Chapter 56 self-respect

As a graduate of a crappy university, I've always been curious about the likes of Yale and Stanford, what's so special about it other than the ivy wrapping around the old house?The next best thing is that there are several well-known universities in Beijing. Whenever I go to do something, I observe it. I have two impressions. One is that the girls are not as coquettish as our school, and the boys are not like the hooligans of our school; The children looked very energetic. Although they were worried about employment, they still had a fresh and gorgeous self-confidence.Unlike us back then, Yintang was black and full of depression.What is the reason?If it is said that these schools are relatively high-quality, and the students are like dragons and phoenixes, I don't believe it.I'm still the Ultraman among humans, why did I always look like a beaten monster back then?I think it's more of a cultural difference.

When Mr. Chen Danqing went to the United States for the first time, he was shocked: the young men and women on the street all had faces that had never been bullied!I guess Mr. Chen forgot to say a word, that is, those faces are not ready to bully others.As we know, such a face is rare in China.I think this small detail can explain why China is like this, and it can also explain why our school is like this. I had a teacher who went to a good university and taught at a bad university, and he made a comparison between the two.He said that when Peking University welcomed the freshmen, the principal said, students, you are welcome to Peking University, reminding you to take the time to study hard, because you are the pillars of the country!In our school, the principal said, students, welcome to L University, and remind you to obey the management. Don’t think that you are the pride of heaven when you enter the university. Is the pride of heaven your virtue?They are the students of Peking University!

After four years in such a university, I have not yet become a scumbag, which is simply a huge achievement, comparable to building a pyramid.When I was very young, I was obsessed with a question: Am I the greatest and most special of all human beings who have ever lived?Now I am beginning to be convinced of this.So I set up a shrine at home, put a picture of myself, and performed rituals every day.There is a very famous Bodhisattva statue with a side face in Liaoning, called "Old Mother with Crooked Neck". People who are confused by the uncertainty of this society think that it is not effective, so they all go to worship: "Old mother, bless!" I think , I might as well destroy my cervical spine, and one day I can stand shoulder to shoulder with it. At that time, any female model or actress will hold my photo and say, "Husband, bless you!"

At that time, as a straight man, I will have to learn an EMBA to manage this group of wild hooves... This topic will stop here.Seriously, is my alma mater the only one that produces scum?Is it true that only bad schools that rank low or even not at all in the "211 Project" are dedicated to dispelling young people's arrogance, trampling on their self-esteem, and making humbleness prevail everywhere?I don't think so. Since I was born as a human being, there is a voice chattering in my ears, that is "you are nothing".When you go to school, the school will tell you that the most important thing in the world is the motherland, the second is the collective, and the third is the teacher.Where is our little ego?No room was left.When you were young, when you wrote essays, you said that you would be a scientist in the future. When you pissed off your teacher someday, he would say, just you, still a scientist?The whole class roared with laughter.From kindergarten to college, there are so many things like this that everyone ignores how cruel and stupid it is.If this is education, I can only say that it is worse than domestication of animals. Domestication of animals does not require insulting animals, but our lives are full of ignorance, hostility and viciousness, trying to destroy people's self-esteem and then quickly.

When I was a reporter, I was once scolded by someone: "Why did you jump over the wall? A small reporter from a local media like you can sneak around!" You know, there are no chickens behind that wall, There were no dogs, only a crashed plane and dozens of dead bodies. Firstly, I felt that it was a responsible move for me as a reporter to investigate the scene. Secondly, if the door could be opened, why would I jump over the wall?This person stopped me, of course it was caused by the system, not his own will, and I shouldn't blame him, but what can I do?Did you say thank you for the insult?Of course I could only fight back and say: "I'm a small reporter, yes, but you are a high-ranking official? You squat here staring at this wall in the middle of the night, and you are not afraid of freezing your ass off! You are over 40 years old and even a section chief." Didn't even get involved with you!"

You see, we are all repeating the same sentence: you are nothing.We hate each other in the cold night, but the source of the problem is far away.