Chapter 35 people in rivers and lakes

one Seeing girls who have brought happiness to others and who can find ways to make themselves happy, just like seeing some of my friends, always makes me have the urge to drink. Most of those friends are the same as me. When they left home when they were young, and only had a little knowledge of it, they did a lot of seemingly right and wrong things with only a moment of courage. Resent you. Among these people, some died in their prime of life, some of them walked in dark alleys and spattered blood within five steps because of grievances, but most of them still died of alcohol. Is this because they are so devoted to their momentary enthusiasm, and they are crazy like ordinary people?Or is it because they all have unresolved knots in their chests, and they want to borrow a glass of wine from others to pour out the lumps in their chests?

Anyway, my dead friends, I hope you all rest in peace. two "People are in the rivers and lakes, and they can't help themselves." I believe that since ancient times, many people have felt this way, but I have changed their thoughts into black letters and printed them on white paper. It is true that people are in the rivers and lakes, but in fact, people are not in the rivers and lakes, how can they be in control of themselves?If you feel bored for a while, you can sing and drink too much, which will only hurt your relatives and make your enemies happy. I was also an alcoholic, and I also went back and forth between life and death, so why didn't I have some sharp cone-like feelings in my heart?Now, although I am willing to be lonely and stay away from the mountains, I still feel some involuntary sadness from time to time.

But recently I have come to understand that life is like this.