Chapter 15 Parents are here, can't swim

My plan to travel back to China was already a bright red fruit on the tree, just waiting for me to reach out and pick it.I have already greeted my friends everywhere: "Let's fool around together!" I also searched for cheap and convenient hotels on the Internet all night, everything.They are all so close, as if they have already smelled the fragrance of fish in the West Lake and the morning mist in Huangshan. In the evening, give my mother-in-law a call.All the enthusiasm fell from the peak to the bottom.An expectant heart suddenly became anxious.Returning to my country is no longer a matter of relaxation and enjoyment, but a visit to a sick person.

The mother-in-law said lightly: "Your father is not in good health recently, and his heartbeat was found to be slow, only a few times a minute. The doctor sent him to the hospital for observation. It is suspected to be coronary heart disease." There was no anxiety or uneasiness in the tone, but I knew , Mother-in-law just doesn't want me to worry. Here I urged: "Has Dad gone to the hospital?" The mother-in-law said: "Your dad refuses for the time being, saying that he doesn't feel anything! There are two weeks left before the class is over, and I will go after the summer vacation." I said decisively : "No! Let's go now. People are more important than students? Everyone is dedicated to their work, why don't they understand that the body is the foundation of work? Without the body, what is there to talk about teaching? After these two weeks, there will be future Woolen cloth?"

The mother-in-law said: "Yes, your father himself is also a little worried. The young teacher Wang in their department is only in his 50s. He is playing on the court and feels uncomfortable in his heart and can't breathe. It will be gone in the hospital. Soon. Your dad is also worried about himself recently, always reminding me that if I can’t hear him snoring, I should touch his nose.” When I heard it, tears were about to fall.I feel that I am still young, my parents are still young, and death, such a serious topic, seems to be around here and there, but it will never come to me.Recently, I have been hearing bad news. The father of a close friend has lung cancer, and the mother of another has just passed away.

In my impression, my parents should live forever. By the time I have gray hair, my parents should still be deaf and blind, playing games with their grandchildren.Suddenly hearing that my father-in-law was ill and was going to be hospitalized, my heart beat a little. The mother-in-law said: "Your father is not afraid of himself. He even joked with me, saying that he felt uncomfortable when he thought of letting go, and his wife ran away with others. I also replied to him, why should I pack up? You just let go Why don’t you let me recruit someone back? I have a house and tickets here, so I won’t leave!” When people reach a certain age, they can easily entertain some serious topics, and perhaps, for them, they have already accepted their fate.The children have grown up, the old people are dying, and the hard-working performance of a lifetime can take a curtain call in any future scene, smiling and waving away.

My heart hurt like a knife, and I scolded my mother-in-law and said, "Talking nonsense, I think you two are too idle! Make fun of this kind of thing! You are not allowed to say such things in the future. Don't even mention it! You also promised to raise my son for me. It's time to go to college! Now you can't do anything and want to escape?" Then she firmly said to her mother-in-law: "When I return to China this time, my father will not accompany us to Huangshan. We will not go anywhere. After seeing my parents in Shanghai, I will visit you in Hefei. You first ask my father to live in the upper courtyard." The father-in-law thinks about his children Sincerely, when I heard that we were going to travel around half of East China after returning to China, I proposed to go with us.The husband didn't want the young couple to go out and drag the two old oil bottles. He objected to me privately several times, but I beat him back and didn't allow him to mention it to his parents.My father-in-law has gone to Mount Huangshan no less than 20 times, and this time he has to insist on climbing with us and make up a few days of vacation, which is not easy.I understand his intentions, it is rare to see the child once a year, and seeing him every day is a day.

The mother-in-law immediately objected: "Oh, nonsense! You have been planning to go out for so long, how can we ruin it. You go according to the plan. It doesn't matter to your father, just come back and stay for two days." I said to my mother-in-law: "I have the final say, don't argue. For me, it's the same wherever I go. It doesn't matter whether I play or not. It's not good to travel. It costs money and hurts physical strength. It's okay to live at home." It's comfortable, someone can take care of food and drink, it's much better than outside. That's it!" Hang up the phone.Sitting in a chair for a long time without saying a word.

The gentleman came over and asked, "Why are you in a daze?" I said: "Dad has a bad heart and needs to be hospitalized. I think we don't want to go play this time, just stay in Shanghai and Hefei." The husband said, is it that serious? "Whether it is serious or not, don't take it lightly. Our parents are getting older, before we have time to notice." Mr. looked guilty.He owes me a long trip, with gray-haired parents on one side and a wife who has changed from a girl to a young woman on the other. "It doesn't matter, Huangshan West Lake should last forever. It will be there when we become old men and women. We will go there one day."

"The Three Gorges are gone..." I understand what my husband said.He told me that the Three Gorges are beautiful, and when his light boat passed through the peaks and valleys, he wanted to take me there someday.At that time, I was busy struggling with unreasonable business, always shuttling in the coastal cities. In my thirties, I began to face many difficult life issues, which I was not ready for.For example, it's time for me to be a mother, for example, the health of the elderly is declining, for example, I have to shoulder the responsibility of the family, be responsible to the society, and be filial to my parents.

At this age, I have to shoulder it bravely. 2004-05-31