Chapter 82 on myself

on myself Open the dictionary, there are a considerable number of idioms arranged under the word "自", and these "自" characters mostly refer to oneself.This includes a lot of philosophy, a lot of morality, a lot of poetry and nonsense, a lot of people, a lot of me, a lot of tragedies and comedies.I am "truly the number one hero in the world", there are so many things to say, it is worth saying and not worth saying!No wonder the New York Telephone Company studied the most frequently used words on the phone and found "I" 3,990 times out of 500 phone calls.The word "I" is the voice I call myself, the name I give myself.

Self-love and self-pity!It is unavoidable to be the number one hero in the world, let alone an ordinary person!Looking at it with a cold eye, you may only think that Nato's self-esteem and arrogance are ridiculous; but this is only half of the truth.To lose face, there are indeed people who have to love and feel sorry for themselves.When you were young, your parents loved you, especially your mother.When you grow up, "marry a wife and forget your mother", when your mother sees it this way, she doesn't have to love you anymore, at least she doesn't have to love you as much as she did back then. ——Women, "a daughter who is married out of the house, pours water out of the house"; although mothers may not think so, but the situation is very restrictive and beyond their reach, even if they love and pity, it is only a supplement.Should your lover love and pity you?However, the mouths of lovers are sweet. Who can say "I am in your mud, and you are in my mud!" Is that really the case?When the lover becomes a wife and has a child, you are considered a family, and the wife has to take care of the children, let alone love you wholeheartedly.Sometimes you will be sick, "there is no filial son before the bed for a long time", and the wife is afraid that it will be tired and annoying enough.hospital?Well, if you are lucky enough to live in a hospital like Peking Union Medical College Hospital, it will be much better than at home.But nurses take care of you, it is service, it is work; maybe there is a little love and sympathy in it, that is the "virtue of good life", not for you, but for "human beings". ——You can’t stay at home all the time, and once you leave home, you are considered a “guest” no matter what; at that time, there is no one who will take pity on you.You can be greeted by friends; but friends have friends, how can that teach him to always put his heart on you?You can have subordinates or servants to serve you, so - can you call it affection?All in all, the world is the only one who loves and sympathizes with oneself, and only oneself; this is the principle of self-love and self-pity.

Besides, "A real man is not pitied by others." The poor work hard, the hard work works hard; the world is so big, where can't a road be opened with one's own skills?Why bother to moan and sigh to people with frowning faces all the time!If you have a frowning face and don't like your ears, will others come to love and pity you?I couldn't avoid sad things, so I gritted my teeth and endured it. After some days, years, and months, I will calm down.It's okay to talk, just don't pick the time and place to keep nagging people, nagging so that no one will distract you or avoid you impatiently.Don't complain and throw a lot of exclamation sentences at people.What you blame is heaven and earth, but it doesn't bother others, I'm just afraid that others will wonder why you are so angry. ——I can't avoid suffering from the losses of others.It's worth nothing, just swallow it without making a sound.The idea of ​​getting revenge is big, but the strength is not enough, so I am trying my best to prepare.But don't yell here and there - throw it away when you're done yelling, it'll do your bully a favor. "A good man folds his arms and hides them in his sleeves" in order not to show timidity in front of others, as if to make people love and pity this "poor man". This is to be strong, not to pretend.It is strange to say that the one who does not receive pity is the one who gets pity; the one who is strong is always the one who loves himself the most.

No matter whether you are a big man or a young man, you are actually very small. The whole human being is just some carbohydrates on a small ball. As a modern philosopher said, let alone a person's self.Zhuangzi's so-called horse's body is a hair, but in fact it is magnified.There was a cartoon in a newspaper in England, which showed a man in a shop, surrounded by various elements analyzed from his body, each with its weight and price, and the total was five shillings— - At that time, it was seven yuan.Now that the price of goods has risen, are you afraid that it will cost 1,000 yuan in the United States?However, the personal self is worth only a thousand dollars!I am so small, so what if I don't love and feel sorry for myself!However, it is me who "stands up to the heavens and the earth", and I am also the one who "heaven and earth live side by side with me, and all things are one with me"; do you say that these great things are just nice words and beautiful sentences?Can you say in a daze that you don't have this kind of self!With such a self, wouldn't it be more worthy of self-love and self-pity?Besides, the expansion of oneself can also be seen in the life of an ordinary person.And first look at the small things.Children love to collect stamps from various countries, and they are expanding their world.In the past, some people advised people to learn Esperanto, saying that they could communicate with people from other countries.Do you think this is childish and ridiculous?But this might not be a direction to expand oneself.Besides, this time of the War of Resistance, many people have traveled to many places and gained a lot of experience.Especially young people, you can tell at a glance that they are different from before the Anti-Japanese War, and their selves have expanded. ——Looking at it this way, one's own is small, one's own is big, and one's own is small and big.Everything is good in itself.

I think that I am good, not bad; but I really like them too.Officials like to be good officials, but often they only know that they love to be good officials for their own family members, relatives and friends; such good officials are often corrupt officials in their own country.All thieves like to be good thieves—a good guy, a good partner, a good boss, but they are all in the den of thieves.Some are great, some are small, and some are so bad.I close myself in my own little world, and the more I like it, the worse it is.So you have to expand yourself.But to expand yourself, you have to go round and round, you have to be enriched, and you have to be down-to-earth.Don't be like soap bubbles, they burst when they get bigger. "A man can bend and stretch", what should be bent should be bent a little, don't just stretch yourself out.You also have to estimate your own strength.If the strength is not enough, "If one person can do it, one can do it with a hundred; if one person can do it with ten, one can do it with a thousand"; an inch is an inch, and a ruler is a ruler.In short, there is a way.See far, think openly, and hold firmly; you are a part of the era of the world, and it is really good if you don't get out of touch.No matter how weak your strength is, it is your own.Believe in yourself, rely on yourself, do your best anytime, anywhere, let yourself live a meaningful life, and every moment, every minute, every second is meaningful.In this way, self-love and self-pity really make sense.

Made on September 1, 1942. (Originally published in "Human World", Volume 1, Issue 2, November 15, 1942)