Chapter 13 12 Is it useful to be moved?

If you ask which successful TV brands CCTV has created in the past ten years, I think "Moving China" will definitely be among the best, or even top.This annual special program has been going on for eight years since its first episode aired in February 2003.Compared with other large-scale programs, it became popular too quickly. It was highly praised at that time and was quickly established as an annual program of CCTV; , "XX Pride" is everywhere and has become a phenomenon.If it is said that for other types of programs, being cloned is a very uncomfortable thing, but the copying of "Moving China" seems to be a happy thing, because it means that the wider Look for moving and spread moving on a wider scale.Of course, such duplication will in turn make "Moving China" feel the pressure.It's a good thing, though, and it can really turn into motivation.In the past few years, whenever I walked into the office of "Moving China", I always saw a line of words on the blackboard that had never been erased: "Always imitated, never surpassed."

The more than two hours of "Moving China" may mean tears that cannot be wiped away, or a purification of the soul for every ordinary audience.But for this society and the times, what does the popularity of "Moving China" mean? In tears, what kind of expectations do people have?In the praise, which standards have been quietly changed?Blooming everywhere, to seek or to sow?When more and more ordinary people move China, does it mean we are rich or poor?Does this touch have anything to do with the faith we are looking for?How long will we be moved?Impressed, is it useful? In the process of being moved, there is no clear answer, or perhaps, what we like is not necessarily the answer, but the process of finding the answer.At least, we can still be moved now!

However, moving is not the direction we are looking for in the first place. In September 2002, my news commentary department held a not-so-large-scale planning meeting attended by a dozen or so individuals, and I was also part of it. The purpose of this meeting was to collectively plan. What kind of annual character selection program should we make? The poet once said: The night gave me black eyes, but I use them to find light.Applying this sentence pattern, many people will feel that we spend more time in supervision and criticism, which is sharp and hard.In fact, this is not the case. Criticism gave me the critic's eyes, but I have been using it to find warmth.If not, what's the point of criticizing?What's the point of monitoring if not looking for a better future?

It is not surprising to have this idea. Many media around the world will launch their character selections at the end of the year. Firstly, to make the media’s voice, secondly, to further clarify their own values ​​through selection, and thirdly, there will be competition and market factors.Therefore, there are not many such influential annual person selections in the world, such as "Time", "Newsweek", CNN and other media, all of which have made their own characteristics and influence.However, at least until 2002, CCTV was still blank in the field of news. We want to fill it. The original proposal and direction are not surprising. Of course, we have to select the annual news figure. This is not only because we are doing news, but also because it is almost a media practice.

But when discussing operations, problems arise. Since it is a selection of news figures, no one can guarantee that they are all positive figures. In a year, maybe aerospace heroes and black-hearted mine owners are also popular news figures. May I ask, can such a selection be accepted?How will the "awards be presented" then?It may be possible to do it in one session, but will you do it again in the next session? In our environment, such a problem must be taken into account that there is no ideal, and if the operation cannot be realized, the ideal is almost equal to nothing.For those of us experienced journalists, we all have this consciousness, so we must find things that are not only ideal, but also operable and amplified.

All kinds of proposals were put forward, but were rejected in more and more smoke, either not in line with ideals, not in line with operations, or too lacking in national conditions.The planning meeting in the afternoon was almost approaching a deadlock. At this time, it seems that Chen Yi came up with an idea to find a good person and choose the moving news person of the year.At the beginning, there was a moment of silence, but quickly, we saw the great value and possibility behind the word "moving".Moving, will not let black-hearted mine owners be included in it; moving, is also what we want to find and need; moving, is a kind of power, and can also push this era forward; moving, as a TV program, there is also further growth and development. chance of success.It looks like this can be done.Therefore, the planning meeting in the afternoon of September 2002 finally left a fruit that can be developed and discussed, which can be regarded as a complete success.And the spark at that moment came from Chen Gai, who was still with long hair fluttering at that time.Although everyone enriched and perfected "Moving China" together, his contribution was a huge turning point in the deadlock of thinking.As a result, every time I record "Moving China", I think of Chen Ma.Unfortunately, later, it became a memory. At the end of 2008, before the birth of the seventh "Moving China", Chen Ma died young, which caused a huge emotional earthquake in the hearts of the entire news commentary department.When mourning, people talked more about the "living space" he founded "telling the stories of ordinary people themselves", but don't forget, there is also the original idea of ​​"moving China".And Chen Yi told us with his own contribution: sometimes, the back view is also a kind of moving.

Going back to that afternoon in September 2002, an ideologically out-of-the-box "Moving China" was officially born. Since then, the never-ending moving in this land has begun to be in another way, with an annual TV operation mode , presented in front of the Chinese.Before we set off, we were hesitant and more confident about the touch that existed on this land. The only thing that was a little uncertain was: in this era, will China be moved? What is moved?And what kind of person should we choose to impress China? In the "Modern Chinese Dictionary", the word "moved" is explained as follows: "Thoughts and feelings are excited by the influence of external things, causing sympathy or admiration."

In fact, in everyone's heart, there is an explanation for moving.What moved me was that in front of someone or something, a kind of uncontrollable tears filled my eyes and a long time of contemplation afterwards! Sister Jing once asked a ten-year-old girl, "Have you ever been touched?" The little girl said to Sister Jing: "One day, I was an hour late after school. When I walked out of the school gate, I saw my grandpa waiting in the cold wind, and I cried." This is touching. For ordinary people, moving is often closely related to tears, which also corresponds to another sentence: Maybe each of us should ask ourselves, how long has it been since we were moved?And a heart that has not been touched for a long time is like a flower that has not been watered for a long time.Therefore, tears are also a kind of water used to water the conscience.

But understanding emotion isn't enough to create a potentially hugely influential TV show.Don't forget, the word "China" in "Moving China" means that the emotion you choose must conform to the mainstream values, and it must be oriented to all Chinese people. It may not move China either. This difficulty is reflected in the choice of characters. This choice often means the embodiment of a certain spirit or value behind each name, and this choice, from a certain point of view, also represents us, a group of TV people who do not use language. But can express persistence and respect.

When the first session of "Moving China" started, the CCTV News Center sent a letter to dozens of selection committee members, including me. In this letter, there is the following paragraph, which represents the initial creative idea: Touching needs to be discovered, and you are a member of the selection committee we invite to discover and collect moving for China. We hope that more people who can "move China" are small people, and it is a place for ordinary people to show up. However, it is not ruled out that various factors will determine that some famous people will walk on the podium every year.The reason why Jackie Chan was selected is that after he went to the world, he defended the three words "Chinese" more and more.

In this selection activity, people who have touched China and touched people's hearts will be selected as the objects of selection. What kind of person can become a person of the year in 2002? ... These characters have different identities, different backgrounds, and different experiences. Some may have been seen in the media, and some may not be known to the public, but in the past year, what they have done has moved people. We have moved China.They either use their own power to promote the progress and development of Chinese society, explain what kind of responsibility a person should take on to this country and society, and stand up the backbone of our nation with a strong national spirit; Telling your own stories, interpreting what kind of emotions people should have, bringing the public a touching and spiritual impact.What they have in common is: shocking personality strength... I have a habit of writing, and I generally don’t like to quote too much, but the above paragraph must be quoted here as a record, to see what the original idea was like, whether it was firmly implemented in the middle, and whether the years will slowly erode all of this .In the future, let us not forget that we once made an oath on how to deal with emotion. Fortunately, it remains the same. In such initial assumptions, the most important spirit is: in the face of personality and emotion, everyone is equal.We only care about the great shock in our hearts, not the illustrious reputation of any one person.This is the first and most important pavement for more and more ordinary people to step onto the stage of moving China. On February 14, 2003, the first "Moving China" was broadcast on CCTV in prime time. The first "Moving China" annual figures included ten figures including Wang Xuan, Liu Shuwei, Yao Ming, and Pu Cunxin. In the process of making the first "Moving China", there was also a small episode, which used forced changes to establish the simple tone of "Moving China". This year's "Moving China", when recording, interspersed with several cultural programs during the awarding process, the performers are absolutely big names including pianist Liu Shikun.This choice, on the one hand, is to hope that a small number of cultural programs will enhance the atmosphere and emotions, and on the other hand, it is also because I am not so confident: Can pictures and interviews alone attract the audience? The recording was successfully completed. However, after reviewing the film, director Zhao Huayong made a decision to remove all literary elements from the awards ceremony, making it more simple and simple. It turned out afterwards that this was a correct and critical decision, and what people need is the simplest touch. Next to me is Wang Xuan, a private volunteer who has been fighting for the Chinese in Japan.Just because in the face of history, there are always people in Japan who are always evasive and ambiguous, so Wang Xuan went to seek justice for his compatriots of the previous generation.Fairness does not come easily, she said: Actually, we are also giving Japan a chance. On the day of the broadcast, I received many text messages expressing my emotion.In fact, I am not surprised by everyone's emotions. At the recording site, the emotional investment of the audience has already given me a judgment in this regard. On the second night after the program aired, I went to the Great Hall of the People to attend the Lantern Festival Gala. Jia Qinglin saw me and was the first to express his praise for "Moving China". He said: "I watched the program yesterday, it was really touching. !" After a while, I saw Wu Yi and Zhou Yongkang again. They expressed their love for "Moving China" to me with emotion, and their words were very simple: "It's so touching!" At this time, I understood that almost in the shortest time, "Moving China" seemed to have received unanimous praise from all over the world, which meant that "Moving China" touched the sensitive point of the times and satisfied everyone's desires There are no inner needs around pens.Of course, it also means opening up the space for "Moving China" to move forward. In fact, looking back, it is not accidental that such a situation of applause from top to bottom appears. Against the background that the moral bottom line of society is constantly being broken, people's desire for goodness has not disappeared, and has even become stronger because of it.People in life, even those who are doing not so honorable things for their own interests, may still be moved when they face the screen, because of the remaining conscience and respect that have nothing to do with interests; Humans are inherently kind. Of course, everyone was moved, and it also came from the return of "Moving China" to an expression of human nature, not a concept, not a slogan, not empty words, but telling stories of really good people with heart, using details and emotions to return to the simplicity of the land to tell.This breaks down the walls in people's hearts. At this time, no matter whether you are in a high position or an ordinary person, you can only restore to a flesh and blood individual, and it becomes easy to be moved.Of course, it is also related to the needs of society.The law is only the moral standard at the lowest level of a society, and it is not enough to maintain this minimum level, not to mention that this "minimum" is often broken through.In our nation, which does not rely on religion to establish beliefs, at the turning point of the great changes of the times, in the blank areas where beliefs are missing, what is the spiritual home of the 1.3 billion Chinese? I'm afraid we still have to look for answers from morality, people's hearts and traditional culture.Therefore, "Moving China" hit it off with the internal and external needs of Shangxia. Just after the broadcast of "Moving China" in the second year, Xu Guangchun, then director of the State Administration of Radio, Film and Television, received a call from Li Changchun, a member of the Standing Committee of the Political Bureau of the Central Committee. During the call, Li Changchun said: "The program "Moving China" is very touching... ...I believe that the majority of TV viewers will be moved after watching it. I watched this show with tears in my eyes.This show once again proved that as long as the main theme of the program adheres to the "three closeness", it will not be boring, and it will have a strong attraction and appeal... In the second "Moving China", the winners included Yang Liwei, Zhong Nanshan, Gao Yaojie and Liang Yurun. For the first time, there was a foreigner - a Japanese who reflected on history, Hiroshi Oyama, was elected, and it was also the first time that he had Collective Award - Firefighters who died in the Hengyang fire. "Moving China" began to expand and grow quietly under the attention of everyone. Once devoted to the production of "Moving China", TV people seem to have a "religious" feeling, their expressions have changed, they have become pious and pure; their identities have changed, no matter what position they are, they are willing to finish their work Help others; regard the leader as the masses, and the masses give orders as the leader, you can see them from time to time, no one thinks there is anything strange; and almost everyone, during the recording process of "Moving China", seems to be much more fragile, often teardrops Slipping, no one thinks it's abnormal. In the eight years so far, the production process of "Moving China" should be an alternative template. This team is super stable. Sister Jing and I have been the host for eight years, the producer Zhu Bo has been in the same system for eight years, and the director Fan Xinman has worked for seven years in eight years. The same is true for other types of work.Every year at the end of the year and the beginning of the year, when Zhu Bo makes a phone call, I usually just say: "What day? What time?" The rest is nonsense, and there is nothing to say.But stability also has a disadvantage. When I see old acquaintances, I feel like yesterday at this time last year, and I immediately feel that the water is old.Middle-aged people are most afraid of the rush of time, but meeting acquaintances in familiar jobs is even more difficult for the short time. Sister Jing and I hosted the speeches. During the eight years, no one has ever cared what we were going to say. It seemed tacit understanding and absolute trust.In the first two years, we were still a little unsteady, "won't the leader give me instructions?" The leader laughed and left.So, under normal circumstances, Sister Jing and I would come up with a plan in the dressing room two hours before the recording.If you let me have a little, I will share with you, and the feeling will be there.After all, they are old partners for many years, and they are in tacit understanding.It is precisely this kind of trust and relaxation that allows Sister Jing and I to focus all our attention on the expression of our inner true emotions, so it is right. The official recording will start the next day. This is an impromptu meeting held in an open space on the first day without sitting. The producer Zhu Bo, Sister Jing and I, together with the director, imagine the possibilities of tomorrow .Looking at this photo, relaxation is the main tone.Without slack, without democracy, without trust in the workers, there will be no good programs. In "Moving China", the host needs to attend very few meetings, usually twice.This is not easy in the environment of "Wen Shan Hui Hai".Once, everyone watched the film together, discussed it, and looked for details that could be magnified to figure out the characteristics of the characters; again, it was the day before the recording.However, everyone should not think that it is useless to work hard if you are familiar with the road. When you are not in meetings, hold meetings for yourself every day until you have a bottom line in your mind. Leaders often do not intervene in the production as leaders, but they are involved in another way.It stands to reason that Hu Zhanfan, the deputy director of the State Administration of Radio, Film and Television at the time (currently the boss of Guangming Daily), could watch the show every year and express his attitude. Absolute expert and "fever".Once, I called me for 40 minutes to read aloud the award speech of "Moving China", emphasizing the proportion of "speaking" on weekdays and "broadcasting" in the ceremony, and communicated with me many times afterwards. At this time, He is definitely not a deputy minister, but a literati, a big brother who was moved by "Moving China". Luo Ming, deputy director of CCTV, is the producer and gatekeeper of "Moving China", but what everyone doesn't know is that many of the award speeches and four-character evaluation words of "Moving China" come from him. Under the pen.However, this has nothing to do with him being a leader. First, this is an opportunity he "wought" for with his writing skills as a master of Guangyuan; second, he is voluntary; objection.And if he was praised afterwards because of his good writing, he would laugh extremely smugly. Producer Zhu Bo, the ringtone of his mobile phone has been the melody of the song "Moving China" for many years. Although he is also in charge of some other large-scale annual productions, it is obvious that he keeps himself in a state of "moving" all the time.For a period of time, he was plagued by sudden diabetes, disappeared for a while inexplicably, and returned lean and extremely optimistic. However, since then, this kid’s smile and mouth have become sweeter. It seems that the sugar has a new export. Director Fan Xinman is the one with the most strokes in the name among the people I know.Once, she, me, and sister Jing signed the book "Moving China" for readers. I finished three books, and she was still competing in the last few strokes of the word "Fan".With more strokes in the name and a more careful heart, she can use the supernatural power she believes in to overwhelm her collaborators every year.This beautiful director seems to be working on "Moving China" in one year, reflecting on it for the first half of the year, thinking about it for the second half of the year, and the rest of the time, when compiling the film, he praised all the collaborators and cried with the interviewees. I can't finish writing... I always think that starting every year with "moving" is a kind of luck.I think the people in the team also feel the same, because sometimes it is a kind of happiness to cry with someone. However, at the recording site of "Moving China", the leaders are often absent, which seems to be an unspoken rule. The leaders usually arrive before the recording, and if there is no problem after watching around, they will leave.Or, stealth into the director's room, so as not to have to arrange seats at the scene.This is also reflected in the choice of awarding methods.According to the usual practice, the leaders should award the trophies to the winners. During the initial discussion, everyone was worried about such an arrangement. How would the leadership level be determined each year?What is the order?Will the official spirit be heavy?In the end, my suggestion was adopted, so I let the children present the awards, and everyone accepted it, which is pure and means inheritance.Most importantly, everyone was relieved that the most worrying and error-prone link was missing.But having said that, the "absence" of the leaders is precisely thanks to the tacit understanding of the leaders.Among them, there is an interesting tacit understanding! Perhaps, all of the above, together, is another reason for the success of "Moving China". It's time to go back to the scene, to the real protagonist of "Moving China". Being the host of "Moving China" is a happy and painful thing.Happiness lies in that you can be so close to being moved; pain lies in that when you are moved, you must restrain yourself and not let the tears fall again and again.This kind of pain can only be felt strongly when you are in it. Once, during the live recording, a film was playing on the screen. An officer of the People's Liberation Army, accompanied by his wife and daughter who came to visit relatives in the army, went to the street on weekends and saw a suicide victim fall into the water.The suicidal person was rescued, but he left this world under the watchful eyes of his wife and daughter.At this time, a heart-wrenching picture was broadcast on the screen. The little daughter, who was only three or four years old, was crying and shouting in the crowd, holding the sneakers that her father had taken off: "Daddy comes home, dad comes home..." I am a father, and I have seen this scene before, but I still couldn't hold it back in the public. Tears welled up in my eyes and I couldn't control it, but I had to control it, because two minutes later, it was my host paragraph.So, I asked my colleagues to quickly bring a lot of tissues and quickly wiped away the tears, but I couldn't wipe off the makeup on my face. I was in a hurry. I guess people who were watching would think it was more funny.The process was very thrilling. Fortunately, when the film was shown, the lights were blacked out, and not many audiences noticed.Two minutes later, I calmed down and started my own host paragraph, but it was difficult to truly calm down emotionally. Perhaps, attentive audiences could detect it. This kind of experience happened more than once during the eight years of "Moving China", sometimes even under the spotlight, in the center of the stage. Gao Yaojie, the winner of the second session of "Moving China", is a retired doctor from Henan. After being exposed to AIDS patients at the age of 70, he embarked on the road of AIDS prevention and relief.He walked all the way under obstacles such as the prejudice of the crowd and the cover-up of relevant departments. He was already seventy-seven years old when he won the award.It was not easy for her to walk all the way, not only because of the surrounding environment, but also because of her pair of little feet that were once bound, which made her often falter, but it was these seemingly oldest "little feet" that ran all the way to resist the most modern AIDS, Do her best. Even if he won the title of Person of the Year who moved China, it is not without controversy, such as Cong Fei, a volunteer singer from Shenzhen.Suffering from a terminal illness, he still works for poor children. After he won the award, many people questioned him for "selling fame" and not being so seriously ill.A year later, Cong Fei passed away, and all doubts disappeared.However, what is it that makes us unbelievable? On the awards stage that year, the winners had to walk down more than ten steps from a height to the center of the stage.After the winner "Gao Yaojie" was announced, the heavy door opened slowly, and Gao Yaojie, who was 1.60 meters tall, 77 years old, and full of white hair, appeared in front of the public. This scene already had the power to shock. Next, She walked down the steps with difficulty, her body trembled, and she almost fell down.At this moment, I was on the verge of tears, so I quickly walked two steps forward, and extended my hand to Gao Yaojie, like a son extending to his mother.Unexpectedly, Gao Yaojie looked up at me, and then waved her hand lightly, rejecting my outstretched hand. At this moment, I didn't feel any embarrassment, but tears welled up in my eyes. On the other side, Sister Jing did the same.The attentive audience also noticed this detail, and with applause, the stubborn Gao Yaojie finally stood firmly in the center of the stage. During this journey, she walked like a journey against AIDS. At the end of the event, Gao Yaojie wrote us a passage, in which there is the greatest love, but also hatred.However, this hate is another expression of love: AIDS has become a worldwide disaster, and everyone is responsible for the rise and fall of countries.It is the responsibility of every Chinese citizen to care for and treat AIDS patients and their bereaved families realistically. Those who cheat the public, harm the people, and enrich themselves, get out of the AIDS work! ... There are too many scenes like this, and there are too many times when tears need to be restrained.Wang Minmin, a famous bomb disposal expert, should be a strong man, but he showed a tender side in the interview.Before carrying out a very dangerous bomb disposal mission, he met with his wife and daughter under an excuse, pretending to be relaxed and chatting with each other. He couldn't tell the truth about the danger, but he knew in his heart that this was very likely to be the last meeting with his family .When he told the story, he burst into tears, and on my side, I could only pinch my thigh quietly... Later, I discovered that the reason why the urge to cry was stronger than once was because I was getting older and my heart was becoming more and more fragile; secondly, it was also the most important reason. Among the winners of "Moving China", ordinary people The number has increased significantly. Many of them have achieved a kind of greatness through persistence and perseverance day after day, and because of this, they are more moving, and they often don't care about it. Ordinary people being grandly presented with awards, perhaps, is the key to moving China.Because they are the same as us, they were originally ordinary, therefore, the greatness becomes real, not elevated, and touchable, and the tears fall naturally. Among the winners in these eight years, there is an excellent son who donated a kidney for his mother; there is the best daughter who died not only for her parents but also for other elderly people in the village; there is the strongest mother who restored her liver function to normal through violent walking Donate a liver to save a son, or bring up a pair of disabled daughters so that the sun shines brightly; of course, there are also fathers who always face suffering with a smile... Fathers, mothers, sons, and daughters come from one small family after another. Over the past eight years, because of their ordinary roles in the family, they have stepped onto the stage of "Moving China"; after that, "Moving China" has entered thousands of households.It's great, so I went home because of being moved. Being moved doesn't always mean tears and warmth, often accompanied by anger. As a scholar, Liu Shuwei stood opposite the counterfeiter, but for a long time, Liu Shuwei was just a weak person, while the counterfeiter was extremely powerful.Although it was a happy ending in the end, during the process, Liu Shuwei was under so much pressure that she was about to collapse.At that time, apart from some ordinary people around her, where was justice and protection? Sometimes, we don't want to highlight the hero's touch to us because of the absence of justice and protection.In fact, I was a little moved, but I didn't have to! A young man who went to work in a seaside city saw the sea for the first time, but at the same time, he saw someone falling into the water and getting desperate.The young man named Wei Qinggang did not hesitate to go into the sea again and again to save people. There were cheers and cheers from the onlookers on the shore, but no one went into the water.A young man from other places became a hero, and a person and thousands of people formed a moving contrast.After saving people, Wei Qing just clapped his hands and left.Later the reporter found him, and he was full of doubts: "What's the point?" He won awards. On the stage, I asked him what he wanted most, and he replied: "I do a good job, everyone help me find some work." Let's do it!" Therefore, I believe that Wei Qinggang will still go into the water next time when we need to save someone, but what makes me unsure is: we who were moved to tears by Wei Qinggang today, the next time we encounter such a situation, Are you still doing nothing? If people who move people are responsible for winning awards, and people who make people angry or tired get benefits, then what's the point of being moved? Therefore, whenever "Moving China" was broadcast and I received compliments from people, I would habitually think inappropriately: I was moved, and then what? For example, there is a rural female doctor named Li Chunyan, who obviously has the opportunity to return to the city again and again, but the eyes of the villagers make her unable to withdraw, so she stays again and again, staying in poverty, remote places, various medical institutions, etc. Deep in the mountains where conditions are lacking, it helped the folks and moved us. I seem to be making a strange gesture, telling someone to shut up?Actually, I'm not being so impolite, I'm telling a story.The other in the photo is Tian Shiguo, who donated a kidney to save his mother. During the operation, he lied that he was on a business trip and told his brothers and sisters not to tell his mother.My gesture is probably at this point. Our program will not let his mother see it, and the old man is still kept in the dark. But while being moved, should we also be a little angry and blame ourselves?In such a big village, there has never been a doctor. So, I guess, for a long time, the people there were left to fend for themselves. It was not until Li Chunyan appeared that they got old, sick and died, and then they had external help.Although Li Chunyan wanted to leave, she stayed after all, so the people there saw hope again.And we, also relieved and relaxed in tears, we all entrusted the folks to Li Chunyan with confidence.Our anger and self-blame receded slowly, and the suffering seemed to be forgotten in our moving.In fact, no, this is just an illusion, or the responsibility to subconsciously give up under the guise of being moved.We just paid a string of tears for a village doctor, but it still has nothing to do with the life of the villagers and life, old age, sickness and death.We still have a lot to do and should do, only moving, anger and self-blame are not enough, we have to wipe away our tears and take action, stand behind the rural female doctor, stand behind one after another who has touched us , then the anger and self-blame will really decrease. But the crux of the problem is that at the moment when we were moved, we made countless vows. Later, when sleepiness came, we turned off the TV and fell into a deep sleep, but we didn’t know that those promises made by clenching our teeth, Do we still remember when we wake up? Impressed, does it really work?