Chapter 11 ex lover gone

Last night, at that gas station, he approached me, kissed my hand, surrounded me and followed me closely, and suddenly felt that maybe he had known me for many years and only finally met today. I took Zhuicai home, bathed him, combed his hair, saw the scars on his back, the scars on his back, a large piece of hair was missing under his arms, and the tender red flesh had just grown, hugging him made him feel warm .Zhuang Cai was very lingering, he put his head against the crook of my arm, and bumped it lightly, occasionally raised his face, with a touch of sadness in his not-so-clear eyes. I thought feral cats were emotionless, at least becoming as lonely as wolves in order to survive.

No, I hugged him, and he leaned on me, sniffing my breath greedily with his nose, or gently holding my face with his hardened meat pad due to too much running. Zhuangcai is as familiar with my home as if he had never left before. When he went to the kitchen, he started to eat as soon as he turned a corner. He moved three steps, squatted down to drink water, and when he was full, he went to rub in the foam plastic box for sharpening his claws. paw.The sound of him grinding his claws was not as unscrupulous as Carla's, making the foam all over the floor, but gently, softly, grinding twice and stopping once.

After a while, it was time to be kind, and he walked into Kara's urinal familiarly, and didn't care about sharing the same toilet with others. Maybe, with a pile of clean sand and soft newspapers, he would be very happy. Satisfied. Zhuangcai had diarrhea, the color of Enen was green and the taste was extremely bad.The mother-in-law stood waiting to be wiped, worrying about whether he had an infectious disease while wiping.I knew he wouldn't, just like I knew Kara wouldn't die from diarrhea.I took out flufenac with great experience, opened the cap of the capsule, sprinkled half of the medicine powder in the cat food, stirred well, and coaxed Cai to eat it.Zhuang Cai was really hungry. I don’t know how many days he hasn’t eaten. When he eats, you will feel the end of the world is coming. Maybe there will be no more food in the future.I stroked his back, felt the sharpness of the bones touching the skin, and comforted him: Don't be afraid, you will have something to eat from now on.slowly.

Zhuang Cai was lying on the sofa where Kara was sleeping, stretching his back, maybe he was too tired, maybe he was running away in a hurry all day, he hadn't been so comfortable for a long time, and after a while he snored continuously and spread his belly.The comfort of this sleeping position lets me know that he regards this place as his home. I tolerate him, others cannot tolerate him. The first thing my father-in-law said when he came back was throw it away.I want to get rid of this one at home, why another one!It's difficult to raise yourself, so why raise a cat! The mother-in-law maintained her usual gracefulness, and her maternal love was also shown on her face. She hugged Zhuang Cai and said: How thin!How pitiful!How nice.

Zhuang Cai is easy to get along with, perhaps eager to settle down here, very flattering her mother-in-law, lying silently in her arms, with her head buried. Another thing that is not tolerated is my family Kara. Kara has been in a state of preparation for war since the first second he entered the door. Even if he just passed in front of his door, he would be glaring, baring his fangs, spreading his claws, and arching his back to fight . The goal of making money is very small. I just want to find a place to eat and try to show kindness, including never glaring at Kara, not showing my teeth, and stretching out my hands on the pads to pull Kara.However, Kara slapped it down with strength, and let out a roar from his chest, his voice was as ferocious as a hungry tiger. This kind of Kara was completely different from the bookish lady in ordinary times.I thought Kara, who was full of food all day long, had already forgotten what competition was.Unexpectedly, the nature of animals is such that she will always be in a state of jealousy.Although the partner who came here was not malicious, even though the family did not lose any of Kara's shrimp because of the addition of a cat.

In fact, Zhuangcai is easy to feed, and his requirements for life are very low. He eats Kara's leftover food, urinates in the pot where Kara has urinated, and even drinks water only from the water left over from the bath on the toilet floor.His tastiest food was the heads and tails of shrimp in the garbage basket that Carla never looked at.I brought a whole shrimp to his mouth, because he didn't believe that such a wonderful thing happened in the world, there would be a shrimp with meat lying in front of him, so he was suspicious and refused to come over, and he held back his saliva and behaved point.I feel sad in my heart. I don’t know how many times I was beaten and chased away because I accidentally ate the big dishes on other people’s plates. He has been able to clearly distinguish what he can eat and what is bait for him. danger.

Zhuang Cai continued to want to get close to Kara, hoping that Kara would allow him to stay. And Kara was very firm and uncompromising. She even hated me as my own mother, and when I approached her to try to comfort her, she bit me and scratched the back of my hand bloody.The laborers felt sorry for Kara and me at the same time, forbidding us to get close and separating us. The laborer has been comforting Kara, trying to make him accept the reality that his mother has brought back a younger brother, but Kara refuses to admit the status quo. Then, the laborer told me that Carla was very poor.He didn't get off the desk all night, didn't drink a sip of water, and didn't eat a sip of food.Even when we changed a urinal, a cup, and a bowl for him, he expressed his dissatisfaction with a hunger strike.

The camp in the family is divided into two factions, one faction is me, because of sympathy, I am particularly eager to keep Zhuangcai. The other faction is the father-in-law. He thinks that there are constant disputes in the family about having an extra cat. If there is a fight when no one is around, Kara, the house cat, will suffer. The husband tends to his father-in-law's opinion, and he also thinks that Zhuang Cai seems peaceful, because Zhuang Cai has seen the big world and fought countless times, while Kara is just putting on airs and has no actual combat experience, so he doesn't know what kind of abuse he will receive in the future.After finishing speaking, the husband pointed to a puddle of water on the table and said, "Just now Kara yelled at the money, but I actually peed my pants in fright."

Therefore, the vote of the mother-in-law is very important. If the mother-in-law supports me, then we are at least in a state of two-legged confrontation. I still have time to make a detour. I hope that through hard work, I will give him a few more days so that he can settle down. The mother-in-law was silent for a long time, and said, "Send the new cat back!" The mother-in-law said that the new cat is used to being wild outside. It is not a house cat at all.Another thing is that the new cat is not fanned, and if it becomes heaty, it will cost a lot of money. In my heart, I don't think it would be such a burden to spend 300 SGD for cat surgery, vaccination and medical examination.For me, the banknotes flowing through my fingers in this life may be thousands of 300. I don't feel pain. For a life, it can be regarded as nothing.

So I became a minority in the family, and no matter how much I insisted, I couldn't save the situation. I told my husband that if I went to operate on the cat, he would not go out and I would earn the money back. The husband said, you can't replace the cat's mind with your own, why would you want to decide the cat's fate?Maybe he yearned for freedom, willing to survive in the wild, with his own children and female companions.You don't know what his happiness is, and you just wish him the good life you thought. I insisted that he followed me and that he wanted a home. Labor said, let him decide for himself!

In fact, cats are very smart. Zhuang Cai knew what we were arguing about, although we thought he was a cat and couldn't understand us.But I forgot, he is my lover in previous life, he knows everything. Zhuang Cai had always been attached to me, never leaving me. After we finished our discussion, we walked to the door silently, looked back at me nostalgicly, and asked me to open the door in a low voice. My tears flowed down.I'm sitting here typing now, thinking of how he silently turned and left, my tears can't stop like a river.It was my fault, I finally gave in, I decided to let him go. All my life, I have been living for others. My previous wish was to be a kindergarten teacher, but in order to please my parents, I chose to go to a business school that I didn't like. I used to raise a dog and lived with my in-laws. I affectionately called him Eight of Hearts.One day, my father-in-law gave it to a stranger together with his little basket and his body wash while I was not at home. For several years after that, I always dreamed that the dog meat hot pot I ate was eight of hearts. At that time, I swore to my husband that when I have my own home, I will be the master and do whatever I want. Now that I have my own home, I can make decisions, but in front of my loved ones and in real life, I agreed with tears to let my in-laws send my lover away from my previous life.People will accept the fire for the so-called truth, but they often give up easily because of love.I can't stand up against an entire family for a feral cat with no name.I might not be able to do this kind of thing in my whole life. It's not the right time to make money. If he came in two months earlier or met me one month later to avoid the days when my parents-in-law are here, I can try my best to keep him.But, my lover from the previous life, why didn't you come too early or too late? At night, because I was sad, I lay down on the sofa with Zhuangcai in my arms, and the laborer took Kara to sleep in the bedroom. My eyes didn't close for a moment. Zhuang Cai kept hitting me with his head and kissing me with his tongue to express his liking. When he put his hand on mine, I suddenly realized that he had no claws. His claws are crystal clear, so soft that they will break if touched. Then I understood why Zhuang Cai was injured all over, why he didn’t dare to take delicious food even if it was in front of him, why he was careful when sharpening his claws, and why he tried his best to please Kara.Zhuangcai is a domestic cat. When he was fed as a child, his owner pulled out his original claws by the roots for fear that he would scratch the furniture, leaving him with only a decorative claw.For some reason he left the house, I'd rather believe that he got lost by mischief, if his master doesn't want him because he's in heat, I'll curse him for the rest of his life, in the new year.First, he deprived him of the foundation of his existence, and then ruthlessly threw him into a society where the jungle preys on the weak.Waiting for the ending of hitting money, in addition to death or death.Of course, cats are mortal after all.It's just that I can't accept the situation where he is lying in a pool of blood or waiting for death in desolation and fear all day long. Actually, how much better am I than that master?They may be true and evil, but I am just a hypocrite. Maybe I have already resigned to my fate and no longer fantasized about having a family. I walked over to hug him, feed him, give him a night of love, and then throw him out cruelly. , From then on, he no longer believed in so-called emotions, and from then on, he no longer got close to people.He once put his trust in me. On the way I generously took a taxi to bring him back, he thought he had a kind mother.People are the most untrustworthy. One second they may still be talking about love, but the next second they will turn their faces.A one-night stand is nothing more than that! Everyone is worried about Zhuang Cai bullying Kara, just as someone criticized me for saying, "I only hear newcomers laughing, but I don't hear old people crying". In fact, Zhuang Cai has become so weak that he can't do anything other than accept the fate of being bullied. It was daylight.Zhuangcai has accepted the fact that he has a peaceful night's sleep. He took the initiative to walk to the door, calling us to open the door for him, and asked to go. My tears have made me unable to see the people around me clearly. My parents-in-law wanted to send him back, because they didn't believe my promise. Maybe I agreed when I left, but I turned around and hugged him back after a while. This is where Carla came from. Hit the money and go away. Carla started to get angry, jumped off the table that had been dormant all night, walked to the kitchen, ate the food in the new bowl, ignored the old bowl, took a long soak in the new urinal, and then crawled At my feet, I couldn't help it, and jumped on my knees again. I couldn't help the disgust inside.Knocking him to the ground, he yelled at her: Get out! Cara had never seen me so fierce before, so she shrank her head and ran away in fright. Later, when I realized my mistake and it was wrong to vent my inner unhappiness on her, I tried to coax Cara back, and she also treated me Be respectful and keep a safe distance.That wary look broke my heart. What the hell am I doing?In one night, I lost two cats. How could I blame Kara for her ferocity?She is just a cat, maybe she is humble, well-behaved, considerate and begs for mercy at ordinary times, but at critical moments, in order to defend her rations and territory, she at least dares to express her anger, maybe it seems narrow, maybe it seems very Scoundrel, but at least she is innocent and undisguised. This is like those people who love each other on the outside, courteous on the face, talk sweetly in the mouth, but secretly smother evil spirits, first coax you to relax your vigilance, and then bite you 7 inches when you are not paying attention. Compared with the person who betrayed the ending, he is already frank. Before my mother-in-law and father-in-law went out, I repeatedly asked him to let him go to the place where he used to live, maybe he already had a place there, and life would not be so difficult.The mother-in-law and father-in-law agreed.I also drew a detailed map, and even marked the yellow-lined stone where I first saw Zhuang Cai lying on it. A few hours later, the mother-in-law came back. I asked her, did you send him back? The mother-in-law said, no.He didn't let us hug him, and ran away as soon as he got out of the building.Your dad and I chased after him for a long time, sweating all over the chase, and finally we caught up.Then I took him all the way back home.At first he was very obedient, he followed us all the way, and occasionally got into the bushes, but when we were far away, he caught up again. But after passing two forks, he ran away by himself, and we waited for a long time without seeing him come back.Your dad and I searched around but couldn’t find it, so we bought four pieces of bread in a small shop nearby, broke them up and scattered them all the way, in case he was hungry and had nothing to eat, and he would find food when he came out later. I started crying again.Those breads, perhaps before Zhuang Cai was hungry, were eaten up by the birds.I don't feel sorry for the bird eating the bread, but I'm afraid that Zhuang Cai will be bullied by other wild cats because of a shrimp tail or half a dead mouse. When I came back from get out of class at noon, I got off the car early and looked around at the grove my mother-in-law said.I made up my mind that as long as I saw Zhuang Cai, I would take it to the doctor for an operation and then take it home.I will stick to it this time! I turned around for a long time, but I didn't see a cat at all. My heart just got lost in the woods. I can't bear to look at any stray cat on the side of the road anymore, it has become a scar in my heart that won't go away. 2005-02-05