Chapter 10 "I" is the creator of the void

The "I" is unfulfilled, it is always empty.When you achieve something, you may have some sense of success and fulfillment, but when this feeling leaves, you return to a state of emptiness.So you start chasing the same process again, as usual. Question: If a person has no ideals, how can he realize himself? Krishnamurti: Although most of us are seeking fulfillment, is there such a thing? We seek the continuation of the "I" through our family, son, brother, wife, property, nation or group we identify with. , to realize ourselves.At different levels of consciousness, there are different forms of achievement.

Is there such a thing as achievement? What is achievement? What are we looking for or identifying with? When do you feel fulfilled? When do you seek achievement? If you think what we're saying is just words, go away! You're just wasting your time.But if you want to go deeper, then follow it carefully, because we need wisdom, not lifeless repetition of phrases, words and examples.What is needed is creation, intellectually integrated creation; and this means finding solutions directly through your understanding of psychic processes.So while listening to me, relate it directly to yourself, experience what I have to say.And with my words, you cannot experience it.You can experience it only when you are able, when you desire, when you watch your thoughts, your feelings.

When does desire get fulfilled? When do you become aware of its existence and pursue it, to fulfill it? Be mindful of yourself.when are you conscious Be aware of this desire for achievement.Then you pursue fulfillment through countless forms, sexualities, relationships with property, with trees, with everything at different levels of consciousness.This desire to be, to identify, to be fulfilled, exists only when the consciousness of "I" is empty and lonely.This desire for fulfillment is an escape from what we call loneliness.So our question is not how to achieve, or what is achievement, because there is no such thing as achievement. The "I" is unfulfilled, it is always empty.When you achieve something, you may have some sense of success and fulfillment, but when this feeling leaves, you return to a state of emptiness.So you start chasing the same process again, as usual.

Therefore, "I" is the initiator of emptiness. The "I" is the void, the "I" is the process of self-enclosing in which we are aware of great loneliness.So, notice this, we are escaping through all forms of identification.These identifications we call achievements.Actually, there is no achievement, because the mind, the "I," is unattainable. It is natural for the "I" to close itself off. So what does the mind that is aware of emptiness do? That is your problem, isn't it? For us, the pain of emptiness is very strong.We do anything to escape it.Any illusion is sufficient, and this is where illusion comes from.The mind has the ability to create illusions.As long as we don't understand loneliness, the state of self-enclosed loneliness—doing what you want to do, pursuing what you want to achieve—there will always be obstacles in the way that cannot be accomplished.

So our difficulty is to be aware of this emptiness, this loneliness.We never come face to face with it.We don't know what it is like, what its qualities are, because we are always fleeing, withdrawing, isolating, identifying.We never confront it directly, merge with it.We are the observer and the observed: that is, the mind, the 'I' - observes the emptiness, and this 'I', the thinker, then proceeds to understand itself or escape from the emptiness. So, is emptiness, loneliness, and the observer different? Isn't the observer himself empty? Because if the observer has no ability to recognize what he calls a state of loneliness, there is no experience.He is empty, he cannot affect it, he is powerless.Because if he does something, he becomes the observer to affect what he observes, which is a wrong relationship.

So, when the mind recognizes, understands, and knows it is emptiness without being able to influence it, then the emptiness we are aware of from the outside has a different meaning.So far we've approached it with observers.Now the observer himself is empty, alone, lonely.Could he do anything? Apparently, no.His relation, then, is quite different from that of the observer.He has loneliness.He is in a state where he has no words to express "I am empty."He is different from it when he verbalizes or concretizes.So, when the verbal expression stops, when the experiencer stops experiencing loneliness, when he also stops avoiding, then he is completely lonely.His relationship itself was lonely, and so was he himself, and when he understood it completely, the emptiness, the loneliness, disappeared.

Loneliness and loneliness are completely different things.Loneliness has to be transformed into loneliness.Loneliness cannot be compared with loneliness.He who understands loneliness cannot understand loneliness.Are you alone? Our hearts cannot integrate into loneliness.The processes of the mind are separate.And separation understands loneliness. But solitude is not separation.It is some rather than many, unaffected by many, not the result of many, not integrated like the mind.The mind is of the many.The mind is not a single entity, it has been integrated and reshaped over the centuries.Mind cannot exist alone.The mind cannot understand loneliness.But if you notice loneliness when you are experiencing loneliness, you will enter into loneliness.And that is immeasurable.

Unfortunately, most of us seek dependence.We want companionship, we want friends; we want separation, we want to be in a state of conflict.Solitude cannot exist in a state of conflict.But the mind absolutely cannot see this, cannot understand it, it only knows loneliness. QUESTION: You say that truth is only possible when one can be alone and love sorrow.That's not clear.Could you please explain what you call loneliness and being in love with sadness. K: Most of us are not in communication with anything.We are not communicating directly with our friends, our wives, our children.We are not communicating directly with anything.There are always obstacles - mental, imaginary and actual.And separation is clearly a cause of grief.Don't say, "Yes, we've read it, we know it verbally." If you can experience it directly, you will find that grief cannot end through any mental process.You can explain the grief, it is a psychological process, but the grief is still there, although you may have covered it up.

So, to understand sadness, you have to love it.That is, you have to communicate directly with it.If you are fully aware of something - your neighbor, your wife or any relationship - you have to be close to it.You have to approach it without any dissent, prejudice, blame or disgust, you have to look at it.If I know you, I must have no prejudice against you.I must be able to look at you without prejudice or hindrance.I have to communicate with you, which means I have to love you.Likewise, if I understand grief, I must love it, I must communicate with it.I cannot do it because I escape by explaining, theorizing, hoping, delaying, these are the processes of verbal expression.So, words prevent me from communicating with grief.Language—speech that explains, rationalizes is still words, is a mental process—prevents me from communicating directly with grief.Only when I communicate with grief can I understand it.

The next step is: am I, the observer of sadness, different from sadness? Am I, the thinker, the experiencer, different from sadness? And I am in order to do something, in order to avoid it, in order to overcome it, in order to To escape it, to reify it.Am I any different from my so-called grief? Of course not.So I am sadness - not that sadness is alone, that I am different from sadness, but that I am sadness.Then it is possible to end the grief. Sadness never ends as long as I am the watcher of it.But when I see that sadness is this "I", that the observer is itself sadness, when the mind understands that it is sadness itself - not when it is observing sadness, nor when it is feeling sadness - The creator of grief and the one who feels it, then it will end.This is very difficult to experience, mind, because we have separated it for centuries.This requires not traditional thinking, but a very vigilant, careful, and wise consciousness.This state of wisdom, of integration, is solitude.The state of integration is when the observer is the observed.And in solitude, utter solitude, when the mind does not seek anything, does not grope, neither seeks reward nor escapes punishment, when the mind is really still, only then does that which the mind cannot measure arise.

Madras February 3, 1952