Chapter 57 Thank you

The weather is so hot that I can't sleep at night, so I put on my clothes and sit in the courtyard to watch the sky, and take a book from the bedside to read.Read the most famous Yuefu poem "Elegy Songs" written by Wei Caozhi: The bright moon shines on the tall buildings, and the streamer is wandering.There is a woman who is worried and thinking, and there is more than sorrow for her lament.May I ask who is sighing?Since the cloud prodigal wife.You have been traveling for more than ten years, and your lonely concubine often lives alone.A gentleman is like clearing road dust, and a concubine is like muddy cement.Ups and downs have different potentials, when will they meet?May it be the southwest wind, and die forever in your arms.Jun Huailiang is not open, what should a lowly concubine be?

This poem is like a cold wind in the heat of the long night, floating from the distant ancient road of more than a thousand years, reminding me of this wandering talent, a touching chapter of love.Cao Zhi is a rare talent in Chinese history. When he was ten years old, he had recited hundreds of thousands of poems and poems, and when he was twelve years old, he completed the talented "Tongquetai Fu", which shocked the public. That is, at the age of twelve, he fell in love with Mrs. Zhen, who was ten years older than him, and began the first love affair in his life, which also brought him a tragic encounter in the second half of his life.At such a young age, he asked his father to propose marriage to Zhen Zao's daughter but failed, and later suffered from lovesickness, "thinking about it day and night, and wasting sleep and eating."It can be seen how precocious Cao Zhi is.

Unexpectedly, Zhen Yi's daughter married Yuan Shao as a daughter-in-law. Later, Cao Cao killed Yuan Shao, and the Zhen family married Cao Pi (Cao Zhi's brother)——this year Cao Pi was eighteen years old, Zhen's twenty years old, and Cao Zhi was only thirteen years old. ——Cao Pi made the Zhen family the queen and gave birth to Cao Rui. Because Cao Pi listened to the slander, he soon bestowed the death of the Zhen family.Zhen's death, the saddest thing is not Cao Pi, but Cao Zhi, a gifted man who had a life-and-death love at the age of twelve, his state of mind at this time is just like what he recited in the poem of seven sorrows: "there are many sad winds in Gaotai. , the morning sun shines on the northern forest. The son is thousands of miles away, and the rivers and lakes are deep. , Pian Pian breaks my heart."

Mrs. Zhen died, Cao Zhi's brother Cao Pi, who wrote the famous sentence "The great cause of the country, the great event of immortality", gave him a pillow that Mrs. Zhen had slept on as a souvenir. Cao Zhi hugged Mrs. Zhen's pillow, sadly betting, In grief and anger, he wrote the immortal "Gan Zhen Fu" to commemorate his childhood sweetheart. This eternal poem was later renamed "Luo Shen Fu". Cao Zhi's life course was completely changed because of the death of Mrs. Zhen. In his youth, he was full of spirit and unrestrained. , still called 'a strong man can't do it', although I have little virtue, I am a prince of Fan, but I have tried my best to go to the country, flow to benefit the people, build a permanent career, and flow gold and stone. How can I use calligraphy as merit? Cifu is for the king!" He tried to make a difference in politics, but he never expected that he would never be able to expand his ambitions in politics, but instead led the others in literary achievements.In his "The Oriole in the Wild Fields", there is such a four-year period: "Draw out the sword and carry the net, and the oriole will fly....Flying to the sky, come and thank the boy." It can show that he wanted to soar in the sky when he was young. , Free flying mood.

Since the death of Mrs. Zhen, Cao Zhi was under emotional oppression, in political struggles, and under the unsatisfactory life, but his will was depressed and he had nothing to detach himself from. The sound of his later works is full of danger, anger and lingering sorrow, which are not the same as those of his youth; there are two lines of poems on the loss of emotion, "I am touched by things that hurt my bosom, caress my heart and take a long breath" best expresses his childhood from twelve years. Emotional baggage left over from the beginning of the year. Cao Zhi was only forty-one years old when he died. He was in his prime of life. Except for his high-spirited and brilliant poetry, he had nothing to do in career and emotion. After more than a thousand years, he read Cao Zhi's works. , Grateful for his life, it really makes people sigh!Those who are as talented as Cao Zhi (Xie Lingyun once said: "There is only one stone in the world, Cao Zijian alone has eight, I have one, and I have used the same since ancient times.") Still can't get rid of the emotional plow yoke, just like me Seniors, how to find a way out of emotional difficulties?

Under the long sky, I once dreamed that if Cao Zhi was allowed to marry Mrs. Zhen according to his wish when he was twelve years old, maybe the literary history of Wei and Jin would have to be rewritten, and we would not be able to read "Yuhe Chapter", "Floating" Ping Pian, Songs of Resentment, There Are Thousands of Miles in the Door, and Rock Chapter, etc., are works full of flesh and blood, emotional pain, and homelessness. What kind of person do we want Cao Zhi to be?Hope that his love will be perfect, or hope that his articles will be brilliant, or even hope that his political achievements will be brilliant?These questions have few answers.But there is one constant clue, which is that love is a major variable in life. Some people have constant changes, and some people have constant changes. Can't get rid of it.

Recalling Cao Zhi's life, I wandered in cloaked clothes and couldn't sleep all night. I read a few lines from "Yuhe Pian" again and again: "There is no permanent place in circulation, who knows my hardships. Wouldn't it be painful to be lost, and I would like to be connected with the roots." Does a talented man lose his roots once he loses love?I was thinking sadly, thinking of Cao Zhi's mood when he hugged Mrs. Zhen's pillow-fortunately, Mrs. Zhen left the pillow, otherwise we would not even be able to read "Luo Shen Fu". —July 29, 1981