Chapter 30 Emotional and moving

I don't like to look back.Live ahead.Everything that has passed, regardless of success or failure, is left behind, so why bother to look and think?Of course, the lessons of failure must be learned, but human nature is hard to change, and some failures seem to be doomed. Even if the lessons are understood, it is too late to change, or even if some changes are made, it will not be complete.Life is really limited, life is really subtle.In view of "limited" and "subtle", recording life has a special meaning.Each of us wants to know ourselves: Why did we fail?Why frustration?Each of us wishes to explain life: why is it the way it is?Why is that?Otherwise, there will be too much confusion oppressing us, making us unable to be happy and relaxed.I think that my writing is for this kind of understanding and this kind of explanation, so I force myself to write down many things I don’t understand word by word.Unexplained questions and doubts, in order to free oneself, to liberate oneself.

Gradually, a road was paved in black and white - my road, the writing of life - the road was full of footprints, deep and shallow, potholes.And every footprint is an experience and a story.And every experience, every story, is soaked with mood, full of emotions, whether it is love or hate, joy or sorrow, resentment or regret, in short, it is a combination of various emotions, a variety of emotions. Emotional entanglement constitutes a novel and outlines a character. Because I have the opportunity to publish a "self-selected collection" and choose my own works, so I have to "review".Once I look back, the previous mood, the previous feelings, what I thought was forgotten, and what I thought was drifting away with the wind, all emerged one by one.Such "emergence" is like opening an old book.A slightly yellowed photo album——Looking at the past age, past time, and past life with the present eye; looking at the past self, the past plot, and the past characters with the present eye, my heart is full of emotion: for the past For the childishness, for the ignorance of the past, for the trauma of the past, and for the past too many detours.But this is the real me, the real us, the real generation, and this is the truth of history.Of course, our "once" also has many things to be proud of, such as the enthusiasm, the struggle, and the indomitable efforts.

In chronological order, reading the novels that I have formed one by one, it is such a kind of emotion and emotion that churns in my heart. It should be said that emotion and touch are indispensable in life, and regret and touching can reflect the true meaning of life.Life always has a lot of helplessness, let you pursue a lifetime.I have worked hard all my life but still can't make up for it.Perhaps, it is these "helplessness" that inspire many touching deeds. Emotion and emotion should complement each other. Emotion makes our heart heavy, and emotion makes our heart warm. With both heaviness and warmth, life has color. There are sides.

And the novels of the past are written about the emotions and emotions of the past.Life has moved forward, and life is facing many new problems.new confusion.And today's novels, how to write new emotions and new emotions? After I finished writing "Old Feelings and Touches", I stopped writing, and I paused for a long time, because I didn't find out how to write the feeling of "New Feelings and Touches"; because of the problems caused by the progress of life And confusion requires us to re-understand and re-interpret, including understanding and explaining the changing self.

However, when revisiting my own novels one after another, there is a track about myself that gradually extends forward, extends to today, and extends to the future, and this "extension" gradually produces a feeling in my heart, And gradually became clear about "new emotion" and "new emotion".I think, I should end the pause, I should continue to write novels, and I hope that in the next twenty years, I will have the opportunity to compile another "self-selected collection" for myself, and select "new emotions and emotions".