Chapter 19 love is not on one frequency

God gave man wisdom and taught man to distinguish between beauty, ugliness, good and evil. Let's not talk about good and evil, but beauty and ugliness reach the resolution of the eyes, so everyone likes beautiful women and handsome men. The first time I saw Ah Chi, I was infatuated with it.It was in a clothing store of a niche brand. I went from the women's clothing department on the second floor to the men's clothing department on the first floor, and saw a fashion model coming out of the fitting room.It felt like my eyes were straight at that time, and there was also the big shopping guide.

This is an era when beauty has already become a productive force. The shopping guide sister used her own employee discount for Ah Chi, which saved a lot of money. I still remember how he looked when I first met him.He stretched out his hand to straighten his collar, his fingers were long and white.The face in the mirror was sharp and angular, with a hint of sadness in his eyes. (PS: There is no artistic processing here.) At that time, I was particularly obsessed with the romance novels of a certain Internet god, and I felt that Ah Chi was that kind of handsome and cold hero.When I saw him again at the school basketball game a month later, I decided to pursue him.I didn't think too much about it at the time, I just thought it didn't matter if I could catch up or not, it would be good to be friends if we got to know each other.

In the future, where there is Ah Chi, I can always find it, laughing and making a familiar face.As for him, he has always been cold and indifferent to anyone.I found out later that he has a girlfriend.Only when his girlfriend from a different place calls, can he see layers of fireworks rising on his face. I've seen that heat firsthand.Under the setting sun, on the rooftop, he was holding the phone and smiling. At that time, after their basketball team practiced, they always liked to gather on the roof of a certain teaching building.I always follow, carrying an oversized bag.The bag contains water, tissues, Band-Aids, Yunnan Baiyao, and energy bars.Anyone who reaches out can ask me for anything.But Ah Chi never did this.

Everything I prepared for him fulfilled the needs of others.But he didn't seem to deliberately keep a distance from me, he just reacted slowly.I have been carrying the big bag for more than half a month, and he just found out, "Bai Chengcheng, are you a doraemon? Can you change me into a 4S?" That year, Apple was popular all over the world, and there was basically one person in the team.But Ah Chi used a domestic touch-screen mobile phone.I have heard more or less that his family is not very well off, and the living expenses are only enough to eat and drink.I don't know why, when he asked like that, it made me feel a little bitter, and the heart of Our Lady burst out.I went back that night, took out the lucky money from the small treasury for many years, and bought a 4S.

When the mobile phone was given to him the next day, he was so shocked that he couldn't believe it.Everyone on the team started booing, and he awkwardly took the phone.Later in the evening, he treated me to supper and returned the phone to me.I asked why, and he said, "My girlfriend wants it." He lowered his head, a little embarrassed. I'm the Virgin again, I pushed the phone over, "Then you can give it to her. I just don't want to see you in trouble." Everyone has been humble and humble in love. If you really like someone, you have to give something. Afterwards, I still attended their parties, and I was still laughing and shameless.Half a month later, I asked him if his girlfriend still likes using that phone, and he said, "I don't know, let's just do it that way."

I have never had it before, so there should be no sense of loss.But for some reason, my heart went cold. In fact, during that time, Ah Chi was having trouble with his girlfriend.That 4S became the fuse of their breakup. On my birthday, we had a drinking party together.Ah Chi drank some wine, probably because he lost his love and used it to relieve his sorrow.I was also not very emotional, so it didn't take long for me to break up.Ah Chi asked me to walk with him for a while.It was on the Chicony Square, and it was almost Christmas, and there was a big Christmas tree in the square, which was full of colorful lights.

He asked me: "Bai Chengcheng, do you have any gift you want? Last time you gave me a mobile phone, I have to give you something too." I said nothing.What I want, I can't say it.If possible, I really want to put him in a gift box and hang it on the Christmas tree. I said, "Then you squat down." He squatted down obediently, and I stroked his eyebrows.I have been fantasizing about this action for a long time.How did he grow such beautiful eyebrows? When he stood up, he hugged me. I can feel his alcoholic breath, the beating of his warm chest, the music of Jingle Bell in the square, the cool winter wind, and my joy with a little heartache.

Don't know if that counts as together.After all, we ate together and went to the study room.When he was playing, he would naturally accept the water I handed him.We send WeChat every day. Where are you?what did you eat?Isn't class boring?let me bring you somethingGood night. The above is my rhythm. dormitory.casual.good.casual.Ok. The above is Ah Chi's rhythm. The cold male lead is really cold. The girls in the dormitory already think that Ah Chi is my boyfriend. "Bai Chengcheng, when will your boyfriend treat us to dinner?" "Bai Chengcheng, why don't you go to see your boyfriend play ball?"

... In front of them, I also felt wrong for a while, Ah Chi and I were already boyfriend and girlfriend.But once when I was shopping with Ah Chi, I met his high school classmates. He introduced me to them and said, "This is from the accounting department of our school." Not even a suffix.My name was not spoken either. But I, an accounting student, still have the Valentine's Day gift I just bought for him.A box of chocolates we just made together, a whole suit of clothes from the brand when I first met him, and a box of Okamoto 003 that I awkwardly paid for at Watsons. In the hotel room bought by Ah Chi, I was shaking all over.I'm not afraid of the coming first experience, I'm cold.Although cold is not contagious, it will take away the temperature shared by both parties.

When Ah Chi came out of the shower, I asked him, "What are we now?" While wiping his hair, he said, "That's what you say." Look at him, he is so casual when he arrives. You don't know when love begins, just like you don't know when the spring willow spit out the first green shoot.But you must know when love ends, it is a moment of exhaustion and a little bit of comfort.Like a person whose dream has been stolen, he heard the sound of coins falling. Snapped. END. I was born more than a month prematurely, and my reaction is always a little slow.My mother said that when I was a child, I went to get vaccinated, and the needles were all pulled out, so I knew I was going to cry.

I was weak as a child, especially as a baby, and cost the family a lot of money.My parents are always arguing about me and money.Occasionally looking through old photos, I have almost no record of smiling happily since I started from Baitianzhao. I'm also insensitive to love.I have received a lot of explicit and implicit gestures from the little girl, but most of them didn't pay much attention to it. Naturally, I don't know that my indifference will have a bad influence on others. Girls even killed themselves for me in high school.We are not a couple. When I knew about it, I couldn't quite remember what she looked like.Although her suicide left only scars on her wrists, it was very disturbing to me.That incident caused a lot of trouble in the city, and I don't know how many people poked my spine. For a long time, I shrank in the classroom and dared not go out.Didn't even hit the ball. Jin Duo is my first love.She is the school belle of our high school, she looks a bit like a little S with a less pointed chin.We were together, and she was the one who pursued me first.We are not in the same class, and she will come to me every ten minutes after class.Even going to the toilet will pull me to accompany. At that time, I really gained a lot of envy, jealousy and hatred. When we are together, it seems more like a matter of course. Everyone thinks that we have a husband and wife look, that we are suitable together, that we are very seductive and so on.You pushed me and bumped into each other, and we became it. After the college entrance examination, we were not admitted to the same university, and then we started a long-distance relationship.I heard that there are quite a lot of people chasing her, and there are many tall, rich and handsome.When we broke up, I didn't seem to have much pain.It's that feeling of knowing the outcome and waiting for it to come.When Bai Chengcheng sent me 4S, we had already broken up.That mobile phone is the youth loss fee that Jin Duo asked for.I'm not angry at all about what Jin Duo wants from me. I'm glad we broke up in that way, and there is less possibility of breaking up. Bai Chengcheng is a bit silly, she chases me like a celebrity.Every time she played a ball game, she shouted my name at the top of her voice.Once she even pulled out a banner that said: "Wang Chi, W is Wonderful, C is Champion." I was called "WC" by several guys for a long time. I've always thought this way, if Bai Chengcheng gave me an expensive mobile phone, sooner or later I will return something better to her.So, on her birthday, I asked her what she wanted, and all she wanted was to stroke my eyebrows. Maybe it was that moment when I sensed her gentle humility.Her eyes are like those of a traveler who has been traveling in the desert for a long time, very thirsty.And I may be the one who brings her water to quench her thirst.I decided to give us a chance. So we are together. I'm not good with words, and I'm afraid of showing my emotions in front of others.To be honest, I seldom even call my parents at home.Especially my dad, the only time I remember calling him "Dad" was when I was eight years old when I was catching a train and was scattered by the crowd, crying because I was afraid.I am such a person, smile less, talk less, and not be sunny.It's not pretentious, but I can't talk too much and smile brightly.When I go home during the holidays, my mother always cooks my favorite braised pork for me.Every time she asks, is it delicious?I always answer, it's ok.In fact, it was obviously the best food in my life. I am very grateful to Bai Chengcheng for her dedication to me and her warm care.I especially like the way she bouncing around behind me.Because I always walk in front of her, she can't see my smiling face that I can't hide. She always likes to invite me to dinner.She looks at me while I eat.It's a bit like my mother watching me eat.I'm embarrassed, so I put down my chopsticks. "What's the matter, what's the matter," she would ask, "isn't it delicious?" "It's okay." I really couldn't say more enthusiastic words. Of course she is my girlfriend.The brothers in the dormitory and the basketball team all called her this way: "WC's oranges are sweeter." It's just that I never said something like "I like you" to her, so she sometimes has small emotions. I will not respond warmly, nor will I respond coldly.My way of dealing with it is to not deal with it.Her best friend once came to me, and on QQ, she babbled a long paragraph, saying that I was so indifferent to their oranges, and how bad they were.Said that if you don't like her, don't delay her, or something. I didn't reply to that paragraph. I really don't have any emotional intelligence. I don't know if exercising will help me in the future. Later, I used her computer and found that she had posted a post on a certain forum. The title was: "Is this man having sex with me?"It makes me happy.So, I registered an ID "WB3C" and replied to her: "Believe me, he likes you." There was no response from her for a long time.Maybe automatically filtered out.It's really not sensitive when it should be sensitive. WB3C, I still use it as an account until now, our first and last names are all together. In the following holidays, I found a job as a professional groomsman in the wedding company owned by my cousin and made some money.That money was just enough to buy a six-character motto bracelet that Bai Chengcheng had long wanted. On Valentine's Day in 2013, we spent it together.With the gift I wanted to give her in my arms, I was dragged by her to buy clothes and visited Watsons.It was fine until we got into the hotel. I don't know what's wrong with her.I came out of the bathroom and before I wiped my hair, I saw her standing at the window of the hotel, throwing all my clothes and the suit she had just given me. She cried and kept saying she was stupid and liked a freak like me.Said that he had paid so much for me, but he was just a passer-by without a name. Before rushing out the door, she threw down a sentence: "Go to hell, cold man. Let you be cold enough once." I don't know why, before I got under the covers and called the front desk to ask for help to pick up my clothes, I was still a little dumbfounded by this sudden situation.In the pocket of the jacket she had thrown away, there was the bracelet that was about to be given to her.Neither the jacket nor the bracelet were ever recovered. Maybe that's it, it seems that there is no beginning, and the end is neither fish nor fowl.I obviously like her, but I didn't confess it.For the impatient and the slow, love is a paradox, when one is in progress, the other is already completed.If they can't get together, maybe it's not a frequency problem.One person's indifference will become another person's misunderstanding. Until now, I still think that Bai Chengcheng is the cutest girl I know.I know maybe she will never come back to me, let me give her a serious start.So now, I can only silently praise her when I look at her Weibo and Moments every day.