐，只要姐对我好，只要能够和姐在一起，我什么都能做，真的。”文燕急切地说：“秀儿，不要把事情说得那么严重，到底怎么回事，我已经清楚了，你让我怎么说哟，你还是那么性儿急，啥事儿，都急，我们就没有商量的余地了吗？你还没有回答海光的问话呢！”她的话像雨点子往她的脸上砸。
文秀闭口不谈。屋里静得没有一点声音。
陷入了僵局，文秀心里想逃了，她甚至盼望黑子出现在眼前给她解围。黑子似乎使她看见了一个虚拟的天堂。
可是黑子没有出现。
黑子是怎么啦？他不会是吓回去了吧？这小子真他妈的靠不住！文秀想。
这个时候，何大妈带着一群邻居进来了。其实何大妈想拦，没能拦住，老老少少的就涌进来了，正好打破室内的僵局。文秀沉脸坐着，海光和文燕笑着迎接邻居们，文燕知道这些人是来看望她的。小街居民的眼神与表情是欢笑的，也是复杂的，但他们对于文燕的归来表示高兴是一致的。几个妇女围住文燕问长问短。一个妇女问：“文燕呀，这可真是想不到的事呀。”与素云住对门的孙婶说：“大难不死，必有后福啊！文燕你救等着享福吧！你看，你看，比先前更俊了，好象又脱生一回似的。”文燕感动得热泪莹莹。人们说话的时候，海光到外面买菜去了。
海光把菜买回来的时候，旅居们都走光了。孩子们眼看局势好转，乱蹦乱跳地跟着何大妈忙活。何大妈想单独劝劝文秀，就让海光和文燕带着孩子们出去玩，自己与文秀一起包着饺子。何大妈用刀跺着饺子馅儿，文秀默默地包着，包好的饺子就往盖帘上摆，摆一个，她的心就疼一下。何大妈看着问秀：“秀儿，他俩走了，你到底咋想的跟大妈说说。”文秀淡淡地说：“大妈，没怎么想，就是想离开这里。”何大妈瞪了她一眼：“你当大妈傻呀？说，解玲还得系玲人，没准儿这事还得大妈帮忙，你就准知道我会帮倒忙？”文秀眼睛红了：“大妈，你说我怎么办？你老岁数大，经历的事情多呀。”何大妈沉着脸说：“再大的岁数也没经过这事儿，大地震不也就这一回么？”文秀沮丧着脸说：“我真地没有主意，只有走吧，只要海光高兴，我姐高兴，我都认了。”何大妈咧了咧嘴说：“依我说呀，秀儿，别嫌我说话糙，啊？你这条件儿，难，再找海光这样儿的，不容易。你姐文燕好找，我给她张罗个好的，就凭她那条件，说声找，男人得挤破脑袋往屋里钻，水道口都得堵上。这不又是完完美美的两家人？”文秀坚决反对：“那么容易的？姐姐不会忘记海光的，就象我忘不了唐生，这是爱情。”何大妈无奈地说：“你们年轻人呀，思想怎么这么复杂？啥爱不爱的，两个人卷到一个被筒子里，生了孩子就算是爱了！”文秀对何大妈的说法不以为然，甚至有些反感，不管怎么说，她的日子里多了一层阴影。她不再说话，默默地捞着锅里漂着雪白的饺子。何大妈把饺子端到桌子上，然后就拧着小脚到外面招呼海光、文燕和孩子们。小妹眼睛瞎了，耳朵却很灵，她听见何大妈的呼喊，高兴地嚷着：“吃饺子喽，吃饺子喽。”海光、文燕和孩子们听见小妹喊叫，都陆陆续续走进房间里来。
一家人围坐在一起吃饺子，显得很亲切、温馨。日子又暂时恢复了往日的宁静。海光在无奈中看到了一丝希望，微笑着说：“震后，我们是头一回一起吃团圆饭吧？你们多吃点啊？”何大妈眼睛湿了，一只饺子放进嘴里，嚼都不想嚼。文燕已为何大妈又想何亮了，就安慰着说：“大妈，何亮没了，您就是我们的亲娘。”何大妈眼泪掉进碗里，手在索索颤抖。文秀瞪了文燕一眼：“今天我们说点高兴事儿。”海光嘿嘿地笑了笑：“文燕活着回来了，文秀的病好了，大妈，您说，是不是喜事儿？”何大妈频频点头：“是，是哩。”文燕慢慢吃着饺子，把一盘饺子推到海光面前，她无意中流露的那一缕关爱的目光，使海光心中一热。
海光不知道是欢喜还是茫然，在文燕到来的时候，他在这个家里几乎成为了失语者，他找不到合适的话语来解释眼前的一切，他更分辩不出谁对谁错，一些好听的话语安慰不了别人，更欺骗不了自己。他只知道必须承担起一个男人的责任，可以为爱放弃一个男人的尊严，他已经没有退路可走。孩子们吃得兴高采烈。文燕看见孩子们情绪就好起来了，他问小妹：“你们好长时间没吃上饺子了吧？”文秀看了看文燕说：“谁包呢？何大妈在居委会忙，我这个身体，大伙儿能吃上饭，也全靠海光了。”文燕不说话了，又抬眼看了看海光，眼神里充满感激。海光说都是应该的，然后就那脸扭向了一边。这是他个人品格为自己赢得的信赖和尊重。一个孩子问：“海光叔叔，你的眼睛怎么红了？”海光扭回了头，亲呢地拍了拍孩子的脑袋：“那天欢送解放军，我看你们的眼睛也红了。”小妹说“：解放军叔叔真好。文燕阿姨，你也是解放军叔叔救活的么？”文燕抚摸着小妹的肩膀：“是的。”小妹挥了挥拳头说：“长大了，我的眼睛治好了，我也要当解放军。”文燕酸楚地说：“好，有志气。阿姨给小妹治眼睛，会好的。”小妹眼泪汪汪地摸着文燕的手。文秀看着场面越来越悲，就提议让孩子们一起唱支歌儿。小妹和孩子们积极响应，海光正愁无法掩饰自己的情感，他拉开了手风琴。于是，孩子们载歌载舞地唱了起来。
几天的时间，文秀都在等待黑子的出现。黑子的突然违约，使文秀的计划遭受挫折，但她没有灰心，因为即使黑子不喜欢收留她文秀，但是他对小妹一直是装在心里的。他不会丢掉小妹的。小妹就是她跟黑子谈判的一个很大的筹码。那天实在等不及了，文秀竟然独自去找黑子，找到天黑也没见着他的人影。她又失望地走了回来，只觉得心头疼痛，说不清是伤心还是愤怒。
夜里来了寒流，文燕本来应该在医院值班，院领导怕她身体吃不消，就让别人替班了，文燕回到家里的时候，赶上何大妈在居委会值班，她就提出不跟文秀住了，她要跟孩子们住。这样海光又回到了