Chapter 45 but let the orchid wither

one Until now, I have discovered a terrible thing, terrible, sad, and pitiful. Only now do I realize that I have never had a girlfriend in the orthodox way in my life. It's not because of fear—fear of responsibility, fear of marriage, fear of losing freedom, fear of being abandoned, fear of being hurt. To be honest, I didn't quite understand what the word "fear" meant at that time. Until recently, there have been letters from readers saying that I always write women as "that way" in my books. It must be because I have been abandoned by girls, I have been hurt, and even my mind is a little abnormal.

I can assure you, that's not the reason why I didn't have a girlfriend. At that time, I searched and didn't know what it meant to be "hurt", let alone why a big man should feel sad for a woman. The reason why I haven't had a normal girlfriend is probably because my life has always been abnormal. When others were normal (carrying a schoolbag to school), I was already "traveling in the rivers and lakes and carrying wine". Girls in the wind and dust, under the competition of red lights and green wine, always look particularly beautiful, of course, their temper is not as big as the eldest lady, and they are always more docile to men. It is obvious that girls can't just agree to men Sometimes they have to agree.

From a certain point of view, this is also a helpless tragedy. Therefore, girls in the wind and dust often have a kind of sadness in their hearts that cannot be told to others, and they often show a kind of contempt for life in their actions, and they don't care much about everything. With the chivalry of a prodigal son! For a boy who has the blood of a prodigal son in his blood, this kind of feeling is exactly what they are looking for, so once they fall into the ten-mile foreign market, it is difficult to climb out. two Sometimes I also wonder if there were orchids withered for me when I was busy irrigating wild roses all day long.

Thinking of this, a man will inevitably feel a little narcissistic in his heart, and sometimes he may feel a little comforted. Isn't this kind of mood pitiful and sad? !