Chapter 4 "Zhengda Variety Show", how are you?

New York.Looking out from the forty-story building where I live, the lights outside the window stretch into the dark blue night sky, outlining the outlines of streets and buildings, compact but not crowded, far-reaching and open.The cold steel and concrete disappeared, leaving only a little bit of warm color, suspended in sight. Just like my memory, I jumped out of the curtain of time, and then refused to leave. Is that the hostess who hurried out of the dressing room and trotted into the studio?That spacious studio is covered with a glass floor, and walking on it with high heels makes a particularly crisp sound, which is almost embarrassing in the silence before the start-up.Then, the opening music sounded, the rhythm was very fast, like beating a drum, which made my heart pound.Teacher Zhao next to me remained calm and said softly: "Be more emotional." I held my nerves and straightened my back.My waist is really sore, and I have been standing like this for five or six hours a day for video recording, which is the fifth day in a row.

The music stopped abruptly.Big applause.My spirits lifted.There are 200 of my guests sitting opposite, wearing uniform T-shirts with the name of the show printed on them, let me welcome them first-"Friends of the audience, hello everyone, welcome to "Zhengda Variety Show"." "Zhengda Variety Show", my old friend, it's been a long time.We were together for four years, making me your longest serving host.It was you who made me fall in love with the TV industry; for the TV industry, I left you again, flew to the other side of the earth, and started a student again.Some people say I'm smart, some people feel pity for me, but you should understand me. This choice is inevitable in my career and in my life. It hardly needs to be affirmed by more people.I am unabashedly proud of this choice.Counting with my fingers, it has been two years since I left you, "Zhengda Variety Show", how are you?

When I took out the videotapes of "Zhengda Variety Show" that my mother dubbed for me from the first issue to the 200th issue, and saw the most familiar and strange "I", I suddenly had the urge to express.How naive, yet serious, the schoolgirl who didn't know where to look because she was on TV for the first time!She was still wearing a dress borrowed from the director.Jiang Kun, Dai Zongxian, Zhao Zhongxiang, my partners are all people I call "teachers", but they have established a relationship with me as friends.Without their support, how could my meager talent have created the so-called "success" in just a few years?There are also colleagues who are always busy in the same office. We used to read materials, write manuscripts, move tapes, and answer the phone together. When a man with a mental disorder called and wanted to "talk to Yang Lan", colleagues He always waved at me resolutely, told me to keep quiet, and then said to that person in a dignified manner: "Yang Lan is not here, I am her superior, please talk to me if you have anything to do." In a corner of the office There is always a box of instant noodles.Until now, I feel nauseous whenever I see instant noodles - I ate too much at that time.The "Animal World" group next door has a single camp bed.During the video recording, my colleagues gave it to me so that I could take a nap at noon, and they all slept on the combined chairs—has my warm office changed?Has my desk been assigned to the new intern?When bidding farewell to "Zhengda Variety Show", Mr. Zhao Zhongxiang told me repeatedly: "Let's not be sad, but have a free and easy attitude."

Still choked up: Because I once shared the honor and disgrace with "Zhengda Variety Show", because I have tasted the ups and downs, and the ways of the world, I suddenly felt a sincere sigh of life. "Zhengda Variety Show" has stayed in my life forever, and I can't erase it.It changed the trajectory of my life, but not my personality.On the contrary, it made me know more clearly what kind of person I want to be and what kind of things I want to do. For these, I am grateful to "Zhengda Variety Show".I am neither satisfied with the honor it brings me nor ashamed of my past childishness.This is the beginning of my social life,

It was the start of my career.I used to give it my all and live it to the fullest.About it, I still have a lot to tell the audience, tell myself, those stories behind the screen. So, I started a conversation with my past self, using comfortable square characters, accompanied by the winter lights of New York.