Chapter 43 Chapter Twelve

Because it was consistent with the party, some history could not stand chewing and reviewing later.Analyzing from the current Party's point of view, in the twenty-two years from 1957 to 1979, Gao Ming was not a qualified Communist Party member.During those years, he worked hard and painfully to stay consistent with the party, without making any mistakes, but when historical facts proved that the party made a series of serious mistakes, he made his own lifelong mistake.Some old friends and comrades accused him of being a political slicker. He plugged his ears and closed his eyes at the most difficult time for the country and the people, without any conscience.

This brings up the rightist mistakes made by old comrade Lu Wenxuan in 1960—yes, it was Lu Wenxuan who made mistakes in 1960, not him, he was right at the time. Gao Ming clearly remembered what happened on a rainy night in October of that year.That night, Lu Wenxuan came to him and asked him to sign a disaster report submitted to the Central Committee, but he refused.Gao Ming knew that the disaster report had been submitted to the Secretariat of the Provincial Party Committee for discussion before, but was rejected.Lu Wenxuan, the anti-rightist hero three years ago, has been explicitly denounced as rightist by the first secretary of the Provincial Party Committee.He didn't want to make any more troubles, and advised Lu Wenxuan not to make any more troubles.

Lu Wenxuan's eyes were red, and he almost cried, "...Old Gao! My old buddy! It's not that I'm looking for trouble, it's our common people who are in big trouble! People starve to death every day in the countryside, and in some places People are dying! So many people starved to death in peaceful times, I, the secretary in charge of agriculture, feel guilty! I have to report the real situation to the central government and urge the central government to take corresponding measures. We are old comrades in arms, and you are also responsible for these situations I know, you have to sign whatever you say about this name! I, Lu Wenxuan, represent the 50 million households in our province, and I beg you brother..."

The situation at that time was indeed very serious. Although Gao Ming did not understand it as clearly as Lu Wenxuan, who was in charge of agriculture, he still knew the basic situation.Ling Feng, the wife of the Provincial Party Committee who is engaged in research work, often disclosed to him the information obtained from the investigation and research, and told him in private that if this continues, it will be terrible, and there must be a big mess!After hearing this, he seriously warned Ling Feng, asking her to be consistent with the spirit of the Central Committee and not to spread such pessimism.Now old comrade-in-arms Lu Wenxuan not only wants to spread pessimism, but also drags him to write to the Central Committee. How can this work? !

Gao Ming sincerely said to Lu Wenxuan: "Old Lu, it's not that I'm venting your anger. It's useless even if I sign a letter with you. It's not long since the Lushan Conference! Peng Dehuai's right-leaning thoughts have just been criticized! " Lu Wenxuan stood up and said emotionally: "In my opinion, the criticism of Boss Peng is completely wrong! Boss Peng has a conscience, he has the courage to be responsible to the people, and he said what others dare not say. the truth!" These words are too outrageous, openly reverse the case for Peng Dehuai!Gao Ming had to point out seriously to his old comrade-in-arms: "Old Lu, your remarks are totally against the spirit of the Central Committee! If someone says you are an echo of Peng Dehuai's right opportunism, you can't explain it clearly!"

Lu Wenxuan was startled, as if he had grasped the weight of Gao Ming's words, he sighed, and sat down on the sofa again. "I...I'm not trying to reverse the case for Peng Dehuai, nor...I'm not a rightist. How could I be a rightist? I am more active in anti-rightism than anyone else. I...I just want to tell the central government the real situation below! Some situations are really shocking Ah! The fortress households in the old Beixihe base area begged for food, and I, the secretary of the Communist Party Provincial Party Committee in charge of agriculture, came to my door. I... If I pretend to be deaf and dumb, am I still a human being? Do I still have a conscience? "

Gao Ming said painfully: "Yes, I've heard about it. Ling Feng and I are having a hard time. We discussed it and took out all the 800 yuan in savings and sent it to the old base. people." Lu Wenxuan smiled wryly and said, "I have to admit that you, Commissar Gao, are not numb. However, what the common people look forward to is not your personal act of righteousness, but hope that this serious situation can be changed as soon as possible! So, old man, I still hope that you You can help me at this critical time..." Gao Ming shook his head, and said as calmly as possible: "I would like to help you with one arm, or even two arms, but I must remain consistent with the party."

Lu Wenxuan asked pointedly: "What if the facts prove that the party is wrong?" Gao Ming reminded again seriously: "Hey, Lao Lu, you are out of line again!" Lu Wenxuan twisted his neck: "It's not out of line. Historical facts have proved that the party has come to this day in the constant struggle against external enemies and internal mistakes! The wisdom of the party does not lie in not making mistakes, but in being able to discover mistakes in time and correct them. Correct your mistakes in the future practice of revolutionary struggle!" This is not unreasonable, he is an old party member, and he understands this more clearly than Lu Wenxuan.During the period of the Great Revolution, the party made right-leaning mistakes, and later made "left" mistakes, and he suffered greatly from them.If the party is wrong, he has no choice but to follow the wrong path, and if the party is correct, he must follow the correct path.However, those things are history after all. After seizing the national power, the party has matured, so how can it make the mistakes of this growth period again?

At that time, Gao Ming sincerely believed that the party was right, and that the current difficulties were not caused by the party's mistakes. Lu Wenxuan should neither generalize nor write any more letters to put pressure on the central government. After being silent for a long time, Gao Ming slowly said: "Old Lu, your mood is completely understandable, but I think you are still too biased! You only saw our province, have you seen all the provinces in the country? Do you understand everything? Even if you understand everything, the situation in the provinces is not good, and we comrades who are responsible for the work of the provincial committee should share the worries of the central government!"

Lu Wenxuan smiled coldly: "My political commissar Gao! You are right, but I can't use your beautiful big words to fill the bellies of peasants and save their lives! We are empty-handed to share the worries of the peasants, and the leaders of the counties and cities They are vainly calling to share the worries of our provincial party committee, and you say you want to share the worries of the central government, so in the end, who will share the worries of our farmers? Who? There must be food to share the worries! Food!" Gao Ming couldn't restrain himself anymore: "Old Lu, are you justified? You are in charge of agriculture, and you want food from me, is it plausible!"

Lu Wenxuan was about to cry: "I...I really can't help it!" Gao Ming stood up in a huff: "If there is no way, we must find a way! Otherwise, what do you want a provincial party secretary like me to do!" Lu Wenxuan was obviously shocked. He was stunned for a long time before he put the report in his arms, got up and said goodbye, and said before going out: "Old Gao, you are right! If there is no way, we must find a way." Come on! I, Lao Lu, have a solution, as long as the central government agrees, I will do it. After I go back, I will add these specific methods to the disaster report!" Gao Ming squeezed Lu Wenxuan's hand impulsively: "Why, you...you still want to go to the Central Committee?" Lu Wenxuan nodded solemnly: "Yes, I want to share the worries of the central government, and more importantly, the people!" "I advise you not to do this!" "My conscience wants me to do it!" This is how Lu Wenxuan made his mistake. He wrote to the Central Committee at the end of October that year, and was dismissed early the following year due to right deviation, and was transferred to a special district in a neighboring province as a nominal deputy commissioner. At the inner-party meeting criticizing Lu Wenxuan's right-leaning opportunism, Gao Ming made an impassioned speech, severely criticizing Lu Wenxuan's right-leaning thoughts and mistakes.However, he didn't mention a word of the exaggerated things that Lu Wenxuan said in front of him. Before Lu Wenxuan left, he quietly invited Lu Wenxuan to have a meal. At the last parting, he held Lu Wenxuan's hand tightly, repeatedly asking Lu Wenxuan to take care of himself. Lu Wenxuan held Gao Ming's hand and cried because of his drunkenness.And choked up and asserted: Because of our subjective mistakes, the greater disaster has been irreversible. Unfortunately, what Lu Wenxuan said was true. In the following year, the famine spread across the country like a plague. Thousands of people who planted crops died of starvation. The Chinese Communists wrote down the most tragic history since they came to power page of .Gao Ming, the gear that rotates with the main engine of the party, also helplessly left behind the sadness he created in the operation of the machine. This is the end of Gao's memories, and he would not talk about the future, saying that it is meaningless.But I think, whether it is interesting or not, it is necessary to make a rough explanation here. As far as I know, the subsequent political waves rose one after another, and many Lu Wenxuan were mercilessly swept away.In the face of the political wave that swept away Lu Wenxuan and others, Mr. Gao dutifully served as the cogs and screws of the party, following others' sayings and raised his hands to criticize them, and passed a decision on their punishment.And every time the struggle ended, Mr. Gao would always treat them to dinner, see them off, and ask them to take care of them, just like he did to Lu Wenxuan. Mr. Gao not only consistently adhered to the principles of the proletarian revolution, but also properly handled the friendship with these old comrades in arms. He won the tears of many people at that time and today.In fact, every time he told people to take care of themselves, Mr. Gao probably knew that these were useless words, but Mr. Gao had to say that every time. He wanted to comfort others as well as himself.Many of the comrades who were sent away were in very bad condition, some were imprisoned, some committed suicide, and Lu Wenxuan was actually beaten to death by the bad guys in the rebel faction in unprecedented years. Mr. Gao did not encounter such bad luck, and he was not even criticized for fighting against the stinker in the unprecedented way. As soon as the Provincial Revolutionary Committee was established, he was the first to be incorporated as a veteran cadre to become the deputy director. During the time of "fighting back against the trend of right deviation and overturning the verdict", Mr. Gao was posted a few big-character posters, but his stable position remained unshakable. After the "Gang of Four" was smashed, they were transferred from the local government to the central government and served as a minister of a certain department until they retreated safely and entered Babaoshan under the party flag. There are not many proletarian revolutionaries of the older generation who have lived their lives with honor like Gao Lao.Therefore, many comrades who have prejudices against Mr. Gao privately say that Mr. Gao is an old slicker without any conscience and humanity. They say "to be the party's cogs and screws", but they are actually doing everything possible to protect their own vested interests. On the surface, these words cannot be said to be unfounded, but after a careful analysis of the history of Mr. Gao's life, it will be found that the words are still a bit too much.Through long hours of working contact, especially through the trip to Qingpu, and later accompanied him through the last days of his life, I think that Gao's loyalty to the Chinese Communist Party cannot be doubted.Even if he is foolish and loyal, he has to admit that he is loyal.It is neither objective nor fair to say that Mr. Gao has struggled all his life to keep some "vested interests".Mr. Gao has no "vested interests" to protect.When the old man was dying, he donated all the savings of 53,000 yuan he had saved in his life to the people of Qingpu, and sent his only son, Gao Zhenhua, to the people's court. He came and went naked again. I have a clear understanding of the process of arresting Gao Zhenhua. About the time we came back from Qingpu, the public security department was ready to arrest this kid.But Mr. Gao was exhausted along the way, and he went to the hospital without entering the house. Gao Zhenhua was waiting by Mr. Gao's side all the time, and the public security personnel didn't do anything.Two months later, when Mr. Gao was discharged from the hospital and returned home, the comrades from the public security department were about to arrest him again. The leader of the bureau clearly instructed that as soon as Gao Zhenhua walked out of the gate of Gao's house, he would be arrested immediately.Gao Zhenhua was so smart that he didn't go out at all for more than ten days in a row, causing several police officers to stand guard for the criminal day and night for more than ten days in a row. Mr. Gao didn't know these things at the beginning. Although I knew, I didn't dare to tell him, for fear that he wouldn't be able to stand the excitement.Elder Gao and his late wife Ling Feng had four daughters, and only one son was arrested in his own home when his life was dying. This was a huge blow.The comrades in charge of the public security department probably took this into consideration and instructed the enforcement personnel to execute it outside the door, right? However, it didn't take long for Gao Lao to know.His son, who can't stay at home on weekdays, now stays at home all day, which is abnormal in itself. In addition, the figures of public security officers appear at the gate outside the hospital from time to time, so Mr. Gao has to be suspicious.Mr. Gao asked me first, and I said I didn't know.Gao Lao went to ask his son again. First, the son couldn't hide it, and second, he wanted to seek the old man's protection, so he told everything. Gao was furious and lost his composure at the time, raised his crutches and hit his son. The son dodged and dodged, and the two Qing Dynasty vases on the decorative cabinet were hit on the ground and shattered.When I heard the noise, I ran to Mr. Gao's study, and found Mr. Gao sitting on a chair with a pale face and Gao Zhenhua shy away from the door.I made way for Gao Zhenhua, helped Gao to lie down on the sofa, and advised Gao not to get angry. Gao sighed and burst into tears. That night, Mr. Gao proposed to have a good talk with his son, and Gao Zhenhua agreed.After dinner, the father and son talked late at night in the study, and there were crying sounds from time to time. Old Gao was crying, and Gao Zhenhua seemed to be crying too. Early the next morning, Mr. Gao sat on a chair in the living room after breakfast, and ordered me to invite the public security personnel outside the door to perform the task. I hesitated and asked, "This... is this appropriate?" Gao Lao said: "Appropriate! An old Communist Party member's house cannot be a shelter for criminals. If Gao Zhenhua hides at home and doesn't arrest him, how will the people look at us ruling Communists?!" I tactfully put forward: "Old Gao, I... let me go out for a walk with you!" Gao Lao waved his hand: "No need! The problem cannot be avoided. I have to apologize to them for waiting here for so long. Go ahead and invite them in!" I obeyed the order and invited the two police officers outside the door to come in. Mr. Gao said to the police officers: "I know all about the situation, and I apologize to you. I have no way to teach my children, and I have delayed your work..." The two public security officers hurriedly said: "No, no, Mr. Gao, this has nothing to do with you, the bureau leader instructed..." Mr. Gao interrupted them with a wave of his hand: "The instructions of your bureau leader are wrong! I, Gao Ming, am an old comrade, but I am not a special citizen. Everyone is equal before the law!" "Then, let's..." Elder Gao nodded painfully. Only then did two public security officers enter Gao Zhenhua's room, put handcuffs on Gao Zhenhua and escort him out. As soon as Gao Zhenhua came out of his room, he yelled at Gao Lao: "Dad, do you think that you have lived like a human being all your life? If you want relatives and no relatives, you want friends and no friends, ghosts don't come to the door, and even a son is not here." Can't keep it!" Gao was so angry that he stopped on his crutches and said out of breath: "I...how do I get my life, I have my own party, I have my own people, I have my own historical commentary, it's not up to you Comment... comment on the head!" The two public security officers saw that Gao was so old-fashioned, afraid of accidents, they hurriedly dragged Gao Zhenhua out of the gate. The crutch in Gao's hand paused again: "Stop! I...I want to finish talking to this Nizi!" The two police officers had no choice but to hold Gao Zhenhua hostage and stop. Gao Lao raised his crutches and pointed at Gao Zhenhua's forehead: "Nizi, I, as a father, don't...not that I can't protect you, but that I...can't protect you anymore! It's not that I never gave you a chance, but you I don’t know how to cherish! That’s right, I... I am your father, but... but more... an old Communist Party member who joined the party in 1924! I... I want your son, but... but more... more Protect the reputation of our party!" Gao Zhenhua probably wanted to piss the old man off, so he sneered and said, "Forget it, Dad! You're too selfish. After all, you're still doing it for yourself..." Gao was stunned for a moment, and suddenly burst into tears, laughing: "For myself, for myself? Where am I...where am I? Ah? Where? I am...in the cause of our party! In... In the Chinese Communist Party from 1921 to... to today...all the great, glorious and correct...in the cause..." The two public security officers respected Mr. Gao, and they didn't allow Gao Zhenhua to say anything else, so they pushed Gao Zhenhua out of the door. Then, they turned around at the door, touched their heels, stood upright, and gave a solemn salute to Mr. Gao. . On the same day, Mr. Gao fell ill again and was admitted to the hospital in the evening. Forty-three days later, he died in the hospital at the age of eighty-four.During the period before his death, Mr. Gao obviously wanted to avoid the embarrassing reality in front of him and the unpleasant memories of the rest of his life.When I was sane, the old man always talked to me about Qingpu, about the General Union strike in 1925, and how tens of thousands of workers could be seen pouring into William Street as soon as I closed my eyes.It is said that every time I see the morning light on the window of the ward, I will think of the morning I escaped many years ago.Many times, the old man grabbed my hand, looked at me like a stubborn child, and told me to write about that morning, about the General League strike, and not about him—especially not about his whole life.Gao Lao believes that his life is not worth writing about, but the first KMT-CPC cooperation is worth writing about.It has been written, and it is of positive significance to the promotion of Taiwan's return and the third cooperation between the Kuomintang and the Communist Party... When Mr. Gao was in a slightly better mood, I also asked him carefully: is he unwilling to face up to the rest of his life, is he trying to avoid something? ——I didn't dare to tell him the slick and unconscionable comments I heard in private, but I just asked him if he wanted to "evade"? Gao Lao admitted frankly that he wanted to avoid some painful memories.He believes that this pain is not his own pain, but the pain of a political party.Mr. Gao said excitedly that all his achievements, whether in wartime or in peacetime, were the party's achievements; all the mistakes he made were also the party's mistakes.In today's era of deep reform, it is not very positive to repeat these painful mistakes... At that time, Mr. Gao didn't realize that death was coming, and he said with great interest that after he recovered, he wanted me to accompany him to Qingpu for a walk to see if the Zhonglie Mausoleum on Huaying Mountain had been rebuilt?See how the compilation of Qingpu Shizhi is going?Naturally, Mr. Gao also missed those old friends who belonged to the KMT and the Communist Party.The old man sincerely told me that if An Zhongliang, Ji Boshun, Zheng Shaobai, and He Gongcheng were still alive, he would definitely invite them all to Beijing for a drink to reminisce about the old days.This time I will only talk about friendship, not about struggle.Since that morning in 1925, they have been fighting back and forth for decades, and it is really fighting to the end... After Mr. Gao passed away, I sent Mr. Gao's urn to Babaoshan, then headed straight to Qingpu, and began to trace the distant era of 1925.I found Zheng Shaobai's son in Qingpu Dongfang New Village, and Ji Boshun's nephew at No. 42 Jiefang Road, Qingpu. We reviewed, speculated, pondered, and verified as newcomers, trying to objectively and fairly reproduce the parties in our hearts. image of life.I feel that the road that their older generation has already walked seems to be still extending under our feet, extending endlessly... Finally, when I said goodbye to Qingpu, I went to Zhonglie Mausoleum alone.Sure enough, as I expected, the Mausoleum of Zhonglie still lay in the high wall of the gasoline depot, still so dilapidated.And the secretary of the municipal party committee who solemnly promised to rebuild the Zhonglie Mausoleum has already retreated to the second line. When I found him at the Municipal People's Congress, he pretended not to know me.Later, when I finally remembered it, I casually said, "What are you repairing? Who needs it?" I froze for a moment: Yes, who needs it?