Chapter 7 The bird is dead, the wingless god

I read Luoluo’s update today and saw a sentence: When you grow up enough to accept the fact that people who like you gradually dislike you...you will become a talent.When I saw this sentence, I didn't know what kind of mood I was in. Recently, life has gradually become more regular, and sometimes I can eat two meals a day on time, which makes people feel happy. A few days ago, I didn't want to do anything, I didn't want to move, I didn't want to talk, I had no interest in anything except sleeping.The hair was unwashed and stuck together greasy. I suddenly felt that this was very good. How disgusting and decadent I was making myself, I felt that this was very good, a kind of self-abuse.That day in physical education class, I ran 1,200 meters. I rushed forward and ran desperately. I felt that my breathing was a problem. When I crossed the finish line, I felt dizzy and wanted to vomit.

I bought several long and thick coats, which made me feel very warm. For some reason, more and more people know about my mobile phone.I keep receiving short messages, some are greetings, some are encouraging, and some are inexplicable.Some people stubbornly want to make friends with me, saying that they want to bring me warmth and become my friends, but I am a lazy person by nature, and I am not used to sending messages to people I don’t know.So the person who was talking about becoming my friend immediately sent a message saying that he finally recognized my true face and finally knew that Guo Jingming is a high-ranking person. The last sentence was that I finally knew why a lawsuit would come to you.I read the text message and laughed, very wildly.The real face, who the hell knows what kind of person I am.Humanity will always make me sick and make me feel dirty.

The wind in the school these days is unbelievably strong. Every day when I ride the bike, it feels like there are countless trains roaring around me.My hands were cracked a few times from the cold, so I didn't care about it, I was lazy. I finally washed my hair today, looking at myself haggard in the mirror and regretting why I washed my hair. Someone texted me and he said, look at yourself? !How did you become what you are now!Look at what you look like now!I smashed my mobile phone on the bed, and I felt that something bit me, more poisonous than a snake. Every day, dreams die in my heart, and I yell loudly to myself.I don't know it was Faye Wong's song a few years ago, but it still sounds so vicious.

I am starting to have a dream now, this dream is as pure as a sprout that has just broken the ground and grown from the depths of my heart.Whoever dares to move it, I will do my best.If it goes well, everyone will be able to see my dream next year when summer just comes. I am very tired recently, I hope everyone will stop disturbing me, especially those who call me at 2 o'clock in the morning, forgive me for not being able to have a good temper.I don't get enough sleep every day and I want to sleep.I have only this little hope, please. Please don't think of me as a celebrity, I'm just an ordinary person with an ordinary temper, I'm happy when I'm happy, and lose my temper when I'm unhappy.No one has the right to ask me to answer every short message and every letter.You can tell me something and I promise I'll see it.But when I have nothing to say to you, don't force me to talk to you.

I've been having a bad day lately, don't bother me anymore.Annoying as hell. I had a video chat with Weiwei that day, seeing her appearance, I was typing and tears were streaming down my face, cry, cry, I said to myself, you will always be such a weak and disgusting person.Wei Wei waved her hand at me, I saw the bracelet I gave her, she still wears it.I said to Weiwei, Weiwei, I am very scared now, I am afraid that one day when I have experienced too many disgusting things, when too many people are hurting and plotting against me, I will become very vicious and become kind They are the same.Wei Wei said, you will never.Even if you do, you are still the four in my heart who are as clean as floating clouds.

I don't have a good temper with people around me, let alone people I don't know well.I was thinking, sometimes it feels good to be betrayed, but those friends around me are more stubborn than me, screaming hard not to let me be alone, they won't let me succeed. ***You are all idiots, why do you accommodate me when I am such a bad-tempered person.Henhen, Hansey, Aliang, Weiwei, Xiao A, you are all idiots.