Chapter 87 Chapter 86 Heaven and Earth

In a VIP room at the west end of the Capital Airport terminal, Professor Ding Jieqiong stood alone in front of the large floor-to-ceiling windows.The scarlet brocade curtain was drawn to both sides, with only a gap about one meter wide in the middle, and a layer of milky white gauze as thin as a cicada's wing was separated from the glass.The room is filled with dimness and darkness, sofas, tea tables, museum shelves, screens, carpets, paintings, bonsai and potted flowers are all immersed in the twilight; not like morning, but like evening.Seeing through the gauze curtain, as if being in the high-altitude clouds, the eyes are confused...

Ding Jieqiong was wearing that gray-yellow windbreaker, which was casually rooted to the belt. She was tall and well-proportioned, with thick chestnut-black long hair tied in a bun at the back of her head.She folded her hands behind her back, expressionless and motionless, like a statue; this is a statue of a goddess, and the "goddess" just silently looks at the outside world, gazing at everything covered by clouds and mist. She arrived at the airport several hours early.It was the first time for her to come to this civil aviation airport.The director himself obviously received the notice, and led two staff members to wait for the black "Jim" car in front of the terminal building, and helped carry the luggage into the very bright VIP room, and asked the waiter to bring tea cups and fruits dessert.When the director asked Professor Ding very politely what else she needed, she also replied very politely but simply: "Until I board the plane, please keep me alone and quiet."

"Okay, okay." The field chief nodded repeatedly, touched the brim of his hat with his right hand, saluted and left.Ding Jieqiong extended his right hand to the driver: "Goodbye, young man. Thank you for your hard work these days." The young man's eyes were red, and he probably wanted to say something, but he didn't say it.He nodded, shook his head again, turned around and left with the director and two staff members.Seen from the back, the young driver lowered his head and seemed to be wiping his eye sockets while walking. After watching them leave, Ding Jieqiong lingered on the carpet for a while, walked to the French windows, first drew all the milky white gauze curtains, and then closed most of the scarlet brocade curtains.Then he stood in the twilight, staring outside for a long time with blurred eyes...

The female scientist had a premonition of what was going on.This is one of the reasons why she asked for materials from the Yunnan Gaoshan Station on the second afternoon of her return to Beijing. The Situation Report immediately attracted her.Yes, the mountain station is very difficult, but in her eyes, it is more beautiful. It is more "Hengduan" than Hengduan Mountains.The mountains are steep and steep, with strong vertical changes. The rivers in a "broom-like arrangement" have a huge drop, twists and turns, abundant water, turbulent water flow, cliffs on both sides, floods, landslides, mudslides and landslides. A dam was formed to block the river, and the waterfall-like mud rolled down with boulders engulfing it, and the sound was thrilling for miles...

There are many difficulties in building roads and bridges, and traffic is often blocked.The car was trapped in the uninhabited mountains, and at night wolves, leopards, wild boars and black bears squatted around the car and howled... Beijing, Liuzhou, Jinchengjiang, Guiyang, Zunyi, finally arrived in Kunming! Trains, small trains, coaches, dirt roads and more "dirt" roads... Repeatedly going down deep ravines and up high mountains, with a vertical height of hundreds of meters, car crashes and fatalities, summer rains, torrential rains, continuous torrential rains, roads and bridges washed away, and being besieged on an isolated island surrounded by water.

Dozens of migrant workers, dozens of donkeys.Hundreds of sets of instruments, tons of magnets, lead and aluminum blocks.A special "caravan" trekked hard on the rugged and steep trails, lived under the cliffs of the forest, and ate "rice soaked in rain".A donkey stumbled and fell into a 100-meter-deep ravine, only to be swallowed by the roaring rapids in an instant!A migrant worker then fell and survived because he was caught by a tree branch under the cliff... In winter, there is a lot of snowfall, and the accumulation of ice and snow is very thick.The air is so thin that the atmospheric pressure is only two-thirds that of sea level.Middle-aged and young people, cooks and scientific researchers have all become "porters", relying on manpower to move several tons, dozens or hundreds of tons of materials up!Dizziness, nail flipping and stomach cramps, drinking water that is always half boiled, eating rice that is always raw...

There are no grants and allowances.low salary.Each person pays the same food expenses every month and eats the same meals; all the harvested potatoes and cabbages are handed over to the cafeteria.After the wheat and corn were brought back from ten kilometers away, they were ground, sieved, ground with one hand, and read with the other... This seemingly isolated mountain station is full of single young people, only a middle-aged couple, and the hens they raise actually lay eggs.Regardless of whether there are five or six people or more than ten people in the whole station, anyway, we must wait until the chicken has laid "enough" eggs, and everyone has one before eating!

The "difficult problems" that the "Situation Report" asked the superiors to help solve were unimaginable in the United States, Europe, and Japan: pressure cookers, medicines for altitude sickness, "the last mile", transformers, and trolleys. Donkeys and donkey carts!Reading these words, Ding Jieqiong wanted to shed tears at the time; looking back today, her eye sockets and heart are still hot.What lovely people, what a precious spirit, what a beautiful soul! Gaoshan Station hopes that one or two "renowned scientists" or "senior researchers" will come to the mountain once or twice a year to write texts, especially for female scientists.In such a harsh environment, what they think about is still the cutting-edge scientific undertakings of the motherland, and the cultivation of young scientific researchers...

Although Ding Jieqiong was expressionless and motionless at this moment, like a statue, he was actually in a very restless mood.Through the milky white gauze curtain as thin as cicada's wings, she seemed to have seen the Wumeng Mountain shrouded in mist.Yes, the mountain is very difficult; but she believes that her physical fitness will adapt after a long time; cosmic ray exploration has been her profession since the beginning, and it is an endless and mysterious branch of the field of high-energy physics; How much the young people there yearn for the guidance of the old scientists... The people there are all "comrades" and a family; it is like a paradise, far away from the world, away from pain, troubles and filth.Or, to use the words in her last letter to Su Guanlan: there is no deception, no betrayal!

Tuk tuk - there seems to be some noise. The female scientist remained motionless and silent. tuk tuk.Yes, a soft knock on the door. Before Ding Jieqiong could react, the two heavy doors of the VIP room had been pushed open with a rustling sound. "Aunt Ding..." a girl's timid voice. The female scientist didn't even look back, and said coldly: "Staff, I have already asked you, before boarding the plane, please leave me alone and quiet." "I'm not a waiter." It was the same girl, with an even more timid voice, "Aunt Ding, I, we..." The professor turned around slowly, expressionless, with his hands still behind his back.Her body suddenly froze, and her eyes shone with surprise—she saw Su Guanlan and his wife, as well as a round-faced girl in her twenties.The three guests all stopped and looked at her with different expressions...

"Sister Qiong!" Ye Yuhan was the first to shout with her eyes focused. In an instant, countless intricate and indescribable expressions flashed across Ding Jieqiong's face.But she quickly returned to normal, with a graceful smile on her face, she stepped forward quickly and generously, and extended her right hand to Ye Yuhan: "Oh, I'm so rude. I didn't know who it was just now, it turned out to be Mrs. Su. This is the second time we've met." As soon as their hands touched each other, Ye Yuhan felt that Ding Jieqiong's right hand was cold, and a cold current spread all over her body in an instant. While speaking, Ding Jieqiong had already handed her right hand to Jin Xingji, and asked with a smile, "Did you call me just now, girl? What's your name?" "My name is Little Xingxing!" The girl blurted out. "'little stars'?" "Oh, no, my real name is Jin Xingji." The girl blushed, "'Little Xing Xing' is my baby name, and the teachers like to call me that." "It's better to call it 'Little Xing Xing'!" Ding Jieqiong smiled and stroked the girl's forehead lovingly, then turned her head and said to Ye Yuhan, "This child's eyes are big and round, shining like the night sky The shining stars are so pretty—what do you think, Mrs. Su?" "Yes, Miss Qiong." Ye Yuhan smiled and nodded, "Everyone likes this child very much, I'm so glad you like her too." Ding Jieqiong seemed reluctant to part with her. While withdrawing her gaze from the girl's face, she restrained her smile, and slowly extended her right hand to Su Guanlan: "You are here too, Mr. Su." "Sister Qiong..." Su Guanlan murmured.He was bewildered and seemed to have lost his ability to respond. Ding Jieqiong took a deep look at Su Guanlan, withdrew his right hand, his eyes drifted over the faces of Ye Yuhan and Jin Xingji, crossed his fingers in front of his chest, took two steps back, and said with emotion: "Thank you for coming to support me when I left Beijing." See you off." "No, Sister Qiong!" It was Ye Yuhan's voice, "We're not here to see you off." Ding Jieqiong looked at her in surprise. "Sister Qiong, indeed, we are not seeing you off." Su Guanlan spoke with difficulty, "I, we are, are..." After all, he couldn't continue.It was Little Xingxing who finished speaking instead of him: "Aunt Ding, we are here to keep you!" Ding Jieqiong's face changed slightly. "Really, Sister Qiong, we are here to keep you." Ye Yuhan's eyes and tone were very earnest, "Guanlan and I, as well as Xiao Xingxing and many comrades, all hope that you will stay, beg you to stay, stay In Beijing, stay among us." "Stay in Beijing, Aunt Ding." Little Xingxing's round eyes glistened with tears, "After the welcome meeting that day, the news of your return to China spread like wildfire, everyone was so happy, especially in the Academy of Sciences and universities... ..." Ding Jieqiong stared at the little star. "Aunt Ding, there are a few more words, maybe I shouldn't say them. But since I'm here, I'm in a hurry, so let's say them all!" Little Xingxing stammered, his face flushed, "Aunt Ding , please don’t blame Teacher Su too much, please forgive Teacher Su! He is a very good person, a very good scientist. He loves you very much, has loved you for decades, and has been waiting for you for decades. For Wait for you, he married very late, he is almost fifty years old now, but he has two children, the girl is seven years old, and the boy is only five years old! I dare say he still loves you today..." "Mrs. Su," Ding Jieqiong said angrily, and smiled at Ye Yuhan, "Listen, what is this child talking about!" "No, Sister Qiong, please don't call me 'Mrs. Su' anymore. My relatives and friends call me Yuhan, so you should call me that too!" Ye Yuhan stepped forward, took Ding Jieqiong's arm, with a pleading tone , "Also, don't call him 'Mr. Su' anymore, let's just say 'brother Guanlan' as we did back then." "Yuhan—you are Ye Yuhan?" Ding Jieqiong opened his eyes wide. "Yes, my name is Ye Yuhan." "You were back then..." Ding Jieqiong was shocked, "Ye Yuhan, Guanlan's fiancée back then?" "Yes." Ye Yuhan was a little at a loss. "..." Ding Jieqiong shook her head indistinctly, moaning silently. Really, Ding Jieqiong knew that Su Guanlan was married, but he didn't expect that his wife was Ye Yuhan, "still" Ye Yuhan, still the "back then" Ye Yuhan—the one who caused her lifelong pain and suffered for a long time because of her existence. A woman in deep mental torment!In an instant, Ding Jieqiong thought of too many past events, and recalled the words in the letter to Guanlan back then: My God, when you were "desperate", why didn't you think of me, why didn't you think of our common future?Why did you choose to take the oath, be engaged, surrender, and bend the knee?I haven't even started to fall in love, but I've already been broken in love!I fell in love with another woman's "fiancé"!I have a foreboding feeling that you will pay for your "engagement" and "vows", even for life... Ding Jieqiong wrote: You have given the other party a "twenty years" problem, which shows that you do not understand women and why God created Eve in the first place.Women exist for love, and it is love that allows humans to survive and evolve as a species.Just like me, don't say "twenty years", for true love, I am willing to give my whole life... Ding Jieqiong wrote: I have been trying not to mention Ye Yuhan.It's not out of jealousy or arrogance, I just don't know what to say.In fact, I have been thinking about her and caring about your relationship with her.I asked myself dozens of times and hundreds of times: Did I violate the moral code?Am I sorry for that silent and unfortunate woman?Ding Jieqiong also wrote: I feel that she is definitely not an ordinary woman, and this feeling is becoming more and more vivid and strong!I know with female instinct exactly: she has a rare character and quality, tough, serious, and ambitious.She's a good girl, she deserves to be happy... A few days ago, in the secluded courtyard outside the front door, Ding Jieqiong said to the hostess: "You are so happy!" Until then, even until a minute ago, she only knew that Su Guanlan was married, but she didn't realize that his wife was Ye Yuhan—she had never seen a picture of Ye Yuhan, let alone her in person... But in any case, it really complied with the Tang poem: "Everyone comes to the present day"! Since Ye Yuhan was in front of her, Ding Jieqiong remembered something, stared at Ye Yuhan and asked, "Do you remember Hull?" "Hull, the American pilot?" "yes." "Remember." Ye Yuhan asked, "Sister Qiong, you met him in America, didn't you? What happened to him afterwards? He..." Ding Jieqiong recalled Hull's last words about "a Chinese female doctor": her blood flows through my veins, and my life today is bestowed by her.Please, find her, find that female doctor.The Chinese female doctor was thin and haggard, but in my mind she was beautiful and charming.I am grateful to her and miss her. Whenever I think of her, I am always full of confusion and sentimentality. I can't tell what kind of emotion it is.I don’t know if you forgot her name, but I’ll say it again: Her name is Ye Yuhan... Ding Jieqiong stared at Ye Yuhan.How many years have passed, and as the years go by, the "Chinese female doctor" must be much older, not as old as before.But no matter who, as long as they know Ye Yuhan, they will be convinced by Hull's description: strong and quiet, gentle and melancholy, ordinary but extraordinary... "Sister Qiong, how is Hull now?" Ye Yuhan became serious, "He was seriously injured, and his blood has problems. I have been thinking about him, but I have no way to find out." "He's okay, okay..." Ding Jieqiong stuttered a bit.At this moment, she thought, it was impossible to tell the truth about Hull. "He asked me to look for you and say hello to you. He hopes to have the opportunity to come to China in the future and thank you in person for saving your life." "Hey, what kind of life-saving grace! As long as he is still alive, that's fine." Ye Yuhan actually smiled, "Hull is only in his fifties now, and he is in his prime." "Mom, who is Hull?" Little Xingxing asked, "Why didn't you mention it?" "Are you mother and daughter?" Ding Jieqiong wondered. "Thirteen years ago, when Dr. Ye was a doctor in Peking, he risked his life to save me from the American bacterial weapons laboratory." The girl nodded and said, "After that, I called her mother !" "Hey, there is such a legend?" Ding Jieqiong showed a surprised expression. "My mother has so many legends! Teacher Su has been saved by her. She also participated in the frontline rescue in Myanmar. No one knows how many people she has saved..." "This kid talks too much!" Ye Yuhan said very modestly, "I'm a doctor. It's my job to treat people and participate in the treatment." Ding Jieqiong stared at Ye Yuhan.She was thinking, what an extraordinary soul this ordinary woman possesses!For many years, she endured the pain alone in silence, never blaming others, including those who caused her pain and harm; things like rescuing Hull, who stood up without hesitation when life and death were at stake, and did not hesitate Exchanging one's own death for others' survival—how much should Ye Yuhan have experienced? On the eve of graduation, the love letter that Ding Jieqiong wrote to Guanlan fell into Ye Yuhan's hands.Unexpectedly, she handed over the letter of trust to Zhu Ertong to Su Guanlan! Who doesn't know the inherent exclusivity of love?In the following twenty years, whenever Ding Jieqiong looked back on this incident, he couldn't believe that he could show the same kindness.How many years have passed, and things are different today, Ding Jieqiong thinks calmly: from that time, Ye Yuhan was indeed Su Guanlan's "statutory" fiancée; Even the "unrequited love" love that has occurred since girlhood is always a fact, and it is also a fact that this kind of love is loyal, pure, persistent and never fades.Even Ding Jieqiong himself once said, "If there is no 'specificity' in the essential attribute of love, if love can be divided into several equal parts like other objects, then I would like to share happiness with her..." Did Ye Yuhan hinder her love with Su Guanlan, or did she cause Ye Yuhan's physical and mental trauma—a trauma that is still bleeding today?Or change the way of asking: who is more painful, she or Ye Yuhan?Who has been hurt more deeply?Who ruined the youth of their generation?Who is to blame, who is to blame! Ye Yuhan turned around silently and walked to a coffee table.She left a brown paper package there when she entered the room, and now she picks it up again; the volume and weight of the paper package are like several thick thirty-two-format books stacked together, and the hands are heavy.The blue and black pen writing on the paper bag was written by Ye Yuhan, and it has faded obviously: "1933".Now, she untied the bundle of string, spread out the paper bag, and held it in her hands.Ding Jieqiong watched, but didn't react for dozens of seconds.Her eyes were wide open, her heart was beating fast: dozens of old letters and a dozen photos were presented in front of her.The envelopes were all in her handwriting, and they all stated that they were sent from "Jinda", that is, Jinling University, and they were all signed "Ding Jian". Isn't that the charming girl in the photo is her?Those were the love letters and photos she sent to Guanlan from Jinling University back then. "Sister Qiong, the letters and photos between you and Guanlan are still well preserved in Guanlan's hands." Ye Yuhan looked at Ding Jieqiong and said sincerely, "All the letters and photos you sent to him after 1929, He kept them all carefully and filled a large suitcase. Even in the war-torn era, he could throw away everything, but this suitcase was always with him. I understand and respect this historical fact. These letters and photos are all I organized and collected it myself, you can see our hearts, feel our deep love for you, and our affection for you.” On the way to the airport, Ye Yuhan let the car stop outside the house for a while.She took out the large suitcase, which was overstuffed, and opened it; after thinking about it, she picked out this bag... "Really, Sister Qiong, I'm like a little star, I beg you to forgive Guanlan. He is a very emotional person, and he will never 'deceive' or 'betray'." Ye Yuhan confided with tears in her eyes, "Sister Qiong , you are a relative of Guanlan. There is an old saying in China: "Every festive season misses relatives". Every festival is festive, especially the New Year's Eve, eating reunion dinner, watching the year, setting off fireworks, watching fireworks, and the sound of cannons rumbling all over the sky. When the colors are colorful and thousands of families are ecstatic, Guanlan often stays up all night, in a trance, meditating alone. Whenever this happens, I know he is missing you; I think of those two Tang poems: "We will Keep your eyes open all night long, and repay you for not raising your eyebrows in your life'. How can I fall asleep during such sleepless nights! I go to the study every one or two hours to see him, refill his water, add clothes, prepare medicine, and do massages. Until dawn. Sister Qiong, we can’t change the historical facts, but we can create a new future. Guanlan has long been your relative, your brother; you will find that I will also be your relative and your sister from now on. Stay in Beijing Come on, Sister Qiong! You will find that there are many relatives in Beijing..." "No, please stop talking, Yuhan!" Ding Jieqiong felt that if she continued speaking, her determination would be shaken and she would collapse!She has been unable to speak for a long time, like a ball of cotton stuck in her heart.After a long time, she calmed down a little, grabbed Ye Yuhan's hands, stroked them for a long time, and said slowly: "Yuhan, I understand you better, or I really understand you. I understand why Guanlan and you can go through all kinds of hardships. After hardships, we finally came together. I know for sure that he has the most reliable and lovely life partner, and he has got the best woman in the world! I feel relieved for Guanlan, and I am even more happy for him; You are better than me, and you can make him happy. What I am worried about now is whether he can really make you happy. He should really love you, cherish you, considerate you wholeheartedly, and repay you with his whole life! Moreover, I also Now that I understand more, I should leave Beijing..." "Sister Joan!" "Aunt Ding!" "Little Xingxing, good boy, don't say any more." Ding Jieqiong patted the girl's head lovingly, "Take good care of Teacher Su and be considerate of your mother. Our generation, especially the two of them, have had a hard time getting here. As she spoke, she turned to Su Guanlan and Ye Yuhan, her eyes and tone were full of affection, but calm and tenacious, "I once wanted to enjoy a moment of solitude and quiet before boarding the plane, but this little wish could not be realized. But I Still very happy, happy to see you again before leaving Beijing, talking to you, learning a lot of things I didn't know in the past, especially seeing your true feelings. Now, I thank you and I beg you, Stop talking, don't keep me. I love you and will miss you, but my determination to leave will not change." As Ding Jieqiong said, she walked to the window, clasped her hands behind her back again, and looked through the gauze curtain, her eyes were full of confusion. "Sister Qiong, I made a decision on the way here." Ye Yuhan walked behind Sister Qiong, her voice was very soft, but she spoke clearly, "If you leave Beijing, then I will leave the child with Guanlan. Also set off for Kunming..." "Yuhan, what are you talking about!" Ding Jieqiong suddenly turned around, her eyes filled with tears. "I said, I want to go to Wumeng Mountain, to the Gaoshan Station. Sister Qiong, I am a doctor. In the place where the air is thin and the environment is harsh, I will accompany you, care for you, and take care of you. I will try my best to ensure that Your health will bring more warmth and comfort to your body and mind that has suffered enough injuries. Sister Qiong, I believe that one day you will return to Beijing; at that time, I will come back with you, because Beijing needs you more ..." "Yuhan," Ding Jieqiong shouted tremblingly, "Yuhan!" The female professor's voice stopped abruptly.At the same time, she showed a strange expression, her eyes froze... The heavy door of the VIP room was pushed open.Several people appeared at the door. Ding Jieqiong stepped forward quickly, and stretched out her hands from a distance: "Ah, teacher, teacher's wife, you are here!"