Chapter 49 little angel

little angel The differences between a woman's virginity and her motherhood. A junior high school girlfriend suddenly wrote me a letter, saying that she went to Nanjing with her husband six months ago. Recently, because of something at home in Zhenhai, she decided to take her "little angel" back. At that time, I set off on the Beijing-Shanghai express train, and when I arrived in Shanghai, I planned to stay overnight at my house, so that I could talk about everything with me; at the end, I added a postscript, saying that it would be best to invite me to meet at the North Station around 2:30 pm that day. waiting.The word "little angel" made me infinitely curious. Does Zhang Jijie have a little angel?The scene when she shouted "struggle" on the speech stage of the public meeting seven years ago is vivid. Later, I heard that she ran away because she opposed the marriage arranged by her parents. After many twists and turns, she finally achieved her goal and lived with Xu Mingqiu in Hangzhou. . "Her little angel must have been raised very cute." I thought of my little daughter Weiwei who was still in the hands of the nanny, but when I was living in Shanghai, I couldn't help but feel ashamed to see them. I did a lot that night Dreaming, dreaming that she was holding a Shirley Temple-like child and laughing at the bag of the Great Compassion Curse hanging on my Weiwei's chest.

The next day I hurriedly finished my lunch, freshened up a bit, put on my overcoat and went to the train station.I will be disappointed by Xian Xiao. His opinion is: "Although little angels are decorations in the paradise (for wealthy families), they are also a burden for ordinary people. Cuteness is no match for loathsomeness." But I don't think so; so we parted ways. He went out to do his official business, and I walked towards the North Station. After waiting for about half an hour, the train arrived at the station, and the passengers came out one after another. I stood at the ticket office and looked around, but I never saw her mother and child again.Seeing that it was almost 3:30, there were even fewer people coming out, so I hurriedly bought a platform ticket and went in, and finally found her on a third-class train, holding a child in a purple satin robe in one hand, Holding two pieces of dung cloth in his hands, he made no arrangements.

"Ah, you waited so hard for me!" I stepped forward and yelled, both hated and happy.But her attitude was calm, and she told me: The bus was extremely crowded when it arrived, so I had to let people go first; when I was about to get off, the child shit, so I had to let him poop, what should I do if I stuffed it in my belly?He ate a lot in the car and cleaned it up.After shitting, I have to wipe his ass, and I can't come to your house just stained with shit.People with children are no different than when they were students in the past. When the car arrives, it is easy to pick up the small net basket and go.She babbled, as if blaming me for not knowing how hard she was, so she couldn't quarrel with her the first time we met, so she stopped her with a smile: "Forget it, forget it, it's not good to be too impatient to be a girl, now It's time to start.—What are you still doing with those two precious things in your hand?"

"Fortunately, you are also a mother. The baby's feces are indispensable, and you can throw them away? Besides, I don't bring much this time,..." "Okay, okay, okay" I'm afraid she will talk again Go down, "But you can't talk about it like this, let's find a piece of paper to wrap it up." While talking, he picked up a newspaper from the neighbor and spread it on the chair, telling her to put the dung cloth on it. "How can writing paper be wrapped in shitcloth?" She made another trick. "It's my fault alone!" I couldn't help but lose my temper.Only then did I call a worker to carry the suitcase, the small net basket, and many cans and boxes. She hugged the child, and I left the station together with a bag of excrement cloth.

When we sat down in the room, we were going to talk about the old days. We hadn’t seen each other for seven years, so I had a lot to talk about, so I said, “I heard that you and Mr. Xu took a lot of trouble to get married, and now your goal has been achieved, and you have this Are you happy, little angel?" "Well, well," without answering me, she took off her high-heeled shoes, pulled out a pair of leather slippers from the small net basket to put them on, and handed a package to the child; the child had already climbed onto my bed and put me on I held the white Indian silk pillow in my arms like a foreign child, and when I saw the package, I immediately threw the pillow away, put my snot-stained little hand into the bag, and took out a lot of lemon candy and put it on the white blanket. I couldn't help frowning.But Jie didn't care, wiped his nose with a handkerchief, and said, "I don't think it's true what you just said—ah, Paul, why did you sit down on your ass?" She While talking, she touched out the candy sitting under his buttocks for him and stuffed it into his mouth, "Actually, men are always the same. Whether they are in love or not is just a silly idea in the virgin era; if you have children, who else is there?" I have so much time to talk about love? I regret that I hurt my mother too much at that time. There is only..." At this point, there was only a "S" and Bao'er had already nailed my picture nail to the wall. Take off the Colbert picture on the table and tear it into two pieces: "Ah!" Jie hurriedly hugged him in his arms and touched his hand, "Don't mess with this picture pin, it's not for fun to sting your hands.— ——You are so childish, this kind of female star pictures are also used to nail on the wall; what should I do now that they are torn by him?"

"It doesn't matter, I don't like it very much, just tear it up." I forced a smile, "I also have a girl, you know?" "I know, it was your cousin in Jinling Women's University who told me. ──She told me the name of your place." "Mom, banana,... banana..." The child suddenly found the banana I put on the bookshelf in the morning. "Give him something to eat?" I asked. "What if I don't give it to him?" So I took one for him, one for Jay, and one for myself; but the kid couldn't argue enough, Jay peeled hers and handed it to him; Smiled: "The child is always delicious. After weaning, he has to eat a lot of snacks every day. When his stomach hurts, his father blames me. We often quarrel because of this. But your child who is still breastfeeding is good." Go; how old is your little one?"

"It's almost one year old." "Our Bao'er is one year and eight months old; it's just a match, so our two families are right for each other." "What are you talking about?" I couldn't help being stunned. "Didn't you yourself run away because you opposed the old marriage?" "I've already told you this, it's really meaningless! You were married by the order of your parents, and the relationship between husband and wife is not as good as ours now. Although Qiu and I are freely married, since the birth of Bao'er, the two People often quarrel with each other, for example: Bao'er tore up one of his pictures, what is it worth? Another painting is enough? But he likes to quarrel with me red-faced and red-veined; No painting? It means that the child is not good, and I didn’t tell him to do it on purpose. What do people of this age know? And..."

"What do you think Paul is doing?" I interrupted her.When she was busy looking back, she saw the child was lifting her robe, and hurriedly hugged him and said: "He is about to urinate, give me the spittoon quickly." Sprayed on my wrists, and by the time I got the spittoon in place, a big, watery piss was spilling mostly on the floor.So I washed my hands and cleaned the floor for a while. "Although he is only a little over one year old, he never urinates on his trousers; there are many children who are six or seven years old and still urinate on the bed at night." Jie told me proudly.

When I was about to say something to him, Xian came back, so everyone said some polite words; the child saw that there was another stranger in the room and clamored to go out, so Jie carried him alone to Beisichuan Road to watch the trams and cars. up.Seeing that my bed was covered with banana peels and shredded paper, and the pillows had been thrown on the floor, Xian couldn't help looking at me and smiling: "How? The little angels made your bed like this. I want to let them tonight." Let the mother and son sleep on this bed, take out the pillowcases and blankets and wash them tomorrow. You will sleep on my bed, and I will go to Hongkou Hotel to open a room."

"You might make her feel uneasy if you go to bed outside, I think we can just live in it for a night, or I can sleep on the floor." While everyone was discussing, the dinner was delivered, I hurriedly asked him to bring it back, and ordered A few bowls of Lai, plus a meal, are ready and delivered together.Unexpectedly, before the rice package arrived, Jie came back first with Bao Er in his arms, saying that he was very happy to see the constant traffic at first, but then he fell asleep again for some reason.So I hurriedly made their beds and let Bao'er go to bed first.After dinner, we chatted for a while, the voice was very low, and Bao'er turned around from time to time, interrupting my conversation several times.At night, the child woke up from time to time crying, urinated, and ate milk. The lights were on all night, and Xian and I slept in the same bed, unable to fall asleep after tossing and turning; In my experience, I think it is much more comfortable to lie on the bed with one person stretching out your feet and hands than two people wrapped in a quilt and even worry about farting.That night, I began to fall asleep dimly until about five o'clock, but I could hear some voices outside, and I seemed to hear Bao'er pissed in the early morning.

At half past six, Bao'er's crying woke me up again. Xianya turned around and didn't speak. I knew he didn't sleep well last night, and he had something to do after nine o'clock today, so I was very anxious.So I hurriedly turned over and got down, Jie was already dressing Bao'er, stuffing something into his mouth to stop crying; I put on my clothes, and hurriedly called the second landlord's aunt to boil some water, and returned after talking When I was in the room, I stepped on a pile of wet things. When I looked carefully, my God, there was shit under the bed. I thought it was from Bao’er last night. No, it's not Bao'er's fault; as he spoke, he asked me for a few pieces of toilet paper and cleaned the floor by himself.After washing the face, I told her that the milk should be delivered around 8 o'clock, and if she is hungry, we can go to the nearby noodle shop to eat some shrimp noodles; she also agreed, so we quickly left the room and let Xiande sleep peacefully moment.In the noodle shop, Bao'er broke another big bowl, and I had to pay a dime of the ocean for it.It was only a quarter past seven after eating noodles, and I thought Xian might not be up yet, so I proposed to go to (kun) Mountain Garden to play, and Jie readily agreed.On the way, Bao'er seemed very happy. I think he is much more beautiful than last night. In the garden, there are already many tourists, there are Caucasian children led by Chinese nanny, some Japanese women are watching the children having fun on the mound, while knitting woolen sweaters quickly, and some are in the pavilion. Japanese man reading alone.Among these many children, I love an Indian baby the most, about four months old, with a small dark face and big bright eyes, held in the arms of a nurse, I couldn't help but go to hold his little hand. "How much does this kind of subjugated slave care about him?" Jie disapproved of me very much, but he found a blonde girl to play with, but the child didn't seem to care about her; suddenly, Bao'er pulled the girl's hair, With a slap, Bao'er slapped her face and burst into tears; Jie also got angry and scolded her for beating people, the nanny hurriedly came to persuade her: "Forget it, this girl lives in the garden." The one in the red bungalow here, her father is a foreigner, fat as a pig, fierce, kicking people when she is unhappy..." At this time, many people in the garden gathered around to watch the excitement, I felt very A little embarrassed, Jie couldn't stand still, so he hugged Bao'er and scolded him outside. On the way, he even angrily said that foreign children are barbarians.Da Lai was afraid not to be a robber woman. When they got home, Xian had already gone out; Bao'er was still eating snacks, urinating, and going outside for a long time. Finally, around 3:30 in the afternoon, they hired two rickshaws to take them off the ship; After arriving in Xinningshao, Jie called the waiter and said he wanted to book a cabin for one person. "There are a lot of guests today, and there is no room to live alone; if you are not happy to be with others, you can go to the big kitchen." The waiter replied half-sarcastically. "We don't want to live in the kitchen, we need an empty cabin." Jie blushed with anger.I was afraid that the waiter would say something unpleasant again, so I hurried forward and explained: "Because we have children, I'm afraid we will be too tired to sleep because of the quarrel at night, so I hope it's best to occupy a room by myself; since we can't do it today If it’s empty, I’ll just ask you to take a room that’s relatively empty.” So, the waiter ushered us into Room No. 37, and there was already a modern young woman with a small flower made of tulle on her temple. "Mom, Hua... Hua..." As soon as Bao'er stretched out his hand, he pulled her hair, so anxious that she couldn't avoid it.Jie didn't apologize to her, but only asked her if she had always lived in Shanghai, whether she was going to Ningbo or Zhenhai this time... Finally, he asked her if she could take down the flower and let Bao'er play with it for a while.I caught a glimpse of the woman's embarrassment from the side, so I quickly stopped her and said, "This cabin is very stuffy, let's go to the side of the boat for a walk; children also like to watch the excitement." That Baoer heard and went outside The three of us sat down on an empty steerership bunk and watched the people coming and going on the pier outside; My son bought a lot of food. "Ah, I want to ask you something." Jie suddenly thought of something and said to me: "Qiu asked me to write him a letter when I arrived in Shanghai, so that he can rest assured. Go back tonight and write one for me." "It's easy..." I still have a lot to say, but I don't know how to say it; I feel that I have to do my duty as a friend to give Jie a warning, telling her not to raise children like this: a woman spends her entire youth It's so boring to spend energy on children only to make them worse.But when I think about it carefully, isn't it more boring than her for someone like me who abandons her children and lives a leisurely life on the surface, but is always in hesitation and contradictions in her heart?I haven't decided on the path I should take, but she puts her soul on her children with all her heart, just like my mother Zhu, who eliminated all troubles in "God bless us", and they can get rid of all the troubles in the little angel's nose and urine. I really envy and cannot imitate the supreme comfort found in the Chinese translation of hymns that seem to make no sense. Do I still tell her that this is wrong?Or simply do not say it? ——While hesitating, I suddenly heard a steerage waiter yelling: "What? Your children urinated and wet everything I put under this bunk!" When I looked down, I saw a real cattail bag Most of the paper package was wet, and there was water on the ground, but Jie denied it: "My children never pee indiscriminately, maybe it's some other water?" The robe let her see for herself: "Look, aren't the trousers wet too?" I knew this was true, so I had to apologize to the waiter: "I can't help you with the child! ——The things in your bag Is it okay? You better untie it and have a look..." The waiter muttered and went away, Jie was still explaining alone that Bao'er never peed indiscriminately when he was in Nanjing, I thought it sounded uncomfortable, so I stood up to say goodbye. "Isn't it too early to set sail?—I'm going to stay in Zhenhai for a few months before returning to Nanjing, and then I'll see you again. Bao'er may run away at that time, and I don't have to be hugged all the time. Yours When will my daughter be weaned? I hope to see this little angel next time." "Little angel!" I couldn't help but sigh softly, and left the pier alone.