Chapter 29 Section 29

Galaxy, hello! I have received your letter.But I am still depressed, and I will be happy only when you come back (I was investigating in other places in the winter of 1978—Note by Li Yinhe). You want me to tell you what kind of life I've lived?I can tell you that it's a life without you.It was a hard life.The weather in Beijing is very cold, and sometimes the sky is overcast, as if a political lecture is about to start, which is really tiresome.Sometimes I get so depressed I want to go to bed.To tell the truth, I did not spend my time with sweet lovesickness like Don Quixote, I did not, my time was spent in depression.I miss you.

I seem to be suffering from a toothache, and have a depressed mood that I can't get rid of.I would love to use a long line of parallels to say how much I want you.But parallel sentences are good for shallow-minded people, I don't use this kind of thing, I hate this kind of thing.I don't use any form, and I don't like adjectives.It's safe to say, I like you, miss you, want you. In short, there is no limit to loving and being loved. I wrote some pages of the worst, worst stuff since you left, and I wanted to burn it.The exam is coming soon, and I don't have time to write any more.After I wrote about a girl falling in love with a boy, I thought: "I want to go deep into this world with him, and never come back." I'm really clueless.I think there is infinite joy in love, which makes people firm on the road of life.

Things have been really bad lately.For example, the newspaper openly called on everyone to talk less about doctrines and concentrate on work.Don't care about politics.What a fucking fart.In the past, everyone was asked to make revolution, but now everyone is asked not to make revolution blindly, but to work honestly.Only certain authorized persons can make revolutions. I tell you, I'm jealous of other people's love now.When I saw others rushing home to find someone, or seeing others together, I felt uneasy, as if I had been abandoned.Wow, I'm so lonely!