Chapter 45 beautiful fence

In the spring of 1954, I was 12 years old and went to Beijing Longfusi Primary School.One day, the school was closed, and the teacher led us to participate in voluntary labor to the south of Zhushikou Street. That area is now widely known as the location of the National Art Museum of China.I remember that the National Art Museum of China was not built in that year, but the road was only widened so that the road from Chaoyangmen, Dongsi to the beach all the way to Xisi was dredged.The workers and masters have almost demolished the houses in that area, and the volunteers only need to gather some bricks, tiles and debris that have not been cleaned up to the designated place.

When I arrived at the construction site, I saw that there were already many adults busy in it.At that time, I was wearing a red scarf, sweating profusely under the leadership of the teacher, covered in dust, but full of joy, for fear of falling behind. Let's say that I was busy carrying a pile of bricks to the designated concentration point, and I was surprised when I saw my mother suddenly.Because when my mother warmed me up in the morning, she didn't mention the voluntary labor in this place!But I soon figured out that it must be after I went to school that the residents on the street were notified to come to volunteer labor, so that all parties could work together to finish the clean-up project on the demolition site.My mother was a primary school teacher when she was young, but she became a housewife at that time, but she was enthusiastic about street work. It can be seen that on the construction site, her role is like our head teacher, receiving specific tasks from the construction site headquarters Afterwards, I led the residents of the customs dormitory in Qianliang Hutong, where our family was located, to the designated area to clear the site.She meticulously divided the labor and took the lead, and everyone worked happily.My mother was over fifty at the time and was quite fat. Naturally, it was very difficult to do the rough work of carrying sundries. Her face was flushed, but her whole body was full of spring breeze, as if it was a rare enjoyment.Since my family moved from Chongqing to Beijing in 1950, I have seen the Beijing Municipal Government dredging the Shichahai Sea, renovating sewers, adding tap water facilities, and opening up bus and tram lines one after another... My parents always praised me when I mentioned it, but now I can Personally participating in the work of improving the quality of life in the capital, my mother's willingness is naturally reflected in every action.

I saw my mother, and my mother must have seen me too. Except that I didn't call out to her loudly, my whole expression and posture were desperately showing her: Hey!I'm here!However, to my great disappointment and astonishment, when my mother glanced past me, she seemed to see a child she didn’t know. The smile that a young pioneer who participates in voluntary labor always has, not the special smile I expected to see her most distressed young child!I tried to approach her several times, and frequently used exaggerated body language in order to attract her attention, but she still didn't give me even a small special return on the expression!In panic, I staggered, fell to the ground, and broke my leg. I looked at my mother over there bitterly, thinking, don't you still care about me?However, she straightened up and patiently explained to an old man who asked her what was wrong... The head teacher rushed over, helped me up, and hurriedly took me to the health station to clean the wound and apply red medicine.

At that time, I couldn't figure out why my mother didn't take special care of me on the construction site of voluntary labor.Back home from school that day, my mother was cooking my favorite crucian carp in watercress in the kitchen... Before dinner, she carefully checked the broken place on my leg, said it was okay, and asked me to wash my face before eating, I have to take a shower at night... After I took a shower at night, I was busy with my homework, so I didn't ask my mother why she turned a blind eye to me at the construction site. I never asked her about it.In fact, the later you go, the less you need to ask.This kind of thing often happens later, very detailed

Small, with different shapes, implicit and subtle, but like snowflakes falling and accumulating, my cognition becomes more and more clear and clear, that is, my mother has repeatedly set up invisible barriers in the activity space of my life, so that I understand that barriers One side of the fence is our warm home. In this area, I can enjoy the family affection, leisurely, and even act coquettishly. On the other side of the fence, it is the public society and where others are. I can’t rely on my family’s love and compassion, and it’s generally impossible and not obligatory for other people to give me the kind of pampering and preferential treatment. I have to grow up day by day, and I should get used to being in public society as soon as possible. Dedication, learn to be patient with others, work hard, and live independently!

Of course, my father and mother have the same attitude, but he is always busy. Before I left home to live independently at the age of 17, it was my mother who had a profound influence on me.The barriers she set up for me are invisible and beautiful.This is the most important spiritual legacy she gave me.My life is halfway through. Looking back, I have made many mistakes, sometimes even major mistakes. However, thanks to the upbringing my mother gave me, I have never made the mistake of not distinguishing between public and private, or people and me. Moreover, I can always be like her, when I donate things within my own fence to the society and others outside the fence, I only feel happy, and I regard it as shameful and shameful to take anything from the public house or other people outside the fence as my own. . In 1988, computers were still quite rare in China. A wealthy friend gave me a computer to help me write, and I gave the computer to the unit I worked for without hesitation.In that year, my mother unfortunately passed away in Chengdu. When I was crying to pay homage to my mother, I comforted her in my heart and said: I will pass on the life barrier you set up for me to your grandson, and it will be an evergreen barrier!