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Chapter 47 make man

Zhang Ailing's Prose 张爱玲 1033Words 2018-03-18
I have always been kind to older people, slightly contemptuous of people of my own age, and respectful and fearful of children, keeping them at a respectful distance.It's not because of "fearful young people".Most of them are very ordinary when they grow up, maybe not as good as our generation. A child is a little bit of new power separated from the fountain of life, so it is respectable and terrifying. Children are not as confused as we think.Most parents don't understand their children, and children often see through their parents.I remember very well how, as a child, I wanted to confide all I knew and frighten the elders a lot.

The characteristic of youth is forgetfulness. After childhood, children's psychology is completely forgotten. When they are old, they gradually get closer to children. There is a period of time between them, when the worldly barrier is the deepest, and they completely lose contact with children—— It just so happened that it was time to have a baby. No wonder those who have children can give birth again.They see children as funny little fools, ridiculous and lovable burdens.They don't think the child's eyes are terrible-the eyes that are so serious, like the eyes of angels at the end of the judgment.

To create such eyes, such a judging brain, such a body, to know the most subtle pain as well as pleasure, to create a human being out of nothing, and then to raise him half-starved, half-fed, half-understood... Man is a dangerous job, and parents are not God but are forced to be in the place of God.Even if you proceed carefully and prepare everything for him before giving birth, there is no guarantee what kind of character he will become.If all the circumstances were against him before he landed, then he would have very little chance of success—doomed. Of course, the more difficult the environment is, the greater the greatness of parental love will be revealed.Between parents and children, there is a need for sacrifice everywhere, so the virtue of self-denial is developed.

Maternal self-sacrifice is a virtue, but it is a virtue inherited from our animal ancestors, and our domestic animals as well--we cannot seem to be proud of it.Instinctive benevolence is only animal goodness.This is not the reason why human beings are different from animals.The reason why people are human is all about higher perception and higher understanding.This kind of argument may be considered too rational and too indifferent, in short, it lacks "humanity"-in fact, it is more "humane", because it expresses dissatisfaction with the bestial standard of goodness. Beasts have natural kindness and natural cruelty, so they have survived generation after generation in the bloody competition for survival. "Nature" is mysterious, great and incredible, but we cannot "stop at nature".Nature's style is astonishingly wasteful - one fish produces millions of roes, which are devoured by other aquariums, leaving only a few lucky ones to hatch into small fish.Why should we waste our blood like this?Civilized man is a very valuable animal, and it costs a great deal of money to feed and train him.Our energy is limited, our time in this world is also limited, and there are so many things we can and should do—why do we have to produce a lot of waste that will be eliminated sooner or later?

Our nature is to breed and reproduce, to give birth to many, and to give birth and give birth again.We ourselves are mortal, but our seeds are all over the earth.However, what a seed of misfortune, a seed of hatred!
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