Chapter 51 longing in dream

Have you ever dreamed of the person you want to be in your dreams?I dreamed of someone in my dream and my friend said, "Because you want to be her." Is this what the dream symbolized?Even if he's right, he's only half right.I'm far more greedy than he thinks, I want to be someone else, I want to be myself, preferably both. That is simply impossible, I can only be intoxicated in the inexplicable caress of the dreamland.Yes, I envy her, and I envy many people. I envy people with extraordinary intelligence, why am I not so smart? I envy people who are well-read. Being around them makes me feel inferior.

I envy child prodigies.In fact, how I long for a taste of being a child prodigy!But this life is impossible. I envy other people's charming demeanor and temperament.I envy other people's good looks. I envy other people's luck.You have to admit, some people are just luckier. I also envy others who have so much spare time to enjoy and savor life. I always have endless work to do. Pro-Yuan Xian fish, as retreat webs.I have formed another net that I think I am more specialized in, and I don't know the success or failure yet. Envy can become self-motivation, but jealousy does not.Envy is a kind of well-intentioned jealousy, and I yearn to be that kind of person.Jealousy is a heavy burden. People cry out in pain from the bottom of their hearts, and ask the sky angrily: "Why am I not him?"

We can never be someone else, it is better to cherish everything we have.