Chapter 9 Seven Random Thoughts (2)

Seven Random Thoughts (2) Early winter bath day feeling After leaving the former residence for a month or two, once I come back, the first thing I feel strange when I sit at the desk under the south window is the sunlight on half of the desk.It turns out that summer has gone, autumn is coming to an end, and early winter is coming, and the sun outside the window has already set to the south. Leaning the chair against the edge of the window, I sat with my back facing the window and read a book, the sunlight enveloped my upper body.Instead of annoying me like a month or two ago, it made me feel warm and comfortable.The sun, the mother of all life, seems to be pouring a kind of milk that heals disease, prolongs life, and brings life back to life through his rays and flows into my body.

I buried my book and meditated: I was surprised by my own feelings, why did I suddenly change like this?The evil of the day before has become the joy of today; the abandonment of the day before has become the desire of today; the hatred of the day before has become the grace of today.Zhang Yan was surprised again when he saw the fan abandoned on the high pavilion.The joy of the day before has become the dislike of today; the desire of the day before has become the abandonment of today; Suddenly he laughed to himself: "Summer is awesome, winter is lovely" and "Tuan Fan Abandoned Donation" are ancient famous sayings, my wife knows them all, so why should I be surprised?And so my reason yielded.

But my feelings still don't give in, I feel that in this period of transition from hot to cold, there is a strange feeling that is enough to surprise me.It is like the evening when the sun has set and the sky is not yet completely dark: we can still feel day and night at the same time.It's like boarding a boat when one foot is already on board and the other is still on the shore: We can still feel land, and at the same time we can already feel water.We all know that there is day at night, and we all know that there is land when we are on a boat, but we only "know it", not "real feeling".I have been shrouded in the early winter sun under the south window for a long time, and my body is sweating, which gradually wets my shirt.At this moment, the "real feeling" of bathing in the sun and the "real feeling" of waving the fan merged in my body. Isn't this a surprising experience?

So I simply threw away the book and lay down on the rattan chair in the corner, using this mixed sense of reality to look around the room, and felt that many things had changed drastically.Some things have changed for the better: like this room, which is often considered too small in summer, with all the windows and doors open, it is not enough, and I almost want to tear down the walls.But now it suddenly grows bigger, very big!Soon it will be screened off with a screen.Another example is the kettle on the table, which was expelled to the corner of the cupboard by the tea mug before, and now it stands in front of you like a monument.When the quilt was exposed to the hot sun in the past, everyone hated it for being clumsy and thick, but now it is spread on the bed, and it suddenly looks pleasing to the eye and looks thinner.I wanted to sell the sofa chair, but fortunately no one bought it now.I used to want to take off the fur robe for the black cat, but now I envy it.On the contrary, some things have gone bad: like the wind, people in the past would say "Happy!" when they met it, and welcome it in.Now we are gradually rejecting it, and soon we will guard it from entering the house like thieves.Another example is the bamboo couch, which was treasured by everyone in the past, and it was extremely glorious for a while.Now no one cares about it, it looks haggard and lifeless.A soda advertisement on the wall.In the corner is a large bottle of soda and a glass overflowing with white foam, with a sea bathing picture drawn underneath.In the past, when I saw the picture of soda water, I would swear by it, and when I saw the picture of bathing in the sea, I wished I could be the person in the painting, but now this picture almost makes people shiver.A naked foreign child sits on the small bookshelf by the window. I used to think it was too freehand, but now I look at it pitifully.The plaster model of Venus①, a famous ancient Greek sculpture, stands tall and independent on the volley flower pot stand with its skirt pulled down to its thigh.I saw her face smiling in the summer, but these days I looked at her face suddenly frowning, as if she was lamenting that she lost her two arms and couldn't pull up her skirt to keep out the cold.

① Venus. In fact, how can things be disguised?It was my own feelings that betrayed me.How can the feeling be rebellious?Nature taught it.How serious is the order of nature: you can't help but love the wind in summer, and you can't help but love the sun in winter.How ridiculous is nature's command: in summer you must praise what winter curses, in winter you must curse what summer praises! Life also has winter and summer.Childhood is like summer, adulthood is like winter;In the winter and summer of life, nature often makes people feel rebellious, and its orders are so serious and so ridiculous.Practicing sorrow

During the winter vacation, all the children gathered in the Yuanyuan Hall, played freely, and laughed loudly.The front of the hall seems to do festive things every day.One day, he was tired from playing, resting on the rattan bed, casually checked the calendar on the bedside post, and suddenly changed his face and shouted: "Winter vacation is only one week away! I haven't started my vacation homework yet!" The heat of the game suddenly dropped.The other continued: "I think I was happy when I was not on vacation, but I felt that way when I was on vacation, and now I feel unhappy than when I was not on vacation." These words aroused the sympathy of many people.

Although I am not a student and do not participate in their holiday games, I am also one of the sympathizers of this statement.I think that in human psychology, anticipation is often happier than execution.Westerners have a saying of "the sorrow of victory".I want to imitate them and say "the sorrow of practice", from anticipation to practice, from hope to success, is the right way to progress in life and career.But in the depths of the human heart, there is this kind of sadness wonderfully. Now let's think about student life, let's take Sunday as an example.Anyone who has been a student can agree that Saturday is happier than Sunday.The reason for Saturday's happiness is to have Sunday behind; but the taste of Sunday's happiness is not in itself, but concentrated on Saturday.After lunch on Saturday, the homework is over, and the whole school is filled with a relaxed atmosphere.Some people make preparations for going home in advance; some people make travel plans as early as possible!The more impatient people have packed up the umbrellas together, and they are going to take them away after class.After the last lesson, when we left the classroom, the atmosphere of joy was even thicker.Some came out singing songs, some came out laughing and talking, and young ones came out dancing.Sensed by the environment, most of the gentlemen temporarily relaxed the school rules at these times, pretending not to have heard of such disturbances.In fact, they also really like this relaxing air.On Saturday night, the air in the school reached a lax extreme.There is no need for self-study this evening, and there is no strict supervision.Students can play in threes, threes, fives, and fives, each doing his own leisure.It’s okay to go out for a night out at school, buy some refreshments and eat in the dormitory, or go to bed later.This evening can be said to be the happiest time of Sunday.After this point, the slack air began to tense up.Because on Sunday morning, the good day that was hoped for yesterday has actually been achieved, and the "sorrow of practice" has begun to grow in people's hearts.On this day, either the weather was bad, or the personnel were unlucky, the tour appointment scheduled yesterday did not go smoothly, so I felt disappointed.Even if the weather is good and the personnel are clever, when it is time to return to school after all the fun, it is inevitable to taste a feeling close to "sorry after all the joy".Tomorrow's homework was gradually on my mind, and the face of the teacher appeared vaguely in my mind, an invisible black cloud, oppressing everyone's heads.And starting to study again after having fun is like picking up the burden that has been put down to walk again. At first, I feel that the weight is extra heavy.So I couldn't help feeling remorseful, and felt that it was better not to have this Sunday. It turns out that the joy of Sunday is never on Sunday.

Second, graduation is also an example of "practiced sorrow".Students enrolled, of course, hope to graduate.Logically speaking, graduation should be the happiest time for students. But people's mood is not the same: the joy of graduation often lies in the time before graduation; once graduation, the happiness disappears, and sometimes sorrow comes instead.Only when they are about to graduate but not graduated, can students truly and intensely taste the joy of graduation.The study period is only a few months away, and he is the most senior student in the school. In the eyes of the teacher, he is a senior. In front of his classmates, he is an old senior.This is truly the most honorable period in a student's life.Coupled with the hope of a new world after graduation, the happiness implied by words such as "Yunlu" and "Pengcheng" vaguely appeared in the mind and unfolded infinitely in the expectation.

The students at this time are all new young people with great prospects, and all are good citizens who can do something.Not only in student life, but probably in life, this is also the most glorious period.But what if you graduate?Saying goodbye to a good teacher, saying goodbye to a good friend, and leaving his alma mater, I have suffered a lot of sadness first and don't talk about it.After leaving school, some failed to advance to higher education, and some were unable to find a job.Even if you go to school and get a job, the difficulties and pains in these new worlds are often completely different from what you expected when you didn't graduate.

At this time, they often have to envy the past, recall how free and happy they were in school, and wish to be ungraduated students forever.It turns out that the joy of graduation is never in graduation. Looking further, so is the joy of love.When a man wants to marry an unmarried woman, and a woman wants to marry an unmarried man, the joy he feels is the purest and most complete.After the implementation of marriage and marriage, the previous happiness often diminishes, and sometimes misfortune comes instead.Westerners say that "marriage is the tomb of love", maybe it is caused by this "sorrow of practice"?The same is true of wealth and wealth.When one desires to be rich and works hard to accumulate funds, and one desires to be expensive and strives to earn money, this is the period when one's life is most interesting.After being rich and noble, if the human nature of the person has not been completely lost, sometimes he will feel depressed, and feel that being rich is not as happy as being poor.Jia Zheng in the palace pays homage to the prime minister, and Yuan Chun is a noble concubine, which can be regarded as the joy of prosperity and wealth in the world.But I read what Concubine Yuan said to Jia Zheng through the curtain when she was visiting relatives in the Grand View Garden, and I feel that life is so sad that there is nothing more than this.

There are so many things to do, it is impossible to detail them one by one.Suddenly recalling a small incident during a trip to the West Lake, which can prove everything.In the early autumn of the year before last, on a clear and sunny afternoon, two friends and I went boating from the lakeside to the Baidi.Looking up and looking forward, the water and the sky are like a mirror, and the scenery is picturesque, which makes you feel relaxed and happy.Walking close to Baidi, you can see Pinghu Qiuyue protruding from the lake from a distance, almost level with the lake.Surrounded by exquisite railings, it is covered with uneven willows.The willows are golden in the sunlight, and the breeze sways their vertical branches, blowing the heads of people under the trees from time to time.Tourists in twos and threes are lined up beside the tea table under the tree. Some are talking and laughing at each other, some are leaning on the railing to look at each other, and some are looking forward to watching. They are very contented.We looked from the boat, and felt that these people were all people in the painting, and this place was the source of immortality.We originally planned to take a circle around the lake, but after seeing such a scene, everyone's eyes became hot, and we were infatuated with entering this fairy source to be the people in the painting.He ordered the boatmen to anchor by the autumn moon on Pinghu Lake, and landed on the shore to choose a seat.The man who had been looking up and down before followed him, stood by the side with his hands down, and asked, "Sir, red? Green?" We ordered him to make three cups of green tea.His people were ordered to go.Soon after the tea came, a fly floated and died in the teacup, giving us an unhappiness first.The people sitting next to each other talked about the mahjong scriptures, which gave us a kind of embarrassment.The sneaking of a man and a woman who leaned on the railing together made us feel numb again.Finally, a few caterpillars fell on the golden weeping willow and drove us away.I hurriedly got off the boat and went back to the lakeside, even the interest in going around the lake disappeared. Talking with each other in the return boat, everyone thinks that the scenery should only be seen from a distance, not in it. Looking back now, everything in the world is the same as the scenery.The joy of worldly affairs lies not in practice but in hope, just as the beauty of scenery is not in it but outside it.When you enter it, not only will the beauty disappear, but you will also suffer from the unpleasantness of flies, caterpillars, rats, and numbness.This is the root of suffering in the world.Thousands of Willows Outside Chilan Bridge On a sunny and peaceful afternoon, I wandered alone by the West Lake.Temporarily forget the time, forget the location, even forget yourself, and look at the current spring scenery.But seeing thousands of green willows, reflecting the area around the Red Bridge, what a moving scene!The ancients said in a poem: "Thousands of willows outside the Chilan Bridge". In the past, I often admired it as a good sentence to describe the spring scene.Seeing its real scene today, I admire it even more enthusiastically.However, this is not because I have seen the real scene of the poem, but because I have forgotten the time, the place, and even myself, and what I see is what the poet sees; in other words, the real scene is the poem, so my admiration can It's getting hotter.Otherwise, news of the ferocious era will spread everywhere in the world, monuments of national disasters will stand on the other side of the West Lake, and perhaps human crimes will be filled in the cars by the Chilan Bridge, and in the buildings deep in the shadow of willows. What about admiration?In the past, elegant people liked to take charge of the lake and mountains, and often called themselves "the chief of the West Lake" and "the Lord of the West Lake".If you have grown up and become the master, where can you still see the beautiful scenery?I'm afraid they are not as good as me, a tourist on the West Lake, who can forget everything and see the picturesque and poetic scenery on the lake! However, forgetting everything is something that is difficult for people who drag their flesh to last. The beauty of "thousands of willows outside the Chilan Bridge" can only make me intoxicated for a moment, and then draw my thoughts to artistic issues in a second.How can red and green make people feel happy?After carefully chewing on this little question, Bayouzhong's heart has settled down. According to aesthetic scholars, colors have symbolic power and can affect people's hearts.In people's actual life, the symbolic power of color is used everywhere.Now let me think about the use cases of red and green separately: it is said that red symbolizes sexual love, so it is called "peach color" about sex.Red symbolizes marriage, so it is commonly known as "red and white things" for weddings and funerals.Red symbolizes women, so women were called "red face" and "red makeup" in the old days.The women themselves also use red skillfully: some paint their faces red, some paint their lips red, some paint their fingers and claws red, and some use bright red as the lining of their clothes. The dazzling colors seem to say to people: "Although I am calm on the surface, I am full of fire-like enthusiasm!" Love and marriage are always celebrated and prosperous.Therefore, red can also symbolize honor, so it is commonly known as "red" for wealth.The Chinese have a special temper: when they are rewarded with money, their dislike is obvious but their joy is subtle, their dislike is direct but their joy is indirect.At these times, the help of red is needed, as long as the money is wrapped in red paper, even if it is sent directly, the other party will be happy to see this color.This can be said to be a wonderful use of the symbolic power of red!However, red also has the opposite symbolic power: in ancient times, beheaded criminals wore red clothes, and red was a symbol of crime.In modern times, red flags are used to stop trains at stations, and red lights are used to stop cars and horses on the road. Red is a symbol of danger.Most flags of righteousness are red, and red is revolutionary.The Soviet Union used red flags, so people called the Soviet Union "Red Russia", and beware of her "redification".The same is red, why is money wrapped in red paper popular, but "red" is taboo?There seems to be a bit of a contradiction here.But fundamentally, it can also be connected: probably, human beings' understanding of the symbolic power of red begins with fire and blood.Fire is hot, blood is dangerous.Enthusiasm is often close to danger, and danger is often due to enthusiasm.Any traits such as enthusiasm, vividness, development, prosperity, strength, fierceness, danger, etc., can be associated with all the colors of fire and blood.In short, red is a vivid symbol. Green symbolizes peace.Therefore, the green flag is used when the train is allowed to move forward at the station, and the green light is used when the car and horse are allowed to move forward on the road.Although these are man-made marks, their use is not without a natural basis.Imagine changing two colors without red and green, such as yellow and purple, blue and orange, which are far less natural than red and green, and are not easy to remember.There are only two colors, red and green, which are naturally easy to remember.The driver can intuitively feel the situation of the future from the color of the light, and does not have to keep in mind the meaning expressed by this mark.Human eyes and body sensations are subtly related.When red comes into the eyes, the body will naturally feel tense. When green comes into the eyes, the body will naturally feel calm.If you want to pretend to be calm when you see red, and nervous when you see green, that's all right; but it's not human nature.Going a step further from peace, green also symbolizes love.Therefore, the postman who conveys the message wears green clothes, and the Esperanto scholars use green, which symbolizes peace and love, as their logo. These are very meaningful regulations.Perhaps human beings' understanding of the symbolic power of green begins with natural objects.In a sunny spring like today, the vegetation is thriving, the mountains and plains are green and the people are the most gratifying.Imagine that in a few months, the trees will be full of shade, the sky will be full, and the mountains and fields will be full of natural greenery and green screens, and people will feel the most comfortable.Therefore, all the qualities of comfort, harmony, peace, love, naturalness, comfort, etc., can be associated with all the colors of nature.In short, green is a symbol of tranquility. The juxtaposition of red and green makes people feel beautiful, which can be inferred from the above-mentioned various use cases and symbolic power.Red symbolizes liveliness and green symbolizes tranquility.Both vivid and quiet, the original is the most ideal life.Since ancient times, people in peaceful and prosperous times have these two emotions saturated in their hearts. This can also be explained from the perspective of color science: all colors in the world are born from the changes of red, yellow and blue.Therefore, red, yellow and blue are called "three primary colors".Each of the three primary colors has its own characteristics: red is warm, yellow is solemn, and blue is quiet.Every two primary colors are combined to form "three secondary colors", that is, red and yellow are orange, red and blue are purple, and yellow and blue are green.The three colors also have their own characteristics: orange is warm and solemn, that is, holy; purple is warm and quiet, that is noble; green is solemn and quiet, that is peace.Such repeated combination can produce infinite colors, each with infinite characteristics.Today red and green are matched, in other words, red is matched with yellow and blue.The three primary colors are all sufficient.In other words, it contains all the colors in the world.Therefore, when it comes into people's eyes, it feels saturated and complete, and there is nothing missing.It can be seen that the fundamental reason why the contrast between red and green makes people feel happy lies in the three primary colors.However, the contrast of the three primary colors is not just a combination of red and green.Yellow and purple (red and blue), blue and orange (red and yellow), are all three primary colors.Why is the combination of red and green so perfect?This is due to the different properties of the three primary colors.Colors are divided into two categories, yin and yang, and red is the main yang; colors are divided into two categories, light and dark, and red is the main one; colors are divided into two categories, cold and warm, and red is the main one.Yang is stronger than Yin, light is stronger than darkness, and warmth is stronger than cold.Therefore, red is the strongest of the three primary colors, stronger than yellow, and yellow is stronger than blue.Therefore, the combination of yellow and blue (green) is used to compare red, which is the most evenly matched.Red and blue (purple) are next to yellow.Red, yellow (orange) is next to blue.Judging from their symbols, we can also understand this truth: Warmth, solemnity, and tranquility also make a sequential difference in terms of human emotional needs.Enthusiasm comes first, solemnity comes second, and serenity comes second.Those who emphasize tranquility lose softness, and those who emphasize solemnity lose rigidity.Only those who focus on enthusiasm can get the positiveness of yin and yang, which meets the needs of human emotions, especially suitable for the mood of vigorous people.So simple primitive people like red and green; naive children like red and green; festive people like red and green; influenced by the sun and wind, I forget the sorrows of the times, and I, wandering by the West Lake, are also happy." The color of "Thousands of Willows" outside Chilan Bridge is saturated, so people temporarily experience the happy mood when viewing it. It's a pity that these thousand willows will soon fall and decay.I'm afraid that in the future, spring will return to summer, autumn will kill, and the peaceful green will disappear. Only the dangerous colors of Chilan Bridge will monopolize the natural world and become rampant in the gray environment. No one will come to enjoy the scenery, and I will no longer wander here. finger In the art theory of the late Japanese art theorist Toshi Ueda, he once said: "Among the five fingers, the ring finger is the most beautiful. It is hard to believe this at first. What beauty and ugliness are there in the fingers? But after careful observation, you can I saw that the ring finger is among the five fingers, and the shape is the most beautiful..." To the effect that, I don't remember the original text. When I read this passage from him, I found it very interesting.What a keen sense, what a wealth of taste this art theorist is!The five fingers should also be carefully observed and subjected to artistic criticism.But he was only interested in his feelings and tastes, but failed to sympathize with his ring finger, which is the most beautiful theory.At that time, I also stretched out my hand and looked at it carefully for a while.I don't know if it's because my eyesight is bad or my fingers are bad, but I still can't see the beauty of my ring finger.After staring at it for a long time, I felt disgusted instead: those fingers looked like some kind of snakes and insects, and the ring finger was especially winding and terrifying.If my eyesight and fingers are fine, then Ueda's so-called most beautiful is probably referring to this point? At this moment, I happened to look at my hands and remembered what Ueda said.I learned that Ueda's so-called "beauty" is aesthetic beauty.To borrow their Mandarin, it is the beauty of on-narashii (female face), not otokorashii (male face). In terms of painting, this is the first-class elegance of the "Pre-Raphaelists", not the bodybuilding after Cezanne.In terms of art trends, this is the decadent beauty of the end of the century, not the powerful beauty of the new era. But I still admire Mr. Ueda's sharp sense and rich taste, because his words indicate my appreciation of fingers.Except for the handicapped, we all carry ten fingers with us anytime and anywhere, and we are never far away from our bodies. It can be said that we are close to each other; however, it is rare for someone to appreciate them and criticize them.This cannot but be said to be a kind of negligence!Appreciating carefully, the five fingers on one hand actually have different postures and different personalities.Now I want to picture them one by one: Among the five fingers, the thumb is the ugliest one.He is ashamed of himself, and often retreats to the bottom, not in the same rank as the other four.His body is short and fat, his head is big and fat, his structure is simple, everyone has two joints, he has only one.His posture was therefore ugly, vulgar, stupid and savage, and sometimes terrible to watch.I remember when I was young, there was a lunatic who caught dog shit in my hometown, named Gu Dejin. When he saw us children, he raised his hand, made a fist, put his thumb on it, and bent his thumb towards us. joint.It was as if a pistol was about to be fired at us, or as if a monster was nodding at us. We were most frightened when we saw it, and immediately fled back home, clinging to our mother.This happened repeatedly, and later my mother used the phrase "Gu Dejin is here" as a magic weapon to stop our evil plays.Because of this story, I now feel even more frightened when I look at the posture of the thumb.But regardless of his posture, if you think about his life, he is not terrible but respectable.He is the hardest worker among the five fingers.All the life of pleasure is done by others, and it is not his turn.For example, when eating a cigarette, he always holds the cigarette with his middle finger and index finger, so he has to bend down inside and touch the butt of the cigarette; it is also like playing a huqin, where he always presses the strings with the other four fingers, but he is asked to help hold the body of the qin; , Before the eighteenth century, he only used the other four fingers; later, the German musician Sebastian Bach finally promoted him and invited him to play the piano; however, he always had fewer opportunities to press the keys than others.And all life that pleases is done by others, and it is not his turn.For example, the other four people came forward to nod to greet people, and he had to stand aside blankly; or if it was like scratching an itch, the other four people stepped forward to do their best, and he had to retreat behind.On the contrary, when encountering strenuous work, the other four would back off and let him go forward to deal with it.For example, if water is about to spray out, ask him to resist it with all his strength; if blood is about to flow out, ask him to hold it down desperately; if something heavy is about to fall over, ask him to hold it firmly; When it is dark, ask him to turn the pages of the book; when he is about to enter the door, tell him to ring the bell; when it is dark, tell him to turn on the light;All kinds of hard work belong to him, and he will never quit.The other four people don't need him except for pleasure and flattery, and they need his help when they live a little strenuous life. His position is just opposite to them, and he is willing to help no matter who they are.Without his help, others would not be successful in their careers.From this point of view, he is the most important and powerful member of the five fingers.Ranking first, it is called "big", "giant", and "thumb", which is really well-deserved.The Japanese call this finger "coyayubi" (coyayubi), and it is also used as a sign of "husband";Its importance and power are stronger than this as you can imagine.Using the crowd as a comparison I want to compare the thumb to a farmer. ① Literally translated as "under someone's thumb". Ugliness, hardship, importance, and strength are all slightly worse than the thumb, and the index finger most often cooperates with the thumb.Although this finger is in the same class as the middle finger, ring finger, and little finger in form, its status seems to be much higher than that of the thumb of the working class. In fact, its life is between the two classes, and it is more comfortable than the thumb. Limited, much harder than other three fingers!This can be seen in his posture.Except for the thumb, he is the oldest, with a lumpy head, hard skin, and thick finger claws. The posture of the whole body is far less than the other three fingers, which are all straight and strong curves.Some forefingers have straight lines on both sides and the same thickness from the beginning to the end, like a piece of sausage.Because he is really a laborer.Although his work is not more difficult than that of a thumb, it is more complicated than that of a thumb.When holding the pen, it is all up to him to push the pen holder, hold it with his thumb, and support it with his middle finger, so as to write various complicated characters.When encountering dirty and dangerous things, he has to go forward alone to test or take risks.He has the most opportunities to come into contact with filth, poison, and violent objects; he has the most opportunities to suffer from knife wounds, burns, crushes, and bites.No wonder his body is getting old.Although his strength is not as strong as that of the thumb, he has the "smartness" that the thumb does not have. Therefore, he is indispensable for various important tasks.He must be invited to direct the direction, to make automatic calls, and to trigger the trigger.In addition, calculating the abacus, twisting the spiral to untie the button, etc., although there is a thumb to help, it is finally necessary for him to do it.In short, the movement of the hand is almost rare, and he will not come, and he must be asked to come forward and make decisions in everything.Therefore, the British call this finger the forefinger, also known as the index. ①.I would like to compare the index finger to a worker. Among the five fingers, the one with the highest status and the most magnificent appearance is nothing like the middle finger.He lives in the center, and there are screen fans on the left and right.He has the tallest body and is formally the chief figure among the fingers.His two right and left ring fingers and index fingers are the same size and length as Guan Ping and Zhou Cang on the left and right of Guan Gong. His body is sandwiched between these two people, and will never be impacted by foreign objects, so his skin is tender, ruddy, and curvaceous, showing the happiness of being pampered everywhere, and his name is the most beautiful, everyone calls him "Zhong", Japan People respect him even more, and they call him "takatakayubi" (takatakayubi).But when it comes to abilities, he is actually a person who has only a shape, a name, and a position, and is rarely useful.Whenever he does something, he always participates in the name, but in reality he does not make any effort. For example, when grabbing an object, because he has the longest body, he is often the first to touch the object, as if the achievement of the object is due to him alone. ① Literally translated as "fingers in front" or "standard fingers". In fact, as soon as he touched it, he stepped back and let the two people, the thumb and index finger, do the work of carrying it, and he only stood aside for a little support.Another example is pushing away an object. Because he has the longest body, he is often the first to contact the object, as if pushing away the object is due to him alone.In fact, as soon as he touched it, he backed away and let the two people, his thumb and forefinger, push it away. He just stood aside to help the heat. "Zuo Zhuan" "Helu hurts the general's finger" under the sentence: "The general refers to the big finger of the foot. It is said that it will control all the fingers. Most of the feet use the big finger. The middle finger is long for the hand. So it is enough for the big finger. To be a general, the middle finger is used as a general." It can be seen that the middle finger is among the fingers, like a general among soldiers, ordering the soldiers to go forward and fight, while he retreats behind.In name, he also participated in the war, but in reality he didn't have to contribute.I want to compare the middle finger to an official. Ring finger and little finger, really two babies!There is nothing more beautiful than them. The beauty of the former is feminine, the beauty of the latter is childish.Their skin is fair and tender, and their bodies are very beautiful.They look very cute.However, the weak ability is no more than them.The use of the ring finger itself is only for grinding cosmetic powder, kneading powdered medicine, and wearing a ring.The Japanese call him "red difference finger" (benisashiyubi), which refers to the finger used to grind rouge.He is also called "medicine finger" (kusuriyubi), which means that sometimes he grinds the powdered medicine, or mixes some powdered medicine and applies it to the affected area.The British call him the ring, which is even smaller, just pinching ears and crawling nose.They are also reused sometimes. In silk and bamboo orchestra, their abilities are not allowed to others.When a woman wearing a diamond ring wants to show her beauty and wealth in the social society, she often uses the "orchid finger" to pinch a cigarette or a wine glass to present the person she admires.These two fingers are the most beautiful petals of this "orchid".In addition to such glorious things of pleasure, when it comes to work, they are just powerless vassals of the other three fingers.I would like to compare the ring finger to a dude and the little finger to a weak person. Therefore, I can't sympathize with Ueda's theory that the ring finger is the most beautiful. I think his so-called beauty is aesthetic, graceful, and decadent.At the same time, I didn't want to sing a word, and I decided on the most beautiful finger among the five fingers.I only feel that there are differences in the posture and character of the five fingers, but I don't like or hate them.I feel that the whole of the fingers is the same as the whole of the crowd.If the five fingers can be unified and united to form a fist to resist foreign aggression, then the roots will be effective and powerful, and there will be no distinction between good and evil, strong and weak. Home Returning from a friend’s house in Nanjing to the hotel in Nanjing, from the hotel in Nanjing to the other apartment in Hangzhou, and from the other apartment in Hangzhou to the main residence of Yuanyuantang in Shimen Bay, each time I get a feeling , recorded as follows. When I was at my friend's house in Nanjing, I was very happy.Because the owner is an old friend of mine.We used to count the mornings and evenings together in our teenage years.Later, we worked hard to make a living, although we all got older, our mood was colder, our attitudes were more serious, and our speeches were more vacant, but we still kept a little spiritual fire in our hearts, and we often showed each other in the conversation.This made our meeting very cordial.In addition, the level of material life of the owner is similar to mine, and the household equipment is also similar to mine.What I need on weekdays: a dime a tael of tea, a tin of Dameimei cigarettes, a kettle with boiling water, a toothpick that is handy, a wicker chair that fits well, and a small window with just the right brightness. He has them all in his house. Sitting in his study made me feel similar to sitting in my own.In addition, his wife is good at entertaining, showing sincere hospitality to the guests, and there is absolutely no preferential treatment. The preferential treatment is the most terrible thing I often receive when I am a guest.For example, I took a match that was less than half an inch long to light my cigarette, which made everyone panic, and my beard was burned off; I piled up vegetables that I didn't like to eat on my rice bowl, making it impossible for me to eat chopsticks; They robbed me of my rice bowl to refill it, so that I would stop eating; hid my luggage so that I could not leave.This kind of hospitality, even out of sincerity, is considered to be an order to expel the guest, and it is collectively called preferential treatment.This time, the wife of the family I live in has no such vices, but she puts the cigarettes that are not lacking and taps where you can get them freely, and does not use the tap to burn your beard; but puts delicate vegetables in the Where you can take it freely, the rice bucket is placed where you can take it freely, and you are not forced to eat; but when you are leaving, you are sincerely retained, not imprisoned.In my opinion, this is the most sincere preferential treatment.This makes me very happy.In English, you are welcome to say athome①.I am a guest in this master's house, just like an athome.So very happy. However, this is not my home after all. After talking for a while after dinner, I began to think about my hotel.I am in a hotel, and I can live, sit, or sleep freely, use my waiter freely, and satisfy my requirements freely with the power of legal currency.Compared with the life of a guest who is entertained by the host's family, it is more free after all.I have to stay in a hotel for four or five days, which is more permanent than living as a guest who bids farewell after a meal.Therefore, although the master's study room is properly furnished, and although the master's hospitality is considerate, I always feel uneasy.The so-called "although the gazebo is good, it is not a place to live for a long time", after a chat after dinner, I bid farewell and went home.This so-called "home" is my hotel. ①The original meaning is "in one's own home", and the extension means not to be restrained. When I came back to the hotel from my friend's house, I felt very comfortable.Because this hotel meets my heart in every point.First, its price is still cheap, without large-scale stupidity, such as ugly mahogany chairs that are not suitable for sitting on, ugly copper beds that are full of anger, costly but not practical, and unsightly handicrafts, I collectively call them For mass stupidity.The men who made such fools were short-sighted and short-sighted, and had a lot of fiat money.Like the rich man who broke out, the ignorant businessman, and the warlord who got promoted and made a fortune, they are examples.要看这种笨相，可以访问他们的家。我的旅馆价既便宜，其设备当然不丰。即使也有笨相--像家具形式的丑恶，房间布置的不妥，壁上装饰的唐突，茶壶茶杯的不可爱--都是小规模的笨相，比较起大规模的笨相来，犹似五十步比百步，终究差好些，至少不使人感觉暴殄天物，冤哉枉也。第二，我的茶房很老实，我回旅馆时不给我脱外衣，我洗面时不给我绞手巾，我吸香烟时不给我擦自来火，我叫他做事时不喊"是--是--"，这使我觉得很自由，起居生活同在家里相差不多。因为我家里也有这么老实的一位男工，我就不妨把茶房当作自己的工人。第三，住在旅馆里没有人招待，一切行动都随我意。出门不必对人鞠躬说"再会"，归来也没有人同我寒暄。早晨起来不必向人道"早安"，晚上就寝的迟早也不受别人的牵累。在朋友家作客，虽然也很安乐，总不及住旅馆的自由：看见他家里的人，总得想出几句话来说说，不好不去睬他。脸孔上即使不必硬作笑容，也总要装得和悦一点，不好对他们板脸孔。板脸孔，好像是一种凶相。但我觉得是最自在最舒服的一种表情。我自己觉得，平日独自闭居在家里的房间里读书、写作的时候，脸孔的表情总是严肃的，极难得有独笑或独乐的时光。若拿这种独居时的表情移用在交际应酬的座上，别人一定当我有所不快，在板脸孔。据我推想，这一定不止我一人如此。最漂亮的交际家，巧言令色之徒，回到自己家里，或房间里，甚或眠床里，也许要用双手揉一揉脸孔，恢复颜面上的表情筋肉的疲劳，然后板着脸孔皱着眉头回想日间的事，考虑明日的战略。可知无论何人，交际应酬中的脸孔多少总有些不自然，其表情筋肉多少总有些儿吃力。最自然，最舒服的，只有板着脸孔独居的时候。所以，我在孤癖发作的时候，觉得住旅馆比在朋友家作客更自在而舒服。 然而，旅馆究竟不是我的家，住了几天，我惦记起我杭州的别寓来。 在那里有我自己的什用器物，有我自己的书籍文具，还有我自己雇请着的工人。比较起借用旅馆的器物，对付旅馆的茶房来，究竟更为自由；比较起小住四五天就离去的旅馆生活来，究竟更为永久。因此，我睡在旅馆的眠床上似觉有些浮动；坐在旅馆的椅子上似觉有些不稳；用旅馆的毛巾似觉有些隔膜。虽然这房间的主权完全属我，我的心底里总有些儿不安。住了四五天，我就算帐回家。这所谓家，就是我的别寓。 当我从南京的旅馆回到了杭州的别寓里的时候，觉得很自在。我年来在故乡的家里蛰居太久，环境看得厌了，趣味枯乏，心情郁结。就到离家乡还近而花样较多的杭州来暂作一下寓公，借此改换环境，调节趣味。趣味，在我是生活上一种重要的养料，其重要几近于面包。别人都在为了获得面包而牺牲趣味，或者为了堆积法币而抑制趣味。我现在幸而没有走上这两种行径，还可省下半只面包来换得一点趣味。 因此，这寓所犹似我的第二的家。在这里没有作客时的拘束，也没有住旅馆时的不安心。我可以吩咐我的工人做点我所喜欢的家常素菜，夜饭时同放学归来的一子一女共吃。我可以叫我的工人相帮我，把房间的布置改过一下，新一新气象。饭后睡前，我可以开一开蓄音机，听听新买来的几张蓄音片。窗前灯下，我可以在自己的书桌上读我所爱读的书，写我所愿写的稿。月底虽然也要付房钱，但价目远不似旅馆这么贵，买卖式远不及旅馆这么明显。虽然也可以合算每天房钱几角几分。但因每月一付，相隔时间太长，住房子同付房钱就好像不相联关的两件事，或者房钱仿佛白付，而房子仿佛白住。因有此种种情形，我从旅馆回到寓中觉得非常自然。 然而，寓所究竟不是我的本宅。每逢起了倦游的心情的时候，我便惦记起故乡的缘缘堂来。在那里有我故乡的环境，有我关切的亲友，有我自己的房子，有我自己的书斋，有我手种的芭蕉、樱桃和葡萄。比较起租别人的房子，使用简单的器具来，究竟更为自由；比较起暂作借住，随时可以解租的寓公生活来，究竟更为永久。我在寓中每逢要在房屋上略加装修，就觉得要考虑；每逢要在庭中种些植物，也觉得不安心，因而思念起故乡的家来。牺牲这些装修和植物，倒还在其次；能否长久享用这些设备，却是我所顾虑的。我睡在寓中的床上虽然没有感觉像旅馆里那样浮动，坐在寓中的椅上虽然没有感觉像旅馆里那样不稳，但觉得这些家具在寓中只是摆在地板上的，没有像家里的东西那样固定得同生根一般。这种倦游的心情强盛起来，我就离寓返家。这所谓家，才是我的本宅。 当我从别寓回到了本宅的时候，觉得很安心。主人回来了，芭蕉鞠躬，樱桃点头，葡萄棚上特地飘下几张叶子来表示欢迎。两个小儿女跑来牵我的衣，老仆忙着打扫房间。老妻忙着烧素菜，故乡的臭豆腐干，故乡的冬菜，故乡的红米饭。窗外有故乡的天空，门外有打着石门湾土白的行人，这些行人差不多个个是认识的。还有各种负贩的叫卖声，这些叫卖声在我统统是稔熟的。我仿佛从飘摇的舟中登上了陆，如今脚踏实地了。这里是我的最自由，最永久的本宅，我的归宿之处，我的家。我从寓中回到家中，觉得非常安心。 但到了夜深人静，我躺在床上回味上述的种种感想的时候，又不安心起来。我觉得这里仍不是我的真的本宅，仍不是我的真的归宿之处，仍不是我的真的家。四大的暂时结合而形成我这身体，无始以来种种因缘相凑合而使我诞生在这地方。偶然的呢？还是非偶然的？若是偶然的，我又何恋恋于这虚幻的身和地？若是非偶然的，谁是造物主呢？我须得寻着了他，向他那里去找求我的真的本宅，真的归宿之处，真的家。这样一想，我现在是负着四大暂时结合的躯壳，而在无始以来种种因缘凑合而成的地方暂住，我是无"家"可归的。既然无"家"可归，就不妨到处为"家"。上述的屡次的不安心，都是我的妄念所生。想到那里，我很安心地睡着了。 爆炒米花 楼窗外面"砰"的一响，好象放炮，又好象轮胎爆裂。推窗一望，原来是"爆炒米花"。 这东西我小时候似乎不曾见过，不知是什么时候开始有的。这个名称我也不敢确定，因为那人的叫声中音乐的成分太多，字眼听不清楚。问问别人，都说"爆炒米花吧"。然而爆而又炒，语法欠佳，恐非正确。但这姑且不论，总之，这是用高热度把米粒放大的一种工作。这工作的工具是一个有柄的铁球，一只炭炉，一只风箱，一只麻袋和一张小凳。爆炒米花者把人家托他爆的米放进铁球里，密封起来，把铁球架在炭炉上；然后坐在小凳上了，右手扯风箱，左手握住铁球的柄，把它摇动，使铁球在炭炉上不绝地旋转。旋到相当的时候，他把铁球从炭炉上卸下，放进麻袋里，然后启封，--这时候发出"砰"的一响，同时米粒从铁球中迸出，落在麻袋里，颗颗同黄豆一般大了！爆炒米花者就拿起麻袋来，把这些米花倒在请托者拿来的篮子里，然后向他收取若干报酬。请托者大都笑嘻嘻地看看篮子里黄豆一般大的米花，带着孩子，拿着篮子回去了。这原是孩子们的闲食，是一种又滋养、又卫生、又经济的闲食。 我家的劳动大姐主张不用米粒，而用年糕来托他爆。把水磨年糕切成小拇指大的片子放在太阳里晒干，然后拿去托他爆。爆出来的真好看：小拇指大的年糕片，都变得同十支香烟簏子一般大了！爆的时候加入些糖，吃起来略带甜味，不但孩子们爱吃，大人们也都喜欢，因为它质地很松，容易消化，多吃些也不会伤胃。"空隆空隆"地嚼了好久，而实际上吃下去的不过小拇指大的一片年糕。 我吃的时候曾经作如是想：倘使不爆，要人吃小拇指大的几片硬年糕，恐怕不见得大家都要吃。因为硬年糕虽然营养丰富，但是质地太致密，不容易嚼碎，不容易消化。只有胃健的人，消化力强大的人，例如每餐"斗米十肉"的古代人，才能吃硬年糕；普通人大都是没有这胃口的吧。而同是这硬年糕，一经爆过，一经放松，普通人就也能吃，并且受吃，即使是胃弱的人也消化得了。这一爆的作用就在于此。 想到这里，恍然若有所感。似乎觉得这东西象征着另一种东西。我回想起了三十年前，我初作《缘缘堂随笔》时的一件事。 《缘缘堂随笔》结集成册，在开明书店出版了。那时候我已经辞去教师和编辑之职，从上海迁回故乡石门湾，住在老屋后面的平屋里。我故乡有一位前辈先生，姓杨名梦江，是我父亲的好友，我两三岁的时候，父亲教我认他为义父，我们就变成了亲戚。我迁回故乡的时候，我父亲早已故世，但我常常同这位义父往来。他是前清秀才，诗书满腹。有一次，我把新出版的《缘缘堂随笔》送他一册，请他指教。过了几天他来看我，谈到了这册随笔，我敬求批评。他对那时正在提倡的白话文向来抱反对态度，我料他的批评一定是否定的。 果然，他起初就局部略微称赞几句，后来的结论说："不过，这种文章，教我们做起来，每篇只要廿八个字--一首七绝；或者二十个字--一首五绝。" 我初听到这话，未能信受。继而一想，觉得大有道理！古人作文，的确言简意繁，辞约义丰，不象我们的白话文那么噜里噜苏。回想古人的七绝和五绝，的确每首都可以作为一篇随笔的题材。例如最周知的唐诗："去年今日此门中，人面桃花相映红。人面不知何处去，桃花依旧笑春风。""少小离家老大回，乡音无改鬓毛催。儿童相见不相识，笑问客从何处来？"这两个题材，倘使教我来表达，我得写每篇两三千字的两篇抒情随笔。"昨日入城市，归来泪满巾：遍身罗绮者，不是养蚕人。""长安买花者，一枝值万钱；道旁有饥人，一钱不肯捐。"这两个题材，倘教我来表达，我也许要写成--倘使我会写的话--两篇讽喻短篇小说呢！于是我佩服这位老前辈的话，表示衷心地接受批评。 三十年前这位老前辈对我说的话，我一直保存在心中，不料今天同窗外的"爆炒米花"相结合了，我想：原来我的随笔都好比是爆过、放松过的年糕！ 暂时脱离尘世 夏目漱石的小说《旅宿》（日本名《草枕》）中有一段话： "苦痛、愤怒、叫嚣、哭泣，是附着在人世间的。我也在三十年间经历过来，此中况味尝得够腻了。腻了还要在戏剧、小说中反复体验同样的刺激，真吃不消。我所喜爱的诗，不是鼓吹世俗人情的东西，是放弃俗念，使心地暂时脱离尘世的诗。" 夏目漱石真是一个最象人的人。今世有许多人外貌是人，而实际很不象人，倒象一架机器。这架机器里装满着苦痛、愤怒、叫嚣、哭泣等力量，随时可以应用，即所谓"冰炭满怀抱"也。他们非但不觉得吃不消，并且认为做人应当如此，不，做机器应当如此。 我觉得这种人非常可怜，因为他们毕竟不是机器，而是人。他们也喜爱放弃俗念，使心地暂时脱离尘世。不然，他们为什么也喜欢休息，喜欢说笑呢？苦痛、愤怒、叫嚣、哭泣，是附着在人世间的，人当然不能避免。但请注意"暂时"这两个字，"暂时脱离尘世"，是快适的，是安乐的，是营养的。 陶渊明的，大家知道是虚幻的，是乌托邦，但是大家喜欢一读，就为了他能使人暂时脱离尘世。是荒唐的，然而颇有人爱读。陶渊明读后还咏了许多诗。 这仿佛白日做梦，也可暂时脱离尘世。 铁工厂的技师放工回家，晚酌一杯，以慰尘劳。举头看见墙上挂着一大幅《冶金图》，此人如果不是机器，一定感到刺目。军人出征回来，看见家中挂着战争的画图。此人如果不是机器，也一定感到厌烦。从前有一科技师向我索画，指定要画儿童游戏。有一律师向我索画，指定要画西湖风景。此种些微小事，也竟有人萦心注目。二十世纪的人爱看表演千百年前故事的古装戏剧，也是这种心理。人生真乃意味深长！ 这使我常常怀念夏目漱石。