Chapter 8 seven

When the national college entrance examination resumed, Xiao Lin was in the first year of high school. The whole family said that Xiao Lin had caught up with the good times, and there was still more than a year to go. If he worked hard, maybe Xiao Lin could become a college student.Xiaolin also realized that his future and destiny were really linked to the college entrance examination. Over the years, what he worried most was that he was afraid of going to the countryside. He was afraid that he would be like his elder sister, who would never come back after going to the countryside. But finding a good job is harder than reaching the sky. Based on the conditions of his family, he knew that no matter what, he would not be able to find a job.So Xiao Lin bet his treasure on the college entrance examination. At present, he has only one way to go.

In those days, Xiao Lin always got up early and went to bed late. In those days and nights, people could see the following scenes. Xiao Lin got up just after dawn. Leaning against the electric pole, after a while, and after a while, Xiao Lin's head nodded, his eyelids were also tearing and fighting, a car drove by, or some other sound, Xiao Lin Shocked again, he opened his eyes.At night, Xiao Lin was doing exercises in front of the desk. He often bit the tip of his pen in pain, with a worried look on his face.Naturally, the eyelids also fought, and then he went outside, took a basin of cold water and plunged his head in, he repeated this over and over again.

When the mother saw such a scene, she didn't know what to do. Naturally, her actions were cautious. She appeared beside Xiao Lin again and again, hoping that she could do something for Xiao Lin. Xiao Lin was struggling to solve the problem. And anxious, seeing his mother like this, he said angrily: Mom, don't bother me, you sleep with me. The mother lay down, and she couldn't sleep. She got up again and again, looking at Xiao Lin's figure at his desk. After an unknown amount of time, Xiao Lin turned off the light with a bang, and everything went into darkness. She listened to Xiao Lin's truth She fell into a deep sleep, and then she sighed, her stiff body relaxed a little, she thought: the crime of the college entrance examination is really not for human beings.

Xiao Lin worked hard like this for a while, and finally found something wrong. He became dizzy when he read a book, and his face began to turn pale.At first, his mother thought he was staying up too late, so she forced Xiao Lin to go to bed earlier. Sometimes when it was just dark, Xiao Lin would lie down under the force of his mother. Signs of aggravation, dizziness even without reading, groggy all day long, people are getting paler.This phenomenon of Xiaolin aroused the great attention of the whole family. When Dalin came, Xiaoxiu also came, and they chatted around Xiaolin together. Treat it early, and don't miss the college entrance examination.

After Dalin and Xiaoxiu came up with this idea, they each went about their own business. They had a job and a family, which was not easy.The mother understood why the children were busy, so Xiao Lin went to the hospital for an examination with the help of his mother, and the results of the examination came out soon. Xiao Lin suffered from iron deficiency anemia.The doctor prescribed a bunch of medicines and repeatedly emphasized the importance of nutrition to my mother.Nutrition requires money. Eggs, fish, and milk were absolutely extravagant things for my mother at that time. Only during Chinese New Year and festivals did the family eat once in a while.

Some money was spent on Xiaolin’s medical treatment. It was originally planned that the money would be sent to Daxiu, but now that Xiaolin needs it, Xiaolin will use it first. Mother thought of Dalin and Xiaoxiu, and reached out to them at this time. They would not Regardless of the younger brother.Dalin has just started a family with great difficulty, his wife is pregnant and is about to give birth to a child, and the child will have one more mouth to eat throughout his life. Is it easy, really not easy.Xiaoxiu's life is better than others, she married into a senior family, the day Xiaoxiu got married, her mother had already thought about it, she would never hold Xiaoxiu back, let the senior family look down on her, and Daxiu counted on her. superior.After thinking about it, my mother decided to bear the difficulties alone. After so many years, she has gotten used to it.When Dalin and Xiaoxiu came to inquire about Xiaolin's condition, she just said lightly: "Your brother is fine, it's just that you're overworked. You'll be fine if you eat two good meals."

After Dalin and Xiaoxiu received such a reply, they both breathed a sigh of relief, came to Xiaolin and said some words of care and encouragement, and went on to do what they should be busy with. Since then, every morning, Xiao Lin has an egg, a bottle of milk, and at night, he cooks a fish. At the beginning, Xiao Lin didn’t eat it. In this way, it is impossible to consume like this.He looked at the eggs and milk, and said tearfully: Mom, I don't want to eat them.The mother knew what Xiao Lin was thinking, so she said, "Silly boy , Eat something to be afraid of, when you are admitted to university, you don’t have to worry about it. At that time, a college student was no worse than a champion in the eyes of his mother.The helpless Xiao Lin had no choice but to eat eggs and drink milk in silence.

As soon as Xiao Lin left for school, the mother was in trouble. She knew that it was no longer possible to rely on picking up junk. The child's illness was a long-term problem, and it was absolutely impossible to have no money.She thought about everything inside and outside the house, and there was nothing valuable. The mother looked inside and outside the house again and again with her fists clenched. She raised her head and looked at the sky.Suddenly, she thought of the few people waiting to sell blood standing at the entrance of a hospital. My mother would pass by the door of the hospital every day to pick up junk, and there were always a few men and women selling blood standing there.They came to this city to appeal, and they were also people who lived in this city at the beginning. They were driven to the countryside for one reason or another. Today, they came back again, hoping to get things right.They ran out of money while petitioning, so they started selling blood.Thinking of this, my mother's heart jumped quickly, and the blood all over her body was rushing.She didn't have a clear understanding of blood. She gave birth to four children, and every time she gave birth, she would bleed a lot. This was all she saw with her own eyes. In the end, she was still her.Mother was not afraid of bleeding, so she came to the gate of the hospital without hesitation and stood in the team of blood sellers.

At that time, the amount of blood collected in the hospital was not large, and only those who were hospitalized at public expense would think of blood when they needed blood transfusions. Most people who were hospitalized, even if they needed blood transfusions, would also transfuse the cheaper artificial plasma until it was getting dark. It was the mother's turn. When the mother stretched out the prepared arm, the blood-collecting nurse glanced at her, then looked at her again, and then said with some hesitation: "Is your body okay?" In order to prove that she was in good health, the mother waved her arms in front of the nurse a few times inappropriately for her identity and age. The nurse, for the sake of prudence and to avoid responsibility, finally asked her to write a guarantee. The mother was illiterate. It was written by the nurse on her behalf, to the effect that selling blood is voluntary, and the consequences are at your own risk.Then pressed the mother's bright red handprint.The blood was finally sold this time.

When the mother brought the fish and eggs exchanged for the blood money, she was touched by her behavior.At this time, she seemed to have seen her son's admission to university, with smiling faces facing her, envious faces. When Xiao Lin ate the eggs and fish that his mother exchanged with blood, he really couldn't swallow, and said with a choked voice: Mom, where did the money come from. The mother pretended to be relaxed, and said mysteriously: "Don't worry about it, just eat yours." Mother thought for a while, and added to make Xiao Lin feel more at ease: Over the years, our family has some savings.

After his mother said this, Xiao Lin really felt much more at ease after eating.During this period, my mother sold blood twice more, each time with a signature. After a period of treatment and nutritional supplements, Xiao Lin's head was not so dizzy, and his face was not so pale.Every morning and night, I can see Xiaolin studying hard again. Xiao Lin was no longer dizzy, but this time it was his mother's turn to be dizzy. Every time the blood was sold, her mother would sweat all over her body, her legs and feet could not use her strength, and her face was naturally pale.She couldn't let Xiao Lin see this. When Xiao Lin was at home, she braced herself with a smile on her pale face. As soon as Xiao Lin left the house, she threw herself on the kang and fell into a drowsy sleep all day. .Sometimes she worried that she would fall into a drowsy sleep, but every time Xiao Lin was about to leave school, she would get up, go to the vegetable market, and buy a live fish. The fish was dancing in her hand, and her hands were shaking. Day by day, day by day, finally the day of Kobayashi's college entrance examination came.As a result, on the day of the public list, Xiao Lin failed to enter the university, but was only admitted to a normal school, which was a technical secondary school.It was not easy for a technical secondary school student at the time, but my mother still regretted it. She regretted that she would sell blood twice more, so that Xiao Lin could better strengthen her body, and maybe she could be admitted to university.My mother's self-blame has been going on for many years.