Chapter 19 false betrayal

Miss L said that after five years, she still couldn't forget a man.He is not her first love, nor is he willing to go through fire and water for her, he is the person she is most sorry for, because she betrayed him that day and went with another boy. Now, she would run into him once a year at a gathering of old friends, and he would always be joking, as if the thing had passed, but she couldn't let it go.on the way home.She is very lonely.Although she understands that she shouldn't be obsessed with the past, she can't control herself from thinking about it.She has fewer and fewer sincere conversations with her boyfriend, which, she says, may be punishment for cheating on someone five years ago.

She said she couldn't let go of the guilt she felt and wondered if she should come out to him, say something or do something? I think that since the matter has passed, there is no point in saying or doing anything.Have you seen Lu Xun?Lu Xun once ferociously tore up the kite made by his younger brother himself. After many years, he said "I'm sorry" to his grown-up brother. Unfortunately, his younger brother has completely forgotten that period of childhood. That person may have forgotten the past, and it is unnecessary to say anything, and it cannot change history. Self-blaming is just asking for trouble.You feel sorry for him, just because you betrayed him and chose another man, but the relationship between this man and you is getting more and more dull today, and you feel regretful.Yeah?We are lonely because of a wrong betrayal on a certain day.