Chapter 4 4

{Birthday} After living in Beijing for half a year, one day in summer, I remembered from the calendar that my father's birthday is tomorrow. At that time, I had just finished the stage of work and got a small long vacation. I was just strolling on the street with my friends, but I came to the ticket window of the train station, scratched my head a little, and said to my friend, "I want to Go home once." Still out of economic considerations, it seems to be 149 or 79 to buy a ticket for a hard seat. Suddenly, I decided to go back to Shanghai to celebrate my father's birthday.

The air conditioner is super fast, and I shiver after nightfall.I didn't think about the consequences, so I couldn't sleep because I was only wearing a vest.Looking left and right, I could only pull through the curtains and barely straighten my arms.But goosebumps are still densely covered, from hands to back. Looking out of the window through the glass, the pitch-black plain is covered with sporadic raindrops that are always reminiscent. It rarely passes through the city, and there are only deserted roads illuminated by orange street lamps alone.More often, the front of the car emits white light, as if it is moving forward on the track created by light.

In the early years, I used drama to flaunt myself, so at that time I felt that since there was a dramatic departure from home, there should also be a dramatic echo-after leaving for a long time, I suddenly returned home without reporting.Enough novels, enough ups and downs. In order to highlight this purpose, I went to the store to buy cakes after arriving in Shanghai.In mid-July, the hottest time, the cream will melt after staying in the carton for a little longer.Quicken your pace and rush to the door.I haven't stepped into the front of the house for more than half a year. Ring the doorbell.

There was a shout of "Who-" from inside, and then the door opened, and my mother saw me. I see my mother see me. Some things are not necessarily bad. It's special to have that kind of experience. But some things just need to be experienced once is enough.Seeing you once is enough.The appearance of the white porcelain plate after it was broken.Blood gushed from the incision slowly to rapidly.Fill the whole life and invade every fine line of the fingers. There is a phrase - "mixed feelings". {full letter} Nagano Prefecture, Aichi.He took off his shoes and socks and ran down in front of Yu Lianchuan, feeling his nerves rubbed by the water that didn't reach his calf.There are towering electric towers in the distance, mountains and forests, and iron bridges. The Iida Line passes only twice or even once an hour, so please don't miss the timetable.

Yuya Onsen, Mikawa Makihara, Kakidaira, Mikawa Kawago, Ikeba, Toei, Chuma, Kamishiba, Urakawa, Hayase, Shimogawago, Chubu Tenryu, Sakuma, Aigatsuki, Josai, Kojima... Unable to explain, but understandable.For myself who made crazy acts back then.Crazy, bordering on brutal.Even now, it's always strange to be able to say goodbye without guilt or sadness, as if with a deadpan face, leaving the family to face a missing room.They themselves are very traditional and ordinary, but they encountered such turbulent waves again.Even though Future Returns is full of apologies with an ordinary mind, but as the culprit, he still walks stubbornly in the snow in Beijing.Shopping in the supermarket, going out for dinner, and sometimes a group of friends of the same age would drink randomly outside, and they still joined in and laughed.

White can be squeezed into birds, clouds, and water lotuses.In the end, it was torn into pieces of paper, and it was thrown in front of the incinerator with shaking hands. The air licked by the flames was distorted like a flow, and the heart was filled with dust like a sacrifice. But after all, enjoy the burning smell.Enjoy a self-defined growth. If I say that I believe there will always be a stage, there is only a time when the answer is no problem, as if the frenzied tide builds a water wall tens of meters high and rushes in, and it recedes completely, leaving a mess that will appear after a long time ending.

Dazedly, impulsively, cruelly and selfishly, he chose the pleasure of smashing, thinking that he was doing something great, and if it was accompanied by decisive music, it would be a climax, surging up the river bank. Until a long time later, barefoot came back here.Occasionally, one or two deflated cans are exposed, and more are yellow sand mixed with pebbles.Slightly wet when stepped on.The tiny snails hurt when stepped on. A long shot of silence, from the ankle to the water, the opposite bank is the forest, which will turn red in autumn. There are fields, cauliflower, and the scenery of hills.The wind rustled.

{busy tone} Have you ever thought about who hung up first in a few phone calls? A busy tone is heard after disconnection. "Toot—" the sound was long.And continue to wait, turned into a fast "beep beep beep". In this way, it is very similar to resuscitation after death, a miraculous electrocardiogram. back to life.wake up. Beep beep beep. {ending} Many, many years have passed, as if waking up after a long slumber, receiving the belated truth, replaying each scene with sad eyes, intertwined with complicated emotions. A tedious endless reminiscence.Write tens of thousands of words, thousands of words, hundreds of hundreds of tens of dozens.Day after day, I repeat my feelings and confessions.

For a while I was obsessed with this part of my past.From time to time, I review it in articles or diaries, and mention it again and again in chats with friends, and I will never forget it in a fixed tone. Finally, when I realized that I was too much, I started to change the subject.Gradually and gradually suspend the retelling of them.Shanghai station.Red vest.Telephone.Fifty yuan a day for a guest house.Basin under the bed.ID was checked in the middle of the night.New Years and firecrackers.I didn't finish watching the Spring Festival Gala that time... I think the change over the years is just to become a person who can say sorry.All the past, whether ignorant impulse or stupid cruelty, can now be understood.I understand myself every time I deviate from it, and I am extremely sympathetic, and I still remember the state of mind at that time.But only understanding, just understanding.

Understandable, but difficult to approve.At the same time don't want to repeat it once.Cherish it, but don't love it. Some things just once is enough. Only one "once" can change the whole future. I went home with the cake, and my father hadn't got off work at 3:30.So his mother called him during the summer vacation, deliberately concealing it, and only asked "When will you come back?" Although she couldn't help herself in the end, "When you come back, there will be something you can't think of."She didn't say it was a "surprise thing."

It's also normal.Surprises but no joys cannot be happy memories. But my mother still cut up the watermelon and brought it over. I changed into my pajama pants and sat on a chair with a spoon to dig into it. The lost time in the middle disappears in an instant. It's like never leaving.It’s just the usual dusk, eating watermelon after taking a bath, my mother is stepping on the sewing machine beside me, I watch TV and press the remote control with my toe to lazily change channels, waiting for my father to come home from get off work in an hour. Like, always like this. {hope} Now that I have recalled it again, and it is unprecedentedly complete and detailed. Hope to never mention it again. {wind sound}(1) In the forest that has not yet started to turn red in summer, the densely packed roots and branches are full of green. The old wish sounds like a fairy tale—— If a passage is buried in the darkness, it twists and turns in the opposite direction of the light, like a labyrinth. When the wings of wild geese follow shooting stars in the sky, gentian flowers burn the entire Milky Way, and the moon cut by oars turns bronze.What is eternal. It is not the seed that falls into the soil. One day, it will return to the ground in the form of emerald green. Then let Fengshen walk on the leaf canopy, it will appear with its footprints, with wide steps, shattering light all over the place. Slowly, plum, insane, still bean, bean remonstrance, leisurely and fierce After letting Fengshen walk on the canopy of leaves, it appeared with its footprints, with wide steps, shattering light all over the place. 笕梅羊病病 Still 谝豆豆重火独独味味O ZhongdangerweightMoving the swordBad fellow Meisu· Let Fengshen walk on the leaf canopy, it will appear with its footprints, with wide steps, shattering light all over the place. Mei Yan is still insane, bean remonstrance is leisurely and fierce,  Tsui is lazy and dangerous. 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[Mr. Okuda One] To this day, I still haven't written to Mr. Okuda. [Dogo Onsen] With the idea of ​​seeing the filming location of "Tokyo Love Story", I set off for Ehime County in Shikoku.After a very tiring overnight journey, I arrived in Matsuyama City, Ehime Prefecture from Tokyo.The departure was in a hurry, and I only found out on the Internet that the local place called "Dougo Onsen" has a lot of history, so it is very likely that there are many hotels nearby.I arrived at the Dogo Onsen Honkan by taxi, dragged my suitcase, and looked around on the uninhabited slope road which was neither weekend nor tourist season. At that time, I saw a hotel on the side of the road. The name plate advertised "a peaceful place to stay". Compared with the beautiful new hotel next to it, it was an old-fashioned building with a very long history.I was still hesitating when the door of the store on the ground floor was opened, and the female shopkeeper in her early fifties came out while talking to someone.She then glanced at me with a casual smile.Propelled by this look, I stepped forward and said "Hello...I want to stay here". The plan for the day was to find a hotel, put down some luggage, and look for the station where the final episode of "Dongai" was filmed. If it goes well enough and time permits, I want to visit a certain shrine where the hero and heroine once worshiped, because It's not in Matsuyama but in another Ozu city, so it's an uncertain journey. I only had time to throw the suitcase in the room, put all the cameras on my back, looked at my watch, and hurried downstairs to put on my shoes and set off.Before going to the station, I couldn't help but walk around the Dogo Onsen Main Building a few times. I heard that it is the prototype of the large bathhouse in Hayao Miyazaki's animation "Spirited Away". After pressing dozens of photos, I was about to leave when I met Mr. Okuda.