Chapter 3 Section 3

[The following letter was written when Li Yinhe went to the South for a meeting in 1978. At that time, Li Yinhe was an editor at Guangming Daily, and Wang Xiaobo was a worker in a street factory in Xicheng District. 】 Hello, Li Yinhe. After you left, I feel bored every day, just like Don Quixote, thinking of Toboso's Dacinia every day.Please don't think I'm making any comparisons with Dacinia.It's not fair for me to make fun of you.I'm just saying that I look like the lovesick sad knight now.You remember how Cervantes described the old gentleman suffering in Montenegro?Then you know how ridiculous I am now.

I have developed a habit now, that is, every three or two days, I will ask you to say a few words that I don't want to say to others.Of course there is still more to say, but as soon as I bring it to you, I go away satisfied, and these thoughts don't torment me anymore.It's hard to understand, isn't it?It's torture to tell others about the thoughts that I'm not sure about, but I'm very bored if I don't tell them. I think I should move on now.Sometime in the future I'm going to try to create something beautiful.I'm going to try all the ways until you say "Forget it Mr. Wang, you can't make it".I feel very hopeful, because I know you, I should have a little progress.

I realized I was a bad boy, and your dad was right.But I am not broken now, I have a conscience.My conscience is you.real. I will remember what you advised me.I will definitely show you my true heart in the future.Why is it the future?Ah, the future me will be better than the present, I'm sure of that.Don't force me to tell you my bad.Forgive the little manly vanity, I'll undo the bad in the dark.I want to improve myself, and I want to be perfect for you. The weather in Hangzhou may not be too pleasant now.I wish you a happy stay in "Heaven".Forgive me for not being able to write any better.

Wang Xiaobo May 20