Chapter 125 Section Eleven

Under the desk lamp, Fang Zijun was reading a book, but he couldn't read it.There was a slight knock on the door, and she raised her head: "Come in!" Lin Qiuye came in: "I knew you were still awake when I saw the light under the door." "Auntie, I sleep too much during the day." Fang Zijun smiled, closed the book and sat up. Lin Qiuye took the book casually, it was a collection of Lu Yao's novels. "The road of life is rough and long, but there are only a few key steps." Lin Qiuye read Liu Qing's famous quote on the title page. Fang Zijun listened, and smiled wryly: "Actually, these steps are often not for me to choose."

Lin Qiuye looked at her and put the book aside: "Zijun, are you 24 this year?" "There are still two months, and I will be 25." "Eight years." Lin Qiuye sighed. "Auntie, what did you say?" Fang Zijun raised his eyelids. "I mean, you have guarded a dream for 8 years." Lin Qiuye looked at her lovingly, "No matter from which angle you look at it, your youth, the best 8 years of a woman's youth, have been given to you First love." Fang Zijun didn't speak. "I understand, you can't forget him." Lin Qiuye said.

Fang Zijun nodded, very calm, this time he didn't cry. "Then you put him in your heart, in the deepest place, and leave him a piece of pure land to pay homage to." Lin Qiuye said, "His soul will be peaceful, and he absolutely does not want to see you guarding an impossible place alone like this." A dream come true." Fang Zijun took out a cigarette from the drawer and lit it: "Auntie, I'm sorry, I have one." "Come on, you have grown up." Lin Qiuye said, "And you came out of the flames of war, which is understandable." Fang Zijun lit a cigarette with trembling hands: "Auntie, I know what you want to tell me."

"I never ask about your personal problems." Lin Qiuye said, "I know you have a knot in your heart. This knot cannot be untied by others. You can only rely on yourself to carry it through. Seven years, you use your Youth guards him, don't you think it is enough to comfort his spirit in heaven?" Fang Zijun exhaled a puff of smoke, and tears fell silently. "How many 7 years are there in a person's life? I don't want you to forget him, I believe you can't do it either. You are a woman who values ​​affection, the kind of woman who will guard a man all her life. You have nothing Extravagant hope, you just hope that you can form a poor but happy family with him, live your life quietly in a camp of a certain army, and have children..."

Fang Zijun finally broke down in tears, his shoulders twitching. "Cry, it will be better if you cry." Lin Qiuye said. Fang Zijun raised his tearful eyes: "Auntie, what should I do? What should I do?" "Do you like Zhang Lei?" Lin Qiuye asked. Fang Zijun nodded, then shook his head: "I don't know, I don't even know..." "Because he is Zhang Yun's younger brother?" Fang Zijun shook his head: "It's not like that, Auntie, I'm also a soldier, I'm not so feudal!" "Because he resembles his brother?"

Fang Zijun nodded: "It's too similar, and the kind of arrogance is the same." "So you are suspecting that what you have for him is not love?" "Yes." Fang Zijun said, "What I feel for him may not be love, but a kind of spiritual sustenance." "Have you thought about it from a different angle?" Lin Qiuye inspired her, "Zhang Lei is an excellent soldier and an excellent man. I can see his attachment to you from his eyes. This attachment , You won’t lie. Don’t talk so hard, keep a distance from him, and control your own sense of proportion. I believe you will understand whether you love him or not. "

"Auntie! It's too late!" Fang Zijun burst into Lin Qiuye's arms and cried loudly, "I'm already, already with him..." Lin Qiuye looked at her. "That day, we were all drunk, and I regarded him as his brother..." Lin Qiuye's face was calm: "Do you think this is an insurmountable obstacle?" "Isn't it?" Fang Zijun's face was full of tears, "I'm a casual woman! How can I face him, how can I face Zhang Yun's spirit in heaven? I don't even have the right to miss Zhang Yun now!" "You are qualified!" Lin Qiuye said, "From ancient times to the present, women have been vassals of men. Why can't you stand up and prove that this truth is wrong? You are your own, you have the right to choose your lover, and you have Power chooses your own life! You have given 8 years of your youth, neither Zhang Yun nor Zhang Lei can ignore your sacrifice! What does 8 years mean to a woman? Have you ever thought about it? Don’t say you are drunk Even if you are not drunk, what is wrong with you?"

Fang Zijun listened stupidly. "Our generation has already paid too much for the army and the war!" Lin Qiuye said earnestly, "But you are still young! You must not live like this, you deserve happiness! Get back your self-confidence, are you Fang Zijun, you are the daughter of the old scout! You are also a beautiful mature woman, very outstanding!" Fang Zijun wiped away tears. "No matter what you think, you and I will go to the Special Reconnaissance Brigade tomorrow." "Ah?!" Fang Zijun opened his mouth wide. "Our group is also on holiday, so I decided to take Xiao Yu and you to the Special Reconnaissance Brigade to celebrate the New Year!" Fang Zijun said.

"Then I'll go back to the hospital!" Fang Zijun said in panic. "No!" Lin Qiuye said decisively, "You must come with me!" "why?!" "Because I am your mother!" Lin Qiuye stroked Fang Zijun's face with tears in his eyes, "Daughter, you are my own daughter!" "Mom—" Fang Zijun burst into Lin Qiuye's arms and cried loudly. "It's all over, it's all over!" Fang Zijun stroked Fang Zijun's back with tears in his eyes, "You have suffered so much, it's all over!" Fang Zijun cried and nodded.

"I said you all don't sleep?" He Xiaoyu walked to the door in her pajamas, rubbing her sleepy eyes and hugging the cloth bear. "Tomorrow, go to the Special Reconnaissance Brigade." Lin Qiuye said. "Ah?!" He Xiaoyu woke up immediately, "What are you doing?" "Chinese New Year!" Lin Qiuye said. "Really?!" The surprise on He Xiaoyu's face was unusual. "Yes!" Lin Qiuye said, "Get up in the morning and clean up. Our group will send a car to take us there at 9 o'clock." "I'm going to clean it now!" He Xiaoyu threw the cloth bear on Fang Zijun's bed, "Sister, help me take a look! I'll come and get it later!"

"Alas—" Lin Qiuye sighed, "The female university is not going to be accepted!" "Xiao Yu is not that kind of girl, Auntie." Fang Zijun smiled, "She will be filial to you." "Still talking about her!" Lin Qiuye got up and scratched her nose, "You too!" Fang Zijun blushed.