Chapter 46 she is lonelier than fireworks

When I went to the video store, the boss recommended an Oscar-winning movie, "Hilary and Jackie". The envelope is designed in a dignified red.Two girls cuddling close.The blond-haired Jackie has unruly eyes and a smile.And Hilary, who was hiding behind her, looked forbearing.I don't know why, but this picture makes people melancholy. A pair of sisters have been in love since childhood.After growing up, he gradually embarked on a different path. Because of his amazing musical talent, Jackie started his wandering career playing the cello.Behind the fame, there is an endless emptiness.But the elder sister Hilary gave up her chance to play the flute, married the man she loved, and was willing to live an ordinary and happy family life in the countryside.

Jackie loves Hilary deeply, but is destined to wander around.After her sister got married, Jackie wanted to live a simple life with her sister and share her man.As a result, the three were weak because of their deep love, and suffered because of their weakness. Jackie could only leave sadly.In the end, Jackie died of illness due to long-term homelessness. The Chinese translation is .Another translation is "Mad Love for Cello". The color treatment of the film is very stylized.Whether it is the blue sky, the leaves of the country, the classical European streets, or the silk satin skirts of girls.Rich and clear, with a little sadness.This color has only been seen in BENETTON stores before.Apricot yellow, rose red, pine green, or gray blue.This Italian brand is now in decline, and clothes are often sold at 30% off.But I really like its posters.For example, a European girl with small freckles on her face smiled happily with her white teeth showing.Healthy as a sunflower.

Once bought a men's sweater.Claret.It looks old and warm. The M size fits very loosely on the body.Love wearing this oversized sweater with old jeans.In the afternoon of that autumn, I would bring a bottle of mineral water alone and go to the library to read.I still remember the mellow sweet-scented osmanthus fragrance in the wind, floating in the sunshine pouring in from the window. In the classic colors of the movie, it also makes people smell the fragrance of nostalgia.Hidden deep in my heart. There are many wonderful lines in the movie. Jackie said she wanted to find a job, and Hilary told her that you can do nothing but play the cello.It's as if I can't do anything but play the fife.We are not able to earn a living.We are babies.

Do you think it's easier to be a simple person than a special one?Not so. When we love someone, we will remember some pictures related to him.After losing him, as long as you think about it, he will appear.He will be in those pictures. Then, when Hilary asked her man to accept Jackie, she told him that Jackie just wanted to prove.Prove that she can be loved. Before dying, Hilary said to Jacdie, you once told me that everything will pass.And indeed it is. A climax is here. Jackie told Hilary that she was going to have sex with her brother-in-law.Her direct and naive character leaves no room for herself.When Hilary dissuaded her vigilantly, Jackie was full of grief and indignation, and ran to the desolate wilderness alone.

Hilary ran after her.There were no people in the silent wilderness in winter, but Jackie's dress was falling down one by one along the way. Hilary screamed in panic, followed the trail of clothes and Jackie's crying to find the woods.Naked Jackie sat curled up in the bushes, blood dripping from the brambles on her legs.She hugged her head and cried, like a wounded animal that doesn't know how to protect itself.Lust and loneliness made her collapse in torment.She cried and said to Hilary, you don't love me at all.I just want to have sex once.But you won't give it to me.Heartbroken, Hilary took off her coat and hugged Jackie tightly in the cold wind.

Hilary finally gave in. The complexity and fragility of human nature are brought to the extreme.Jealous, selfish, tolerant, affectionate.Mixed together chaotically and helplessly.This is a touching scene in the movie.I finally shed tears while watching it. This was the warmest and most stable period of Jackie's life.In Hilary's remote country house.Surrounded by pomp and prestige without substance.But she has her beloved sister.and her sister's men and children. Jackie is eager to share it all with Hilary.She said, how good we can be like this forever.But the facts told her that she not only hurt herself, but also hurt two kind and innocent relatives who loved her deeply.

Hilary finally said sorry to her sadly.She said, since childhood, I will give you whatever you want.I will give you all. One morning without saying goodbye, Jackie left with the cello on his back. Jackie went on with a life she couldn't change. In the cold winter, she wore a crimson blouse and an orange skirt, and walked alone through the snow-filled streets of a foreign country with her cello on her back.Long hair fluttering, expression indifferent. Behind the gorgeous dress is a lonely soul. Maybe there is a love that cannot be fulfilled in my heart and I have said goodbye.The man who did not belong to her, after a brief love, never saw each other again.What is waiting is still endless wandering.

The strings being torn made a shrill sound. Jackie covered her ears and screamed loudly. The shots of the movie switch one by one. Jackie sat in a ray of light in the dark and played the violin in a long satin dress. The cello is weeping and complaining.The color of the skirt is constantly changing.The soul is shockingly gorgeous.But always empty.Then one day, she couldn't get up on stage.The applause and cheers of the concert disappeared, and the music ended.The entire concert hall was empty and silent. Finally she found that her hand had become an irreparable lonely posture. On the night of Jackie's death, she couldn't move her body.Also speechless.All I could do was twitch and cry.Her father said to her, you can't speak, and we don't know what you want.But one person knows.God knows what you want.

Finally, Hilary, who has telepathy since she was a child, rushed from the far countryside to see her one last time against the strong wind.good girl.good girl. Hilary sat up on the bed and gently held the weak and delirious Jackie in her arms.Our prince will cross the river, desert and grassland to meet him.This is the childhood of childhood.their intimate game. Jackie lay on her arms with her head up.She could no longer see Hilary's face clearly, nor could she hear her voice clearly. Once deep love and wordless hate.The unforgettable love-hate entanglement, at the end of life, is a piece of peace.

Even in deep love we are alone. The prosperity is gone, like a dream without a trace.