Chapter 21 Start(4)

My company is on the Bund.It is an old French building, which has been caressed by time. I often stand behind the wide window sill and look at the tall buildings standing in the distance.At that moment, I felt that I was a pessimistic person. I am in the insurance industry, and my performance should be fair in this industry.But I am not a person who can regard work as a belief.Because I don't think health and life can be replaced by money. There are dense names on the business sheet, and if they are honored, those names mean death and accident. It makes me feel empty. Sometimes I feel that I am a person who is very close to death.

I studied physics in college.The boy on the lower bunk was from Guangdong, dark and strong, and his name seemed to be Chen. When Chen played football on the school team, there were often girls sitting on the playground expecting his energetic shots.But at the end of his freshman year, Chen suddenly cut his pulse and committed suicide. When he was found dead in the morning, the quilt was pulled away, and there was blood that had coagulated into a hard clot, so hard and sticky. Many people are confused because they think that people who like sports should be pure and healthy.But I know that's not the case.Often in the early hours of the morning, I would wake up for no reason, and then hear Chen crying.

He wrapped himself in the blanket, and the cries sounded short and broken.This kind of ambiguous crying made me feel very scared.It was a breath. I thought maybe I could smell death. After graduating from university, I gave up my major and chose to do life insurance. Years of work seemed to be able to numb my fears.It also made me understand the unbearable fragility of human beings. Things that weigh too much fear gradually lose weight.Just like the rotten wound on Chen Pale's arm.There is no time to heal.When my fingers touch the skin that has lost moisture, my heart is as calm as water.

Life is a magnificent castle.With a light touch, it crumbles like dust.