Chapter 3 third chapter

In my opinion, the law is purely a game of words.But there's nothing wrong with that.Anyway, it is impossible for human beings to formulate a perfect system, so when using a certain system, if there are flaws, as long as they can be repaired one by one afterwards, it will be fine.As soon as the event begins, the moment it is first recognized, the conclusion has already been produced, and the system is just looking for reasons.Since it is to find a reason, then word games are enough. Having said that, can't wordplay be made more presentable?I threw down the ballpoint pen angrily. I understand that complaining is useless no matter what you do, but the pile of incomprehensible papers of students in front of me really makes me complain.Either the subject is replaced at will in the middle, or the argument is constantly leaping beyond time and space. As a result, people are always confused about where the author wants to lead the conclusion.Whether it is Joyce, Kant, or Einstein, I am afraid that such papers cannot be understood.Cut a peach floating in the river in two, so Urashima Taro became an old man; the big bad wolf, disguised as an old woman, wandered around under the coconut tree before becoming butter with the three little pigs run away.That's how it feels.It must have copied some content from reference books or other papers, without understanding it, and made do with it.It is really understandable for the professor to slip away from such a pile of papers.

I looked at my watch, it was almost nine o'clock. "I'll leave these to you." It was six o'clock in the evening when the professor pushed the pile of manuscript papers in front of me.That said, I've been struggling for three hours in a sea of ​​empty words.Anyway, I've had enough of it. I left a note on the barely corrected manuscript paper and said, "I'm out on a trip, please don't look for me," and walked out of the lab. The school closes at 9:30 every day, and it is already past 9:00, and there are still a lot of students scattered on the campus, and they don't know what they are doing at school.I walked down the long ramp that led to the main entrance of the school.People on the ramp can see the sports field on the left that surrounds the 400-meter runway.I found something in the middle of the dark stadium, what is it?I stared at the dark shadow as I walked.Suddenly the shadow moved, and I was so shocked that I couldn't help but stop.It took me a long time to realize that it was a person who had just been lying down and was now standing up.The man standing up saw me and bowed his head slightly in greeting.The man was in the dark, and I couldn't see his face clearly.I didn't have any serious acquaintances in college, and it was okay to leave without saying hello, but the guy lying in the middle of the playing field at this late hour intrigued me, so I walked over there.The man also walked towards me, and when I reached the place where the streetlights could illuminate, I finally saw the man's face clearly.

"It's you." I said. "Good evening." Yuki bowed his head politely. The huge telescope hanging around his neck could not but strike me as suspicious. "what are you doing?" Yuuki followed my line of sight, "Ah that", he muttered, holding up the binoculars with both hands, looking up at the sky. "I'm looking at the stars." "Stars?" I asked, then raised my head to look up at the sky.Immediately, my looking up gaze collided with countless gazes coldly looking down at the ground without any precaution. I couldn't help shivering and crossed my arms.Yuuki looked at me, feeling a little strange.

"are you cold?" Before I could answer, Yuki had already taken off the thin jacket he was wearing and draped it over my shoulders.Yuki's body temperature immediately wrapped me up, and the chill disappeared all of a sudden. "When I arrived in Tokyo, what surprised me the most," Yuuki said, looking at the sky, "was that Alcor was no longer visible. I thought it had disappeared." "Alcor?" I gripped the collar of my jacket and stared at Yuuki's protruding Adam's apple.His almost completely androgynous body, the only part that indicates that he is a man.

"The second star of the Big Dipper from the top is Mizar, and the star next to it is Alcor, which can be seen with the naked eye in the place where I was born. When I get here, I can't find it no matter how I look for it. I think this How could it be, but I finally saw it, and it was there. Big Dipper, you know that, right?" Yuki said, and handed over the telescope.I imagined the magnified stars coming into my field of vision, and shook my head. "No." "Ok?" "I do not want to see." "What's wrong?" "I do not want to see."

I said in a raised voice.Yuuki was startled by my tone, put away his binoculars, and then stared at me as if trying to figure me out. Maybe he was the same as me at some point, I thought.In Yuuki's mind, maybe there are also the same doubts that I felt at certain times. Why is this person so timid? "I'm sorry," Yuki said, "I didn't force you to watch." "It's nothing," I said hastily, "it's not your fault, no need to apologize. It's just..." "only?" "I am afraid." Yuuki pondered the meaning of my words for a while, then nodded:

"yes." He answered so indifferently, I couldn't help but look at his expression.I thought that there might be something in Yuuki's mind like mine, but it's impossible for him to.But he can see the line between him and me, and I feel so at ease with someone like that.I suddenly remembered the reason why I broke up with Aoki.In the fourth grade, after getting the company's hiring decision, he tried to influence me positively, which was very different from before.He talked about his life plan, asked me about my hopes for the future, etc., but I was tired of it all. "The most surprising thing I've been to since I arrived in Tokyo,"

Yuuki and I walked forward aimlessly, and sat down on the bench closest to us. "It's just that fish don't have heads." "A fish has no head?" Yuuki asked. "Yes, fish have no heads. I grew up in a town near the sea, where fish were sold whole, that's a given. But when I came to Tokyo, I saw fish without heads. It is also on sale, and everyone buys it home without paying attention, which makes me dumbfounded. How can I grasp the freshness of the fish? Is there any special method? I have been researching this issue." "Isn't that written, the sales date, shelf life and so on."

"Who knows if it's true, if it's a lie?" "So suspicious," Yuuki laughed, "How can you survive?" "Yeah." I also smiled. Yuuki's laughter intertwined with mine before disappearing into the darkness.Yuuki looked up at the sky, and I looked down at my feet. "After graduating from graduate school," Yuuki lowered his eyes and asked, "what are you going to do?" I peered into his eyes, but there was no real interest in him, it was just small talk. "I don't know," I replied frankly, "I haven't figured it out yet."

"Why did you go to graduate school?" "Because I can't grasp the sense of distance well." "Sense of distance?" "The sense of distance between myself and society. I don't want to step into society before I have adjusted the sense of distance. Which boxer goes to the boxing ring with one eye closed?" Yuuki closed one eye, thought for a while, and said: "I thought so." "how to think?" "There is absolutely no consistency between society and individuals. Even ordinary people are absolutely impossible to coincide with the average. Conversely, it is precisely because of the inconsistency that human personality is produced. A person and How much distance society maintains and what form it uses to maintain distance, this is the personality of this person, and I don’t think this is a bad thing.”

"I can quite understand what you're trying to say," I said, "but that's not what I meant." "Really?" Yuki said, "I'm sorry." "That doesn't require an apology." There was nothing unpleasant about the brief silence.I was a lot more outspoken than usual, and Yuuki seemed more chatty than I was at the tavern, I think it was because we were in the dark. "Meteor, you know that?" Yuki suddenly spoke. "I still know about shooting stars." I said. "The so-called meteors are actually dust particles. The small dust particles fly to the earth because of the attraction of the earth's gravity. During their descent, they rub against the atmosphere to generate high temperature and glow. This is what we see. meteor." "Are you giving a miscellaneous lecture? I've learned a lot." I said sarcastically.But Yuuki didn't take it seriously and continued to speak calmly. "In the vast universe, those insignificant dust particles smaller than us, just once, in order to show us their existence, burned up their bodies." The infinite expanse of time and space.Can only occupy a small number of living beings in it.If I have to give my life to make that point shine, what shall I do? "It's so sad," I said. "Well. And it's beautiful." Yuuki said. "So we all pray that when we see that momentary light, that momentary momentary light is all that's given for everything." "It's really illusory." "yes?" Yuuki said and nodded again. "Yes, perhaps. But, I'm afraid, the glittering motes don't think so." Yuuki looked up at the sky again as if envious.We were surrounded in the darkness of night, and there was a long silence.What is produced between us is not a sense of intimacy, but a sense of solidarity.Metaphorically speaking, this is like the sense of solidarity that two prisoners share in the same cell.Exactly why Yuuki made me feel this way, I don't want to figure it out.I got up from the bench before the sense of solidarity was too strong to make me feel awkward. "Thank you." I took off my jacket and returned it to Yuuki. "Goodbye. Be careful, don't let people think you are voyeurism." My expectations were not disappointed, Yuuki didn't stand up and say let's go to the station together or something. "Senior, you have to be more careful." Yucheng took the jacket and said, "walking alone at night." "what." I turned around and walked on the night road alone.My steps are a little brisk.But immediately I heard voices from the sky that chilled me. Sister, are you happy? I shook my head, and walked towards the main entrance with the same footsteps as usual.