Chapter 59 Blind waste of time

For a long time, I fell into a problem that I couldn't solve. I thought about "what is the origin of the world" like a great philosopher.Einstein said that E=MC2, C is the speed of light, which is a constant, and the square of the constant is of course also a constant.That is to say, energy is equal to mass multiplied by a coefficient, and energy and mass can be converted into each other.Under certain circumstances, very small matter can be converted into huge energy, so atomic bombs appeared on the earth.But what exactly is E=MC2?I didn't understand it, and my mind was still a mess.There is a disabled person in the UK named Stephen Hawking. His answers are very straightforward, without lingo or hint. "The universe was formed by the big bang, 15 billion years ago. After the big bang, there was time and space. In the first 1/10 second of the big bang, the density of the universe was 30 million times greater than that of water, and the temperature was 30 billion degrees. 14 seconds later, the temperature was 3 billion degrees, and the first deuterium nucleus was formed. After 34 minutes, it took 700,000 years for electrons to attach to the nucleus to form an atom. For most of the past 15 billion years, Protons, neutrons, and electrons combine to form stars." The language of scientists is always so precise and certain that the time can be accurate to 1/10 of a second.But why the big bang?Is the world without this starting point without time and space?What would it be like if we returned to a world without time and space?Does such a world exist?What is the state of being without matter?For the proposition of "what is the origin of the world", I got in touch with the religion and art that I can get in touch with.But there are still no answers to the questions that puzzle me, sometimes to the point where I can't eat well or sleep well. In 2002, Shanghai held the "Shanghai Biennale" with the theme of "Urban Construction". I was invited to attend their seminar.At night in Xintiandi, Shanghai, chatting with some friends in a bar, I told Shu Kewen my confusion.Shu Kewen told me that there is a philosopher named Wittgenstein, whose greatest contribution is "the termination of philosophy". Don’t think about problems!” People cannot fully understand the universe because people and the universe exist in the same logic, just like people can’t see their own eyeballs, the eyeballs they see through a mirror are just projections of the eyeballs. an illusion.People can't get off the ground by pulling their hair.Don't think about problems that you don't understand!Shu Kewen also told me that a driver in his unit saw them busy all day, and always expressed in one sentence: "Blindly wasting time!" I am about to leave Shanghai, and I will get in the car and go to the airport, "I don't understand the problem Don't think about it!" "Blindly wasting time!" These two sentences echoed in my mind again and again.

At that moment, I felt that I lost my desire to exhaust all the truth, gave up the delusion of being a fully enlightened person, and returned to normal.From then on, when I look at everything in the world, I feel more awe. There are mountains outside mountains, buildings outside buildings, and there will always be unknown areas that cannot be understood.I am in awe of people, the market, emotions, art, and the future.As the sky gradually darkened, the neon lights of the Shanghai Commercial Advertisement came on, and a sentence of bold advertisements flashed before my eyes.One of the real estate advertising slogans stayed in my memory: "post-modern mansion".I woke up as if I was suffering from an illness and had a bout of madness!The words of Wittgenstein and the driver cut off the "demon" in my heart.