Chapter 10 7. Is there a time revolution?

Andre: In this world / there is no such thing as the real world / only lies / force you to think through. This lyrics touched MM very much.Is this the world in the eyes of an 18-year-old? Confused, I dug out my 18-year-old diary from the box. Opening it for the first time in 34 years, the old plastic skin is dark green, with the words "Youth Diary" engraved on it.The paper is yellow and a bit brittle. The handwriting in blue ink is still clear, but it looks a little strange. In 1970, MM, who was wearing a white dress and a black dress at a girls' school, was studying day and night, preparing for the summer college entrance examination.

Math test papers were handed out today.I got 46 points in the test. I have a review exam tomorrow, how many blank papers will I hand in?Can't tell if it's regret or what, or I don't care at all?What kind of world is a university that requires us to give everything so blindly for it? I can feel depressed, which means I am still alive, but why do I always feel that I cannot find myself?So this is called "lost"? I want to cry, but I have no tears.I want to run away, but I have no feet.I want to yell, but I have no voice. Days, I seem to die in your cold shadow. What is the meaning of survival?Who decides the rules of the game of survival?

Can I "betray"? Several lines of words on this page were smudged by water stains, obviously written under blurred eyes.Side by side with this page is the colored page of the diary, printed with an inspirational article, "Keep the Word".The first half Confucian's "people cannot stand without trust" - to govern a country, military affairs can be given up as a last resort, and the economy can be given up as a last resort, but the trust of the people cannot be lacking.The second half says: "Build a heart for the heaven and earth, establish a life for the people, inherit the knowledge of the sages, and bring peace to all generations." It can be regarded as a manifesto of Chinese Confucian philosophy, and it also expresses the lofty ideals of our nation... The founding father advocated the Great Asiaism, which is completely opposite to those domineering Slavic, Great Germanic and other doctrines. It is completely a moral acquaintance, not a brutal conspiracy and armed aggression...

I was thinking, in the adult world at that time, how many people "asked" me and "understood" me instead of "judging" me?In the world at that time, how many "truths" were there for me to see, and how many "lies" I had to "pass through"? I am afraid that every generation of young people is much more complex and profound than their parents imagined.I won't "judge" you, Andrey, I'm learning to "ask" you, "know" you.An adult is locked in his own inertial thinking and has the power to formulate the rules of the game, so he is too easy to be self-righteous. Both "asking" and "understanding" require new learning, and you also need to be a little patient with MM.Encourage me.

Today Philip came home from school very angry.In the morning he goes to school with his iPod, sits outside the classroom listening to music with headphones, and waits for the bell to ring for the first class.A teacher happened to pass by and had his iPod confiscated.The things were handed over to the class director, who said they would be detained for two weeks. He said angrily: "It's less than eight o'clock, there's no class at all, and the teacher hasn't come yet, why can't I listen?" "Don't be angry," I said, "you first find out, how is the school's regulations written in black and white? It means that it is not allowed during 'classes', then you are right; but if the regulations say 'in the school No carry', then you're wrong, aren't you?"

He immediately dug out the school regulations, and sure enough, the article said "not allowed within the school grounds".Well, there is no more singing. He was convinced, paused for a while, and then said, "But such a rule is unreasonable." "Maybe it doesn't make sense," I said. "School rules can be debated. The question is, do you want to spend time debating this?" He shook his head.The kid already knows that it takes time to make a "revolution".He doesn't play football enough. "But," he thought about it, he said, "Which article gives him the right to detain my things for two weeks? Is it written in black and white? And students often listen to it, and I haven't seen the teacher 'ban it'."

That's right, after there is a law, there must be "implementation rules" or "reward and punishment measures" before it can be implemented.There are no such detailed rules in the school rules, and the implementation varies from person to person. His doubts are justified. "Besides, this level director is very authoritative," he said. "His mantra is, follow what I say, and don't ask me why. I think he is very overbearing. MM, what do you think about being a teacher? Should such logic be used to communicate with students?" "No. Teachers with this kind of thinking deserve to be challenged." I said.

"You know, MM, I'm not because of the Walkman, but because I think he doesn't make sense." "Then—" I asked, "Are you going to seek his theory?" He thought for a moment and said, "Let me think. This man is stubborn." "Will he give bad grades to students because they have conflicts with him?" "That's not true. The average German teacher is not like this. They know that the marking cannot be influenced by prejudice." "You won't stop asking for reason because you're afraid of him?" "Won't."

"Then—do you want me to communicate with him?" "That's not fair to him. No, I'll handle it myself." Andre, how do you handle conflict?For the person whom I disagree with, think that he just controls your grades How do you face your teacher?Since you were in elementary school, I have been thinking about this problem all the way: I hope my children dare to challenge authority for their own values ​​and beliefs, but some authority may hurt you in reverse, so how should I teach my children to be "mighty and not powerful?" Bend" and at the same time know how to protect yourself from harm?is it possible?

Here's what I told 15-year-old Philip: You're going to meet a lot of people you don't appreciate, disapprove of, and have to work with.This person may be your boss, colleague or subordinate. This person may be your mayor or national leader.You have to make a decision every time: whether to break with him and fight, or to compromise and accept.Is it worth fighting?Compromise, don't you feel at ease?It is difficult to find a way between belief and reality. What about you, Andre?When you were a child, you didn't dare to ask for the ball back when you kicked it in someone's yard. How would you tell Philip now?

MM Also: I went to seek Philip's permission to write this story, and he actually said seriously that he would take 5% of the manuscript fee.This guy is very "capitalist".