Chapter 40 Tamura's tragedy

Tian Cun stayed in the General Hospital of the Military Region for a long time, but his eyesight still hadn't recovered, and everything he saw was a blurred shadow.His current appearance is obviously not suitable for working in the grassroots army, so he became a non-staff cadre.At this time, what he thought of was not his own injury and the situation, but the sadness of losing Shi Lan. In the first days, he kept holding Shi Lan's portrait, sitting in a daze, neither crying nor laughing, as if the world had disappeared from him. At Shi Lan's memorial service, he also held Shi Lan's urn and remained motionless, as if Shi Lan would slip out of his arms if he moved.

Standing in front of him, Yang Peipei said with tears in her eyes, "My child, if you want to cry, just cry. If you don't cry, you will be suffocated." He didn't cry, and even managed a weird smile at his mother.Seeing his appearance, his mother couldn't help crying again. Tian Liao looked at his son in front of him deeply, and said in a low voice: Son, raise your head up for me. Tamura looked up at his father, but his eyes were blurred. The father said again: Shi Lan is a soldier, she died on the front line of firefighting, you should be proud of her, didn't you always dream of becoming a hero?

Father can only enlighten him in this way. Shi Lan's father also walked in front of him, took the urn from his arms, held it in his arms, and murmured: "Xiao Lan, let Dad hug you again."Dad was busy when I was young, so I didn't hug you a few times, this time you let Dad give you a good hug. Old Shi endured resolutely, not letting his tears roll out.He patted his daughter in his arms and said: Xiao Lan, this is the most glorious ending for a soldier. Who made you a soldier? Dad has been a soldier all his life, but his destination as a soldier is not perfect. A veteran has come to see you off...

Old Shi's tears finally fell heavily. After handing the urn to Tian Cun, he raised his right hand and slowly saluted his daughter as a military salute. The words of relatives echoed in Tamura's ears over and over again. These words should have been addressed to him. He always wanted to be a hero, even a martyr, but fate did not fulfill him. At the place where Shi Lan died, he repeatedly measured it with his feet. On the right side of the place where Shi Lan fell, there was a fire ditch with a distance of more than 20 meters. Run to the fire ditch to save your own life.But Shi Lan still chose to rush forward together with the wounded. Maybe she couldn't carry the wounded when she got here, so she used her body to protect the wounded, and was finally suffocated by the thick smoke.

Afterwards, Tian Cun always felt that Shi Lan was more like a soldier than himself. He admired her in his heart and was also jealous of her. Tian Cun has been thinking that if the fate of Shi Lan and him can repeat itself, he will replace her as a martyr without hesitation.But he did not become a martyr, but let himself lose the vision of both eyes, and it is impossible to see the light through cornea replacement.He cannot return to his beloved company until his eyesight is restored.Days like this made him depressed, and he even felt that life would be worse than death. Not long after Shi Lan died, the disarmament began. Tian Liaoshen and Yang Peipei retired, and Master Liu also retired.They were all announced early retirement.

After retirement, the two elderly people had nothing to do, and they were idle at home all of a sudden. Tamura felt empty, and he wanted to cry when he saw his parents doing nothing.He felt that his parents needed comfort more than he did. He didn't know how they would live after he left them and this home.If he lived beside them, their lives might have more content and color. At least he could find a job in the army within his ability.So he said to his parents: I want to leave the Thirteenth Division and transfer to your side. Yang Peipei looked at him in surprise, and said in surprise: Really?Son, is what you said true?

After hearing Tian Cun's words, the muscles on Tian Liaochen's face twitched imperceptibly. His heart was very complicated. On the one hand, he hoped that the child would not live in his shadow and go as far away as possible; I want my child to stay with me and bring me some comfort.If he hadn't retired, he would never have allowed Tamura to be transferred under his nose, otherwise others would gossip and it would be bad for the child's growth. Now that he has retired, he will no longer obstruct Tamura's transfer. Yang Peipei burst into tears, hugged Tian Cun and said: If you had agreed to leave the Thirteenth Division, Shi Lan would not have...

She wanted to continue, but was stopped by Tian Liaochen, who said loudly: "Shut up, other people's children are not children anymore?"When the country needs our children to rush forward, we must rush forward without hesitation. How can you, a soldier, say such a thing? Yang Peipei didn't dare to continue, so she quickly changed the topic: "Okay, as long as you agree to come back."There are policies in the organization. We only have you as a child. Now that you are injured like this, it is easier to see a doctor when you are transferred to the army.The organization will take care of it.

Soon, Tamura was transferred to the Thirteenth Division, and he was appointed as the company commander of the guard company of the military organization.But he has no way to go to work. This is just a kind of care for him under the current situation. Tian Cun was about to leave the Thirteenth Division. Before he left, he called Liu Dong to his dormitory. He wanted to have a good chat with Liu Dong.Among the soldiers of the same year, only the two of them were left in the Thirteenth Division. Liu Dong looked at Tian Cun. His feelings at this moment were very complicated. Over the years, from enlisting in the army to now, they have never been separated, and they have walked over with kindness and resentment all the way.If Tamura hadn't risked his life to rescue him from the sea of ​​fire, he might have died in that mountain fire long ago.He suddenly felt very ashamed of Tamura. Tamura was about to be transferred, and he wanted to say something to him.

Tamura seemed to guess what he was thinking, and immediately said: Don't mention the fire, and don't mention my eyes, I would do the same thing if it were someone else.I am performing my duties as a soldier, so don’t feel uneasy. I should be the one who is uneasy. If you didn’t donate blood to me back then, I might not be alive today.Now we're even. Liu Dong was taken aback for a moment, then nodded. Tian Cun smiled at Liu Dong and said: I'm leaving, let's talk about something else. Liu Dong said: Tamura, I always thought that your life was better than mine, and you walked ahead of me every step of the way.

Tian Cun was stunned for a moment when he heard Liu Dong's words. He had never compared himself with Liu Dong in all these years. Hearing what he said, he hurriedly asked: What about now? Liu Dong lowered his head and murmured: I think you have gains and losses. Tamura understands what Liu Dong said about gains and losses. Tian Cun looked directly at Liu Dong and said: I didn't want to mention Shi Lan at this time, but I must say it now. After speaking, he reached out and took out a bottle of wine from under the bed, bit off the bottle cap with his mouth, and poured it into the glass in front of him.After taking a sip, he pushed the cup to Liu Dong, but Liu Dong didn't take it. Tamura went on to say: I know you liked Shi Lan back then, but I never regretted it after I married her. She is not suitable for you, and you are not suitable for her either. Liu Dong picked up the glass and took a sip of the wine: I know this, but in the end I chose to give up. Tamura drank a few more sips of wine and said, "It's useless if you don't give up. From enlisting in the army to now, you have always regarded me as an opponent." Liu Dong wanted to stop him from continuing, but Tamura waved his hand: "Listen to me, you envy me and hate me, I know that; but I know it myself, since I joined the army until now, I haven't asked my family to help me what.On the contrary, my father helped you when you were promoted, and he recommended you to the Thirteenth Division. Liu Dong opened his eyes wide in surprise, and murmured: I have nothing to do with your father, is it because of the last time I donated blood for you?But everyone from the whole company came that day, and whoever had the turn would donate blood for you. Tamura shook his head: I don't know exactly why, maybe my father discovered that you are a talent. Liu Dong shook his head in puzzlement. Tamura went on to say: I told you this today not to ask you to thank my father or me. I didn't know it at the time, but it was Mr. Liu and your father-in-law who said it by accident afterwards. I only knew about it. Liu Dong took a sip of wine, opened his eyes and looked at Tamura. He didn't know what else Tamura would say. Tamura smiled: Let's not talk about this, let's talk about something else. At this moment, Liu Dong suddenly thought of Su Xiaoxiao from Xiematun. He didn't understand why Su Xiaoxiao was so infatuated with Tiancun, why Tiancun didn't marry her.So he blurted out: Why did you choose Shi Lan instead of Su Xiaoxiao? Tian Cun was stunned, he didn't expect Liu Dong to mention Su Xiaoxiao at this moment.As soon as Su Xiaoxiao's words rang in his ears, he felt mixed feelings in his heart. He couldn't tell whether it was because of his mother's pressure or his own reasons that made him not marry Su Xiaoxiao in the end. Liu Dong's alcoholism was a little high, and he said to Tiancun with red eyes: You are sorry for Su Xiaoxiao, she is so kind to you, you have failed her heart.You can't answer, but I thought about it for you. You look down on her because she is a rural girl, and you look down on rural people in your bones. After hearing Liu Dong's words, Tian Cun turned pale, and he asked in his heart: Is it really because she is from the countryside? Liu Dong appeared to be very sincere after drinking, and he confessed: I had already thought about it at the time. If I couldn't do it, I would go to her when I was demobilized. Whether she agreed or not, even if I begged her and knelt down to her, I would To make her marry me. Tian Cun looked at Liu Dong and asked curiously: Then why didn't you go in the end? I already have Liu Sanhuan, if not for her, I might still go to her. Tian Cun leaned closer to Liu Dong: Tell me what's on your mind, do you really like Liu Sanhuan? Liu Dong nodded: I feel at ease when we are with her, and I have never been so at ease. Tian Cun said with a puzzled look on his face: People say that the reason you married Liu Sanhuan is because her father is Mr. Liu. Liu Dong smiled, he didn't want to answer Tamura's question.He also couldn't tell whether there was this factor in it, but in his heart, Liu Sanhuan was Liu Sanhuan, who could not be replaced by others. Liu Dong smiled wryly, and said: Don't talk about me, you are leaving, I advise you, if you have time, go and see Su Xiaoxiao, just for her infatuation with you. Tamura shook his head, raised his glass, and swallowed the wine in one gulp.Things are different, will Su Xiaoxiao still be the former Su Xiaoxiao?Before he got married, he wrote a letter to Su Xiaoxiao, telling her that he was going to get married, and he never received any letter from her again.With Shi Lan, Su Xiaoxiao gradually withdrew from his heart.That beautiful past has become the deepest memory in his heart. He admitted that during the days in Xiematun, he had really liked Su Xiaoxiao, and she was his first love.After leaving there, everything has changed, the environment has changed, the status has changed. He once thought about what it would be like to combine with Su Xiaoxiao, but no matter what, he couldn't imagine what Su Xiaoxiao would be like when he arrived in the city.After all, she belongs to Shematun, she is a dazzling wild flower in the mountains, she does not belong to the city. Ever since meeting Shi Lan during that vacation, he suddenly discovered that Shi Lan has always occupied a very important place in his heart.He couldn't let her go. When he went to the hospital to look for her, she didn't accept his favor, but he didn't think about it at that time, he just thought that this female soldier had quite a personality.When his mother introduced her to him, he was also conflicted and confused. He liked Shi Lan and Su Xiaoxiao, but he understood that marriage was practical. His mother introduced Shi Lan to him solemnly. From my mother's point of view, they were suitable and well-matched together.And what about Su Xiaoxiao?He is also aware of his mother's attitude, not only his mother, but also many people will think that he and Su Xiaoxiao are not suitable.Thus, Shi Lan walked into his life.He knew that he was sorry for Su Xiaoxiao and failed her heart.In the early days, he condemned his conscience severely, and later tried to comfort himself, Quan regarded the first love in Shematun as a romantic interlude.Before getting married, he wrote a long letter to Su Xiaoxiao. He sincerely wished her a happy life, because she is a good girl.He believes that she will slowly get out of the shadow he brought her, find her own life, and have a beautiful destination.