Chapter 8 Episode eight

No matter how long the prologue is for a soldier's love, the touching "drama" is also very short.During their service, they had no time to care about other things in their standard life, and they were often urged back by telegrams from the army for short vacations.Their marriage often has to be bridged by others. The man and woman are introduced to each other. Before the soldiers have time to show the depth and delicacy of their feelings, they enter the implementation stage of marriage.Lin Dalin received special care for him. He visited his family in spring and April, and returned to Beijing in autumn and August to contact work for demobilized cadres (because his whole family is in Beijing and he knows everyone well). When they met twice, he felt that Jiang Man was a perfect partner.At first he was just full of sympathy for Jiang Man.Compassion and love are "sisters", and feelings are changing without knowing it.Especially when he came back in August, Jiang Man had something to do, so he was no longer so melancholy, and he would stay at home and read books.Dalin likes her "duty", such "duty" makes him feel safe to serve in the army.Also, Jiang Man is obviously a good wife and mother who manages the housework inside and out.She is not a crazy person, but a good girl who wants to be strong.She is very self-willed-the fact that she has to make an appointment with Dalin as soon as they meet, just shows this point.But as time went on, she seemed to be emotionally "wooden", and she couldn't show that waywardness anymore.Dalin talked about going to the theater, taking a walk, and talking at home, and she answered "as you", "as you", "as you".In fact, there is just a stubbornness hidden in this "easy-going", which shows that she is helpless.Even when Dalin proposed to obtain a marriage certificate, Jiang Man did not reject it, but he did not express enthusiasm.On the contrary, Jiang's mother continued happily, "Let's do it, let's do it. Before I walked out of the chimney, I almost had a heart attack." On the day of receiving the marriage certificate, Jiang Man was depressed, but Da Lin was beaming. Changed into a new uniform.

Jiang Man said: "This time, everything is over..." Lin Dalin: "Are you unhappy?" "To be honest, I'm not unhappy. It seems that I have to do something that must be done." "If you go back on your word, there's still time. I won't force you." "You're so sensitive." "Is it an allergy?" "Dalin, we—too early..." "I'm already twenty-eight. I'm the elder brother, and I'm married, so Xiao Lin can think about it—I think so, a bit feudal, right? I'll make arrangements for my younger brother in the future. But if you think it's too early—"

"It's better to finish it sooner. It's over, it's over." "Why do you keep talking? What do you think of me?" "You are a good man, you are like a brother. Really, like a brother who knows how to hurt people." elder brother? Fortunately, the impression is not bad.But there is a crisis hidden in this title, an emotional crisis. Got the marriage certificate.When receiving the certificate, Jiang Man was unhappy, and Dalin couldn't be happy because she was unhappy. The engagement photo was also taken—it was quite awkward, Dalin didn't know what he was thinking, he was as serious as a late roll call in the army; Jiang Man was laughing, what kind of smile is that?The corners of his mouth were raised stiffly, his cheeks were tense, and he looked bitter.

Ready to get married. The new house was furnished, the Jiang family did their best, and the Lin family did their best.According to Jiang Man's favorite color, the lampshade, bed cover, and curtains of the new house are all blue, indigo, and peacock blue, making it look like a cold drink shop.It must be a little bit of joy, the old lady insisted on choosing red pillowcases and satin quilts, pink and peach red.Red and blue alternate, very uncoordinated.The new house was a bit damp and had a musty smell. In addition, the curtains were always covered, which made Jiang Man feel that there was a sinister air there. It was usually locked, so she didn't want to go in.Just wait for the happy marriage on New Year's Day in 1979.

The little squirrel was also given to the neighbor's children by Jiang Man. Tong Chuan's luggage was pressed down by the old mother. As the auspicious day approached, Jiang Man's heart became heavier. But she is determined to be a good wife and mother, and she must not fail Da Lin, except that she can't control the soul in her dreams, and try to find as many things to do during the day, so as not to let herself be idle, and not let her thoughts grow grass. One year calendar, only the last two left. After a few good snowfalls, Beijing was covered with silver.Old Beijing looks forward to such a peaceful and good year, so as to be auspicious.Some people put up red pairs on New Year's Day, and people don't think there are too many New Year's Days.Manjie is a big shed selling food.Firecrackers that children love are everywhere.Young people mostly wear scarlet, Indian red, lake blue and dark green ski jackets and acrylic shirts, flocking east and west.Even the candied haws around the children's mouths look so red and bright.It's really red makeup.The whistling wind is also crisp.At that time, there were a lot of people holding weddings in time for the festival.Maybe it's because the austerity and dry days of the ten-year "Cultural Revolution" have made people tired and crooked, and the wedding is always extravagant, so let's take this opportunity to be very happy!Even if the two families live in the same alley and live next door, they also need to take a few red and colorful "Shanghai" and "Toyota" cars for a ride.Frugal people, even the cadres and families known as "Tuba Road", have to make a "face", set up a few tables, entertain relatives and friends, the so-called "kuaixi".The wedding of Dalin and Jiangman has been carefully researched and decided by the parents of both sides: not extravagant, not shabby, not extravagant, but also not to lose face.Candies, melon seeds, and filter cigarettes are already waiting for guests in the new house; chicken, fish, elbows, and tripe are left in the kitchen, and they are only waiting for the table.Without preparing a few banquets, Jiang's mother refused to agree: When the time comes, the marriage of the only daughter will be over, and the in-laws and mother's family can't talk about it!Only the car is exempted from talking about it.The wedding was decided to be held by the old lady. Father Lin took out three hundred yuan, and the wedding ceremony would be held at Jiang's house. Busy and joyful, the soles of the feet also look brisk.Seeing that there are still two days before New Year's Day, and Lin Dalin has not returned to Beijing, it is estimated that the company has something to do.But since there was no letter informing of the postponement of the wedding, it must be time to come.The old man walked around the inner and outer rooms all morning, for fear of any negligence and mistakes, and he was not prepared for what should have been prepared.After noon, I calmed down, put on my glasses, and cut out the red "Xi" character as soon as possible.

Jiang Man didn't eat lunch, so he huddled under the blanket and refused to get up at noon.Lying on his back, staring straight at the light gray hangings on the shed. ... "Jiang Man—!" With a call, a happy and wonderful person is sent in the door.Qi Xiaoyan is here.Her outfits were always surprising—magenta ski jacket, jeans, fuchsia boots.She pushed the door together with the voice, and her twinkling bright eyes made her fluffy: "Sister Man! Get up, good news!" Jiang Man lay there like a "dead corpse". "What's the matter? I'm sick? The news I brought will definitely cure the disease. Hurry up, your 'old battalion' is overturned? Hurry up, look at my fingers, there are black circles when I dial for you I want you to have a happy new year, and then start all over again. I got into the chief staff to make a long-distance call - found you the 'missing man'?"

missing person? Jiang Man was startled, sat up suddenly, and fell down straight away. what happened? Xiaoyan looked at Jiang Man, then looked up at the old lady.The double red paper in the old lady's hand gradually took shape under the sharp blade of the scissors—is it a red "happiness" character? The old lady: "Who is it? Yan, stop talking nonsense, and run around like a headless chicken. Listen to the aunt, and you should find someone. The male college should be married, and the female college should be married. How could there be any difference?" Out of court?"

"Auntie, what did you say?" "Your sister Man will get married the day after tomorrow." Xiaoyan was stunned. Jiang Man immediately covered his face with a quilt. Xiaoyan shook her head again and again.She has been thinking about Jiang Man's affairs, wasting time and energy, delaying her homework, and asked her classmate's father, who then asked her comrade-in-arms, and finally found out Tong Chuan's whereabouts.Xiaoyan couldn't wait to find an acquaintance of the General Staff, and called Tong Chuan.She told Tong Chuan: Jiang Man still loves him, wait for him!She asked Tong Chuan to send a letter quickly, saying that she must return to Beijing before the new year, which surprised Jiang Man and left the past in the old year, so that everything began in the new year. Today she received a letter from Tong Chuan, saying that she would also give Jiang Man After sending the letter, I will come to Beijing tomorrow.God!She imagined how moving the scene of the reunion would be.She herself was so excited that she wanted to dance, sing, laugh, and cry.However, the pot of fire in her arms was poured with cold water.

She is not forgiving: "Jiang Man, get up, I'll wait for you outside!" The scissors clicked and clicked, as if what was being cut was not the big red paper, but the hearts of the two girls Xiaoyan and Jiang Man. They wanted to cut their hearts into pieces and cut them into the shape the old lady wanted. Jiang Man was so excited that he couldn't put his hands into his sleeves. Xiaoyan blew into the yard like a gust of wind. Jiang Man got up, came out, and pushed open the door of the new house.There was no fire in the new house, it was cold and gloomy, and the windows were covered with mysterious frost.Xiaoyan followed angrily, looked around, picked up the engagement photo of Dalin and Jiang Man from the bedside table, looked at it with disdain, and put it back again:

"This person probably has a good income and a promising future. Maybe he also has a father who looks like an atomic reactor? I said that I called you on the tram that day, why did you ignore it? That's it - you choose another spouse, and you have An ideal husband! Why don't you give me a letter and let me admire the splendor of your lover? I can take advantage of you—oh. There is no need for old classmates, and I have left them all aside." Qi Xiaoyan's words sting like a wasp.She carried a gun with a stick, sarcasm and sarcasm, and there were bursts of sneers and bitter smiles in her words.Jiang Man's face was dull, and his eyes were fixed on the corner of the wall, like a prisoner on the verge of execution, biting the bullet and allowing himself to be "slaughtered".Her heart was extremely painful. Although Xiaoyan's reprimand was expected, Jiang Man couldn't stand it anymore, and her eyes were red.

"I congratulate you!" Xiaoyan turned around and wanted to leave. "Xiaoyan!..." "how?" "I don't blame you if you scold me, who made me an ordinary person; I can't bear it!..." "..." Xiaoyan could tell how much pain was hidden in Jiang Man's sigh.Her heart moved a little, she stood by the window for a while, and said to herself: "People, people!... Actually, I have no right to say people. Didn't I see through the world of mortals and fall into the world of mortals?! I am completely I'm being passionate! Jiang Man, I didn't come here to quarrel with you, and I didn't mean to disgust you. It's all my fault! I misunderstood the wrong person! I asked someone to find out that Tong Chuan was out of prison, and I called him. I thought that people can always become better and never forget the ones they loved. I was wrong, wrong! I received Tong Chuan’s letter today, and I know he wrote to you too, and you threw that letter into the fire a long time ago Is it burning?" Jiang Man was completely struck by the word "letter". Her eyes brightened for a moment, then dimmed again: "Letter? No, no, wow!" "You really know how to act. Anyway, you must write a letter. He will come to Beijing tomorrow—the night of December 31st. Go and send him away! I'm ashamed to see him, and I can't bear to let him Emotions go to prison again! Tong Chuan is too, why are you so infatuated? Why are you so serious? You have to suffer!" At this moment, no matter how much he scolded or beat him, Jiang Man would not feel any pain.There was only one wish lingering in her heart: to see Tong Chuan's letter immediately, even if Xiaoyan nailed her to the "shame" pillar. Jiang Man ran out of the new house and went straight to the small grocery store. Xiaoyan was startled, fearing that she couldn't bear the stimulation of what she said, she chased her out. Mother Jiang stopped her daughter at the door ignorantly, but she didn't stop her, and grabbed Xiaoyan: "What's wrong with you?...Xiaoyan, tell her to come back. She's a married woman when she speaks. What do you look like crazy? Xiaoyan, go , huh? Catch the wedding tomorrow." "Auntie, I really don't understand, why do you always deliberately destroy your own daughter?!" Lin Dalin returned to Beijing from Kunming, made a stop at home, and was about to come to Jiang Man's house.Accompanied by his younger brother Xiao Lin, he patted his chest on his elder brother: "Brother, I will show you my skills at the wedding banquet. I will invite the chef of Sichuan cuisine, and I will also serve you a red beef stew. Chinese and Western are the best, look at it. Come with me to see." See how you're getting ready." When they came to the entrance of Yanghuogan Alley, Dalin thought, he must not meet his mother-in-law empty-handed, so he went to pack a snack box.The Jiang family is an old resident of the Hutong, especially the crazy old man and a fire, people are concerned about the fate of the Jiang family.Lin Dalin's appearance undoubtedly attracted people's attention, and almost no one in the alley greeted this respectable soldier.The old salesman in the non-staple food store at Hutongkou was even more enthusiastic. After filling the box of snacks, he asked questions. Suddenly, he thought that there was a letter sent to the store to hand over to Jiang Man, so he naturally asked Dalin to take it home.Dalin is a careful person, he reads the letter carefully as he walks out.This letter is thick and thick: pinch drum pinch drum - there is something inside.Seeing that it was for Jiang Man again, he couldn't help but think elsewhere, feeling uncomfortable.He is already recognized by the law as Jiang Man's husband, and he should and has the right to know everything about Jiang Man.He couldn't help but want to take it apart to see what happened, but he was afraid of hurting Jiang Man's self-esteem.After weighing it over and over again, it still needs to be dismantled, but it must be dismantled without showing any traces.Fortunately, the letter was not glued very tightly. After opening the seal and pulling out the letter, Dalin walked and looked at it, but he didn't look at it. When he saw it, his face suddenly changed—— Man: Qi Xiaoyan said something I had dreamed about on the phone.She told me everything.She said that you treat me as always, you have looked for me, and shed tears for me. This is another emotional debt that cannot be repaid on the debt list of my life!You know I have no family.Only you alone are the dearest and dearest.When I was in prison, I thought I would lose you. I used to selfishly regret why I tortured myself and couldn't love boldly?A year and a half of prison life made me never cry again.The tear duct was cut off by the iron gate the moment he entered the prison.But when Xiaoyan talked about you, I cried.I'm out of prison, and you'll find I've changed—my speech has degenerated.The less you talk, the richer your heart will be.The heart is still that heart!Please rest assured, I will never give up what I love again, I want to see you - immediately!Tell me my thoughts and love for you, I will never lose you again, never!No!I have asked for leave from the company, and will return to Beijing from Zhangjiakou by express train on December 31.This is my third new year in the military.We will meet in a new attitude! Man…… Man!Man!How sweet is his name? !Oh shit!Still a prisoner released through labor reform.Also come back in the new year.A small pine needle also fell out of the letter, which is a keepsake!It's a token of love between the unfaithful fiancée and the prisoner!Dalin couldn't read any more.He folded the letter and rushed into the alley angrily, suddenly felt that something was wrong, he didn't want to go to Jiang's house again, so he turned back.He slammed the box of snacks he had just bought into a roadside trash can.Xiaolin couldn't figure it out, so he hurriedly snatched the letter, and after reading a few lines, he was so angry that he cursed, asking brother what to do?Where can Lin Dalin answer?In an instant, the past flooded into his mind, Jiang Man's attitude towards him and what he had said, only then did he figure out the taste.He hated himself for using "the heart of a gentleman to save the belly of a villain", for being so stupid that he got the marriage certificate in a daze.Now the army is full of wind and rain, who doesn't know that Lin Dalin returns to Beijing to get married?That's the scariest thing.His military pride was greatly mocked—and the man was a labor ex-con! The day after tomorrow is his wedding day with her. Of course he cannot marry Jiang Man.But he didn't want to make a scene, it would only damage his image even more and make it difficult for him to walk this alley again.According to Xiao Lin, slapping Jiang Man before he said it would not only relieve his anger, but also restore the man's reputation. He couldn't be so reckless, he thought, if he slapped Jiang Man before he said it, the slap would be equivalent to slapping himself on the face at the same time.He was extremely confused and yelled that Xiao Lin was not allowed to speak. At the end of the year, the streets are full of people.It was as if everyone on the street bumped into him, and he couldn't be anxious, annoyed, or scolded.He seemed to feel that people were aware of something and were watching him—he thought he must have lost his composure, was embarrassed, and was very unlucky.He tried to calm himself down and stopped at the intersection. "Xiao Lin, you tell the Jiang family... just say that I haven't come back, and I won't get married in the New Year. Postpone for a week and keep them safe." "What should I do next?" "You make me think!" "Then—I believe you have to keep it." "Bring it to her." "What, what? You can't let go of biting this type of person! Brother, you will be harmed if you are soft-hearted. After you get the letter, at least find a few friends to go to her house to shabby and shabby her." "Bring her the letter." "I do not care." "Don't let people say we have no tolerance!" tolerance?People with low tolerance tend to pay more attention to the word "magnanimity". How much is tolerance worth? The shrewd Xiao Lin suddenly had a plan in his heart, accepted the letter, and parted ways with his brother.He went into the roadside post office and reattached the letter.However, in his rage, Dalin forgot to return the pine needle in the letter. Xiao Lin walked towards Jiang Man's house. At the gate, he almost bumped his head with Jiang Man who ran out.In the past, he would not open his mouth unless he was called "sister", but today he coldly glanced at Jiang Man from head to toe, said "Hi, your letter," and then dismissed it.He looked at Mother Jiang but raised the corners of his mouth, obviously holding back: "Auntie, how are you getting ready?" "It's all there." "Don't be stingy, this is a big deal. My brother has telegraphed that he will be there on December 31st, so we won't miss the wedding the day after tomorrow. You'd better buy a few more catties of large prawns instead of stuffing them with cabbage People, make people laugh. If you have no money, you can say something." "There is money, there is money. If you don't spend money now, when will you spend it?" "I'll hire you three first-class chefs, which are at the level of Beijing restaurants. You have to give them a red paper bag. According to the rules, it should not be less than ten yuan." "Ten yuan, ten yuan. Your aunt is a sensible person." "Come on! On the day of the wedding, let's join in the excitement. Get ready to pay—old lady." old lady? ! This name came out of Xiaolin's mouth, it really pierced my ears.Probably the young people have thrown "politeness" in the jug again.Mother Jiang pursed her mouth and said nothing. Crying came from the new house. In the alley, there are children playing kicks, ping-pong!I was taken aback. Tong Chuan's letter opened the floodgate of Jiang Man's feelings, and her suppressed feelings spewed out like volcanic lava, cooling down to tears at the corners of her eyes.Tong Chuan's letter was so long, it was so long that Jiang Man felt that he had lived a difficult life with him.He committed the crime of "manslaughter", pleaded guilty and received a light sentence of one and a half years in prison.The military status is still retained.He has been looking for an opportunity to "die" that can redeem his sins.A reform-through-labour prisoner digs coal in Datong. He drills holes and fires cannons, choosing the most dangerous jobs.Once the roof of the mine fell, the supporting wood of the roadway cracked, and the landslides and ground cracks would happen in an instant, and the roadway became a dead end.Everyone fled, but he slowly cleared the coal from the electric hopper into the coal ring.He was finally released.Prisoners who have served their sentence return to the company anxiously, which is when the work of retiring veterans begins.He wanted to stay in the company, but he had to be prepared to be demobilized and return to the Great Northern Wilderness.The division security department called and ordered the company to deal with him and leave.The company commander was once severely warned and punished because he was implicated in a crime. He thought that the company commander would not keep him as a "troublemaker", and he would definitely leave.People are worried that if he makes trouble again, it will affect the reputation of the army.On that day, the veterans gathered, and the regiment security officer also made a special trip to arrive.The company commander announced the list of demobilized veterans, and Tong Chuan waited for the second "sentence".But he is not on the demobilization list!Maybe something was missed?He didn't dare to think about the good.The security officer of the regiment asked the company commander: "Why is there no Tong Chuan?" "We studied it, but he didn't leave." "Did you understand the call I made to you that day?" "Yes." "Why didn't you let him go?" "The decision of the party branch of the company." "Who will be responsible if something happens again? Who will guarantee it?" The company commander patted his chest: "I guarantee it!" The instructor patted his chest: "I guarantee it!" What a good army!Tong Chuan called his company "the land of rebirth".He put on the collar pin and cap badge again, and his cold heart was warmed up in the arms of his comrades.As Jiang Man read the letter, he seemed to see Tong Chuan lining up under the scorching sun. The wasps were spinning around in front of his eyes and crawling on his collar. He was motionless. , Marching at night with 30 kilograms of equipment on his back, falling down, getting up, falling down, getting up again, swaying like grass in the wind.His head hit the backpack of the soldier in front of him, his face hit the rocks on the mountain road, he raised himself up, got up, walked, walked, walked... Only those who love each other can feel this kind of connection.Jiang Man's mouth was full of bitterness, and when he read the passage about Qiu Yu's march, his spine shivered with chills.Tong Chuan suffered so much. He called himself an "ascetic monk" in the 1970s.And what kind of "gospel" is Jiang Man's "love" conveyed to him by Xiaoyan to him!He thought it was a brand new—the beginning of spiritual life.It seemed that he would not cry for a long time, but he cried.He tremblingly said the words "I will never give up what I love again", and he was full of longing to see Jiang Man "immediately"—Tong Chuan, oh Tong Chuan, it was the first time he was so unabashed and unabashed. Express your love without taboo, but at such a time!His letter is a person who has been imprisoned, practiced in the prison of life, and lost the news of his lover. He can't wait for life, so he issued this fiery cry.And that "pine needle", the letter said that a pine needle was sent, where is the pine needle?Perhaps Tong Chuan forgot to put the envelope in the trembling excitement... But, it was too late, everything was too late!She, Jiang Man, already legally belongs to Lin Dalin.She burst into tears, regretting too much, she muttered to herself in despair, wrong, wrong, wrong, mo, mo, mo... It was dark, and the lights were not turned on in the new house. The blue lampshade, blue curtains, and blue sheets gave off a faint blue and cold light, and the red satin quilt was so dazzling.Jiang Man's sobbing added ominous gloom to the cold room.The old lady was so anxious that she was going to be nagging, but Xiaoyan barged in the door, and the old man had no choice but to stamp her feet outside.Painful expressions are the truest.Jiang Man was overwhelmed with grief, and deeply touched the heart of the female college student.She persuaded her, but she couldn't find the right words, and her heart softened for a moment, and she also wept along with her. "Don't cry, Sister Man. You have your difficulties, I can imagine. We people, pay the price for fanaticism, and also pay the price for pain! Alas, it seems that we are precocious, but sometimes maturity seems to have lived An eighty-year-old man is sometimes as naive as an ignorant child... Don't cry. Let's not be naive in the future, huh?! Sister Man! Let's think about what to do!" "I can't help but..." "Tong Chuan will come tomorrow afternoon, and you will get married the day after tomorrow. Oh, think about it." It's not that I don't want to, it's that I really can't think of a way out. After a long silence, Jiang Man said, "Go back, it's getting late." "I'm not leaving. It's okay, stay with you." The last day of 1978 was dry and cold.The acacia on the side of the road stretched out its branches strangely, making a rattling sound.Xiaoyan and Jiang Man drove across Chang'an Avenue and arrived at the entrance of Beijing Railway Station. Crowds of people poured out of the station. In the sea of ​​people, one can tell at a glance that this "big soldier" came from the northern valley.In the capital, soldiers often wear single caps, but he is wearing a curly fur cap right on his head, and a pair of bulky big-toed shoes land on his feet.Uniform No. 1?Yes, it is number one, stretched on his well-developed chest muscles, meticulous.He was looking, but he did not look here and there, but put his things down, let impatient companions squeeze past his shoulders, and stood erect, waiting to be discovered.His slightly elongated face had rough skin and prominent pores, as if it had been filed or burnt.A pair of eyebrows are used to frowning, and they are lowered down, pressing down on a pair of deep, emotionless eyes.At first glance, he looked like a man who had experienced hardships. Tong Chuan! Seeing him, Jiang Man's eyes became hot, and his heart jumped, but his feet seemed to have taken root, and he didn't move. Xiaoyan dashed through the crowd cleverly, went up and took the things. "Tong Chuan! You haven't changed—you just look a little old." "Xiaoyan, you can change." Tong Chuan talked about Xiaoyan, but his eyes found Jiang Man in the crowd.The excitement in his heart can be imagined, but it was not written on his face, but his lips were loosened, and his mouth was slightly opened—it was a smile. When he came closer, Tong Chuan said: "Hi Jiang Man." "Hello." When they shook hands, Jiang Man's was cold and trembling, while Tong Chuan's was hot. Tong Chuanzai looked at Jiang Man carefully, at those watery and red eyes. Xiaoyan hurriedly suggested: "Don't stand there stupidly—find a place to eat something first." The three walked out of the Beijing Railway Station Square silently.The sound of cars and people is noisy, confusing ears and hearts.Jiang Man avoided Tong Chuan's body and his sight.Tong Chuan raised his face as if he was in deep thought.Aftertaste of something.Xiaoyan looked at this and that, worried that this reunion would not end well.None of them noticed—Xiao Lin and three young men were gathered at the entrance of Beijing Station.Like "Sherlock Holmes", they scouted, followed, and discussed.A young man squeezed past Jiang Man, bumped Tong Chuan with his shoulder on purpose, and returned to the crowd in a blink of an eye, shouting: "The letter says the surname is Tong? By the way, it's him." Kobayashi: "It's him. It turned out to be a 'big soldier' ​​with two pockets—hmph." A young man: "Find this unkind kid to practice immediately? Educate him." Kobayashi: "Don't use force easily. The shabby poor men and women, vent your anger, let them show up in the public, and you will achieve your goal. Go, keep up." Four bicycles followed the three pedestrians, turned into Chang'an Avenue, and then inserted into a small alley, and came to the rather secluded Heping Restaurant.It's not time for dinner, and there are not many guests.Tong Chuan and the others sat down.The four of Xiao Lin also sat down at the table behind Jiang Man.Xiaolin generously "shun" thirty yuan and patted it on the dining table.Here, there was a dispute over payment: the waiter had just delivered the menu, and Jiang Man was busy taking out his wallet. Tong Chuan took out 20 yuan, and held Jiang Man's hand with the other: "I come." Jiang Man's hand was withdrawn like an electric shock: "No no!" "Don't talk about it, I'm a soldier." "I must come today! Take mine, waiter!" Everyone in the restaurant was shocked, and their eyes focused on Jiang Man's delicate and pale face: she had an abnormal expression, and she was fighting for payment. Why did she act like a "death squad"?Why did you almost cry out?The waiter picked up Jiang Man's money, feeling very strange: the travel-worn soldier just got off the train, looking at the face of the comrade who paid, is this wine a welcome, or a farewell? Xiaoyan is an expert in ordering food, and Tong Chuan and Jiang Man have no intention of eating.Xiaoyan ordered a few meat and vegetables at random. She had a bad feeling and was afraid that something would happen to her if she drank baijiu, so she said, "No baijiu, let's have a bottle of Changbaishan Ruyi wine." Jiang Man: "I want some white wine for Tong Chuan. Better ones - Moutai and Wuliangye Quanxing. If not, ask for Dukang. Dukang is better, half a catty." Tong Chuan felt that Jiang Man's mood was abnormal, and pondered: "Why is Du Kang the only one who relieves his worries?" Xiaoyan couldn't hold her breath anymore, and hurriedly said: "What's the matter? Don't talk nonsense, I have something to say later." The food was served, the wine was poured, three tall glasses of Ruyi red grapes lined up, and a glass of Dukang Baijiu, but no one moved.At the table behind Jiang Man, the young people were chewing, listening to the movement of the table while chewing, waiting for Xiao Lin to give an order to move. Xiaoyan muttered: "I said it's better to withdraw the white one." Jiang Man shook his head and said, "It doesn't matter if you drink a little, as long as you can do it, even I can practice it." Then, taking advantage of this conversation, he couldn't wait to drink down the glass of white wine calmly.The atmosphere at the dinner table then became heavy, and Tong Chuan already felt that the "smell of wine" was not right, and he was afraid that he should not have come, worrying that the big Beijing would not find the love he was looking for.Seeing Jiang Man pouring white wine again, he hurriedly moved the glass away, and silently pushed the glass of Changbai Mountain Ruyi wine, Jiang Man had no choice but to go to get the red wine glass too: "Xiaoyan, say something, bless the three of us back from the Great Northern Wilderness Poor bastard." Xiaoyan's spirit was tormented, and she felt like a blunt saw was sawing her heart. Her eloquence had completely degenerated, her throat was choked up, and she couldn't speak.After thinking about it for a while, he raised his glass and said, "Just borrow the name of this wine, and wish us 'good luck' in the future! After ten years of chaos, everything should be 'good luck', right? I got through it. People have survived, but maybe they are still suffering mentally... No matter how you say it, if there is something unsatisfactory among those of us who have survived adversity, we have done this for mutual understanding and forgiveness. cup." Tong Chuan: "Xiaoyan, did you go to college? It's like a riddle." "Life is a riddle, and deciphering it requires the whole life process." Jiang Man: "Cheers - for the future." Xiaoyan: "Ruyi." Tong Chuan took the initiative to touch the cups of two female compatriots with his cup: Dangling, Dangling.When his cup collided with Jiang Man's, he repeated the two words "Ruyi" meaningfully. Jiang Man's cup tipped over, and the wine spilled.Suddenly she laughed, and repeated "Ruyi, Ruyi" with a smile... The laughter turned into tears somehow, and tears flowed down, and then swallowed with a loud "Ruyi".People are also dead.Xiaoyan and Tong Chuan stared blankly at her emotional changes, watched her drink up the rest of the glass, and took another drink by saying, "It doesn't count if you spill it, just make up for it."The spicy wine and sweet wine were mixed into Jiang Man's mouth, and the alcohol content multiplied.This doesn't make her drunk, what matters is that her chest is burning with fire, pour alcohol on it, and burn it!Her throat was terribly thirsty and choked, and her stomach seemed to be twisting and convulsing.If she didn't let out the fire in her heart, she would be burned to ashes. "Tong Chuan, you have suffered a lot in the past two years..." "Enough is enough, I don't care about anything anymore." "At that time, why did you ignore people when you came back from the small forest train station?" "I told you earlier, you should go back to Beijing." "But what's the point of going back to Beijing? It's really boring. Your troops are in Zhangjiakou?" "Going north. On the dam. The temperature is about the same as the Great Northern Wilderness." "I didn't know where you were before. Have another drink." "I heard from Xiaoyan that your mother knows, don't drink it, oh - let's stop torturing ourselves, I just ask you: start again, or end here?" This question has been suppressed in Tong Chuan's heart for two years.Jiang Man couldn't bear it anymore mentally, she lowered her head, frowned and looked at the red wine, she thought, that wine was really like the blood she vomited up!She wasn't drunk, but she wasn't sober either. She was dizzy, and her weakness could no longer handle the wine.She said in an almost silent voice: "late……" This faint sound is no less than the falling of a meteorite.After that, Jiang Man said "I will get married tomorrow" in a weaker voice and tears.In the restaurant of the cup and cup, Tong Chuan clearly heard this sentence, no, maybe it was just "heard" from Jiang Man's expression and mouth shape.Xiaoyan didn't know when Tong Chuan poured liquor for herself, and now she was staring at Tong Chuan's hand intently. Tong Chuan was twirling the glass of white wine in his hand, and the wine was vibrating silently in the glass.Xiaoyan thought to herself, maybe he drank white wine and anesthetized herself, so that he could feel better. The big hand Xiaoyan saw was the right hand.The big finger is bent, and the base of the fourth finger is four protruding bone ribs, like four strange rocky mountains.That hand was broad and thick, with rough skin, no blood vessels could be seen, only the elastic muscles and bones under the skin supporting the rough epidermis.His fingers were like thick iron rods, and his index and middle fingers were black and yellow from smoke.What kind of deadly energy is hidden in this hand?It had to swing the glass carefully to keep from shattering it.He turned the cup clockwise and then turned it counterclockwise, looking helpless.His hands were sore, he spilled the cup, opened his fingers like a fan, and then closed them again, silently but it felt like steel bars were kinked together.All of a sudden, that big hand produced a violent force, like a storm, and quickly raised the goblet. For some reason, the hand was suspended in the air again, motionless.At this time, there was still no expression on his face, but his eyes flickered with flames the moment he toasted, and immediately dimmed again.He seemed to have gone through a long and arduous process of thinking, as if there was a powerful force in his heart that made him return from openness to restraint, and as if he could not bear the weight of Dukang liquor, the wine glass was slowly put down, down, dripping The wine was not spilled. Xiaoyan said: "Brother, I'm all to blame...you can't bear it." "Not at all." Xiaoyan said again: "It's all about developing for the better now. I went to school, Sister Man also went to the nurse training class, and you came out too... Yes, the mental trauma can't go away with time. I can’t say it’s gone—in fact, I’m also mentally chained... I’m not going to mention these things, it’s getting better every day. Think about it..." Tong Chuan: "Let's have a breakup meal, it's getting cold." Tong Chuan picked up the bowl, saw that the two female compatriots did not move their chopsticks, and said, "If you don't eat, how can I eat?" Xiaoyan and Jiang Man had no choice but to carry the bowl.Where are they eating?It is to use rice to suppress the pain in my heart, to cover up, to ease the atmosphere in vain.Tong Chuan's head was almost buried in the bowl, and he swallowed the food with anger.Jiang Man chewed rice like wax, and tears fell into the bowl. Tong Chuan had no choice but to put down the bowl: "Jiang Man, don't be like this. We are still good friends and good comrades. I think——I can only get along with one person like this in my life. I often think about Lu You's "The Hairpin" in prison. "Head Phoenix" is about..." what!Red crispy hands, yellow Teng wine, spring scenery all over the city - willows on the palace wall, willows on the palace wall, willows on the palace wall, willows on the palace wall...!Also, wrong, wrong, wrong!Mo, mo, mo!这六个叠音字，像钉子一样钉进了童川与江曼的心。远在南宋时代的婚姻悲剧，竟会临到了这一对七十年代青年头上，当然，这悲剧又打上了十年浩劫的因果关系，打上了时代的烙印。江曼实在受不了，起身道：“我头有点晕，先走一步了……” 江曼深深地望了童川一眼，心想，这也许是最后一瞥了，也许就此再也不会见面了，相见时难别亦难，哪里料到会这样别离呢？她立了起来。就在这个时候，隔桌上的小林也腾地站了起来：“没玩够呢，怎么走哇？” 小林满脸挂着嘲弄、蔑视，走了过来。 江曼傻呆呆地站着。 小林抻个凳子坐在童川旁边，三个小青年也刹那间顺过了挑战的目光。 “喂，你就姓童吧。” "yes." “听说阁下从大牢里出来没几天儿？” "..." “介绍一下：江曼是我嫂子。你知道不知道她明天就要结婚？”小林站起来，可着嗓子喊，似要嚷给全世界听。 餐厅立刻肃静下来。随小林而来的青年们补充了热量，迅速过来“参战”。好事的吃客也围了过来。小林故意要寒碜江曼，用力嚷嚷。不料童川却慢吞吞离座而立，很平静地回答： "Know some." 小林冷笑说：“既然知道，你和她干什么'好事'？嗯？干什么'好事'？我怕脏了嘴，你自己说给大伙听听。” “说呀！”小青年帮腔。 “嘿，哑巴了？”一青年挑衅。 另一位愣头愣脑的青年：“你他妈光天化日之下干的什么好事？说——！” 一拳揳入童川肩窝。 像揳在橡皮墙上。 又一拳揳过来：“说呀！” 童川的胸略略一动。 江曼疯了似的冲过来，俨然像敢死队、保护神：“你们干什么？打我吧，打我吧！” 那青年啐了一口：“你倒挺有感情的，破——货！” 江曼呜地一声哭了，冲出人群。跑出餐厅，小燕连叫“江曼”追了出去。 人堆儿中间，使拳的小青年虽在叫嚷“教育教育这个'大兵'”，却已是虚张声势了。面前这位戴着领章帽徽的军人，长脸上毫无表情——这才是一种威慑。他打不还手，骂不还口，这种忍耐力乃是在坎坷中炼就，在狱里铸成的。小青年揳了两拳，如揳在有弹性的、宽厚的犍牛脊梁上，暗暗感到这人有非同寻常的力气，恐不是对手。和小林同来的另两个青年也仅仅是动口不动手的“君子”，这会儿小林说道：“算了算了，饶你这一回。听着，我要是再碰见你和她勾搭，可要小心点儿。” 童川：“别走。” 小林：“怎么？叫劲是怎么着？” 童川：“不。我要是还手，怕玷污了这身国防绿。我是请你转告你哥哥——我希望能见见他，一是祝贺新婚，二是做必要的解释。” 小林：“你小子只要敢来，我们全奉陪！” 青年们以胜利者的姿态离了餐厅。 童川也默默地提着东西走上街头。 婚礼如期举行。 红双喜字儿，在这吉日良辰贴上门楣，照亮了一条洋火杆胡同。江家的婚礼为新年添彩儿，街坊四邻全凑了份子钱以示祝贺。连日几场风波，扰乱了江曼的心。她奇怪林小林怎就跟踪到和平餐厅，怎就认识童川呢？好在据林小林讲，大林在婚礼前的半夜才能返京，想必他并非主使。江曼此时人全木了，只盼着别出岔儿，早点儿，平平安安捱过这一关。有话日后再做解释。她的感情拗不过法律，也没有勇气以挑战者的姿态蔑视结婚证书。她只能做大林的妻子。大林是个好人，她决不能负了人家。就这样儿，硬着头皮挨到元旦天亮，等待那折磨人的结婚仪式的举行。小燕早早地过来了，说：“曼姐，你就这么忍了？想来想去——你干吗要做生活的奴隶呢？瞧你们那个难受劲儿，陪着你真是受罪。反正也和林家的人闹翻了，索性天翻地覆……”江曼只道：“大林昨儿半夜才回来，我不忍得和他闹，走到这一步了，认命吧。”小燕没再言语，可她料定这婚礼会变成战场。老母亲也胆战心惊，一大早起就发现小林并没送厨子来，只一个人来照个面儿，喊一句哥哥立马儿就来，返身便溜之乎也。江母怕晾了台，只好张罗着请几个邻居老太太切削过油。八时左右，宾客便缕缕行行来了，自行车把胡同挤了个满，来人无不喜气洋洋。江曼只好咽泪装欢，点烟斟茶，好生应酬。 九点，林家的人还是不照面儿。 宾客中已有人屡屡看表，问新郎官的去向了。 江母急得眼睛发蓝，踩着满院子的瓜子皮儿、糖果纸，一把抓住“介绍人”，对那老大妈说：“我的老姐姐，麻烦你去请请吧。那个'活祖宗'怎么还不到哇？急死人啦！” 那老大妈急茬去了。 林家毫无动静。大林对父母撒了个谎，说江家等着儿子回来（其实，江曼的哥哥正忙于调回北京，寄了钱来，留话说不参加妹妹婚礼了），婚礼推迟一周。林家老两口便在元旦去看望老战友去了。大林并不知道小林憋坏，成心晾江家的台，让江曼娘俩儿出丑。也不知昨日小林代他讨伐童川的事。他只道是江家得信已将婚礼推迟。只是烦恼地想着过了年如何开导父母，风平浪静地推掉这桩婚事。不料，介绍人老大妈闯入了门。 “哎呀，大林，你怎么还稳坐钓鱼台呀！火烧眉毛了！你怎么连结婚典礼都忘到阴山背后了？” “结婚？不是推后了吗！” “你给谁递话儿了？人家江家马步全服，来宾全到了，就等您了——快走，走，走！” “小林，怎么回事儿？” 小林正优哉游哉听立体声收录机，取下耳机，玩世不恭地笑说：“让江家自个儿好好热闹热闹吧，甭管。” 老大妈：“哎哟哟！别把人当猴儿耍了，哪能平地生事儿？瞅我这么大年纪，腿儿也跑细了，为什么？快点儿，我给您作揖了，走走走，快走。” 老大妈推大林，大林像座山，推不动。 “小林，”大林皱眉道，“你去说！” “好啦，瞧我的。” "Wait!" 瞧弟弟那股冲劲儿！大林生怕闹出大乱子，想想，道：“还是我自己去。大妈，先跟您打个招呼，我去可是了结这桩婚事。这不怨我们。江曼另有所爱。” “你可别耍小孩子脾气，小曼是我眼瞅着长大的……” “走吧。您对这些事一点不懂。” 一老一少出了门。那老太太像风摆柳，颤巍巍地，老是从马路沿上掉下来。她瞅见一些人在排队，也甭管买什么，便借故留下，溜掉了。 “月老”预感到要有一场风波。 江家老太太忐忑不安，望眼欲穿。 江曼见林大林迟迟不到，知是一场暴风雨的前兆，只盼着是死是活，大限快到。横了心，反而有些泰然。 来宾急不可耐，已在嘁嘁嚓嚓。有人急着回去有事儿，有人想看看新鲜罕儿。厨房里油烟腾卷，门外小孩子放“炮”连声，空气变得很紧张，带点儿火药味儿。 “新郎官”在门口出现了，脸拉得老长。踩着吱吱响的瓜子皮儿进院门，凡人不理，直奔新房。新房里满座女客，正陪着江曼说闲篇儿。林大林塔似的立在门口，像煞星，半点儿喜气也没有。屋里顿时面面相觑，鸦雀无声。 大林：“请大伙儿出去一下，我有话和江曼说。” 女人们像避猫鼠似的瞅着大林，惊讶而惶惑地从新房鱼贯而出，又一双双疑惑的眼睛堵严了窗子，新房一下子阴暗下来。 小燕“嘎贝儿嘎贝儿”嗑瓜子儿，瞅着林大林没动。 “这位同志，您也请出去。” “对不起，我是江曼请来的娘家人。娘家人，懂吗？或者说是女傧相。当然，法律上有回避一说——可这儿不是在法庭。” 盛气凌人？ 不，充满了敌意。 江曼却坐在那里，表情平静，是临战之前横竖不在乎的平静，是任性、倔强、经过大起大落的兵团战士的平静。 林大林一时不知从何开口。 江曼：“昨天半夜回来的？” 大林：“不。早到了。” 江曼：“就你一个人来了。” 大林：“一个人。” 江曼：“爸爸妈妈怎么不来？” 大林：“谁的爸爸妈妈？——他们不来了。” 江曼：“啊——是这样。” 大林：“你不应该感到意外。” 林大林冷冷地说着，慢腾腾燃着了烟，坐在沙发上。 “嘎贝儿嘎贝儿”，小燕不停地嗑瓜子儿。 江曼毫无表情地看看林大林。 窗外的人头攒动，在拥挤，在瞧，在等待…… 林大林慢慢地从上衣兜里抻出个信口袋，像是抻出了一个“谜”。他尽量保持军人的仪态，显得从容，早有准备，可是他的手在打战。他从信封里掏出个东西来—— 松针！ Ah!松针哪…… “新郎”和“新娘”仿佛同时被那尖尖角角的一束针叶刺破了娇嫩的心口，眼睛也仿佛同时被灼痛了。此时无声胜有声，大林嘴巴上的香烟在打战，江曼的脸颊在抽搐。 大林说：“用不着我废话了吧？” 江曼说：“你真下了不少工夫。也许你全都清楚了。” “全清楚。” “我原来是想向你解释解释的。” "No need." 僵持。 小燕噗地吐了瓜子皮：“林大林同志，如果你什么都清楚，再这样成心晾人家，要人家好瞧，可有点儿小肚鸡肠，不像个男子汉了。你知道吗，昨天童川来到北京，江曼姐已经告诉他今天结婚，他们之间的事已经结束了。你是想不让江曼姐活了！” 大林：“绝对不是这样。到底我还是个当兵的。我只是请江曼你听好了，我们这一代人精神上失掉的太多了，精神上的追求甚于物质上的追求。结婚所耗费的钱和物，我全都不要了，算打了水漂儿，可让我委曲求全，闭上眼睛过日子不成。你听好了吧，不成！我既不强人所难，也不能当下三烂！我不会装糊涂，让别人践踏感情。我尊重你的感情，成全你们，咱们好说好散……” 江曼：“散不散，我不勉强你——可你得把话说明白，不能云山雾罩地败坏我的名誉。你不能这么就走。” 大林：“还嫌我不客气吗？得了，您觉得这还不够吗？”说着，林大林眼里有亮晶晶的东西一闪，旋即又消失了。他把长长的叹息分做两半儿无声地吐出来，把茶几上那枚小小的、尖尖的松针推前一点，抬起头来的时候，完全似换了一个人，完全无所谓，仿佛推开了烦恼，得到了解脱： “好了，您自由了！” 大林摔门而去。 江母死命拦住“女婿”：“大林，瞧大妈的面子，甭走！你甭走，她打今儿就是你的人了……” 大林有力但又不失礼地将江母那皱巴巴的手推开。 大林刚走出江家院子，冤家路窄，迎面遇上了童川。 两人全站住了。 童川：“您就姓林吧？” 大林：“是。” 童川：“我姓童。” oh! ——大林打量着童川：是个战士，那张长脸看上去有点残酷无情。baffling!他哪点儿吸引了江曼呢？deep?强健？无表情？ 童川望了望大林——是个干部，仪表堂堂，脸面略嫌苍白。也许，他会给江曼带来幸福的。他比自己强。昨晚上听小燕介绍了他的情况，他比自己优越。 刹那的目光遭遇之后，大林转脸便走。 童川：“等等，我想和你谈谈。” 大林头也不回，疾步走出胡同。 小燕隔门望见了童川，跑过来：“童川，让他走，也许这样更合理。你来，进来！结婚的宴席咱们吃，咱们喝！分裂是组合的开始。” “你说了些什么呀！” “童川，你们重新开始吧！别折磨自己了，大胆去追求你应该追求的。人不是天生来就是注定倒霉的，你们倒的霉够多了。走哇，进去！” Tong Chuan shook his head. 小燕：“嗨！” 童川：“告诉江曼，我走了。” 小燕：“别走！童川，你……” “小燕，谢谢你的好意。你想想，在别人的痛苦上能建筑起我的欢乐吗？再说——我是军人！” 军人怎么了？ 军人难道是“受难的基督？”