Chapter 12 Chapter Eleven

The lights were turned on in the group of the barracks, and the dinner of the Seventh Company began. This time the dinner was held on the side of the open-air parking lot, and several headlights were turned to this side for illumination, which added a bit of gold and steel to the dinner.The chief of staff Zhang Luo led the cooks and soldiers to bring up the dishes in steel food boxes one by one. There was nothing good about it, except that there was enough meat and wine, which was a full-fledged field army habit. Facing his first company soldiers, Gao Cheng held up the lunch box containing wine. Looking at them, the soldiers under the twilight looked a little depressed, because the Seventh Company had never suffered such a defeat, and Gao Cheng didn't know what to say.

"Brothers of Qilian!" Gao Cheng roared fiercely. "Here!" All the soldiers of the company responded in unison. "I thought I wouldn't know how to eat. What kind of food will I have if I lose a battle?" Gao Cheng said, "But the instructor said that if you lose a battle, you have to eat especially to boost morale." Hong Xingguo at the side felt that it was not good to say so, so he secretly stabbed him. "Then it will! But the morale of the Seventh Steel Company has been stretched for more than 50 years. Is the morale of the Seventh Steel Company still need to be boosted?"

"No need!" The whole company's soldiers seemed to be blown up. Hong Xingguo was happy, and nodded to Gao Cheng.Gao Cheng picked up the lunch box and continued: "So I propose, let's drink this first glass of wine for the defeat! We have to drink this glass of wine whether we can drink it or not, because we don't want to fight the defeat, but we have already fought!" Hong Xingguo tugged on his sleeve again, but Gao Cheng had already drenched his neck with juice, so Hong Xingguo had no choice but to drink it too. In an instant, there was the sound of drinking in the whole company.

"The second glass of wine is for victory. This one is only for those who are confident in winning the battle. For those who are not confident, rest!" He drank again, there was no one in the whole company who didn't drink, it was another burst of cattle drinking.It is said to be two glasses, but it is actually two lunch boxes. One lunch box is one bottle and one-third of it. After two sips of more than two bottles, many people have already started shaking.Hong Xingguo was the first to shake.Of course Gao Cheng also shook.Gao Cheng asked in his ear: "Instructor, I didn't say anything I shouldn't have said, did I?" Hong Xingguo shook his head and said, "...No...no." He picked up the lunch box without hesitation: "This third cup...the third cup, everyone clears the stomach, fills the stomach with something, and drinks what you can drink!"

Hundreds of hands stretched out on the dinner plates that had been lined up beside them, and the already suppressed troops suddenly broke out. Gao Cheng was holding the lunch box, his eyes were a little straight.In front of him is Shi Jin. Gao Cheng: "Squad leader three..." Shi Jin: "Huh?" Gao Cheng: "You are my best soldier. You son of a bitch...you are my best soldier...but your words don't count...you said you would take good care of your future...I have always believed in you... " Shi Jin: "Stop talking. After so many years, let me respect you, company commander."

Gao Cheng never refused anyone who came, and he was even more unscrupulous when he poured down a lunch box: "Why didn't you capture that prisoner? Xu Sanduo, what are you compared to your squad leader?" Xu Sanduo didn't want to drink or fight with others. He stared at several cases of beer in a daze. Sometimes he absent-mindedly poured wine for people who didn't have alcohol. He didn't understand what Gao Cheng was saying at all. When Gao Cheng said his name, he ran away. Come: "Report to the company commander, what's the matter?" Shi Jin turned his head and waved at Xu Sanduo: "It's okay... Company Commander, he's handsome, isn't he, today?"

Gao Cheng had a half-smile: "He's very handsome...but what do you do?" He was talking to himself, Shi Jin let him go, and turned to Xu Sanduo: "Xu Sanduo, you did a good job, it's meaningful." He has some special meaning, he winks his eyes. Xu Sanduo asked: "What is meaning?" Shi Jin was stunned, Xu Sanduo was frustrated and a little angry, as if he thought he had grown up but found that he was still treated as a child. If he believed it firmly in the past, now he doubts it. Shi Jin: "I said it can't be done right, you have to explain this kind of thing yourself."

Xu Sanduo: "I don't want to be sure, I just need an explanation." "I can't answer you." Wu Liuyi suddenly shouted from behind: "Xu Sanduo!" Before Xu Sanduo had time to turn around, he was shoved violently. "Because you throw everything to someone else! You don't care about anything! As if he should be alone for you! I hate you, you know? He takes care of you, takes care of you all! Why don't you ask him what he thinks now? Do you have a question? Ask him what is the matter now!" Wu Liuyi pushed one after another, Xu Sanduo didn't resist and couldn't think of resisting, only Wu Liuyi's eyes were burning with drunkenness and anger, and then changed After Shi Jin, he inserted himself between the two of them as a cushion: "Don't do this, Liu Yi...don't do this!"

Gao Cheng was still sitting, took a sip of wine, and didn't intend to stop this little dispute. Hong Xingguo was a little anxious: "Lao Qi, don't you care?" Gao Cheng ignored it: "A reasonable collision...is reasonable." "Company commander!" Someone called him from behind. Gao Cheng turned his head, and Cheng Cai was standing there with a lunch box of wine, which must have been brewing for a long time. Chengcai: "I offer you a drink." As he said that, Cheng Cai had already drank a lunch box. "Company commander, I want to transfer to another company." Cheng Cai spoke out what was in his heart.

Gao Cheng also drank a bowl, then smiled for no reason, sat down after laughing, thought for a long time before asking: "What do you want?" Cheng Cai told the company commander again, "I want to transfer Company, transfer to another company." Chengcai's voice was so loud that everyone around him heard it.Gao Cheng put down the lunch box and stood up.Silence can be contagious, from that corner to that group, to the entire drinking circle that was noisy just now, the whole circle fell silent, Wu Liuyi habitually pushed Xu Sanduo for the last time, and then the whole crowd fell silent.

Gao Cheng stood in front of Cheng Cai and looked at him from a very close distance: "Say it again." Chengcai: "I will go to another company. I have already contacted and did it behind your back. I bid you farewell, company commander." He, Gao Cheng, and everyone seemed to freeze, and Xu Sanduo shook his head sadly. turn aside. "Which company is there? Which company is better than the Seventh Steel Company?" Gao Cheng asked suspiciously. Cheng Cai shook his head and stood up, as if he hadn't said anything. What I feared had happened, I thought it was the worst of all, and was dazed. Only Xu Sanduo was not drunk. Seeing that they were almost done, he quietly left them, left the noise, and walked casually under the tree outside.Seeing that the steward was loading boxes of apples into the car, he walked over. "I'll help you." Xu Sanduo said. The steward said, "One more box is enough." Xu Sanduo said, "Where are you going? I want to walk with you." The Chief Secretary was happy when he heard that there was someone to accompany him, and said, "Don't you like the excitement?" Xu Sanduo said, "The main reason is that you don't like drinking." Go see old A." Xu Sanduo was stunned for a moment, then got into the car. The barracks of the special forces had been demolished to the end, and several helicopters were spinning their rotors in the open space. The Chief Secretary finally saw Yuan Lang who he was looking for, and he walked up, Yuan Lang saw that there was Xu Sanduo behind the person who called him, and asked with a smile: "Are you here too?" The chief said, "I am the chief of the seventh company, and the company commander asked me to bring you apples." Pointing to the barracks that were about to disappear, Yuan Lang said, "We are leaving now, should we be sympathetic?" Yuan Lang had to agree to accept it. Yuan Lang's laughter always made Xu Sanduo feel kind, and he was really nostalgic. "Are you leaving?" He asked Yuan Lang. Yuan Lang nodded affirmatively and said, "It's always been different. I don't know whether the next meal will be dan dan noodles or beef ramen." "Let's go." Xu Sanduo said. Yuan Lang was taken aback for a moment, not everyone could quickly accept Xu Sanduo's speaking style.Yuan Lang asked with some expectation: "Did you come to see me for something?" "I didn't come to you. If I knew I was here... I wouldn't have come." Yuan Lang smiled wryly: "I'm being self-indulgent. What's the matter? Aren't you guys having dinner together?" Xu Sanduo was stunned for a moment: "I don't fit in." "You are not withdrawn. It can be seen that you are trying very hard to get together with everyone. It is not your thing to suddenly run to a place where there are no comrades in arms." Xu Sanduo wanted to cry a little: "My friend is leaving Qilian, good friend. The one you shot to death!" Yuan Lang remained silent for a while, letting the guilt pass slowly, but he didn't intend to show it anymore, he had already said he was sorry. "There will be more people and things that leave you. And...if you can realize that they have left, they are all important to you." "No! I've tried so hard not to let them leave me!" "Does this have anything to do with your efforts?" "It does matter." There was full confidence and determination written on that face, which made Yuan Lang feel that saying one more sentence would be cruel.He had no choice but to pat Xu Sanduo on the shoulder. "I wish you everything you want." The special forces were really moving too fast, and they had basically boarded the plane at this time, which made Yuan Lang speak hastily: "I wanted to ask you for the last time, do you want to come to us, don't ask now Yes. Xu Sanduo, I'm leaving, you remember, life is meaningful for a person like you, and your dreams will always be waiting for you somewhere ahead." He made his way to the open back hatch of the helicopter, where he was now alone.Xu Sanduo looked at the man and the fully armed soldiers in the cabin, he was full of disappointment.He doesn't know what his dream is! The small fleet climbed into the sky and disappeared among the swirling leaves, as if it had never been here. The military column was heading back on the railway, and now the armored vehicles it was loaded with finally returned to the plains they were familiar with. Chengcai completely occupied a corner of the carriage by himself because no one wanted to stay in the same place with him.Even the seventh class he was in tried to forget his existence.Cheng Cai used a lunch box of Tsingtao beer that night to create a history of the Seventh Company, and he became the first soldier in the history of the Seventh Company to quit.The company commander gave him that box of wine, and it was impossible for him to keep a soldier who jumped ship.Just like when he came here, he looked out of the carriage alone, and outside the carriage was the mountain he pointed out to Xu Sanduo. Not long after returning to the company, Chengcai completed the formalities and was about to be transferred to Hongsan as a squad deputy, and would soon be transferred to a non-commissioned officer.The box of wine between him and the company commander was as good as a dagger, and it also wiped out the friendship between Chengcai and Qilian, leaving him no place to stay in Qilian. He really became the first soldier of the Seventh Steel Company to quit.Before leaving, Cheng Cai opened the backpack, and there were three cigarettes inside, namely Tashan, Honghe and Jianshe. Chengcai threw the Tashan on the table. "It's for everyone," he said. But no one responded.Cheng Cai didn't expect any reaction, so Xu Sanduo helped him carry the luggage and went out.When he got to the door, Chengcai turned around and saluted. Among all the people, only the squad leader returned the salute with a blank face. Xu Sanduo followed Chengcai through the playground, it was raining outside, there was not a single soldier on the playground, but almost all the soldiers were watching from the class dormitory, their eyes were like looking at a traitor.Cheng Cai gritted his teeth and walked silently. It's very simple, just pick up the daily necessities and go to another dormitory, but this has completely changed his life. The former sniper Chengcai will give full play to his talent in style after he reaches the third company. Chengcai told me that he is reluctant to bear the sniper rifle, but He also said that there is a price to pay for everything, and the price is definitely more expensive than you think.... They finally walked out of Gang Qilian's sight, Chengcai turned to look at Xu Sanduo: "Go back, you don't have to accompany me to suffer this... punishment". "I see you off." "You don't have to pity me." "I admire you! You know what you want, and you dare to want it!" Cheng Cai turned around furiously, and kicked the water in the puddle all over Xu Sanduo's body.Xu Sanduo didn't dodge or dodge. The proud Chengcai squatted on the ground and began to cry: "Do I know what I want?" Hong Sanlian is very active here.The instructor personally welcomed the talents into the dormitory: "This company is now undergoing a big change, and you will be the backbone in the future! We can absolutely trust your performance in the seventh company. In two months, the track and field competition in the division will point to you. What! There is Xu Sanduo, come back too, you belong to our company, aren't you a fellow with Chengcai? You two should join forces, Chengcai's sprint, your long-distance run, our company will shock the whole division!" Chengcai immediately stopped the instructor, saying: "He is the best soldier of the No. 7 Steel Company, and he will not come here." He Hongtao was silent, which was equivalent to saying that the No. 3 Company only accepts inferior goods.Xu Sanduo was also silent at the side, watching Chengcai arranging his things one by one, and seeing that they were almost arranged, he talked about Chengcai and said, "Chengcai, I'll go back first." Chengcai nodded silently, and said, "Xu Sanduo, you will come to see me often in the future." Xu Sanduo suddenly found that Chengcai's eyes were full of loneliness, and he knew that Chengcai actually didn't want to leave Qilian. Chengcai said: "Xu Sanduo, I only have you as a friend. I made so many people in the company, and in the end you were the only one who came to see me off." Xu Sanduo didn't know how to comfort him, so he said, "They are not like you that kind of." I suddenly understood why the monitor often sighed when he was talking to me. When Xu Sanduo was walking back lonely in the light rain, Shi Jin came out to look for him.The regiment ordered him to go to the division headquarters tomorrow for a night shooting demonstration.Without even thinking about it, Xu Sanduo asked, "Then when shall we leave?" Shi Jin said, "I'm not going, you're the only one." Xu Sanduo's eyes widened immediately, and he said, "Why don't you go? You taught me how to shoot at night!" Shi Jin was a little dazed, and even said that it was a little painful.Said: "I won't go... Naturally there is a reason not to let me go." Xu Sanduo was a little anxious: "Why?" Shi Jin smiled wryly, he was almost cornered by Xu Sanduo: "Xu Sanduo, why are you getting more and more?" Xu Sanduo asked seriously: "What are you thinking? What's the matter? Deputy Wu Ban said that I don't care about anything, and I never care about others. But you are different. If you have something, you have to tell me, just like you did to Deputy Wu. .I can take on things now, I work very hard, we are friends. You treat me as a child, and I treat you as your friend." Shi Jin looked up at the sky, allowing more rain to pour on his face, then looked at Xu Sanduo, and smiled: "You are really a bit...weird today. Is it sad that Chengcai left?" In fact, just like Wu As Liu Yi said, Xu Sanduo's world is very small, so small that he can only take care of his own emotions, and so small that Shi Jin can bring him back to his own emotions with a single sentence.Xu Sanduo quickly became frustrated. The machine-gun question just now was not so much out of concern, but out of anger. Shi Jin comforted him: "Let me tell you something, I have a good friend in the third grade of elementary school, we were at the same table, we have been at the same table, and then she left, I was very sad, I felt heartbroken, really, very Pain, unable to sleep for two days." Xu Sanduo listened attentively and sympathetically, almost rubbing his eyes: "What happened next?" "Then? Then it was gone. Oh, and then we were together again." Xu Sanduo breathed a sigh of relief, "That's good." Shi Jin suddenly had a mischievous expression: "Do you want to know where she went and where she came back from?" Xu Sanduo still said seriously: "I want to." "We adjusted the seats once a week, and she was transferred. After a month, she transferred back again, and we were at the same table again." Xu Sanduo: "Huh?" He laughed, and he stopped at the first laugh, knowing that the monitor was talking about him. Shi Jin smiled: "Is the distance from the third company to the seventh company the distance of the world? Even if you don't want to become a talent tomorrow, I mean just forget it - can it be done? Maybe someday you will share the same table again. People It always has to be divided, and the division will get farther and farther, but you are also growing, and your legs will grow longer and longer. One day, you feel that the distance from the south of the sky to the north of the earth is just the distance of lifting your legs." "Yes, yes," Xu Sanduo quickly cheered, "I'm so stupid." "It's a bit silly, you are all veterans." Xu Sanduo laughed softly and rubbed his eyes. "Veteran, can you go back to the Seventh Company? It's time to pack your backpack." He followed Shi Jin and took a step, and the two formed a row.Shi Jin tried his best to make a joke today, almost trying his best to make a joke: "By the way, that tablemate who has been separated from me for a full month is a girl." Xu Sanduo finally started laughing, because in the queue, laughing silently. Xu Sanduo did not intend to disobey the order, especially the order conveyed by Shi Jin.He got into a military off-road vehicle and reported for duty.In front of the off-road vehicle is the staff officer of the division, looking through Xu Sanduo's materials.But he was a little puzzled. He asked Xu Sanduo: "Your grades are impressive! Why haven't you been promoted to a non-commissioned officer yet?" Xu Sanduo: "I graduated from junior high school." "That's not the only yardstick." "The Seventh Company has a lot of good soldiers." The staff officer obviously didn't believe it: "Is there anyone better than you?" He was talking to himself, and Xu Sanduo didn't make any attempt to answer. Instead, he turned his face and saw a figure behind the car. He stared intently, but the car was gone. It's too far away. Xu Sanduo watched. The staff officer also turned his head and asked, "Who is it?" "Like my monitor," Xu Sanduo shook his head to himself, "No, he's back to the dormitory." This is a trivial matter that does not require a division staff to worry about. The staff nodded and closed Xu Sanduo's information: "Transfer to a non-commissioned officer, you are definitely qualified." The person Xu Sanduo saw was Shi Jin.He took one last look at the off-road vehicle and crossed the road.He still didn't have a raincoat on, and the rain, though not heavy, nearly drenched him.He went to the parking lot, perhaps because the road was too long and straight, his back looked a little stooped.When passing by the car yard, Wu Liuyi and a few soldiers were braving the rain to cover the chariot in the open air. Shi Jinben passed by and mechanically went up to help. Wu Liuyi sensed that he was wrong: "Why don't you wear a raincoat?" Shi Jin shook his head and walked away.He couldn't hide it now, depression and despair hit him, and he walked a little precariously in the wind and rain. Wu Liuyi immediately understood that what they were most worried about had happened, and chased after him with his raincoat: "An order?" Shi Jin murmured: "Soon...soon." Wu Liuyi wrapped Shi Jin in a raincoat and hugged him tightly. Gao Cheng smoked heavily in the dormitory, watching the rain on the window, he didn't even want to face Hong Xingguo who was talking.Hong Xingguo sighed: "Night has always been the strong point of the third squad leader, and it is customary for him to go. This time, the replacement only shows one problem. The order has arrived, and it is at the regiment headquarters." Gao Cheng hummed, meaning he knew. Hong Xingguo said softly, "He's a veteran...I'm sure he knows it too." Gao Cheng: "Yes." "Be prepared." "How to prepare? How to prepare?!" Faced with Gao Cheng's persecution, Hong Xingguo felt a little helpless: "Emotions, his emotions. He has worked so hard for so many years, and he has to make people walk away with a smile..." "How do you laugh? Smile for me! Smile!" "Old Seven!" Hong Xingguo got up and closed the half-covered door tightly. Gao Cheng's anger comes and vents quickly, because it is clear that the person in front of him is not the target of the attack: "It's not fair. I can replace him with anyone in the whole company, such as the most prominent Xu Sanduo..." Hong Xingguo: "I will keep Xu Sanduo, and any regiment officer will also choose Xu Sanduo." Gao Cheng stared at him: "You put on that fucking..." Hong Xingguo didn't wait for him to finish: "Come on. I'm just saying, think like a company commander, okay?" So Gao Cheng changed to staring out the window.It was still raining outside the window. The night rain drenched the faintly flickering lights in the distance, and the gunshots rang rhythmically at intervals. The people watching were all experts, and the commentary was extremely brief.Xu Sanduo was shooting. For him, it was as simple as breathing, and he only stopped occasionally to change the magazine or change a weapon. Shimmer shot. The lights were all off, Xu Sanduo put on a pair of low-light mirrors, and it was even difficult to find the target in the green field of vision. Xu Sanduo's shooting, reloading, shooting, changing weapons, shooting, frequency and daytime shooting were almost the same thing.There were more and more spectators at his firing position, officers who were far above him in rank. Officer: "Talk about your experience, Xu Sanduo." "It's just aiming and shooting." He knew that no one would be satisfied with such an answer, and added, "My squad leader is better than me, and we even have a sniper better than me... It turns out that our company of." Wang Qingrui interjected in the crowd. He has been one of the onlookers: "This soldier is modest. He eats the most grass with his head down. He thinks like a cow chewing its cud. To be honest, he is one of the few I have ever seen. A soldier who can think." The officers chuckled.Xu Sanduo stood expressionless, like any soldier would do. I really want to say no, soldiers are very good at thinking, and they are thinking while obeying orders.But I am a soldier, and soldiers should not express their thoughts in public. The officers move on to the next shooter.An officer patted Xu Sanduo on the shoulder, and it was the staff officer who picked him up: "Xu Sanduo, can you teach others?" Xu Sanduo: "Yes." Staff officer: "Let's stay and teach. One month." Xu Sanduo: "Obey the order." After obeying the order, he was deeply disappointed, and Wang Qingrui, who hadn't walked away from seeing that kind of loss, sighed.A month passed quickly... He suddenly became emotional for no reason, and sighed for no reason when he left. Division head Wang Qingrui is participating in a meeting held by more senior officials. The division commander is talking about a heavy topic: "We have been changing, and we have been touching our bones. From motorized to semi-mechanical, from semi-mechanical to mechanical, Now it is from machinery to information. In just two years, most of you here have gone through this process. Frankly speaking, it is not easy. The most difficult thing is that people leave and others stay. will always be with us." The teacher said categorically, what he said was the truth, so true that everyone thought about it, and brought up a related memory of this or that. Teacher: "Commander Wang! We hope to use 353 as a pilot unit." Wang Qingrui: "There is no responsibility... a side loan." He paused for a moment, and everyone knew what that pause meant. Teacher: "What's the problem?" Wang Qingrui: "You have already mentioned the biggest difficulty—people." A division commander and a regimental commander looked at each other, thinking exactly the same thing, the same mood. Teacher: "Can you overcome it?" Wang Qingrui: "It can be overcome." The division meeting has been held for a long time, many empty teacups were refilled with water, many cigarette butts were put out in ashtrays, and full ashtrays were replaced with empty ashtrays. This kind of meeting is really a painful process. Teacher: "Take care of them." Wang Qingrui: "I'm afraid they don't ask for care." He looked at the conference table as if looking at a specific person. The division commander needs the 353rd Regiment to come up with a preliminary plan for reorganizing the troops as soon as possible.Wang Qingrui sighed: "It's not a single person, it's not a group of people. It's the whole army, it will take time." Commander: "I hope my officers have the concept that what we lack most is time." Wang Qingrui closed his eyes and thought about it. In this small moment, a trace of pain passed between his brows: "One month." "One month, it needs to be specific to the person." "Of course it needs to be specific..." Wang Qingrui paused for at least five seconds, as if he was afraid of disturbing the next two words he was about to say - "to someone." At the same time that the division headquarters held this recall, Shi Jin embarked on the last stage of his military career.Gao Cheng asked him for the last time, what else could he ask for? Shi Jin seemed to be dreaming: "A request?" "To be specific, the job is implemented, the household registration... no longer wears a military uniform, and the reality must be considered." "Not really." "Say it." "There is a request." Shi Jin thought for a long time. Gao Cheng: "Say." Shi Jin: "It is always said that we are defending the capital, but I... have never seen Tiananmen Square." The muscles on Gao Cheng's face twitched uglyly, as if he wanted to cry, but also as if he wanted to laugh.After a while, he went out quietly without saying a word. Gao Cheng sat stiffly in the driver's seat of the jeep, waiting for Shi Jin to get in the car. When Shi Jin got into the car, the activities outside the entire dormitory grounds were at a standstill, and that was a completely open secret. Gao Cheng drove the car.The camo-painted, camouflage-netting Jeep is an outlier in city traffic, and it's lost its way and run over a parking strip.Gao Cheng was negotiating with the traffic police at the intersection, saying frequently, interspersed with salutes.Shi Jin watched the city lights come on in the car, and he had the excited eyes of a child.Gao Cheng finally got it done, and came back angrily: "I grew up here, but I can never understand the traffic regulations here!" Shi Jin: "It's so beautiful." Everything that people have long been used to or even hated is similar to heaven in his eyes. Gao Cheng: "Every time I go home, I can't wait to call for an airdrop! Helicopter brigade, call for backup! The second ring road is blocked again!" Shi Jin: "I really should ask Sanduo and Liu Yi to come and see it." Under the same sky, Xu Sanduo was correcting the posture of a shooter.He seemed to be able to hear someone calling him, looking at the blue sky.No rain and stars tonight. Gao Cheng and Shi Jin were nearing the end of their journey, Gao Cheng merged the car into the slow lane so that Shi Jin could see everything around him clearly. After watching Shi Jin for a while, he was not only watching, crying, but he was still watching. No matter how slow the car was, there was a limit. own wish. A pack of tissues was handed over, and Gao Cheng tried not to look at him. Shi Jin: "My squad leader said, don't wipe your tears when you have tears. If you let it dry, no one will be able to see it." He smiled, "It's called natural drying." A month flies by, really flies! Wang Qingrui's car stopped in front of the division's office building. He still sat in the car and flipped through a document in his hand.The driver didn't want to disturb him and turned off the car gently.Realizing something, Wang Qingrui closed the material and stuffed it back into the thick kraft paper file bag.It was a reorganization plan for the 353rd Regiment, and it was agreed at the division meeting that it had to be submitted this month.Wang Qingrui got out of the car and entered the division headquarters, slowly and heavily, suddenly looking a bit like an old man. When he came out from the division headquarters again, he no longer had the document in his hand, and he was still in a bad mood.When he got into the car, he found Xu Sanduo, who was waiting with his simple luggage.Wang Qingrui put a hand on the steering wheel and honk the horn. For Xu Sanduo who suddenly saw a member of the group, it was a real surprise, even if he was the group leader.he came running. Xu Sanduo: "Hello, head." Wang Qingrui smiled but said, "Fortunately, you only teach for one month, and I'm tired of taking calls to praise you." Xu Sanduo: "I'm sorry." Of course, Wang Qingrui didn't want to blame the teacher for this matter: "What are you doing?" "It's all right here, I'm waiting for the car to go back." "Tomorrow I will have a car to go to 353." "Then I'll try my luck." Wang Qingrui smiled wryly, because someone would be so stupid as to wait for a car that would leave tomorrow: "You are lucky, there is a car leaving." Xu Sanduo immediately looked around: "Which one?" Wang Qingrui: "This one." Xu Sanduo remained silent, sharing the car with the head of the regiment, and without thinking about him, he became heavy. Wang Qingrui: "Would you rather spend another day?...I also want to have a talking partner along the way." He found that this was not very useful to this person, so he quickly changed his tone: "Get in the car, this is an order .” Xu Sanduo got into the car and huddled with his luggage in a corner of the back seat. The car is driving, the wheels are turning, and the thoughts of the people in the car are also turning.He said he wanted to talk to someone, but he found a guy who sat upright and said nothing, so Wang Qingrui had no choice but to talk to him. "Xu Sanduo, are you still memorizing technical information?" "I won't recite it. That's silly...and, there are many more useful things...to do." He wasn't quite sure if it was right or wrong, maybe he should swallow it whole and recite it. "Then what?" "Reading... Our library catalog goes from A to Z, I just saw D... I don't have time." The driver gritted his teeth happily, but Wang Qingrui couldn't tell whether he agreed or disagreed: "Is this how you read? From A to Z?" "I don't know how to look... I'm uneducated." He was ready to receive criticism, but Wang Qingrui stopped talking and tapped the car window lightly with one finger for a while: "How about Gang Qilian, Xu Sanduo?" "I'm trying." "It's not to check your performance, but to ask how you feel." "it is good." "How is it?" "Good is good, just... very good." Wang Qingrui was a little dazed looking out the car window. He understood that simple word, especially when it came from a soldier: "What if it's gone?" "How could it be gone?" "I'm making an analogy." "Why is it gone?" Wang Qingrui: "What if..." He saw Xu Sanduo from the side mirror inside the car, who was really worried, and he laughed, "It's just a joke." Xu Sanduo nodded and smiled mechanically.Wang Qingrui sighed secretly: "You know what? I was looking forward to changing to a new type of main battle tank before, but now I really want to change it, and I am afraid. Because the old tank has a crew of four, and the new tank automatically reloads. Three people. Do you understand?" Xu Sanduo: "Understood. Because one of the three must go." He was almost rejoicing—fortunately, the Seventh Company was an infantry chariot. Wang Qingrui: "Have you ever been separated from your comrades in arms? Xu Sanduo." "Yes, I have." "Can you stand it?" "Hold on." Hearing what Xu Sanduo said, Wang Qingrui felt a little better.But Xu Sanduo continued: "It's now. I've been separated from them for a month. Fortunately, I made it through, and I'll go back." Wang Qingrui's mood was uncontrollably sent to another trough by him.Obviously, he has a very heavy heart, but he can't tell Xu Sanduo for a while.That is the "secret" he just held. After Xu Sanduo got off the car at the regiment headquarters compound, he stood by the side of the road and watched the car that brought him back drive away.Wang Qingrui in the car stared straight ahead, seeming to be thinking and thinking. I seem to be depressed again.I'm often depressingly ignorant. Going home is more important than the mood of the captain. After the procedure of seeing off, Xu Sanduo took his things and went to his company, walking almost briskly. Reassuringly, everything in the Seventh Company has not changed. There is only one soldier on duty on the activity field outside the dormitory.Xu Sanduo watched and walked by, smiled, saluted, and went home.The soldier on duty looked hesitantly at the back of the figure walking into the corridor. No one in the dormitory, this is normal, training.Xu Sanduo returned everything in the luggage to its proper place. The book he was reading was placed on the table, the book to be read was placed in the cabinet, the water glass was placed on the cabinet, the backpack was placed in the row on the wall, and the bedding was returned to the wall. Everything was familiar. make him happy. Then look up, the upper bunk is an empty plank, and Shi Jin is the upper bunk.Xu Sanduo stretched out his hand, as if he wanted to prove that he had a visual problem.The planks were wooden, rough, and hideously empty.Then he turned around, and there was something he had overlooked from his vision just now: a camouflage bag that was packed and was about to be carried away. The soldier on duty from the seventh company was still poking in the open space, and he glanced absently at the windows of the third class dormitory.The window suddenly opened, and it was said that the opening was not appropriate, and it was more like a smash in terms of strength.Xu Sanduo yelled at him angrily: "Where's the man?!" The soldier on duty wanted to say something, but seemed to be choked up. Xu Sanduo crossed the regiment headquarters compound at a frantic speed. His military appearance and military appearance had long since been thrown into the sky. He broke up a queue, jumped over a flower bed, and violated strict regulations along the way.Two soldiers from the guard company chased after him, but they were finally overwhelmed by his speed, so they had to stop and write down his unit number. The target is the car park. When rushing into the parking lot, he almost collided with an armored car that was driving out. Xu Sanduo jumped through the gap between the door and the car, and disappeared amidst the shouts of "Don't die". Shi Jin is cleaning the car in the garage, his movements are quite different from usual, the usual maintenance is extremely efficient, but now it is slow and gentle, such a speed has no practical value at all. The entire company team was looking at him, saying that it was inappropriate, more like a long staring salute. Gao Cheng poked, feeling very low and in no mood to speak.It was another ceremony, just like there was a ceremony for entering the Seventh Company, there was also a ceremony for leaving the Seventh Company. Gao Cheng: "Today, the 4811th soldier of the Seventh Steel Company will leave us and be honorably demobilized. 4811 is a number he kept in mind, and what is kept in our hearts is A name, Shi Jin, the squad leader of Class 3 in a row..." He was a little bit speechless, choked, and simply walked to the side of the line to light a cigarette for himself. rules.Hong Xingguo stared at him, his eyes full of reproach. Gao Cheng just smoked heavily, watching Shi Jin who was alone cleaning the car, and a group of people watching a life is very difficult, it was like a punishment for both parties.Gao Cheng hated today's ceremony, even though the ceremony was decided by himself. Gao Cheng threw away the cigarette he had just lit, and continued to face the rules he set: "I have no right to judge the third squad leader, he has always done better than me, and I believe his life has just begun...after being demobilized... " He stopped again and looked at Hong Xingguo with an expression like he wanted to slap himself.Hong Xingguo smiled encouragingly, an ugly smile. "Like every time, let someone who is familiar with the third squad leader evaluate him. Let the people of the seventh company evaluate the 4811th member of the seventh company." He ended like this, with a strong tone Some were anticlimactic, and then hastily stood back beside Hong Xingguo. Qilian was silent, and Gaocheng's panic infected them. Of course, they knew why the company commander, who was always eloquent, was flustered. Shi Jin was still wiping the car, and had already wiped the back of the car, obscuring everyone's sight.It seemed as if the whole company didn't exist for him, as if the tank was the only thing he could hold on to. silence!There was a long silence. "Okay!" was Wu Liuyi's voice. He didn't say "Okay" or even yelled it out. He seemed to dig it out bloody from somewhere in his heart, and then screamed out in pain. The sound echoed in the parking lot. The sound made everyone's heart tighten, as if they could hear the sound of blood dripping on the ground. "Good!" is the voice of Quan Lian. This "good" is not an evaluation, but a shared mood, but the pronunciation of the word is borrowed. "Not good!" This time it was a person, with a crying voice coming in from behind Quan Lian.Xu Sanduo stood behind the queue. Soldiers are used to stretching every joint of his body, but now he has collapsed every joint. Anyone who sees him at the first sight will know that this person has completely collapsed. "Not good, not good at all!" He took two steps forward, squatted down, and cried. Hong Xingguo didn't speak.Gao Cheng's clenched teeth suddenly loosened, and he rubbed his hands hard twice.Shi Jin stood up from the back of the car, his face was blocked by the body of the car, he stood stiff for a while, then walked out from the back of the car, staring at Xu Sanduo in a daze, if he was standing up just like everyone else, then now Xu Sanduo has already With this fuse lit, he was on the verge of collapse. Standing silently, and returning to the dormitory silently, the dormitory of the third class became a mess in an instant.It was even worse than when Xu Sanduo did three, three, and three big loops. The guy who caused the trouble was still Xu Sanduo. It was almost snatching on top of him. 大家七嘴八舌地劝着他，许三多低着头攒着劲，给的是从牙缝里蹦的两字：“滚蛋！” 高城阴着脸在看，洪兴国苦着脸在看，史今扭了头对着墙根看，伍六一大马金刀地坐着，对着窗外看。 “再上几个。”高城冰寒彻骨，被他看到的兵不得不上，再上几个，已经拖得许三多在屋里转了小半个圈，许三多见势不妙，把背带在手上狠缠了几圈，看来要拿回包得把他手剁了。 “我的兵今天这么废物？”几个三心二意的兵被高城说得寒了一下，手上加劲，许三多被架了起来，绕在手上的背包带一点点解开。 “滚蛋！”许三多终于动了手，第一次为了私人目的动手，成功之际，一头伴之一脚，白铁军摔过半间屋子，嚷嚷着从地上爬起来：“伍班副，你上啊！”伍六一看着窗外的天空，如在另一个世界。甘小宁给了白铁军一脚，白铁军意识到问题之所在，红着眼圈又照许三多扑。三班开上了全武行，许三多挣脱了人群，抢住了屋角，发挥着他一向强项的近身格斗。三班的兵擦着汗擦着眼泪，心猿意马地光打雷不下雨，那架势看来是一下午也抢不进去。 高城的脸色越来越难看：“通知保卫科！我无法用军纪要求他了。他现在不是兵。” 洪兴国吓了一跳：“影响不好吧。他一向是个好兵，他……” 高城有了些许的落寞：“七连的心就要散了……” 洪兴国犹豫一下，走向门口，他知道那是实情。他被史今的一只手拦住了。 史今过去，看着许三多，后者涨红着脸，除了愤怒和一个誓死捍卫的莫名之物什么也意识不到，只是摆个攻守兼备的架子，如头护窝的豪猪。两个人对视，许三多喘着大气，眼睛被揉得又红又肿，史今看起来很平静，平静得有些冷淡，这也许归功于他的自然干练：“还给我。三多……看看你成了什么样子。” 许三多真的已经不是一个兵了，他冲着史今——自己的班长喊道：“滚蛋！” “是啊，你班长本来就是要滚蛋。” 许三多被他一句话就搞得眼泪又要出来，大敌当前随便擦了把就呆呆地看着，甘小宁瞧出了空子，想趁机动手，被一眼瞪了回去。 史今苦笑：“你是都学会了。好吧，你要死守个什么谁也拿不下来，这我信，哪怕拿反坦克炮轰你，你也能守住……守住那个破包。看着你现在的样子，总想起你在下榕树的样子。” 许三多有些狐疑，此时不太像个叙旧的时候，但史今总是让他觉得放松。 “我都记得。像只被骂晕的小狗，总找不着昨天埋的骨头，还总在找。”史今忧伤地笑笑，许三多满足地笑笑，恨不得摇摇并不存在的尾巴。 “未经许可，把你练成今天这样……也不知能不能让你更幸福。” “是好事。”放松的许三多竟然忘了大敌当前。 “希望是好事。……三多？从下榕树到今天这样，因为必须得这样。现在要走，因为必须得走。三多，穿这身军装的人，选择了这种生活，既然到了要走的时候，爬都能爬回家乡。你说，一个破包挡得住吗？” 许三多怔着，刚燃起的希望一点点灭掉，而且比原来在一个更低点，被打击得失去了所有的斗志。史今硬着心肠瞪进他的眼睛里，看着他眼里出现与其年龄极不相称的哀伤。 “骗我！总拿我当笨蛋！骗我好好活，骗我有意义！有什么意义？我又做错了！把你都挤走了，就这个意义……我不想做尖子，做尖子好累……人都走光了，夸你的人越来越多，想跟你说话的人越来越少……我想做傻子……大家都跟傻子说话……傻子不怕人走……他不伤心……”前半截许三多在站着嚷嚷，后半截许三多坐倒了嘟囔，几个兵轻手轻脚地从他手上拿开了包，那没有必要，许三多无知无觉。 史今蹲下来看着那双空洞的眼睛，空洞但似乎有流不完的泪水。“三多，别再把想头放在别人身上。你这样的人，自己心里就开着花。班长走了，帮你割了心里头最后一把草。该长大了，许三多。”他站了起来，看着屋里的人，忧伤得有点茫然。 高城扶着史今的肩，大步从楼道上走着，身边有洪兴国、伍六一、甘小宁和三班的几个人，没许三多。 高城冷冷的但很平静，他竭力表现这样的气质——他瞧不起儿女情长。 高城：“来个干脆。我开车送……还有伍班副，你们都回。” 洪兴国：“连长，我去告诉许三多班长要走了，让他……” 高城：“不用！为什么让那个惊天动地的多情种子去送？我要他长个记性。至于长什么记性，我希望在全连的公开检讨上听他给我一个答案。”他转向史今，立刻缓和许多，“对不起，三班长。” 史今：“该不该说都说尽了。长远考虑也该这样，连长。” 高城点点头，生硬地向其他人说：“都回吧。”就他和史今、伍六一出了过道，洪兴国茫然地看着，甘小宁张了张嘴，没有出声。 然后他们茫然看着三班的门，那是他们不忍进去的一个地方。 门外已经响起汽车的发动声。 三个人沉闷地坐在车里，眼都和驾车的高城望着一个方向——路的前方。高城也许是觉得过于沉闷，也许是过于忧伤，拿出盘磁带塞进汽车音响里，是他偏爱的老苏联军歌，顿时有些雄壮，雄壮了十多秒钟，然后……老爷车上的卡式录音机卡带了，好好一盘带卡得像哭。高城一拳把那盘带给砸了出来，然后竭力像什么也没发生过一样，开他的车。 史今拿过那盘带子，细细地把卷得不成样的磁带复位，卷好，放回磁带盒。 火车拥挤的硬座车厢内，史今窝在脏污的洗手间里大声地啜泣，自然干终于也有个限度。他再一次擦干了眼泪，但看着窗外，又再一次大声地啜泣。 他忽然停了。看着窗外，大片的田野、原野和山峦被夕阳铺成个辉煌的世界，农人在归家，道工在望闲，护栏外的车毫无目的地对火车摁着喇叭，中年男人试图看见前边骑车女孩的裙下，菜老板追着黄脸婆试图从她篮子里拿回一个地瓜。 史今看着，似乎第一次看见这一切。他脸上渐带了点笑意，忽然看见一个穿军装时未曾见过的世界。 三班的士兵正在宿舍里沉默地收拾方才的战场。 屋角还站着那个人，或者说戳着那根人桩子，沮丧的、哀伤的、麻木的，但站得笔直，直得不近人情。 洪兴国再次地进来看了看：“还没动过吗？” 甘小宁摇摇头。 “也没说过话？” 白铁军耸耸肩。 洪兴国叹口气想走，转过身子又转了回来，走到许三多身边看着他。如果没有刚才的全武行，现在的许三多也许会让人误会成坚毅地、不屈地、纹丝不动地守卫着那个……放痰盂的角落。 “出去走走吧？透透气，别老想着。” 许三多直直地看着前方：“是，指导员。” 白铁军陪着许三多站在空地的一个角落，放垃圾桶的角落，仿佛是纹丝不动地被人从那个角落搬到这个角落。 士兵们在周围出入，绕着他出入，士兵们在周围活动，绕着他活动。 白铁军绕着圈，呻着吟，叹着气，给自己打着拍子，跑腔拉调地唱是个兵就会唱的《我的老班长》，边唱边注意着许三多的表情。 许三多没表情，连真正的奚落都不在乎，此时此地，他怎会在意一个同班战友并非恶意的人来疯，或者说，表示自己很放得下的一种伤心。 车回来了，高城和伍六一两个人下了车，当然只有两个人，少了一个。 许三多的眼睛终于动了动，看着高城。高城完全能感受到那道目光，他把那当做虚无，径直进门，许三多看着他。 白铁军努力地想让许三多正常：“想K他吗？我也想K他。我数一二三，我们扑上去……一二三。” 许三多没扑，他自然更没扑。 白铁军：“你没扑？你这么笨的人都没扑？没扑就对啦。知道为什么吗？因为他还不赖，真的很不赖，虽说是不大待见我，这是他全部的问题之所在。” 许三多仍看着，一直看到高城和伍六一的身影在过道口消失。 没想K他，是想杀了他。后来他从操场走进宿舍，我想了十七八个比死更狠的办法。最狠的是让他失去他的钢七连，让他像我这样站在操场上，尽管周围都是人，但他是孤零零的，一个人。 熟悉的夜又一次无声无息地来到七连，只是熟悉的夜中少了一个熟悉的人，高城正在主持着一个会议，全连的班排干部都在这了，伍六一没有列席，因为他只是一个班副。可是许三多却出现在这个会议上，只不过他被人从操场的角落又原封不动地移到了这个房间的屋角。 许三多执著的无声，使这个有关他的检讨会无法进行下去，洪兴国看着许三多仍然哀恸的眼睛，只好把他拉了出去。 就着过道里有些昏暗的灯光，可以看到许三多笔直地戳着，好像他从来没有移动过，仅仅只是周围景色的改变。洪兴国思索着，尽量找一些不刺激许三多的词语：“许三多，进了这家门，做了这家人。我们不如你班长，我们势利，等你转了三百多个圈才认同你，可是……你现在这样，连长只会认为你还是半个兵……” 许三多的无言使这场对话无法继续，洪兴国只有苦笑：“算了你先回去吧，顺便你搬到上铺，过几天要来新兵。” 对士兵来说，这是个明确的信号，许三多惊讶地看了一眼。 “对，你是代理班长。伍班副已经通知了。” 于是许三多回寝室的步子越发沉重。 伍六一站在窗边，看着外边的夜色，这已经成了他最近的一个习惯。许三多进来，他便看着许三多。许三多将目光转开，毫不避讳地看着他的上铺，这也就带得别人也毫无避讳地看着那张上铺。 空的铺板，空得只能让人想起上边睡过的那个人。 三班的人沉默了很久。 许三多走开，随便地拿起一本书。 伍六一转开头，看着似乎独属于他的夜色。 许三多仍睡在他的下铺，月光照着，他望着他上边的那块铺板。 这样就能造成一种假象，上边睡着一个人。这样就能睡得着。这样，三班就集体违抗了命令。 以后的两天里，三班的士兵们都会不经意地呆呆地注视着那张空空的铺板。 洪兴国的到来破坏了这种习惯，大家的目光集中在了他带来的年轻士兵身上。 “我给大家介绍一下，”洪兴国指着这个年轻的士兵，“这是从电子战营调来的马小帅，学员兵，当然也是高才生。三班长！” 许三多下意识地在屋里寻找着三班长，伍六一捅了他一下，他才意识过来自己就是三班长。 三班长？我被称为三班长？也许三班长将是我最不愿意听到的称呼了，比龟儿子还不愿意。 马小帅马上给许三多敬礼。 许三多直愣愣地看着这个新兵，那么年青，年青得让人忧伤。曾经他茫然，史今走了他忧伤，忧伤了很久后，眼里的忧伤已经成了苍凉。 “这是你专用的储物柜，”伍六一对新来的马小帅交代着有关的内务情况，“只允许放军装内衣和漱洗用具，和一些相关专业的书籍，十一号挂钩是你的，军装军帽和武装带可以挂在上边，我们要求不管型号大小，必须挂得一般齐，我们相信良好的内务是能够锻炼军人的素质……你的铺是……”他犹豫了一下。 许三多抱起了自己的整套卧具，最后看了一眼那张空铺板。“马小帅，你睡这张床，我的下铺。方便互相照顾。”然后把自己的卧具放在史今曾经的铺上。 于是班长在这个班的最后一点痕迹消失了。我想今晚会睡不着。 This was the end of an era for class three, so the last trace of Shi Jin in this class also disappeared. 许三多整理着那张铺位，宿舍里的其他人都僵硬地站着。这对三班来说是一个时代的终结。 夜里，三班都在睡。马小帅听着上铺传来的轻微声音。 马小帅：“班长你睡不着？” 许三多：“没。” 马小帅：“我倒睡不着。” 许三多：“想来七连的人很多，来了七连又会很累。想想想来来不了的人，珍惜你自己的累。” 他忽然有些茫然，自己的话如此耳熟。 马小帅：“你一定经历过很多事。” 许三多：“没有，睡吧。”他瞪眼看着头上的天花板。 忽然发现睡着其实很简单，只要对自己说——我命令你睡。 早晨的操场上许三多在跑步，背着全套的负荷，作为三班的领队。 有节奏的口令声和军号声在操场上响着。 我命令你起床。 于是他终于成为一个独立而忧伤的，有思念却离理想很远的人类。