Chapter 2 Chapter 2 The Distance Between Man and Beast

1923, winter.Grandpa Zhong Chuguo was twenty years old that year. On the morning when grandpa turned twenty, he had a fight with young master Zhou Xiaotian for no reason.It snowed heavily the night before, and it stopped at dawn.Grandpa, Yu Qian, and other long-term workers lived in the west side room. When the snow stopped, grandpa Zhong Chuguo woke up. Grandpa jumped off the kang first, naked, and shivered and threw a few pieces of miscellaneous wood into the stove. Mix child.The fire in the hearth was about to go out, leaving only dots of sparks roasting the freshly thrown miscellaneous wood.There was smoke coming out of the furnace, and Grandpa hooked himself up and sneezed loudly. Grandpa reached out and took out bare cotton trousers from under the quilt, put them on effortlessly, and pulled out a cotton jacket to put them on.At this moment, Grandpa freed up a hand and pinched Yu Qian's nose. Yu Qian opened his eyes and smiled, and said to Grandpa, "Xiaofeng, this bitch is really harmful. It made me run twice last night." Grandpa was tying a rope around his waist, which was the most typical dress of Northeast Changgong. After hearing Yu Qian's words, he felt an inexplicable feeling that made him uncomfortable.Grandpa lifted Yu Qian's quilt, and Yu Qian was exposed naked in an instant. Yu Qian covered his shame with his hands, bent his body into a shrimp, and said in surprise: "Old Zhong, what are you doing? What are you doing?" What?" Grandpa ignored the remaining money, grabbed the dog fur hat and put it on his head. When he went out, he looked back at the smoking stove. Grandpa picked up a shovel and shoveled a path for himself. Shovel it under the window of the young master Zhou Xiaotian.

When my grandfather was 20 years old, he worked as a long-term worker for the Zhou family in the backing village. The Zhou family was the richest man in a hundred miles.The Zhou family not only owns land and a house, but also has a business in Tianjin Wei.Zhou Daya, the head of the Zhou family, went to Tianjin Wei to take care of his business every now and then. No one in the backer village knew what business the Zhou family had in Tianjin Wei, but every year Zhou Daya brought two bodyguards and heavy suitcases from Tianjin When Wei came back, Zhou Daya was busy building a house and buying land.Zhou's family had a lot of silver taels, and they couldn't use up all the silver, so Zhou Daya dug a cellar in his house, and put all the silver in the cellar for storage.That cellar was dug by Grandpa and Yu Qian.At the beginning, the two of them didn't know what to do with digging the cellar. At night, the door of Zhou Daya's room was closed, and everyone looked panic-stricken.Out of curiosity, Grandpa and Yu Qian sneaked over, licked the torn window paper, and saw Zhou Daya's family hiding boxes of white silver in the cellar.Grandpa took Yu Qian by the corner of his clothes and sneaked back. It took Yu Qian a long time to catch his breath. He gritted his teeth and said, "Damn it, the Zhou family has so much money. It scared me to death." He patted Yu Qian on the shoulder and said, "I will be rich in the future." At that time, my grandfather hadn't thought of becoming a bandit.Yu Qian wanted to laugh, but when he saw his grandfather's firm eyes, he suppressed the laugh.Yu Qian took a breath and said, "Brother Zhong, will you bury it if you have money?" Grandpa said, "No, if I have money, I will build a house that is not afraid of the cold. The house is full of stoves, and I sleep warmly." Yu Qian smiled and said, "Old Zhong, you love to sleep."

That morning, grandpa stood under the young master Zhou Xiaotian's room with an inexplicable mood. Grandpa couldn't describe his mood that morning, but he felt that a cold stone was pressed on his heart that morning, making him unable to breathe.Just after the snow fell, the weather was not very cold. Grandpa was standing under Zhou Xiaotian's room. He looked at the double-happiness characters pasted on the window paper, and his heart couldn't stop beating wildly. Suddenly, his throat was dry. At this time, Grandpa felt a pressure in his lower abdomen, and he was very urgent to urinate.It was only then that he remembered that after getting up from the kang, he hurried to the Shaodong's room before he even urinated, and it wasn't until this moment that he realized his inexplicable mood.After he straightened out his mood, he was no longer inexplicable, and suddenly became very purposeful and stubborn.At this moment, Grandpa didn't want to pee, he wanted to stand under the young master's house, holding a shovel in his hand, and now he almost forgot that the purpose of standing under the house was to sweep snow for his master.Standing under the eaves of the Young Master's house, he heard Xiao Feng playing with the Young Master on the kang.Xiaofeng said coquettishly, "I'm not, I'm not." When Xiaofeng said this, she obviously had Tianjin Wei's accent. At that time, grandpa didn't know where Tianjin Wei was, he only knew that Tianjin Wei must leave the mountain. Tun is far away.When Xiaofeng said this coquettishly, grandpa heard Zhou Xiaotian's fiery voice saying at the same time, "Why are you afraid of this, this is more comfortable than that." At that time, grandpa didn't know what intercourse was, but he knew that he was a volcano, a volcano that could be held at any time. A volcano that can erupt, this volcano makes the 20-year-old grandpa exhausted his energy; the grandpa who is not familiar with intercourse heard Zhou Xiaotian and Xiaofeng flirting on the kang, the blood in his whole body seemed to freeze, he It was the first time to hear Xiaofeng's voice so close.Next, he heard Xiaofeng's words that made him even more suffocated, "Oh, slow down." Then, Grandpa heard a mess of voices.At this moment, Grandpa really wanted to smash the window with a shovel, exposing Xiaofeng in front of his eyes.The next thing he heard was the entangled breathing of the two and Xiaofeng's coquettish moans.Grandpa, who was not familiar with accidents, also understood at this time what was going on in that house and on the kang.A fire ran wildly in Grandpa's chest, and he had nowhere to vent. He swung the shovel desperately to shovel the snow on the ground. Xue saw Yu Qianxiu standing at the door of the west side room with his hands in his hands, rushing

he laughs.Grandpa leaned on the shovel and panted heavily.There was no movement in the room, Yu Qian walked towards Grandpa with his arms crooked, his sleeves creaking and his hands creaking.At this moment, Master Zhou's door opened with a "squeak". Master Zhou cleared his throat and spit on the snow.Young Master Zhou's face was very white. Grandpa saw two rows of fine tooth marks on Young Master Zhou's face. Grandpa said in his heart that his own mouth could not bite his own face.When Grandpa thought this way, Young Master Zhou spoke up, Young Master Zhou was wearing a fox fur coat, the buttons had not yet been buttoned, Young Master Zhou said while buttoning up: "Boy Zhong, work lightly, don't be so wild. "Grandfather listened to Master Zhou's words, and his throat groaned. He knew that Master Zhou was one year younger than him. Master Zhou went to Tianjin Wei to read foreign schools when he was fourteen. After studying in Tianjin Wei, he married Tianjin Wei. Xiaofeng came back to Maodong at home.He heard from his old club that the young club will leave as soon as the spring begins, go to Tianjin Wei, and go abroad by boat.

When the young master, Zhou Xiaotian, was talking about grandpa, Yu Qian stopped in the middle of walking, and he was bending over to tie his shoelaces.When the Young Master finished speaking, he didn't even look at his grandfather, and walked to the hut through the deep snow.Grandpa heard Xiaofeng humming a song at this time, and grandpa thought, Xiaofeng must have heard it when the young master talked about him, and would Xiaofeng laugh at himself.Thinking of this, his heart began to beat wildly again for no reason.He thought to himself, if you don’t let me be wild, I will be wild. After thinking this way, he bent down, stuck the shovel into the snow again and again, and then threw the snow in all directions. Zhou Xiaotian, who came back from the latrine, was raised by his grandfather. The snow was all over the body, and a few grains got into the body along the neck. Zhou Xiaotian was a little annoyed. He walked behind the grandfather with the snow, kicked the grandfather who was sprinkled and said: "Please slow down, you Deaf?!" In fact, the kick on Grandpa's calf was not heavy at all, and Master Zhou didn't even think about kicking it, he just wanted to remind Grandpa to slow down Xue Yang.Grandpa was holding back a burst of anger. When he turned his face, he saw Xiaofeng coming out of the room. Xiaofeng's cheeks were flushed, and the traces of the cloud and rain just now had not faded on her face.Xiaofeng wrapped her strong and plump body in a red silk jacket, and she twisted her waist and walked towards the latrine.She stepped on the footprints that Young Master Zhou had just stepped on, her body was twisted and crooked, and she looked very good.At this time, a firm idea popped into my grandfather's mind, Xiaofeng must have seen Young Master Zhou kick me.When Grandpa thought of this, his blood rushed to his head. He had already forgotten that he was a long-term worker, so he picked up the shovel and threw it at Young Master Zhou.Young master Zhou had already turned around at this time, ready to go into the house, he didn't expect that grandpa would dare to hit him with a shovel.When Grandpa danced the shovel, there was a gust of wind, and that gust of wind also swirled a wisp of snow and mist. Then the shovel hit Young Master Zhou's shoulder, and the sound was muffled. With a "hum", he rushed forward, and finally fell on the snow.Xiaofeng, who was walking halfway, turned her head, and was so frightened by the scene before her that she sat down on the snow.

Grandpa looked at Young Master Zhou who had fallen on the snow, and then he woke up. He stood there stupidly, still holding the shovel in his hand.Yu Qian witnessed the scene just now, the sixteen-year-old Yu Qian was also dumbfounded, he didn't understand that everything in front of him could be true.At this moment, Yu Qian saw the old landlord's door opened, and the old landlord Zhou Daya opened the door and was looking in this direction.Yu Qian ran over at this moment, tugged at the corner of his grandfather's clothes, and said in tears, "Aren't you going to run?" At this moment, Grandpa's eyeballs rolled and he let out a sigh of relief. run away.Grandpa ran fast, still holding the shovel in his hand.Grandpa ran out of Zhou's house, and he slammed into the mountains like a headless fly.It was very cold in the mountains that year.

My father was bitten by a dog in Huhutun. The bite was on the calf, but my father didn't say a word.Father could clearly hear the sound of the dog's teeth biting through the old cotton wool and breaking the muscle fibers.The father turned around and held up the big half of the iron bowl in his hand. The iron bowl was filled with half a bowl of yellow corn that he had begged for. The iron bowl and the corn were smashed on the dog's head. He pulled out his teeth from his legs, bared his teeth at his father, stepped back and squatted on the snow, staring at his father's thin body with hatred.

My father dropped the begging bowl and stood outside Tiger Village looking at the white world in front of him, feeling empty and helpless. At this time, my father was very cold and very hungry.Early in the morning, he ran out to beg for food, and only got half a bowl of corn, which was scattered on the snow in a bright yellow color.A gust of white hair blew over his head, his father gasped, and he felt a sharp pain in his calf.He was very homesick at this time.Although he was hungry when he got home, the house could withstand the wind and cold. Thinking of this, he walked into the snow step by step.The father staggered, and the leg bitten by the dog was excruciatingly painful from time to time. The father bit his chapped lower lip and walked towards the house step by step.

In a ravine surrounded by mountains on three sides more than ten miles away from Laohutun, there are two wooden grids standing alone on a flat ground at the foot of the mountain.There are sparse oak trees growing on the hillside. The leaves of the oak trees have already fallen, and they are covered by a thick layer of snow. Only the black oak branches are exposed in the snow, whimpering coldly in the wind.My father saw my grandfather from a distance, and my grandfather was squatting alone on the hillside behind Mugelen, smoking a mouthful of cigarettes, and staring into the distance with dull eyes.When my father saw Grandpa, his heart tightened and he sank.Grandma left again yesterday, leaving grandpa and father behind.When my father woke up early in the morning, he saw his grandfather squatting in front of the kang outside smoking a mouthful of smoke. The room was filled with smoke, and his grandfather seemed to have aged a few years overnight. Somewhere, as if grandpa has walked into another world. "

His father coughed for a long time due to the smoke, grabbed the clothes under his legs and put them on. He knew that grandpa was going to look for grandma soon.Every time grandma leaves, grandpa is always like this. In my father's memory, grandma rarely talks to grandpa.Instead, I often hear grandpa chatting endlessly with grandma.Grandma ignored grandpa, grandma often ran away, grandpa went to look for it, maybe one day, maybe two days, grandpa would always find grandma.Sometimes grandpa couldn't find grandma, and grandma came back by herself. As soon as grandma came back, she hugged father and cried.Grandpa was squatting under the kang at this time, his face was full of joy, and he looked at grandma's face, his eyes were glazed.Grandma often ran away, which affected grandpa's mood. Grandpa always pretended to be grandma in his heart, forgetting to live and forget his father.The family often ate the last meal without the next meal, so my father lived by begging.

When my father saw grandpa squatting on the snow on the hillside frowning, he knew that grandma must not have come back at this time.When my father walked into the house with his legs turned, he saw that everything in the house was exactly the same as when he left in the morning, and his heart felt even more empty.The quilt on the kang has not been rolled up, and a pair of red cloth pillows are scattered in the corner of the kang. Father walked around the house, he wanted to cry, when he went outside again, he saw that the open iron pot was cold and there was no trace of heat, he looked up and saw a handful of sorghum rice in the wooden basin on the stove, Father swallowed, he couldn't bear to look at the little sorghum rice, he knew that grandma must be very hungry when she came back, and he should leave it for grandma to eat.My father was sitting on the threshold, he was very tired and weak, his leg was swollen from the dog bite, his father leaned against the threshold and looked aimlessly into the distance.At this time, the world is very quiet.It was nearly noon, and the sun shone feebly on the snowy ground. There was a pale light in the snow field, which made my father squint his eyes. My father wanted to sleep, but his stomach was growling, and nothing could calm him down. , the father swallowed again. At this time, in his father's loose sight, he saw a person approaching here little by little. At the first moment, his father thought it was grandma. When the person got closer, he realized that the person was not grandma. but a man.The man was wearing a jacket of unknown type of leather, and the fur fluttered from time to time in the wind. His father didn't pay attention to this, he was attracted by the red spot on the waist of the visitor.It was a piece of fluttering red silk cloth, and the red silk cloth fluttered around the man's waist, and the father's eyelids twitched.The man was panting, and the breath he exhaled instantly turned into fog and floated in front of his eyes, and my father could hear the "creaking" sound of the man stepping on the snow.Father was still staring at the piece of red silk cloth on the waist of the visitor, that piece of red silk cloth was too colorful in his eyes. The visitor got closer, and my father could see the facial features of the visitor clearly.It was a man in his thirties, with a stiff beard growing on his face. His father only took one look, and then fixed his eyes on the man's waist. He saw a gun stuck in the man's waist. waist.Father suddenly wants to pee, father knows gun,.He had seen a gun hanging on the wall in Zhao's house in Tiger Village, and there was also a piece of red silk cloth tied to the handle of the gun. The red silk cloth was very bright and set off the gun very old.The Zhao family has guns, so the Zhao family has a lot of food, and they can eat whatever they want. My father often passes by the Zhao family when begging for food. He saw that the children of the Zhao family often eat white rice and pork, and the gun on the wall . When the father saw the gun on the waist of the visitor, his heart skipped a beat. When the visitor was about to enter the door, he stopped. He glanced at his grandfather on the hillside, and then he quickly lowered his head and glanced at his father. Still staring at the gun. "Son, is there anything to eat?" the man said. Father woke up in a jerk, he hurriedly looked away from the man's waist, looked at the man's open mouth, he saw a row of hard teeth, the teeth gleamed in the cold, his father shivered again , the man smiled, stretched out his hand to dig out the pocket of the leather jacket for a while, took out a small piece of silver, and handed it to his father.Father didn't go to pick up the piece of silver, the man smiled again and put the piece of silver on the window sill.The man looked into the room with his head, and seemed to sigh.The father's heart beat differently, he stood up, the leg bitten by the dog felt a sharp pain, he almost fell, the man helped his father, his father's body leaned on the man's waist, his father's shoulder was caught by the man The gun on the man's waist snapped.Father hurriedly put firewood under the pot, and the fire quickly ignited.Father took the wooden basin and filled it with some water, and finally poured the half bowl of sorghum rice into the pot along with the water.The man seemed very tired. He sat on the threshold as soon as he entered the house, where his father had been sitting just now, watching his father doing all this in a hurry. My father stuffed firewood into the bottom of the pot vigorously, and there was a creaking sound in the pot. My father thought of grandma, who was going to eat the rice after being put in the pot. He glanced at the window on the window sill Father thought, this man must be very rich, anyone with a gun has money, this man must be hungry to eat sorghum rice.My father saw the gun on the man's waist again. The man sat for a while, dozing off bit by bit. Seeing the man's appearance, my father wanted to laugh. Soon, the pot boiled.The man woke up.A scent of rice overflowed from the pot, and my father swallowed again, the man was in a hurry Waiting to open the pot, scooped up half a bowl of porridge with the iron bowl placed aside, and drank it thinly. Father licked his lips again and swallowed. The man quickly finished the half bowl, stood up, and took another dip from the pot. At this time, there was only a little rice soup left in the pot.The man looked up at his father, smiled, lowered his head again, and drank sloppyly. Father thought: He is hungrier than me. The man finished his porridge and didn't leave right away. He turned around and walked into the inner room, and fell on the kang. When he fell down, he picked up a red pillow and put it under his head. The man let out a comfortable snort.Seeing that the man was lying down, the father took the bowl that the man had used, reached out into the pot and wiped the remaining rice soup into the bowl bit by bit, and his father quickly licked the bottom of the bowl clean.After his father had done this, he heard the man snoring. Standing on the door frame in the inner room, his father saw the man lying on the kang, already asleep. The father saw the gun on the man's waist again. He knew that the gun could kill people. His father moved his feet forward and got closer to the gun.The gun rose and fell on the man's stomach with the man's breath.Father thought, just reach out and grab that gun, grab that gun and it's his.At this time, my father wanted to pee again, and the gun hanging on the wall of Zhao's house flashed before his eyes, as well as the white rice and pork.Thinking of this, my father swallowed again. At this moment, my father stretched out his hand, and his heart stopped beating. My father grabbed the gun and charged at the man, who turned over and sat up. "Bada", the gun in his father's hand fell on the kang, the man grabbed the gun, looked at it, put it in his waist again, and smiled at his father, his father didn't know where he was for a while.The man jumped off the kang neatly, stood up, and patted his father on the head. "My child, thank you." The man said before going out. After the man said this, he stepped over the threshold, and at this moment, his father said, "I'll go with you." The man stopped, turned his head, and stared at his father in surprise. The father said again: "I want to eat." The muscles on the man's face moved, and after a while, he turned around and glanced at the place where grandpa was sitting, then walked away with both feet. The father followed the man on crutches. Grandpa was still sitting there, as if he didn't see everything in front of him, and his eyes were still looking at the snow in the distance. In October 1967, autumn came prematurely.Those few days were the darkest days in my memory.Branches, leaves and pieces of paper dance together in the autumn wind, crowds come and go in a hurry. My family lives in a small two-story building in the family courtyard of the military region. There is a garage downstairs and several rooms where the driver and Aunt Du live. I was brought up by Aunt Du.During the day, when my parents go to work, Aunt Du and I are left at home. Aunt Du has an accent that I can't understand, and Aunt Du often says things that I don't understand. During those few days in October, my father suddenly stopped going to work, and was busy walking upstairs and downstairs at home, grabbing the phone from time to time.The father grabbed the phone angrily, but spoke carefully, with a smile on his face.Every time at this time, Aunt Du took my hand from the second floor to her room downstairs. Aunt Du held me in her arms and looked at the dark sky outside the window. In the sky, there were two dead leaves blowing in the wind. fluttering in the air.I don't know what happened at home, but I saw the misfortune in the eyes of the grown-ups. I was a melancholy child since I was a child, and I seldom spoke. My sister was already in school at that time, and she left early and returned late.When my sister was at home, my sister and I had a lot to talk about. Every time my sister came back from school, my sister always took out a book, put it on the table, and then opened the book and told me what I learned today.At that time, there were many pictures in the textbooks, including Tiananmen Square in Beijing, and smoking chimneys from factories... I loved reading my sister's books very much.My sister was about to do her homework, so she stuffed the unused books into my arms and asked me to sit on a chair to read, while she buried herself in writing.My sister Yuanchao is my friend.As far as I can remember, I seldom see my father. He leaves early and returns late.I come home late every night, and my father went out again before I woke up in the morning.In my impression, my father was just a man in military uniform, no different from those in the courtyard.If my father was standing among a group of people in military uniform, I would not be able to recognize which one was my father. My father was at home all of a sudden, and I felt that there was suddenly a new person in my life, someone I was not familiar with, and I felt panic. When Auntie Du was holding me and looking out the window, I felt two drops of something cool fall on my face. I raised my head and saw Auntie Du was crying.Auntie Du's face had two tears flowing from her beautiful eyes. Auntie Du's face already had some fine lines, and the tears fell in a zigzag way through those lines.In my impression, this is the second time that Aunt Du has cried. I found out that the first time Auntie Du cried was in the small room where Uncle Liu looked after the warehouse.Aunt Du took me to play with Uncle Liu, and put me in the yard. There are many car tires in the yard, which are used tires. Most of them are neatly stacked in the yard, and a few are scattered around In the yard, I just play with those tires.I was tired from playing enough, so I walked into Uncle Liu's small house to look for Aunt Du, and I saw Uncle Liu hugging Aunt Du hard, Aunt Du's face was pressed against Uncle Liu's, and Uncle Liu turned his back to me At that time, I saw two tears rolling down Aunt Du's eyes.At that time, Auntie Du closed her eyes and was trembling all over. I seemed to hear the sound of Auntie Du's teeth chattering. I stood there for a long time. Auntie Du opened her eyes and saw me. Wipe off the tears on my face, bent down and picked me up, before going out, turned around and said to Uncle Liu: "I'm going back, you want to open some more." That was the first time I saw Aunt Du cry. Auntie Du found out that I was looking at her in fear. She didn't rush to wipe her tears, but sighed and muttered: "Oh, they are all hard-working people!" I don't understand why Auntie Du said these words . This listless day lasted for a few more days, and finally one day, my mother stopped going to work, and my sister stopped going to school.A few people I didn't know also came to the house.When we sat together, we talked about Wudou and Grandpa. I don't know what the relationship between everything in front of me has to do with Wudou and Grandpa.Most of the time, the family would not speak, just staring at each other in a daze.Among the people who came to our house, there was a woman who looked a bit like my mother. The first day I saw that woman, my mother hugged me and asked me to call her aunt, and I called her timidly, and auntie He held me in his arms and sighed a long, long breath. At this time, my mother set her eyes on me, and my aunt also set her eyes on me. I glanced at my mother, and my mother's eye circles were red.I looked at my aunt again, and her eye circles were also red.After a while, the eye circles of all the women in the room were red.At this time, I looked up in a daze, and saw my father, who was pale and leaned his head on the back of the chair.At this time, I suddenly discovered that my father's white military uniform lacked collar badges and cap badges. Where there were collar badges and hat badges, there were three dark spots left. My father closed his eyes and said nothing. At this time, my sister, Ai Chao, took my hand and came to her room. That year, my sister was in the third grade. In my eyes, my sister was already an adult.My sister closed the door, stared at me for a while and said, "Little brother, sister, don't you want to go?" "Think." I said. At this time, I saw that my sister's eye circles were also red, she hugged me, kissed me hard on the face, then let me go and looked at me so firmly, finally.Say: "My sister is leaving." "Where are you going?" I didn't know that my sister would go out. In my impression, my sister never left home. "I will go with my parents, and you will go with my aunt." My sister said. "I'm not going with Auntie, I'm going with you." I said stubbornly. My elder sister sighed like an adult, and then wept, crying loudly. After a while, my elder sister Yuan Chao stopped crying, hugged my head and said with a sobbing voice: "Dad made a mistake, Mom, Dad and I are going to a far away place, you are young, let you go with Auntie." I don't know what it is to make a mistake, nor what is far away, but I say firmly: "No." In the next few days, everything in the house was chaotic.First they rummaged through the boxes and cabinets, and then packed the contents of the boxes and cabinets into packages, and took them to the station to check them in first. The night before parting, the whole family sat in the living room.My father, mother, sister, aunt, and Aunt Du hugged me.My father didn't say a word. I saw my father with his eyes closed and his head resting on the back of the chair.My mother and my aunt were talking without a word. I was lying in Aunt Du's arms with heavy eyelids, and my sister, Ai Chao, took my hand and sat beside Aunt Du.At this time, I saw my aunt looking at my sister for a while, then at me for a while, and the aunt finally said: "Yuanchao is sensible." At this time, I felt the heat on the back of my hand. I turned my head and saw my sister was kissing the back of my hand. There were tears in her eyes.Many years later, whenever I miss my sister from afar, I can't forget the scene in front of me. In my memory, the image of my sister is frozen.It's a pity that I didn't really realize at the time that this separation lasted for more than ten years. Later, I fell asleep in Aunt Du's arms dimly, and in a blur, I felt that my mother was holding me in her arms.I woke up several times in my dream at night, and I saw a room full of people still sitting like that, the lights were dimly shining, my sister Ai Chao had been holding my hand and leaning on my mother and fell asleep, and my sister was asleep. There were still tears in the corners of her eyes when she was sleeping, and she was still sobbing in the dream.At this time, I remembered what my sister said to me during the day. I knew that my sister and my mother and father were going to a far away place together.When I thought of this, my nose was sore, tears flowed out, I was sobbing, and fell asleep again without knowing it. At dawn, our family went to the train station.This time, my aunt was holding me, my mother was leading my sister, and my father and Aunt Du were holding things in their hands. Later, my sister got on a train with my parents. When my sister was about to go out, she called me to her room. At this time, my sister’s room was already very messy. There was only one bare board bed standing in the room. From her schoolbag, she took out the textbook she was studying and handed it to me, saying: "Brother, my sister gave you the book you like." I took the book my sister gave me, and I knew that there were colorful pictures of Tiananmen that I liked in that book.I hold the book my sister gave me.Many years have passed, and I have kept the textbook for the third grade of elementary school that my sister gave me at that time.Whenever I miss my sister, I have to take out the book that my sister gave me with pictures of Tiananmen and read it over and over again. In the years to come, I have read many books, but I have never read the one my sister gave me. Books are so kind. The train started to move with a bang, and at this moment I heard my sister yelled heart-piercingly: "Little brother——" My mother burst into tears, and she stretched out her hand from the window as if she was going to hug me. After a while, I finally choked up and called out my name: "Zhong Shan——" At this moment, I saw that my father was not looking here, but was looking at the window of the train.I finally felt that my family was really far away from me, and I cried "Wow--".My aunt hugged me and staggered forward two steps. At this time, my sister and mother were still calling me: "Little brother—" "Zhong Shan—" I didn't realize at the time that my farewell to my mother was forever.In my memory, my mother is a pale face with tears.I cried and shouted, and the train went away mercilessly, leaving only the red signal lights at the fork. After sending off my mother, sister and father, my aunt hugged me and boarded another train. I was still crying, and my aunt said: "Zhong Shan, don't cry, let's chase my sister by car." I believed it, and I stopped crying noisy. Auntie Du was the only one who saw me and my auntie off. Auntie Du was carrying a heavy package with a bloated waist. She was handing things in and out of the car to find a seat. When the car was about to start, Auntie Du got out of the car.When Aunt Du looked at me, there were tears in her eyes, and Aunt Du said, "What a miserable family." I said, "Let's go find mom together." Aunt Du said: "I won't go, I will take care of the house." The train started, and Aunt Du's bloated waist gradually became blurred in my sight. I saw Aunt Du wiping tears with the corner of her clothes. Later, Aunt Du returned to her hometown in Jiangxi. Many years later, I realized that all the changes that happened to our family were due to that fight. It was a violent battle that shocked the whole country. The rebels were the Red Guard Command, and the Royalists were the Red Star Command.The two headquarters just started debating, and then they fought. The fight lasted for three days and three nights. Many people died, and the road was covered with blood. It was a street fight.Later, the troops were dispatched, and it was my father who commanded the suppression of the fighting. My father mobilized two regiments of troops. At first, he wanted to stop the fighting. When they came, they fired at the troops together.For a while, the troops were attacked on both sides. The soldiers did not dare to fight back without receiving the order to shoot, and they were killed in pieces.The father, who saw the scene in front of him through the binoculars, broke out wildly. He said to a staff officer beside him, "Fire." The troops opened fire, and the strength of the two regiments was regular troops. The organization is in disarray.In that fight, a member of the Red Guards, who was the son of the head of the central government at that time, was also hit by a stray bullet. Later, this matter was brought to the central government. In order to prevent greater disturbances in the troops, the central government suspended his father from his post and sent him to A farm in Shihezi, Xinjiang was transformed, and my father was never charged with a suitable crime. In fact, my father had many opportunities to come back from Xinjiang. When investigating the history, my grandfather ran aground again and again because of his unclear history.From then on, my father hated my grandpa and hated my grandpa's unclear history.