Chapter 14 the blue of the shawl

What kind of blue is the blue shawl of the young woman in this book, only I know.There's a serious omission, though, and that blue isn't on the list.For example; I was also the only one who saw her smiling look.I know I can't describe it to you at all.for you to see all that.No one can do it. So there are some things that are never known to the author.For me, Loel V. Stein at his evening parties with Tatiana Carr and a few other men playing billiards, some of her gestures, some of her Be bold and I don't know.Deep in the room, the sound of a violin can be heard.That's Lore's husband playing the violin.The meaning of Loel V. Stein's emotional expression, her tacit understanding with Jacques Holder at this dinner party, this relationship has changed the ending of the book, I can't express it, and I can't express it. Saying that because I was with Lol Va Stein she also didn't fully know what she did and why she did it.Blanchot reproached me for using an intermediary, such as Jacques Held, in order to approach Laure V. Stein.He presumably wanted me to be with Lol V. Staine without an intermediary character.But I, Lol VA Stein, can only hear her, see her if she is involved in some kind of action with another character, otherwise I cannot catch her.She was not face to face with me from the beginning like it was written in the vice-consul.A text is a whole that is all moving forward, and this is not a matter of choice.Although I find at the end of the book that a certain character falls in love with another character than the one I specified, I will never change the past that has been written in the book, because it has already been written, and I would rather change it. the future of.When there is such an opportunity, that is, I find that the love in it is not the kind of love I deeply believe in. I can only live with this new love, follow it, and start to move forward. I will not say that the abandoned love is false , I'm just saying it's dead.After this dinner at Loel Va. Stein the colors remained the same, neither the colors of the walls nor the colors of the garden.No one knows what exactly falls on the point where the change occurs.

① Tatiana Carr and Jacques Holder are both characters in The Madness of Noel V. Stein. I talk too much about writing.How that happened, I don't know.