Chapter 23 Chapter Twenty Two

In Qi Huan's high-magnification infrared imaging, the people who entered the sniper circle at night were already a queue mixed with humans and animals.It was no rabble, and when they walked through the night woods, their formation was almost the same as the old A's, with vanguard and rear guard and echoing flanks.Every nerve is tense, and everyone is ready to fight.In the infrared imaging, as Yuan Lang said, they were indeed armed with support and lethal weapons such as rockets and machine guns, which were heavy infantry weapons that even the old A did not carry for the sake of lightness.

The scope clicked on the target. Yuan Lang: "Point E takes care of the snakehead. Point C, three on the right wing. Point B, two on the left wing. Point A gives priority to attacking heavy fire targets. Point F stays in ambush to seal it. Finished." The short one should be sound. Xu Sanduo moved his finger on the trigger. He and Yuan Lang were at point E, and they were dealing with two pioneers. The target in the scope was very clear. Xu Sanduo could already hear the sound of stepping on the broken leaf. Yuan Lang put down his rifle and drew out a pistol with a suppressor, and Xu Sanduo did the same.

Yuan Lang only fired when the target was only twenty meters away from him. With a soft sound, a pioneer fell straight down. Xu Sanduo's muzzle was pointing at the second target. In his night vision goggles, the muzzle of the target would immediately fall to the side where he and Yuan Lang were lurking. It was so clear, like a green nightmare. With the second sound, Yuan Lang knocked down the second scout when Xu Sanduo hesitated. The crisp sound of rifles came one after another. They were long-range shots from three sniper points, all single-shot, so accurate that the two flanks and a few men with heavy weapons in the team fell down, as if everyone was in action. Connected to a switch.

In Qi Huan's night imaging, half of the targets were lost in a few seconds, and the remaining targets were immediately concealed. What's rare is that no one shot back. Nine targets have been completely hors de combat. The fallen corpse in the night vision device lay in Xu Sanduo's field of vision without any threat. Then everyone heard a hoarse sound, as if someone threw a heavy object into a deep pool. Qi Huan shouted: "Six Zero Pao! Be careful!" At the same time, he turned on the gauge and fired a grenade at the smoke point exposed when the cannon was fired. 60 mortar shells exploded at Wu Zhe's lurking position, and Wu Zhe had already moved.

Then the grenade fired by Qi Huan exploded at the firing position just now, and the overturned figure and mortar frame were reflected under the smoke. Qi Huan: "Ten targets, confirmed to be incapacitated. One target, suspected to be injured." The target he was observing finally lost his self-control, and the valley finally began to roar, with ballistics, explosions, and all the light and heavy weapons that far exceeded the sum of an infantry squad. The people on the sniper point were silent, even if the stray bullets cut off the branches and leaves above their heads. There was another single shot and the first burst of old A in this battle, which was still a one-hit kill.

Qi Huan: "The target tried to escape but failed, and two were killed. The twelve targets were confirmed to have lost combat effectiveness." Yuan Lang hissed, he now confirmed that he has fully grasped the initiative. Yuan Lang: "Keep monitoring, shoot freely. Over." Only then did he look at Xu Sanduo. Up to now, Xu Sanduo had never fired a single shot. Xu Sanduo aimed stiffly, but he didn't know what he was aiming at. The gunfire in the valley is still ringing, but it has become much less frequent. I am afraid that even the drug dealer who is in desperate situation knows that such blind shooting is not an option.

An occasional single sound means that there is another ghost who has not found the enemy until his death. Qi Huan's voice was monotonous and dedicated. Qi Huan: "Target fourteen, confirmed to be out of combat effectiveness." Xu Sanduo lay quietly beside his gun, in fact, he had given up aiming and shooting. Modern warfare is rational, efficient and brutal.The gunshots rang out all night, and the targets fired back, resisted, yelled and cried, but they never put down their guns, so we couldn't put down our guns either.Later, the report stated that ten of our troops consumed fifty-seven rounds of ammunition and killed twenty of the enemy.It was not written in the report, and Xu Sanduo did not fire a single shot.

In fact, Yuan Lang knew that Xu Sanduo would not shoot, and he planned to tolerate this kind of non-shooting. When the morning light first appeared, a few figures of people could be seen in the dense jungle, and the gunshots had long since stopped.The drug dealers were still suppressed by them at the bottom of the valley, hiding by a few trees and rocks, and they were unable to move for a whole night.The old A at each sniper point was still watching, and a few well-ambushed positions, such as Yuan Lang, hadn't moved from the beginning to the end. Someone in the valley was shouting roughly, the language of a certain country in Southeast Asia.

Yuan Lang: "What are you talking about?" Wu Zhe: "Let them live, and give us half of the contents of the pack." The man was still yelling a sentence repeatedly, which sounded uncomfortably desperate. Wu Zhe: "The price has increased, and now give it all to us." Now it was replaced by another hoarse voice, shouting something completely different, and no matter the nationality, he could hear the exasperated tone. Wu Zhe: "I don't understand this, it should be greeting our ancestors." Yuan Lang: "It's better to surrender." Wu Zhe: "Should I shout?"

Yuan Lang: "No. There has been a precedent. You shouted, and he shot you. Because he knows that extradition to the country is also an undisputed death penalty." In the valley: "I am Chinese! Chinese people! People's Liberation Army, let our compatriots survive!" The old A looked at each other, but no one spoke. In the valley: "We are going to die! We are almost dead! Give me a way, please!" The atmosphere suddenly became very dull. Someone was sobbing at the bottom of the valley, and then was beaten by his companions. Xu Sanduo looked at Yuan Lang, but Yuan Lang didn't speak.

Xu Sanduo finally couldn't bear it any longer: "Put down your weapon!" Yuan Lang immediately dragged Xu Sanduo away and jumped into the prepared position that he had hoped for earlier, but it was not as he expected, not a single rocket came flying, and no bullets swept past. After a long time, a blood-stained white cloth stretched out from behind the tree and shook it. Wu Zhe: "They surrendered, what should we do?" Yuan Lang stood up: "Raise your hand, come over and let me see that you are unarmed." A man also came out from behind the tree, already wounded, staggering, did not raise his hands, but used both hands to hold a branch tied with a white cloth. Yuan Lang: "All groups remain vigilant." That person came over, step by step, not like a normal person's gait, like drunk, for a time people thought it was because of his serious injury, until Yuan Lang saw his slack and crazy eyes. Yuan Lang: "Be careful, he overdosed on drugs." Before he could finish speaking, the man rushed towards him, yelling wildly, and at the same time pulled off his clothes and pulled a row of grenade buckles.The shout was also a signal, and a man flashed out from behind the tree, aiming a rocket launcher in this direction. Yuan Lang hit a burst and fell down.At the same time Wu Zhe hit the man carrying the rocket launcher. The two explosions happened almost at the same time. The explosion of the grenade completely submerged the fake surrenderer in the smoke. The broken branches covered him.The pack horse jumped up in shock and fled in the direction it came from. Qi Huan got up, squatted, and hit a target that was trying to escape with the pack horse. This was probably the moment when Old A's gunshots rang out the most throughout the night. At the same time, they also gave up their lurking position and began to charge. Qi Huan jumped out of the ambush and stopped the pack horse with a swarm of empty bullets. Old A, who was lurking in the five positions, appeared in a vigilant posture. He had knocked down almost all the targets in the chaos just now. The whole valley seemed to be full of corpses and blood from one end to the other. It was no longer there. Yesterday's cleanliness. Qi Huan is the kind of person who has a hard time forgetting his responsibilities. Qi Huan: "Confirmed, killed nineteen people. The pack horses intercepted them all." Everyone dispersed quickly.Wu Zhe stopped by the side of the road for a while, touched a pool of blood with his fingers, and looked at Yuan Lang. Wu Zhe: "That's it?" Yuan Lang: "Yes, your first actual battle is like this. Do you find it easy? This is not even enough for the lowest intensity war. And you usually sweat too much." Wu Zhe: "It's not easy, really." He put the blood-stained finger under his nose to smell, this guy was still a little suspicious at this moment. Yuan Lang smiled wryly: "It's true, you really killed someone." For a moment, Wu Zhe had a look of bewilderment on his face, and even looked a little old: "I have lost some things...but I have been prepared to lose these things for a long time." Yuan Lang: "I understand, I'm not worried about you." Wu Zhe: "The fans of ten horses... how many people can be harmed?" Yuan Lang: "Astronomical figures." Wu Zhe wiped the blood off his fingers on the blades of grass, then smiled wryly: "I can't help it. I can only think about how many people I have saved." For a moment, Yuan Lang's eyes showed warmth and relief. Outside the jungle, two old A's had already blocked the passage leading to the outside world, Xu Sanduo and others searched nearby for the two who still slipped through the net.Xu Sanduo didn't concentrate on his search. A dead body behind a tree attracted his full attention, and the blown-up flowers scattered on the body.At last he forced his eyes away from it, and around it went up into the woods away from the goat path. Passing through the bushes, Xu Sanduo suddenly felt something was wrong in his sense of touch. He turned around and saw a gun barrel shaking uncomfortably in the bushes. The reaction had already become a subconscious thing, Xu Sanduo grabbed the barrel of the gun, jumped back, and pointed the gun at the bush at the same time: "Come out! Put down the weapon!" The branches trembled and moved, and then a person came out from inside, dirty and blood-stained, frightened to the point of collapse, holding another little man in his hand, and trying to let the little man stop in front of him as much as possible.He was holding a grenade in one hand, the safety pin had been pulled out, the fingers on it were the last safety, and the hand shook as if he had suffered a stroke.From the voice, he was the Chinese who shouted in the valley. Drug dealer: "It will blow up...it will really blow up." Xu Sanduo looked at the model: "The delayed explosion, you can't scare me." Drug dealer: "Bombed her! Bombed her, and bombed me. I bombed the hostage... Yes, I have a hostage, and she is a hostage." It seems that Xu Sanduo was a little helpless because of the other party's madness: "You are accomplices." Drug dealer: "No. I bought her, I bought her. Wife! Yes, you can buy anything with money, don't you know?" After speaking, he smiled strangely. What Xu Sanduo was facing was another drug overdose person, that kind of laughter was a precursor to a nervous breakdown.The guy tossed off the little man's hat to let his long hair fall, and with his grenade-grabbing hand he wrapped the woman's neck, while with the other he groped obscenely over the woman's chest. It seemed that he had indeed bought it, but it was by no means a bought wife, just a tool for lust and abuse, a woman who had been tortured to the point of trembling reactions. Xu Sanduo faced, dazed, angry, a little disgusted, everything he had never faced before. Drug dealer: "Want it? Here you are. Just pretend you didn't see me... okay? Want money? A lot of money, so much that it scares you to death, you can buy anything." Xu Sanduo: "Let her go." The earphones rang softly, and Qi Huan's voice said: "Xu Sanduo, report the location." Drug dealer: "Throw it away! Throw it away! Throw it away!" He put his hand grabbing the grenade into the woman's arms, and the woman twitched in terror, weeping softly as if tearing apart. Xu Sanduo hesitated for a moment, took off the communicator and threw it away: "Release the man, and give me the grenade." Drug dealer: "I'm going to think about it....Throw away the gun too. Throw away everything. Yes, throw away everything. You are so powerful, with thorns all over your body...Guns all over your body...My people are dead Well, none of you can see... the gun is gone, and the clothes are taken off. Yes, all of them. I mean naked! You always fucked women? Yes, that's the way." Xu Sanduo threw away the gun, and was stunned by those completely out of order words, he finally understood what happened to this man: "You have taken too many drugs." Drug dealer: "How good. You don't know how good it is. Don't be afraid, be happy, don't chase me, if you chase me again, you will fly away." Xu Sanduo stretched out his hand: "Give me that thing." Drug dealer: "Take it off!" He pulled the woman's hair so hard that it looked like he was going to break her neck, and he looked like he was going to put a grenade in the woman's mouth. Xu Sanduo took off his gear and coat, a camouflage vest and combat pants. He is now unarmed. The drug dealer showed him a lock of hair that had just been pulled out, covered with blood, and he let the lock of hair fall to the ground: "I want more." Xu Sanduo unbuttoned his armed belt, that kind of standard and no procrastination, as if he was doing a military action. The sun that had set yesterday burst out this morning, but no one saw the beauty.The old A's are searching the valley, and it's not a small project for ten people to search this area. Qi Huan hurried over: "Did you see Xu Sanduo?" Wu Zhe shook his head. Xu Sanduo was naked, looking into those eyes, madness, collapse, disillusionment, fear, greed, obscenity... If the world was ever mistaken for hell, it was because of these emotions. Drug dealer: "Don't be afraid, you are not afraid of anything. You can't catch me, you can't catch me anyway. I will change. I will become the wind. Can you catch the wind?" Xu Sanduo: "If you can't catch it, give it to me before changing." The frantic guy was thinking nervously, maintaining his last ties with the real world. Drug dealer: "I have to think about it...Think about it..." He suddenly smiled happily, "Are you convinced? What I committed is worth two hundred death sentences in foreign countries. The motherland is good, and the motherland will be sentenced once!" He was overjoyed, "Just once, once is enough." Xu Sanduo: "That's enough. Give me that thing, it's too much of a hindrance to hold it." Drug dealer: "No. Give anything you want. You are a good person, so just don't give it." Xu Sanduo: "I'm a good person, I don't want anything but this." Drug dealer: "You want me to die! What are you doing? Do you force me to die?" His joy gave way to grief, and he began to sob again, "I will not change the wind or fly, if you force me to die, I will show you." Xu Sanduo: "I didn't want you to die...how can you live like this?" The drug dealer immediately began to be pleasantly surprised: "My mother also said yes! If you live like this, the whole family will die together! Haha, fool, you have to live well, you need to be superior. We mountain people need money to teach others to look good. More money, more money, more money, more money, people from the mountains, people from the city, people from the sea, it’s all the same. More money, everyone knows you, more money... Dad, you Come and see, the feng shui treasure land you lie on is 50,000 yuan. Have you ever lived so expensive? I am crazy, we are all crazy. Heaven can be bought, hell, if you don’t have enough money to buy heaven, then you will go to hell... ...Hell, I have already entered hell. This batch of goods, how much is this batch of goods...Scare you to death! Scare you to death!...You don't want me to die? Someone wants me to die!" He said without warning After letting go of his fingers, Xu Sanduo grabbed his hand and held the grenade together, making it impossible for him to let go of the fingers on the safety pin. He still had a pistol on him, he took out that gun, and when Xu Sanduo was still trying to disarm the exploding grenade, he pointed it at Xu Sanduo's forehead, and was about to pull it without hesitation. Xu Sanduo punched him at a short distance, and his two finger bones protruded, hitting his Adam's apple. The drug dealer immediately collapsed, one hand holding the grenade was still tightly held by Xu Sanduo, the other hand dropped the gun, desperately grabbing his throat to take a breath of air. When Xu Sanduo realized what had happened, he let go of his hand and at the same time let go of the grenade that was about to explode.A person snatched it up, picked up the grenade and threw it out. A second later, it exploded. It was Qi Huan, he turned around and fired his gun at the same time, watching the body writhing and struggling on the ground, and then he noticed Xu Sanduo. Xu Sanduo knelt down, curled up, his nakedness made him feel like a placenta, trembling and vomiting, although he didn't suffer any physical injuries. The mission is over, Yuan Lang is reporting on the radio, his mood seems not going well: "Bring oxygen equipment to rescue drug dealers!" He looked at the emergency stretcher by the forest, the sheet was blowing in the mountain wind, and the struggling body underneath had calmed down. Xu Sanduo sat under the tree. He still didn't put on his own clothes, but Wu Zhe had already wrapped him in a sleeping bag.Wu Zhe half-kneeled, lightly pressing the back of Xu Sanduo's head with one hand, without saying anything. Qi Huan took Xu Sanduo's clothes, outfits, and weapons all at once, and put them beside him. Xu Sanduo didn't respond, but the sound of helicopter rotors in the air reminded him of something. He stood up, let the sleeping bag on his body fall to the ground, and walked towards the stretcher naked. The drug dealer was on a stretcher doing his final convulsions, and he couldn't even keep up with the equipment that was brought in by helicopter.Xu Sanduo stretched out his hand, and that hand was immediately grasped like a life-saving straw. The two people with different fates held each other tightly, the latter choked up in his throat, and made a sound with difficulty, Xu Sanduo moved his ears closer. Drug dealer: "Mom...Mom." Xu Sanduo: "You are luckier than me, I have never met my mother." Then he watched the drug dealer die. Xu Sanduo stared blankly, as if a part of his life was gone along with it. I am twenty-three years old today.I lost my innocence when I was twenty-three. A person who has killed his own kind will no longer be innocent. Knowing death, there is no innocence. The helicopter is taking off.Xu Sanduo sat blankly in the cabin, at least he was dressed. Lin Hai disappeared under the wing. Wu Zhe was sitting in another corner. In fact, his expressions and most of the old A's were somewhat similar to Xu Sanduo's. A group of people who had just been killed and lost their innocence. Wu Zhe found something on his clothes. He took it off to see that it was a bunch of dandelions, which were still stuck to his body after a night of tossing.He thought about it and glued it back in place, apparently intending to be its volunteer sower. Qi Huan and a few old A's were making their impromptu dinner by the kitchen cart, and Xu Sanduo came out of the tent. He didn't even eat lunch!If a person really has three souls and six souls, then he probably has less than half of them left. The walking dead walked straight into Yuan Lang's tent through the open space without looking back.Qi Huan threw away the spatula in a bit of anger, and he was no longer interested in messing with dinner. Yuan Lang put aside the report he was typing, and looked at the stubborn and depressed soldier in front of him. Yuan Lang: "Not approved." Xu Sanduo: "Why?" Yuan Lang: "With our army of this nature, can we go to meet the family members of the deceased for such an operation? Go back and rest." Xu Sanduo didn't speak anymore, but he didn't go back either, poking there. Yuan Lang stopped typing two words and sighed. Yuan Lang: "Xu Sanduo, at that time, the worst case was three deaths, and the best case was one death. You have done your best." There was no movement. "Even if he is not dead, he will be sentenced to death within a month. This is something he knows and you know." "That's two different things." "It's two different things. Xu Sanduo, go to rest, you haven't slept or eaten." "I will deny boarding." Yuan Lang anxiously looked at the unfinished report. In the crematorium, the cries of the family members of the deceased seemed to flood the entire space. Xu Sanduo was far away, looking at the old man and the child, as well as the young wife and the gray-haired mother.He was completely overwhelmed by what he saw, and he quietly moved his feet forward, and then another step... The crying of the family members of the deceased suddenly swept through, this was the moment when he had just picked up the ashes and walked to the cemetery, crying the most . Xu Sanduo watched from the house, there were very few people who sent her off, only an old woman was supported by several people, and all the pain was concentrated on that country old woman. I want to tell that mother, kill me, I am a murderer.If the captain is not here, if I am not a soldier. The helicopter landed on the apron. After a few days of hard work, the old A's were also scattered, and there was no formation, and they left in groups with equipment.Xu Sanduo walked at the end unhappily. Wu Zhe deliberately stopped to wait for him, but Xu Sanduo stopped a few meters away from him.Wu Zhe had no choice but to turn around and catch up with Qi Huan. Xu Sanduo waited for them to leave more than ten meters away before taking another step. He deliberately stayed away from the crowd. In the absolute darkness, the drug dealer who was picking his throat was clear and real. There was nothing around him, just darkness.Xu Sanduo was lying, also lying in absolute darkness, he couldn't move, he could only stare at those painful eyes approaching him. Xu Sanduo was woken up from the nightmare, his quilt was soaked with sweat like half a bucket of water, Qi Huan looked at him with concern from the side.Xu Sanduo was at a loss, Qi Huan turned on the desk lamp, but the corner of the room was also dark, and he seemed to see that person standing in the darkness in the corner of the room. Qi Huan turned on the light in the room so that there was no darkness in the room. "Do you know how scary your expression is when you fall asleep? I can sleep in the mass grave in the middle of the night, but looking at you, I want to inspire people..." Qi Huan felt lingering fear. "It's not just fear. It's guilt, he wants to live, but I killed him so he got into my head." Xu Sanduo didn't intend to continue to sleep tonight, took a book and sat at the table, opened it, but his eyes were absolutely dazed. In the morning, the first thing Qi Huan did when he opened his eyes was to see Xu Sanduo, who finally fell asleep from exhaustion, leaning on a chair and sleeping.Qi Huan hesitated amidst the morning horns and drill sounds from outside, and after a while, he hugged Xu Sanduo to bed like a child.Xu Sanduo did not wake up, and the disturbances around him and outside the house failed to wake him up, which was unbelievable in the past. The curtains were drawn, the doors shut, and the day was as dark as dusk. Xu Sanduo lay blankly in the crumpled quilt, compared to his previous strictness, he could also be said to be lying in a pig's nest.It was very strange for Xu Sanduo to lie on the bed while shooting and training outside. The three-year rule was suddenly worthless. I went to bed late and woke up late, and I gave myself a big vacation.My teammates also learned to call this state of me more implicitly, they said I was sick. Following the footsteps and laughter of the old A's returning from training outside, Qi Huan came in and put the freshly made lunch box on the table. "Eat more today, this is not cat food." Xu Sanduo smiled wryly, he didn't want to touch it at all. Qi Huan started to clean. Xu Sanduo used to do this job. Xu Sanduo looked at it and wanted to say something, but he didn't even bother to say it. Xu Sanduo stood in the sunlight in the corridor, looking at the flowers blooming in the flower bed below. There was a person beside the flower bed with his back turned to him, and he was looking at a certain flower in the flower bed intently. Xu Sanduo's looking at the flowers was purely for coping purposes. In order to make him forget the things he couldn't forget as soon as possible, Wu Zhe forced him out of the room where he had been sleeping for four days. Teammates passed by in the corridor, no one dared to talk to Qi Huan and Wu Zhe under the eyes of Qi Huan and Wu Zhe, so they hurried past them with surprise and concern.Compared with their vigor that always seems to be about to take off, Xu Sanduo seems to come from a pale and sluggish world. He wanted to go back to the house, but Qi Huan and Wu Zhe clung to him from left to right, making him stand where he was. Wu Zhe: "I want to reward you carefully. Xu Sanduo, this kind of weather, this kind of day is given to a bed, wouldn't that be hell?..." The person by the flower bed turned around, it was Yuan Lang, he saw Xu Sanduo at first sight, and Xu Sanduo also saw him.The two looked at each other, one upstairs and the other downstairs. Yuan Lang's expression contained understanding, concern and inquiry, and that was what Xu Sanduo wanted to escape. He forced the two people around him away and went back to the room.Yuan Lang looked at him sadly. Railway looked at the soldiers training outside by the window, and then looked back at Yuan Lang who was poking in the middle of the room. From a certain angle, Yuan Lang was called to stand for punishment, and he did not know how long he had maintained that posture. The railway asked: "I heard that the soldier in your team has been lying down for a week after returning from his mission?" "My fault. The target tried to detonate a grenade. During the fight, he crushed the opponent's Adam's apple, a bone fragment pierced into the trachea, and died of suffocation due to lack of medical equipment. I let him face the real bleeding and death prematurely." die." The railway was somewhat incomprehensible: "It was written in the report. I didn't see your fault, nor did I see his fault. Is it a fault to completely destroy the drug trafficking armed force that has been in trouble for several years in one night?... Xu Sanduo's performance is also a fault. Invulnerable, he's a soldier, he has to be mentally prepared to take on that." "..." This kind of preparation is easy for some people, but it is really difficult for people like Xu Sanduo...at least temporarily.Since Yuan Lang was eager to let him become a member of the old A and find his own place here, the purpose of taking him out on the mission was just to hope that he would experience it once, so that he could have the psychological preparation that the railway said in the future.But there was an accident, which Yuan Lang didn't expect, Xu Sanduo experienced more cruelty than others.For soldiers who are new to the battlefield, even for veterans who have been on the battlefield for a long time, shooting to death and being shot to death are completely different things. Yes, Xu Sanduo is very good, but he never thought that what he learned and practiced were all for killing. He punched out like he did in training, but he couldn't face the result afterwards.As a result, he cannot return to the training ground now, and any training will make him relive extremely unpleasant psychological experiences.And Yuan Lang really doesn't want to give up Xu Sanduo now.This situation made the railway and Yuan Lang very troubled. When Yuan Lang said that he wanted to handle this matter with full authority, the railway suddenly understood Yuan Lang's meaning, and his expression immediately showed surprise and regret. At the training ground in the dark, Yuan Lang asked Qi Huan to find Xu Sanduo, Qi Huan looked at his captain worriedly: "Captain, don't blame him. This is not the first time for me to do this kind of task, but I haven't recovered yet." Come here. Yes, we have a sense of mission, we are mentally prepared, and we start to adjust ourselves long before we act. But what about him? He is full of peace and just wants to get along with people. We haven't looked at a person face to face like him. The pupils dilate and the breath disappears." Yuan Lang: "Afraid that I will treat your little friend badly?" "I'm one step late. If I'm one step early, I'll kill the criminals, and I'll bear these things." Yuan Lang shook his head: "There will always be such a day, this is a test that we all have to pass. I had a few days off and wanted to go home, but I still spent time with you. Why? I can't touch it with the hand that just killed someone. Wife and daughter... you are not afraid that I will treat him badly now, are you?" Xu Sanduo is still cooped up in the dormitory, all his daily actions are frozen in frame, it is due to Wu Zhe holding a digital camera next to him, flashing frequently, Wu Zhe seems to be shooting a personal album. Wu Zhe's hands were sore, and the 512MB memory card was almost full. Xu Sanduo didn't even give him half a smile, but just looked at him with a melancholy, haggard, and energetic look. Xu Sanduo finally moved his lips and said, "Wu Zhe, thank you for doing so much for me." Then he stopped talking again, Wu Zhe stared, scratched his ears and scratched his cheeks, and made all his expressions and reactions, Xu Sanduo was very indifferent. Xu Sanduo really didn't want to be locked in the room every day, he also wanted to talk and laugh, but he couldn't do it.He didn't know what was wrong with him. Running for more than ten kilometers with 20 to 30 kilograms on his back seemed to be something he had done in his previous life, and suddenly he felt strenuous even to move his mouth. Xu Sanduo, who was always easy to be amused, suddenly stopped taking this set, and Wu Zhe decided to look serious: "You suddenly feel extremely tired, don't you? You long for a home. Like everyone, we all hope to be an extraordinary ordinary person, but You're tired now, and you miss the things you left behind: a little fortune, a job, some friends, a wife, a calm, private life." With his eloquence, it was really easy for Xu Sanduo to be overwhelmed, and such a topic immediately made Xu Sanduo concentrate on listening. "But even if you find the place you thought was your destination, you will find that there is no end. Destination is the end. In fact, there is no destination, and life is endless. By the way, this is the most interesting part of my life." Xu Sanduo really thought too much about this matter, Wu Zhe immediately made him feel sad, and tears welled up in his eyes. Qi Huan walked in at this time, saw Xu Sanduo crying, and asked Wu Zhe in a daze: "Didn't you make him laugh? Why did you make him cry?" Wu Zhe sneered: "Hehe, crying and laughing have the same effect at this time." Qi Huan turned to Xu Sanduo and told him that the captain was waiting for him on the playground, Xu Sanduo hesitated. "Go, we are suffering with you." Qi Huan's last words made Xu Sanduo make up his mind, he got up, silently glanced at the two of them, and went out.Wu Zhe's real expression was revealed at this time, it was neither funny nor serious, it was the same worry as Qi Huan. Xu Sanduo crossed the base to go to the training ground, the moonlight, the fragrance of grass and trees, and the singing of night insects and birds.He walked for a while, closed his eyes, it was dark, but the smell and sound were the same. I often play a game with myself, close my eyes, only smell the smell and hear the sound, and then pretend to return to the normal things Wu Zhe said. The soil ridges in the fields of my hometown. The vast grassland outside the Class 5 dormitory. The simple compound of the Three Five Three Group. All these reappear in front of Xu Sanduo's closed eyes.When Xu Sanduo opened his eyes, he found a sentry looking at him suspiciously. After all, there are not many people walking at night with their eyes closed. Yuan Lang was sitting on the sidelines of the training ground, watching the other squadron shooting night targets, and didn't look back until Xu Sanduo stood behind him. "The night in the mountains is easy to remind people of old things, isn't it? I'm thinking about my old things." Xu Sanduo stood guardedly, this was not the conversation with Yuan Lang he had imagined. "I think of a soldier who was also a scout of an infantry company. He served in a regiment called the Tiger Regiment. He suffered from acute appendicitis during the exercise and was taken to a field hospital for surgery. It was a bit chaotic at the time. Turned upside down." Xu Sanduo quickly lost his vigilance again, concerned about the soldier's appendix: "And then?" "What did the nurse say? Are the tigers afraid of pain? The soldier just kept silent and cut off the cecum just like that." Xu Sanduo was dumbfounded: "I like this soldier." "Do you like it or admire it? Or, as Wu Zhe said, this soldier has a morbid self-esteem. Or, as Qi Huan said, it's time to drag that nurse out and kill him." "I like it. I understand why he endured it. And Wu Zhe is used to having different opinions from others. Qi Huan is defending principles, but I think they also like this soldier." Yuan Lang stood up and patted Xu Sanduo on the shoulder. It had been a long time since Xu Sanduo came to Old A for such an intimate gesture. "Thank you, thank you for liking me, it feels so good to be liked." Xu Sanduo: "Is that you?" Yuan Lang: "What happened ten years ago, I was younger than you at that time. The nurse who was about to be dragged out by Qi Huan to be killed fell in love with me because of guilt, and later became my wife, and still thinks her husband is a freak... Anyway, Things are unpredictable." Xu Sanduo: "No wonder. I know many soldiers. If the 353rd Regiment is afraid of pain, they will endure it." Yuan Lang: "If old A is still afraid of pain, will you bear it?" Xu Sanduo was stunned for a moment, but did not speak. Yuan Lang: "We have encountered your cecum now, right? Being a commander often makes me at a loss. I don't know whether to treat soldiers as a part of the whole, or as an individual. But how can there be a collective if you don't respect the individual, right? ?” Xu Sanduo: "Right." Yuan Lang: "So how to solve this cecum is up to you." Xu Sanduo: "Captain, I... want to be demobilized." He looked at the soldiers who were shooting at night, and sat down after saying these words, because all his courage had been exhausted. Yuan Lang was surprised, but also somewhat sympathetic: "I thought about a very bad result, but I never thought it would be this bad. I think you may ask to go back to the Three Five Three Regiment, yes, since you are questioning the meaning of soldiers, go back to Three Five What is the difference between Santuan and staying here?" He was silent, and Xu Sanduo was also silent. Demobilization, going home, returning to the place I have adapted to since I was a child, and there will be no more challenges and partings. I was always a poor soldier, unable to understand the honor of battle. Yuan Lang said to an old A in the shooting trench not far away: "Comrade lieutenant, bring your gun here." The soldier was a little baffled by the brave captain, but he jumped out without saying a word, and handed him the automatic rifle in his hand.Yuan Lang unloaded the magazine casually, looked at it, and threw the gun to Xu Sanduo from an extremely tricky angle, Xu Sanduo subconsciously caught it, and completed a ready-to-fire posture from the gun.Yuan Lang threw the magazine over again, Xu Sanduo moved his left hand lightly, the magazine had been loaded, and he subconsciously kept it in a ready position. Yuan Lang began to smile wryly from his heart: "Look at yourself, can you possibly return to the life of ordinary people?" Xu Sanduo hesitated for a moment, but quickly regained his original belief. He had paid a lot to become the old A from the common people, and he would definitely be able to become Xu Sanduo from the old A to the banyan tree. Yuan Lang looked at him seriously for a while and seemed to understand Xu Sanduo's heart: "Yes, you can. Then let me remind you, if I approve your demobilization, it may be the last time you touched a gun in your life just now." He still looked at Xu Sanduo until he saw a trace of compassion and reluctance in Xu Sanduo's eyes. Yuan Lang finally spoke again: "Well, that's it. Let's not jump to conclusions. How to remove the cecum is your freedom, but I will never forget to give you anesthesia." He threw an envelope over , "Your anesthetic. My salary for this month. One month off, you can go out and have a look as much as you like. Then come back and tell me, whether you decide to leave or stay, I will have no objection." Xu Sanduo: "It doesn't make sense." “不要对一件没做过的事说没有意义。好了，从现在起你已经自由了，没有什么约束你，再也没人管你了，你要对自己负责，或者……不负责。”袁朗说这话的时候站起身来，而且摆明了是打算扬长而去。 “队长？！”许三多要追上去，但袁朗坚定的眼神又让他立定不动了。 “去吧，你得一个人去。我们都希望你坚持，可是……坚持不坚持是你自个儿的事情。” 许三多捏着那个信封，看着袁朗在夜色下走远。 出去走走，去自己想去的地方。当一个从未单独行动过的人有了这个念头，它立刻变得如此急切。 许三多要离开的那天，才感觉离开是那么的陌生，似乎那不是他的决定。对着自己的铺位发了会怔，终于拽出野战包开始收拾自己的行李。齐桓和吴哲从身后进来，两个人有点怪怪地打量着他。许三多有些局促不安。齐桓沉默着将一套衣服扔给他，那是套便装，而且颇为时尚，不过这对许三多来说没什么区别，穿了这么些年军装，他哪还知道什么衣服叫做时尚呢。 “吴哲给你拿了套衣服，可能这个月你不想天天穿着军装。”齐桓看出许三多有些不自在，便解释道。 吴哲做了个鬼脸，笑着说道：“你穿着准比我好看，你小子其实是个好的衣服架子。说不定你这趟就能把女朋友给解决啦。” 许三多并不擅长去反应这种玩笑，他讷讷地把衣服放进包里。 齐桓对吴哲使个眼神，故意问：“你不换上呀？” “现在不想换……对不起，我觉得自个儿好像个逃兵。”许三多把头垂得更低了，他害怕自己会忍不住哭出来。吴哲很有信心地说道：“你放心吧，跑不了兔子你的！” 许三多忽然发现，他们其实就为了说一句话：“我们都等着你回来。” 齐桓忙不迭地翻着自己的东西，翻出什么就往许三多的行李里扣：“这是我的超级酷的游泳裤，结果咱们但凡下水，都是穿八一裤衩的！这是我的雷朋墨镜，借你！我的奥索卡包，借你！我的腰包，借你！哎呀，攒这么些年初夜权，全让你小子用了。对了，我的旅行手册，全国名山大川都划遍了，一直没空去，也借你！吴哲，你还有什么藏着掖着的，交出来！” “对了！”吴哲突然大叫道，“三儿总不能再蹬个作战靴吧？我那双锐步也便宜你了！”他兴高采烈地就要去拿，目瞪口呆的许三多终于醒过神来，拦住了吴哲。 他说：“喂喂，你们到底在干什么？” 齐桓一反以往的冷静：“干什么？你以为大家谁都能有一个月假出去晃荡吗？那不还把全体老A的好行头都凑齐了？免得你出去丢人！” “就是就是，你回来再还给我们不就得了！”吴哲终于推开许三多跑了出去，许三多不再阻挡，看着齐桓把作战包里的东西，一样一样地倒腾到他那个时髦的登山包里。 “都很贵的哦！你要知道我这包我这墨镜多少银子都能吓死你。” 拼命给我塞行头，并且标榜行头的价值，总穿着军装也有点遗憾，更重要的，他们怕我不回来，现在他们知道为了还这些东西我也得回来。 第二天一早，天还蒙蒙亮，许三多背着一大包奇形怪状的装备走出了宿舍区。他还是穿着那身自己已经熟悉可能今生也不愿舍弃的军装。 他站在基地的大门内，眼前是漫长的山路，已经无数次被他们跑过，可是无一例外地都是负重行军。 迈出大门的第一步很怪，许三多小心地用脚轻触了地面。 自由的味道。硬的，带着柏油和轮胎的味道，我可以想干什么就干什么，我可以想去哪儿就去哪儿。 哨兵奇怪地看着他，许三多一步三回头地走开。 山峦上的视野，空旷的山中公路上军车驶过。许三多站在山峦之上，呼吸着山野间的空气，并尽可能地让自己觉得神清气爽，他不时下意识看看自己身后的山路。 这座山一向是我们武装越野的终点，但我是第一次自己上来，我是说，自己想上来就上来。 他看远处，基地已经完全掩映在山峦间了，看不见。 他们为什么不来送我？Angry?他们知道我不会再回来，我承担不起我应该承担的东西。第一次是我走，而不是送人走，可是没人送我。 树林里轻微的脚步声，那是许三多等待的，他惊喜地回头，并没想他的伙伴未必能找到这里。 两名巡逻哨，警惕地看着他，完全像对一个外人：“这是军事禁区，请出示证件。” 许三多愕然地拿出证件，巡逻很仔细地看着，并且很注意他的那双吴哲的锐步旅游鞋和齐桓的登山包，那绝对不是军事的制式。 老A们在进行例行射击，那边核实的电话已经接到了这里，袁朗看着许三多所在的山峦方向，嘴角不自禁地有点笑意。 被放行的许三多怏怏在路边走着，他再不敢上山路了，以免再踩进禁区。一队正徒步回基地的兵诧异地看着他。许三多看起来很想把那双时尚的旅游鞋吃下去，再把头塞进那个民用背包里。 城市的边沿，车声与公路，建筑群，飞扬的尘土和喧嚣。许三多已经看见了车站。他再次地迷茫，这次是迷茫于售票厅。始发地，中转地，终至地……密密麻麻地翻动。 那双旅游鞋默默地站着，时稍息时立正，穿它的人找不到落点。 许三多茫然瞪着车牌。 我可以想干什么就干什么，想去哪就去哪……可是，我去哪？ 他彻底被那么多的选择淹没了。 许三多背着包站在大厅里熙熙攘攘的人流里，并且尽可能不让自己显得碍事。 大厅很大，但看来许三多在这里找不到放自己的地方。 播音室里响着列车进站与出站的广播，人们匆忙地走向刚停稳的那辆列车，这是一辆从某地驶往北京的慢车，途中有很多上下的人。 许三多在上车的人流里，除了自己的包还帮旁人提着一个大箱子。 我莫名其妙选择了驶往首都的慢车，当兵的对首都总有些莫名其妙的感情。班长复员时要求去看看天安门。连长说那里有块碑，上边能看见钢七连的五千个人。我们的防区也反复在说，我们在保卫首都。 许三多坐在人满为患的硬座车厢。 他被人看着，目光来自斜上方，一个没得座位只好站在他旁边的中年人。 那是一场长久的目光交锋，许三多时常将目光挪往窗外，但对方的毫不动摇堪比最坚强的士兵。许三多终于决定放弃，他站起身。 那边一屁股坐下，绝对的当做理所当然之事，然后掏出一包瓜子开磕，从现在起他绝对不再看许三多一眼。 许三多拎着自己的包与人错肩而过，挤进卫生间，关上门。他并不是要上厕所，而是站在这难得的空间里喘口气。 铁轨声的节奏有些变动，列车驶进了一条隧道。 瞬时间，他所处的这空间里成了绝对的黑暗。 许三多看着窗外，他又看见他杀死的那名毒贩，就站在那片黑暗里，目光里并无责难，依恋而安静地看着他，许三多也静静看着他。 Feel sorry.我要忘了你，我得继续生活。 隧道尽头刺入的阳光让一片黑暗粉碎了，瞬间这片空间被阳光充斥。 外边有人在敲门，许三多开始脱下军装。 然而，却再无人看他。 他已经不愿意再回到原来的位子上，他钻到车厢接口处，呆呆地和几个烟民一起站着，呆呆看着车外掠过的风景。 许三多忽然发现，这是第一次从车窗而不是闷罐子里看外边的风景，可是现在的他却不知道去哪。 车窗外的风景确实要好很多，可是终点没有战友，没有了任务也没有了目标。 许三多从厕所里出来，让旁人侧目，让我们这些一直看着他长大的人则有些喷饭。特种兵待遇不算低，当兵的人又没处花钱，吴哲齐桓之类还家境不错，给他的行头全足以领导一个中型城市的闲酷一族。 酷得没脾气的许三多无法迎对旁边人的目光，往车厢接缝挤着，一边为避人耳目地架上齐桓给的墨镜。站在车厢接缝的烟民中，一边尽可能少吸入烟气，一边迎对着所有人的目光。 现在看他的人更多了，许三多只好把目光看着窗外。他绝对意识不到在属于工农兵的硬座车厢里，他那身名牌还要名出反时尚来的包装比军装更为抢眼。 我已经跟你们一样了。为什么还看着我？